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man i dont even know whats going on in the obey me community lmao i have long since accepted jtta as the canon and the game as the fanon /lh atp i think we might have our own fandom

the obey me fandom is like a really big campsite, but we've dug our own little hole in the side of some mountain to stay in instead. we are all little mountain hermits together <3

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changed my @ from valenrien to ametrinesu trying tobe more consistent with my accounts dont forget me

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bold of you to assume we (or atleast i) dont want to read paragraphs about ik's and belphie's dynamic 😈😈

if you feel like writing that, i'd absolutely love to read about it!!! ^^

RIGHT YES this took me a hot minute but let's go!!!!

so the main points that this is all built around:

belphie is someone who is absolutely shit at understanding himself

ik is someone who has a knack for understanding anyone she talks to for long enough

belphie's first resort is usually to leave things to someone else, but easily asserts the things he wants

ik will actively pursue you if she thinks she can help, despite usually feeling guilty about requesting anything

they both have very simple views of very complicated things

building from point 1: this is not entirely belphie's fault - i've talked about this before, so i'll just paste the pertinent bits here:

belphie, as the youngest brother, has been detrimentally coddled in regards to these things, and has NO fucking idea how to properly deal with loss the others haven't tried to talk to him about his grief for lilith, nor about their experiences during the celestial war; when they all had to support each other after the fall, they comforted him, but never ever discussed the pain of it all it's like the doctor refusing to talk about your actual symptoms because they're afraid of making you uncomfortable, and instead just soothingly going "it's okay, just take some ibuprofen and see me in the morning"

belphie underestimates himself and, at the start of the year, is convinced that there's no way forward - 1. he feels he's left it too late, 2. he feels he's the only one still hung up on lilith's death, which only makes him more bitter, and 3. he thinks that the hatred and grief is just who he is now

now take ik, who finds him in the attic and takes worryingly little convincing to help him - even more concerningly, she decides to go through with it even upon finding out he was lying about his identity. this is a direct contradiction to his conviction that humanity is selfish and cruel - more than that, the more ik visits and chats with him, the more he remembers why he'd been so fascinated by humans as an angel

except it also reminds him of how much lilith loved humanity. belphie doesn't think he's capable of letting go - he doesn't think he's allowed to, and to him befriending a human and moving on is the same as betraying his sister's memory. so he represses any feelings of good-will and continues to nurse his hatred

i think it's important to note that belphie's hang-ups have always been self-destructive before this, but the more he lets his own grief fester, the more it threatens to burst. his threat to lucifer about destroying humanity is an early indicator of this, and it culminates in a moment of extreme emotional distress where it finally all implodes

so ik - in the wrong place and the wrong time (in the literal sense) - finds him in the middle of a nightmare, wakes him up, and gets murdered for her troubles

belphie shuts down immediately after, because to him this is a point of no return. he's already convinced himself that nothing can be done for him, and this is the proof. except then everyone else forgets what's happened, and, panicking, he goes along with it - out of fear of losing his family if he comes clean.

so: point 2 - consider that a big thing with ik is that she just doesn't get why belphie acts the way he does after killing her. she's been able to get into the heads of his brothers before him, and even now can somewhat rationalise them forgetting, but she has no idea why belphie - who first killed her and then acted like he'd forgotten about it - would suddenly seem so wracked with guilt upon finding him in the dreamscape

belphie does not think he is strong enough to move on. ik, somehow, intrinsically, already knows this is not true. this is why she's so bewildered by belphie telling her lilith's story. he's convinced this is some kind of damning evidence, but ik doesn't get how this explains anything. and because she doesn't understand, she seeks answers.

now take point 3 and 4. belphie does not attempt to seek forgiveness - he just sits in the cell solomon locks him in. he doesn't try to get out, he doesn't attempt to repent, and he doesn't want to, because as far as he's concerned there's nothing to be done

ik, on the other hand, is going to put her home back together by force if necessary, so she goes to find him. multiple times, she climbs up the tower stairs to rescue him from a waking nightmare - the same thing that killed her - because her family is still his family, and she knows too well what it's like when you go without.

belphie has been sitting stagnant for millennia on end, and now ik has decided that she is going to KICK him along until he figures out that he can stand on his own two feet and keep going. and it works, because for some reason digging demons out of emotional pits of their own creation is ik's specialty

and now point 5: ik and belphie fall quite easily into a typical sibling dynamic of the "i'll make fun of you constantly, but if anyone messes with you they're dead" kind. they never really sit down to talk out all the residual Baggage of everything, because neither of them are the type to overthink these things

but EVEN THEN. they may be simple-minded but the complication of the everything that led up to this means there's little hidden meanings even in the normalcy of their behaviour, and neither of them ever register it

for belphie it's "i'll never understand you. thank you for understanding me. i don't know what to say, so i'll tease you for tripping on your laces instead. i'd throw someone down a gorge if they made you cry. let's go shopping. i think i'll spend the rest of my life wondering if i can ever close the wound i tore in your soul."

