#umiepisode7

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Umineko EP7. Replay Part 2

Everyone Sayo started being a servant with left at the same time, leaving Sayo with mixed feelings of disappointment and relief, but still pretty hopeful at what the future will bring... This is the first time someone other than Sayo acknowledges Shannon as a person, so I think this is around when she started messing with other identities? Makes sense that when all the servants left she could start trying to be someone other than "Yasu", who she hated.

Sayo's pranks are really mean if you think about it, and some servants are clearly very unsettled by them. Obviously, though, this is Sayo's way of getting back at people that torment her. A bit of a power trip for someone who has very limited control on their life otherwise. The effort Sayo had put into bettering herself when a new group of people came went to waste because the rumors started by people not even there anymore still persisted....

This scene marks the change from Beatrice, Gaap, Shannon as vague concepts she had in her head into actual characters with laid-out backstories. Including some hasty rewrites lol sorry Gaap you are nameless now.

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Shannon's role changes here as well - she used to be Sayo's imaginary friend, the perfect example of a servant who everyone liked. But with Shannon becoming a physical person and not just an ideal Sayo strives to be she is now someone who "messes up from time to time, .... but I want to become a kind servant whom everyone loves", also goes to school despite the Shannon character being an older servant. Mixing up elements from Shannon the character and Sayo the actor of Shannon. As pleasant as writing and escapism and imaginary friends can be, Sayo still wants to have actual, human relationships.

It's played up as Shannon is a pervert haha and yes I am sure she was also starting to develop sexual thoughts but also I wonder how much of it was curiosity about how bodies were supposed to be growing when her body wasn't growing like it was "supposed" to....

It's really not hard what caused Sayo to fixate on this concept and Battler.... someone who feels such general unease about their identity, about their life, etc. When someone comes at you talking about how you can't neglect people's inner worlds and they like looking into that....

These words are so senseless, and I am not like, dunking on Battler he was a child as well, but saying to a person who is hurting that you are going to save them any time when you actually can't do that... Giving a person who feels trapped in a shitty life hope that you will save them when you have no means or intention to is extremely cruel regardless of intention.

We go back to Will-Lion commentary and Lion is freaking out more and saying they can't understand, and Will tells Lion they are the man character of this play and that Clair herself thinks she is impossible to understand by now... so they should shut up, keep listening and understanding. Sayo doesn't have kind words for Battler right now, hahah.

Shannon finds out about Battler leaving the family and we get more details about this... it's not really a surprise that Battler does not like the fact his mom died, a random woman is immediately joining their 'family', and it's obvious he was cheating on Asumu while she was alive. Natsuhi is giving Rudolf shit since she hates infidelity ofc. Just saying that I am not really surprised Natsuhi seems to suspect Krauss of cheating, I don't think anyone would like to be told by their partner that they get TOO angry about cheating and to be less mean to cheaters.

I don't think anyone can really give Battler shit for this specific decision he made. I think he was well within his rights to grieve his mother like this. I think the part you CAN give him shit is not trying to keep contact with Shannon in any way and robbing her both of her best friend, crush and hope for the future without so much as saying "I know, I'm sorry". "...In the worst case, I might have to wait until the next family conference."

Sayo's conception of "A life with Battler" is surprisingly grounded. Go back to the orphanage, use your work money to be able to see him occasionally, finish school, and move to an area nearby. WAY more of a real plan than Battler just saying "Come live with me lol". She's putting so much thought unto something that was definitely said with no thoughts behind it. George is like HE'S NEVER COMING BACK PAY ATTENTION TO MEEEE

Sayo is disappointed about Battler not coming so she starts trying to control the situation by blaming herself... it was her fault for not being resolved. Her fault for not being ready yet. As soon as she's ready he's gonna come.

Battler's way of treating women is compared to Rudolf yet again. It's obvious his disregard for women's feelings comes from him, and him finally apologizing to Beatrice and seeing the truth is him doing something Rudolf never learned to fix on himself.

