#utusukushii kare 2

[wen-kexing-apologist]

Sorry to any of my friends on here who have heard me say this for the third time now but I cannot get over the way Utsukushii Kare shows us the ways in which negative self-perception can impact EVERYONE.

The way that Hira believes so strongly that he is unworthy of love, that he is nothing but a servant to a God that he completely writes off Kiyoi's feelings for him. The way that Hira is so comfortable in his status a whipping boy for Kiyoi just honored to even have attention because he doesn't feel that they even belong on the same planet that he is blissfully ignorant to the harm he himself is causing to Kiyoi. The way Hira thinks so poorly of himself that he promises Kiyoi that he will never meet his parents and the way the audience can see Kiyoi's heart shatter and the way Hira can't. The way Hira says "I don't want to understand you," as if that isn't the most insulting, belittling, and tragic thing you could say to someone who loves you.

Every strong emotional outburst we get from Kiyoi in Season 1 and Season 2 stems directly from Hira's absolutely dogshit self-image and always centers on the fact that Kiyoi likes him and Hira is not doing anything to acknowledge or honor Kiyoi's feelings despite Hira claiming to like and love Kiyoi.

Hira thinks of himself so far below Kiyoi that he is almost able to obliterate three years of Kiyoi feeling comfortable and safe and secure in this relationship with the man he loves with just a single sentence.

The way that Hira is so worried that Kiyoi will leave him, that he never tells Kiyoi anything, that Kiyoi doesn't get to be a partner, that Kiyoi instead has to question his relationship to Hira because Hira's friend knows more about him than Kiyoi does despite them living together, despite them loving each other. Hira does not allow himself to accept Kiyoi's love but Kiyoi doesn't know that until he has spent three years of his life loving someone that refuses to accept that love.

And it's not like Hira isn't harmed by this too, until someone outside of their relationship points it out, Kiyoi can't see the ways in which he is, intentionally or unintentionally, exploiting Hira's devotion to him. Letting Hira cook for him every night, etc. Hira gets in his own way with the photography contest because he is so disillusioned with his relationship to people that he edits them out of his photos. I really like that Hira is called selfish to his face. Because he is.

It makes me think, and I think @bengiyo said exactly the same thing in his and @shortpplfedup's podcast episode about UK, about the conversation someone had where they were discussing with a loved one of some sort that they always worried that they were annoying them or that they secretly hated them, and the loved one said "I wish you wouldn't think of me that way."

I will be interested in seeing the movie if I can ever get my hands on it, but literally my only criticism of this show in any capacity is that I wish Season 2 was 6 episodes instead of 4 because I really wanted more time to be given to Hira learning to see or starting to understand how much he has been hurting others by refusing to accept they love him.

[retrofashionspazwhore]

FEB & MAR '23

MON - THE WARP EFFECT (11/12) W

TUES & WED - MIDNIGHT MUSEUM (2/12) W

WED - ABBOT ELEMENTARY (15/22), UTUSUKUSHII KARE SEASON 2 (4)

WED/THUR - 10 YEAR TICKET (16)

THUR - SILENT (12)

FRI - THE ISLAND PT.2 (1/6)

SAT & SUN - CRASH COURSE IN ROMANCE (15/16)

SUN - THE LAST OF US (9)

LEISURE

LOVE BY CHANCE

RUNNING MAN (EPS LIST)

OFF GUN FUN NIGHT

E.M.S EARTH – MIX SPACE

LITTLE BIG WORLD PND/PHU (12)

A FRIEND OF THE FAMILY (4/8)

SUPERSTORE SEASON 1 (11)

SUPERSTORE SEASON 2 (22)

SUPERSTORE SEASON 3 (6/22

FRUITS BASKETS (REMAKE)

SEASON 1 (2/)

BEYOND EVIL (1/16)

DIRTY LAUNDRY (1/6) W

THE GIFTED (4/13)

THE MANDALORIAN SEASON 3 (4/8)