#validating my emotions and remiding myself that s/h or rage quitting being alive is an extreme reaction to a minor inconvenience
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#i was trying to get my music to connect this morning and it didnt because it only ever does like half the time#and now i want to rage quite life#my phone vibrated while i was holding it and it took everything i had not to launch it into the wall#i was planning on getting dressed and doing some light cleaning or an art projecr#and now i'm just lying in the dark trying to find the balance between#validating my emotions and remiding myself that s/h or rage quitting being alive is an extreme reaction to a minor inconvenience#turns out violent intrusive thoughts can be self directed too who knew#because that's kind of the thing do i actually want to die? no not really. am i fantasizing about being covered in my own blood? yeah kinda.#fantasizing is probably the wrong word there but its what ive got#if im faced with further inconveniences om going to start tearing flesh with my teeth#if its going to be mine or someone else's depends entirely on the inconvenience#i need markers so i can start drawing on my skin before i explode#i'm fine i just feel like a homicidal toddler thats all#im not actually gonna do anything mostly because im lazy and cannot be bothered especially if it doesnt go right#so im basically fine#pmdd is a bitch and so am i#screaming into the void#messy thoughts
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