Sayo agonizes some more about how this is a trial, she will persevere, knowing deep inside that it's less and less likely. It is so much crueler to leave her hanging than to say anything to confirm or deny his memories... being stuck means that every time you see the obvious truth it feels like she's betraying Battler because there's no actual proof of anything, just her changing perception of him.... As soon as she gets some resolve that Battler's gone... there's confirmation that things are claiming down between Battler and Rudolf, a new cruel hope. And that hope is immediately replaced with cruel reality, man, he even wrote to Maria and he can't even bother to remember the person he exchanged stories and books and promises with constantly....

It's extremely hurtful to your soul to feel like this.... when you know how someone deeply hurt you and you want any sort of closure but.... that person didn't even consider hurting you anything special on their life so to them it's like asking them what they ate for breakfast a year ago.

The voice acting here fuck......

Sayo eventually creates Kanon to cope with her crippling loneliness and disappointment and realizing that Battler didn't really gaf and hid her love for Battler inside 'Beatrice'. Also, Sayo got prettyyyy lucky that Battler's ideal woman is already vaguely like Beatrice anyways.

Kiznzo and Genji hang the epitaph, Kumasawa and Genji start goading Sayo into solving it....

If you think about it, just the fact that you physically have to go to the island to test your solution immediately slants the answer to certain people. Sayo can make a wrong guess and check more or less every day, but if anyone else makes a wrong guess they can check like... thrice a year?

"If I hand you Beatrice, will you violate her again" asks Genji, who will then hand him Beatrice again because he cried enough about it, I guess.

Anyways I am crying again god I hate you Kinzo I hate you Genji let this poor girl live her own fucking life. It's kind of interesting Sayo doesn't seem to name her creations.... Beatrice, Shannon, Kanon had names due to circumstance but Ronove, Virgilia and Gaap weren't named until Maria gave them names. Guess that's her weakness as a writer!

Sayo and Maria treasure their time with each other of course, they have a lot of fun together but.... Maria can't really fulfill all of Sayo's emotional needs, nor vice versa.

Genji starts by dropping the hint about Taiwan, we get a step-by-step breakdown of how to solve the riddle.... you can tell it was a tremendous amount of effort even with the hints. Must have made the fact it was a pre-ordained fate to please the person that ruined your life hurt that much more.... Weird, creepy, and erasing of Sayo's own personhood to ask this of her.... You changed her name, you changed her family, you changed her age, and now you are having her swap into someone else for the eyes of Kinzo....

The coronation scene is very unsettling... the focus is entirely on Kinzo "earning" forgiveness for someone who isn't even clear on what he did.... Sayo realizes everyone around her has been lying to her about her identity her entire life. They start calling her Lion which is ANOTHER name she has no connection to that was forced on her, and Kinzo forces her to call her father and she feels clearly unsettled by this. What right do you have to determine that, Genji? He admitted none of his sins and merely asked for forgiveness to someone without even telling them what he did.

Sayo doesn't really want to be the head or ruin Krauss etc's life.... and her life starts going on a downward spiral as she starts realizing the truth of her heritage, her body, her relations to her lovers, and everything in a moment she was already vulnerable.

No one wants to be a witch.... living in the edges of reality to cope with how harsh reality is.

George stepping out would have broken the game.... Jessica checking on Kanon would have broken the game as well. The choice of people who can break the game is interesting.... seems like she was in a way testing them.

Thinking of that locked room just makes me sad....

The obvious culprit - so that was definitely Eva.... I guess Sayo only did the first four and Nanjo.

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Lion haha.... Sayo would be so happy to hear that.

This whole ending ceremony feels very.... disconcerting once you know what's about to happen. But Sayo is not nearly or uniquely the only problem of the Ushiromiya family... understanding just her won't lead you to understand all of 1986.

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Umineko EP7. Replay Tea Party and ???

