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[quilliums]

What will really fuck you up is that during interviews like this rapists have admitted to intentionally seeking out past victims. I watched an interview once where the guy said he could tell if someone had been assaulted before said he could smell it. This is a large part of the reason that once you've been assaulted or raped the chance that it will happen to you doubles afterwards. Ok it keeps going up too. Fight back don't let there be a first. Fight like an animal, never stop fighting, I've bee stabbed and trust me the adrenaline will take care of it. Please fight.

Also buy some boxer briefs to wear, turn ur belt one belt loop side ways, never wear head phones, and always trust your gut.

THROUGH A RAPIST’S EYES” (PLS TAKE TIME TO READ THIS. It may save a life, It may save your life.)

An Article from Neena Susan Thomas

“Through a rapist’s eyes. A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interview…ed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:

1] The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun! , braid, or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.

2] The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who’s clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.

3] They also look for women using their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.

4] The number one place women are abducted from / attacked at is grocery store parking lots.

5] Number two is office parking lots/garages.

6] Number three is public restrooms.

7] The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don’t have to worry about getting caught.

8] If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn’t worth it because it will be time-consuming.

9] These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas,or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.

10] Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you’re not worth it.

POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:

1] If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk: can’t believe it is so cold out here, we’re in for a bad winter. Now that you’ve seen their faces and could identify them in a line- up, you lose appeal as a target.

2] If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell Stop or Stay back! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they’d leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.

3] If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yelling I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY and holding it out will be a deterrent.

4] If someone grabs you, you can’t beat them with strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and armpit or in the upper inner thigh – HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it really hurts.

5] After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy’s parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you’ll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he’s out of there.

6] When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.

7] Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don’t dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel little silly at the time, but you’d feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.

FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL ….

1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do it.

2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans : if a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you…. chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you and he will go for the wallet/purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!

3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car: Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won’t see you but everybody else will. This has saved lives.

4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping,eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc. DON’T DO THIS! The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side,put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU CLOSE the DOORS , LEAVE.

5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:

a. Be aware: look around your car as someone may be hiding at the passenger side , peek into your car, inside the passenger side floor, and in the back seat. ( DO THIS TOO BEFORE RIDING A TAXI CAB) .

b. If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.

c. Look at the car parked on the driver’s side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)

6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).

7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!

8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked “for help” into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.

Send this to any woman you know that may need to be reminded that the world we live in has a lot of crazies in it and it’s better safe than sorry.

If u have compassion reblog this post. ‘Helping hands are better than Praying Lips’ – give us your helping hand.

REBLOG THIS AND LET EVERY GIRL KNOW AT LEAST PEOPLE WILL KNOW WHATS GOING ON IN THIS WORLD. So please reblog this….Your one reblog can Help to spread this information.

THIS COULD ACTUALLY SAVE A LIFE.”

[starlocked01]

These Words are Knives

AO3

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Summary: Virgil doesn't like being a secret boyfriend. He honestly just wants his soulmate to be able to be himself at home and at work. But has Janus ever been himself with anyone? Remus probably. But Virgil and Remus don't know about each other and that's about to become everyone's problem 

Content Warning: Unsympathetic Janus, Swearing, Fighting, Capslock, Emotional Abuse and Manipulation

Day 28 Anxceitmus- A sentence appears on your arm each night recapping something your soulmate said that day. Modified so that it only shows up after you've met them in person.

"If you love me, let me go If you love me, let me go These words are knives that often leave scars The fear, the fear of falling apart Truth be told I never was yours The fear, the fear of falling apart" -This is Gospel Panic! at the Disco

"Oh yes, my girlfriend and I enjoy true crime shows pretty often."

Virgil sighed, staring at the golden letters glowing on his skin. It stung a lot to see his soulmate lie like this every night.

He turned over in bed to face Janus, "I hate your boss."

"Mmhmm, me too," Janus replied flatly, not taking his eyes off the newspaper.

"I shouldn't have to see this. You shouldn't have to keep me hidden from your coworkers," Virgil felt anger knotting at the bottom of his stomach. It truly wasn't fair.

"If he finds out I'm gay, he will fire me. I'm not having this discussion right now," Janus declared with a tone of finality.

"I'm not asking you to out yourself, I'm just upset about the situation," Virgil twisted onto his back and stared at the ceiling, "what does yours say?"

