#umm. i think that's enough for blacklisting

[mewracle]

watched pokemon m08 tonight and drew something self indulgent btwn comms yayyyy teehee

[nightwishesworld]

Do u think Alcina would get jealous if there partner had a favourite plushie to the point she considers it competition, the only thing stoping her getting rid of it is her partner being upset 

Umm, we are talking about the same vampire, right??? Of course, she would! You guys have the best friggin ideas I swear! This was such a fun write

p/n = plush name

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Alcina Dimitrescu is not a jealous woman. 

She is the epitome of beauty and elegance, leaving no room for emotions such as jealousy to squander it. 

Yeah...right. That’s what she tells herself at least. 

To her credit though, Alcina is pretty good at keeping herself in check. Only lashing out, or asserting her dominance, as you call it, when absolutely necessary. The butcher’s son, for instance, got a taste of her rage when she caught him ogling your body like a piece of prime meat. He almost had his tongue cut out right then and there.

Alcina doesn’t do well with competition, and even though you’ve told her several times that there is no competition, she decides to weed them out herself. Can’t get jealous if there are no competitors, right?

Her jealousy doesn’t last long, she claims her spotlight one way or another. There is, however, one creature Alcina is unable to rid herself of. One that resides in her very castle. The closest any little rat has ever come to stealing her beloved y/n.

Even after long grueling days of wasting her time cleaning up Heisenberg’s messes and getting an ear full from Mother Miranda, all Alcina longs for is to crawl into bed and wrap herself in your arms. Tonight it seems the gods are frowning upon her because they have already stolen her place. She rolls her eyes at what should have been a cute display, had it been her, and instead moves to the vanity to start taking her makeup off.

Wiping away the stresses of the day helped lighten Alcina’s mood a bit. It was always such a relief to take her makeup off, knowing the day has finally ended and she can relax.

Making her way to the bed Alcina trips over the small wastebasket and curses herself for making you stir from your sleep.

“Alci, you ok?”

You sit up in bed, grabbing the sheets to cover yourself, but still keep an arm wrapped around your smaller companion. 

“Yes, I’m fine darling I-” Alcina stopped. “You know what? No. I am the Lady of this castle and I say p/n needs to leave our bed.”

“P/n is always allowed in bed!”

Alcina was too tired to start a proper argument and decides to simply give in. She refuses to hold you while that stupid plushy is sandwiched between you, effectively cock-blocking her. Its eyes mock her as it watches her toss and turn tirelessly. Alcina was not accustomed to sleeping “by herself.” The vampire felt uncomfortably bare without your body directly in contact with hers, but not bare enough to reconsider cuddling you and the plushy. Alcina is far too stubborn for that and simply chucking it to its rightful place on the floor would only upset y/n. No matter how much she loathes that plushy, she still does not want to upset you.

A smugness flashed across its cold dead eyes as it stared at her, clearly proud of its victory. Alcina only growled in response, baring her teeth like a territorial animal.

“You win this round, fucker.”

The next day was no different from any other. Alcina was kept busy with her daughters causing mayhem around the castle and paperwork needing to be done for some sort of ceremony. Naturally, when she does give herself a break, she chooses to spend it with you. This is how you ended up sitting here next to the fire, plushy at your side and Alcina by her lonesome across from you. 

“Ooh, do we still have those shortbread cookies from the other day? Or did Cassandra eat them all?”

“I hid some for you above the stove- top shelf inside the teapot.”

Your eyes lit up like a Christmas tree. “Be right back.”

Alcina nodded and turned her attention back to her book. She felt a pair of eyes on her, but she tried her damnedest to ignore it. A few intense minutes passed before she slammed her book shut. “You think you’re so special, don’t you? Just because you had them first doesn’t mean you’re their favorite.”

The plush stared blankly at her. Its silence only egged her on.

“You better watch yourself, plushy. You just landed yourself a spot on Alcina Dimitrescu’s blacklist, and no one gets off of it alive. You might have them fooled with your dapper little suit and hat but I know who you really are under all that fluff. Punk ass plushy bitch. Y/n is mine, and I do not share.”

More intense silence filled the room as Alcina was about to strike down on the innocent creature until-

“Hey Al, can you come help me? I can’t reach the top shelf.”

She gave the plush a smug grin before taking her leave. “I know someone else who can’t reach either. Coming, my love!”

Alcina sauntered out of the room only to step right back through the doorway to extend the claw on her middle finger at the plushy. Giving it the most dramatic middle finger in all of Romania.

Sometime later

The cookies were gone within minutes of settling back down on the couch. Now you were lounging across the cushions, with p/n pressed tightly against your chest, finishing the final chapter of your book. You moved to get off the couch to return your book to its shelf and pick out another classic. Before setting p/n on the cushions you place a kiss on the top of their head. Alcina pretends not to notice this out of the corner of her eye and continues to glaze over the pages of her own book, waiting for her kiss.

It never came.

You walk past her without offering so much as a smile and Alcina is sent over the edge.

“That’s it, I can’t take it anymore! Y/n it’s me or the plush.”

You look back at her, rather taken back by her sudden outburst. “Um, excuse me?”

“You heard me. It’s either me or the plush. Take your pick.”

You arch a brow and put your hands on your hips. “Well, p/n and I don’t appreciate that tone.”

Alcina rolls her eyes. “P/n isn’t real!”

You gasp and rush over to the couch and cover their ears. “How dare you! That’s a very sophisticated young man/lady you’re talking about.”

“I am sick of always coming in second to that stupid thing. You act like you love it more than you love me! Giving it a kiss and not me, how rude. We both can’t keep living here; one of us has to go.”

That got you to laugh. “This coming from the same woman who, after sending me away to sleep on the couch after an argument, comes down in the middle of the night to sleep on the floor beside the couch because you got lonely.”

Alcina blushed.

“Something tells me you won’t let me go anywhere.”

She stays quiet, only giving a huff as she crosses her arms over her chest.

“If I give you a kiss now will you stop whining?”

Alcina pretends to consider this for a moment before answering. “Will you sit on my lap?”

“Of course, my love,” you smile.

“No p/n.”

You giggle as you make yourself comfortable straddling her things. “No p/n.”

Alcina pulls you flush against her front and kisses you. “Good.” She bites your lower lip, making you gasp. She takes the opportunity to deepen the kiss and relax back into the couch. Out of sheer pettiness, Alcina cracks an eye open to see the plush staring at your display of affection. She smiled into your kiss and gives it the middle finger before focusing all her attention on ravishing you.

[lilixloveswriting]

Oasis

Summary: Late, wet from the rain, and with all her friends back home in Inaba, the reader's first day at Shujin Academy was far less than ideal. Prepared to eat her lunch alone, she'd soon realize she wouldn't after to after being approached by the school punk. Ryuji Sakamoto x F!Reader (she wears a skirt, but that's really the only gendery thing going on)

Word Count: 1386

TW: swearing, ryuji says fuck, sad reader, angst with a happy ending

A/N: I wrote this at 2 am as a distraction after crying over kpop yet again. This is incredibly self-indulgent, but hopefully someone else can read it for the same reason. Enjoy!

You dropped your bag and sat down beside it, opening up your lunchbox and unwrapping your sandwich, staring at it emptily before breaking down into tears. Today was your first day at Shujin and, well, things weren’t going great. You’d gotten lost on the way; couldn’t seem to find the damn gate for the connecting train. By the time you did, you knew you were definitely going to be late for class. People weren’t nearly as friendly in the city as they were in Inaba, and nobody seemed to want to stop and help you. The same could be said for the actual students at your school, except instead of completely ignoring you, they were quick to pass judgment, snickering as you walked into the classroom sopping wet from the sudden rain, which you had sworn wasn’t in the forecast.

Your homeroom teacher didn’t take nicely to you being late and gave you a stern scolding, muttering something about always being stuck with the delinquents before leaving for his lunch. So here you were: wet, cold, and hungry, sobbing over your quickly sogging sandwich as you sat alone in a patch of poorly grown grass promptly turning into a puddle of mud as your tears mixed with the rain. You thought about maybe calling your mom, but dismissed the idea realizing she’d only tell you to suck it up, and that the first day was always the worst. Encourage you to try and make some friends...yeah, right. Even if the other students did seem friendly, they all seemed like gossip junkies and would probably turn on you to spread a new exciting rumor given the chance. You’d rather be alone than befriend people like that.

Despite this, you weren’t fooling anyone as the thought only made you cry harder. The tears fell faster as you realized the days at Junes and the floodplain were over, they’d fade into distant memories as your friends back home carried on with their lives, soon forgetting all about you. You never understood the hype about the big city. Sure, there were more things to do, but what was the point if there was no one to share it with? It was the very definition of being alone in a crowded room.

“Oh, fuck.”

You stalled your crying with a gasp, snapping your head up and looking around. You listened intently for footsteps or a voice, but couldn’t distinguish anything between your sniffles and rain pattering on the foliage. “Hello?” You hiccuped, more embarrassing sobs leaving your throat as you grimaced at how pitiful you sounded. “Anyone...is anyone there?” You fumbled to your knees, setting your uneaten sandwich down in your bento before leaning out from behind the wall you’d picked to shelter yourself.

“Uh…” The voice came again, and just as you rounded the corner out stepped a sheepish looking boy, gritting his teeth as his hand rubbed at the back of his blond head. You recognized him from your class. His features were kind of hard to forget, plus, he’d been the only one who didn’t give you a dirty or snarky look when you burst through the door. “Yeah, sorry. I...didn’t know anybody was over here.” He slouched, sticking his hands in his pockets as he pursed his lips, avoiding eye contact with you. Not that you could blame him, you were a mess. “Umm, are...you okay?”

You snorted. Did you look okay? You didn’t have a good answer for his stupid question, so you ignored it, instead asking one of your own. “Am I in your way?”

“Ah...nahh.” He shook his head kicking at the ground. “It’s cool, I was just gonna do some...stuff.”

You scrunched up one side of your face, eyes drifting from his face to the grass outside of your hiding spot. If you were judging just based on his hair, his posture, and the way he’d phrased that last sentence, you wouldn’t be able to think it was anything but drugs. But that was probably how everyone at this school thought, and you were different from them.

“N-nothin shady or anythin!” He said, raising his voice and taking an assertive step forward.

Yeah, no, never mind. It was definitely drugs. “Okay, well, sorry. I’ll get out of your way.” You wiped your face with your sleeve, kneeling back down to pack up your bag.

“Uh, no! I mean, you can stay. Uh…” He toed the ground some more, a frown on face. “It didn’t look like you were done with your food, so.”

You shook your head and cleared your throat with a sniffle. “I’m not that hungry.”

He somehow managed to slouch more as he watched you zip up your bag. “So, you’re new, huh?” He asked and you faltered, glancing up at him and brushing the raindrops off of your forehead.

“How’d you tell?” You scoffed, your own joke only making you feel more embarrassed.

He shrugged and you laughed a bit, shaking your head. “Pack an umbrella in your bag,” He said. “It’s saved my ass about a million times.”

“Oh,” You blinked up at him and nodded. “Thanks for the tip.”

“Uh-huh.” He said, then bent over, bracing his palm on the ground and he lowered himself onto the wet grass. “So, why are you eatin in the rain? There are covered spots you can eat, ya know?”

“And let everyone witness my breakdown? No thanks.” You laughed beside yourself, hands resting on top of your backpack.

“Heh,” He smiled, “Well sorry, you probably won’t gain any popularity points talkin to me.” He said, placing both of his hands in the grass and leaning back, lifting his head to look at the sky.

“Why not?” You watched him a moment before following his gaze. “You seem nice enough.”

He shook his head. “I’m trouble, haven’t you heard?” He glanced at you. “Thought teach woulda toldja.”

“Hmph,” You snickered, “Well by his standards, I’m pretty sure I’m trouble too.” You told him and felt some of your anxiety melt away when succeeding to make him chuckle. “Um, I’m Y/N.” You introduced yourself quietly, still feeling a little shy, but this was the only person who had bothered to even offer up a conversation all day, and you were kind of starving for human interaction.

“Ryuji.” He said, and lifted his hand when he saw you’d outstretched yours, but faltered when it came off if the ground caked with grass and dirt. Ryuji apologized, rubbing away the muck carelessly onto his pants. “Eh, it’s not so bad here. I mean, it’s shit cuz it’s school, but it ain’t awful once you make some friends.”

You gazed at him and sighed, eyes rolling down to the floor. “Yeah…I’ve kinda been struggling with that part.”

The bell rang and Ryuji heaved a sigh, rolling his weight onto his left hand and pushing himself back to his feet. “Welp, if you don’t mind a few rumors, me and my friends are always lookin for more people!” He beamed, offering you a hand, which you gratefully took.

You brushed off your butt, sure your skirt was probably stained, but you didn’t care so much at this point. You needed to get out of these wet clothes anyway, you could probably just change into your gym uniform.

“Here you go.” You looked back up to see Ryuji shoving something at you eagerly, taking it into your hands to realize it was an umbrella.

“Oh, no.” You quickly shook your head, holding it back out for him to take, but of course he refused. “Please, I can’t take this-”

“Then just use it ‘till you get your own.” He said zipping his bag back up and readjusting it on his shoulder. “You’ll get sick if you don’t use one, and then how will you make friends?”

You snorted, breaking into the first true smile you’ve made since moving to Tokyo. “Thank you, Ryuji.”

“Uh-huh!” He nodded with a grin, then turned away and began walking back to the building. “You better hurry up, if you show up late to class with me you’ll be blacklisted.”

You giggled, jogging to catch up to your new friend. To you, being blacklisted with Ryuji definitely didn’t sound like the worst case scenario.

[spidersfanfics]

Maid of Time

Mallek x Goldblood Maid Reader | Self indulgent | SFW don’t worry

Y/N is a gold blood working at a maid café which does date auctions. Tonight's lucky bidder was Mallek, but it seems his motives were not all personal...

Technically gender neutral? But it makes more sense if Y/N is female, or at least fem. Just cause, ya know, maid cafes.

You took a couple of deep breaths in front of the mirror and fixed up your outfit. Date time was in five minutes and you weren't sure what to expect. Best to be mentally prepared though, the big spenders tended to be... Interesting.

