#uuu my sad angel

[vampzmeel]

oh sammy,,, i feel so bad for her , cry...

[lotusmi]

Hey Lotus, how are you and did you sleep well ?

I was going to send the part II of my results but before that, i got something today too. My bf and i had an argument and i have bpd and was triggered and accidently had a splitting episode and i was really mean. It never happened before, i always catch myself or scream in a pillow but this time, i was overstimulated and got crazy but anyways. He hang up and told me that he want to be alone for a few days and i felt so bad, i apolagized but i understood him wanting to be alone because .. it was my fault,frankly. I still didn't want to be without him for a few days, we talk every days, hours, minutes, seconds. The only time we don't talk is if we're working and that's it, and even then, he call me when he's on a break. I listened to this on repeat https://youtu.be/XLBxk77YSH0 (don't get scared by the title, everything is desired,i don't want him to be batshit crazy over me, obviously). While listening to this i kept saying his name for an hour and, i knew that saying his name to me meant that he was going to call, ask to talk to me and not being able to be away from me and i got a call from him, asking me how i was, that's all he asked but i kept saying his name and I KNEW that he was going to ask to talk. 30 minutes after, he sent me a message asking me to talk and call ! I wish i could share the pics of him asking to talk but we are talking on snap since .. we live in two different countries so calls taxes a lot and i don't want him to see that i took a screenshot lmao

I also try my best to live in my imagination and imagined him being sad and saying that he had to call and him calling me ..... he said exactly what i imagined too ! it was my first time doing that too because i never did that before .. let's say i never felt like i was good or could do it but, I'm on a path to removing and clearing these limiting beliefs ! We're on the phone now tho so I'll go !!!!

Hi, angel!! I am sorry for the late reply :(

No but I am so happy for you two!! I am sure he loves you sm! And this sub looks great woow 💗💗congratssss, you are so powerful baby 😭 And the way he said exxactly what you imagined babee!!!! i am so happy for uuu aaaa!!!

[frogboyandzombieface]

Hey !!! I heard your bored , so am I :) I have a few questions for you , you can answer them if you want <3 ( I‘ll only ask stranger things questions I hope that’s ok )

Favorite season ?

Favorite characters ?

A scene you want to see in season 4 ?

Is Mike gay or Bi ( or straight ) ?

What season 4 storyline are you most excited to see ?

Favorite ships ?

Favorite quote?

Least favorite character ?

Least favorite ship ?

I can’t think of more questions right now lol sorry 🙈. Have a great day and stay safe!! 💗

HIII OH YM GOD THANK YOU!??? I LOVE YOU???? DHDHDHS 😭i did NOT expect to get this many ... yes of course it's totally fine non !! (that's my nickname for anons lolol) THANK UUU ok here we go

favourite season?

SEASON TWOOO BAYBEEEE i just LOVE THAT motherfucker . it's got the BEST 80's vibes and awesome soundtrack and THE BYLER!!!!😭😭😭😭and also MAX AND STEVE AND ALSO I LOVE PUNK EL I KNOW THAT THAT PART OF THE STORYLINE IS CONTROVERSIAL AND I AGREE IT HAS SOME ISSUES BUT I LOVE PUNK EL OKAY and i love her exploring her darker side and using her powers to get revenge but she too much of a sweetie to be like kali. she's an angel. i love el . adore her <3333 and the colour palettes and the scenes and GAH!! i just love season 2 okay. though season 1 is SUUUPER close because holy fuck that one is so beautiful and emotional especially with joyce and will being missing and learning about hoppers past and GOD !!!! just fuckign great. And I LOVE THE LITTLE KIDS THEYRE SO CUTE ! AND SO MUCH FUN!!! god i love it . season 2's my fav but s1 is So So close by like a sliver ...

favourite characters?

MAX . ROBIN. UHH WILL. DUSTIN. MIKE. uM .... csnt fucking decide oKAY 3)33&28/8922 i love them all!!! they're all my blorbos and i adore them with every bit of my tiny little pathetic gay heart !!!?2! THOUGH.... my fav FAVs are max will and robin. im not gonna chose they're all at the same level i love em thoigh robin maybe just a tiny bit less because we don't know as much about her yet , i get more attached the more we learn though i guarantee that when season 4 comes out and we get a bit more robin stuff (hopefully)... she will definitely be with max and will. I just love them. though I LOVE DUSTIN AND MIKE TOOO!!!! dustin is such a great character he's been such an awesome staple and the show definitely would be bad as hell without him. and i love mike because i LOVE HIS FUCKING STORY AND HIS CHARACYER ARc he's just my pathetic little sad gay repressed homosexual. this is probably not making sense im so sorry😭

a scene you want to see in season 4?

GOD. anything. i just want to see A SCENE . i am so desperate for content that i will literally take anYYYTHINGZZZ ... though we have gotten some new shit lately in the lead up to s4 but it's been like what?? 3 years since we've had new stuff ? or is it 4? no it's gotta be 3 .. im terrible ag maths. but tbh i reALLY REALLY want to see ronance content , el discovering herself and like finding more things she's happy about specifically a hobby, i really want her to have an interest in something because she's had like . literally NOTHING except like all her trauma or just interest in like . mike. lIKE WHAT DOES SHE LOVE OTHER THAN THAT?? can she paint? will she write ? like give me a hobby pls!!! 💀as max says there's more to life than stupid boys please let her flourish as an individual . but like dude .. there as so many scenes i wanna see and this is So long already and i think i will leave it there before i go on an incomprehensible annoying ass tangent thank u

is mike gay bi or straight ?

ohhhkay so this discourse i been seeing a lot lately . ummm ima be dead honest he seems to be more queercoded as gay rather than bisexual like .. he throws himself into a relationship with el and like yes he does show genuine interest at first and like im going off the top of my head but basically just read @beepboop358 's byler proof google slides. that will summarise my whole opinion on the whole thing tbh. BUT !! im not opposed to him being bi!!! we have no idea at this standpoint guys rememebr that ! mike has a long way to go in terms of accepting himself and coming to terms and discovery etc let's just see what the duffers are gonna do with it !!! :)) so im gonna say it can be either one but i am leaning slightly towards gay because of all the subtext .

what season 4 storyline r u most excited to see ?

ALL OF THEM !!!! literally all of them. god im so so fuckimg exicted we're gonna get CONTENT BAYBEEEE i been watching the same 3 seasons for what feels like a goddamn lifetime like PLS.. ima be a bit basic and say the pizza gang mainly because i wanna see byler develop (and it looks like they're really leaning into it now !! HOLY SHIT FHDHDJDJB!!!!! i been shipping them since 2017 and ppl thought it was like a crack ship my god we've come so far .. ) though also very excited to see the older teens storyline especially with eddie seeing what kinda character he is !!

favourite ships ?

ummm obviously byler 😭😭😭😭and also elmax GOD elmax ... and also lumax !!! fucking love them. but also ronance and stoncy and also byclair and henclair .... like so much. i love em all. AND HENDERHOP very cute <3 and hopclair!!! i just love them ALL and also steveddie even though we barely have any content yet but i have a feeling it's gonna be really fun :))

favourite quote ?

mmm this is a good question honestly !!! i really like jonathan's quote "you shouldn't like things just cause people tell you you're supposed to" i love that honestly . makes me very happy :)) but like .. also hoppers letter at the end of s3??? it just gets to my heart in a way i can't explain... like damn. i remembr first time i watched it i CRIED my eyes out like jesus but also. half the quotes from season 1 i love 'em . so many iconic bits in that season

least favourite character ?

lonnie and brenner . those cunts can go rot in hell 🥰

least favourite ship?

umm i don't know to be honest. i don't have a ship that i hate , well actually h*rringrove i DESPISE they can fuck off .. hate the billy / karen thing years are taken off my life ever time im forced to see it..

i don't like j*pper very much (but only season 3, im not about to get into it rn i cant be fucked though i don't hate it) j*ncy is eh and m*leven . i don't hate melvin but i don't think they right for each other same with j*ncy. but otherwise idk i don't hate that many ships .. there's not that many that get under my skin except i don't prefer it if they don't really have chemistry or have issues though not saying relationships can't ever have issues that's unrealistic ,

and ITS OKAY THATS PLENTLY OF QUESTIONS FJDJDJ and i hope u like my annoying long ass answers becaude i have so much shit to say !!! I HOPE YOU HAGE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT TOO ANON THANK U I LOVE U <3333

[shittylongcatposts]

OMGOMG okay — I haven’t asked for hcs in a while, so I hope I’m doing this right. HC where Jumin gives MC (she/her) a kiss before going to work, and she’s still in bed. Uuu I hope this is the right format!

hnnnnggggg!!1! @mrs-han thank you so much!!!^^ I actually squeaked when i saw your request! >.< you’re such a cutie :3c  I really hope you’ll like this one.

Kisses in the morning

Ever since he was a young boy, Jumin had always been an early bird. As soon as the sun rose, he woke up too. Sometimes even an hour before his actual alarm would go off.

Today being such a day again, he carefully turned off the alarm and turned around again to look at the wonderful woman sleeping right next to him.

She looked so beautiful and innocent in her deep slumber. The rays of sunshine played with the features of her face, he felt like his heart was about to melt like ice in the spring.  

With a smile on his face Jumin leaned onto his elbow and reached out with the other hand to softly tuck the strands of hair that seemed to tickle her face behind her ear. It was so cute to see Mc with her disheveled hair and all the curly strands that kept falling out of the small bun she made before they were going to bed last night. 

He let out an angelic chuckle and grinned again. 

what a cutie. 

It always calmed him down when he got the chance to look at her like that, the steadiness of her breathing and her warm smile took away all the stress and untangle all the threads inside his mind on an instant 

Next to her Elizabeth the 3rd began to purr. She was cuddled up against Mc, who unconsciously stroked her soft fur. 

Both of his princesses lying on his bed cuddling together -  That’s the most wonderful thing in the world if you ask Jumin.

Jumin looked over to the clock.

Oh boy. How long did he watch her? It was nearly time for him to leave for work. 

He rose to his feet quickly and took an even quicker shower. 

After enjoying a small cup of coffee he took the newspaper and hurried his eyes over the headlines. The young man looked at his watch again. Only a few minutes before Driver Kim would arrive to pick him up

When he opened the door to the bedroom again Elizabeth the 3rd meowed to greet him. 

“Shhhh princess, Mc is still sleeping, we don’t want to wake her up, right?”

“Mrow”

“That’s right, my dear.” He said and patted her head. 

Jumin leaned down to place a soft kiss on Mcs pink lips. And another, and another. 

“I hope you’ll have an amazing day, my love. It’s so sad you can’t see yourself right now, even though you would just say you’re looking horrible, but i think you’re one of the most beautiful things in the world.” 