Janus gave an exasperated sigh and made a show of rolling up his sleeve before reading the shiny purple text, "'Oh my god, that would definitely have killed me!' Honestly, Virgil, it was a mouse. Bit of an overreaction."

"Whatever, good night."

"Virgil?"

"What?"

"I love you."

"Love you too."

Well, it wasn't a lie, Virgil is far too trusting of him for him to not mean it when he says he loves him.

Janus could remember back when they'd first met, Virgil wouldn't even give him his phone number. It had been a tedious process getting the anxious man to open up, and it was more than worth it to Janus. The problems only started when he'd met her.

Remus had been completely unexpected; Janus had literally run into her on his way to work. He panicked that first night the neon green script appeared on his arm opposite the purple text. Remus was also his soulmate and unlike Virgil, she was eager to know Janus.

Janus had made his decision to keep his second soulmate a secret the moment he saw the text, and now he sat like a spider atop his web of lies.

Janus glanced over at Virgil as he lay there, clearly not asleep yet, and started humming a lullaby that usually helped Virgil relax. The tension in his shoulders started to ease and soon he was snoring. Janus folded up the newspaper and took the disposable phone out of his nightstand.

R<3: heyyyy sexy i wanna c u tomrw ;]

He smiled and responded, keeping an eye on Virgil to make sure he was still asleep.

J: I agree, at our usual place?

R<3: !!!!!!

He quickly shut off the phone and hid it again before turning off the bedside lamp and rolling over to fall asleep. ---- Truth be told, it was simply easier to talk about Remus at work because they went by multiple pronouns. It also helped that they didn't immediately get suspicious anytime Janus brought them up. Virgil’s concern could be overbearing and it was just easier to stay under the radar of homophobic coworkers who would no longer respect him if they found out.

He didn't feel good about lying; it was survival. But he was good at it.

"Jan!" Remus waved him over as soon as he arrived at the restaurant. He smiled and joined them at their table, "it's been too long, why are you avoiding me?" Remus asked with a grin.

"I'm not, I just don't want to interrupt your work," Janus smirked, taking a sip of his water.

"What? You don't think I could handle you trying to distract me?" Remus laughed happily, leaning over to kiss their soulmate’s cheek.

They laughed and joked all through dinner, gossiping about coworkers, generally having a good time. The time got away from Janus and it was midnight before he realized how late it had gotten.

"Oh! I want to see what your soul mark says today!" Remus beamed, excitedly rolling up their own sleeve.

"You do tend to have quite… entertaining quotes," Janus' smile hid his irritation but he obliged, rolling up his sleeve as well, "'Why don't we eat the babies and call it Swifting?' Really, Remus? Do I want context?"

"You remember 'A Modest Proposal' by Jonathan Swift, right?" he giggled, reading his own quote of the day, "'Honestly, Virgil, it was a mouse.' Huh…" Remus looked confused, "who's Virgil? You don't talk about him but I see his name come up pretty often."

"A coworker. He's not very pleasant to talk with but we often have projects together," the lie was smooth as silk. He knew this one would happen someday and had prepared.

Remus glanced over and saw a streak of purple along Janus’ wrist of his other arm, "what's that?" they grabbed Janus' wrist and pushed the sleeve up before he could protest. They read the words out loud, "'sup, fellow cryptids? I'm your host, Virgil Keir and it's time to talk about why you absolutely should run to the woods to date the Fae.' Wait…" Remus looked up knowingly, "Virgil is your soulmate, not your coworker."

"He can be both. Like I said, he's not easy to get along with-" Janus was sweating under his collar.

"I want to meet him!" Remus exclaimed.

"Why?' Janus was genuinely puzzled by their reaction.

"Hello! I love his youtube channel and you're my easy in! Plus he's your soulmate so he's gotta be important to you, which makes him all the more important to me," Remus grinned happily, "I swear I'm not jealous that you have two soulmates."

Janus let the comment slide past him, "I'll talk with him, but he's rather private. He may not want to meet you. I mean, he hasn't asked about you at all."

"Alright alright. Thanks, Jan!" Remus kissed him again, "wanna stay the night?" they asked with a wink.

"Not tonight, we both have work tomorrow and it's late enough already," Janus gave them a silvery smile while standing to pay the bill.

"Aw man, I can't wait to tell Stormy about this!" Remus pulled out their phone and was already texting with fire in their eyes.

"Who’s Stormy?" Janus asked hesitantly.