"That was quite the bidding war for you," the voice of one of your co workers interrupted your thoughts and you turned around with a jolt.

Stood behind you with a teasing smile was Elania, a burgundy blooded girl who you'd worked with for quite some time now.

"Huh? Oh, yeah," you said almost sheepishly. "No doubt they want the novelty of seeing a gold blood play maid," and you weren't just saying that either.

You were usually the highest caste in the act, with everyone else being rust and bronze bloods. After all gold bloods tended to be more useful with their psionics and didn't typically have to resort to such measures.

Not much demand for a gold blood with half burnt out eyes though.

Elania shrugged, "Maybe, but hey if it brings the group more money, right?"

"Happy to help," you laugh and head off towards the room that had been set aside for your date.

"Stay safe," Elania called after you.

That's hardly up to me, now is it, you thought to yourself. Taking one last breath, you plastered a cheery smile across your face and pushed the door open.

The first thing you did was take in the client. After all, it had been hard to get a good look at him from the stage.

The troll before you was dressed in a casual hoodie and didn't look up from his palmhusk when you entered. A cerulean blood, so not too high up but still rich enough to be dangerous. Not to mention the piercings and intimidating undercut, though his sign seemed strangely familiar.

"Hello, sir," you started.

"Don't bother," he cut you off.

You blinked in surprise, "Pardon me?"

He shook his head with a lazy smile, "Two things. One, I didn't actually want to be here. A buddy dragged me with him. Two, the guy I was bidding against was a fucking creep."

"Oh, right, thank you sir-"

"Please, call me Mallek."

You sighed and dropped your persona, "You really aren't into this, are you?"

He grinned, "Nah, meat space isn't usually my scene. I just recognized that guy from a forum and knew he was kinda shitty. Wanted to help out."

You thought about it for a second, "He wasn't an indigo was he? Sharply dressed with the blunted horns?"

Mallek's eyes widened in surprise, "Spot on, he come here often?"

"Technically he's blacklisted but security doesn't really care if a couple of lowbloods get roughed up a bit," you huffed and gestured to the couch Mallek was lounging on. "Can I sit down?"

"Oh yeah, of course," Mallek said, scooting over to give you some space. "I'm actually surprised this place has a gold blood working. I mean, my buddy told me that was the main draw of this place but I thought that might be a publicity thing. Don't you have that whole living battery thing going for you?"

You shook your head, "Burnt out my eyes in a power surge a couple of sweeps ago. Hence why I couldn't even tell who was bidding for me. They don't let me wear glasses on stage, says it ruins the look."

You fished your glasses out from your pocket and put them on, "Ta dah."

Mallek laughed and pulled out his own pair of glasses, "We match."

"Isn't that fun," you said, laughing as well. Despite your initial hesitation, you felt yourself relax. "So, you mentioned that this wasn't quite your thing. What do you do then? Surely something lucrative to be able to afford this, I mean, you dropped quite the sum."

He shrugged, "It's really not that interesting. I troll forums every now and then but for the most part I look at robots. And keep an eye on whatever the hot topic of the hour is."

Suddenly, you realized why his sign seemed so familiar, "Wait a second, are you snakeBytes?"

Mallek seemed genuinely caught off guard by this. "Oh damn, and here I thought I'd been keeping a low profile. Do I know you?"

You shook your head quickly, "No, you wouldn't. But I know someone who worked for you for a bit. And well, when a highblood starts getting caught up in hacker business, golds tend to be the first to know."

"Fair enough," Mallek chuckled. "Yeah that's me I guess. Though I prefer the term information specialist," he joked

"Oh of course," you laughed, "My mistake."

Mallek smiled, "I take it you know about the drone stuff then?"

"Sure do, my friend was real grateful for the first aid stuff you rerouted her way as payment."

Mallek grinned, "Oh hey I remember her, tell her I said hi."

"Will do."

"Enough about me though, let's talk about you," Mallek leaned forward, "Why do you work in this place? Besides the faulty psionics I mean."

You raised an eyebrow, "I thought you didn't care about the date."

Mallek actually looked flustered at this and cleared his throat, cerulean dusting his cheeks. "I don't, but I wasn't expecting you to be quite so interesting."

You laughed, "How sweet of you, Mr-" you paused.

"Adalov," Mallek prompted, "But really, just call me Mallek."

"Right, well to answer your question, I work here because it's safe. No one cares too much about what we do in our free time. And sometimes, if we treat a highblood well, we get a powerful regular who can boast about how much of a philanthropist he is."

Mallek clicked his tongue in disapproval, "You guys serve clowns here?"

You shrugged, "Who are we to stop them."

"That sucks."

"It is what it is." You shook your head in resignation, "I feel pretty confident I won't get culled working here, as long as I'm nice to the clients. And really what more could I ask for?"

Mallek thought about it for a moment, "You could work for me."

You frowned, "Mr. Adalov, I am not a charity case."

"It was a genuine offer," Mallek said quickly, putting his hands up. "I'm sorry if I offended you..." he trailed off, "I don't believe you ever gave me your name."

"You know it, Maid Cipher, it's on all the signs."

Mallek chuckled, "Right, cute. I meant your real name. Your stage name feels, well staged, for lack of a better word."

You hesitated, "I'm not really supposed to say."

"I won't tell."

"Fine, it's Y/N."

"Y/N," Mallek repeated, "I like it."

You blushed, "Thank you."

"So, Y/N. I meant what I said, you could come work for me. I'm sure I could find something more comfortable for you. You said you kept up with digital news?"

"More or less, I don't personally do much of the hacking but I worked with code before the power surge," you explain. "I still keep up with it now, albeit with everything powered the old fashioned way."

"Not by your brain," Mallek finished.

You laughed, "Exactly."

A flash of movement caught your eye and you looked down to catch Mallek hesitantly reach out for you, his hand hovering over your own. You watched him in amusement as he spoke, "Yeah so, I'm sure I could find you something, and then we could get to know each other better too."

Cutting to the chase, you took his hand in yours and smiled at him, "Mr. Adalov, are you perhaps enjoying this date more than you care to admit?"

Mallek was well and truly blushing at this point as he stammered out a reply, "I, umm. Maybe? I guess I didn't really know what I was getting myself into. But you're actually really nice to talk to. And umm, cute too."

You laughed, "Quite the flatterer. As for your offer, I appreciate it but I couldn't leave my girls here. We're friends and my novelty brings in a good amount of cash. No matter how awful that sounds, I have to stick around."

Mallek nodded, "I understand. But uhh..." he trailed off awkwardly and rubbed at the back of his neck. "Could we perhaps go for coffee sometime? I'd like to see you more."

"I think I'd like that Mr. Adalov." You held out a hand, "Give me your palmhusk and I'll give you my number."

"Oh! Yes, that would be lovely," Mallek said hurriedly and handed his palmhusk over to you.

You entered your number into his contacts happily and as you handed the device back, your bracelet gave a loud beep. You looked at the clock on the wall and sighed, "Well, that's time up."

Mallek pouted jokingly, "Aww, already? Time flies, huh?"

"Sure does," you laughed and pointed at the door behind him. "You can exit the way you came, I trust you'll find your way with no problem?" Without waiting for a response, you stood together.

There was a moment of awkward silence until you took his hand, lifted it up to your lips and kissed him on the back of the hand. "Have a good day, Mallek."

You winked at him as he stared at you in stunned silence and left the room.

[imaginethathaikyuu]

kinktober 2020 faq // prologue

alright mothers and fuckers, kinktober is right around the corner and just like last year, we got an faq! 

i’m making this post to answer some faq’s and to preface the event, that way there’s one place you can all find all of my kinktober info. (yes a lot of this is copy and pasted from kinktober 2019′s faq, cuz i am Lazy)

PSA: if you’re not into this event and don’t wanna see the posts, please blacklist the “kinktober 2020″ tag, as that’s the tag i’ll be using throughout the month for my kinktober fics! 

ok now take this faq:

what is kinktober? - definition taken from fanlore: “Kinktober is a multifandom prompt based challenge that encourages the creation of erotic fanworks, mostly fanfiction and fan art, that focus on specific kinks. Taking place during the month of October.” so basically its just 31 days of smut

what prompts are you using? - these, a prompt list created by myself 

can i use your prompt list for my own kinktober event? - sure thing, go for it! you can credit, or not, i don’t mind either way 

what does X prompt even mean? - a lot of the prompts this year aren’t technically kinks, they’re just... prompts. it was more fun for me that way. i recommend using google for ones that seem foreign, but there will be definitions or explanations in the note on the fic for those that need them

what characters are you including? - the character list isn’t being posted, characters will be revealed as the scenarios are posted. you know, to add some suspense

is X character included? - if the character you’re wondering about is quite popular, then yea, probably. if not, then, who knows. many people have asked about specific characters, and sometimes i answer, sometimes i don’t. i like keeping things a surprise, so i tend not to answer, but sometimes i like to throw yall a treat and let you know who’s in once the event starts, i won’t be answering any of those questions. just wait and see! 

why didn’t you include X character? - there are only 31 days of october, but there are more than 31 characters in haikyuu. because of that, some characters had to be left out. there was nothing i could do to change that. because of that issue, i held a kinktober roster poll a few months back, and the characters who received the most votes were picked first. after that, i chose those who i wanted to include. if you want to see a kinky scenario for someone who isn’t included, i do take requests after kinktober ends, so visit my ask box!

what time are scenarios going to be posted? - i’ll have posts scheduled (hopefully) most days, probably around 3 pm EST. for those that aren’t scheduled, honestly who knows the time i’ll post them (if they aren’t scheduled that means they aren’t finished yet.) i work a couple days a week, so that throws a wrench into times i can post - i really just recommend turning on my post notifications and being patient. please don’t ask when or if i’m posting it - even if they’re not on time, they’ll be up, don’t worry 

isn’t this a bit too much smut? yep

i thought i’d include some questions i received on the kinktober poll i put out a few months back, just to spice things up and answer some concerns more directly: 

- perhaps go a little further or explore each concept more? your writing is beautiful but for a lot of the fics i felt a tad underwhelmed. Or maybe i'm just really thirsty and wanted more smut lmao

- Maybe make them a little longer (?). I know it’s a lot of work. I could never do what you do so I’m not trying to demand more of you. So please don’t take it that way. I just enjoy longer reads in general. Idk please don’t be offended. I love your work so much.

- I would like it if scenarios were a lil longer but if that’s not possible that’s completely okay! That’s just me being picky bc I rlly don’t have any criticisms

- this was by far the most common comment i received (i only showed three here but there were More.) to be honest, i think i could have done a better job at wrapping up the fics last year. i think the issue was that a lot of them just ended, because i didn’t have the time or energy or ideas to end them well, and that tends to leave the reader thirsty for more unfortunately, the idea of making each fic longer in a way that adds more smut rather than just wrapping it up nicely at a good enough spot is nearly impossible because of just how much work that adds. it’s a lot less efficient to add 1k words to a fic that needs to be posted the next day, when i haven’t even started the fic that’s going up the next week yall are thirsty. there are 31 days of smut and yall still want them to be longer. THIRSTY!!!!! however there are much longer fics this year, so hopefully i can feed you all well :p

Umm there were a couple that had a one-sided kink and the other partner never got pleasured. Whether it was the reader or the character. Like the Tendō one or the Futakuchi one. Favs of mine, but they ended with the implication that more would happen but we didn’t get to see it. And I know it’s not part of the kink, but it’s be cool to include how it plays out from there if you could cos I always love seeing both sides pleased! Sorry if that’s weird

- yeah, that was kind of the point of a few of the kinks i featured last year, and again i think it’s just a matter of ending those stories better. i really hate when fics end in implications for more, it honestly is the lazy way out of a fic, but sometimes as a writer who’s posting a lot at once, i have to take the lazy way and accept that the fic could’ve been better if i had the time or energy or skill for it. i don’t like the idea of kinktober being quantity over quality, but there are rare times where i just have to make that exception in order to succeed with the event. what can ya do! 

tbh i wasn't really a fan on semi's! it was great to read when it came out but it was kinda weird to reread when it wasn't halloween

- all i’ll say is i probably should’ve taken this feedback into consideration before writing semi’s fic this year ... anyway 

Probably just more research on the said kink(s) you’ll write.

- not sure which fics or kinks this was in reference to, but yeah you’re right i could’ve done more research for a few of them. but sometimes mistakes happen, like with oikawa’s when i got two kinks confused and had to change his prompt last minute, and things slip through the cracks of my small brain. and as much as i can research, i’ll still never know everything about every kink i write about. i think most of last year’s fics captured their kinks well enough, though! 

Make some more of the stories, one-shots, type things gender neutral if possible

- i always try my best! it can be tricky with smut but it can be done, and i do always try. i’m wondering if it would be okay or helpful for some to label some fics that don’t include pronouns/gendered language but have a “fem presenting” reader as “afab reader,” mainly because it’s tricky to write smut without mentioning body parts, however avoiding gendered language when writing is much easier. if it would be better than labeling those it applies to as “fem reader” then i would much rather go with that to make more of my fics accessible to more people! i’m not sure if that’d be helpful or correct, so please feel free to give me feedback on this if you have any insight and correct me if this wouldn’t be cool!

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please be patient with me when it comes to answering asks and posting these scenarios. i’m kinda pretty stressed about failing, and i’m trying my hardest - even though i started writing these in july, it still feels like there’s not enough time to prepare.

thank you for giving me a reason to even have events like these. i love you all, dear friends, and i appreciate every bit of support you offer me. thank you so much for your excitement, the kind words you’ve left in my ask box and on the kinktober poll, and for supporting my writing at all. i hope you’ll all enjoy this next month of smut! 

[lordseochangbin]

50 shades of changbin: the end

a/n: wow.. my first long ass fic coming to an end, this is sad lol anyways! thank you reading <333

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jisung stood outside your door, a bottle in his hand and a smile on his face as he remembered what happened the last time he dropped by. 

after a few knocks, you opened the door, thanking the gods that you two had the same attire on. you wore a casual white tee with black sweatpants and he wore just about the same except with a blue printed tee and a beanie. 