He pressed another kiss on her forehead, and turned around to walk to the door when he heard a soft groan. 

“Can you please do that again, Mister Businessman?” 

He looked over his shoulder, the smirk on his lips was guided by a flush of red on his cheeks. 

“Your wish is my command, my love.” 

While turning around he glanced at his watch again. He knew he would run late and Jaehee would scold him for that, but it was totally worth it.

Jumin could never get enough of her soft lips and these incredible kisses.  

God, how much he loved these mornings. 

[hiddenspringss]

wcifs and replies ̖́-  

anon said : hello :) wcif the top and the hair in ur most recent post w her building sandcastles :)

anon said :  hey! wcif brinley's top and bottom please from the sandcastle post? ty

hair, top, bottom

anon said : hi! wcif amber dean’s hair? super cute!

@waffles-yo said : Hey! I was wondering where I can find Amber's braids please? Thank you!

anon said : Hi!! Your sims are all so pretty! I was hoping you wouldn't mind me asking, but wcif the hair and top you used in this post : /post/185734576735/amber-dean-for-simbiences-pea-and-gnocchi hope you have a good day! 

@saltki said : Hey Marg :3 ♥ I wanted to ask wcif the hair from post/185734576735 and /post/185750984865? wish you a nice friday ♥

anon said : WCIF the pigtails on Amber Dean?

anon said : hi love! wcif the shorts and hair in amber dean's post?

anon said : Hellloo omg wcif literally everything on amber dean, her hair, blush, shirt, shorts and socks >.<

hair (xena hair), blush, top, shorts, socks ♥

anon said : omg!! the twins are sooo cute? wcif their skin details/makeup? sorry if its a lot, i just always have a really hard time with making toddlers look cute! thanks a lot lovely! (:

these ones!!! ♥ and this blush!

anon said : OH? wcif nathan's hair? he's so adorable!!! thank you

anon said : Wcif Nathan Rhodes hair❤️

hair ♥ and tysm!!!

anon said : What skin details did you use on the sim in post/185703619009 ?

these ones!

anon said : Wcif the hair from your Sulani post? Thanks bb!

there u go!!! ♥

anon said : hey!! wcif the hair on this post /post/185663190513? thank you

hair (zara hairstyle)   

anon said : I'm not sure if you're wcif friendly, but if you are wcif winter's hair? snkdlflfjs she's so GORG

anon said : wcif the lips , eyes , hair and clothes on ‘winter hawking’ thank you xxx

hair (del rey hair), eyes, dress, lips and ty bb ♥

anon said : Hey!!Wcif Peach’s hair in ur last post(the one with the swing)??Love you💕

i’ve already answered to this here

anon said : WCIF the shirtless top for Nathaniel? /post/185686916299/lil-nathaniel-hes-precious

idk what u mean??? he’s just not wearing anything that’s it

@millaxmay said : how do you make all your beautiful sims faces ? i love your recent sim so so so much ! 

anon said : how do you make your lips and eyes on your beautiful sims ?? as well as skin details

anon said : how did you make amber dean’s lips and face and ahhh 😍

anon said : how do you make all your sims , your males are so cute and your females are so beautiful, especially the little toddlers 😍

how??? haha!! PRESETS! that’s the secret. find a good skin, good presets and good skin details and ur sims should look good!! also thank u nonnies for liking my sims ♥ u guys are cute!

anon said : ahhhh i really want effy moore in my gameeee 🥰🥰🥰

aww bb!! i’m so sorry but she was a private dl so i can’t give her to u yk? :( ♥

anon said : What townies are you thinking bout doing so far ? Just curious

man!! i completely forgot about that i’m such a dumbass!!! i’ll do the ones that someone requested (check in my asks) ♥

anon said : hello!!! i hope you are having a nice day!! i was wondering if you would maybe consider putting up some of your sims you made for bachelorette challenges up for download? if they didn’t get picked or got eliminated? like ava and the silver haired sweet sim from a while ago maybe? sorry that wasn’t descriptive but i couldn’t find some posts D: i hope im not bothering, i just really love your sims and i would love to have some in my game 💛

hi!! it’s a good idea ^o^ i don’t have the silver haired sim anymore >.<’ but yeah i can upload ava if @oaski is okay with that ofc! ♥

anon said : you should post more sims to the gallery !!!

yes i’ll try!! but linking all the cc takes forever and i’m lazy ._.

anon said : Girl so like can we get a little peek of your skin details tab in cas 😉 ?

oof it’s a big mess hah! and not very interesting! :’)

anon said : Top 5 eyebrows ?

all of these

anon said : How do you come up with such cute names ?

oh i’m happy that u like them!! well i have a list for name’s ideas!! every time i see a pretty name i write it on it! ♥

anon said : what lip preset and skin details did you use for your winter hawking sim , Amber dean (i think that’s her name) and your Sulani sim !?!

ooof i have no idea!!!! honestly, just look here and dl everything!!! i have ALL the presets ♥

anon said : I’m in love with all your sims 😍

thank uuu nonnie! ♥♥

anon said : how much GB of cc do you have ?

not a lot ; 5.11 GB

anon said : you should try out more alpha hair for a maxis mix vibe xx 

well.... no haha. i like mm hair better + it’s easier to edit!!! and i’m already maxis mix since i use alpha clothes!

@madgnomes said : ❤️~ SENDING SOME LOVE~❤️ I know we don’t talk but I want to say that I appreciate you and your blog so much. By sharing your stories/edits you make my experience here so much more enjoyable. No matter how are you feeling rn, if you are sad or happy with what you are doing, I want you to know that you are a great person and you deserve all the happiness in the world

tyty sweetie!! u deserve happiness too! ♥♥

@millaxmay said : do you prefer alpha or mm hair ? (and clothes) x

mm hair and alpha clothes

@peachiiesims said : Send this to ten simblrs (or more) who you think are wonderful ❤️✨ keep the game going!

thank u bb!! ♥ u are sweet!

and also @thebearcompany i lost ur ask i’m so sorry!!! but i remember that it was v nice! so thank u talented angel!! ♥

[every1studio]

SPECIAL: “1,000 cranes for you” [stray kids]

genre: reverse harem + angst + fluff  

ficstyle: bulletpoints + storyline + LONG

prompt: you lost your memory; you woke up to 9 guys who had memories with you.. during the time that you were in a coma, each boy made 1,000 cranes, hoping to grant them the wish of remembering them.. so .. who will you remember first?

note: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 1K FOLLOWERS / I HOPE YOU CONTINUE TO SHOW LOVE TO THIS LITTLE HOBBY OF MINE~

How long have you been asleep? That was your first question when you woke up lying in a white, breezy hospital bed. The wind was blowing from the window and the sun was peeking through the see-through curtains; lined up on the window, were flowers of many colors, shapes and sizes. There were also a bottle of containers that held in.. what was it.. paper cranes? It brought a smile to your face.. How did I get here? You’d think to yourself..

“Oh... you’re awake?”

JEONGIN [I.N.]

the boy starts to tear up

he’s standing there with a basket of paper cranes

the amount of shock caused him to drop the basket

“Y/N!!!”

the boy runs towards you and shoves your face into his chest

“excuse me...”

he looks down at you

“who are you?”

the boy falls down onto his knees

“it’s me.. Jeongin... your junior in Literature club...”

all the old memories starting rushing back to him 

FLASHBACK

he noticed you as you were handing out flyers for Literature Club

“are you interested in become a member?”

how could he say no?

your smile was blinding but he wanted to see more of it

he bashfully took the flyer from you; as he grazed your hand, his heart started to run away from the fear of any possible form of rejection

“hope to see you there~” you smiled and he was at ease

...

one time, Jeongin came to the literature club room early 

he caught you sleeping by the open window; sleeping

he takes off his school blazer and puts it over your shoulders 

(maybe it wouldn’t be weird if I sat next to them..) 

once he sits next to you, your head shifts over to his shoulder

he holds his breathe; hoping that this isn’t a dream and that he can keep this moment imprinted in his head forever

Jeongin turns to push your hair out of your face

“I like you y/n..” he whispers, “I always will...”

BACK FROM FLASHBACK

he lets go of his grip and shuffle his feet towards his basket

there were so many paper cranes on the ground

you got up from your bed and took off all the annoying tubes

you also shuffled over to pick them up with them

“why are there so many paper cranes..” you asked as you looked up from picking some off of the ground

he was crying

“why are you crying??”

you lifted your hand to wipe off the tears

“y/n?”

HYUNJIN

you and Jeongin both look up at the door

the tall boy starts to smile

tears lined up on his water line

immediately picks up his phone and starts to yell

“HYUNG!! Y/N’S AWAKE!!”

after a few shouting words, he shoves his phone in his pocket

he kneels down and cups your face

“do you remember me? it’s Hyunjin!!”

he squishes your face; making you feel like a little Shiba Inu 

“I-agk..don-don’t reme-member uuu~” you tried to speak through the aggressively soft face squishing

Hyunjin stops

he looks over and Jeongin 

Jeongin shakes his head at him

Hyunjin looks back at you and his smile softens

he got lost in your big and clueless eyes; remembering how he met you for the first time

FLASHBACK

he was a part-timer at a diner and a puppy cafe across the streets

the door opens; indicating that a customer was walking in

“welcome to-”

he was speechless at you 

he believes that you were the most beautiful being he’s ever seen in his life

“um.. I’m here under the reservation of Jun?” you spoke softly

“oh yeah... right this way..”

he realized that you were there on a date

but hours and hours later, you were still sitting in that lone booth with the same glass of water from a few hours ago..

“um.. we’re closing now...”

you sighed in relief

“I’m glad that I don’t have to anymore blind dates after this, I’ll tell my parents it didn’t work out.. sorry for holding up space..”

he shakes his head

“it’s alright.. if.. if you’re a little hungry, would you like to go to the puppy cafe across the street? I work there too...”

you smiled as you took his hand

“sounds like a better plan than one I had for today..”

BACK FROM FLASHBACK

Hyunjin comes up to you; mad at your date and sad that someone as beautiful as you 

he helps you and Jeongin place the paper cranes back into the basket 

then he helps you up and leads you to the array of flowers and paper cranes by the window

he points you to the glass container with a pretty yellow ribbon wrapped around it

“I made those for you..” Hyunjin said, still holding your hand

you turned to look at Jeongin as he placed his basket next to it

“what are they used for?” you asked the both of them

but another voice answered for them

WOOJIN 

“there’s a legend that promises the wish of the person who makes a 1000 paper cranes...all of us want to make a wish that you’ll get well and remember us...”

you turned to see who was talking

there was a soft-haired boy who looked like a teddy bear

he was holding a guitar case; there was a little keychain that looked familiar but you couldn’t pinpoint from where

“hey y/n..” he stuck out his hand, “I’m Woojin.. we’re.. from the same class..”

