#used to write my grandpa actual poems. like ACTUAL actual poems of the professional sort that she made up and wrote down herself to give

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diversity loss! those ppl correctly gendering u assumed you're straight..

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 I got tagged by @ostpunk to post 10 favourite pictures of yourself of 2018.

Thanks. It was mixed, but it definitely had its good moments 

I’ll tag

@autisticednygma @zombierose3 @comedy-cookie @rockystiltskin-bellamy @asongthatsingsitself @frogpuppet @morby @becausevyvyan @smashing-anarchist-poet @northern-irish-lefty @jokerteeth @sweetrevengeofthekilljoys @sweetlychaoticpeanut @inspiremexxxx

and anyone else who wants to do it

this photo, this masterpiece was taken on the 18th of October, I look like me for once, I don’t look like a sad kid or a confused girl.

I look like me, I’m an alternative art punk into graphic design and cinema who also likes to write poems and comedy on the side 

I’m a guy (still in the process of transitioning but I’m getting there), a chill long haired grunge-classic rock guy, I’m smiling which shows  I’m living life in the mellow relaxed state I’m in.

this was when I was doing my museum project and having a blast, yeah there were some mental health issues on the side but this was before that.

this photo is of me and Katie a mate I met from that “dance class” after seeing the Incredibles on July 24th.

,she was one of the few people I got along with, when we did our Britney Spears circus number, we’ve bonded from our love of the smiths,the cure and Britcom, we don’t talk about everything because she knows someone from my past who I don’t talk about anymore,but we still sometimes keep in touch.

This is a blessed image of me bowing to the lord of the swamp on October 14th 

this is from when I was in my Performing Arts showcase and a very nice classmate of mine Hana did my make-up for me, it was an amazing experience,I got to talk to people, and when I got on that stage I was like a hybrid of patsy stone and lord flashheart.

this is from when I finally finished my 12 years of Girls Brigade (religious girl scout thing I used to be in) on April 22nd while I would eventually change my spiritual path,I met some nice people there and every display gave me a chance to up my game with performing, even if I finished it off by miming with a sock on my hand, acting like Vyvyan in footloose and playing a female Alan B’stard.

Me on March 1st with a group of some of my pals from Performing Arts

Sophie,Jordan,Chloe and Sophie 

Me on new year looking like the ghost of Sharon Tate, it was an interesting day,I felt like a ticking time bomb because a dog was constantly moving about,I got to show people my poetry,I got to play Bowie’s boys keep swinging and it was an interesting day,I also got to wear my docs outside and have a meat pie for the first time, while Madness played,my uncles and aunts jived through the house,and my aunt and mum almost got me into drinking champagne, considering I wouldn’t be allowed to spit it out if I didn’t like the taste I didn’t bother,I had a good time but it was a bit too much for me.

Step Aside, for I have Big Rik Energy, carrying on his legacy into the 21st century)

there are no words for how much I adore that pan-global phenomenon or lord of misrule

because of him, I have met new people, I have expanded my creativity, I have improved my performing skills and knowledge of social politics, I’ve realised me and him have a lot in common both from our personalities and personal experiences to his characters,I love watching him, reading him and occasionally visiting him in the realms of lucid dream universes where we perform together,have the odd dance party or cigarette break or times where I can see into the afterlife and there he is chilling in the clouds, he’s like a mentor to me, 

I sometimes joke that he’s like a grandpa, (and a God,but I view that side of him seriously) considering how similar we are despite the fact we have drastically different ages and nationalities (slightly, he’s English and part Scottish-Irish while I’m Irish with maybe a bit of English but I’m not 100% sure),It’s like I’m an apprentice of sorts to him...almost like a reincarnation considering even before I watched the shows he was in I exhibited similar behaviour, personality traits and performing styles.

he’s a good mate/lord of misrule/utter legend 

he has helped teach me to be free, and while sometimes I have off days, and times where I’m lonely and full of regret, I know I’ll have my mates, offline and online, in this universe, in that universe and him.

even if spiritually communicating with him verbally is like a discord call where I do most of the talking, when I’m lucid dreaming with music, there he is, whether it’s old self, his 90s self, his regular self or one of his characters  and sometimes, he talks usually if My Generation by The Who is being played.

Christmas day was when I took that and it was a mixed day,but I stood up for my political beliefs in front of my family for the first time, after negative moments I was able to just my remaining energy to write a poem about how I feel about him, the days after I would read his marvellous book...

 I’ve opened up a lot this year, from new experiences, new people, new media  

and I know now my meaning and I should take pride in it

I am...the peoples poet

the signs are all there, I have many role models/inspirations in my life he is one of the main ones

my purpose is to bring art, peace, love and anarchy into the world

it is a joy to be the people’s poet for the 21st century

I finally know who I want to be

(Divine voice) LOOK AT ME!

Oh boi, West Side Story, that was definitely something (one of the iconic parts, was when I took the photo and instead of cheese I made them say “TANACON!”  (the experience lasted from July 30th to August 4th)

I loved that

I got to know the cast and crew and my fellow production people

I got to read out my poems to a wider audience

I still talk to some of the people from there today

it taught me about the industry, what the production aspect involves and how I’m actually very good at being in a “professional” environment, that and despite being 17, I was treating with respect and like any other “adult” crew member working there.

while Performing Arts had its ups and downs this was one decision I made in regards to the medium which I don’t regret.

Cheers to everyone I knew working there, hope your future projects work well for you~