#v beautiful soothing moving etc. I love it tbh. but it's not the same. and ik it's not supposed to be. but. its just not

[v-iv-rusty]

results are in no d/s/3's ending theme did not make me feel the way 2 and 1's did. definitely makes me feel some kind of way for sure, and I do mean this in a good way. but it's drastically different from the last 2 in a way that....fits the tone and story well? but in a way that makes me think the tone and story should have been completely uprooted and overhauled. maybe. I'm not sure how but maybe.

and maybe it just didnt have the same weight to me bc I was not as immersed/invested. good song but it doesnt make me stare at the wall without a thought in my head which is obviously the best criteria by which to judge things. idk. it is almost 6 in the morning I have not slept and I have absolutely no idea how to parse through how I feel abt this game

[lolbtsaus]

Namjoon’s Affection

Before I start this, I wanna say a h u g e thank you for 4,700 followers!!!! I can’t believe I just actually typed that number out I’m so so so grateful to all of you and I hope all of you are just having really good days/nights/whatever time you’re reading this at!! Onto our amazing leader, my lowkey spirit animal who is so lovable and cute and tiny even though he’s not actually tiny he’s tiny in my heart bc he’s so sweet and precious and I wanna protect him, Kim Namjoon aka Rap Monster aka joon

Just a quick explanation of this since it’s pretty self explanatory, this is just gonna be a post about I think the boys would cuddle/hug, their PDA levels, etc.

An actual flirt

It doesn’t matter how long you two have been together, he’s gonna flirt he could be an old man and still be winking at you when he walks by

“Lemme get that number”

“We’ve been dating for four years”

He’s not gonna be overly affectionate like he’s not gonna be hanging off of you 24/7 but he’s definitely gonna have his moments where he wants all the affection

He l o v e s it when you initiate the affection but Namjoon is a flirty person when he wants to be so he doesn’t have any issue being the one to grab your hand first so he’s really okay with both options

Calls you every pet name in the book but babe and baby are his favorites (have you ever heard Namjoon say baby bc it’s actually real cute)

SO MANY COUPLE SELFIES

Kim Dailys, selfies, pictures of you taken by him, pictures of him taken by you just all the photos

Your biggest supporter tbh like he’s forever encouraging you to just do whatever you wanna do, if you wanna wear an all pink outfit, go wear an all pink outfit, you wanna grow your hair out or you wanna cut it short, you go for it, Namjoon is all about self-expression and being yourself and supporting the things you believe in

Forever making you laugh tbh he’ll sing randomly and he’ll sing off key on purpose just to make you smiley

Likes to squish your cheeks or sometimes pinch them

Thinks you’re the cut e s t, is forever smiling at you and giggling his cute lil giggle but also knows when to be serious

He would be s o good to talk to side note, he’s so smart and he's so mature for his age but still has his childish side so you could talk to him about serious things but then you could also talk to him about Spongebob theories

Pillow talking with joon would be a nightly occurrence but how long it lasts depends on his day and yours

If he’s had a really long day and he’s really tired, it’s gonna be hard to stay away once his head is on that pillow and he’s under all of the blankets and he has you in his arms and he’s just so warm like how is he supposed to stay awake

But at the same time he lo v es pillow talk so much it’s one of his favorite parts of the day and he loves hearing about what you did that day and he loves telling you about what he did, his new music he’s working on, a new song he started that he’s really excited about

It always happens while you two are cuddling

He likes being able to hold you so really any cuddle position that will allow that is a okay with him

A big spoon situation, your head on his chest, his on yours, those are his top three

He’s of course not gonna be upset if he doesn’t get to sleep in one of those three bc cuddling is still cuddling but he definitely likes it a lot more when he’s able to have his arm around you and be able to pull you closer or kiss your forehead or shoulder or cheek (wherever he can reach really)

GIVES SUCH WAR M HU G S

Namjoon is pretty much a giant teddy bear like when you first see him and you watch him on stage he looks so badass and confident and it’s like well shi t but then you see him off stage and he’s so smol he’s so giggly and goofy and he’s the pure definition of giant teddy bear