Jeongin settles by the window

Hyunjin leads you back to the bed for you to sit down

Woojin takes out his guitar 

“I remember how much you liked listening to me play the guitar.. so I thought I’d come and play some to you today... I’m glad that.. you’re awake now..”

“Hyung! why are you being so humble? y/n, did you know he comes in everyday.. EVERYDAY.. just to play the guitar to you? even if you were still sound asleep, he’d play the guitar for you...” Hyunjin exclaimed

you turned to look at Woojin

he was turning pink as he focused on tuning his already tuned guitar

“Woojin..” 

he looks up when you called him name

“what was my favorite song?”

Woojin smiles as he takes the pick out of his pocket

“LOST STARS; by Adam Levine..”

FLASHBACK

Woojin was trying to raise money to get a new guitar

so he was buskering in the streets of Seoul

he starts off with “LOST STARS” 

gathering a crowd of people, you were also pulled in by his lovely voice

it was so mesmerizing

when it was over, you walked over to place in $20

which was a lot for one person to give

surprised he looked up to see an angel

“thank you for performing my favorite song so beautifully; you made me love it so much more..”

he beams and he thanks you

little did you both know, both of you went to the same school

so when you both saw each other again in the music room

he felt like it was fate that he got to see you again

BACK FROM FLASHBACK 

it meant so much more to him now that you were awake

(even if she doesn’t remember me.. at least have her remember this song) 

once he finishes, he looks up to see your face

but you were already looking at someone else

MINHO [LEEKNOW]

Minho was at the door

waiting for Woojin to finish his performance

but he caught your attention by accident

(do I know this guy too?) 

you thought as you were slowly drowned out by Woojin’s voice

“wow... Woojin hyung, you’re so good at singing...” he claps as he entered the room

he had a bouquet of flowers for you; forget-me-nots wrapped up in a baby blue ribbon

Woojin sets his guitar down

“you should really refrain from bringing anymore flowers, hyung... it’s gonna end up looking like a flower shop,�� Jeongin muttered

you smiled as Minho placed it in your arms

“I don’t mind...”

Minho sits next to you

“I’m Minho...you used to visit my family’s flower shop a lot..”

you looked at him and back at the flowers

“I guess I really liked flowers...” 

Minho chuckles

“yeah.. you came by everyday...”

you were interested about your life before your accident

“what did I usually get?”

Minho got flustered by how close you were but he didn’t move away

he turns his surprised red faced into a soft smile

“you got yellow roses a lot...do you know the meaning of them?”

you shook your head

Minho remembers how you came into his shop for the first time

“um.. I have this friend and I really think that our friendship is going to last and I want to thank them.... what kind of flowers should I get?” 

“yellow roses... to cherish a friendship so happy and strong..” 

he was so blessed to have you come into his shop; on more occasions than most 

one time.. you got yellow roses again.. but this time, you gave it to Minho

“thank you for educating me on flowers and making my life a happy garden..”

Minho turns to look at you, sitting on the hospital bed 

“they symbolize a friendship so happy and strong..”

“sounds like our relationship.. was a happy one..” you mumbled as you took a deep breath of the flowers in front of you

CHAN

you heard crashing outside the hallways

followed by the sound of the door swinging open

“Y/N!!!”

a boy who resembled a koala came dashing forward

he ended up tripping on his foot and fell face forward into Minho’s bouquet which was on your lap

“CHAN ARE YOU SERIOUS?!”

Minho shoves off him

Chan had flower petals all over his face and hair

speaking of hair, his hair was incredibly fluffy and curly 

you chuckled at him

“hello there...” you spoke in a calm voice

“y/n.. you’re way too calm for all of this right now...” Jeongin said as he folded away at his paper cranes

Chan just looked up at you wide-eyed

“staring at them isn’t going to make them remember you..” Woojin said as he strummed soft chords as background music

the guy was still at your knees; looking up at you

you reached over to pick off the petals off of his face

in that moment, he recalls the first time he met you

“I KNOW YOU DON’T REMEMBER BUT I’M GOING TO TELL YOU HOW WE MET!!!”

Chan tells you about how he was running his bike until he runs into a pole because he was trying to avoid running into you right in front of the school gate

it was his first day of school, coming in from Australia, he wasn’t planning to be a klutz but it turned out that way  

instead of walking away like any bystander, you walked over and took care of his scrapes and bruises 

he was so ecstatic to find out that you were in the same class as him

you were his first friend

thanks to you; he got all his school work done on time since you guys were always work partners

the day before you got into your accident, Chan wanted to meet up with you

to tell you how much he’s liked you.. but that never happened because he never had the courage to bring it up to you

even now.. Chan was willing to be apart of your life again even though he wasn’t going to tell you how he ever felt about you 

“CHAN YOU DON’T NEED TO TELL THE STORY BY YELLING!!” Hyunjin stood up to Chan

“I’M SORRY!!”

you just laughed at the whole situation

(I didn’t know I had such energetic friends...) 

FELIX 

although he was so happy to see you wake up

a rush of guilt stopped him from entering the room

but you caught a glimpse of him as he walked away

you got up and made your way out the door

“I’ll be right back okay?”

the other guys couldn’t say anything before you left 

so they all sulked in grief in the room waiting for you

since all of them felt guilty of what happened to you

(if only... I was there in time..) they all individually thought

you saw the guy go up to the rooftop so you followed the best you could

it’s probably been a while since you used your muscles so it took you a while until you got up to rooftop

huffing and puffing; you had enough energy to open the door

the guy’s attention shifted towards the sound of the metal door opening

“y/n?”

he dashes over to take your hand after seeing your knees shake from lack of support 

“what.. what are you doing up here...”

he looks around for nurses or any of the other guys 

“I thought... maybe.. you knew me?” you softly exclaimed

(those eyes.. those eyes are the reason why I can’t ever leave you..) 

he remembers how he was sitting on his roof when you heading back home from cram school 

he had his telescope out and he was charting constellations 

“I know this is weird but could I join you?”

the guy looks down from his scope to see you, who was in the same uniform as him

he knew you

you were pretty well-known for being nice to everyone

the boy nods as he points to the ladder by the side of his house

you both sit in silence to take in the beauty of the stars in the sky

“I’m y/n..” you stuck out your hand

“I’m Felix..” he took your hand 

and that was how you guys had a tradition of looking at the stars every clear night 

the guy quietly leads you towards the bench 

“I’m Felix.. I...I do.. know you... well.. I did...” he mumbles after you settle onto to bench

“so why didn’t you walk into the room earlier?” you bent over to see his face

he looks at you and his heart starts to hurt

“because I blame myself for what happened to you...”

it’s been bouncing back and forth in your head; what really happened to you?

“if.. if it’s not too much... what did happen to me?”

Felix was still holding your hands at this point

he stood up, indicating you to do the same

“it’s not in my place to say...”

“Y/N?” 

CHANGBIN

there was another guy who seemed to know you 

at that moment, the strain of holding your weight up made your knees collapses

the guy was quick enough to hold you up bridal-styled

“you just woke up! you aren’t as fit as you’d be after sleeping for a year and a half!”

“I’ve..I’ve been asleep for that long?”

Felix shot him a stern look and the boy went quiet

you gripped that sleeve of the boy who was carrying you

“I rather know than to not know... as of right now.. I don’t know anything..and it’s driving me crazy..”

you hid your head in the crook of his neck

for some reason.. his scent smelled familiar

FLASHBACK [Changbin]

you were running in PE when you rolled your ankle

Changbin was the one who saw the incident happen so he carried you on his back to the infirmary room

“idiot.. you need to watch out where you’re stepping..” he mutters

he feels you tighten your grip on him

“what’s that? you want to be placed in a choke hold?”

he starts to tap on your arm to release your arm from his neck

“AYE I’M SORRY LET GO!”

you chuckled as you let go, then placed your head on one side of his shoulder

“thanks...” you took a breathe of his musky and familiar cologne 

“you’re welcome...idiot,” he smiles

BACK FROM FLASHBACK

“let’s bring you back to the room...I’m Changbin by the way..”

“Changbin..”

the way his name rolled off your tongue felt natural

SEUNGMIN

there was another unfamiliar boy who was in your room 

they were all making paper cranes

“who’s that?” you whispered to Changbin and Felix

the boy gets up and dusts his pants off

“Seungmin.. you were always at my baseball games..”

judging from his uniform, he probably just got off of practice

“I watched baseball?” you asked

he smiles as he nods

but his smile seemed so sad

you looked out the window; the sun was setting

“when did you get here..?”

he rubs the back of his neck as Changbin sets you on the bed

“like 5 minutes ago?”

you looked around the room

“are we all friends?” 

they all nodded; as they continued to fold paper cranes

“can I help you guys?”

Seungmin placed his hand on yours; stopping you from reaching a crisp, origami paper

“you know about the legend of the paper cranes? it’ll only grant the wish of the one person who makes them.. they have to do it on their own...”

you nodded 

he raised his hand and placed it on your head

this triggered another nostalgic feeling in you 

Seungmin remembers... he used to place his hand on your head all the time

especially when his team didn’t win because of a faulty or a bad ref

“you guess played so well... you guys deserve to win..” you’d sniffle

he’d place his hand on your head

“we’ll just practice harder.. will make sure you see us win...”

Seungmin comes back from a trip down memory lane as Felix speaks up

“everyone’s here now..” Felix says 

JISUNG [HAN]

there was yet another boy, with a pair of headphones and a scrapbook

he spoke up after gazing at you for a while

“do they...”

the boys shook their heads

he forces his lips into a thin line 

“I..I’m Jisung... we are childhood friends..”

he couldn’t look up at you

he felt like if he did, he would cry in front of you

and that was the last thing he wanted

he shuffles over to you

and hands you the headphones and scrapbook

“I..thought that it would be best for you to look over some old memories...I got some pictures from your mom and we collected pictures of all of us over time..”

you picked up the headphones

“what’s this for?”

Jisung finally took the initiative to look at you

he winches at your soft smile; how he missed your smile..

