#under the weight of belief you shiver and shake like a leaf

[handweavers]

so many times i want to post lyrics but the lyrics themselves don't fully hit if you aren't hearing exactly how they're being sung like lets just sit together in a quiet room and listen to the whole song with az lyrics open

[bringmoreknives]

I DIDN'T CONSIDER THAT MAYBE I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET YOU... JUST BECAUSE I WAS SUPPOSED TO MEET YOU. thank you to @lolalovesu, @violentposed, @rotwitches, @dangersday, and @war-wornlipstick for the recommendations and letting me cannibalize your playlists <3333

i. lion’s den / dry the river; “i, the lonely tax collector, never had / such a feeling before you came.” + ii. too much / magic man; “take my burning heart / just stay the night, and i’ll keep my promise.” + iii. heavyweight champion of the year / nilüfer yanya; “so you’re a liar, a liar, girl / you know your limit.” + iv. undisclosed desires / muse; “you may be a sinner / but your innocence is mine.” + v. disorder / joy division; “it’s getting faster, moving faster, now, it’s getting out of hand.” + vi. devoted to you / spiritual front; “that’s the helpless confession that / love is not enough.” + vii. running up that hill (a deal with god) / kate bush; “if i only could, i’d make a deal with god / and get him to swap our places.” + viii. fold your hands child / cobra starship; “i know the fear is paralyzing / when nothing matters at all.” + ix. sleeping with ghosts / placebo; “soulmates never die.” + x. little pistol / mother mother; “i, well i want what’s best for me.” + xi. i caught fire / the used; “so kiss me like you did / my heart stopped beating / such a softer sin.” + xii. heaven help us / my chemical romance; “i’ll give you all the nails you need / cover me in gasoline / wipe away those tears of blood again.” + xiii. dirty cigarettes / beach slang; “tell me i’m enough, i am dying to know what it’s like.” + xiv. bite the hand / boygenius; “here’s the best part distilled for you / but you want what i can’t give to you.” + xv. love love love / of monsters and men; “you love, love, love / when you know i can’t love you.” + xvi. weights & measures / dry the river; “it’s a question of needs and not rosary beads in the end.” + xvii. nobody’s fool / shakey graves; “whether you like it or not, you’ve been chosen by god.” + xviii. my heart is the worst kind of weapon / fall out boy; “peel back your skin / and try to forget how it feels inside.” + ixx. losing my religion / frank iero and the patience; “consider this the hint of the century / consider this the slip that brought me to my knees.” + xx. jesus christ / brand new; “well, jesus christ, i’m not scared to die / i’m a little bit scared of what comes after.” + xxi. samson / regina spektor; “you are my sweetest downfall.” + xxii. no shade in the shadow of the cross / sufjan stevens; “there’s no shade in the shadow of the cross.” + xxiii. demons / dry the river; “under the weight of belief / you shiver and shake like a leaf.” + xxiv. master of art / laura stevenson; “all i could pray for is that you’d please wait for / me until i am a master of art.” + xxv. slow show / the national; “you know i dreamed about you / for 29 years before i saw you.” + xxvi. smother me / the used; “i found my place in the world.” + xxvii. love love love / the mountain goats; “now we see things as in a mirror, dimly / then we shall see each other face to face.” xviii. shrike / hozier; “i was transformed / by your grounded and giving and darkening scorn.”

+ LISTEN ON SPOTIFY OR 8TRACKS +

[cithaerons]

under the weight of belief / you shiver and shake like a leaf.

[mortuarybees]

from a west coast christian gay to a southern christian gay i gotta ask how you feel about the oh hellos (bonus track: demons (acoustic) by dry the river)

I had never heard of the Oh Hellos (see past confessions to my very small musical universe) but i love them omg I’ve added Like the Dawn to my tenderness playlist! hello my old heart is just. a really gay mood and fuck c.s. lewis but i do like the screwtape letters so i am loving dear wormwood. soldier, poet, king is a bop (also i’m all for anti-authority christianity and thus always to tyrants has inspired me to resume compiling my gay christian mood playlist). Thank you so much for recommending them!!!!

i’ve listened to demons six times on repeat now and i have teared up. also immediately going on my tenderness playlist. the whole first verse really fucks with me emotionally but also “under the weight of belief / you shiver and shake like a leaf / but death is a force, not a man on a horse / i’ll keep you safe while you sleep / we’ll fight those demons day in and day out” just makes me feel very deeply re: gay christianity, Being A Bundle Of Anxiety, but also being a very tender gay who just wants to take care of someone i love. big i will by mitski vibes.

[gggoldfinch]

When Peter Liddle said “under the weight of belief / you shiver and shake like a leaf / but death is force not a man on horse / I’ll keep you safe while you sleep / and fight those demons day in and day out” I really felt that in my soul