#ughhh im crying sm GREAT fucking great

[reputationstaylors]

this thing just reinforces that my mom would've liked me better if I was prettier

[fairycosmos]

what you said about it going to be months or maybe years before you get another job IF you lost the current one (which you won't)...you know that's irrational, right? your copy writing career seems to be going so well, you're so young, your CV seems to be quite impressive etc. tbh i bet almost 100% of companies would prefer you over somebody with a degree but no job experience! anyway i didn't come to argue i just wanted to say you're doing great job-wise and your job-related fears seem very irrational from an outside pov!! i get the anxiety though and i'm sorry that you feel that way :(

aughhhh thank you sm angel i really needed to hear this ughhh i could cry ❤️ i think im just hyper aware of how tough the job market is right now and also how ppl often don't even consider you as an applicant if you don't have a degree and how lucky i was to get this role at all and it's just a lot of pressure like. knowing we could lose our flat and just everything if i fuck up somehow and lose the job. i don't know why im thinking this way because my boss is great like shes super supportive and hasn't said anything ab letting me go so i think you're right i just need to breathe and rationalise and take it one day at a time. sending you the biggest hug in the world rn im serious i think this message has such good friend vibes. everyone in your life is lucky to have you. mwah x

[wave2love]

(THIS IS SO LONG LMAOO IM SORRY)

Ok So.. its messy and might not make a whole load of sense but WE’RE BALLING!

idol (havent decided again.. lol) is a soloist here, and like not as famous?? hes more of a krnb/khh artist—and hes stressed out cause like . the higher-ups of his label are on his ass about the next album / where he’s going next musically / whatever. so what better to do then gather a couple close friends and book the next flight to yk . portugal or wtv (this whole thing is what i WISH wld happen on my holidays ugh god). just somewhere he can get away and relax w his friends ^ ^

its all well and good, hes enjoying himself and having a good time, they’re on the way back up from town after dinner when one of his friends is like.. do u wanna get a drink at this little bar and play pool wtv etc . so they all agree and walk in and sit down and then out walks from the back……. YN!!!!! its like angels are singing he might start crying his knees are shaking thank god hes in a chair bc Who ! is this gorgeous person . down horrendous at first sight its so bad for him rn..

AND THEN THATS THE FIC they’re getting to know eo yns showing him around the city and showing him his cute lil apartment above another little bar and they’re having fun and maybe even.. #FallingInLove.. and suddenly idol has a load of inspiration and every single song is ab rdr . like he does everything but name drop fr

he doesn’t wanna go home but he does to record the album and it blows the fuck UP . like at an award-winning level . so to surprise him yn catches a flight to kr and then its the idols turn to show him everything and everyone and they r the couple of the century everyone loves them its all great The End .

holiday crushes UGHHH blows up i need it . this is j my delusionalship w the hot waiter in figos i am a weak man . anw thanku for listening bsf ily muah ⭐️

the way i read through this this TWICE yesterday and still forgot to respond i can’t w myself. anw js got back home from school

I LOVE THIS IDEA SM U SHOULD WRITE IT FR!!!! it’s so cute 😢😢 ur ideas>>

for idol i could totally see like jiung maybe even jongseob if u wna write for piwon ooo or even beomgyu

[voltron-toast]

My Predictions/Notes as I watched S7 (Part 1)

1. Hunk + Romelle? What about Shay?

2. KEITH IS BEING SUCH A GOOD LEADER SKFNSKDMMDKDKFMF

3. Is this an alternate reality...??? Like are they even in the right reality? I mean- Coran and such never went in with them when fighting Lotor so nvm that doesnt make sense