“come in” you seductively said, making him laugh as he placed the bottle on your kitchen counter.

“so pasta? give me a bite” he requests as he grabs the cooking spoon from the counter and takes a bite of pasta over the stove.

“jisung!”

“what? it’s tasty”

---

meanwhile, it looks like hannah and changbin are enjoying their first date. holding hands, candle light dinner, privately booked restaurant… all the cameras flashed inside- almost blinding changbin and testing his patience.

“how much longer do we have to be here?” changbin asked with an annoyed tone.

hannah smiled back at changbin, gritting her teeth, “until the press sees that we’re a happy couple”

“you don’t seem too happy with all that food on your plate” changbin remarked, leaning towards her across the table and holding her hand.

“just lost my appetite looking at your face” she replied, rolling her eyes

“aww, do you want me to feed you?” changbin asked in a baby-like tone

hannah cocked her head to the side, noticing some of the press leaving. “thanks changbin, but i’d rather shove it down my throat”

“i know what else you can shove down your throat…” hannah’s eyes are bulging from changbin’s words before she could kick his shin under the table. 

“changbin, why are you making this so hard for me?!” hannah asks, dropping her fork on the plate 

“i’m sorry, what did you say? ‘hard for you’?! right because being blackmailed to leave my girlfriend and watch her flirt with some other guy in front of his own building isn’t hard enough” changbin saying in a mono-tone voice, trying his best to keep a smile on his smile as his heart does that thing again. the thing where it feels like his heart is sinking inside him. 

he used to be stone hard, in more ways than one i guess you can say, girls coming in everyday and never appealing to him. now he feels like his heart has hit an iceberg, tragically falling apart and sinking underwater. 

“changbin…” hannah whispers in shock, taking his hand in hers before changbin could casually pull away.

“don’t- you’ve been such a bitch to her. can you just tell her about this? please?”

“changbin you know i can’t-”

“please” he repeats, his voice cracking at the single piece of hope left. “i don’t want her to hate me forever hannah, i can’t”

hannah stares at the floor, thinking about how to explain the whole situation to you before looking up to changbin. “fine. i’ll talk to her tonight.”

----

changbin drops hannah off at the front of your apartment complex, looking up to see the lights on in your apartment and sighing in relief.

“are you sure you don’t want to come with me?” hannah asks for the third time on the way here. changbin nervously shakes his head before looking away.

“okay then, i’m not sure how long i’ll take so if it takes too much time just let me know and i’ll take a taxi”

as soon as the elevator makes that ‘ding’ sound, hannah head is filled with thoughts. maybe she should just tell you everything. from the drug case, the secret lover, the fake relationship with changbin, the blackmailing. 

she was never good with words, but she knew once she started talking she wouldn’t stop. she was going to tell you everything.

wiping off excess sweat on the sides of her jeans, hannah musters up some courage and walks up to your door, giving it a few knocks. after a bit of time, she stares at the floor thinking maybe you didn’t want to see her before the door could open.

“look y/n i’m sorr-” you jump in your seat at the familiar voice, running to the door that jisung opened as you pull hannah into a hug.

“hannah, what are you doing here?!” you ask 

“y/n! what is this piece of shit doing here?” she asks, throwing your arms off her as she goes to confront jisung.

“hannah.. hannah look-”

“stop! you don’t get to talk to me jisung. you don’t get to say anything!” hannah screams, bursting into tears. you pull hannah into a hug, wiping her tears as she found comfort in the crook of your neck.

she’s full on sobbing as jisung tries his best to look away, “look.. umm.. maybe i should go..”

but you’re not sure what’s going on. “look, i’m sorry but do you two know each other?”

before the question could leave your lips jisung was out the door.

“y/n..” hannah says, wiping her cheeks with her sleeve.

“what’s going on hannah?!” 

“i-it’s kinda a long story?”

“and i have lots of time, considering my company just ran out the door”

----

“have you read any of the articles about how i got arrested?” hannah abruptly asked as the two of you sat on the couch.

“no?? i was curious but i had no time to, why?”

“well jisung, he’s a cop. he had me arrested.”

“what do you mean?!” you replied in a shocked tone, leaning closer to hear what she had to say.

“jisung and i go way back, i suppose. we dated a bit, and i honestly liked him until i got into the drug scandal. once my name was blacklisted to the public, he asked me to see him so he could help.. but he betrayed me and got me arrested”

you looked down into the palms of your hands, wanted to slap yourself a thousand times. “s-so…” you wiped your sleepy eyes trying to comprehend the whole situation, “jisung, the guy who was just in my house, had my best friend arrested.. who was also his past lover”

“yeah…”

“and my best friend is now dating my boss…”

“OH right! about that, we’re not actually dating”

your eyebrows creased as you stared at her dumbfounded, “hannah?! what do you mean??” 

she let out an exhausted sigh,  taking your hand in hers as she explained. “i just needed him to date me for awhile to get my name out of the papers”

“and you didn’t think about telling me??”

“i couldn’t risk getting caught! if the media saw you with him everyone would know i’m lying!”

“jesus hannah.. seriously. you’re telling me this whole thing was set-up?”

“it’s actually very annoying, but yes. changbin is an annoying asshole by the way” hannah added, making you laugh

“tell me about it”

she leaned on your shoulder, making you unconsciously lean on her head as she whispered, “friends again?”

rolling your eyes, you tickled her side making her fall off the couch before agreeing. 

“fine… friends again”

once hannah leaves, the familiar car leaving your house late at night, you’re forced to think about how changbin must’ve felt this entire time. the way you shaded him must have been hard enough, but you knew it must have been hard to keep such a secret. 

----

a few knocks are heard at your door as you get ready to leave. you’re surprised by the familiar face. “jisung!” you sarcastically exclaimed. 

“oooh, you told you everything didn’t she?” jisung replied back with a cringe face.

“yeah but don’t worry, at this point i’m just trying to understand everyone’s viewpoint” you chuckled, the sleepless night you just had bound to take its toll on you before jisung hands you a coffee. 

“well if it helps…”

“thank god, i seriously needed this”

you two arrive at the company building, jisung opening the door as you walk out. 

“thanks for the ride ji, i’ll see you later?” 

“of course” he winks, watching you before you head inside. 

changbin can’t believe his eyes. seriously? after last night this dumbass is still hanging out with him?

he gets out of his mercedes, throwing the keys at the valet. “park at the front, i have something to deal with.” 

jisung’s in the midst of getting inside his car before changbin steps in. if a punch couldn’t be avoided, it could definitely be stopped by a guy who’s had three years of training as a cop. 

jisung could only flinch at changbin’s attempt to swing at him, his hand on changbin’s wrist as he smirks. “think you forgot i’m a cop sir”

changbin pulls his arm away from jisung’s grasp, pouting at the print around it as he looks up at jisung. 

“look, if you’re going to date y/n just treat her well-okay?”

“date? y/n and i are just friends” jisung replied, leaning back against his car.

“oh… well i’m changbin, her boss.. i just wanted to check up on her”

jisung nearly chokes on his breath at the introduction. “w-wait what’s your name again?” 

“seo changbin…”

“fuck, oh my god” jisung laughs, patting a hand on changbin’s shoulder as he remembers the name that you moaned in the middle of your… your night. “you’re one lucky dude changbin”

“what do you mean?” changbin asks, a face expressed with confusion as he pulls jisung’s hands away from him. 

“bro, she still likes you. she likes you a lot. believe me”

“for real?” changbin asks, feeling bad for all the times that he believed you had gotten over hi”m. 

“seriously, yeah” jisung was cut off as hannah walks up to changbin, hugging him from behind. 

“there you are handsome” hannah whispers, kissing changbin’s cheek as he scrunches his face up in an unpleasant way. 

“did you just kiss me?” changbin replies, disgusting from the gesture. 

“just go with it” hannah mutters under her breath, completely ignoring jisung’s presence. 

“anyways! enough talking with backstabbing idiots” hannah states, gesturing at jisung as he glares back at her, “let’s just go inside”

grabbing his arm, hannah walks away, making sure to kick jisung’s shin as she walks out.

“shit!” jisung exclaims, grabbing his shin in pain as he hops inside his car. 

“she still knows how to make pain with pleasure” he laughs off to himself, rubbing his leg before driving off.

----

you’re typing away at your desk, not sure how to approach changbin after learning the whole situation. it’s awkward, you even moved your stuff to the main desk the other day to avoid both hannah and changbin. after you and hannah reunited, she’s been switching off between the two of you, trying to get you two to make up. 

“come on! just talk to him!” hannah urges as you try to ignore it. 

“he’s busy hannah, and so am i. just drop it”

hannah walks away unsatisfied before seeing changbin’s eyes glued to the screen. 

“hannah?” he asks, showing her the current news. 

“yeah?” she joins him at the desk

“your face is off the news, i think everyone has forgotten it”

you roll your eyes at the paper in front of you, realizing it needs changbin’s signature. getting up from your seat, you drag your heels to his door before stopping at the sound of his voice. 

“let’s call it off now, okay? i can’t stand lying to y/n anymore.”

“honestly changbin i can’t either, maybe i should call it off tonight.. i’ll contact my manager”

“sounds good, so this?” 

you peek inside to see changbin standing with a piece of paper in your hand. 

hannah points at it before saying, “shred it” 

the contract is shredded before the two of them shake hands. “release my nudes and i’ll sue your ass” changbin smiles at hannah before she replies, “funny because i never had your nudes- deleted them a long time ago” 

you watch as hannah turns around, looking for the nearest place to hide before resorting to the plant near his door. 

“i saw you y/n, now go inside, he’s all yours” she winks before walking away. 

peeking inside, you see changbin stare at his phone. he seems busy, quickly making a phone call and you realize you caught him at a bad time. you slump back over to your desk, calling one of the assistants to get him to sign it. 

maybe you’ll stop by another time. 

----

walking past the mob of cameras, hannah hides out at a nearby bar. thank god this bar is a place where no one goes, otherwise she’d be screwed. 

“i need a drink” she mutters to herself, sitting at the bar table as she taps the lonely guy next to her.  “what are you having?”

“a martini blue- oh” jisung turns around, in shock at the face next to her.

“it’s you” hannah glares at him, the bartender passing by and she requests, “i’ll have what he’s having..”

jisung stared ahead of him, eyes fixated at the lines of beer bottles held up against the wall before asking, “why would you even want to sit next to me? don’t you hate me?” 

a hint of sorrow was heard in his voice, making hannah turn her seat to face him. “i don’t hate you jisung, that was my problem- it had be called out at some point”

the sounds of laughter and club noises were muted out as a stray tear left jisung’s eye.

“i’m really sorry hannah.. i just wanted to help” 

hannah’s hand only went to wipe the tear off, taking his face in her hand. “i know jisung.. i know” she smiled before pecking his lips. 

----

when the assistant dropped the papers you asked her to sign for you, you grabbed them from the floor. 

“changbin wants you to come and ask him to sign these, sorry miss” you roll your eyes at his request, leaving the papers on the floor

“that’s alright, i’ll just chat with him then.” 

you straight up your shirt before walking towards the room. the familiar doors open once you press your card against the reader, changbin’s face looking up from the stack of papers on his desk. 

“changbin, i quit.” you simply state, throwing your card on his desk as he runs over to the other side to stop you.

“wait y/n don’t do this-”

“don’t do what? it feels so awkward just seeing you and none of us are making a move to-” you stop mid-sentence as changbin presses his lips against yours, taken aback by his sudden action. 

“changbin..” you breathe out, wrapping your arms around his neck as he presses you against the desk. 

small kisses are felt on your neck as he whispers, “i’ve been waiting forever to talk to you.. i assume you know what happened with hannah” 

“i do..” you can't help but to grab his hair as he sucks on your collarbone. 

“so you know that i never loved her y/n, i only loved you this entire time”

“i-i know” you stutter as his hands reach to remove your shirt. 

“are you really going to quit? after all of this?” changbin asks, looking up at your blissed out figure 

“i think so changbin, it was fun while it lasted but i’m not sure if i could keep it up”

“perfect, then i guess it’d be fine if i fucked you against this desk right now? right?” he chuckles.

“changbin!”

“what? i am my own boss” he winks, removing his coat as you run your hands over his clothed abdomen.

“then come here mr.seo” you laugh, pulling him closer by his tie as he turns you around, head pressed against the desk as he tucks your skirt down. 

“this ones for your last day” he says, unzipping his jeans before you feel his member pressed against your ass. pumping his member a few times, you turn your head slightly to see his cock covered in pre-cum and before you know it, your nails dig into the wooden desk as he thrusts his member inside you. 

“fuck!” he hit your g-spot so well you couldn’t even help the noises that passed your lips, changbin didn't seem to mind though. his hands held your waist tightly as he continued his assault on you. 

he threw your head back at how you took him in, his pre-cum itself was enough lube to make him stretch you out so nice. hands grasping onto the edge of the desk, you feel your breasts press against the platform. 

the friction past uncomfortable before you feel changbin’s hands palm your breasts, whimpers leaving your lips at the way he stuffed you with his cock. you felt his heavy breaths near your ear as he collapsed onto your back, still thrusting harshly before letting out one last groan as he cummed inside you. 

you let your cheek press hard against the desk as you finally reach your orgasm after him, your heavy pants filling the room before changbin could peck little kisses on your shoulder. 

“i love you so much y/n” he whispers into your ear before pulling out. you close your eyes at the sudden stretch out near your core before turning around. 

“i love you too changbin” you smile into the kiss he pulls you into, arms wrapped tight around your waist before he could ask, “so you’re still going to stop by and visit right? because my lap needs to be occupied at all times”

“shut up changbin.”

“it’s true!!” he grins, fingers drawing circles on your lower back as he seats you on the desk. 

“i’m sure we could arrange something mr.seo” you wink before he could fit his figure between your legs. 

“now round two?”