“I wrote a song for you.. it has all of our voices in it.. it’s called “1,000 Paper Cranes”

you placed the headphones over your ears and opened to the first page of the book 

as you were taking your time down memory lane, with the lyrics speaking of times you don’t recall.. you felt like you knew yourself a little bit more

Jisung just sat next to you as you flipped through page after page

he smiles at you

he remembers how you guys always met up at his treehouse; a secret base

how his 5 year old self announced his love for you and promised you that he was going to marry you

how he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you by the time you both entered high school 

and how he blamed himself for letting what happened to you.. happen to you

the boys were gathering the last of the cranes together so that there were a total of 9,000 cranes .. a total of 9 wishes 

when you finished flipping through the book, the last words of the song was said through Jisung’s voice

“our 1,000 paper cranes will not be in vain.. in time.. you’ll remember again..”

you looked up and all the boys were lined up

Chan spoke up, “we.. we’re going to tell you what happened to you...”

it was your birthday and the last day of school

you had nothing planned for the rest of the day but to start on summer break homework

Changbin came by your class and asked for your hand

“I can’t wait.. so here you go..” he slips a charm bracelet on your wrist

“you better not lose it..” he mumbles sheepishly as he shoves his hands in his pockets

you were walking when Felix and Hyunjin came at you from both sides of your arms and picked you up

“BIRTHDAY TOSS!!!”

you were scared for your life; but it was a funny moment

your indoor shoe came off and hit Hyunjin’s face

causing all your weight to fall onto Felix and you guys were all stacked up; laughing

until you guys had to run away from the student body president

you hid in the music room where Woojin was practicing something

your sudden appearance almost made him drop his guitar

“y/n?”

you shushed him as you waited for the president’s footsteps disappear

when you turned your head around; he dangled a keychain in front of your face

“happy birthday..”

you looked over at his guitar case to see a matching one..

“i-it was a set okay?” he stuttered and you just giggled and thanked him

Jeongin was in the clubroom early to clean up before you came into the room, “happy birthday y/n..”

he hands you a literature book, “The God of Small Things”

without anything else to say, he dashes off muttering something like “see you later..”

as you walked out of the school from finishing club, you looked at Seungmin working hard on his pitches

“SEUNGMIN!” you waved at him and he dashes over towards his bag then towards you

he wraps his varsity baseball jacket over you and places his hand over your head

“happy birthday y/n.. don’t get sick..it’s gonna get cold later..”

you were walking home from school..

you get a text from Jisung

-hey~ meet me at waterfront’s fountain in an hour~

you smiled at his text as you dashed home to get ready.

you put on Seungmin’s baseball jacket, your comfiest shirt and a pair of denim shorts, topped it off with a white cap and white shoes.

Chan left his present for you leaned up on your house gate; a new bike (since your old one got wrecked).

you left the “happy birthday” bow on it and made your way towards the waterfront

there were a string of lights leading up to the waterfront

that’s when you saw all of the boys lined up with a banner; “HAPPY BIRTHDAY Y/N~”

they had a cake ready for you too

you were crossing the street until the sound of a blaring truck closed in on you

you turned to see the light of the truck pierce into your soul

you didn’t feel the collision

everything happened in slow motion

the boys ran to you; dropping the banner, the presents and the cake

it was a day to celebrate.. but it was day you were almost taken away from them...

After hearing the whole story, you were in so much shock.. you couldn’t comprehend anything.. “Do you think it was too soon to tell them?” Jeongin whispered to Woojin.. You shook your head.. “I think.. I think I need time to myself.. I feel like I remember.. but then I don’t.” They all nodded at each other and packed their things to leave. Everyone left except for Changbin.. he reaches into his pocket and takes out that charm bracelet.. “we each made 1,000 paper cranes for you...don’t give up yet..” You nodded as he left..

That night you had a dream, it seemed more like a lost memory that came back to you. There was a missing piece that interlocked every memory that the boys had with you. There was someone that you gave the yellow roses to. Someone who helped you reach a book from the high shelves of the library. Someone carried you home after falling asleep in the literature club room. Someone who was there for you most of the time even when you’d least expect it..

You woke up with tears in your eyes... The sun was peaking through and the wind’s breeze got caught in your baby hairs. That “someone” was laying their head on your lap; probably stayed to take care of you. Memories of them rushes in your head, you brushed their hair out of their face, “???”

END + [masterlist + guidelines]

ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD GO THIS FAR WITH MY HOBBY BUT I’M GLAD I DID. I don’t have a lot mutuals or active anons but I appreciate those that I do have. I might post a dance video soon this week as another THANK YOU. 

[sachi-pon]

free! dive to the future episode 12 liveblog/review thing

*loud sigh*

i am DREADING watching this episode. one reason is that i don't know if this is the end... the end, forever??? i don't know!!! i really hope not!! ;__; the other reason is that because this is the season finale, i know it's going to be emotional!!! there's no way a free! season finale will not be emotional. the other two were. XD

but i have to watch the episode. as much as i am terrified to watch it... i must. i've got to do it. >__<UUU

so here we go!!!!!

please read my previous liveblogs as well. i've been reacting to everything this season!  (episode 1) (episode 2) (episode 3) (episode 4) (episode 5) (episode 6) (episode 7) (episode 8) (episode 9)  (episode 10) (episode 11) and THANK YOU VERY MUCH to anyone who reads my liveblogs. thank you for taking the time to read them!!!! <33333

watch ep 12 officially on crunchyroll: http://www.crunchyroll.com/free-iwatobi-swim-club/episode-12-dive-to-the-future-775643

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the episode starts out with some BEAUTIFUL animation!!!

i think it's so cute that haru was fascinated by water ever since he was little.

yesssss i was waiting for that shot of little haru smiling!!! i already posted that screenshot here on my blog. XD if that doesn't absolutely melt your heart, then... you have no heart!

makoto cooking??? THAT'S SO ADORABLE <3

i would be happy to eat burnt toast if makoto made it. <33333

;___; omg omg omg that is so sad. he didn't help his friend. so i bet that is a major source of guilt for him. and, i wonder if that's some kind of foreshadowing...??? maybe haru and/or rin will be forced to make some kind of difficult choice between swimming and something else. i'm not saying that'll happen in this episode but maybe in the future (well, that's assuming there is another season)

hahaha, the muscle lovers have brainwashed ayumu!!! XD

yaaaaaay i am actually seeing ikuya and hiyori again!!!! i love them! ^__^

rin's surprised face at seeing natsuya again hahahaha

"you're late haru... just like me lol" -rin

"it's been so lon--" SLAP. what a warm welcome???

i feel like there should have been a theme song by now...

ikuya and natsuya about to race each other while remembering all those memories ;__; this episode is so emotional already lol.

*very dramatic music*

HAHAHAHAHA that out-of-date phrase came back. those random laughing people are like "who is that old fool??"

that little screenshot of ikuya and natsuya sleeping while leaning against each other UGGGGHHH that was a really sharp knife in my heart <3

hiyori is so excited for ikuya, awww.

*awkward panting*

yay i was hoping ikuya would win, just because i think it's funny that natsuya lost to his little brother!!!

THAT HANDSHAKE TURNING INTO A HUG I AM DONE. I AM DONE WITH THIS ANIME. IT'S BAD FOR MY HEALTH. I CANNOT BREATHE WITH ALL THESE EMOTIONS GOING ON. ;___; ;___; ;___;

NATUYA'S CRYING?!?!??!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!!? WTF WHY ARE YOU CRYING, STOP THAT, NOOO THIS IS TOO PRECIOUS. he really is so proud of ikuya!!!!! ^___^

lol now ikuya's crying and his little shaky voice, aaaaaaggghh. i hate this show so much. this show is too dangerous for my heart. i can't survive all this. why are all of these characters such wonderful angels???? WHY???????

i think asahi is starting to cry too lol

all right, that's a good stopping point. well, i'm done. ...wait... whaddaya mean there's more time left in this episode??? whaddaya mean that i haven't even watched half of the episode??? oh no, i have to keep watching!!! i don't think i'm ready for this you guys

"haruka-senpai and the rest have really dived into an incredible world." no, rei, they have DIVED INTO THE FUTURE!!!!!! =)

you couldn't have just walked AROUND them???? -__-

this guy's bright orange hair bothers me...

that confident look you get on your face when you are aware of how awesome you are and how powerfully bright your hair is:

"you cant gain that kind of strength without throwing something else away." uhhhh well that's creepy. what did kinjou throw away? (his sanity???)

ryuuji believes you basically have to give up everything, even your friends, to make it in the competitive world =( he's obviously still feeling guilt about what happened with his own friend. what's interesting is that we don't know how haru feels about what ryuuji just said. does haru agree?

rin is so cool that he has his own cool new music now hahaha.

haru looks suprised that rin did so well??? he shouldn't be surprised! rin is amazing <3

haru looks nervous??? (to be honest, i am nervous too lol. my heart is beating fast...)

he had a late start? i couldn't tell. XD

i am seriously freaking out over this animation. i just love it. the animation in this show is wonderful in general, but i feel like the animators take extra care in doing haru's swimming scenes. those scenes always look gorgeous. (even when haru's swimming isn't as fast as normal...)

everyone looks so sad about what happened with haru =(

asahi is so cute. XD he's so awkwardly funny!!!

sousuke startling rin... hahaha

hmmm, rin and sousuke are talking about sousuke swimming in a race in the future. does this mean there will be another season???

"nagisacchi" ^__^

"kissme?" looooool

omg there are so many more races tomorrow. but there are only a few minutes left in the episode!!! a lot needs to happen in just a few minutes!!

"bye-bye!" ugh why is every single thing that happens in this show so cute???

what was makoto about to ask haru???

marinka date???? <3 <3 <3

hmm, so haru really is bothered by what ryuuji said earlier

makoto and rin are laughing like "our son is so precious." XD

the three seagulls are on a date too??

rin saying he'd support makoto, awww that's so sweet!!! <3

haru yelling and scaring the birds away... what did those birds do to you, haru????

and omg, rin and makoto were totally caught off guard by that!!!! (well i was too o___o)

haru is running into the ocean... in order to turn into a merman?!?!?!??!! (i have been thinking about mermen all season, you know.)

"what kind of teen drama is this?" it took you this long to figure out that you are in a teen drama, rin?? XD

ummm for real where are they going though???

there are seriously like three minutes left in the episode. ... ... how is everything going to fit into three mins?

haru's speed surpassed albert's?!?!? wasn't albert the alien god?? wow...

ryuuji is trying to sit there and analyze why haru lost, but... dude, it's kinda your fault!! you're telling haru some weird stuff about "giving something up" and it made him nervous! =(

"he keeps talking about stupid stuff like friendship and bonds..." IT'S NOT STUPID, IT'S FREE!!!!!!

okay. so i'm at 21:40 and the entire episode is 23:40. rin and haru have not raced yet?!?!?!?!

finally!!! here it is!!!!!!!

hey, there's some new song sung by the voice actors playing in the bg???? i'm feeling emotions again...

let's dive... to the future!!!!!!

hmm, crunchyroll must be having techincal difficulties. instead of playing the rest of the episode, they are showing random pictures of the characters. this technical glitch must be fixed immediately.

...

...