4. WHAT IS HAPPENING THO

5. Coran locked in a closet is a mood

6. i love hunk

7. I LOVE ROMELLE

8. NOOOO COSMO WTF DONT HURT MY BOY

9. Wtf is happening IM SO CONFUSED. THE WEIRD LOOKING GENERALS APPEAR NOW ONTO E3 WYJDJDJDK?????

10. Krolia is a savage but leave my boy lance aloneeee

11. GIVE CORAN THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT SJDNKDKSM I literally love him so much

12. The mice are amazing

13. UMMM EZOR X ZETHRID I SHIP IT OMFNFJEKDKDIKC wheres acxa tho

14. Speak of the devil and he shall appear IM IN LOVE WITH HER OMFG

15. How much time has passed?

16. I literally love Lance sm

17. Acxa x Keith?

18. Pink bayard???? Is that a mistake

19. UM WTF KEITH WTFFFFF

20. DKJDKFJSJDJDJKXKF WHAT.

21. Krolia didnt look phased at all also LANCE STEPPING UP AS SECOND IN COMMAND YESSSS

22. 3 years holy shit?

23. Another bonding moment parallel

24. holy shiz im shook so much has changed

25. GAME SHOWWWW

26. Zarkon’s highfive fail tho

27. Haggard seems to be the only one acting ‘normal’ or like herself... JK nevermind she “treasures” his art hmmmm

28. ZARKON EIFJWLDMDMA f u. i stg. lance isnt dumb UGHHH

29. ))): i want to hug him ughhhhhhhhh

30. )): i sad- oh wtf did pidge do ummmm im confuseddddd what is this magic?

31. IM CRYING- LANCE WAS SO SWEET ABOUT VOTING KEITH AND THEN KEITH JUST HAD TO MAKE THAT REMARK I MISSED THEM SO MUCH WHDJRKMFMFM

32. They were all so sweet to each other it hurts

33. Also Lance’s face when he said Keith was the future wtf thats so gay? Theyre grown so much

34. im so shook rn wtf

35. Pidge is actually me with my nightmares gog im such a nerd.

36. ROMELLE IS SO CUTE

37. Krolia and Keith are so cute

38. Keith was so surprised when he died

39. HUNK YESSSS now im hungry i havent eaten breakfast rip

40. KEITH DIDNT NAME THE WOLF? HIS REASONING FOR IT IS SO CUTE THOOOO SJDKMFOSJ

41. Beautiful show bii boh bii

42. Wait- Wheres acxa? did i miss something- rippppppp shes gone

43. who is this dude

44. Is kolivan dead o_o? nooooooo sidjdjfkkdkdks nononooooo did he? NOOOO jdjdkdnfkdkdofofk All the blades ))):???? This is so sad wtf

45. Wtf is happening? OH- OH NO WTF YOU LITTLE UGHHHH KILL HIM- NONONONONO KOSMO SAVED KEITH GOOD BUT POOR EVERYONE ELSE STUCKKKK AGHHHH

46. NOOOOO KOSMO NONONONONO HIS LITTLE YELP )))):

47. Keith has abilities v cool

48. Ok kosmo is good, yay

49. KROLIA IS LEAVING?

50. NOOOOO, Keith is a good son though I hope she doesnt die- Awwwwwwwwwwwe hes so cute I cant AHHHHH He says I love you a lot now ;)))) jk only twice but still my heart just AH

51. well damn shiro. blunt af

52. they look so terrible omfg their eyes )))): nooooo hunk ;-;

53. Um Keith what the fuck oh nvm hes just going insane

54. KEITH WTF DONT SAY THAT. Hunk good i love you so much

55. Wtf is happening. Earth? WHAT? HOW? WHAT ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE? This is fake. It has to be.

56. Hunk i love you- RUNNNNNNN aJdjfkfkfkm

57. A team again yayyy

58. Those wings wtf was that Lance and Keith? Wow they make a great team

59. so thats where the season would have ended and i would have hated how shortttt thank gog its 13 eps i would have DIED

60. OH NO WE SEE IT HAPPEN???? My heart I cant omfg noooooo nonono

61. Colleeeeen yayyyyyyy cuties hehe

62. im too shook to type

63. Iverson is not horrible and Colleen has balls. Theyre gonna get so much shit ughhhhh im WORRIEDDDDD

64. James is cool i hope hes not a dick anymore

65. THIS IS SO CUTE MINI MESSAGES AWWWW LANCE’S FAMILYYYY AJDJDKDKDKMDMS The fact that Keith has no one to go home to is sad but his home is with him I suppose