"Tumblr mutual. He's like the biggest fan of 'Mothman Mondays'. He'll be so stoked!"

"Ah- well have fun with that. Goodnight, darling," Janus left quickly. This needed to be contained. ---- Virgil stared at his phone in disbelief.

thotiestthoughts: stormy ull nvr guess!!

thotiestthoughts: my soulmate knows Virgil K!!!

Thoti was probably Virgil’s favorite fan, they messaged on tumblr all the time and had become quite good friends, but it was through his anonymous account not the official blog for his show. He debated how he would respond before typing back.

stormcloud07734: wow what a coincidence. r u secretly him? ;)

The best defense is a strong offense, right?

thotiestthoughts: !!!! im so excite!!!!!!

stormcloud07734: that means u must live pretty close to him

thotiestthoughts: u think hes in Orlando???

Virgil smiled. He knew he was in Orlando. But he had a better idea.

stormcloud07734: don't know about Virgil but im in Orlando. wanna meet up?

His heart was pounding. If this were anyone else but thoti he'd never consider it.

thotiestthoughts: OMG WHEN? RN?

stormcloud07734: how about tomorrow?

Virgil smiled at thoti's enthusiasm. They both picked a local cafe to meet in the afternoon and signed off for the night. Virgil didn’t even wait for Janus to get home before falling asleep. ---- Virgil got to the cafe an hour early. He could barely feel his own breathing as his heart felt like it filled his whole chest and stomach. What if he was wrong and thoti turned out to be a creep or stalker? What if he was never heard from again? He hadn't even said goodbye to Janus that morning. He tried to scroll tumblr to calm down, tried to research for his next episode, anything to distract himself from the anticipation and anxiety.

Remus couldn't wait to meet stormy and was practically bouncing around the back seat of xyr Uber. He'd given xem his phone number since they'd never shared photos and xe was trying desperately to not call before xe got to the cafe.

About a block away xyr phone started ringing. It was stormy.

"Hello?" Xe answered breathlessly.

An all too familiar voice answered xem, "hey, thoti, I know you're not here just yet but I have a bit of a confession to make."

"Virgil…" Remus was practically shoved out of the car by the driver as xe was paralyzed in shock. Xe looked up and saw the familiar pale face, purple hair with swooping bangs and dark eyeshadow smiling at him from a table in the corner, phone held to his face.

"Yup, sorry," Virgil hung up as Remus walked over, mouth agape.

"All this time?" xe asked, not ready to sit at the table with one of xyr favorite minor celebrities.

"Yeah, I kinda like participating in cryptid culture without being hounded about my videos," Virgil shrugged with a grin, "come on, sit down. I'm a lot more like stormcloud than I am like my videos."

"I'm Remus," xe stuck out xyr hand.

"Virgil," he snickered and pinched Remus' fingers with three of his own and gave a curt little shake. Xe laughed and sat down across the table, fidgeting with xyr hoodie strings. Virgil gave xem a long look over, "so your soulmate knows me?"

"Oh yeah, I kinda found out last night and asked him to ask you to meet me so if he brings that up, sorry. I just got really excited about it," Remus blushed in embarrassment, "hopefully Janus will be cool about it."

Virgil stopped mid-sip of a mocha latte, "Janus?"

"Yeah, our soulmate."

"You're his soulmate too? I don't believe you," Virgil shook his head.

"I saw both lines of writing on his arms last night, I'm sure of it!" Remus' grin began to falter, "but whatever, right? We're not here to talk about soulmates. I've been so excited to meet you."

"Hang on, how long?" Virgil demanded.

"How long what? My d-"

"How long have you been soulmates?" Virgil smacked the table.

"About 5 months," Remus looked down at the table. This was going terribly.

"Janus has been my soulmate for 2 years and he never brought up a second soulmate. I can't-" Virgil looked like something inside him was dying, "why wouldn't he mention you?"

"He- oh my god he doesn't want me around… and you probably hate me just for existing…" Remus looked up as Virgil laid a hand gently on xyrs.

"No. I don't hate you. We're going to get to the bottom of this." ---- Virgil sat in bed next to Janus who was preoccupied with a book. He didn't know how to bring up Remus and every moment he felt sicker and sicker in his stomach. The frequent fights, the talk at work about a girlfriend, the distance between them, when he thought about it he realized it had only really started 5 months ago.

Janus reached out to take his hand and Virgil instinctively pulled away.