...

oh. it's not a glitch. it's the ACTUAL EPISODE. THE ACTUAL EPISODE CUT OFF RIGHT BEFORE HARU AND RIN'S RACE. WHAT THE F@#^@$&#%%!%#^@^#^$#^@!@#$#%#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE WAITED ALL SEASON TO SEE THIS RACE!!!!!! WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE DOING, PEOPLE WHO CREATE THIS CRAZY SHOW???!?!?!?!?!?! WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO US?!?!?! WHY????? WHYYYYYY????????!?!?!?!!!?!?!?!   >=(

*tries to calm down?*

"blue destination," that's what this song is called.

haha i like the samezuka guys doing the same silly-looking pose.

huh? there's a scene with just a few seconds left in the episode? what could possibly happen in this amount of time?????

nanase is in the lead?? okay, but... that doesn't really answer the question of who won the race. it's possible that rin could catch up. but i guess if he did catch up, they would have said it?

the god alien sees that haru is setting a new record! hmmm are you jealous??? =)

"see you in 2020" ?!?!?!?!?!?!? so i have to wait two years to find out who won the race??? -__-UUU

wait, wait... that means... FREE HAS NOT ENDED!!!!!!!!! IT'S NOT OVER!!!!!! THIS ISN'T THE END!!!!!!! omg omg omg omg!!!!!! you guys. i didn't know this. i didn't know if there was going to be any more. wow wow wow!!!!!!! i finally got my reassurance!!! <33333333 oh my goodness!!!!!! this is extremely important to me!!! like i have said before, free! is my #1 favorite anime ever. i didn't want it to end right now. i need more!!! i'm so incredibly happy that it's not over yet! that makes me feel a lot better.

okay now. it's time for me to sum up not only this episode, but the season. first, the episode. this was an exciting, heart-thumping episode. i was nervous about everyone's races!!! especially rin and haru's, but... it was a disappointment that the race wasn't actually shown. i'll assume haru won because they mentioned that he was in the lead. but i'm not 100% sure!!!

ikuya and natsuya were lovely. i really liked that scene when they were hugging and they were clearly so proud of each other!!! it was so touching!! this is why i love this show. <3 and i was happy to see hiyori again too. everyone was reunited. everyone was realizing what their dreams are and finding their confidence. so it was an important episode;.

and... MARINKA!!!!!! i will be honest and say that i really wanted a makoharu moment. but i've gotta say, marinka is nice too. =) it was really funny to me how rin and makoto were both laughing at haru at the same time. they each gave haru the encouragement that he needed in that moment. they really got him fired up. when he suddenly yelled into the ocean, i was like "O__O uuuuhhhhh..." but it's good to see haru feeling motivated!! ^__^ the shot of the three of them lying together in the water was something that i think instantly became iconic.

the scene in the theme song (which didn't even play today?!?) where haru is screaming and looking like he's turning super saiyan (lol) was about haru's scream in this episode!! mystery solved. =)

so how'd i feel about this whole season? umm... EXCELLENT!!!!! everything was amazing!! the characters' relationships and emotions!!! the music!!! the animation!!! the voices!!!! just... everything. i am impressed with this anime, as always. i have so much appreciation for all of the people who put it together, because i like everything about it. that's why i didn't want to think about it ending. when i saw that it was coming back in 2020, i became very, very eager to know what would happen in the future!!! i want to dive to the future...

[moonandstarsabove]

85 Questions

ii was tagged my @kamilahdavis so thank u, u majestic queen, i love uuu 

Answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

the last …

1. drink: orange juice

2. phone call: my dad

3. text message: a work “friend”

4. song you listened to: i’m telling the world, by Taio Cruz

5. time you cried: i’m always crying binch

6. dated someone twice: what is that

7. kissed someone and regretted it: kissing is for losers 

8. been cheated on: that’s why i dont play uno anymore

9. lost someone special: yes

10. been depressed: life depresses me

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: surely not when i got drunk the first time :)))))))

favorite colors

12. baby blue

13. lavender

14. rose gold

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: i guess u can call them friends

16. fallen out of love: never even been in

17. laughed until you cried: ive never laughed a single day of my life. its sad so i cry.

18. found out someone was talking about you: oooooh dont even get me started binch

19. met someone who changed you: ive never been nchjfjnmj,muj chnged by anyone ever, but no

20. found out who your friends are: ehh still figuring it out

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: who dat

general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: 3 (idk man, like a handful)

23. do you have any pets: i cry everyday bc ive never felt that joy

24. do you want to change your name: nein

25. what did you do for your last birthday: we went to a restaurant where the rude waiter gave my sis an anxiety attack, fuck him

26. what time did you wake up: 6:00 binch being a nurse is tough

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: dreaming about my vacation

28. name something you can’t wait for: family vacation to palma de mallorca + 2 months of doing nothing (!)

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: i dont remember her face (1h ago)

31. what are you listening to right now: killing me softly with his song by roberta flack (no KS reference pls)

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: idk??? have i?? i dont know my life

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my boss

34. most visited website: pinterest cuz i like hoarding pics

35. hair colour: dark brown like a cuppa coffee

36. long or short hair: fucken curtain

37. do you have a crush on someone: i wanna but my life aint that exciting

38. what do you like about yourself: my active imagination that both hinders and gives me life

39. piercings: belly button binch, like a baby piercing, cuz its very recent

40. blood type: A+ binch like my grades i wish

41. nickname: my actual name cuz u cant shorten claudia to be cute

42. relationship status: single as a loose pringle

43. zodiac: im a fish.

44. pronouns: she/her

45. favourite tv show: the walking dead, supergirl, brooklyn nine nine, unbreakable kimmy schmidt, stranger things, izombie

46. tattoos: 0 but i want some

47. right or left handed: slightly ambidextrous, like i do things with my left that righties can only do with their right hand

48. surgery: laparoscopy cuz my ovary wanted to explode

49. piercing: answered already

50. sport: gym sometimes? and i like volleyball

51. vacation: somewhere by the beach and with a nice view of the stars

52. pair of trainers: i basically only own sneakers cuz they the most comfy footwear in existence

more general

53. eating: watermelon was the last thing to have touched this mouth 

54. drinking: nothing

55. i’m about to: finish this up and watch power rangers

56. waiting for: july 13th when my 2 month vacation begins binch i’m excite

57. want: to be retired at 23

58. get married: sure but to whom’s the question

59. career: ideal? neurosurgeon, actual? nurse

60. hugs or kisses: both? i really love giving hugs but i always wanna hold on for too long so its awkward with ppl i dont know very well

61. lips or eyes: eyes

62. shorter or taller: same height or taller cuz yes

63. older or younger: kinda older but in my age range i guess?

64. nice arms or nice stomach: i like toned arms but im okay with a soft stomach

65. hook up or relationship: relationships im 2 emotional fr hookups

66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant af

67. kissed a stranger: or anybody ever

68. drank hard liquor: been dipping my finger in whiskey since 10 years old

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: never although a contact once popped off my eye when i was making faces in the mirror

70. turned someone down: that’s my biggest fear although i dont care much about ppl

71. sex on the first date: nooo ty

72. broken someone’s heart: according to him ye, but he broke mine first so pech gehabt

73. had your heart broken: siehe oben

74. been arrested: my only crime was being a primary school bully and thats not even a crime

75. cried when someone died: my grandpa, cried like a baby

76. fallen for a friend: never thank goodnes

do you believe in …

77. yourself: barely 

78. miracles: ye i do cuz im a hopeful binch

79. love at first sight: nein das nicht

80. santa claus: why wouldnt i believe in the actual person that delivers my presents every christmas?

81. kiss on the first date: noooo

82. angels: ye i dooo

other

83. current best friend’s name: my sis cat and my bff mariana cuz they my main binches

84. eye colour: brown

85. favourite movie: thats tough, but some i could rewatch all the time are mamma mia, the proposal, stardust, i am legend, i robot (cuz will smith), hachiko, megamind, 

i tag: @thefivecrazypeople @oldforgottenwarrior @lazusin @faenies and whoever else wants to cuz i dont know anyone else

[makkeuga]

92 questions tag !

rules: write 92 truths about yourself and then tag 25 people 

i was tagged by @luci-is-a-devil-  thank uuu !!! <3

LAST...

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: to my dad a couple days ago 3.Text message: “do you? after the interview” 4. Song you listened to: DYSN - forget you  5.Time you cried: last night lmao  6. Dated someone twice: nope 7. Been Cheated on: nope 8. Kissed someone and regretted it: fhsuidhfduidufh yes 9. Lost someone special: of course 10. Been depressed: uhh 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: too many times lol

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 1: black 2: mustard yellow 3: baby blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15. Made new friends: yes!! 16. Fallen out of love: nah 17. Laughed until you cried: yes like everyday tbh 18. Found out someone was talking about you: im not sure?? i dont remember lol 19. Met someone who changed you: yess 20. Found out who your true friends are: nah 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

GENERAL… 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them  23. Do you have any pets: one guinea pig 24. Do you want to change your name: yup 25. What did you do for your last birthday: i went to get coffee w my pal 26. What time did you wake up: 10 am lmao 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: listenin to sad music & thinking abt hyungwonho & weeping 28. Name something you cannot wait for: summer since im going to berlin  29. When was the last time you saw your mother: last night 30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: dont make me get deep. idk

31. What are you listening to right now: blackbear ft 24hrs - moodz  32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yess 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: people and how... self centered they are. sometimes its frustrating to be observant  34. Most visited website: youtube, tumblr?? idk 35. Elementary: sduihfud was shit 36. High School: dropped out lmao  37. College: idk abt american school system or whatever this is  38. Hair color: brownish black 39. Long or short hair: short 40. Do you have a crush on someone: mMmmM nah 41. What do you like about yourself: idk i understand peeps emotions easily 

42. Piercings: both ears & a septum on my nose 43. Blood type: i dont know itt 44. Nickname: andy & like 100 others 45.Relationship status: single  46.Zodiac sign: gemini 47.Pronouns: he/him but im cool w they/them too like idc 48.Favorite tv show: orphan black 49.Tattoos: !!! i want !!!  50.Right or left hand: right

FIRST… 51. Surgery: havent had any 52. Piercing: my ears 54.Sport: i dONT remember? dance 55.Vacation: ?? sweden maybe 56. Pair of trainers: how could i remember my first trainers 57. Eating: like today?? bread  58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: finish my coffee 61. Waiting for: idk nothing rlly  62. Want: better weather 63. Get married: dont believe in it 64. Career: dfhuhfdui idk

WHICH IS BETTER… 65. Hugs or kisses: hugs 66. Lips or eyes: ... depends? lips maybe 67. Shorter or taller: taller  68. Older or younger: older? 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms!!!!!!!!!!! 71. Sensitive or loud: loud  72. Hook-up or relationship: neither? both? i dont kno 73.Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker mayb