for ik it's "i'll never forget what you did to me. i see you in my nightmares sometimes. thanks for waiting for me after school. quit making a show out of helping me reach the top shelf. sometimes i'm glad you regret things so much. can you help me with this homework? i think we're alright."

and for both of them it's "i like hanging out with you. sleep well. i'm glad we're home."

in conclusion,

i am crazy about things i made up entirely. perhaps i am cringe but i am free

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HELLOOO i haveng shown up in a while omg… sob… got caught up with other fixations (mainly dc and hsr-) so jtta hasnt really been on my mind but now im BACKKK!!! i started missing it so bad and to this day it’s my favorite fic ive ever read!! soooo ive started rereading it again and i like seeing the little changes hehe, i still remember some of the pre edited chapters !! also the stickers being actual stickers is so cool???? i absolutely love that!!! ^_^ (also i have to admit ive been thinking of trying to adapt the first chapter of jtta into some comic pages as a little personal art project i dunno.. 👀 although i wouldnt be starting it anytime soon since i dont really have the time sobs;;; only if this idea is okay with you btw!!) thats all i wanted to say thanks for listening!!! ^_^

wow hello again!! i've been contemplating how much i want to let myself change things in editing... i think i went a little too hard on the task chapter, but i've got a handle on it now i reckon. also the fact that you can spot edits is crazy to me..... whoa..

...okay i just spent like ten minutes trying to find that toby fox tweet that reads like "someone drew my characters..... *turns into basketball, swishes through hoop" but MY POINT BEING that i will always be super happy at the prospect of anyone making any kind of art for my stuff!! please feel free to create as you like!!! i'm always 100000% down for someone to have fun making stuff in any case

<3!!

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oh my god, glad to hear you're okay, please stay safe 😭🫶

im not that into on the aus to be able to contribute to them so i hope my hc and thoughts will do <33

levi, satan and ik are such an underrated trio tbh, i like to refer to them as the autism trio (since i hc all of them as autistic teehee)

i feel like, whenever ik and levi get into something new and start discussing the lore, making inside jokes, satan always wants to know whats going on, which leads into them roping satan into whatever they're fixated on and once they get him there's no backing out /lh

on a side note, ive been reading the girl from the other side manga and honestly i just keep thinking lucifer and ik aughhhhgffg theyre so father n daughter 🥹🥹

"autism trio" is so real, i love that for them

i reckon once they're all in on something, they're completely in sync about it for the rest of time. it could be have been MONTHS since they've actually talked about it, and they could all be in completely different parts of a crowded hall, but if someone announced something that could be construed as a reference, they will all immediately make eye contact. it's like witchcraft...

i hadn't heard of that manga before but it looks so sweet!! kind of makes me want to draw something like this some time

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oh right, i'm rereading jtta (again :3) and i noticed lucifer said there's 7 tasks she'll have to do

after the one with beel, did she still do the rest but you just didn't write them or did they decide that she doesn't need to do them anymore?? :00

diavolo figured "poor kid's gone through too much, give her a break", so she doesn't have to do the rest! she managed 4/7 - 1. forest with levi, 2. minecraft with satan, 3. petal-hunting with beel, and 4. going back in time for belphie (this one was a special case given his whole situation)

the remaining three would have been 5. hunt through the castle gardens with asmo, 6. identify a cursed record from a collection with lucifer, and 7. settling malicious ghosts with mammon

i did plan to write each of these out at some point - actually, the initial plan was for each task to be earlier in the story and serve as an opportunity for ik and the helping brother to get to know each other and bond, but i ended up setting a precedent for levi+satan that each would take up a whole chapter

and that created some pacing issues, so i figured i'd incorporate the bonding more into existing arcs and turned into a different direction once i got to beel's task! (fun fact - initially asmo's task was going to happen within his arc at the castle, but it interfered with flow of events, so i ended up cutting it)

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hello it's me vari i heard u are in need of more cat pics

i hope these shall suffice but if not that is alright too 💥

perfect!! these will be going in the stockpile immediately >:))

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haiiii its been a while since i sent a message, sorry!!! with jtta nearing its end it left an empty feeling that my jjba fixation decided to take advantage of and consume my thoughts entirely 😭 (im surprised cuz my jjba fixation has been dead for 5 years and now it suddenly came back)

the latest chapter was so sigh,,, bittersweet </33 i hate saying goodbye's buti still love the chapter though. i can't believe jtta is almost over omg

i remember when i first started reading i was younger than IK, but now im actually older than her 😭

thank you so so so much for writing journey to the attic man <33 i love this fic so much it's literally the comfort fic ever

i am very much willing to fight over the 1. jtta fan title okay that's just how much this fic means to me /lh