66. Iverson say something u shit STAND UP AGAINST THAT HOE YESSSSS GOOD JOB HAHAHA TAKE THAT OLD HAGGGG

67. Noooooooo )): go away galraaaaa

68. No. Thats Adam. Theyre gonna kill Adam. Please let there be a miracle... Nonononononononononono NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NON ONONOSKKDKDKDKDKD NO NO NONONONO No. Thats not real. No. FUCK YOU OLD HAG no. not adam ): noooo all those people UGH I CANT. im so upset- I *sigh* f u hag

69. why hVent we heard blonde or other dude talk? im so pissed about adam

70. random af- allurance is gonna be canon calling it now ;)))

71. veronica is pretty

72. Im so upset about Adam :,))

73. Aw he said quiznak that made me happy for a moment im still pissed about adam

74. give shiro a break damnit.

75. maybe hes not dead :,))) maybe he crashed and is captured by galra and is missing an arm to match his ex and just -sobs-

76. Veronica black paladin/leader of cadets i like her ;)))

77. Why dont they say their first names, gosh so professional GASP

78. Voltron did you just kill Veronica? R u kidding meeeeee You better not have Im so pissed rn

79. Sendak is sadly smart

80. OK GOOD SHES ALIVE GOOD I WAS HELLA PISSED. Is Adam actually dead though? Ughhhhhhhhhh im still sad ):

81. shiro’s been quiet this season i just realized

82. Lance and Keith are cute “Dont miss” awwwe

83. James niceee KEITH RECOGNIZE???? Shiro doesnt have Adam to return to :,)))) LANCE’S FAMILY I HAD GOOSEBUMPS WHERES HUNK’S FAMILY AW CUTIE WHERE ARE THEY EINFKFKDNDKDKDK MY HEART

84. KEITH AND IVERSON HAND SHAKE NICEEEE AW I LIKE IVERSON

85. So Adam is dead. -deep breath- Oh Shiro im sorry... Them in Garrison outfits are weird af

86. Griffin is jealous

87. i literally want to cry about adam

88. call back to season one

89. oh hunk i want to hug you so much ))): Keith and Hunk bonding awwwwwwe WTF KEITH YOU ARE SUCH A BABE AND HUNK YESSSSSSS

90. oh i forgot to type here oops

91. allurance!!! but why does she suddenly have feelings for him idk i dont like how its been done atm.

92. why isnt red coming to lance? o.O

93. is it because he cant concentrate or somethhing else?

94. wtf red why u have to be so dramatic

95. fuck you old hag, literally hate you more than zarkon

96. voltrons dead rip

97. now they sleep a long time, correct?

98. keith ily -sobs- please do something

99. jk they arent sleeping? shut up hag im sorry but youre literally the biggest idiot sigh. i feel bad but i cant. you just. SIGH.

[nako-doodles]

I know you said you watched king of masked singer, so I was wondering what some of your favorite stages are and why :3

👀caution spoilers!!!👀 

for the troubled souls who have not been blessed with viewing king of masked singer

sohyang - breathe

sohyang is a Vocal Queen ok?? her technique is Godly. I esp like this stage esp bc she was super sick from chemo, so she was like ‘imma do an easy song’ and then proceeded to kill the runs with all the f5s and d5s and hit an Bb5??? Queen. plus this song really emphasizes her lower range, and pure head voice and just UGHHHHH A God

sojung (ladies’ code) - its only my world

I have always loved her voice and I straight up started crying once she hit the chorus and I recognized her. like straight up sobbing. she sings with so much emotion, that im going to quote my queen cheetah, ‘I can feel your pain.’ this was her first tv appearance since the car accident and she knocked it out of the water

wheein - who’s your mama?