[takethistoyourgrave2003]

rules: answer questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better tagged by: @gyuhug​ (ages ago sorry) and @aftrmidnight​, thank youuuu 😊💞 tagging: ummmm....i dont think i have 20 mutuals that i know haven’t already done this/wouldn’t mind being tagged, especially if i automatically have to exclude 2 of them so. i won’t tag anyone :^) but as usual anyone who wants to can do it and say i tagged them

name/nickname: suzanne gender: 😶 star sign: gemini height: 5′4/162.5cm time: 23:16 birthday: may 22 (why did this ask me for my sign if it was just going to ask me my bday 3 questions later? 🤔) fave bands: wayv, mcr, red velvet fave solo artists: lexie liu, jonghyun, frank ocean song stuck in my head: i’m listening to music right now so none last movie: breaking dawn pt 2.......i had a little twilight marathon last month cause i’d never actually seen the movies before so that was. an experience last show: i haven’t watched tv in ages, the only shows on my want to watch list at the moment aren’t in english but since i only watch tv in the background while i’m working that doesn’t really work 😔 when i created this blog: 2010 🥴 last thing i googled: ‘favorite kind of tea poll’ because i was just curious about people’s tea preferences (if you’re reading this please tell me your favorite kind of tea? personally i don’t like tea enough to have a favorite although there’s this one rooibos (not technically tea ik) blend from davidstea that i really like but i just checked their website and apparently they don’t sell it anymore?? omg 😢) other blogs: none do i get asks: only when i accidentally imply that kun did something interesting 😅 following: around 125, but like a quarter of them have been inactive for years but i can’t bring myself to unfollow cause i liked them :( followers: the actual number is kind of meaningless since over half of them followed me in 2014/2015 or earlier and at this point i can only assume they're no longer active or they have my url blacklisted lmao. anyone who is still here from that time though ily 😙 why i chose my url: rainbow v is one of my favorite things wayv ever did, and i like that it’s a wayv url without being like. in your face about it. also i like rainbows average hours of sleep: idk actually, maybe like 5-6 during the week and like 11 on weekends. not great lucky number(s): none instruments: i played piano and flute for many years but i doubt i remember much of either anymore :( what i’m wearing: pj pants and a t-shirt and a big hoodie (very cozie 😌) dream trip: umm i’ve never been a big traveler but i’d probably go anywhere at this point. but maybe germany cause my best irl friend lives there (boring answer but i miss her 🥺) favorite food: granola :/ nationality: usamerican favorite song: i don’t have one (does anyone actually have one single favorite song? i find it hard to believe but again if you’re reading this and you do have one feel free to tell me cause i’m curious 🧐) top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: hmmm...to be honest i really don’t think i would do very well in most of the fictional universes that i like 😅 except for maybe animal crossing lol. so i'll just say that, plus the one where me and kun are besties who text each other sky/food/cat/dog pics. the dream 💔

[whump-tr0pes]

hi if Gavin/Issac ever does become 'cannon' could you umm please tag/warn for that? (and for any build up, and uh maybe the asks abt that as that tag so I can blacklist) people like what they like but (real/non-dark) romances like that are a major squick for me. thank you in advance :-) (and I love the rest of the series/your writing a LOT :-)

Hey anon! Thanks for the ask.

Isaac/Gavin will never become canon. As an abuse survivor myself it's important for me to write a relationship where one person was horrifically abusive to the other and they DON'T get rewarded with a sexual relationship/completely forgiven in the end. Yeah, Gavin has a crush on Isaac and Vera, and yeah, there is a weird sexual tension between Isaac and Gavin. (Like...a lot more than I initially thought. I'm going back over Honor Bound before I send it out for editing and holy SHIT was my bisexual disaster son hot for Isaac literally from that first phone call.) But my Isaac would not ever be able to let his guard down enough to be with Gavin. Besides, can you imagine how Sam would feel if their platonic soulmate started fucking their torturer?

All that being said, I personally am really enjoying the crack Isaac/Gavin relationship fandom that's happening right now. There's something dark and nasty about it and I think it's fun and kinda hot. There is definitely gonna be at least one dream that makes the relationship exist, but it'll never happen outside of that dream setting.

I will absolutely give plenty of warning before that happens. I know that kind of abusive/romantic relationship is a big trigger for people and the last thing I want to do is trigger someone with the stuff i write for fun.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to address this before anyone's feelings get hurt.

I've been doing my best to keep all Isaac/Gavin stuff tagged as "Isaac/Gavin." That'll be the tag I'll use for all stuff with them going forward. You're welcome to blacklist that tag.

If there's anything more I can do to make sure I'm being respectful with this potentially upsetting thing, please let me know.

[megalodont]

tag people you want to get to know better

tagged by @captain-apostrophe​ 

your name and then what you would have named yourself: even in real life people suspect this isn’t my real name, but my dad really put “paris” on my birth certificate and tbh i love it! i’m even lucky enough that it’s considered “unisex” by society at large

astrological sign (sun/moon/rising if you know them): scorpio

when did you join tumblr and why?: umm, 2016 i think? i joined for fandom reasons, i just liked looking at art of shows i was into. who knew it would practically become a way of life for me? i did have a different tumblr in 2010 but i entirely just reblogged ~aesthetic pictures and never experienced any of the tumblr discourse i’ve heard went on during that time 

top 5 fandoms: uhh, i go so hard for one thing at a time so i’ll pick the top five of all time, even if i don’t interact much with them anymore. i was into voltron during the first few seasons, and i am pretty good at curating my dash so i didn’t have a toxic time of it bc i blocked so many people and blacklisted so many terms. i fell out of it pretty quickly around s4? or was it s5. haikyuu, my favourite anime, was a big one for a while, and i definitely fucked with boku no hero academia for a time. ummm oh, captain america had my ass for a while, and of course i haven’t had a non-mdzs-related thought in about a year now lol. 

top 5 favorite films: howl’s moving castle, the lotr trilogy (count as one movie!), ponyo, mulan, uhhhhh treasure planet. 

go to song when you wanna Feel something: hmm. welly boots?

what’s your religion or faith if you have one?: uhh, if i had to describe myself i think i’d say...spiritual agnostic. is that a thing? 

a song that makes you feel seen: tardigrade song by cosmo sheldrake? lol. or spat out spit by lady lamb

if you could have any career: uhh, ANY career? hmm. 1900s lighthouse keeper. whatever it was maria von trapp was hired to do. fire lookout. 

do you have a type?: hm. kind, smart, can make me laugh? or are we talking physically bc in that case no

what does your heart/soul yearn for: more time

if you had to describe yourself in 5 words to someone who doesn’t know you: cheerful, not bothered, yet anxious

favorite subjects in school: english across the board

where does your soul feel most at home: curled up in a nook, safe and unperceived

top 5 fictional characters: the hardest question i’ve ever been asked. okay if i go for a spread of things....... lan jingyi (mdzs), keladry of mindelan (protector of the small), nishinoya yu (haikyuu), oreki houtarou (hyouka), ummm. scorpia (she-ra princess of power. i have only watched 1 season of the show but i love her)

top 3 moments in a show that made you ugly cry: this is an impossible question, i literally, literally cry whenever i watch anything. uhhhhhhh umm, oh shit. boromir’s death. that scene in gallipoli 1981 where what’s his name is seconds too late to save his bud. um um um. there were several in the untamed. yi city maybe?  

the earth, the sun, the moon or the stars: the moon, my ancient darling

favorite kind of weather: snowstorm, freezing and windy as hell. yes i live in australia where this doesn’t happen, yes i’m sad about it.  

top 3 characters you kin with: i don’t know? uhhh. UHH. maybe lan xichen? i wouldn’t say i kin him but i think there are objective similarities on a personality level. aizawa shouta, bc i’m tired and would die for those kids.   

favorite medium of art: prose:) 

introvert/extrovert/ambivert: true introvert, just look at my career choices. not that i’d turn you down if you wanted to hold my hand.  

a favorite literary quote: fuck, idk. uhhhh. pass my brain is mush right now

some of your favorite books: oh god don’t put me on the spot. suddenly i’ve forgotten every book i’ve ever read. um, Guards Guards by Terry Pratchett, Trickster’s Queen by Tamora Pierce, Crocodile on the Sandbank by Elizabeth Peters, Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sáenz, Prince’s Gambit by C.S. Pacat.... and 500 other things i ca’nt remeber right now

if you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?: Whistler, BC. or any other remote town in the pacific northwestern mountains. although a very close second would be a remote town in scandinavia, say, töreboda, sweden. i like snow and pine forests and bears and i hate people.  

if you could live in any time in history when would it be?: the boring answer is that as a queer afab who enjoys having access to modern medicine uh, i’d choose now. but the fun answer, like if i could live in a tv version of that time or something.........hm. the part of me which yearns to escape capitalism and modernity’s complexities would say like. 800bce. just want to like. sit around spinning thread all day. 

if you could play any instrument masterfully it would be: pipe organ bitch

if you have one, what mythological god or goddess do you feel a connection to: hmmmmm. dionysus was neither male nor female, treated his wife well, and encouraged his female devotees to tear men apart with their hands, so. i’d say him. 

and lastly, favorite recent selfie in your camera roll: i’ve never taken a selfie i liked bro 

and i'll tag @greymouser13 and @plotwitch if you guys wanna!

[cutepresea]

4-8 A Light That Pierces the Clouds: Miku’s Battle

Again, sorry for the spam. This will be it for now. Parts 9-15 will come later.

If you want to blacklist these, you can use either the tag #a light that pierces the clouds for just this event, or #xdu event scripts or #xdu scripts

Reminder that these are copied straight from XD Unlimited itself, so any grammatical weirdness, mistranslations, and/or mischaracterizations are not my doing.

Miku Kohinata: (Hibiki...)

Hibiki Tachibana (flashback): "Psh! Get out of the way!"

Miku Kohinata (flashback): "Huh? Ahh!"

Miku Kohinata: (She must have been protecting me.)

Miku Kohinata: "I knew Hibiki hasn't changed. I want to talk to her more. No, I have to..."

Genjuro Kazanari: "Thank you for all for gathering. Let's start discussing some countermeasures for the Karma Noise." [1]

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Where's Kohinata?"

Maria: "She has some business to tend to. Something very important."

Chris Yukine: "That's right."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Is that so?"

Genjuro Kazanari: "First off, I want to parse what we know about the Karma Noise. Tell us what you know again."

Maria: "Sure. That Karma Noise is--"

Genjuro Kazanari: "I see. This may be a bit more difficult than I'd imagined."

Maria: "There isn't much we can do here. The most we wielders can do are combo attacks or win through attrition."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Wait, when you say here... Do you mean that there are other methods?"

Chris Yukine: "Something like that. We also have S2CA and Ignite."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "What are those? Why can't they be used?"

Chris Yukine: "S2CA combines Superb Songs while Ignite utilizes the berserk state."

Maria: "To use S2CA, you'll need a certain girl who specializes in joining hands together."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "So that means we need the Hibiki Tachibana from your world?"

Maria: "That's right. And currently, she's in no condition to fight."

Chris Yukine: "It'd be nice if the idiot here could do it, but it's impossible to pull off without some practice."

Maria: "Right. And she may be fundamentally different from our Hibiki. That's why this method can't be used."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "What about Ignite? Though I must say, that "berserk state" sounds pretty ominous."

Chris Yukine: "Our Gears have this thing called an Ignite Module."

Genjuro Kazanari: "An Ignite Module, you say?"

Maria: "With the magic blade Dáinsleif as a core, it triggers an artificial berserk state, converting it into power."

Maria: "But against the Karma Noise's curse, it'll cause the wielder to go truly berserk. It's a double-edged sword."

Genjuro Kazanari: "So you're saying that teamwork is the only effective method?"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "In that case, we will just have to join forces. With us three plus Kohinata, that's four wielders who can--"

Chris Yukine: "We already saw that that wasn't enough last time."

Maria: "Yeah. We can make up for it a little through teamwork, but it'll be difficult without Hibiki's help."

Chris Yukine: "We'd be better off having over wielders, that's for sure."

Genjuro Kazanari: "Sure, it would be beneficial if we could get her to work with us, but..."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "But we can't know whether she'll cooperate or not. I don't think this is a good idea."

Genjuro Kazanari: "Tsubasa..."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "If better teamwork defeats the Karma Noise, I'll do everything in my power to improve. Will you help me?"

Chris Yukine: "Of course we will."

Maria: "Well, it's all we can do right now."

Maria: "I think things are starting to take shape."

Chris Yukine: "It's not a bad idea, is it? Though then again, we're two people short."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "......"

Maria: "What's the matter, Tsubasa?"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Is it really possible to work together with Hibiki Tachibana? I'm still a bit hesitant..."

Maria: "What makes you say that?"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "We've crossed paths in the battlefield numerous times. I've tried to convince her to join Section 2 before."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "She just always says she doesn't care. All she does is appear when there's Noise and do her own thing."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I don't know what she's thinking, and I highly doubt we can work together toward a common goal."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "And to think someone like that is wielding Gungnir. I mean..."

Chris Yukine: "She's just upfront, that's all. And a dumbass."

Maria: "Yeah. I think that's just who she is."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "But that's Hibiki Tachibana in your world. It doesn't necessarily mean she's the same as the one here."

Maria: "I'm not so sure. Gjallarhorn links to branches of a bigger river, but it doesn't affect that river's flow."

Maria: "That's why there shouldn't be major differences in their personalities and preferences. At least for now."

Chris Yukine: "There're loads of small differences in every world. Some have Gears, some don't. Sometimes people are gone."

Maria: "I was surprised seeing how different she is from the Hibiki I know, but maybe they are essentially the same."

Maria: "I was saved by how upfront she is."

Chris Yukine: "...Me too."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I hope that's the case... But how do you plan on convincing her to work with us?"

Maria: "We'll let the expert deal with that."

Chris Yukine: "Yeah. She's the perfect one to deal with that idiot."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Expert?"

Maria: "Yes. Her best friend is hard at work as we speak."

Hibiki Tachibana: "Hmph! Hah!"

Hibiki Tachibana: "...What? What do you want?"

Miku Kohinata: "I'm sorry. Is this a bad time?"

Hibiki Tachibana: "You're just like the others. Why do you keep showing up? Who do you think you are to me?"

Miku Kohinata: "Oh, right. I haven't explained yet."

Miku Kohinata: (I think parallel worlds and Gjallarhorn are top secret, but... No, if I lied, she wouldn't trust me" [2]

Miku Kohinata: "Um, we're--"

Hibiki Tachibana: "A different me from a different world..."

