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Und wenn sie mich jetzt verlässt, so wie alle anderen auch.. es ist einfach meine eigene schuld. Es ist immer meine eigene Schuld. Ich habe einfach niemanden verdient. Ich bin unfähig andere Leute glücklich zu machen, bin unfähig an mir zu arbeiten. Niemand hat sowas wie mich in seinem Leben verdient. Sie hat die Chance verdient ihr Leben vernünftig zu leben und Glücklich zu werden.. das funktioniert halt nicht mit mir zusammen.

Es funktioniert halt nicht mit mir.

Es funktioniert nie.

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@unendlichkeitenstille thanks for the tag 💐

Answer 10 questions and tag 10 people you want to know better!

1. Relationship Status: single

2. Fave Colour : pink and blue

3. Three Fave Foods: burger, cabbage rolls and spinach

4. Song Stuck in my head:

5. Last Song Listened To:

6. Last Thing Googled : Tom Hiddleston.. because of obvious reasons 💅🏻😂

7. Time = 16:37

8. Dream Trip: New York, L.A. and Egypt

9. Anything I Really Want: children, because I may never be able to have children so yeah, my biggest wish is to have them eventually

10: dont have 10 😃

@schwierigephase @xxonlymythoughtsxx @ifuckingmissyouinmyarms

rules: answer 10 questions & tag 10 people you want to know better

Relationship status: Single

Favourite colour: Pink!!!! 👙👚👛🐷🌸🎀💖

Three favourite foods: Vegan donuts, burritos & curry potatoes

Song stuck in my head:

Last song I listened to:

Last thing I googled: HuraWatch

Time: Almost midnight!!! 🧟‍♀️

Dream trip: The Maldives 🏖

Anything I really want: To win the lottery

I’ll tag:

@mybeaut1fuldarktw1stedfantasy @misscurvilicious @lovebabyboy @andypixels @noxlie @superbatbananaa @the-stars-are-where-i-belong @littleshyprincess @delicatedollydove @littlekittenmermaid

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I love spending time with her. She is kind and listens. She doesn't judge me for anything. She is trying to understand me, and if she can't, she asks for more explanation. She speaks to me open and freely, and she is honest. I like talking to her, it's easy and I like to just be with her and be quiet. Sometimes, it's a little awkward because we are both a little shy? But that's okay. We'll figure it out. At least I hope so. Maybe that is something? Finally?

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I don't want to be here anymore. I want to disappear. I have already lost my mind. When does my body follow? I want to be forgotten by everyone I have ever met in this life.

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I still miss you so much. I miss that we never had a chance.

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Maybe I have someone to spend new years eve with? Maybe there is finally someone ? Or am I just a plaything again? Am I being used again?

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Just a little tired and sad, nothing unusual.

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• 04.12.2022 •

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it physically hurts to be so lonely.

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Manchmal fühle ich mich nicht mehr als ein Teil meines Lebens. Ich bin nur Zuschauer aber kein aktiver Teilnehmer. Wo will ich hin? Ich weiß es nicht. Ich bin verloren. Versuche nur irgendwie durch zu kommen.

"Wird schon irgendwie"

Aber was wenn nicht?

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🖤

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at the end its always the same. nothing stays forever.

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I want to get drunk and kill myself

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Finde es so krass, dass mich das Verhalten von Menschen so sehr irritiert. Wie manche Menschen so falsch sein können. Eigentlich immer sympathisch aber dann immer wieder so hinterhältig. Warum?

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private clothing vs. work clothing

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fake smile as big as the void inside my chest