she absolutely SLAYED the stage + that smooth bassline mmMmmm and she didnt even change the pronouns I love my soft talented daughter ok? she was sick on the of recording and still managed to murder us all???? a Queen

hui (pentagon) - DNA

tbh I dont pay attention to pentagon unless it has to do with triple h, and when I first heard this I WAS SO SHOOK?????? ABSOLUTELY KILLED IT. PLEASE LOVE THIS TALENTED SON AND DONT BE AN IDIOT LIKE ME

luna - mom

luna is such a gem, and the fact that people kept doubting her even after this showing upset me so much?? she has some of the best pipes in the industry but she still keeps getting overshadowed by the other members of f(x) and then got so much shit for getting plastic surgery just ughhh this show is such a blessing bc people actually sat their asses down to listen to her beautiful voice 

sunyeol (up10tion) - tears

thE greATEsT pLOTtWIsT I started laughing so hard at the judges’s dumbstruck ‘namja?????’ omfg this is such a GEM I love everything about this stage. he absolutely played everyone while positively slaying this song

chen (exo) - drunken truth

I love Chen’s lower register ok? everyone only remembers his high notes but like his lower register and chest voice is the best feature of his voice?? @sm let my son feature his lovely lovely chest register

hani (exid) - honey

hani has the smoothest velvet soul/jazz voice and should thusly be Appreciated Appropriately with suitable soul/jazz songs. she really knows her voice and what a revelation this stage is

roy kim - confession

im not crying you are. roy kim has such a great voice, its so soothing and lovely and this song perfectly showcased it!! im glad hes getting more attention post appearance 

solji (exid) - maria

this is the song that got me to pay attention to EXID tbh? she’s so talented ugh listen to how clean her head voice is and how supported her belting is. incredible. pls stan my talented daughters AND STAN DASONI YES 

seunghee (oh my girl) - whale hunting

holy fuck her Voice??? her stage presence??? incredible. tbh I only paid attention to oh my girl bc of their closer promotions, but seunghee’s voice always stood out for me, and this stage absolutely showcased why, with her beautifully steady chest voice and lovely support ughhhhh

shin bora x solji (exid) - don’t touch me

I love shin bora’s lower husky voice and she’s not even a prof singer?? add her lovely voice with solji and you get pure vocal witchcraft. I almost like this version better than ailee’s original

jungkook (bts) - if you

if you is my favorite bigbang song along with blue and fxxk it, and jk absolutely killed it. 

umji (gfriend) - free time

honestly this is for all those haters who said umji was just a rich girl who relied on her money to debut. listen at my girl, slaying. sure she isnt a vocal powerhouse, but its such a sweet lovely voice and haters should Leave Her Alone

dk (seventeen) - fate

another excellent showing of one of the best vocalists in the industry ugh wow what a voice

gummy - yanghwa bridge

I love zion t’s original song, and gummy absolutely have done it justice. her vibrato makes me want to crawl into the next blanket burrito and softly cry for the next year

sungjae (btob) - one day long ago

another super underrated voice. pls love him and his solid chest and mixed voice and how soothing it is

seulji (red velvet) x ali - genie

ugh I love seulji so much you dont understand, and ali, one of the best technical singers in the industry and you get a Treat, like this song is

yeeun (hat:felt/wonder girls)- re bye

tbh yeeun is one of my fave voices like her debut solo album me? is still one of my faves and her rendition of akmu’s rebye is Amazing

kyuhyun (super junior) - wild flower

ah yes an appearance from king five octaves. honestly theres not much for me to add exp is anyone surprised he absolutely slayed? such vocal talent despite his dick personality

ailee - bruise

and here we see ailee, with her infinite knowledge of what songs compliment her voice, in her element and rocking the stage aka my Aesthetic

haeri (davichi) - snow flower

davichi honestly comes out with the best ballads so honestly im not surprised that haeri absolutely rocked the stage

sohyang - home

yes sohyang gets another song bc this song really showcases her head voice and its such a pure sound im always so in awe holy fuck, no wonder she set the record for the most wins by a female singer. just sit back and enjoy her voice

hong jimin & lee younghyun – Lying On The Sea

two words: “holy shit” and “SLAY QUEENS”

jimin (15&) - memory of the wind

ANOTHER UNDERRATED SINGER YES SLAY MY SOFT DAUGHTER, I will always love her chest/mixed voices

kim yeonwoo & bae dahae – The Phantom of the Opera

they absolutely brought this song to justice??? this is a horribly finicky song to pull off, and they killed it with their spot on interpretation and lovely lower registers and incredible head voice. 120% would put on endless loop. the only better version is with ramin karimloo and sierra boggess, and maybe sarah brightman and michael crawford

