#v { squip }; home you made me | squip 'pip' heere

[acemenagerie-a]

(( thinking abt squip in a t.ma verse and like, the thing is that entities super fuck up modern instruments of recording so i can only imagine the entire squip network knows that something’s out there from the weird gaps in their perception but has absolutely no way of pinpointing exactly what

so like, & im definitely using pip bc i have to, pip’s first response to an entity encounter would probably be something like ‘oh so you’re what fucked up all our predictions!’ just ‘well im angry but glad i solved that mystery and oh yeah i am mortal so perhaps i should start running huh’

pip’s biggest fears would be the flesh and the lonely.  absolutely hates having a body, no thank you, and hates the loss of network and connection even more

also

pip vc: i do not vibe with hurting humanity in any capacity but like the eye and the vast kinda went off with the aesthetics ))

[acemenagerie-a]

"Jeremy has died" for Pip >:3c

Permanent Goodbyes || ACCEPTING

The world explodes into silence. Pip cannot even hear its own thoughts over the insatiable quiet. It cannot feel the ground beneath its feet, cannot feel the heart in its chest, cannot feel the breath in its lungs.

There is nothing.

In a snap, everything floods back at once. It feels air barely ghost the inside of its lungs before being forced out. Blood roars in its ears. The ground quivers beneath its soles. 

“I have to help mom and dad…. I… goodbye.” It hears the words come from some distant place.

[acemenagerie-a]

Pip, can you still "get" what Jeremy's thinking pretty well? Or is it hard not being able to literally read his thoughts?

“I can intuit Jeremy’s emotions and thoughts much better than I can other people’s; even if I didn’t physically see his ticks as a squip, I was still aware of them.”

It looks down, wringing its hands together. “It’s still hard to not know exactly what he’s thinking, though. And I can’t tell how other people are feeling very well anymore either. As a squip, I could easily reference probabilities and social tendencies, but now….”

[acemenagerie-a]

(( thinking abt it... Pip & Crowley talking abt space would probably be the cutest shit ever

‘what a cool triple star system!’  ‘i made that one’  ‘:O!!!!’ 

conversely all the miracles and armageddon shenanigans as a whole just have the squips as a whole just ‘*stares directly into the camera*’ ))

[acemenagerie-a]

"Makes you feel" what?

“I just don’t like it!” Pip returns with a glare, before squeezing its own hands and looking away with a wince.

If it’s doing nothing then it feels useless. And maybe humans aren’t supposed to be judged by how useful they are and maybe all the Heeres have told it thousands of times that it doesn’t have to be useful, but that doesn’t change how much it still hates feeling useless.

If it is sitting in complete and total silence then it feels alone. The network was never quiet, never for a single moment. There was always the buzz of data transfer, of new squips checking to make sure they were aligned with the correct universe or squips prodding the network for news that might aid a user. Silence would’ve meant that something was disastrously wrong.

So why would it willingly open itself up to feeling both entirely useless and utterly alone at the same time?

[acemenagerie-a]

"Hey Pip, what're you up tooooooooo," Jeremy takes another look at what's on the computer screen. "That's not *your* Facebook page. What are you doing, and is it related to how Terrence started loudly quoting weird shit I've said in the cafeteria today."

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” It certainly isn’t exacting some kind of cyberspace related revenge plot. No. Never. It? Use technology to scare someone who insulted Jeremy? Never.

“I’m just… doing a little spring cleaning, as it were. Nothing to worry about, Jeremy. I’ll be done in a minute.”

[acemenagerie-a]

(( I feel like I should clarify that like Pip understands sarcasm and is capable of recognizing a joke. It’s just... not terribly good at that over text. It also has a deeply rooted fear of failing people and so all those factors together make it somewhat prone to taking jokes a bit literally ‘just in case.’

Also Christine just fills it with Big Anxiety anyway. It is simultaneously always trying to avoid Christine because Guilt and being reminded of the Play and how it Fucked Up while also, if they are forced into the same room, being 100% willing to bend over backwards for her in a pretty irrational attempt to keep her from hating it. ))

[acemenagerie-a]

The time is now 1:35 pm

Pip looks at its phone, where it has pulled up an atomic clock online because of course it did. So there’s two minutes and now thirty seconds left until it is supposed to meet Christine. 

It waits a bit longer before stepping into the library, nerves alight as it glances around for Christine while also keeping an eye on the time.

At exactly 13:37:41 atomic time, Pip stands before Christine and waves. “Hey, how’s it going?”

[acemenagerie-a]

Pip, if you had the chance to make a wish, what would you wish for?

“To have access to the network again. I want the knowledge and noise back, but becoming a squip again whole-cloth and leaving the Heeres would make them sad.” And it would make me sad too.

[acemenagerie-a]

(( pip modifying an old phone to work better or with the most recent os bc it is Like That and jeremy just ‘oh i didnt think that phone could use that app. huh.’ and pip just ‘normally it couldn’t but i helped it c:’ ))

[acemenagerie-a]

🥇 a supportive text. ((from Pip to Jeremy?))

Call Me, Beep Me || ACCEPTING

[ ✉ ➡ Jeremy ] You’ve got this jeremy! You’ve rehearsed and worked hard these past weeks and i know you’ll do great! Mom, dad, and i will be in the audience supporting you the whole time!

[acemenagerie-a]

Pip, have you tried mindfulness meditation? Maybe it would be good for getting some of that "full awareness of surroundings" feeling

“And sit in complete and utter silence with nothing going on? My only stimulation being my own breathing?” Pip already looks stressed just thinking about this hypothetical.

“I can’t do nothing; it’s stressful and makes me feel…. I don’t like it.”

[acemenagerie-a]

Pip, do you partially blame Incubators for the bad calibrations that partially led to disaster as a Squip?

“I won’t say they helped.” Pip practically grinds out before deflating. “… But most of the blame does still lay on me. Hard calibrations don’t mean impossible calibrations, after all. And bad calibrations don’t excuse horrible advice.”

[acemenagerie-a]

jeremy: 👀

“NO JEREMY.”

[acemenagerie-a]

*Do* you think you're hurting Jeremy, like Rich said?

Pip glances down, gripping the hem of its hoodie. “… Sometimes. I know I have hurt Jeremy; I’ve given him terrible advice that got people hurt and ruined his life. And now I’m… pretty helpless; I don’t know the things a normal human would know and I worry him and the Heeres and…”

[acemenagerie-a]

Pip, ever gonna tell anyone besides the Heeres what you really are?

“Probably not; no one would believe me. And it might just cause trouble for the Heeres….”