Lion and Ange discuss the situation a bit and eventually figure out they are from different worlds and Lion kind of explains, Ange realizes some witch is fucking with her yet again and she sounds extremely tired of all this bullshit. Yeah.... you totally have.

Lion convinces themselves that the reason they are there is to teach Ange about the truth, Ange starts asking about the Game Master but obviously, there's no author for this tale.... Words Eva will probably regret for the rest of her life, aaa.... The fact they discussed how to split the gold if found is unfortunate too, since that means they had more incentive to work together....

Everytime George and Shannon talk about the future with children and what not Shannon always just gives this... extreme like. yeah that would be cool hahah but... vibe. And George doesn't seem interested about following up on that. I hate you Battler I hate you.

Shannon's words hitting like a stab in the back haha.... I mean she wishes that were true. Would have been fully true if Battler came back just a year later....

Everyone finds the gold and gets blinded by it, they look so giddy and happy about how all their problems will be fixed. Lion believes in the miracle but Ange knows stuff is going to happen. She sounds so dead inside and ready to die here.... really drives the point home this whole plan was more the last stand of a suicidal person with a bomb more than anything else....

"We wouldn't be surprised if Dad just wanted to blow us up, yeah."

The solution to Battler being very confused about the epitaph meaning nothing and yet everything to Beatrice... Once the epitaph is solved Sayo kills Beatrice and any hope of being understood with her.

The family starts arguing with each other about the gold... Eva starts arguing the money should be split evenly, Krauss argues back.... it's so stupid to argue this. Any split in the money amount would make them richer than they ever thought possible. But if you told a bunch of people who hate and don't trust each other that they should split the money evenly and give them a bunch of guns this isn't really a farfetched result.... "This tale is clearly filled with ill will towards us." Hahahah I wish that were the case Lion...

The murder doesn't really start as an intentional murder between siblings... they start getting physical in their fight and when there are guns around it's really easy for the fight to escalate, and once Natsuhi and Krauss are dead... Rudolf and Rosa don't really gaf that Natsuhi and Krauss are deadm they are just giddy about being able to use it against Eva, Rosa pushes on blackmailing Eva and Kyrie starts deciding that leaving anyone alive is a liability, which, she isn't really wrong at this point... if more than one person survived I'm sure things would end up extremely fucked up at this point, anyways.

Kyrie and Rudolf realized right away after Natsuhi died the only way for this to end was by killing everyone. They were the only ones who had the mindset to think this through like this, but I don't think there was any other way for it to end than with a bunch of deaths even if Kyrie and Rudolf didn't think about it. The particular desensitization to violence Kyrie has due to having Yakuza background was indeed it ended in *this* massacre specifically but I have no doubt a scuffle would have happened after finding the gold either way. Blaming Kyrie for being especially evil and especially bad is a little pointless, the feuds and animosity run deeper than her. I have always assumed the point of bringing up the test here is hinting at Kyrie being especially involved in Episode 4 - that episode is the one filled with the most blind spots on how everything was going on, other than the general gist of everyone being on it to some extent. This is really weird, but it's not like your uncle would call you out to murder you, is it? Jessica probably thinks this is weird too, since I imagine she at least suspects of Kinzo, but again, even if they don't believe the story told it's not like their minds would jump to murder.

It makes sense when you think about how Eva was missed, she was already alerted of the danger and was probably moving a lot when the shooting happened. There was already so much blood in the room it'd be hard to tell who exactly was shot. They constantly mention how Rudolf's gun shoots low, which explains how both Eva and Sayo were missed. Ange can handle this because she thinks it's just a game, so she's just disgusted by it.

I am going to cry, god damn it, Ange....

Rudolf is saying it in a much more mocking and insincere tone, of course, but he's also saying what Sayo thought to some extent.... if everyone died then she would be forever close with Jessica and George and Battler, and she wouldn't have had to deal with disappointing them, she wouldn't have had to deal with them finding out about her body, about being cousins. She gets to rewrite harsh reality with the Golden Land and everyone is happier that way, it was all just a fantasy that no one would know about a day later. Also, this scene actually makes me feel really bad about George...