A big fan of the back hug

He loves (l o v e s) how sometimes he’ll be doing something, making music, getting ready for the day, just relaxing and playing on his phone and then he’ll feel your arms go around him and your head on his shoulder or his back, he always has to smile and those beautiful dimples make an appearance every time

But he always really loves being able to do the same thing to you and surprise you with a back hug and let his chin rest on top of your head or your shoulder (depending on height differences) and give you a lil squeeze just to say hi bc he’s curious about what you’re doing

Idk what it is about joon but he just looks like so much fun to hug/cuddle, he looks so cuddly and sweet and he’s definitely a hair stroker he likes playing with your hair when you hug and depending on the mood, he’ll either mess it up to annoy you (that’s a more playful hug) or he’d be stroking it really gently and it’s so soothing and you could hug him forever

Namjoon would totally leave behind a couple of his favorite hoodies for you when he goes on tour and they all smell like his cologne and sometimes when you miss his hugs, you’ll wear them bc his hugs are just as warm and comfy

He does like holding hands but as I’ll talk about in the PDA bit, he prefers having his arm over your shoulders but he doesn’t mind some hand holding

He normally does it when you two are sitting down or when you’re talking to each other and you’re sitting really close to each other and his eyes are focused on you and they have that really soft in love look

He’s more likely to just hold your hand in his but he’s not gonna complain if you decide to interlock your fingers with his

As you’re talking, he’ll give the back of your hand lil kisses as a silent “I’m listening keep going”

He likes kissing your forehead or the top of your head (even if it requires getting onto the tips of his toes to do it) cheek kisses are pretty frequent as well though

The cheek kisses are more frequent in public and they’re very common when you’ve done something he finds cute or when he’s just feeling affectionate and wants to say “I love you” in a cute way while the forehead kisses are more frequent in private

Forehead kisses are his greeting kisses, like when he comes home or you get home, they’re the goodbye kisses when one of you leaves, they’re the “I just walked in a room you’re in and wanted to say hi” kisses

His lips are s o nice have you ever just admired the fact that his lips are so full and they look so soft honestly just fuck me up

He’s more of a meaningful kiss type of person but he does love the playful kisses too bc they make you happy and they make him happy and you really can’t help but smile 

But he really really really loves being able to put all of his love into a kiss and being able to put all the emotions he can’t find words for into it and knowing that you love him just as much, he just really loves all of it

He always has to move your fringe out of your face before he does it, he’s always gotta end it with a quick, soft lil kiss, he’s always gotta hold onto the back of your neck to pull you closer

But his playful kisses are really cute too, they’re much lighter, they’ve still got a lot of love in them but their purpose is more to make you smile or laugh and to cheer you up

Onto PDA levels

Arm over your shoulders always a l w a y s

Hand holding is cute and all, it makes him smile but there’s just something about being able to have his arm over your shoulders and have you super close to him and being able to know you’re right there is just wow he loves it

This isn’t even a head canon, joon is forever putting his arm around people and it’s so fucking cute and endearing what a sweetheart

He’s not very shy about PDA, he’s not an extremely shy person in general but he does have his moments

He’s not gonna wanna be making out in public but he’s okay with a couple kisses here and there, more of a “peck” rather than a kiss (I’m really tempted to make a reference to his whole thing about why a kiss is a kiss but I’m not gonna)

Bonus if you surprise him with a kiss bc then he gets all flustered and giggly and :D

Probably really loves matching themed outfits, so like both of you wearing an all black outfit or both of you going for a certain look just bc aesthetic as fuCK

Affection with Namjoon is v v loving and warm and it always makes both of you really happy

[twruniversity-blog]

Accepted Sweden!

There’s so many people enrolling in the School of Science, it’s wonderful! It must be the largest school in the entire University by now.

Thank you, thank you so much for your application! Please make sure you move in within the next three days! Oh- and by the way, thank you!

