#uhhhhh pls dont put me on blast for this i am......trying my best to articulate my feelings!!!

[katierosefun]

HI this is just out of curiosity; don’t feel obligated to answer, but do you ship obi-wan/anakin? some of your works seem to edge on that while still remaining gloriously platonic, so I’m just curious!! I’m indifferent either way btw; I was just wondering :)

hi anon!!! i appreciate the ask, and i don’t mind answering at all!! (although oops i kinda went on a mini essay here i’m really sorry)

so slight confession: i did kind of lowkey ship obi-wan and anakin as a 14/15 year old and onwards, mostly because i started out watching tcw and reading a lot of star wars books. so that said, i really do love them both platonically and otherwise because either way, i think their relationship is incredibly special. (and i think i do have a fic or two in which i note that ‘yeah idk this could be seen as platonic or romantic, because i love them both ways/don’t mind them either way’.) 

that said, i wasn’t really aware of the opposite side of the obi-wan/anakin discourse until,,,really recently, and so that made me kinda balk a few times and feel really disconnected with the ship and also wonder ‘wait a minute,,,am i a terrible human being wait a second i didn’t even figure out that point until just now though oh no’. so that really kinda made me feel guilty and genuinely wonder oh my god wait a second if i’m shipping a person with his former teacher, then,,,oh my g od what yeah that’s kinda messed up isn’t it??? (why yes, you heard it here first folks! caroline acknowledges that uh maybe some aspects of this ship is,,,not something you want to replicate in real life???) 

but also. also. i think i’ve hit a place--and i’ve kind of alluded this in some other asks about unpopular opinions/opinions about fandom in general, where i’m deciding to recognize that ships can really be something as simple as “i just think these two have an interesting dynamic” to “maybe i just project really, really, really hard onto character a and character b just happens to be my type”. 

i’ll *also* say that i have friends whose parents are in loving relationships, and they started out as like,,,a professor and a student, although they didn’t date/get into a romantic relationship until years later. and one of my favorite teachers also wound up marrying his own student years and years later, which...i remember being a little confused by as a high school junior, but idk, they seem happy, and they have a son who they both adore, so ?? who am i to judge?? 

and i think those experiences/interactions i’ve had have made me a little less squicked out by things like age gaps and the whole ‘former teacher and former student’ dynamic. that being said, i’m not a fan of stuff about,,,padawan anakin and obi-wan because i think that’s when i get a little worried about power dynamics and stuff, but again, i started kinda shipping the two when i watched tcw without that much context about their actual past--i just kinda went ‘oh these two seem close’ and that was that. i think at the end of the day, simply put, anakin skywalker and obi-wan kenobi do love each other and do have a deep, deep bond, and that’s that.

as for my own writing, why awww, i super appreciate the term “gloriously platonic” because i guess i really do love deeply, deeply platonic relationships, and i 10000% am here for platonic love. i guess i do sometimes walk that fine line between “okay this is either deeply platonic or just lowkey shippy” and tbh, i blame this on the fact that i just really like writing platonic things + also a part of me lives in perpetual fear of being labeled a Bad, Disgusting Person for shipping obi-wan/anakin and yikes. 

idk my own feelings about this ship is super complicated because on the one hand, i truly do love this potential pairing that has actual canon lines like “they knew each other better than lovers” and “two halves of a whole” and “despite it all, obi-wan still loved him” and “he would die for you, you know” and “working without anakin was like working half-blind” and “it’s okay, it’s okay, we’re okay, we’re okay” and “you never give up, do you? / “on you? never” and ahsoka actually referring obi-wan and anakin as her adopted parents and also the iconic “ah yes this looks like anakin’s butt”--and i really love this concept of just two people who have known each other for 10+ years and just kinda gotten to the point of memorizing each other’s voices and movements and gestures to the point that they literally can’t imagine life without the other, and i love all the platonic goodness that comes with that, but i’d be lying if i said i didn’t see some romantic appeal in that, too. 

uhhhhh sorry for making this so long, anon, but i hope that clears things up!! (also am 100000% ready to discuss more of this over private chat because ya girl always can talk about this)