#used to get really bad sensory overload as an adolescent that was chalked up to anxiety and bc of this dismissal i was forced into a lot | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

tamaharu · 11 months

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why is talking to parents about mental health stuff so nerve wracking like im just informing them that im planning to get an adhd assessment so they could help with insurance and im like oh man i should be shot for this

#i mean i know why. a lifetime of being implied to be super mature and can thus handle myself emotionally->i MUST handle myself emotionally #but my dad has adhd why would they care (mother once told him he doesnt have adhd on the basis of his father having adhd)#sorry venting now. the only times my parents and i have ever meaningfully engaged with my mental health is under duress lmao #used to get really bad sensory overload as an adolescent that was chalked up to anxiety and bc of this dismissal i was forced into a lot #of unwanted physical contant for a long period of time that still makes me very leery. and the only time when that was ever properly #addressed when a parents drunk friend was attempting to engage in an unwanted hug to the extent that they ripped my necklace off (lol)#i ended up crying under a desk after that lol and they had to apologize. i dont think this ever changed any other patterns in regards to my #parents approval from this sort of behavior from other (admittedly not-drunk) relatives lol #what else after an anxietything abt bugs in soap my dad was like maybe you should.. see somebody for that and then i didnt bc i was 14 lol #and then they basically had an intervention and forced me to go to a therapist during lockdown bc i could no longer hide my depression lol #but thats about it i think? and even with all that they still do not know a lot about my mental health lol. im fine btw.

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