OOC;

Name: jean

Age: 19

Pronouns: they/them, their highness

Activity: 7

Contact: douleurexqvise @ the website of tumbles

Ships for Muse: ANYTHING A ND E VERYT HING but probs gonna do sufin with felix (please help he keeps adding these things to my application and i want to die)

Timezone: est

Triggers/Sensitive Subjects: nothing that i know of :v

Any Concerns?: tbh this app sucks and please forgive me for being trash lmAO but yes welcome to my shitty writing skills i hope u enjoy the ride

IC;

Character: Sweden

Full Name / Preferred Name: Berwald Oxenstierna

Age: 24

Birthday: June 6th

Gender: Cis-male

Pronouns: He/Him

Housing: Whio Lodge (shared??? do i even choose l m ao kill me)

Pets: na h

IC - In Depth;

Magical Branches: N/A

Ahurei (Unique Ability): Health Manipulation (he can essentially speed up/slow down the healing process, or in very small cases fully heal/open wounds and such- the only drawback is that in return he also feels the victim’s pain :v)

Major/s: Biomedical Science, Chemistry, and Biology

Minor/s: Healing

Type of Degree: Doctorate

Clubs: Meme Supreme (he’s just there to ensure kristen doesn’t die)

Appearance:

Berwald is a stoic young man, who doesn’t really seem to care much about the latest trends anymore. He’s 6’1, as he towers over almost everyone at school. His expressions never seem to falter, and are usually kept in the same monotone state. His shoulders are quite wide, and built from years of hardship and caring for his mother. All his friends say that his eyes are some shade of green, while he thinks it’s a sort of murky blue. His fashion taste is rather vintage, as he rarely uses social media and couldn’t care less about what colours are in season and what trends are happening at the moment.

You can often see that his hands are covered in calluses and blisters, his skin cracked and rough from working a bit too much. Berwald rarely complains about this though, and even if you plead with him he’ll keep on working anyways. His blond hair is usually messy, as he never takes the time to thoroughly come it back or keep it tidy. No one seems to notice though, so he’s eventually grown used to keeping his hair like it (much to his mother’s dismay.) Being born in a relatively cold area with little to no sunlight, his skin is quite pale (this reminds him a bit about the teenage vampire novels girls in his primary school would use to read.)

Headcanons:

Is a total wizard when it comes to knitting (or doing anything that requires a ball of yarn and a pair of knitting needles), courtesy of his loving mother.

Despite looking like he plots homicide every few seconds, Berwald is actually a huge dork, that has a huge soft spot for cute looking things and anything smaller than his hand (he’s also pretty playful too.)

He’s a sucker for nicknames. “Sweetie”, “Honey”, they’ll all make him melt.

During his childhood, he would always watch his mother try on pretty dresses of different shades of blue, giving him a sort of aptitude for dark blue colours and a more feminine way of thinking (even if he doesn’t really look like it.)

He also likes carving little miniature animals out of wood, and has nicknames for all of them. They are his children. Do not touch them without his permission.

During his primary school years his mother urged him to learn some self defense skills, which is why he has some knowledge in swords and fencing (and he’s actually quite good at it.)

To be honest his whole dorm room looks like an IKEA catalogue.

He prefers indirectly speaking (texting, writing letters, etc.) than physical, because he thinks that he can express his feelings better without thinking about the situation. Hence why he’s so into video games.

His favourite flower is the Forget-Me-Not, not only because of the name but how delicate they seem.

Is COD buddies with Timo, even though he still doesn’t know how to reload.

Personality:

Berwald is someone you can’t really get a grasp on after a few days of knowing them. Some people say he’s capricious, but he really isn’t. It takes time for him to open up he guesses. It’s not like he doesn’t like anyone, or is anti-social. It’s just in his nature, and how he was raised. He doesn’t mind people trying to annoy talk to him, but he’d rather read a book and drink some warm coffee instead. Because of this, he does manage to give off an unlikely aura, which many people seem to be afraid of or dislike. Curse his unchanging expressions.

It’s once you spend a little bit more time with him, he opens up. You have to be a committed friend to really know this side of him. He’s huge on the idea of love, and everything in his mind could and can be romanticized. Despite this, apparently he’s super good with kids, knowing just how to make them smile and giving into their pleading tendencies. He’s just a huge kid himself, after all.

If you’re having any problems, he’ll be sure to sit by you and listen to everything you say, and try his best to comfort you and lend a shoulder. It’s just in his nature.