[bigbrothernetflix-st]

EPISODE THREE

“this was literally one of the worst decisions i've ever had to make so now i'm just kinda pissed off!” - nash

HOH: Nash UPSIDE DOWN: Joey & Saira NOMINEES: Brianna & Gina POV: Jacob FINAL NOMINEES: Emma & Gina EVICTED: Gina (11-1), Jake (WALK)

ARIA

https://youtu.be/SyHPQkbxxw8

JOEY

WATCH THIS AGE LIKE MILK:

I feel great!!!!! Nash winning means my ass aint going up, I gave her 2 tokens, and she gave me 1, and I feel fantastic heading into this week

SAIRA

i feel okay about nash being hoh, she wasn't my first choice but i don't think im in any danger of being nominated (hopefully haha) im not sure who i WOULD want to be nominated, i just know who i wouldn't want, so as long as they're okay i'm good!

JEV

I'm once again feeling pretty good this week. I've grown pretty close to Nash since nominating her in week 1 and she told me and Nathan we aren't going up so, there's that! She's told me Gina is going up and will be her target which I'm not thrilled about but hopefully Gina can pull some miracle and win POV. I'm a little worried about Emma and Jake too, as they've both said they haven't spoken to her much which is dumb, bc like hello??? its week 3, i feel esp with Jake, I can understand Emma bc Nash keeps leaving her on read but I don't think Jake has even tried much (crying emoji) So hopefully they can ALSO pull something out

JAKE

FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate everyone in this game t b h. why can't people just follow with a plan and go through with it like it aint that hard to put your chips on one person from your alliance so youre all safe like........ i dont think these ppl understand strategy and it's TIRING. i frankly am over people relying on their friendships to get themselves through another week bc fucking nash won an alliance-based hoh comp. now we have to deal w this fucking friend group running the house another week. i don't know if i'm safe i'm honestly probably going to be put up??? even tho nash is the one that CONSTANTLY ignores my PMs even tho ive given her paragraphs to respond to... she's gonna do whatever her little friends want her to do. i mean that's what she literally said to me. i was like pls don't nom me <3 and she was like "im not making any promises im just doing whatever the house wants me to do" like girl............ lkjghklsdfjhg what kind of dumbass bullshit response was that. just tell me you're putting me up or you're not. youre a big girl you can make your own fucking decisions.

i give nash what i would give any hoh if they won and that is "i'd never ever nominate you it's never even crossed my mind" and hoping that's enough to make her wanna keep me. she might think im not going after her but, if she's smart, she'll send me out the door this week before i can retaliate. 

im super super worried that jacob will be like oh jev n jake aligned in BBHOS9 u should put them up together since jev nominated you week 1. like i feel like she'd do ANYTHING jacob tells her at this point cuz shes just another one of his sheep so like hoping im good w jacob but he's such a wildcard idfk

at this point im just hoping me or emma don't get put up and if we do there will be a veto to be won and a nash/jacob to come after next so...... period

ARIA

yall i feel so fucking cracked and tired of everything but itS FINE!!! I got this easy peasy!! Im not going to always feel motivated but im doing my best and thats valid baby!!! So lets jump in, first off lets start with a random information dump of things i've collected

-jacob has talked about me w/ nicholas during pasio

-monty and jacob have a connection ( i dont even remember how)

-nathan nash (maybe jacob) obviously tight lmao

-joey monty close

-Jake made a counter alliance to Jacob's (actually joshes) alliance made of me gina saira emma and josh

-josh emma me alliance

-JOEY RECORDS CALLS

-Jake is wary of nathan (but also thinks hes cute ugh)

-told jake im wary of pasio peeps so he might nom them

-Jacob alliance STILL isnt created

-called with josh and told him that jacob is wary that the alliance isnt made yet