HAVE YOU EVER… 74.Kissed a stranger?: .. maybe?? not sure. oh yes i have nvm 75.Drank hard liquor? : yes lol 76.Lost glasses contact/lenses?: yess 77.Turned someone down?: yup 78.Sex on first date?: nope 79.Broken someone’s heart?: most likely 80.Had your heart broken?: not sure 81.Been arrested?: nope 82.Cried when someone died?: yup 83.Fallen for a friend?: yee

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84.Yourself?: nope lol 85.Miracles?: no 86.Love at first sight?: ...no 87.Santa Claus?: nO 88.Kiss on the first date?: why not. its just lips   89.Angels?: i believe in mark lee 

OTHER…. 90.Current best friend’s name: james 91.Eye color: blue 92. Favorite movie: i killed my mother, the fall & the breakfast club

i tag @07jms, @ilysmjeno, @iloveyu-ta, @dreamteamnoona & @hey-uta ! if u have done this already or just dont want to, dont feel pressured :’) <33

[damn-agi]

THIS  IS  YOUR LOVESTORY  WITH  RAP MONSTER!!! <3

You are a really cute and smart girl, and you have straight blue hair. You are part of almost all the school clubs, but you especially love <3 the book club. The reason why you love that club so much is, because in there you spend time with your best friend KIM NAMJOON. At first you  hadn’t thought of Namjoon as ur boyfriend, but than things got complicated so.. :D you gotta read this! <3

It was a usual day in your school and you were staying near your locker when you suddenly feel a hand covering your eyes! <3 Rap Mon: Guess who!! Y/N: How can I not know that voice?! J Namjoon!! He took off his hands of your face and now you two were looking at each other smiling. ^^ Rap Mon: Hey Y/N!! What’s up! ^^ Y/N: Hey Moonie!! :* you are finally here, i was waiting for you!! -_- Rap Mon: Ehh, i’m not quiet sure u were waiting me! :D I think you were waiting for Park. (Park is one of the most handsome guys in ur school and u really like him. Actually u have never talk to him, but you think of Park everytime and Namjoon love to tease you about that <3). Rap Monster started singing with a loud voice: Y/N and Park were sitting down the tree nananana, he kissed her on the cheek… :D Y/N: Namjoon stoop!!! He can hear you, and if that happens i’m gonna kill you! >,< RM: Ok ok! I care about you, so i don’t want to make u sad! :* ( You have been really close with Kim Namjoon since in kindergarden! You are neighbourhoods so you always went to school together, and you still do. He is like ur best friend!^^ You have told every secret to RM and he has told u his. <3 Even he is part of BTS you don’t care that your friend is famous now. RM was ur friend even when he wasn’t famous, so you care about the personality and character of RM more than his fame, and you love him more than everything else in the world! <3 But never never never, you hadn’t thought of him as ur future boyfriend! You two have the same style, you are like hipsters ^^, you have same tattoos on legs, and you two love to read and than comment books together, oh and you also loove anime cartoons!! <3 So you two are kinda the same person. :P) RM: So Y/N, we have already finished school for today, why don’t we go to the bar next school? Pleasee!! Y/N: Ok, let’s go! ^^ …

You two left school and went to the bar next ur school. It was a really nice place and you love to spent time together in there… The bar was full of people but the owner of that place always keeps an empty table, especially for you two. Oh, and the owner always put this sign on the table: This is the place for my angels, so yea, it’s always taken!! J. So you two were walking straight your place, and Rap Mon had grabbed your hand. You set on your chairs and started to talk with eachother. <3 RM had some glasses on his face, and you were making fun of his face. Y/N: Haha you look silly with those glasses!! :D At least, why didn’t you tell me to put some glasses too, so we could be silly together. RM: :P Firstly, i thought these glasses fits me :D and secondly I think you look cuter without glasses. RM told you that while he was smiling and his cute dimples came out. ^^ Y/N: Hihihi thank you!! Aaah, have I told you i love your dimples!! <3 RM: ^^ Yep, this is like the 1432 time you say me that!! I have been this cute like always! :P The waiter: ^^ Sorry for interrupting ur chat, but would you cuties like to drink or eat smth? <3 Y/N: You don’t have to say sorry <3 , and you can give some vanilla ice-creams to your sweet angels!! :D The waiter: Oki, right away!! ^^ RM: Uuuh, Y/N look over there!! The “EGO KING” is in the house! :D -_- Y/N: Oh, nooo!! Park is here! Hide me, fast!! You hide yourself under the table, and ur heart was going crazy!! <3 You whispering: Pss, Rap Mon is he still in there? RM: Nope, he is gone!! You finally get up and sit back on your chair, but *o* you see that Park was still in there and was hanging with some other boys. Y/N: Namjoon!!! >.< Why did you lie me? There he is!! >.< RM: Haha, well you were not going to stay under the table forever so.. :D Y/N: Uhh, I feel awkard right now!! T.T Do I look good? Is my hair ok? Do I have smth in my teeth? Is my face red or not? Come on, RM!!! >.< Answer me!! RM: Oh Y/N you are overdoing this situation! :P And btw, your face is great, like always!! ;) Anyway, even after all these years, I still don’t get why you like that guy this much!! -_- Y/N: Well I don’t have to say this for like the hundred time!! I just love him, ok!! Haven’t you ever liked someone in ur life? RM: Actually, yes I have liked someone. Someone really special!! But I noticed that she wasn’t really interested in me so, I let her go!! And this is exactly what you should do too, with that guy!! ;) Y/N: Noo L i can’t stop liking him!! Do you mind if we leave this place because I’m not feeling really good right now! L RM: Of course, I was thinking the same too. Just wait a sec, I will go to pay the bill!! J  Rap Monster was walking toward the paying system when he heard some people talking about him! Park: Ouu, look the nerd is here!! Haha look at his glasses guys, he looks like a ... Rap Monster didn’t show his feelings right away, but he was feeling just like a monster that moment!! >.< A monster who would like to eat the Park’s stupid head! >.< RM anyway didn’t say anything, but he payed the bill and than grabbed your arm and now you two were outside the bar. Y/N: Umm, are you ok Namjoon? I told you to take off those glasses, didn’t I? RM: Whaat?? You are on the idiot’s side, again!!! >.< Y/N: Well, I think he’s right.. I mean only for the glasses part, of course! RM: Uhhh >.< (he hit the road), I think I should go now! I will see you tomorrow, for school, right? J Y/N: What!! You will leave, L umm, oki of course I will come tomorrow, for school! ….

You arrived a bit late infront of Rap Monster house and you see that he had surprisely changed the colour of his hair <3. His hair was blue now, like yours! Y/N: Oh my, Namjoon!! Your hair!!! *o* I loove them!! But when…when did u change them? RM: Good morning btw :D, and i colored my hair blue yesterday, because BTS is going to have a comeback so, you know Big Hit!! ^^ I gotta change my hair for a new photoshoot. Y/N: Oh really?!!! ^^ I can’t wait for ur new comeback. I bet u are going to look perfect!! :* RM: Haha, :D thanks!! Well we better go now, because Ms Suziky is going to get furious!!! Remember the last time we got late!! :D She was so angry and her face was colourful!! :P Y/N:  How can i forget that day? LOL!! :D Ok, let’s go!! J..

You and Rap Mon finished the first class, and went together to ur locker because you needed to take a book for the other class. You opened ur locker and wooow *.* !!!! You see a big bouquet of blue flowers. You were speechless!! *.* Y/N: Oh my holy God, someone has never gave me smth like this!! T.T It’s soooo beautiful!!!  Rap Mon, do u have any idea who could it be? J RM: Woow I’m really impressed too!! *o* But I don’t have not a single idea for this! :P Well, Y/N who do u think it is? Y/N: Ummm..well ^^..u know who I think of!! RM: Really!! ^^ Y/N: I think Park has finally noticed how precious I really am!! ^^ <3 RM: Ooh -_-‘ yea right!! Park! It can be him, but still I’m not really sure!! While you and Rap Mon were talking to eachother, Park passed near ur locker. Park: Oh hey!! What’s up, Y/N!! ^^ Nice flowers…see ya later! <3 You started to giggle after you heard Park saying those sweet words to you!! ^^ It was like the first time he talked to you, and you were feeling so happy!!! :D But Namjoon didn’t seem so happy about this, lol!! :D Y/N: Rap Mon L aren’t u happy for me?!! I mean, I have waited for this moment all my life, and now it looks like a cat ate ur tounge!! >.< RM: No no Sorry Y/N!!! It’s just..I don’t know! Don’t u think it’s a bit weird that he just changed his mind about the relantionship between you two, I mean the thing that u have always dreamed of!! :P Y/N: Why do u think it’s weird!! He just…needed some time to make up his mind!! Ahh, and he definitely knows my flowers favour ^^, I am impressed!!! RM: Well, I’m glad you’re happy!! ^^ Y/N, do u mind if I go because I gotta go in home to take my laptop, for the book club today!! J Y/N: Oh yea, I forgot about that for a sec!! :P Of course, see ya in the book club!! Love you Namjoon!!! <3 :** RM: Byee, love uuu too Y/N!! :** …

Rap Monster left the school and he was walking alone on the way to his  house. He was feeling really akward and not really good!! Rap Mon finally arrived in his house, and his parents had gone to work. He was walking slowly through the hall, and he entered his room. RM put his laptop on his bag, but he decided to relax for a sec and think about all it happened. Since he didn’t have anyone to talk to, he was talking with himself. :D RM: Ahh, Rap Monster Rap Monster, why did u do that? (He was touching his hair) Now Y/N thinks that, that stupid guy did the flower present to her!! >.< Uhh, why didn’t she thought of me? Why didn’t she say: I think it can be u Namjoon. T.T How could she think, that a pathetic guy like Park could buy her such a sweet present. He doesn’t even know her favourite flowers. I’m the only one who knows that, I’m the only boy who really cares about her, I’m the only boy who really loves her!!!!! >.< >.< Ahhhh!!!(He throught a vase near him, to the door, and it unfortunately broke!) Oh noo, sh*t!! >.< My mom is gonna kill me, I broke her favourite vase!! T.T Well anyway, I’m dead inside so what’s the point!! L Ahh, I would be so happy if Y/N was going to like me!! Oh no no no, I’m so late for the book club!!!.... Rap Monster took his school bag and he took a quick look of himself to the mirror. :P RM: Ehh, lol :D I’m such a geek!! ….

Rap Monster finally arrived in time, and he was running through the school hall!! :P RM: Run Rap Mon, Run!!! I said run run run…!!! :D He opened the book club’s door really fast and you were laughing at him. ^^ Y/N: Finally  Namjoon!! We were waiting for u! RM: Ahh yea ^^ sorry Y/N and everyone else, I just…had.. to do smth in my house!!...I took my laptop, so are u ready guys, to finally watch the movie and than find the parts that have been deleted from the book!! ;) Everyone: Ready ^^….

