#urinarystraining

[edgarsghost]

July. Mid. 24

Trying to prevent utis…

Was it the 3 M&Ms, the half a Diet Coke (I haven’t had in 2 months - or any type of caffeine tbh aside from green tea… I miss my shaken expressos from Starbucks and mid afternoon kregui (?). I haven’t drank since June 3rd really to be honest. Other than a nightly shot of tequila while on the road which thankfully didn’t kill me.) Was it the sip of beer? Being too tired? Stress? I don’t ask to do this to myself. I am not an addict reaching for my drug of choice with shame and regret the next morning. I am taking my vitamins, eating my veggies and fruits, avoiding everything I should (for the most part) and still this. A punishment. If I knew what was causing all this I would avoid it like the plague. But a flare… again. My bladder fine. My uthera almost feels like there’s something stuck despite me knowing there isn’t. The tests confirm it and I am just irritated. I know I’m not alone, but I feel so alone. This is UTI life. I’ve never been so obsessed with my bladder until I decided to start tracking it. This is my bladder journal now I suppose. Off to drink my life away in water. Over 100oz here we go.