The reminder Rudolf is like this because he's already used to using dirty tactics that ruin others for their benefit, and that he's like this in the first place because that's how he got away from Rudolf and Eva's abuse when he was younger is an interesting way to remind us that Rudolf isn't just evil because he's evil, the very environment they all grew up in was evil. "I regret dragging you back into the family..." haha....

Rudolf thinks to himself about how Eva is dumb and going to fall for his tricks and get shot in the head, Eva goes to sob about George's death.... we move to Kyrie and the fact that reality is the one game where Maria can have a really gruesome death makes me sad.... I guess it's not much better than strangulation in ep3, but, it's certainly implied here she was stabbed to death. I can't imagine that Kyrie isn't self-demonizing for Ange's sake here, she isn't stupid, she knows chances are she will die here. If Ange goes back to the Sumadera family she's probably going to be in a bad spot, and her best bet is to have Eva take care of her and the only way that's going to happen is if she deletes the Ange Kyrie relation from her brain. I can't imagine she'd just rattle all this backstory for no reason otherwise.

She even starts grinning once she realizes it worked.

Fuck, Ange....

Ange disappears, being unable to handle the truth and Lion starts arguing with Bernkasteal about how she's Clair's hope and she argues back by showing them Kyrie killing them... We then flashback to all the truths that were hidden by the funeral otherwise. Sayo's cries here are so awful... she's forced to confront she will never have a proper body, and how all her dreams are destroyed, those cries are so hard to hear. It's not hard to think about why Bernkastel hates those that try to hide reality with illusions, consider that's what Takano was also doing in order to keep her grandfather's dreams alive...

Don't give up on being Sayo's one hope, as she has already given up on her own hope entirely....

Will will never stop believing that a happy ending was possible for Beatrice, while also understanding her heart. It's easy for people to say oh why didn't they just do this, they would have been happy. But the reality is a lot harsher, and her struggles weren't that easy. Will believes that her reality is harsh while ALSO thinking there is hope for her.

Featherine starts bragging about how Bernkastel is never going to be free from her.

Bernkastel and Lambdadelta guarantee that she won't give a happy ending, and at the same time Battler is opening the book in order to guarantee Ange's happy ending.

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Umineko EP7. Replay Part 1

The contrast between the somber, funeral, scenes of Battler with Beatrice's corpse and the inquisitor scenes with LiberatedLiberator playing are very funny.... also the battler scenes are very tender. "Then, he kissed (The book), ...and laid it gently in the casket" The game is making me sad already lol. Wonder if people who had figured that S = K but not Sayo were stumped by this... I mean it would be short-lived since the episode reveals what happened but. R07 does like testing even the readers that did get the answer.

Will is obviously the ideal Battler that Battler hoped Sayo would be, the one who would look for the heart of her mystery, and he's very dashing in this scene lol, sadly the reality is different than the ideal.... This episode has a pretty good opening, actually, I like it a lot. The funeral scene where everyone has their own reaction to the death of Beatrice is interesting, it really highlights how many different things and people 'Beatrice' is. Speaking of people 'Beatrice' is....

This episode has a bunch of new songs, I forgot how many songs were unique to or introduced in this episode, it adds to the unique vibe this episode has, also they are all really good so.... Lion is so "mild-mannered" (as the game puts it) that he just straight up ignores that there's a flying girl in front of him and just tells her to step off the altar, lol.

Bernkastel introduces the mystery of "Who Killed Beatrice?" along with the side-mystery of who is Lion. Lion is extremely annoyed by all this.