Miku Kohinata: "Yeah. I know it must be hard to take in..."

Hibiki Tachibana: "...Whatever."

Hibiki Tachibana: "If you've got nothing else to say, go away. You're distracting."

Miku Kohinata: "Um, Hibiki, I was hoping we could talk some more."

Hibiki Tachibana: "I have nothing to say to you."

Miku Kohinata: "Please don't say that. During that fight the other day, you protected me, right?"

Hibiki Tachibana: "Me? Protect you?"

Miku Kohinata: "Yeah, you did. That's why I want to thank you."

Hibiki Tachibana: "That wasn't my intention. Don't get the wrong idea."

Miku Kohinata: "No, you did protect me."

Hibiki Tachibana: "Don't assume things. I twas just a coincidence. No need to thank me for that."

Miku Kohinata: "Even so, nothing changes the fact that you helped me Hibiki, so... Thank you."

Hibiki Tachibana: "...Whatever."

Miku Kohinata: "Huh? Hibiki, where are you going?"

Hibiki Tachibana: "I'm going home. Don't follow me."

Hibiki Tachibana: "What the hell's up with her?"

Miku Kohinata (flashback): "Even so, nothing changes the fact that you helped me Hibiki, so... Thank you."

Hibiki Tachibana: (Me... Help her? That's impossible. I don't help people.)

Hibiki Tachibana: "Helping... Psh, as if I'd do that."

Hibiki Tachibana: (No one's ever helped me, so why would I help anyone else? I never have and never will.)

Hibiki Tachibana: (What is this feeling... My chest feels weird...)

Hibiki Tachibana: "No, it doesn't hurt, though. Something as stupid as this could never make my heart ache."

Hibiki Tachibana: (I don't need anyone else because I'll end up alone anyway. I should've been alone from the start.)

Hibiki Tachibana: "It's the Noise... I have to stop them!"

Maria: "There were only regular Noise this time."

Chris Yukine: "I just wish that stupid Noise would come straight to us so we could just be done with it."

Maria: "...Do you think she'll cooperate?"

Chris Yukine: "Considering how the last fight went, not yet."

Miku Kohinata: "Hey, umm... Can I ask you something?"

Chris Yukine: "What's up?"

Miku Kohinata: "When we fought that Karma Noise, I thought Hibiki protected me."

Chris Yukine: "You think so?"

Miku Kohinata: "Yeah... It looked like she was leading the Noise so that their attacks didn't damage the city."

Maria: "She was doing that?"

Miku Kohinata: "That's why I think Hibiki's still Hibiki. Maybe it's all subconscious, but she tried to protect everyone."

Miku Kohinata: "That's what I thought at least... But what do you think?"

Chris Yukine: "You're overthinking it, aren't you? I understand how you feel about her protecting you..."

Miku Kohinata: "But if that was the Hibiki I know..."

Maria: "Perhaps. But we still can't say for sure yet."

Miku Kohinata: "...I guess, you're right."

Maria: "But it goes without saying that you know her the best and share the strongest bond."

Maria: "That's why I'm going to respect your judgement."

Miku Kohinata: "Maria-san..."

Chris Yukine: "I will, too. You do know that idiot the best."

Miku Kohinata: "Chris... Thank you both."

Genjuro Kazanari: "I took the data from the Karma Noise you fought to adjust the simulator. Give it a whirl."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Thank you so much, Commander Kazanari."

Genjuro Kazanari: "Don't mention it. This is the least I could do."

Chris Yukine: "...W-Wait! You did the adjustments?!"

Genjuro Kazanari: "I did... Why the surprise?"

Miku Kohinata: "I didn't know you could do that..."

Maria: "Wait. The Commander Kazanari we know is actually quite adept at fighting..."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "He's a fighter, you say?"

Genjuro Kazanari: "I do know some basic self defense, but I have no other martial arts knowledge."

Genjuro Kazanari: "This might not make up for it, but when it comes to handling machinery, I'm your man."

Genjuro Kazanari: "I watch a lot of sci-fi movies to gain inspiration for all kinds of inventions. I also own lots of patents."

Chris Yukine: "Y-You do?! You're kidding me!"

Miku Kohinata: "I guess there ARE lots of differences between worlds..."

Maria: "Sci-fi movies?"

Maria: (In our world, the Commander likes to watch action movies.)

Maria: (In the world with Kanade Amo, I heard Commander Kazanari was big into mystery... Wait!)

Maria: "No, that can't be right... It can't be... right?"

Chris Yukine: "What's wrong?"

Maria: "It's nothing..."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "The simulator's been updated for us. How about we hop in for some training?"

Miku Kohinata: "Yeah, let's do that."

Genjuro Kazanari: "Looks like it needs a little tuning."

Maria: "Yeah. I think the real thing was much stronger."

Chris Yukine: "I feel we're lacking something big. I thought our teamwork was on point, though..."

Miku Kohinata: "I'm sorry. If only I was stronger..."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "It's not your fault, Kohinata. None of us are strong enough."

Miku Kohinata: "But I'm the most inexperienced amongst the wielders."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "If you're going to say that, then I have the smallest output..."

Maria: "Enough trying to one up each other in weaknesses. None of us are strong enough. We need more firepower."

Chris Yukine: "Looks like we're going to have to get her to cooperate after all."

Maria: "I think you're right."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Hey, how about we carry on training some more? I think there's still more we can do."

Miku Kohinata: "Oh... I'm sorry. I..."

Maria: "It's fine. Go ahead. There's a job only you can do."

Chris Yukine: "Good luck in convincing that idiot."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I'm sorry I couldn't help more."

Miku Kohinata: "That's not true. Now I'd better get going."

Genjuro Kazanari: "Miku-kun's gone, so I'll take this lull to analyze the data and make some more improvements."

Genjuro Kazanari: "If you need it, you're free to use this simulator as much as you wish."

Chris Yukine: "It's just the three of us now. What do you want to do? I wouldn't mind continuing."

Maria: "I think we should work on our teamwork."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "In that case... I have a favor to ask."

Chris Yukine: "What?"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I want to know more about the power of your Ignite Module, since it's apparently able to beat Karma Noise."

Maria: "I don't mind telling you about it, but Ignite isn't really the ideal way to counter the Karma Noise."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "That doesn't matter. It pains me to say, but I don't feel like I'm using my Gear to its full potential."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I want to know what potential, what power, Ame no Habakiri has so that I can become stronger."

Maria: "Ignite uses another relic as its core, so strictly speaking, it's not only your Gear's potential."

Chris Yukine: "But the Gear itself outputs the berserk power, so it's still relevant. Let me show you!"

Maria: "Hey! Are you seriously just going to use it like that?"

Chris Yukine: "Those simulated Noise battles weren't doing it for me, anyhow. Let's show off what we can really do!"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Thank you, I really appreciate it!"

Chris Yukine: "Ignite Module! Drawn Blade!"

Maria: "Oh well... Ignite Module! Drawn Blade!"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "That output was amazing! So that's the power of going berserk..."

Maria: "Yeah. This is one of the Symphogear's functions. It's a controlled state of berserk power."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "You said that it's a double-edged sword, but why? Is it something to do with the Karma Noise's curse?"

Maria: "The Ignite Module uses a fragment of the magic sword Dáinsleif."

Maria: "Dáinsleif's curse and the Karma Noise's curse both amplify a person's destructive impulses."

Maria: "And when the two curses overlap, it creates an uncontrollable destructive impulse that drowns out your will."

Chris Yukine: "In other words, using it in front of the Karma Noise will make you go truly berserk, so we can't use it."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "That's unfortunate... You have this power, yet you can't use it."

Chris Yukine: "Yep. If we could use it freely, the Karma Noise would be nothing!"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Is that true?"

Maria: "I wouldn't go that far, but they would be easier to fight, that's for sure."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "......"

Chris Yukine: "What's wrong? Why'd you go all quiet all of a sudden?"

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I want you to use that power to spar with me."

Maria: "Are you serious? This may be training, but you could get hurt... Or worse."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I don't mind. As the guardian and sword of this world, I must become stronger."

Maria: "Very well then. Let's do this."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "Thank you. You too, Yukine."

Chris Yukine: "Are you sure? A two vs one fight is kinda..."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "I'd rather it be tough. The higher the hurdle, the more effort I'll have to put in."

Tsubasa Kazanari: "As the sole wielder of Section 2, and as the blade of this world, I will become stronger!"

Chris Yukine: "You better not blame me for whatever happens!"

Miku Kohinata: "So you're here again..."

Hibiki Tachibana: "......"

Miku Kohinata: "Do you like the forest?"

Hibiki Tachibana: "......"

Miku Kohinata: "There's something I want to ask of you, Hibiki."

Hibiki Tachibana: "Huh?"

Miku Kohinata: "I want to fight alongside you, Hibiki, so that we can take on that Karma Noise."

HIbiki Tachibana: "...We're already fighting them."

Miku Kohinata: "That's not it. We're doing separate things. I want us to work together."

Miku Kohinata: "We can't defeat that Karma Noise by ourselves. We need your help, Hibiki."

Hibiki Tachibana: "Help? From me?"

Miku Kohinata: "Yeah. If we all joined together, I'm sure--"

Hibiki Tachibana: "In that case, how about you make me?"

Miku Kohinata: "...Huh? Hibiki?"

Hibiki Tachibana: "Balwisyall nescell gungnir tron."

Hibiki Tachibana: "I'm not cooperating with anyone. If you want me to, then you'll have to do it by force."

Notes:

[1] There's an extra "for" in this line. "Thank you all for gathering."

[2] They switched between parentheses and quotation marks in this line

[it-be-me-and-i-be-me]

Tag Game

I was tagged by @magnificenttragedysandwich 

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you’d like to know better!

Nicknames: Sirius Black

Gender: I am a guy of the transgender variety

Zodiac: Taurus

Height: 169cm

Time: 7:27pm

Favourite Bands/Solo Artists: Pentatonix and P!nk

Song Stuck In My Head: IDGAF by Dua Lipa

Last Movie I Saw: Spiderman (2002)

Last Show I Watched: The Blacklist

Last Thing I Googled: 1980s Accountant outfit

Other Blogs: Everything is on here I’m not organized for another blog

Do You Get Asks: Sometimes yeah and they always make me smile

Why I Chose My Username: I was going through and identity crisis and needed a daily reminder that I am me

Following: 148

Average Amount Of Sleep: uhhh 8 hours? I think. I have no idea how long it takes me to go to sleep but I’m lights out by 10:30pm and lights on at 7am so???

Lucky Number: 13 because screw tradition

What I’m Wearing: Sweatpants and a hoodie which is the only hoodie I’ve ever owned with my name on it and I didn’t even need to do sport to get it so I wear it all the time

Dream Job: Drama teacher

Dream Trip: European river cruise, or just a tour of Europe in general

Favourite Food: I always crave Pringles

Play An Instrument?: Piano (kinda), ukelele (kinda, but not for a while so I’ve probs forgotten), and I got taught how to hold violin bow once so

Nationality: New Zealander

Favorite Songs: uhh, umm,,, idk it changes a lot and is very hard to keep track of and quite frankly I don’t have enough energy and I just like music I don’t have favourites ahhhh idek I’m tiredtm and need sleep

Tagging: @deobitec @dti56 @megapotatosaurus @thatfunnytransguy @tiny-gray-dinosaurs @datgurlmacs @cluelessperson @musical-engineer @itsumo13 @darling-introvert @the-cutest-patoot @bill-the-donut @inexplicablymypetcat 

[jake-marshall]

Ace Attorney (obvs.), Rune Factory, Harvest Moon, what you know of the MCU

Doing this meme.  ANswers under Cut

Ace AttorneyFavorite Male Character:  Overall, Diego or Jake.  But when I’m having a bad day, Fulbright B)Favorite Female Character:  Our Lord and savior Mia FeyFavorite Het Ship:  Welcome to jake-marshall.tumblr.com also known as Mia/Diego central.  Jake/Angel and Maggey/Gumshoe are other faves.Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F):  In Black/Bright we trust! B)  Also Klav/Daryan and the DADS (Datz/Dhurke).  Juniper/Thena is my #1 F/F ship but Fran/Adrian and Metis/Aura are Good Shit (TM)Least Favorite Male Character/Least Favorite Female Character:   There’s the obvious answers, villains like Kristoph, Gant, or Dahlia, but as for characters we’re supposed to like that I’m personally just not big on, Sebastian and Pearl.  I don’t dislike them, I just don’t really have any investment or thoughts on them, and their storylines don’t really affect me the way other characters’ do.Least Favorite Het/Slash (both M/M and F/F) Ships:  There’s a number of ships I just don’t like on their own merits, and then there’s a fair amount where I’m rather ambivalent, but am more turned off by the shippers’ behavior than the ship itself.

the ships above I have blacklisted because of a strong mixture of both reasons ^(Before anyone preaches at me that it’s up to me to control my own internet experience, I make it a point to keep my dash a happy place by not following/following back any blogs that post these ship; the tags are more for when I’m creeping through the character tags.)

