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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago

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ugh. I felt amazing yesterday. it just felt like things were finally moving forward, and like I can actually do this (especially writing my thesis, or alternatively dealing with it if I don't manage to do that). like. I felt like a person. I don't know how else to explain it.

then today my friend visited, and then my brother and his wife and their two kids also came over at the same time. there were people here for 6 hours.

I'm so tired. I'm so exhausted. I just want to sleep for a week. but tomorrow I've got a meeting about my thesis (which is scary), and on Friday we've got to go look at an apartment. but I just want to sleep 😭

#I hadn't seen my friend in almost a year and was really looking forward to seeing her #but it was just so. much.#she's so mean. not to me. but when talking about others. very direct. it's hard to deal with for me #and my brother... yeah he is really just mean sometimes. very macho. very 'eww girl stuff is gross'#he saw my Barbie movie steelbook and made fun of it. a lot.#also my niece loooved my rainbow high dolls haha. she played with all of them (she asked first of course)#unfortunately that meant just laying them all out on the floor in the kitchen 🙃 it's not super dirty or anything. but it is the floor. in a #room that my brain considers Dirty #so it'll take a while until they feel clean again #but it's fine. it was really cute how much she liked them #I want to be social so bad but it just exhausts me so fucking much 😭#personal

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