Lion having no memory of Kanon is the first hint introduced, besides being Natsuhi's child. Lion mentions being used to unreasonable situations due to being forced to deal with Kinzo.... which is kind of ironic when you think about how that is true for Sayo in a completely different way. Will didn't seem to see Lion as much more than just a clueless, curious, piece at first but his demeanor forced him to acknowledge a piece as an equal. It is a pretty endearing relationship that was definitely pulled off nicely in the short time they had. Eva is uh, definitely not happy about the existence of Lion....

Everyone's really comfortable calling Beatrice his mistress here - in main worlds, it seemed to be a more taboo topic.... the fact that the witch legend didn't exist in this world probably lead to people talking about Beatrice-as-a-Person more in this fragment I suppose.

I wouldn't put it that confidently but.... it's not like ignoring her and letting her be locked in a cage where she is under Kinzo's control is a good place to be either.

Non-voiced dialogue.... right yeah this episode was censored a lot during the console version.

Bernkastel gets the theatergoing ability from Bernkastel in order to force Kinzo to talk. Shannon reveals she struggles to remember Lion, and Will catches this. They talk, and he orders her to bring Kanon, she hints at Sayo and Shannon.exe starts breaking down from conflicting instructions. She starts referring to Sayo as "The one who orders us"

This scene's pretty interesting... because if you think about it the one would get checkmate is Beato and not Will right? But Will is the one getting warned. I have been kind of rocking my head at this for a bit - but I can see a couple interpretations. I could see it as a commentary on how S = K isn't the full answer and you need to keep thinking above that to reach a real answer - on a meta-level maybe Will would have been fucked by forcing an illegal move idk. Interesting scene to think about lol.

Kinzo: Beatrice is mine alone. No matter what anyone says, no one can defile our story. Ugh, gross to think about. You yourself already defiled your own story with Beatrice, Kinzo. Genji starts being pushy about Beatrice II being Beatrice reborn.... no wonder Sayo can't get herself to have positive feelings toward Genji. I can find myself as having more sympathy towards Kumasawa, though.... I think the way making pranks passed from one to the other is cute and in general seems to have less power and willingness to enable Kinzo... still, though, the fact the person is basically your mother hiding your dad's abuse and having you play along with a dumb riddle game for the sake of said abuser.... The images of Kumasawa thinking she's playing dead and slowly realizing she is in fact being killed makes me sad, though.

Kumasawa: "You could sometimes catch a glimpse of his great love for the late Beatrice-sama, and it was a heart-warming thing."... Kumasawa's way of saying Kinzo is a groomer without saying it directly, and Will catches on to what she actually means. Oh Lion starts crying right now when the only thing he knows is that he did some grooming.... your day is about to get so much worse Lion. "Everything was decided by someone other than me".... and Kinzo eventually ended up putting that burden on several Beatrices, the one who ironically broke him free of that hell.

We get a bunch of introductions to the overall setting, Kinzo talking about how he's waiting to die and about how he hates pretty much everyone else on the island. Then Kinzo meets Beatrice and they immediately hit it off. I forgot the first talk they had with each other after meeting each other was about how they both feel controlled and defined by their families.... it makes sense they can relate to each other in that way. It is sad to think that instead of breaking that chain Kizno instead furthered it to about 10 different people.

Ah, hahaha, it's kind of sad to think about how Kinzo's wife was definitely bothered about the cheating... it'd be one thing if they both didn't give a fuck about the relationship but.... Natsuhi mentions relating to her once I think so I can't imagine her situation was happy, whatever it was.

The reveal of the tens of gold comes from the Italians no longer being able to hide it due to their ship sinking slowly.

Weird tangent but it's kind of fascinating to see Kinzo as an interpreter because I work as a professional Spanish-english interpreter... Kinzo does sooooo many things that would get me fired haha. Of course, he's not a professional interpreter and I am certainly not a wartime interpreter. Kinzo is a liar in his retelling of the events, of course, in actuality he was the one who first recommended shooting the Italians first. The choice is framed as letting everyone but you and the person you love die but uh, it is closer to risking her life and hoping she's fine.