Dirty Little Secret: Ummmm?  Idk?  I guess maybe that while the list of characters I find attractive is a short list, not every person on this list is public knowledge.   Some are.  But not all, and I’m going to keep it that way.  No I don’t want to fuck Kristoph. Headcanons: I guess, some headcanons I have that are tied to canon, that I’m really fond of are a) Kristoph’s first trial being the trial where Dahlia is sentenced and b) Fulbright’s first few months on the force directly intersecting with the events that lead up to Turnabout ReminiscenceUnpopular Opinion:  IDK?  Maybe that I don’t h/c Edgeworth as gay?  Or that I unapologetically like Diego/Godot, lol.Rune Factory:(I’m going to have to split my answers into different categories at some points, just based on the nature of the game, the context in which I play the game - that is, as a boy or a girl - affects my answer)Favorite Male Character: Hnnnghhhh.  As an overall character, I think tbh Dylas has become my fave?  But Vishnal won me over as best husbando.Favorite Female Character:  THIS IS SO HARD there’s too many ;w;  I really really love Margaret.   But dating/marrying Karina was amazing, the amount of development she goes through.Favorite Het Ship: My favorite Protag het ship is RF4 female player character (Frey)/Vishnal, which I never expected until I played the female file on RF4... but I’m sort of a sucker for butler/maid + their “master” (as my next answers will cover).  My favorite het ship out of the supporting cast is Gaius/Evelyn from RF3, they are SO CUTE I CAN’T.Favorite Slash Ship (Both M/M and F/F):I don’t really ship any of the male protags with any of the bachelors, but as for the female protag, I really like the idea of Frey/Forte.  A princess and her knight.  As for the supporting cast, I live a Dyldo appreciation life (they are hate-love done right) and as for F/F, I really like Electra/Maerwen from Tides of Destiny... the rich girl and her tsundere maid, lol.Least Favorite Male Character:  Other than the big bad, Ethelberd, GOD, Jake from RF2...HGNNNHHH he’s just a dick?  And racist lmao I mean I get it’s because of ~abandonment issues~ and that RF2 has some less than stellar writing but one would think he chills a bit with his hate-on for humans as he befriends you and/or marries Cecelia or Yue.  NOPE.  Least Favorite Female Character:  I really found Collette from RF3 to be annoying, and not in an endearing way. :\Least Favorite Het Ship:   Out of Protags, I don’t like Kyle/Mana from RF2, like, at all, mostly because it feels like the game forces it.  Most of the RF/HM games have a “default” bachelorette that’s presented as the “Main” bachelorette of the game, plot-wise, but with Mana it’s just really not done well, from how you meet through the events.  As for supporting cast ships, I’ve seen Leon/Forte from RF4 quite a bit and it just rubs me the wrong way.  Probably because I don’t like Leon a lot but also, just... ships where one character perpetually teases the other and it’s supposed to be “flirting” just isn’t cool with me.  I know Leon doesn’t mean to be malicious in his teasing but with Forte, I feel it’s not a good approach and I don’t think it makes them compatible in the least.Least Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F):  Again, I don’t really have any preferences with the male protags and the male villagers, but one I particularly don’t like is Kyle/Barrett from RF2... mainly because I think Barrett and Dorothy are meant for each other but also, just... I  feel it’s played as though Barrett’s animosity is just him covering his ~true feelings~ and lmfao that’s like... not at all? his character? It’s just not something that makes sense to me.   I actually think all the female protag ships/female villager ships are cute enough; no preferences either way.  OUt of the supporting cast, I know Forte/Margaret is popular and there’s nothing wrong with it, it just doesn’t click in that way for me.Dirty Little Secret:  If I could personally marry any rune factory character... listen... I love Gordon.  I love him so much.  He is COMPLETELY my type, the noble bro.  I don’t care if he’s like 50 and has two kids and is a priest.  Headcanon(s):  I guess this is a fairly popular headcanon within the fandom but I do think Zaid and Doug could be pretty closely related and I wish there were more RF games to explore more about the different Elf and Dwarf tribes.Unpopular Opinion:  Shit, umm...I guess, I don’t think Rune Factory 4 is the best game for someone new to the franchise to start with.  It’s the best game, by far, IMO but I think it is SO involved, so fleshed out that it could be insanely overwhelming.Harvest Moon:Favorite Male Character:  Fffffffff so many.  It’s so hard for me to pick between Vaughn (my first fave) and Owen (my #1 husbando).  Gustafa is up there too.Favorite Female Character:  Again, there’s so many wonderful ladies.  Selena and Candace are opposite ends of the spectrum but both so amazing.  I might be slightly more partial to Candace because...Favorite Het Ship:  With the male protag, I adore Kasey/Candace.   Female protag, Chelsea/Will was my first OTP and probably always will be.  Out of the supporting cast/rivals, there’s too many to choose from, but Nami/Gustafa and Luke/Selena are so good.  And honorary mention to Galen/Nina for breaking my goddamn heart.Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F): I actually only have one slash ship with the protag, and that is Philip/Dirk from ToTT but GOD DO i SHIP IT HARD.  Out of the villagers, I can’t resist Luke/Owen for M/M and Gina/Dia (again, rich girl and her maid).Least Favorite Male Character:  Buhhhhh Chase.  I mean he’s just an ass.  I feel like Neil from ANB is way ruder, and Rock from AWL/DS is just a complete fuckboy, but I’ve played ToT/AP so much that Chase sticks out to me the most.Least Favorite Female Character:   There’s a lot of boring female characters tbh :|  Elli comes to mind.  Ellen, Renee, Celia... lol a lot of the girls with short brown hair, apparently.Least Favorite Het Ship:  I mean as far as Protag ships, none of them I absolutely hate.  I don’t really like any protag pairings with a candidate who appears in a future game (example, Gretel/Amir in Grand Bazaar, when Amir later appears in ANB as an eligible bachelor), because to me it seems like the person left your protag in the preceding game, lol.  

As for rival pairings, LOOK I LOVEEEE Julius - honestly, he’s one of the better husbandos in ToT/AP - but Julius/Candace pisses me off so much.  He bullied her to the point that she has no self-esteem, and then he’s all like WHUPS MY BAD I DID IT BECAUSE I LIKE YOU, well TOUGH SHIT JULIUS.  CANDACE DON’T OWE YOU ANYTHING.  I really like them becoming friends, repairing the damage Julius did, but I feel pairing them together is Candace “settling”, not to mention it’s basically saying Julius was okay for doing what he did, and that’s not fair to either of them.

Least Favorite Slash Ship: (Both M/M and F/F):  for protags, Mark/Vaughn from IoH/SI just because I absolutely can not see Vaughn being interested in men, lol.  Plus it’s usually just written as a gay version of Chelsea/Vaughn which is, by and large, also poorly done.   For villagers/rivals - I really do not get Chase/Gill. At all.  They’re both cynical and socially stunted in their own ways and I just think they’re too much alike for a relationship to be of any benefit to them?Dirty Little Secret:  I don’t really have one when it comes to HM?Headcanon(s): Maybe they state otherwise in Story of Seasons (which I haven’t played, but Cam and Reina left Bluebell/Konohana partly because of not wanting to deal with Ash’s drama anymore, lol.Also, Neil is Vaughn and Gwen’s son.  No, I mean I could see it physically but that would imply Vaughn is a shitty father lol.Unpopular Opinion:  Save the Homeland is a great game?  Idk I���ve only played a little bit of it and it gets a bad knock because you can’t marry in it but it has some of the better plotlines out of the whole series and is compulsively replayable.MCU (or, my limited knowledge of MCU):Favorite Male Character:  You Only Loki Once.  >:3  Favorite Female Character: Peggy freakin’ Carter Favorite Het Ship:  Steggy /clutches heart/Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F): Stucky!!!  I haven’t seen enough movies to have a F/F ship, tbh.Least Favorite Male Character:  Other than the baddies, idk, I don’t really have any feelings towards Hulk/Bruce Banner.  Of course that could change if I see more movies.Least Favorite Female Character:  Not really a fan of Darcy.Least Favorite Het Ship:  Again, I don’t really know much about their characters, but Bruce/Natasha isn’t something I care about one way or the other.Least Favorite Slash Ship (both M/M and F/F): I can’t believe I can’t just say “Other than Incest” but this one is so popular and the fact that people DON’T consider it incest should tell you exactly why I loathe it so much:  Thor/Loki F/F, again, I got nothing.Dirty Little Secret:  I don’t know?  This isn’t really a secret I guess but I cried EXCESSIVELY to my counselor over Falcon after seeing TWS for the first time.Headcanon(s):  Not sure I have any?  I haven’t spent a lot of time thinking about them for these characters.Unpopular Opinion:  Hmmmm.  Even though I really love Cap, I wouldn’t say I’m necessarily “team Cap” in the whole Civil War thing.  From what I understand, Tony seemed to become more hated by Cap Fans (someone correct me if I’m wrong) but I came away after CA:CW surprised at how much I really did not hate him at all and understood his side of things.

Thanks for the ask, Holly!

[sharethisgemwithme]

“Back to the Kindergarten” instant reaction

Kinda making a trilogy of these "Back to..." episodes. First "Back to the Barn", where we learned Pearls are servants, but our Pearl can punch Peridot in the face. Then "Back to the Moon", where we learned Rose shattered Pink Diamond (probably), and saw the return of Sardonyx. What will going back to the Kindergarten bring us?

Well, previous visits have rarely been fun, all the way from "On the Run" and "Marble Madness" through Peri being a little shit in "Too Far" and a trip to the Beta Kindergarten in, well, "Beta". Those are all the visits I can recall off hand, though.

Note: I watched all six episodes on Sunday, but I’m spacing out the reaction posts. I meant to do one a day but didn’t remember to queue them up.

My predictions: The synopsis is "Steven, Amethyst, and Peridot try to spruce up the Kindergarten", so it's the return of the Shorty Squad. How they intend to spruce up the Kindergarten is a mystery to me, but I wonder if they will be trying to set up defenses of some sort for the next attack. I don't know, it's been a long weekend and a long day, so let's just watch and see, shall we? That said, whenever the Connie thing resolves, it will be an entire episode, so I don't think it's happening yet. Presumably the upcoming episode with a certain recurring character in the title will be when that happens.

I'm watching via on-demand, and will start the clock with "We!" As always, first time I'm watching straight through with no pauses or rewinds. For the benefit of those on mobile who can’t blacklist, the rest of this post is behind a cut.

0:00 - No, I'm not gonna download the Match.com app. Stop advertising it to me. 0:21 - Katie and Paul, and a bright pink background. 0:32 - Good morning, bright and early at 8:00. 0:40 - Reminiscent of "Catch and Release" with the bathroom. But not in the bathroom because Peri's there. 0:59 - Oh. Boy. Wouldn't Ame tell you to do it in the ocean? 1:17 - Amethyst all about the tough love. 1:24 - The fuck? 1:30 - Listening to country music sad songs? 1:40 - I feel like captioning wouldn't really help me. Those weren't words, were they? 1:54 - Her face is comically messed up. 2:15 - Seems like a fair reason to visit. 2:34 - We're on the run. Again. 2:46 - Nostalgia for its own sake. 3:05 - Wow, she's depressed as all hell with Lapis's departure. 3:40 - See, Peridot, you get to look smart. Isn't that fun? 4:20 - "Life doesn't start in a Kindergarten. It ends here." Oof. 4:38 - JESUS that's brutal. 4:45 - Umm. That flower is growing. 4:57 - 5000 years, if she came out after the war, that's an upper bound. 5:14 - Hey, a replacement for the barn. 5:30 - This is doomed to failure, isn't it? 5:52 - I was expecting a spindash to tear up the soil. 6:04 - The return of the Amecopter. 6:15 - They won't last a week, will they? 6:30 - And good morning again. 7:03 - Taking the long route again. How long of a train ride is it? 7:15 - I think you melded multiple flower names together there. 7:35 - Oh this is gonna hurt when everything's dead again. 7:40 - YUP. 7:58 - Peri knows the whole point is to take away all the life energy from the area. 8:28 - Ranting helps sometimes. 8:38 - Of course it's a star. 8:44 - What? 8:50 - oh. Great. 8:56 - FUCKIN HELL? 9:12 - HEY, SMOKY'S BACK! 9:35 - OK then. 9:52 - Yeah we got that this was a distraction from the Lapis thing. 10:06 - "Nothing will ever be able to grow again." Hope that isn't subtext for Steven/Connie. 10:34 - For now... 10:48 - Thanks for explaining the joke, Steven. 11:09 - Well... she cares again.

IMMEDIATE THOUGHTS: Steven and Peridot have both lost an important relationship, for the time being, but they're reacting in very different ways. Steven is keeping himself occupied elsewhere, but Peridot was almost refusing to let herself think about anything other than Lapis. The Lapidot shippers, while despondent over the separation of the two, will take comfort in the fact that their partnership was clearly pivotal to Peridot's being. The Amedot shippers, while frustrated by the previous sentence, will take some satisfaction in the end of this episode. The poly-shippers, well, I don't know what their reaction will be, but I'm sure it will be complicated.

Second watch notes: These will be shorter. I want to at the very least get episode 5 in tonight.

I like how every method of transportation is a "ship" to Peridot, the same way every article of clothing is a "shirt".

As I rewatch, all of Peridot's ranting about how everything in the Kindergarten has had the life sucked out of it is making me nervous.

There's something about the Kindergarten that just makes Peridot need to insult Amethyst.

It feels like it's been far too long since we saw star-eyed Steven.

That entire time they were setting up the garden, it was so obvious it was all going to die. It's hard enough watching it the first time, the second time, knowing that's exactly what happens, is also tough.

OK, I take it back, hydrangeas are in fact a thing. And they're most native to China, Japan, and Korea, but also parts of the Americas.

Even the plastic pelican was gone.

"Nothing's ever going to get better! Everything is just ruined forever! We can't get any of it back!" I am getting EXTREMELY nervous about connecting Peridot/Lapis with Steven/Connie.

Peridot just getting one-shot eaten is funny, even if it's to lighten the mood of her sad, angry rantings.

Smoky doesn't speak (and Natasha Lyonne isn't credited), and her bubble is a pale color that's not quite pink or purple. But given that I'm watching in not HD, and there have been some very clear color fading issues, I can't be confident in that.

I completely missed the point of "I need to go to the bathroom" the first time around. She's literally saying "Take me back to the bathroom because I'm never leaving there again."

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April 4th, 2019 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party chat that occurred on April 4th, 2019, from 5PM - 7PM PDT.  The chat focused on Kamikaze by Alan Tupper, Havana Nguyen, and Carrie Tupper; Edited by Rachelle Udell and D'Andrea Seabrook.

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Chat:

RebelVampire

COMIC TEA PARTY- THURSDAY BOOK CLUB START!

Good evening, everyone~! This week’s Thursday Book Club is officially beginning! Today we are discussing Kamikaze by lan Tupper, Havana Nguyen, and Carrie Tupper; Edited by Rachelle Udell and D'Andrea Seabrook~! (https://kamikazeanimated.com/comic/)

Remember that Thursday discussions are completely freeform! However, every 30 minutes I will drop in OPTIONAL discussion questions in case you’d like a bit of a prompt. If you miss out on one of these prompts, you can find them pinned for the chat’s duration. Additionally, remember that while constructive criticism is allowed, our focus is fun and respectfully appreciating the comic. All that said, let’s begin!