The book club finished well like always, and now you were walking to the way home with Rap Mon, close you!!!<3 He had grabbed ur hand, and everytime he does that, u feel much more secure and happier!! ^^ Y/N: soo, Rap Mon, u didn’t really like Park’s present for me today right?!! L RM: Look, Y/N, it’s not that I didn’t like the present! It’s just, I wasn’t expecting Park to give u smth like that!! Y/N: Namjoon, I feel like u are going to be cold with me if I be happy with that present! L So, I can even burn or throw them on trash, if u don’t like that present!! You know I care a lot about ur feelings, so I don’t want to ruin our friendship just because of a bunch of flowers!! <3 RM: What, noo Y/N don’t u even think of that! <3 Do u know what? J Love is one of the purest feelings that a person can feel and that feeling can cause happy or sad memories, so if u really like Park I shouldn’t be the one who won’t let u to be in love. :* I am ur friend so, u don’t have to say sorry and than not even burn or throw smth LOL :D, I just want u to be happy!! If u are happy than I will be happy too!! ^^ But if he or someone else breaks ur heart, than I don’t know how many bad things can I cause to that person!! And by that, I don’t mean to have a fight with those guys!! I would just feel so so sorry for them, because they had broken a really special girl’s heart, and that is smth they would never win back, so yea that’s the suffer!! ;* Y/N: Ooh, Namjoonie!!! Those words just made my day!! <3 You are just like a philosopher!!! Aand, you should know that ur words are much more precious than a bunch of flowers! ^^ This is why u are my best friend Moonie <3!!! I love you! :* <3 RM: I love you too Y/N, a lot!! <3 Well, we better say bye now because it’s getting a bit late! Y/N: Yea, good idea!! Your words made me so happy Namjoon! :* Bye, tomorrow at the same time, for school? ^^ RM: Of course, like always!! <3 ;* I will always be with u Y/N, always!! ;) Byee!! ^^ <3….

You were getting ready for school and you always watch TV during getting ready. ^^ And what u see!!! *o* You see BTS on your screen. The news was showing the new fansign of BTS and they were skiping a bit at each member. And when it showed Rap Mon you almost faint, woow he was so beautiful!! *o* And, but not surprisly, he had changed his hair color again! :D And he looked sooo nice with that color, it was like pink! <3 He was talking with a fan and he was looking and listening at her really carefully, and he looked so cute! You can’t believe that Rap Monster is ur bestfriend. It’s a bit unbelievable to have a famous friend, but still it’s the greatest thing ever!! ^^ Well, the news about BTS finished, you get down to go to school. You opened the outside door, and whaaat!! It was another big bouquet of flowers in front of your door. But they were red roses now, and omggg they smelled perfectly! But anyway it hadn’t any note, so u weren’t really sure who made you that, again! You decided to let the bouquet in ur home, because u didn’t want to show them to Namjoon. You don’t know why, but you weren’t feeling really exciting, as the last time, that you take another bunch of flowers. -_- So you just walked through the neighbourhood to get Rap Mon. <3 He was waiting for u again, and he was so cute and tall. And, his hair was pink, like in the video you watched!! ^^ Y/N: Hey Namjoonie!! ^^ Good Morning! RM: Hey Y/N!! Good morning to you as well! So, do u like this ? Y/N: Sorry for not getting surprised for ur new hair, but I already saw them. I watched u on TV today Rap Mon!!! ^^ RM: Really!! ^^ For what? Y/N: For the new BTS fansign. RM: AAAh, yea right!! I had so much fun during that! I love my ARMYs so much, you and them make my life happier. <3 Y/N: ooh, thnx!! :* RM: I thought today was going to be a good weather, but the sky seems a bit angry. :P Y/N: Yea, lol!! :D So let’s run to school, before a rain starts.

You two entered the school, and you had a same class together today. ^^ So you and Rap Mon took ur books, and entered the class. Your seats, were near each other, because you like to have Namjoon near you. The lesson started and you were focused at ur teacher, as always, when suddenly one of ur friends give u a small piece of paper. It wrote: “Come today after school, behind the bar because it’s going to be only you and me.- Park” You were so shocked after reading that paper, and you look at Park just to be sure that he isn’t kidding. And he also looked at you smiling. What does that mean?!! Does that mean that he finally likes you!! After all these years of suffering!! Ehh, you weren’t really sure, but still, that made you happy and you were definitely going behind the bar after school. ^^ When the bell rings, Rap Mon comes near you. RM: Umm, Y/N why are you so happy! :D I mean, that history lesson wasn’t that interesting!! :P Y/N: All I can say for now, it’s that my dream can finally come true, and that I need u to wait for me after school. RM: Um, ok! :P I hope it comes true. And I will wait for you. ;)….

School finished earlier today, or maybe it just seemed to u, since you are really happy! ^^  You let ur bag to your locker and get ready to go behind the bar. You were so happy until…oh nooo!!! T.T T.T You see…Park ki..ssing with another girl. T.T Your soul just broke down. You can’t believe it!! He was such a jerk!! >.< You were full of nerves, when suddenly a rain start too. Y/N: Oh nooo **ck!!! What have I done to all of you pieces of … Even the God isn’t in my side?!!!!! UUUUuuuuuh, I hate my life!! >.< T.T You were sobbing and crying more than every other time, and you decided to leave that place and run, as fast as you can! You weren’t looking where you were stepping, you just wanted to run and leave that place! But Rap Monster notices you, and he run straight you. RM: Y/N, omgg what’s wrong? You look terrible!! O.O Y/N:  Can we just go home Rap Mon? T-T I don’t feel really well! RM: Of course, we are going home, but you need to tell me what happened? Where were u anyway!! And I don’t think that any of ur dreams came true. Y/N: Ok ok, (you were shouting!) Park send me a letter in which he wrote, meet me after school behind the bar so we can be alone, and I thought that he finally started to like me but I’m soooo stupid!! >.< I saw him kissing with another girl! And he didn’t even look at my way, it was like he just wanted to joke with me!! He is such a …. *** !!! >,< RM: Oh my, seriously, :P you are sad because of that jerk?!! I thought smth bad happened to you! Y/N: It is smth bad Rap Mon! -_-  RM: Oh come on… you can’t let him destroy ur life. Have I ever got sad, after all the bad words that he has told me? That’s right, no! Because I don’t care for people like him. Their hobby is to make other  feel bad, but that is not going to affect me, neither you!!! So come on, smile! J Y/N: I guess you’re right! I’m not going to let “the monkey face” destroy my life! :P Thanks Namjoon!! I’m so happy that you are here with me! You can’t be compared with anyone!! <3 RM: Thanks for the sweet words  Y/N, but can we stay under that place, because if you may have noticed it’s raining!! :P Y/N: Ok lol!! ;D You two were staying under a place, so you won’t get wet. <3 Rap Mon was hugging you and he gave you his jacket so you could stay warm! <3 He could feel ur heart beats. RM: Ah, here you will feel better now! ;)…Oh Y/N I need to tell you smth! Y/N: Really? ^^ What, tell me?! <3 RM: Phew ok! :) I was the one who bought those bouquets of flowers for you. I mean, I felt kinda sad, when you thought that it was Park who bought u those, and I even broke another expensive vase of my mom! :P I thought you would know that it was me who bought you those! If you remind a bit, the first bouqet of flowers was blue, like I colored my hair and than the second bouqet of flowers were pink and red, like I colored my hair again. I know that you can’t believe me, but I needed to tell u this Y/N.  Y/N: Oh my god, I am shocked! *o* Of course I believe you Namjoon, more than everything else in the world! After all, I didn’t tell you that I received a second bouqet of flowers, so since you know this, it’s obvious that it was you. ^^ And OMGG, I feel so so so so freaking sorry! ToT You might have been so sad and furious with me! L I just…I didn’t imagine that a beautiful day, my best friend would buy a bouqet of flowers for me!! I mean, it was unexpected!!  *o* But anyway I can’t get one thing. Why  did you buy me a bouqet of flowers? I mean, you have never bought me smth like that, it is weird.. Rap Monster didn’t let you to finish ur word, but grabb you next him and he started kissing you!!! ^^ You two were staying like that for a moment, and than Rap Monster stopped. His lips was so squishy and red now, because of the hot kiss that he gave you! RM: Do you get it now! J I lo..love you Y/N!!! I know you probably don’t feel the same, but I can’t even believe it myself that I love you! I haven’t felt this all the time long, don’t worry!  It’s such a weird feeling to love ur friend, believe me!! Y/N: Shhhh, Rap Mon!!! I know that feeling too, because I have been li..king you for some time too!! And I’m so happy, that I’m not the weird one! :P <3 So just come here and kiss me, again!! :*** You two started to kiss again, and Rap Monster seemed really really happy!! ^^ RM: You know what’s tomorrow right? It’s prom! And I know that we hipsters don’t really enjoy that, but I’m just thinking…would you like to be my date to the prom? <3 Y/N: Are you kidding me? Of course I want!! ^^ And btw, I hadn’t forgot for the prom, I have even bought my dress for the prom! :P So in which hour would you come, tomorrow?(shy) RM: Haha I’m so happy!!! ^^ I would come at 7! And I think I should go now, I’m so sorry I will not take you home! L Y/N: 7 is perfect… and don’t worry, I can go by myself!!! Bye, love youuu more than every other time!!! :P :* RM: Oooh, loooove you too!!! :** <3 …

The next day come!!! ^^ It was such a sunny day, because you were feeling like shining inside of you too. You were getting done your blue hair <3, and than you were trying your marvelous dress. It was such a magic dress, and you looked like a princess with that! <3 You were putting some make-up and fixing ur hair again, when you hear your door bell ring. ^^ Your Mom: Y/N come sweety, because Moonie is here! Y/N: I’m coming mom!! ^^ You paint your fluffy little lips with red, and than you were running downstairs. The first thing that you notice was, a good man, the best rapper, the coolest guy but the most important one, it was your best friend!! ^^ Y/N: Rap Mooon!!! Oh my…. You look so handsome!!! You are like a real prince!! *o* RM: Thanks cutie!! And you are my princess, for today for tomorrow and for forever! ^^ Here, take this, I thought to give you another bouqet of flowers, and this time not in a secret way! :P Y/N: Oooh, so kind of you! Thanks!! :* And omg, I can’t believe it,ur hair and the color of flowers, they are the same, again lol!! ^^ RM: Well, it can’t always be a considence right? :P <3 I think this color fits me, but I also think I will get bald almost next week because of Big Hit! :D Y/N: Haha, yep !! ;D Ur mom: Stop with chats, come close each other now, I want to take you a pic! And Rap Monster, you look so smoking today : FIREEE!!! :D RM: haha thank you Ms… . Your Mom: oK now, say prom!! You two: PROOOM!!! ^^ Your Mom: Ah, I’m going to put this photo on my facebook cover. So I have work now, and you two will need to go too. But first, come here sweety! Give mommy a kiss. :** Have fun you two! Y/N: Byee mom!! We love you too, and we won’t stay late! ;) <3 RM: Bye!! <3 ^^…. You two had so much fun during the prom, and you were Rap Monster’s girlfriend now. Yaaay!!! ^^