It was certainly not his intention to let her die but.... it's certainly a risk he should have considered more thoroughly before deciding to blow the Italians up.

Kinzo: "Can't you see that you caused all this because you were blinded by gold." Yeah, sure Kinzo, they did.

Part of what drove even Beatrice 1 to wanting to die is the fact that Kinzo's planning got everyone close to her killed....

Kinzo took Beatrice to Nanjo who kept the secret for him, and then Beatrice died during childbirth.

And then he's also bribed by Sayo, haha, I mean he isn't very good at lying in hindsight but also no one figured anything out *due* to him so....

Will talks about how Battler might have been removed as a way to make the puzzle harder which is interesting. Bernkastel DOES believe Battler remembers his promise to some extent even as a piece... Jessica probably feels less pressure in this world if anything... I can imagine not bearing the brunt of Natsuhi's expectations and allowed to be herself probably helps everyone in that relationship a little bit.

Maria corrects Will on his bible knowledge haha that's very cute. This line always struck to me and I always remember it... it's a way to connect why people use magic to a situation we all know. Obviously, this is not what the Bible meant but it did give her the power to love herself as is.

Maria mentions she told to everyone about how she wanted to meet the witch and then Beatrice appeared in front of her, in other words Sayo indulged her and they became good friends after that, hahaha. This is so cute I am crying.

Will gets into the non-existence of Lion with the chair arrangement and into the number of accomplices with the number of people able to see Beatrice.... Maria sure is a good witness when you bother to talk to her on her terms. Will reasons this was after Beatrice started existing but before it had anything to do with Battler. Will tells Jessica that he approves of her living her life like she wants to and keeping her hobbies in spite of it all... narrative points out this is probably the first time someone approved of how Jessica lived her life. Ouch. Jessica talks about how she doesn't gaf too much about Beatrice and how she thinks Maria is a bit freaky about being too into Maria and it was too vivid... which it quite literally was because she did meet Beatrice. Jessica is extremely classy about it.

Will chides her for being like this by pointing out her motto is creating another self how you want to be and that's exactly what Maria is doing.

Jessica coughing a ton in order to change the subject is brought up here. I think she probably does actually have asthma, though, just uses that to her advantage sometimes. Jessica is still gloomy about the argument a day later, she talks to Kumasawa about it and she dares her to curse her for that and uh, THEN she goes to Shannon and Gohda and denies it AGAIN... man Jessica you had like 4 chances to back down out of it. Jessica knows exactly what happened but is too scared to admit it to herself... I imagine that might be what is going on with Kinzo and Shkannon as well.

Will breaks Jessica's reality by pointing out the sitting arrangement issue, but I guess she'll probably just rationalize it anyway so it is fine.

Kinzo probably did his best to quit the rumors since they were rude and since his mental state was probably a bit better in this world and there was no Sayo to build the legend of the witch, well....

Will starts his description of who killed Beatrice by revealing that Maria can tell people apart not by their appearance but by their actions. "She believed the power of witches could change her unfulfilling and incomplete life".... I mean not wrong, but ouch...Lion makes the connection that Beatrice is kind of a character Sayo is playing. It's cool how the tension you feel in this scene as Will slowly edges to the conclusion.

Lion: Are you trying to say Beatrice and I are two sides of the same coin? Lion's 100% correct here lol. Lion starts getting pissed when he starts revealing Lion's backstory, which is understandable.... he can tell Kinzo DID have favoritism towards him so he keeps hearing though. This is kind of sad just itself.... Natsuhi and Lion have a good parent-child relationship if they are allowed to exist together it's just the circumstances that allow them to be together are too harsh for that to happen...