"What's wrong, Virgil?" Janus asked sweetly.

"Don't touch me," he muttered just as the clock struck midnight. He glanced at the yellow text without bothering to read it, "I bet this one is a lie too."

"Virgil, what do you mean? You're acting suspicious," Janus’ mind was reeling. He'd forgotten what Virgil had said he was going to do that day and didn't expect him to be so hostile. He glanced down at the purple text on his arm and asked, "who's 'thoti', Virgil?"

Virgil started to reply when he saw a flash of green on his own arm. He looked and was surprised to find a second soul mark in a dark green scrawl. His phone was ringing and he didn't even need caller ID to know who it was, "are you seeing this too, Rem?" Virgil's eyes flicked over to Janus and narrowed, "a second soulmate, who could have guessed?" Janus kept his face impressively passive at the news and subtle accusation, "okay, see you soon."

Virgil hung up and glared at Janus who simply repeated, "who's 'thoti', Virgil?"

"You insufferable bastard! You know exactly who xe is, your 'girlfriend' our soulmate," Virgil scowled, ready to tear out a throat and leave the body for the wolves. He saw that Remus had texted him that xe was 10 minutes away. Janus had nowhere to run now.

"Her name is Remus. Why would I assume she was your soulmate or that you would give her such a disrespectful nickname?" Janus tried to steer the conversation in his favor.

"You're going to accuse me of disrespect? For the last five months, you have done nothing but lie to us and you're saying I'm the disrespectful one? You can't deflect your way out of this one, babe," Virgil felt his eye twitch. Remus better get there fast if he wanted both soulmates intact.

Virgil was screaming and beating Janus with a pillow when the doorbell rang.

"What the fuck? Is this a confrontation or a sleepover?" Remus burst in the door, finding it unlocked. He ran over and pulled Virgil off of Janus, getting a face full of feathers in the process.

"Oh just casual domestic abuse," Janus picked himself off the floor as Virgil struggled to get out of Remus' grasp.

"I'm going to make him pay, one way or another!" Virgil snarled.

"I don't know, Virgil, I think we can work this out," he blurted out.

Virgil stared at Remus dumbfounded, "you think what? Work this out? He's lied to you the whole time you've known him!"

"So did you," Remus looked down as if ashamed to say it out loud, "I thought you were stormcloud. I gushed about Virgil to you for hours and you never thought to tell me who you really were. I bet you even got content ideas from me and never had to credit them. So how is that different, if not worse, than Janus being scared of you doing exactly what you're doing right now?"

"You really think having an anonymous tumblr is worse than being manipulated for years? Is that what I'm hearing, Remus?"

"I think you're overreacting. I want to try and fix this relationship because we're soulmates and we should be able to make it work," Remus sighed, turning away from Virgil, "I'm not cutting anyone off."

"It's alright, Virgil. I forgive you. Let's figure this out together-"

"NO!" something snapped. Virgil squared up, facing the other two, "get out."

"Virgil," Janus took a step towards him.

"I said, Get Out."

"Oh, did you forget? The lease is in my name. I'm not leaving my fucking apartment. If you don't want to work with us then you can work on getting your own place to live," Janus’ look turned smug and cold as ice.

"Janus, don't kick him out," Remus looked as though he were about to spiral into a panic attack. If he'd just kept his mouth shut for once maybe-

"No, he's right. He holds shelter and food over my head to keep me in line so he can keep a secret fuck boy on the side and expects me to 'work it out' like I'm too scared to fend for myself. Fuck you," Virgil started to laugh with tears streaming down his cheeks. He turned and grabbed his backpack, walking to their room to grab as much of his stuff as he could. Remus followed him, holding Janus back from saying anything more.

"Virgil, please. I don't want to lose you," Remus pleaded softly.

"I thought you were pissed at me for being a liar on the internet," Virgil muttered.

"Maybe, but if I'm willing to forgive Janus don't you think I can forgive you too?" Remus held up his arm to block the door.

Virgil stopped with a heavy exhausted sigh, "I don't want your forgiveness. Remus, if you love me, let me go."

Virgil watched as a tear slipped down Remus' face and he lowered his arm. The rage that fueled him broke and he grabbed Remus in a hug. The other stiffened, uncertain, before relaxing and hugging Virgil back.

"I didn't want to leave you; I just can't stay with him," Virgil fought to keep his voice from trembling as much as his shoulders were shaking.