So that’s the story guys! ^^ I hope you enjoyed this as well, and this is kinda different from all my lovestorys! <3 The next one will be with J-Hope, and I will try to post it a bit more earlier! ;D See ya!! ^^ <3

[sachi-pon]

free! dive to the future episode 6 liveblog/review thing

HEEEYYYY WHAT'S THIS?!?! I ACTUALLY DID MY LIVEBLOG ON TIME?!?!? yes, i actually did it!! i squeezed this into my schedule. also, i wrote a lot this time for my thoughts after the end of the episode. i wrote an essay!! so, um, please read??? well, i really want someone to read it!! ;__; i kept rambling because i was imagining myself lying down on a couch talking to a psychiatrist about all of my complicated emotional issues THAT WERE CAUSED BY THIS EPISODE. o__O *eyes twitch*

my previous liveblogs:  (episode 1) (episode 2) (episode 3) (episode 4) (episode 5)

see this episode here!! http://www.crunchyroll.com/free-iwatobi-swim-club/episode-6-the-mermaid-of-the-abyss-775637

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the first thing i see is a VERY REALISTIC image of a telephone pole. o__o what do you mean it's not a photo?!?!?!?

wow, that girl is impatient. XD

he has been making that sandcastle the whole day and all he can come up with is just a big lump??? maybe if you had better sandcastle-making skills, other kids would want to be friends with you.

he read "the little mermaid" for a reason... is he reading about himself?!?!? he's a merman????

awwwww ikuya is precious ;__;

THAT YODEL!!!!! MY GOODNESS!!!! IT WAS PERFECT!!!! he needs to make an album immediately!!! XDDDDD

"haru really is gone." well i'm sorry he didn't follow you to america to continue his lifeguard career???? lol

i feel like ikuya's constant thinking "i need to be stronger" and "i can't become weak" is actually making him weaker somehow. o__o

"what can i do for him???" you have to stop and realize that you can't fix everything, hiyori.

i love how he clearly heard ikuya speak japanese and he responded in english! kawaii desu!! XD

"we've met somewhere before, huh?" wait, you guys forgot about it?? -__-

abrupt scene change... o__O

"there is one book i like." HMM, I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT IS.

yes, ikuya, it's girly. just admit it. XD

"what can i do for ikuya?" i just told you, you can't always fix everything. just because you saved ikuya before, you think you always have to be the one to "save" him from everything? but that's not realistic. you can't control everything, so you shouldn't feel like it's always your job to save ikuya.

...aaand i'm talking to a fictional character. moving on!!

HOW ARE THEY JUST HAPPENING TO ALSO READ THE LITTLE MERMAID TOO?!?!?!? i guess everyone in this area has a little mermaid obsession. okay, now i seriously want to go watch the little mermaid movie. that was not a joke. i actually feel like i want to watch it sooner or later. free! gave me the idea!!! <3

HOW IS THAT MOM JUST HAPPENING TO DESCRIBE HIYORI'S SITUATION?!?!?!?!? what the... is she psychic?? i am scared of her now. what other powers does she have?!?!?!

oh man, hiyori now has that classic look where you can't see his eyes through his glasses. that is never a good sign... lol

makoto's swimsuit <333333 i love it so much. when i think about makoto in that swimsuit, i feel like all is right with the world. i can breathe easy. i can go to sleep happy. i know that there is peace and hope in the universe.

MAKOTO'S LITTLE BLUSH!!!! <3 did you see that?!? did you all see that? he is such an angel!!!! ^___^

"what's ikuya up too? have you kept in touch with him?" OH NO, you done went there. you done went and asked the question. you done messed up, my friend.

**** AWKWARD SILENCE ****

makoto is trying to explain everything but it's not working ^__^UUU

"it's my fault." OMGGGG HARUUUUU NOOOO. STOP. NOOOOO. i'm done. i'm dead. his little quiet voice broke my heart. he feels SO guilty about all this!!! i want to give you a hug, my precious baby. <33333

oh now he's telling nao about the "suffering" thing. i thought i was already dead but now i have died again. this show is TOO PAINFUL!!!! .>___<.

"makoto and i haven't suffered at all!!" don't say that!!! the writers of this show will hear you say that and they will try to think of a way to make you guys suffer!!! that's how writers are. writers like to brainstorm ways to make our characters suffer. it's what we do. XD

having watched ikuya throughout this whole season so far, he seems to be feeling worse and worse, to be honest. =(

haha, ikuya is so clueless. um, hiyori is talking about YOU, dude!!!

haru doesn't even want to eat mackerel?!?! WHO ARE YOU AND WHERE IS THE REAL HARU??????

oh it's that shady guy again. i forget about him all the time!!!

*pauses to read all the crunchyroll subtitles for Shady Guy's blog*

haru is COMPLETELY COOL while the shady villain guy talks right into his ear. XDDDD

#cafeteriasoba #hidakauniversity #tanukisoba #sobarules

ryuuji??? he has a name? but i don't want him to have a name. i want him to continue being Shady Evil Villain Guy.

WHO IS HE?????????? now i want to know!!! >=(

i'm pretty sure you made up all those provers but whatever

wait, what?!? wait!!! what just... they are all talking about ryuuji?!?!

"he suddenly quit swimming competitively." why? i bet the reason is something bad...

haru has his excited face on, i see.

"he probably missed your calls because he's busy focusing on the next competition." sure, okay, i believe you... you've been 100% honest all the time, of course!!

hmmmmmm okay i can kinda see one reason why hiyori feels such a strong need to "fix" ikuya. natsuya has assigned that job to him!!

haru's been thinking about why he only swims freestyle... uhhh you're just now thinking about that after how many seasons/episodes??? lol

i love how makoto and haru act like this kid is a genius who just revealed a brilliant scientific discovery

*mysterious person appears* wait who is that???

i knew that wishing star thing would come back eventually. (well, duh)

"even if i sink, no one's going to save me anymore." he's talking about swimming? or... his emotions???

i had a feeling someone would start yelling soon. this scene was too quiet!!

"i couldn't become human." ha!!! that proves it. ikuya isn't human. he is a merman. like i have said before, free! is a fantasy anime <3333

hiyori??? i think that ikuya knows how to come down the slide on his own. it's not that difficult. little kids do it all the time. XD

he's on top of him. WELL THIS IS AWKWARD

that scene with their feet looks so weird o__o

"can you just forget about nanase??? i'm way more attractive than he is, so why don't you love me instead????"

ikuya finally gets aggressive toward hiyori!! i felt like that was going to happen!! but wow o___o you guys. just continue being friends already. ;__;

hiyori!!! you just told him to "forget about nanase." it didn't work the first time so obviously it's not going to work the second time!!

"sorry i just assaulted you. whoops"

omg, i want this episode to be over. it's too sad. ;__; *looks at time* uh-oh. there's time for another scene...

looks like Evil Shady Villain (i don't care what his name is) has evil plans for haru with his evil smile!!! haru... you've got to escape!! get away now!!!

that's all!!! now here are my thoughts: i was very emotionally destroyed by this episode because like i said, i noticed that ikuya kept getting worse and worse (not just his swimming times, but his feelings) and then he got into a fight with hiyori at the end. ;___; ;___; ;___; i'm so upset because hiyori is GENUINELY TRYING TO HELP and it's just not working. you saw the flashbacks where hiyori and ikuya's friendship formed. so you can see that ikuya means a lot to hiyori, which is why i said that hiyori is genuinely trying to help. plus, i pointed out that natsuya wants hiyori to watch over ikuya. so that's something that adds to the pressure on hiyori. so i felt so bad for him when first, he tried to invite ikuya to a cafe and he didn't want to go, and then, he tried to tell ikuya "stop thinking about nanase" and ikuya got mad at him for it!! remember, from hiyori's perspective, haru is just a bad person who's causing trouble. so from that perspective, it makes perfect sense that the solution to ikuya’s problem would be to stop thinking about haru. so i think it was surprising for hiyori that ikuya got mad at him. =( remember how earlier in the season, ikuya tended to be agreeable with hiyori? he went along with most things hiyori said/did. that's what hiyori's used to, and so that's why i think it was surprising for hiyori when ikuya got mad. he thought ikuya would just agree with his suggestions as usual.

ikuya actually has a positive view of haru and he does want to keep thinking about him. he is grateful for haru's rescue of him, and he wants to be "strong like haru." at the same time, he's angry at haru. but his true feelings toward haru are actually positive, which is why he rejected hiyori's advice to stop thinking about him. i don't think either of them are listening to each other. hiyori wants to fix ikuya instead of listening to him, and ikuya feels that doing things alone gives him strength, so he's not interested in trying to be fixed by hiyori or anyone else. he just wants to be "strong" on his own. ...it's not going well.

i loved the part where ikuya was on the slide and hiyori was on top of him. XD it was so dramatic. hmm, maybe i am beginning to ship them??? i don't know though, because they really need to work out their problems first. they're not quite at a point where i'm like "YEEAAAHHH I SHIP THEM, HIYORI x IKUYA 4EVER!!!!!!!" they'd be so cute if they weren't... you know... in a pretty damaged relationship right now. ^__^U actually, it's not just about this fight. even before that, their relationship was "off" to me. (not when they were kids. i'm talking about the present day) something about their friendship wasn't quite right. and so i'm not surprised that they ended up fighting.

...still, i'm hoping that they will soon work everything out and have some heartwarming moments!!! <3333

wait, i'm not done yet. i also want to say that it was so painful to me when haru said "it's my fault." there was something so broken in his voice. i could hear it. i think that every person has had situations in their lives where something that someone said or did bothered them and it continued to bother them for a long time even though it shouldn't have. you know that feeling when you can't stop thinking about something even though that thing keeps weighing you down??? it really shouldn't make you so upset, and you should let it go and not let it get to you, but you just can't stop thinking about it because you're taking it too seriously. what haru is going through right now is so relatable. 

honestly though, asahi and makoto don't seem to fully grasp how deeply this is hurting haru. asahi said that he and makoto swam with haru and were fine, and makoto agreed, but i was thinking, "haru's not going to instantly feel better just because you guys said that." when you're feeling that bad about something, one quick and simple answer isn't going to fully heal you. i expected makoto to understand how hurt haru is right now, but i'm not sure if he does!! (...which is weird.) the good news is that nao seems to have a plan, i guess. i don't have a clue what he's thinking of doing, but i'm sure that haru and the others will get through to ikuya somehow. right? RIGHT???