The choice of whether Lion will see Beatrice or not is interesting to me.... I mean, it won't be pretty and will add a bunch of trauma that he was saved from in this life, but.... Beatrice being seen and accepted by Lion would probably mean a lot to her, I think... I don't know what Lion would think of Beatrice but the idea of Lion denying her makes me very sad. It would probably be very hard to process though. Think there's kind of an implicit "Do you have the right to judge 'bad' people when they could have been you had you been born in different circumstances" kind of argument going on here. They start discussing Lion's gender, and we start talking about how that was a constant point of contention in the games, which is about the one thing that hasn't been spelled out yet by now...

R07 starts beating you over the head with how all the answers are available in ep1-4 and the next games were just answers lol. Probably a little frustrated by people at people having I'll wait until i get more hints approach. She's right though.... like Lambdadelta dropped soooo many hints and it was still not enough. Battler definitely deserves some shit.

Sayo is confused about why they were brought to Ushiromiya's family when they don't have any relevant skills. It's certainly not the beginning of it but it's probably the first time Sayo felt that her fate was being chosen by someone for reasons unknown to her.... Sayo was just in elementary school.... she really wasn't allowed much of any life before Genji started dragging her around for his plans. I wonder what Genji told Natsuhi to make an excuse for Sayo to get there. If you just tell her Kinzo said so she probably can't object too much though. They did what? Jesus christ, I forgot how bad her life was even pre-rokkenjima....

Sayo is helped by "Shannon", which is mentioned was her friend in the Gospel House as well... sad to think her life has sucked so much to this point that they had to make an imaginary friend before she even got to Rokkenjima. Ok yeah Natsuhi confirms she was told Kinzo just did this lol. I wonder what Kinzo thought but at this point I imagine he was too busy feeling guilty about Beatrice to care too much about the house going ons. Lion wakes up and says he doesn't regret finding out but he wants to forget which is a fair, probably. They start discussing how this was Genji's plan. Bernkastel starts taunting Lion about not being biological and everyone just kind of ignores her, which fair enough she doesn't even believe what she's saying. We go back to Clair's home life being kind of fucky. worsened by Genji's machinations.

I've kind of been avoiding the subject because it's really obvious but the Gospel House is really fucked. Stripping children of their names, sending them to work after middle school... Haha, I wonder why no one talks behind her back or why she can't pick up your tasks.

Natsuhi tells Sayo to not to be Jessica's friend, because of course she does. Sayo has every right to fucking hate Natsuhi. If only Genji chose to separate Kinzo from Sayo fully instead of making her entire life a redemption play for her mother's rapist.... They bring up the age difference and how it was necessary to have Natsuhi and Kinzo be fooled, which is another way in which Sayo's entire identity was denied for others. Sayo recounting the way she loses things sounds just like ADHD haha, anyways that's how Beatrice-Gaap is born. Sayo mentions how the reason she can 'see' things even when they are not there is due to the way she has been taught God is everywhere even though you can't see him. That's definitely interesting to me.... it's always interesting to hear about how children interpret religious superstitions, you definitely see a lot of children interpreting stuff like imaginary friends, mental illness, etc. Like that. Being perceived and understood is to be saved.

Sayo gives up and realizes the broom was outside and picks it up, in the meta she has become friends with the broom-stealing Beatrice. Kumasawa starts teaching her how to not lose stuff but filters it through magic talk, which becomes the basis for her entire system of magic.... Kumasawa.... again I think that Kumasawa is probably the most healthy relationship Sayo had for most of her life.

Sayo realizes when people who are cruel to her make the same mistake as the ones they mock her for it feels good... that's true even if she causes the mistake herself. Natsuhi really fucked Sayo's life in sooo many ways... I really like Sayo I am not meaning to demonize her but god damn I don't think anyone can give Sayo shit for hating her.

Mystery novels are also a hands-me-down from Kumasawa... there's a reason why Virgilia is the original Beatrice!

Interesting how the whole concept of the game was born out of Sayo just wanting to make reading mystery novels funner for her, haha, I mean it is funnier to figure things out if you imagine there's an opponent you have to beat, I suppose!