Strengths:

Keeping calm in stressful situations

Being the most relaxed dude on earth

Overall perseverance

BEING HECKA TALL

Creativity

Weaknesses:

Drawback to his magical ability

A bit sensitive at some times

Doesn’t really understand how to express his emotions

Silent type

Can’t lie (or fail miserably)

Backstory:

Growing up in the Swedish countryside, there wasn’t anything special about Berwald’s childhood. Sure, there were plenty of cows and sheep and whatnot, but that was essentially it. His father had passed away quite a number of years ago after he had moved out of the city, and he could barely remember anything about him. He’d always hear from his mother that he was a spitting image of his father, from his eyes to the tips of his toes. Berwald dismissed these thoughts, though he didn’t want to see his mother disappointed. After all, he had great respect for her, and looked up to her more than anyone. Perhaps he was more disappointed in his father for leaving them, thought he knew it really wasn’t in his control.

Day after day from herding and milking cows, Berwald would waltz inside to his mother baking or knitting, humming a small tune from the mid 90’s. He would then continue to help clear the dishes, set the table, or any chores that his mother hoped he would do. The thing Berwald dreaded the most was school. For the first half of his life, he went to the small churchhouse down the road that also doubled as a school. It seemed that his whole town was stuck in the late 19th century. The kids there were rude, noisy, and a bit too much for him. After a while his mother reluctantly volunteered to homeschool him, and sooner or later he excelled. He was accepted into a prestigious secondary school in Stockholm, where he moved to only a few days after hearing this announcement.

Making friends never seemed to be Berwald’s strong point, as he always sat alone during class and never usually partnered up during projects. Sometimes his roommate would speak a word or two to him, but that was it. Here Berwald found solitude in the world of video games. He loved them. It gave him a chance to speak his mind without having to think too much or any chance for panic.

Disease soon struck his hometown, as he found out during the middle of his final exams that his mother had passed away. For a while, Berwald refused to talk to anyone. Sure, he was saddened, and couldn’t help but feel the huge hole in heart, but something else bothered him. Why didn’t he grieve? No tears escaped his eyes, but just desperate, silent and mental pleas for him to wake up from his nightmare. His own guilt drove him to leave the school, but soon realized his mistake and ended up entering back in for his mother.

[kill me]

Sample RP:

As soon as Berwald wakes up, his hands are shaking. His body is a mess, his mind covered by grey clouds that he can’t seem to clear. Everything is spiraling out of his control. He looks up at the miniature clock situated between two paintings in the middle of his bedroom. Is it really so late? He tells himself to go back to sleep. No, his mind urges him. Go outside. Feel the cool air on your skin. Taste the freedom that was never yours. Experience what only a few have ever gotten the chance to experience. It’s almost like he’s being hypnotized, his soothing conscious prying and playing with him.

Before he knows it he’s slipping on a light t-shirt, ruined from age and using an abundance of baking soda. Berwald bites down hard on his inner cheek. The metallic taste of blood is there. He touches the inside of his mouth. There’s nothing. He blinks a few times before scuffling down flights of stairs, hastily buttoning the worn down jeans he grabbed from his closet. A small push of the door and he’s outside, just like that.

Perhaps his conscious is right- as the cold air bites his exposed skin, sending goosebumps to every inch of his body. The sensation is frightening, yet somehow so fantastical that it’s almost like it’s worth it. Berwald runs his hand through his disheveled hair, breathing out harshly so that he can see it rise up into the air. Is this what freedom truly feels like? Everything he’s longed and fought for- is this it? The stars that reign above look so beautiful, he decides. Have they ever shone like this before? Maybe he’s just never taken the time to realize, maybe he’s right.

After spending a few minutes in the cold winter night, he decides it would be best if he didn’t get hypothermia, and slowly walks back inside. He puts his hand on the glass door, a new sort of sensation reveling up his body. He’s more aware now. Berwald can feel it. Before he goes back to sleep, he sets his glasses on a table in front of the paintings. He looks up at the clock, curious on how long he truly spent out there. What’s this? The time hasn’t changed. The hour and minute hands are still stuck on what they were before. Damn. Berwald reminds himself to fix it when he wakes up, and tumbles back onto his bed and falls asleep.