-jacob josh have a pregame

-told josh, saira and nick have a pregame

-josh kiki close

-josh thinks saira is a social threat 

-josh prefers jev over nathan

-told monty to talk to jake more

-told joshua jacob is the most connected person

-got back to nash gina doesnt like her

-jacob kiki nash confirmed trio alliance

-nash told jev gina is the target (jev then told jake)

-josh thought jacob was the original maker of the alliance

-jake thinks jacob/josh are snakes

-jake also thinks jacob-josh-nash-kiki-bri-nick-nathan are an alliance

-josh wants to play the middle w/ me :uwu:

 So from here I want to get into how my ideal week will go and how it will realistically go. IDEALLY Nash noms jev and josh with them not winning veto and the house gets rid of a utr social threat but realistically its gonne be gina and jake with gina going bc she doesnt talk to anyone of have any motivation for this game (I LITERALLY WROTE HER A PARAGRAPH TO SEND TO NASH TO NOT BE NOMINATED AND SHE GOES "hmm idk maybe ill send it" LIKE????) 

Okay the other thing im freaking out about is bc i feel like theres tension between me Jacob Josh and Jake and im not sure what it is about. I mean i kinda do but im missing key components. The whole situation just doesn't sit right with me at all and I feel very at odds with them in a weird kinda way. I've explained this so many times but i have such a bad feeling that josh leaked the janelle alliance to jacob and is more with him than me and now josh is setting these two sides against each other and i just heard from him that nash isnt nomming him so now im really uncomfy ughhhh i have such a bad feeling and i really need to work on people like jev saira monty to make sure i have people behind me i can fall back on, but also im getting the vibe jake really really trusts me which is great because i want to go far with him as well, unless hes just misting me SUPER hard ughhh

god i just have such a bad feeling about this week buts its fINE totally fine ill work it out eventually,,,but now its trust ranking time yay

1.Gina (youre so inactive i adore you!)

2.Joshua (kid GANG!!! thank you for trusting me sometimes <3)

3.Jake (hes a crackhead but hes my crackhead)

VERY BIG GAP

4.Emma (shes chilling what a lovely gal)

5.Monty (better inactive than be active and a threat)

6.Nathan (youre kinda sketchy but hes like a funky older brother)

7.Josh (youre at the center of a balancing act i wonder if u can keep it up)

8.Nick (they always give such an honest vibe,,,,,i dont trust it)

9.Brianna (shes so sweet but the sweetest angels make the fiercest demons)

10.Jev(,,,,your on slightly thicker ice than joey but combined with a little more charisma)

ANOTHER GAP WOOT WOOT

11.Joey (youre on THIN fucking ice buddy,,,,please be more open w/ me)

12.Saira (im begging for u to talk game to me,,, but also since we havent talked u cant snake me yet)

13. Jacob (idk ily sm but youre so fcking connected and idk if i reached ur inner circle yet)

14. Kiki (my favorite furry)

15.Nash (please talk to me im begging ill do anything please plsease plaease plae-)

So update ive been talking around and wow this game loves looking at my allies and kicking them in the kneecaps while spitting in their eyes ugh. So nash is probably leaning towards nomming jake and Gina with gina as the target (really weird that jake is nommed makes me think jacob had some influence there) but in that scenario best case is that veto is used and anyone but josh goes up and that person leaves easy fucking peasy!! Anyway i just talked with josh and apparently jacob was the one who came up with the alliance idea which is interesting bc he tried to pin it on josh. Anyways not to totally contradict my initial rant but me and josh had a really good chat where we're kinda in the same position between two groups (the og alliance and janelle) and we dont know if we should make the og alliance and with who bc of janelle so we're struggling to see whats the correct move from here....or maybe josh is completely misting me but i fucking hope not ugh- either way im surviving this week and thats that!!