"I'll see if my landlord can add you on my lease… that way you don't have to leave?" Remus offered hopefully.

"That sounds like a thousand more nights spent screaming. Not a good idea," Virgil broke away from the hug, "thank you, Remus."

"You… you know how to find me if you need me," Remus laughed sullenly.

"Thanks. I'm sorry."

Remus only nodded as Virgil made for the front door.

"If you leave right now, you'll never see him again," Janus spoke from his place on the couch, wine glass in hand, and already half-empty in the short time Virgil spent packing.

"I know. Anything to keep me from fighting you, right? Just watch me find a way to be happy, asshole," Virgil spat before walking out without a second glance back. ---- "Virgil?"

"What?"

"I love you."

"No, you don't!" Virgil hissed, pushing himself away as hard as he could.

"Virgil, I know I'm not your soulmate but I am confident about my feelings for you," Logan looked confused and hurt but all Virgil could see was a cold, sly smile he'd tried so hard to forget. Reality started to blur and Virgil began to hyperventilate while the smirk leered closer, "Virgil, it's me, Logan. In for four."

Virgil focused on the calming voice and followed its instructions. After a few minutes, he could see Logan’s living room, feel the blanket tangled around their feet, the soft touch of his best friend pulling him back from the edge.

"Logan, I- I'm-"

"Don't apologize. There's nothing to apologize for," Logan held him close, resting his chin in Virgil’s hair, "you were clearly triggered. I did not mean to hurt you and your lashing out wasn't directed at me."

"But I know you aren't him, it's not fair for me to treat you that way," Virgil shuddered, pushing in to be as close to Logan as possible.

"Perhaps not, but I'm choosing to forgive it because I know this isn't easy for you," Logan smiled rubbing small circles on his back, "I will learn one thousand different ways to show you my appreciation and care if those three little words are ineffective and harmful to you."

"I don't deserve you," Virgil's voice was muffled as he buried his face in Logan’s chest to hide the tears threatening to spill over.

"No, you deserve so much more than I can give you, and you didn't deserve what happened in the past," Logan kissed the top of his head sweetly.

Virgil choked back a sob, "don't your soulmates hate me?"

Logan sighed, "no. They are happy together and I am happy for them. It has been a while since I've talked to either Patton or Roman, but I think they're okay with me finding you. Not every breakup is toxic, nor are all soulbonds romantic."

They stayed curled together like that on the couch for quite a while, the movie they'd been watching left forgotten on pause.

"Are you happy, Logan?" Virgil whispered, breaking the easy silence.

"With you, yes."

"Promise?"

"I promise I won't lie to you. I am happy with you, Stormcloud," Logan squeezed him tighter, trying to impart every ounce of his love with the application of force. He never wanted to be the one hurting Virgil, and if he ever met Janus or Remus, there was a baseball bat with their names on it in the corner.

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[bears-official]

Im sorry the transphobes are dog piling you queen. U don't seem like ull let them get to u bc u r resilient af but don't forget to take care of urself regardless! Get some water, some sweets if you want it, and any time offline u need to recuperate. We love u 💖 ❤ 💗 😘

thank you so much, you’re so sweet 💜💜💜 the picture shook me up a bit but i’m doing okay, i have the best followers and i love all of you

[yioh]

yuraaaaaa, i need good anime recs pwease :)

HELLO YES I WOULD LOVE TO TALK ABT MY FAVE ANIME DKDBDNDNDND

ok ima start with some light hearted slice of life/shoujo style stuff:

gekkan shoujo nozaki kun (10/10 all the characters are so fucking funny it makes me laugh so much. Just alotta dumbass humour lol)

ore monogatari ( god this one is just So CUTEEEEEEEE the characters are SO CUTE and mc fucking CHUGS hos respect women juice and the girl is adorable and the side characters are adorable and its funny and . So. FUCKING. Cute . Dkdndndnn

March comes in like a lion ( ok so this isnt shoujo but very slice of life, mc has depression and its very .. realistically portrayed, it shows his journey towards recovery and its generally a very warm hopefull loving anime :) )

given (very gay much music alot of gay panic and its SO cute , but theres some angsty stuff too )

hyouka ( cute Sherlock holmes esque series)

uhhhh omf my mind is going so blank, idk about genre but more fightey ones next lol

noragami (mc is the cutest bean ever and theres lots of cool fighting and its just generally a light hearted but fun kinda angsty anime, altho i heard the manga gets v v angsty lol )

tokyo ghoul (ok to be fair i wasnt a big fan of s2&3 and lowkey never finished it but i was OBSESSED with s1 the plot the story the music it was all so fucking cool and 13 year old me was mind blown lol )

mob psycho 100 (aight this one is so so so fuckinf good everrything about it is just so quality and the animation is INSANE also mc is a lil bub and theres so many cool different characters and the writing is so cool and yes. Very good lol )

