#v: prized weapon v2

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ANGSTY QUESTION PROMPTS

@wanderingxmaple asked: ❛  are you sure you’re gonna be okay on your own?  ❜

A part of him insisted that he wanted to be alone for a while. He was fine with being alone before having gone through all that hellhole back in Snezhnaya. He didn't want to burden the other with his own issues, so he mentions to the other that he would be fine.

"I'll be alright. I'm just going to be outside." Despite having a blank to stoic expression these days, there was perhaps an obvious hint of sadness and fear in his eyes that someone very close to him like Itto and Kazuha would be able to tell that he hasn't been all that well.

"What's there to worry about?"

Was there anything to worry about if Hyousuke was only going out to the porch to look at the snowy scenery? He wasn't planning on going anywhere. At least not for a while.

On second thought however...

"Kazuha..."

Hyousuke hesitated to speak again, even hesitated to lay a single finger on his only friend.

...Are they really friends though? Hyousuke could hardly remember all the precious times he's had with is beloved family, Kazuha, and Itto after being captured, used, tortured, and abused in Dottore's lab.

"...It's nothing." He spoke once more, hesitating to express the fact that he didn't want to be alone anymore. Not now at least. Part of him also wanted to apologize for burdening his friend, but he couldn't find it in himself to speak such emotions again without the fear of getting abused again.

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send  “  who  did  this  to  you  ?  ”  for  the  sender  to  find  the  receiver  injured  and  demand  to  know  who  did  it.

@wanderingxmaple asked: “  who  did  this  to  you  ?  “

The 'inhuman object' knew very well who in the world had left him both mental and physical scars. The more he was tortured and tormented, the more he was so vulnerable and practically lost himself and though despite actually being a mere human, he was The Doctor's prized weapon, and Hyousuke believed that he had no one but The Doctor to turn to. Hyousuke's memories of who he truly is were nearly erased from having been constantly brainwashed and tortured to having him be in such a vulnerable state.

Later on after being rescued by Kazuha and Itto, he was taken back to Yashiori Island and was in the care of both his bestfriend and uncle-figure there for the time-being. He started to wonder how they even found such a 'filthy thing' to eventually rust away in the first place. Everytime Hyousuke looked upon his reflection, all he could see was the 'monster' he had turned into. He could hardly smile anymore, his skin had become so pale, his hair had turned platinum-silver, his blinded eye that was constantly being replaced was no more from him removing it himself, and the scar across his chest was there, not only from the musou no hitotachi but from having removed the anemo delusion that was implanted into him. The more he looked at himself, the more he wanted to just punch anything where he could see himself, and he did. He broke the mirror with his bare fist, soon leaving it to bleed, and he fell onto his knees, burying his face onto his palms and cried.

Once Kazuha came by and Hyousuke was still in his vulnerable state, he was taken back to his room, having Kazuha by his side. While Hyousuke's bloodied fist was being tended to, he already knew Kazuha wasn't only focusing on the bloodied fist he was tending to. Hyousuke didn't face him, but he glanced over at him with his eye and soon swiped his hand away from his whether Kazuha was done tending to his bloodied fist or not.

"Stop. Just... stop. It's obvious I did this to myself." Hyousuke spoke so quietly and coldly. But... the bloodied fist wasn't exactly what Kazuha was wondering about or trying to look at, was he? "I did this myself. Everything you see." His silver-platinum hair, his missing eye, the scars all over his body...

"Just stop caring for me. I'm just going to rust away sooner or later now. So... stop... Stop looking my way..."