#unless its mine apparently because im my own worst critic

[aj-living-life]

I am in turmoil. As an author I've much been a writing purist who scorns fanfiction as always either crappy or a waste of talent. Then I let myself write some, just some Magnus Archives Statements which could practically be their own stories. Then I saw a cool scene in a comic and wondered how it would look in writing alone, and wrote it as a "writing exercise" to practice my descriptions, which is a place I fall short in ability. Then I saw some fanart that inspired me for a possibility and I wrote it, then later rewrote details to use it as an independent story since it was so off-canon. And then a story ended and I wrote a continuation because I was dissatisfied with the end and if the author wouldn't make it, hey, I could. Then I was dating someone who liked, read, and wrote fanfiction and would often make up tales of if we were in stories and I found myself writing those into reality like the simp I am. Then I started writing fanfiction just because I'd get a burst of inspiration to write and it's stupid to not take advantage of that since I could repurpose it later in my work. And now I've got a lot, including one of a story I think doesn't have ANY fanfiction yet and who's author would probably be delighted to find a fanfic about. So I wanna toss it out somewhere she could find it, and I do have an AO3 account at the behest of a friend years ago. And I may as well upload ALL my fanfiction if I'm uploading some, since I never share it and keep it locked up as a secret when its not bad writing at all, just not as original as I like to be. And I realized that if people like my fanfics online I could advertise my original work to those who like fanfics, I've found some favorite artists through fanart after all. So TLDR: I'm becoming a fanfic author and it feels like I've gone to the dark side.