VINLAND SAGA IMFGNFKDJDJ OK I FHELLA RECC THIS IYS SO UNDERATED BUT SO GOOD can u tell from my excitement lol , i binged this So FAST the story was so hypnotic and immersing its INSANE

haikyuu ( ok not fightey but more sportsy but its so SO good like. every single match will have u at the egde of ur chair and ull be rooting for ALL the teams and the characters are So endearing ajd the music and animation is so freaking dramatic and cool lol )

zankyou no terror ( this one......... yeah...................... it honestly fucked me up A Lot with my emotions it was ... so hypnotic,, the characters were written so wonderfully and jesus the music..... everything about this anime was done to top standards and execeuted perfectly and it will Break u lol. if u want some cool angsty well written shit this is IT . ill never forget the experience of watching this anime man. )

AKATSUKI NO YONA OMFG HOW COULD I FORGET GHIS ANIME IS SOOOOOooooooooooo good, the charcater development is MWAH chefs KISS !!!!! also cool world building/setting and briming with fantasy&culture, mega cool fight scenes and the characters are FULL of life . historical fantasy shows with women mcs >>>>

charlotte is also p nice. its not the best quality but the characters are p cute and it has a Very interesting story, i honestly rewatched it a few times its very fun, it revolves around students who develop these abilities and how ppl hunt them down etc etc but its very fun lol

currently watching dororo and i will update!!

i forgot to put gun gale online, the second instalment of sword art online, and listen when i say i HATE sao dksjdjdj that shit is EWWWSSWW but ggo is ....... this one was fucking good ok lmao

fuck i also forgot hunter x hunter, i watched this when i was like 14 lmao so i dont remember Much apart from being capital s Shook at it, also its v popular these days for some reason ( is it on netflix or something??? idk) but yeah im gonna rewatch it soon, all i remember are weird ant mans

kimetsu no yaiba ( this one is p decent, the animation is fucking Tasty rkdjdj and theres a bunch of cool characters and i rly like the fight scenes lol,, also nezuko chan i love u . the characters are v v cute and its abt a bunch of kids fighting demons with elements and shizzzz )

AJIN . THIS ANIME. FUCKING INCREDIBLE, this has the 3D animation thing which might put u off but honestly its the BEST decision ever. looking at the ajins in 3D effect is so fucking cool and the story is SOOOOO cool and it makes u think so much but the best bit apart from the cool action is the main character. my boy kei is as morally gray as u get and its fucking awesome. hes a little bastard boy focussed on his own survival but the LAYERS he has ... ughhhh PLEASE watch this its so so so so GOOD !!!!!!!!

[imaginethatalena]

#127: GOTG & Reader

Thanks @anhartcuteneon​ for requesting! I’m so sorry this took so long to get done! I hope you like it ❤

Request Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4:  Can u continue from #104? When Nebula’s able 2 escape, u struggle a bit since she told baby Groot not 2 let u go (so she won’t be brought back 2 Xandar or the Sovereign). U try 2 find a way until ur able 2 trick Groot 2 let u go by saying that ull try 2 find her 4 him & that ull “promise” 2 come back while giving him the puppy dog eyes. U think u can make an improvisation by catching Rocket & Nebula & hijacking their ship (even though it’s broken) that way u can contact ur homeworld 2 let the High Preistess no that uv caught them & so u can go home. However by the time ur able 2 find Rocket, u find the Ravagers surrounding him. 2 make matters worse, this is when Yondu’s talking about not turning them in 2 ur homeworld & keeping the batteries that he stole. U demand that they give Rocket 2 u so u can turn them in, but they aren’t having it. 1 of the Ravagers then considers that if they could make more of these batteries they’ll be rich. So Taserface asks u 2 tell them how 2 make them, but u refuse 2 answer because of ur pride & that it’s against the law. 1 of the Ravagers then considers that if they could make more of these batteries they’ll be rich. So Taserface asks u 2 tell them how 2 make them,but u refuse 2 answer because of ur pride & that it’s against the law.This angers them so they threaten 2 kill u unless u tell them.When Rocket interrupts and suggests that there could be a ”peaceful”solution, but u don’t believe him. Right when anything could happen when Yondu was gonna use his arrow,he gets shot down by Nebula,ending up with Rocket,Groot,& u captured.Can u try 2 copy the actual dialogue from the movie word/word pls? I’d love it👍

Part 1

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Nebula had already figured out a way to take advantage of the Ravagers’ attack before you realized they were there. How? By guilting the baby tree.