QUESTION 1. What is your favorite scene in the comic so far and why?

my favorite scene so far is probably the huge long sequence that follows the bomb explosion and markesha is running away. i love just how real and down to earth that scene is. like markesha doesnt magically come to her destiny or just treat what happened is nbd after suddenly becoming a ninja. nope, shes runs, like a normal person would do regardless if they were a runner or not, and is pursued. everthing about this sequence really carried this tension. cause in this moment she was not some future superheroine. she was a young woman terrified for her life. and it just felt so relateable.

keii4ii

I have several favorite scenes. One of them is Markesha's confrontation with Franco. The intro to that scene is thick with tension; I love the juxtaposition with the radio/music and could see it play like a movie in my head! http://kamikazeanimated.com/comic/kamikaze/pg-2-gatekeeper/ Not to mention how it ends. It's the first time something works out right(ish) between Markesha and Orson. Due to the circumstances, the scene leaves a lot of distrust to be resolved, but it was nice to see that first step of working together. It struck a good balance of tension and a truce.

RebelVampire

another scene im particular to is that scene where markesha is standing on the rooftops debating whether she should work with orson or not. not only is it beautifully illustrated, but i really like the juxtaposition in the story. like showing her other opportunity leaving the city without her. cause once that caravan leaves, its really a no way out declaration. markesha is trapped whether she wants to or not.

i do love the franco scene for how it painted the world. cause in the opening sequence i was like, "come on this is the post apocalypse he seems the type to be packing a gun." and then boop, he pulled out a gun and i felt vindicated XD

but i just really appreciated how the character really acted in the worst way possible per expectation of the world

Carrie Tupper

I think this is the first time I've EVER heard any compliments toward Franco, period. xD

RebelVampire

i mean the dudes dead. so umm, no sense on spitting on his grave

Carrie Tupper

Fair enough, but I'm sure Markesha wouldn't mind.

RebelVampire

nobody should mind hes dead. especially the runner who originally was supposed to take the package. now theres a person who lucked the heck out.

Carrie Tupper

Ha, as Orson would say: "Indeed."

keii4ii

Also not exactly a scene, but one detail I really liked was the "fresh wild meat" store with the live rabbits. It's a nice nod to the rabbit... metaphor...? thingie, but I loved it for the little mundane worldbuilding bit it was.

Carrie Tupper

OMG YAY

I'm so glad you notices that Keii4ii!

noticed*

keii4ii

It helped that I saw such stores near me when I was growing up

Fried chicken places with live chickens in cages

Carrie Tupper

That whole bit was thrown is as a bit of a metaphoric way of saying, "Markesha's releasing the story into the world herself whether she realizes it or not."

RebelVampire

i appreciated too the subtle world building it did too. cause it both demonstrates in a small way how desperate everyone is for food while at the same time showing how theyve made everything work and are still able to operate somewhat the same as before

Carrie Tupper

I think it's interesting that y'all zeroed in on the tension/action bits. Most people tell me the parts they remember the most are those between Markesha and Toshi.

RebelVampire

i like seeing markesha and toshi interact, but at the same time theyre father and daughter. so at the end of the day theres probably gonna be love and hugs and theres kind of a safety net there where their relationship is concerned.

meanwhile everyone else is ready to put a bullet in markesha's head

minus like 3 people

keii4ii

I'm partial to child-parent conflicts so I've been more interested in Markesha's situation with her missing mom than with her dad.

RebelVampire

and one of those whose name is orson i dont trust

yeah i do like the tension between them regarding the mom. that definitely is a highlight since theyre both handled it so differently

keii4ii

Speaking of her mom.... that little problem they ran into with her DNA clearance thing (forgot what it's called/ what page it was on) is totally not suspicious at all, no sir.

RebelVampire

ill be more keen on their interactions later cause toshi was the one who really wanted markesha to take orson's job. but he also seems the most likely to go "wait shes doing what i didnt approve of that"

Carrie Tupper

Hahah "blacklisted bloodline"

RebelVampire

so that seems like a potential argument later

nah nobody did nothing at all

just a typo

never heard of the nin family

QUESTION 2. After avoiding it for a while, Markesha does agree to help Orson’s group. Do you think Markesha is finally settled on helping the group, or will she continue to panic and try to run for it? How do you think her first mission will go? Do you believe the first mission will help cement her motivations for helping Orson, or will it scare her away again? What do you think will happen when Markesha’s father finds out exactly what she’s doing for Orson? Further, do you think the Razors will figure out Orson covered for Markesha and was actually the one to deliver the bomb? If they do, what will they do to both Orson and Markesha? Finally, how do you think Markesha will mature and grow over the course of the story?

mathtans

I'll be here to comment shortly...

RebelVampire

hi math! take your time~!

Carrie Tupper

I think my personal fave scene is the one where Audrey and Orson butt heads in the 2nd episode. She's totally not down for this, thinks it's a bad idea, and I think it says a lot about Orson that he'll take that kind of talk around him. Like...he's not so iron fisted he won't hear someone drag his ideas for the desperate moves they are.

Hi, hi, Math!

keii4ii

Yeah, Orson never struck me as controlling, just really adamant

RebelVampire

orson is one of those characters where i dont know if i should love them or hate them. but like in the good tense way that keeps me on edge. hes this perfect blend of being a cool dude while at the same time kind of being a jerk.

mathtans

Only made it through the first two episodes, but of those, I think my fave scene is actually when Markesha rubs the rabbit talisman and leaves, and beat panel, and then Toshi does after she's gone. The sort of thing that you could have totally skipped over, but gave much more weight to his character early on, in my mind.(edited)

RebelVampire

yeah that was a beautiful pause

cause it really said so much about toshi in that moment

and just non verbally explained why he was so insistent she rub it

cause its more a thing for him and his heart

than it is for her

i want to believe that markesha's panicking is kind of done in the sense shes just gonna run forever. i think though in that first mission she's going to be moving forward on adrenaline and saying shit a lot to get through it. however, i think once orson is back he can explain things better, and that will cement in her desires more. that and i think shell see the opportunity as a way to improve toshi's life at the end and stick with it for that reason.

i 100% think when toshi finds out he wont be happy tho

and then theyll have that argument

where toshi is like how could you

and markesha is like "hey you pushed me into accepting his deal"

mathtans

Okay, more or less here, catching up on the start. I guess I went for the more traditional. Though the bit with the mother is kind of heartbreaking. Though at the same time inspirational what with how close Markesha's become with her dad. And I totally missed the metaphor of releasing the rabbits.

A couple runner-up scenes... right at the beginning, where the elevator opens and it's full of security guys by accident. I thought that was funny. Also, well played, setting up this guy as the main character and it's actually his team that are the key ones moving on.

Second runner up scene... welp, if you know me, you KNOW I'm shipping Kamikaze and Flare, so yeah.

Carrie Tupper

Yeah... I may or may not get a lot of people mad at me about Jackal...

Shipping already? Wow xD

mathtans

Mad at you? I thought it was clever. A way of showing no one's safe, in a way.

I go for all the yuri ships, hinted or not.

RebelVampire

i do miss jackal. the character well never really get to know. but nah, not mad. i mean this is the post apocalypse and you cant have post apocalypse without showing the world can be...unforgiving

plus it raises the stakes for orson

cause now everything is riding on markesha

but like

no pressure or anything there markesha

mathtans

As to Orson, here's a crazy theory. His "trial run" was actually to see if a bomb could be delivered fast enough to not explode in transit. He's in league with the bomber, presumably indirectly.

(Did we ever find out what that trial was about?)

Carrie Tupper

Hmmm, there's a flavor of that theory I haven't seen.

The trial run in the beginning?

mathtans

I prefer chocolate over vanilla. Right, that one, the one Markesha was 27 seconds late for.

Carrie Tupper

Yeah, there's a page where Link asks Orson how the "courier angle" went

RebelVampire

see, the way i feel about orson, i cant say no to that theory. orson is a shady dude even when im cheering for him.

Carrie Tupper

The idea there was that Orson was throwing a hail mary that a courier could be hired to do the job, but her parameters were a little high for untrained runners.

mathtans

But what was he couriering, eh? Secret bombs, maybe?

Rebel: It's true. The guy removed the evidence of his gun and everything.

Carrie Tupper

Orson's a professional, he's not perfect, but he's defintely been in the game for a loooong time.

mathtans

As to Rebel's questions, I think Markesha's instinct is to run. I was honestly inclined to smack her upside the head for disobeying her father the way she did, when he was making sense. Can kinda see her point of view, mind.

keii4ii

He knows his priorities. Gotta respect that even if I may not agree with him sometimes

Carrie Tupper

One of the hard realities Orson has to constantly deal with is the fact that he can't control everything in the outer city. Doing his jobs a lot easier when you can leverage everyone, but the chaos of Outer Trinity is almost a force of nature that he's just kinda...gotta make the best of.

mathtans

I think she's destined to grow though, from what we've seen in the special later storyline bits. (cough Shipping cough )

RebelVampire

i like that mix where orson cnt control everything yet gives off this attitude that sure he can, hes orson. gotta admire that confidence.

mathtans

Incidentally, real interesting format, what with giving some tidbits about the city or characters underneath the page. I didn't get a chance to read them all.

Carrie Tupper

Charisma seen from outer space

mathtans

Orson seems very sure of himself - and his coworkers. Probably why, as Carrie said, he can tolerate things like Audrey's challenges.

Handy trait given the position he's in.

RebelVampire

tbf its not like audrey's points are invalid anyway. shes making good points even if she chooses to express them very aggressively.

though between the three i like link the best cause hes a breathe of fresh air who brings sunshine and comedy to the bleak and serious world.

mathtans

She is. Though given she seems to be the one who needs to activate the kill switch, she's got a more personal stake.

Link spies on young girls though.

Carrie Tupper

That's a unique viewpoint, Rebel! We don't have many Link fans.

Are there any moments in particular you like with Link?

mathtans

If I had to pick a favourite character, it might be Toshi. Not just because he's a writer, but because he's doing his best under crazy circumstances. And doesn't let his blindness stop him. (Also, my God, all the pathos for the issue with his wife.)

biab, little one's fussing.

RebelVampire

i dont know whether to applaud toshi's dedication to his wife or not. cause i mean loyalty is an admirable quality, but theres also a point i agree with markesha and its time to smack him into realizing she probably isnt coming back.

as for favorite link moments, probably the scenes at markesha's house. especially where he critiques audrey for how strong shes coming on...and then proceeds to come on very strong. besides being funny, i think its a good moment that shows he does basically just kind of his own moral compass for better or for worse.

but i also really liked the dialogue sequence between him and audrey that markesha could here

cause it really showed the vulnerability everyone is in atm

QUESTION 3. Despite having to work for Orson, there are many questions surrounding Orson’s work. Who exactly are Audrey and Link, and how do you think they wound up working with Orson? Who exactly is Orson? What are Orson’s personal motivations for participating in the project? For that matter, why is Orson so hated and blamed for what happened to the Cornerstone family? What do you think happened to the Cornerstone family exactly, and how might it tie in to the story? Also, who is Orson’s boss? What are they trying to accomplish as far as changing the balance of power goes? How are they trying to accomplish it? Lastly, what do you think was in the canister seen at the beginning of the comic?

ShaRose49

Idk what to think about Orson, I can’t tell if he’s good or bad. Leaning more towards good though. My fav thing about this is that it looks like an animated series and the father-daughter relationship is a pretty good one and I feel like I don’t see that very often so kudos to you guys for that

Carrie Tupper

Thanks @ShaRose49

ShaRose49

No prob!

mathtans

Back briefly. I feel like Toshi not wanting to leave isn't simply due to his wife though. When you're blind, and living in a place, you kinda know where everything is. Having to leave would suuuck.

ShaRose49

It’s inspiring to me cause I’d like to be involved in animation as well someday

@mathtans I agree

RebelVampire

but not wanting to leave when your daughter is being hunted by the local gang is borderline insanity XD

ShaRose49

Oh yeah

mathtans

(I'm not at the bit where Link/Audrey go to Markesha yet, so no comment on that.)

Except dude was providing an alternative to that. Just saying.

Carrie Tupper

@mathtans You're quite right. It's complicated for Toshi. There's most DEFINITELY an edge of "I won't leave her," but there's also the complications of leaving in both a mental and physical way. He's lived there forever, had memories built with his family, and leaving means he'd have to re-learn layouts all over again. That can be stressful and painful for someone who can't see.

mathtans

As to the latest question, maybe Orson's boss is one of those people vying to fill the vacant seat at the council chambers.

RebelVampire

but toshi wouldnt even consider leaving till markesha super forced his hand. and to me thats the point where it reaches obsession cause hes willing to trust is some rando stranger and risk his daughters safety just on the .000001% chance his wife is coming back and because eww change. and while i empathize with toshi, that is a moment where i felt hes just being a bad dad. cause his own pain is more important than the life of his daughter

mathtans

And as to the canister, I'd say it had seeds or something, but it was apparently super heavy without the suit, so that doesn't jibe.

Rebel: Fair point about the stranger trust thing. But there were some logical arguments in there too. I guess there's layers of opinion.

biab again

keii4ii

I like Orson. He seems like he genuinely believes what he's doing is the best option for many in a crappy world, and accepts the shady aspects of it as a necessary price. There's a lot about him that's yet to be revealed, so maybe I won't agree with his endgame, but I still see an inherent value in that... belief in a non-self-centered goal.

ShaRose49

@Respheal yeah he’s definitely not perfect

Got some issues

RebelVampire

i definitely think hes a good guy and has a non-self centered goal. that being said, bending the rules can...corrupt your moral compass. so if at the end hes an antagonist, i would not be surprised

also wrong tag there @ShaRose49

XD

ShaRose49

Whoops!!

I musta slipped

My bad

Respheal

o_o

lol, s'ok

ShaRose49

Oh heeey, we were just talking about you!

