#upsociety

[bloggersworld2013]

VW UP TSI, ein kleiner Rennwagen. #vwup #vwuptsi #uptsi #tsipower #volkswagendeutschland #volkswagen #uppower #vwuplovers #germanuplovers #upgehts #upgehtsblog #vwpower #upbrasil #lifestyle #up #upsociety (hier: A29)

[sillymeter]

EAT EAT FUCK THAT SHIT UPsociety if i was a catlike creature that only ate fruit actually if that was my main staple fruit and veggies and such and  whatnot and maybe some meat perhaps. i could digging in the field for pineapple

[fucked-upsociety]

my friend ana tells me i need to lose weight she is pale, her defined collarbones juts out of her skinny body my friend ana tells me that what i see in the mirror is disgusting, unlovable and a waste of space her malnourished body shivers, blue lips quivering my friend ana tells me that skinny is happiness, skinny is essential her sharp hipbones stick out beneath her flat and toned stomach my friend ana makes me do two hundred sit ups because i went over my calorie limit, my limit is one hundred and fifty cals her hollow cheekbones and visible rib cage haunts me my friend ana tells me to restrict, restrict, restrict starve, starve, starve her spine glows in the fluorescent light of the changing rooms as she demands the shop assistant for a size 2 my friend ana tells me i should love the hunger pains, because an empty stomach means a smaller number on the scales she stands up slowly, carefully because she is fragile, her head is spinning with every move, every step,  my friend ana says i should only see food as numbers, because food is the enemy my friend ana is here to save me my friend ana will make me thin  my friend ana won’t get out of my head.

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/fucked-upsociety

[bloggersworld2013]

Frozen VW UP in the winter morning. #upsofinstagram #vwup #vwuptsi #uptsi #volkswagendeutschland #upgehtsblog #mycar #winter #upsociety #germany #carlover #carlito #newcar #honor5x #forthebrave #happyday (hier: Wiefelstede)

[fucked-upsociety]

1. you're staring up at the ceiling at 2am contemplating whether to take your life or not. 2. you're creating mini scenarios in your head that causes a heat of embarrassment to crawl all over your skin and all the horrible memories come flooding back. 3. you don't know who is really there for you anymore, you're unsure of who is using you and who is only your friend because they are pitying you. 4. you're thinking and thinking and thinking, about why you can't be normal, and why is it that you feel the way you do. you're questioning everything, more and more unanswerable questions fill your mind as hours go by. 5. you push people away and then hate their guts for leaving. you blame them for not caring and helping, when you're the one who is too lost in a world that doesn't even exist. you are the one who isn't helping yourself. 6. there's a feeling that lingers inside you that you cannot explain, where you don't feel anything but yet feel everything all at once. it makes you overthink so you go even deeper into your sadness and misery. sometimes the smallest things could trigger that feeling, like waiting for someone to finally make an effort with you, but deep down you know that it's never going to happen. or waiting for that one person to call, and you know at the back of your sick, fucked up mind, will never come close to calling. 7. you want to cry because you hate everything about yourself you hate the way you are and you can't do anything about it, but the tears won't come out and you're staring aimlessly at the ceiling in hope that you could change everything about your life. 8. it's like no matter how much of a good day you've had, at night all your flaws, problems and fears all coalesce and turn you into a catastrophe. but the worst thing is, it's 2am and no one can help you but yourself

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/fucked-upsociety

[fucked-upsociety]

i could write about all the things in the world that causes pain to live in my heart, but despite all the terror in this messy world, the only person that destroys me is myself. how do i live with that? i only hurt myself and those around me, simply because of my own thoughts and voices and destructive urges i cannot control

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/fucked-upsociety