“Your friend,” she said to Groot, trying to hide her desperation. “There’s too many of them. He needs my help. If you care about him, you need to get me out of these bonds.”

Groot had been told repeatedly not to let you or Nebula go, so he was hesitating to release her.

“They are going to kill him.” Those words made Groot finally scurry over to her and unlock her cuffs. He went to release you, too, but she stopped him.

“Not her,” she said, shooting a smirk at you. “She’ll get in the way of saving your friend. You don’t want that to happen, do you?”

Groot shook his head, and you glared at her, knowing that this was her way of making sure she wouldn’t be taken to Xandar.

Nebula was gone for a long time, and Rocket never came back. You could tell Groot began to worry even more that Rocket was dead, so you tried what Nebula did.

“Nebula has probably been hurt,” you said with a gentle voice. “She needs my help so she can help Rocket. Let me go, and I promise I’ll find them.”

Groot was so naive that he unlocked your cuffs immediately. Once you were free, you rushed out into the forest and towards your ship, hoping to get in contact with the Sovereign again. You had to let them know that you had at least two of the Guardians of the Galaxy, and you hoped that would be enough to get you home. On your way to your ship, you saw the Ravagers in a clearing, completely surrounding Rocket. You paused to listen to what their captain was saying.

“Give me your word you won’t hurt Groot and I’ll tell you where the batteries are,” Rocket pleaded.

“Lucky for you, my word don’t mean squat,” Yondu said with a smirk. “Otherwise I’d actually hand you over.”

“Otherwise you’d what?” A member of the crew stepped forward, clearly angry at what he had just heard.

“We’ll take them batteries,” Yondu told his crew. “They’re worth a quarter mill on the open market.”

“That priestess offered us a million,” the crew member said. “A quarter is only one third of that!”

“A quarter ain’t a third,” Yondu said, sharing in your frustration at the idiocy of that statement.

“A quarter is twenty-five,” another crew member interjected, clearly thinking of himself as intelligent. “We can’t even buy a pair of boots with twenty-five units.”

“No,” Yondu said, and you rolled your eyes. How dumb could these men be? You decided this was a good time to interrupt whatever was going on here.

“You’re not taking those batteries anywhere,” you said, emerging from the woods to approach Yondu.

“What the hell is a Sovereign soldier doing all the way out here?” Yondu asked, wondering where you had come from.

“That doesn’t matter. You’re going to give me the raccoon and the tree to take back to the Priestess, and I won’t tell her that you were about to betray her.”

“How about I just shoot you instead?” Yondu said with a short whistle, aiming the arrow at you, now.

“Wait!” a crew member shouted out. “If we take this Sovereign lady with us, then we can make more batteries and get more credits! It’s a long term investment! We’ll be rich!”

“How do you make them?” another Ravager asked you, and you turned your nose up at him.

“It’s unlawful to reveal that secret,” you said. “And even if it wasn’t, I wouldn’t tell a crew of idiotic pirates who can’t do basic math. You’d cause a nuclear explosion if you tried to make them.”

“If she won’t cooperate, then we should kill her!” The crew started cheering, but Yondu had lost his patience.

“Enough!” Yondu shouted. “The point is we ain’t stupid enough to kill the Guardians of the Galaxy. The whole dang Nova Corps would be on us.”

“That ain’t right.” A new crew member was talking now. “I gotta say it this one time, captain. No matter how many times Quill betrays you, you protect him like none of the rest of us much matter.”

The crew cheered on their fellow Ravager, and he grew braver. “I’m the one what sticks up for ya!”

“Easy, Kraglin,” an older Ravager said, but the original crew member that started this all spoke again.

“Damn straight, lad!” he praised him. “He’s gone soft. Suppose it’s time for a change in leadership!”

Everyone’s guns went up, either pointed at Yondu or each other as the loyal Ravagers opposed the mutineers. They would have started shooting if Rocket hadn’t spoken up.