(on a side note, do you think levi has watched jjba? 👀)

waaa thank you!!! re: the age thing, that's mad to me - it's been three years for us, one for her... i feel like there's something timey/mathsy you could say about that, but i'm not an expert on either of those things.. i wonder if there would have been a point where you were both exactly the same age

also yes levi has definitely watched jjba, and even if he hadn't, he would as soon as ik recommends it. i think they'd both have fun with the insanity of it all, plus it gives them THAT much more inside joke material

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i was thinking,, so since ik is human, that means she's still gonna eventually die right 💔???? so,, what if,, she got reincarnated as a demon? 👀 (with the memories of when she was a human) that way she can live with her demon found family forever :))

i don't think i could handle them being apart 💔💔 /lh

(also wouldnt it be funny if she was the same size as when she was human-)

when she does die for real it lasts for all of twenty four hours and in that time the devildom just stops functioning, because nine of the most prominent members of their government have gone into very intense mourning

i imagine ik ends up at one of the entrances to the fifth circle, where new-born demons typically turn up after coming down from the nursery layer, and one of the greeter demons recognises her from some rad event and is like "YOOOOOOOOOOO"

after all the tearful reunions, ik gets back to the house of lamentation only to see that fucking everything is either draped in or painted black and she's like "guys."

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WAAA THANK YOU FOR THE BESTEST XMAS GIFT!!!!!!!

omg. im so not ready for jtta ending UGHSGGSH I CANTTTTTTTT 😭😭 god. this chapter was so. /pos

i hate goodbyes this is so EVIL. like sureee they'll still be able to see each other BUT IT'S JUST NOT THE SAMEEEE /j /lh

still looking forward to see how ik's dad will react to everything tho 😭😭

TY FOR ANOTHER LOVELY CHAPTER AGAIN!!! <33

would that they could stay together forever, but the nature of a demon-human bond is such that permanence is impossible 😔 on the upside, cross-realm shenanigans to come!!!!

you're welcome and thank you for reading!±

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i was thinking...

how would the demon bros react to IK having a crush on someone??

(asking this even tho i hc IK as aro-ace bcuz i am aro-ace /hj)

personally i have ik as asexual and demiromantic, so your hc's pretty dang close!!

to answer your question, it definitely depends on the brother - asmo is of course immediately supportive, satan, lucifer and beel more cautiously so. levi takes one look at the situation and immediately checks out (not his area, nope nope nope) but will offer advice is asked

meanwhile mammon and belphie's immediate reactions are "wtf i hate that", but mammon would generally come around pretty quick and thus knock asmo off the no.1 supporter pedestal - belphie takes a bit longer, but his eventual conclusion is "well as long as you're happy.... butidratherthisdidnthappen"

it also depends on whether or not they were already acquainted with the crush... they'd definitely be way more cautious if they didn't know them, but if they were already familiar, they'd be more willing to trust them

(the latter's more likely to happen, since anyone ik falls for, she'd have to be close to already, so she'd probably have at least introduced them to the family)

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diavolo would like my little pony me thinks

i feel like he'd appreciate the lessons at the end of each episode :3

you're so right.... he'd be mentally taking notes and everything, talks to ik about it "you know, if everyone just learnt these lessons, i'm sure it'd take much less time to reach peace between the three worlds :D"

realistically ik probably shows it to him, but i think it's so much funnier if he somehow got a hold of it himself before he even started the exchange program. one day he mentions it to ik and she's like (double-take) "YOU'VE WATCHED WHAT"

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the fnaf movie is on vumoo.to !! wanted to share this just in case you needed it :33

ah good to know, thank you!!

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HI

CAN I talk to you about jtta in dms,,?

i know you said you dont mind me sending so many asks but i'd still rather not spam u since i have so much to talk abt it /lh

i'm just so fixated on this fic i love it sm,, 😭

it's ok if u dont wanna!! dxhsjxvjsgdhs

of course!! they ought to be open, so drop me a message whenever and i'd be happy to chat ^^

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hope you don't mind me pretty much spamming your ask box lately 😭 /lh

but yeah like i said jtta is consuming my mind and it's all i've been thinking abt these days /pos

i remember when i was re-reading it a few days ago, i saw httyd get mentioned and i got so happy (i LOVE httyd 😭)

what does IK think of the movies if she has seen them??!?! 👀

also i hc satan would love toothless, since he acts like a cat sometimes and satan loves cats-

ty that's all i have for today *disappears into thin air*

no worries it's not spam at all!! i always love getting asks ^^

and heck yeah ik would love the movies!! anything with cool dragons has always been a shoe-in for her, so you'd have been likely to find her watching them whenever she got bored at home when she was younger

ik has a toothless plushie from aunt lisa and every time he visits her house satan always finds and sits there holding it the entire time. he only refrains from just taking it home with him because he knows ik would get upset (she gets him his own at some point and he nearly cries)

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atm i have nothing to say other than live laugh love jtta

this fic has consumed my mind /pos

heheehe i shall print the sentiment and it will be my first housewarming decoration once the housing market crashes enough for me to afford a flat that isn't nearly two hours away from my job