JEV

I'm realising that I'm getting myself into a pretty tight position since I have firm alliances with Emma & Jake and Nash & Nathan, as well as being extremely close to Josh C, which could prove difficult for me down the line, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

KIKI

https://youtu.be/6cn8xUFWqhA

BRIANNA

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1XvZzg3dTEZ89VeFbG3bxk4JFNtr7Ixm0/view?usp=sharing 

i had to use google drive bc it wouldn't take my file on youtube :((((

JEV

So right now I've somehow accidentally wriggled my way into conspiring with Nash on how best to take Gina out, which is so dumb of me because I don't really want to see Gina leave this week, but at the same time I'm having to fight Nash's decision because she wants to put Emma up beside her and... I can't let that happen because I'm worried Emma would leave over Gina

JEV

So I'm speaking to Nash, taking the heat off of Emma by telling her I feel she could be a number for me/her/Nathan down the line, and now I'm pushing for Brianna to go up since Nash wants someone who 100% wouldn't leave over Gina and I'm thinking like... WHO would vote to evict Brianna, but at the same time I'm feeling super terrible about it because Brianna is a literal angel

JEV

Wow a lot going on so I'm trying to update as best I can, Nash is saying she's going to randomise for who goes to the upside down so I'm having to encourage her not to include me or Nathan in the randomisation just incase she needs us for strategising but REALLY its so I can stay and hang around and try my best to keep Emma from touching the block at all this week.

NASH

sorry for nominating women i didnt mean it.

EMMA

If i am being honest the more this game goes by i get so unmotivated and its only week 3 i suck because well in bbgames like galar and almia i mostly played from the bottom now im like alright i kinda want to fuck up my game for fun but kinda pisses me off a bit that i almost could of been nominated if it wasnt for jev but that pisses me off so much i tried talking to nash but i get left on read i dont take things 100x personal unless if somebody is being mean like laughing etc but knowing that i would be on the block over brianna when i did try talking to nash its still hurts a little but if somebody like gina wins veto if i get on the block it issss what it isss i guess but i played on the bottom way to many times maybe i can do this??

JEV

So my efforts worked and Brianna went up instead of Emma, now I've just gotta hope neither of the noms win POV/that the POV isn't used so I don't have to throw someone elses name out there to Nash :flushed:

JOSH

hello ladies and gays. straights aren't welcome here.

today, we are feeling GOOD because the person we nominated just a few days ago won power and STILL didn't nominate me. is that iconnery or what? i was honestly ready for my ass to be TOAST but i did approach nash before they won HOH and had a conversation about where we stood and they said i would be OKAY this week bc we did start talking. we love to see it, yes we do!

the nominees this week are gina and brianna and.. even though i'm in two different alliances with both of them, i'm not mad at either of them going up. i don't REALLY talk with either and i'd be happy to see either one of them go. the tricky part will be figuring out WHO to vote when the time comes, but we have a POV to happen before we get there. we'll SEE.

if i had to choose, i'd probably send brianna home simply because i find her a bit CHAOTIC where i feel like gina isn't really going to cause a lot of waves with me. she's much more quiet whereas brianna is more likely to be able to pick herself back up.

some other fun events going on:

jake was NOT happy about nash winning and thought he was going to get nominated because of it. he was about to RIP nash a new one and is really brewing with how much he hates them. MAKES ME LAUGH A LIL BECAUSE IT WAS SO UNWARRANTED BUT NEVERTHELESS, it's something to note that jake does NOT like nash.

i think aria is my number one right now bc we get along really well and have very similar opinions. i'm really open with how i talk to her so i'm HOPING she's not spilling everything i say to someone else but i don't think she WOULD? i dunno. i love her energy and i'm hoping we can SLICE AND DICE together in the middle.

my strategy is to take my HOH under my belt and take a step back for a minute while my two alliances (one: jake, aria, gina, emma, saira, me & two: jacob, aria, brianna, kiki, me) get picked off back and forth. i'm going to see if i can craft a narrative for them to go after each other but we'll SEE. there are a lot of people in the middle i enjoy a lot more than some of the people in my alliances so IDK. i feel like some people got thrown into these alliances that i did NOT want but they were kind of forced in so i don't trust it. and i think people KNOW because i'm not very chatty abt it in the chats (and i haven't even made one of the chats. am i supposed to? idk)

anyways that's all for now x 

ARIA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zp71zzR-wgE

someone help

JAKE

https://voca.ro/g2ZQWs9x8du

JEV

Not miss Nash coming to me asking how I'd feel about being renom :flushed:

JEV

So I literally just woke up from a sleep and in the space of 30 minutes have had to talk Nash out of renomming me, Emma or Jake since we've just made an alliance together so I warned her that probably wouldn't work out for us in the long run. We narrowed it down and she shortlisted Aria, Josh C, Monty & Nick, and I have spun her to try and get her to nominate Aria, because 1. I don't wanna see Josh C go up and 2. like with Brianna I feel nobody here would vote to evict Aria, and Nash wants Gina GONE (crying emoji) so I feel this was the only logical renom to suggest.

JEV

The conversation has turned back to Emma and I just really don't wanna let that happen because I do feel like she'd leave over Gina. Part of me is saying not to stick my neck out too much to save Emma but at the same time she's my number 1 in this game and I hope she'd return the favour if she was in my position.

NASH

this was literally one of the worst decisions i've ever had to make so now i'm just kinda pissed off! 

ARIA

Well,,,, FBSFJDF I feel like im making so many of these but honestly this game changes everyday so please dont be too annoyed by me uwu, the mood swing i had just this DAY was insane so lets begin w/ the general info-

IN TIME LINE ORDER

-Jev told jake that something about noms but acted dumb when I asked

-Gina/Joshua/Aria alliance created!!

-Saira and Josh are close

- VIDEO DR GOES HERE

-Jake spills Emma-Jev-Nathan-Nash-Jake alliance with Emma/Jev/Jake being a trio as well= Jev created the alliance

-Jev prefers gina out

-jake doesnt believe in screenshots or recording calls

-Jev and Jake are close

-Jev/Jacob/Jake all played together before

-I leaked Bri's backups to Jake as well as Jacob's trio with Nash and Kiki

-nash almost backdoored jev bc he wasnt responding to her

-jev was the reason i was almost otb

-I WAS ALMOST OTB

-Josh AND Jacob both want Jake out

-Bri thinks nash's comp ability is scary

-Nash and Nick are close 

-Jacob nervous about Bri's backup leaking

-Jacob barely talks w/ saira and monty

-made a final three w/ jacob josh called malibu

So now im debating whether its morally okay for me to analyze what happened in the living room in a game sense. FBSdffan So lets run down things in chronological order and I might mention my thoughts if they arent too controversial, Nathan leaks the alliance with jev/nash/jake/emma. Eventually emma says 'i wanna know who put these thoughts in the hohs head" and nick starts to shut the discussion down which is an interesting contrast to their earlier attitude where they were very for the drama continuing, which leads me to begin they had some sort of hand in it. Nathan goes on to say he likes nash on a personal lvl which jake analyzes as a nod to a friendgroup and a mini confrontation between nathan and jake occur. I believe that part was just a misunderstanding on both parties account. Then happy discussion until Jake calls nash out for being in the diary session for too long which leads to a discussion of house guests over analyzing production and using that as a strategy which is ultimately unfair and also at this time I believe nash was going through itTM leading to their friends to be slightly defensive on their behalf (which is valid) and i after rereading things i really hope that they're okay, ultimately this leads up to frustration on Jake's part and his ultimate quit. 

I mean where do i go from here? I have the Bri's angels but that did get leaked to Emma on Jake's way out so i need to figure some way to micromanage that where i think im gonna make a emma jev alliance and work with them as a trio in the future (if gina goes) but rn i feel like this force of energy that is Bri's backups is gonna body for a bit but i think theyre gonna throw hoh leading me jev or emma to step up and body a bit. Like i think i might actually win hoh and nom nash and monty with a nick potential renom bc im BORED and nash continuing to skate by without even talking to me is not valid, and monty is so not here its like??? HEWWO??? but idk thats making big moves i may just chill a bit for now but i dont want jev and emma being targeted in the future bc theyre gonna be numbers for me and thats on PEWIOD!

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