“Whoa! Whoa! There must be some sort of peaceful resolution to this, fellas,” he said, holding his little arms out as if to calm the Ravagers. “Or even a violent one where I’m standing over there.”

No one said anything. Everyone just looked to Yondu, who was preparing to whistle to his arrow and kill everyone in the clearing. The fin on the top of his head was blasted out of his skull before he could make a sound, and when he fell, you saw Nebula standing behind him. She shot Rocket next, then you, and you were sent into convulsions from the electrical blast before losing consciousness.

Part 3

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[disastercrushes]

June 20, 1:09 am

Dear lord please give me strength.

Im having emotions, very mixed emotions, and i don't know how to deal with them honestly.

So. Y'all already know im a theater person, currently doing all shook up, low key crushing on my stage bf as one does when your character is head over heels for someone. But this post is not about the good old chad, its about someone else.

A boy. Man. Whatever.

So he joined our production pretty late. When je first joined rehearsals we talked, was all fun n games, all that sweet friendly stuff, he was cute but i didnt like. Fall for him immediately.

He was (parallel to our production) in a local production of heathers, wich i had bought tickets for before i knew him personally. We talked about it and talked after his show (he got me tickets for a second one wich was cool) and well, that was probably the first time things started to change.

Even tho i wouldn't say that out loud i always think of myself as being good with people/ being good with knowing how people work and how i have to present myself for them to like me.

He looks.. well, adorable. My height (like 170cm?) Messy hair, dressed casually. But. Like. Waters are deep? That last performances of heathers where we first talked and i met like two of his friends was so confused because he send so many mixed vibes. I don't know anything about him for sure.

Well, while that was nice, he left for London for like, a month. Maybe. Idk.

The next time he flew into my mind was because of a scar.

To back Track a little, everyones aware of me being a queer bean. I give queer ed workshops in school. I also have many friends currently going through transitions so i once spent a night looking at before/after surgery pictures. You know ftm bottom surgery, where they take a skinpatch of your arm to bulild a dick?

He has that scar. And i got so confused.

I mean, we met in winter, we all were mostly wearing hoodies, it makes sense that i wouldn't notice. And now i saw that fucking scar and ???? Is he trans? Or where does that scar come from?? (A friend told me it could also be a broken arm wich could also make sense)

Anyways, thats when he started to be on my mind a lot. And while i knew i shouldn't care, especially not this much, i couldn't help it. I was drawn to him, interested, whatever.

I once saw him change and was so incredibly sure i saw a top surgery scar (he did turn around so like the creep i am i tried to see because i fucking need to know i don't even know why). Im not so sure now because its been two months and i don't trust my memory lmao.

Anyways, stuff happened, we got drunk together last night. With three other friends, nothing too private. And he said some things that seriously made me doubt him being trans.

But then again, he stayed the night and we talked about my workplace (a womans club) and our targetgroupdiscreption/ member policy and he talked very fluent about many trans* terms and mentioned inter* people. Do people do that if they haven't been confronted with trans* issues?

Beside the whole IS THAT BOY TRANS issue, i also. Wanna be close to him. I like Holding his hand or having him lay beside me, i like his beard (which is weird cause i normally hate beards) i like when he pats my head i just. Its very comfortable.

I also would like to do more. I definitely want to kiss him (but i also just very much enjoy kissing) id like to.. well, hook up with him (but maybe just to be sure of the whole trans thing?) And in general i am. Confused.

Do i have a crush on him? Or is it just the curiosity? Will i loose interest as soon as i know?

And then, does he like me? Am i even interesting to him in that way? Would it be awkward because were in the same theater group?

And, just to have that mentioned, while the trans thing is what i most think about, there's more confusing shit about him. Like his like for musical theater (but his lack of like. Knowledge about music/ music theory?), how he got into it, why he got into it, blah. Also like, his friends. His.. kinklife? (Yeah, its a weird one, don't judge me pls) and much more, hes just a confusing mess to me tbh.

and i really need to talk to someone about him but. I mean. The whole is he trans question is very big for me and if he turns out to be trans i don't know if hed be fine with me talking about it. (Okay, basically, my mind is like “yes he's trans and willing to date u so maybe ull become a thing but youve talked so much about him being trans that u outed him without his consent wich makes him completely uncomfortable and its very unfair of you“)

I think im spiraling lmao. I just really have to talk to someone about it.