Carrie Tupper

xD

ShaRose49

Accidentally!!

RebelVampire

seeds would make the most sense there where the cannister is concerned. as for the heaviness, well that couldve been more from the cannister itself than whats in the cannister.

keii4ii

I am very sorry because this is a terrible, terrible idea, but "if at the end he's an antagonist" just made me imagine him becoming a Final Boss a la that nanomachine boss from the Metal Gear Solid series.

Carrie Tupper

Oof. I gotta keep my mouth shut here, but y'all got some interesting ideas about Orson. xD

RebelVampire

maybe whats in the cannister are the secrets to weather control cause you never have to worry about the crops again if you can control the weather

mathtans

Back, mostly. That's a good take on Orson, keii4ii.

Incidentally, I notice we're only, like, 15 years from the "end of the world" as far as the story chronology seems to go. Yikes?

Carrie Tupper

15?

RebelVampire

its okay keii i pictured him in about 20 different video game boss forms when i said that XD

keii4ii

omg

Carrie Tupper

Just put glasses and a half vest on EVERY boss xD

mathtans

The tag line says "what happens when the world's first superheroine shows up two hundred years after the end of the world"... and I thought I saw a date marker of, like, 2227 somewhere.

(Someone's birth year? Mirage? I dunno.)

Carrie Tupper

Year is 2235

2235 - 200 years is 2035

mathtans

Okay, so wasn't totally imagining it. That means 200 years ago was, like, shortly in our future.

Carrie Tupper

Da

mathtans

We're in trouble.

Carrie Tupper

....Da

mathtans

Da da da daaaaa.

RebelVampire

tbf this is not the worst of post apocalypses

i mean there is some semblance of order

and cities

mathtans

There's still bureauocratic jerks too. That whole "you're blacklisted but hey, keep applying and giving us money" shakedown annoyed me. In the good way of clever writing because I can see it happening and they're jerks.

RebelVampire

yeah i really like in general political bs hasnt gone away. cause thats very true to life.

mathtans

Related, kudos on establishing that Logan guy in the council as a total waste of oxygen within, like, two panels (as he went off about girls asking for it). Get bent.

Carrie Tupper

Logan is basically every jerk I've ever known brought to life.

It's cathartic in a way.

RebelVampire

im gonna take a stab in the dark at orson's motivations. i think the cornerstones essentially got murdered in a mysterious raid that im sure no other high ranking family had anything to do with. and that for better or for worse, orson got blamed because someone always needs to be blamed. and orson blames himself but he also recognizes how the system is flawed. so he wants to change the power dynamics by changing hte food system or something. cause food does seem to be the controlling factor here.

mathtans

It's nice to have a clear villain character somewhere. The kind that's too moronic to actually take over the world though.

RebelVampire

maybe thats what logan wants you to think. that hes too dumb to do anything. when really he is the shadow puppet master

Carrie Tupper

Hmmm! All interesting ideas

mathtans

Rebel: That's a good theory. Maybe being the scapegoat also twisted his morals a bit, he figured I might as well do some of the shadier things like killing people.

Rebel: Logan could be a puppet, that's for sure. But not a master, unless the real master wants him to think so.

RebelVampire

you know who i dont trust? lionness heritage. if i had to pick anybody who ruined the cornerstones, itd be her.

Carrie Tupper

Oh? How come?

mathtans

Rebel: The fact that the world ended with "the Withering" implies to me that food is definitely a key element.

Carrie Tupper

Quite right, @mathtans

mathtans

Hm, don't think I've got to the lionness yet.

Carrie Tupper

She's a trip.

RebelVampire

because she seems smart enough to know how to politics and is so far the one most interested in changing the power structure. and just the way she offered the crop things in a backhanded blackmail way makes her rub me in all the wrong ways. like, she kind of gives me the same impression orson does. where shes doing good while also being shady af. but in her case her motives are way more self-interested, so the self-interested plus the shady are a dangerous combonation(edited)

Carrie Tupper

Makes sense.

RebelVampire

tbh i would not be surprised if she was orson's boss, but actually fooled orson into thinking she wanted to do good things for everyone.

mathtans

Oooh, interesting theory.

Carrie Tupper

She's not a person to trifle with

Constance will have to be careful.

RebelVampire

but i do like constance. i hope she and markesha meet and become the ultimate duo. the one who politics and the one who works in the shadows.

QUESTION 4. Besides the major plot points, there are quite a number of politics and world issues about. Who are the Outlanders, and why are they disliked? Assuming Markesha’s mother was an Outlander, how did she wind up with Markesha’s father? What do you think ultimately happened to Markesha’s mother? Do you think Markesha and her father will find out during the story? How might it affect them? Less personally tied to Markesha is what’s going on in Halo. Do you think Orson will get out of his captivity? If so, how will it come about? Will Lionness Wright take Cornerstone’s seat High House seat? What is Lionness’ Heritage interest in Lionness Wright taking it? At last, do you think there is a chance one of the Cornerstone’s lived?

Carrie Tupper

@mathtans I have to admit I hope you'll comment through the next bit of story. The team and I would very much enjoy seeing yours or anyone else's reactions in realtime

mathtans

(Is there more Kamikaze and Flare? )

Carrie Tupper

(It's coming I promise, but it'll be a bit!)

All very good questions you've posed @RebelVampire

RebelVampire

im hoping we get to learn more about the outlanders. cause i mean namewise, obviously they are ppl who live outside the city. but at the same time, they mention that yellow eyes are a trait. and you dont have a shared trait if youre just ppl outside the walls.

mathtans

I admit, I'm real bad with geography in real life. It's worse in fantasy novels and comics for me. I remember there were three gates. That's... kind of all I got.

Oh yeah, the eyes. Though not all Outlanders.

RebelVampire

i didnt study the geography that hard this time, admittedly.

maybe toshi met his wife via some writing work? like doing some journalistic investigation on the lives of outlanders

mathtans

Started looking at Episode 3. Clever way of having the storm info playing in the background. Reminds me of how Toshi was looking at the news to give us backstory in an earlier bit.

Carrie Tupper

The geography of the city is pretty basic, but for reference...

RebelVampire

oh thats nice they have a river

very smart

Carrie Tupper

For reference Markesha's mom = Cassie

mathtans

Markesha really likes jumping to conclusions, doesn't she. Also, selective memory.

RebelVampire

ok cassie. i knew shed been named but i couldnt remember it

Carrie Tupper

Hey many she just got kinda blown up give her a break xD

RebelVampire

to be fair markesha is i think 19? thats basically still a kid and that is kid-like behavior

Carrie Tupper

Yep, in the scene with Rio she said she turned 20 in a week.

Happy birthday~ Markesha

mathtans

Oh, I'm not faulting it. Just, perhaps especially as a teacher, I roll my eyes.

Carrie Tupper

One of the things I have to catch myself in a lot when reading anything is the memory of the character doesn't always match our own, especially if said character wasn't present at or had certain information communicated to them

mathtans

Also kind of impressive how every page has it's own title. That's attention to detail. (I do it, but that's only because they're all 4-panels.)

Carrie: Truth.

RebelVampire

maybe cassie was involved in some espionage. like maybe she married toshi just to have a cover so she could spy for outlanders. and then when her mission was done she left. or ya know, was viciously murdered. which i would be amazingly surprised if she was alive. i dont buy into the characters' hopes. i feel shes just been gone too long for it to have been anything else.

Carrie Tupper

lol, Alan and I beat our heads against the wall EVERY WEEK to make sure we haven't reused those titles. xD

mathtans

biab, little one fussing.

Carrie Tupper

Cassie's fate is at this point unknown to everyone, but I definitely know her fate and do my best to sprinkle it in

In fact there's a lot of things I sprinkle in through the series. Like the fact Julain shows up WAAAAAY before book 3.

RebelVampire

interesting

Carrie Tupper

https://i0.wp.com/kamikazeanimated.com/comic/wp-content/uploads/2014/08/pg_05.jpg?w=900

mathtans

Back. Yeah, I have a text file of titles. If I think of one I'm not sure of, I simply do a search.

RebelVampire

omg thats such a sneaky appearance too

mathtans

Cassie was actually a time traveller!

Carrie Tupper

hahaha xD

RebelVampire

but also makes me picture on one page somewhere theres a hidden newspaper article that readers "many year long cold case of murdered woman in alley still not solved! read the story on page 4!"

mathtans

Damn. Nice foreshadow.

Carrie Tupper

Mmmmmaaaybe

One of my goals when writing this is to leave little things for return readers to find and enjoy

that way when they re-read they notice new things, and the experience is fresh in a different way

RebelVampire

thats always a good thing to have. especially when it things like that where you smack yourself in the forehead cause you didnt realize a character had already appeared before

mathtans

Yeah, that's awesome.

RebelVampire

off topic to that but like http://kamikazeanimated.com/comic/kamikaze/pg-1-moving-day/ how can anybody not like link after looking at this page? look at those beautiful and jovial expressions minus the adorable pout

Carrie Tupper

Orson's little sneer at the tablet being waved in his face always makes me smile

mathtans

Interesting about a panic switch, didn't expect that arrest. They didn't even read his rights.

Carrie Tupper

...y'all have a really positive view of the Trinity justice system

mathtans

I live in hope. The romantic in me.

RebelVampire

yeah i think thats math there. im even surprised they didnt just gun them down and go "whoops they slipped into my bullets"

mika

oh we're talking about something that i do not know

mathtans

Markesha staying in one place for calibration? Yeah, good luck with that.

Rebel: Point.

Carrie Tupper

Hiya mika!

RebelVampire

this is the channel for our thursday book club chat. were talking about kamikaze http://kamikazeanimated.com/comic/ @mika

especially orson. i for sure orson would get shot cause man is there a lot of hate for orson.

so really insofar

their treatment has been better than i expected

Carrie Tupper

That's fair

mika

oooo

mathtans

Orson looks really different without his glasses.

Carrie Tupper

I guess ultimately the HSF knows if they do anything to hurt Orson they'llhave to answer to the High House LEOs and...well

mathtans

He's got some pull still.

Carrie Tupper

I'm not sure who I'd want to answer to less in that situation

Fun note: The shot where we see the other inmates via Orson's view is directly related to how blurry people look w/o my glasses on.

mathtans

Okay, one last theory... the canister at the start held some of the "Withering" disease in storage, that people were studying. They want it in order to create a vaccine/cure, but others are fine with the world the way it is.

I am very with you on that. My prescription is high.

mika

im going to try reading it! im always looking for more webcomics to snatch

Carrie Tupper

I hope you'll enjoy it @mika and feel free to comment on the pages! The team loves chatting with our readers

mathtans

(Made it to the end of Act 1 atleast.)

Carrie Tupper

haha xD

mika

oof im guilty of not commenting enough

Carrie Tupper

Act 2 is insanely long, so I'm sure it won't take any time for you

RebelVampire

i really loved that blurry shot. as a glasses wearer, that is a detail so many comics do not capture. that yeah, without glasses, ppl cant bloody see that well.

Carrie Tupper

Yep. I also needed to establish that for later shenanigans

mathtans

(I'm actually a pretty slow reader. I'm also bad at keeping up with things. Even my own websites.)

RebelVampire

and the cannister containing a copy of the disease is interesting, math. although sounds extremely dangerous. like...jackal did not treat that cannister with enough care if thats whats in it XD

mathtans

I wonder if we'll get much from Toshi's point of view then. Could save the artist some time.

Carrie Tupper

omg right?

I have thought about having a dream sequence for Toshi

where all wee see are the 'sounds' he hears

mathtans

Jackal seemed pretty sure of himself and not inclined to listen to advice though.

(I wonder if that was a code name, like "Rabbit"?)

Carrie Tupper

It was.

mathtans

Well played.

Carrie Tupper

If you look at the "list of affiliations" on Orson's file that we did, you may find him hidden in the list

mathtans

Good job all around, as far as final words go. The amount of worldbuilding behind the scenes is damn impressive, you get the impression that it's only the tip of the iceberg being shown.

RebelVampire

that would definitely be an interesting experience. to see the world as toshi sees it, metaphorically speaking.

mathtans

(I'm baffled about how it could have been goofy in the conception, it's pretty serious now, I think.)

RebelVampire

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[lolana07]

Another moving rant! Again feel free to blacklist: While my family has been disgustingly supportive, they are also being very... Stealthy or subtle in their dislike of my moving. Especially my mother, but I know it's coming from a sad heart so I try not be take anything too personally. It's just difficult when we are having a great phone call and towards the end she just has to add in that I might not fit for a multitude of reasons, including my lack of caring about.... How do I say... Make up? Presenting myself as a girly girl? (Sometimes I do like to step it up, but the usual is whatever is comfortable and usually no make up) Umm, idkk but you get it right? Like wtf mom, am I not pretty enough to live over there? Do I have to meet some unknown standard of beauty to be accepted? My entire childhood she's always been like, of you don't want to wear a dress no problem, wear a suit, just tell me and well get you all set up. Like, where did that mom go? Sure I'm not 10 anymore but wtf mom! Understandably, since the main business is hoIIywood and such, I get that there will be a stigma. And maybe I'm being naive, but not everyone out there is all about that. Just like on this side, you can find your niche and be okay. The east coast ain't too kind of non girly girls either you know! And of course it'll be difficult to find the right group of friends bc I'm new and all, but that's not a reason to not go (am in terrified I'm going to be a loner, fuck yes!). I know she's upset and sad and I'm going to miss her just as much as she'll miss me, but seriously mom? Resorting to this as a last ditch? I'm usually not offended by the types of comments (okay maaaybee I've built up a defensive wall) but this one hurt, and it's not even the surface vanity part that hurt. Maybe it's just that she did purposefully step on an old nerve that's taken me a loong time to come to terms with. Or that she would think me low enough, or insecure enough that this would change my mind completely...Idk. Whatever, either way I'm upset she went there. She's always been there for me, and god knows I was not the best kid, but once I got my ass in gear at the end of college, we became best friends. So this is totally out of the blue and I don't understand why she would go there. I'm tempted to ask but a part of me really doesn't care.... About why she wasn't there. Of course I care that she'll me miss, I'll Probably be a sobbing mess the first month with her on speed dial.