#um just dropping this bc i know y'all are thirsty for something to read lmao

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rainy days

summary: byulyi was your umbrella

Tomorrow would be a new day, yet old memories plagued you.

Old memories from the days of happiness, when the morning sun shined so brightly, when she still smiled at you lovingly. All those days were over. You were sure she’d already moved on, yet why did you still have all these feelings for her. If there was a way that you could make them go away, you would. But you couldn’t. Those feelings were forever locked in a cage inside of your heart, and you’d lost the key to open them and let them be free somewhere during the times you spent with her.

Even when the sun was out, it didn't shine as brightly as before. You’d come to hate sunny days, and learned to love it when it was cloudy and raining. The rain looked so beautiful and perfectly depicted how you were feeling. You’d come to love everything about the rain, along with the dark clouds, the clashing thunder, and the flashing lightning. And with each flash of lightning, you were taken back to the times that the two of you were still together, even if it was only for a second. It still pained you to think about how happy you two were, and it killed you a bit more every time you were taken back to those times, and then, you couldn’t help yourself and end up breaking down.

It had been two months since the you and Byulyi had broken up, yet you were still sulking. The past two months consisted of you locking yourself in your room save for the bathroom breaks. You couldn’t find it in yourself to care about yourself anymore, much less anything else. Your roommates had knocked on (more like banged against) your door endlessly to try to get you out, but they were all futile attempts.

Another week passed before your roommates were able to get you out of your room and out of the apartment. They had told you that they were taking you out to lunch, then to the amusement park. You had told yourself that you’d start taking care of yourself, to go back to your old self, so you had agreed, although reluctant at first. So here you were, sitting in a booth at a local restaurant as you and your friends ate.

And for the first time in a while, you were genuinely smiling and laughing. You basked in this happiness that was so familiar and nostalgic, but you tried to not let the memories get to you while out were on this outing with your friends.

After finishing your lunch, the three of you set off to the amusement park, you in the backseat as your friends wouldn’t let you drive or work the AUX cord, worried that all that you’d play would be depressing songs.

The ride there took a while, but once there, you and your friends were having a field day. The first thing that happened once the three of you got through the gates was that your friends had dragged you to the first roller coaster they spotted, paying no mind to your protests. The three of you then proceeded to go on every ride (except for that one ride with the scary name), and by the time you’d finished, all of you were a laughing mess.

You and your friends then decided to take a break and roam around the food carts, browsing around and buying anything you thought looked delicious, eventually ending with some ice cream.

The three of you walked around with your ice cream in hand, entering the game area. You had offered to play two games, winning prizes for the both of them, and the two of them teaming up to win one for you. So there you three were, ice cream in one hand and a large stuffed toy in the other.

You three then walked around, watching other people have a try at the games, until you ran into someone familiar. You were the first one to spot her and stop in your tracks. This prompted the other two to stop and turn back to you, asking you what was wrong. You didn’t answer, so they followed your gaze and their eyes landed on Byulyi. She was with another girl, a girl who was beautiful and had pretty pink hair.

Byulyi who had noticed you also stopped once she got closer to you.

“Um.. It’s good to see you again, Y/N.”

You nodded slowly, “Y-yeah. Nice to see you again too, Byulyi. I see you’re doing good.”

She gave you a soft smile, “I can say the same to you.”

“I’m barely getting by.” You blurted out, quickly recovering with a chuckle.

“Oh,” She started before motioning to the girl besides her. “This is my friend, Kim Yongsun. Yongsun, this is Y/N.”

Yongsun gave you a smile and you returned it. Your friends could sense the tension and your uncomfort growing, and so they made up an excuse to save you, nudging at your side.

“Y/N, the party starts soon. We should get going.”

You nodded once more before turning back to Byulyi with a smile laced with sadness. “Well, I’ll be going now. It was nice seeing you, Byulyi. See you around?”

“Yeah,” She replied with her signature smile, which just tore at your heart again because now, that smile wouldn’t be for you anymore. “See you around.”

The three of you then left back to the car, and the whole ride was silent. You stared out the window with pursed lips, a droplet of rain on the window startled you. A few raindrops soon escalated to a full on rain shower, and the corner of your lips tugged into a small smile.

And just like those raindrops, your tears began to come down.

Rainy days were your only consolation.

When you couldn't help yourself; when no one could help you.