#ugh the lineart is inconsistent

[grellssquishyhusband]

Pt 9 Girls make a mistake

[sagau-my-beloved]

So this took me way too long...

I didn’t add the wings/hood thing because I actually do value my own sanity, and also his shoulders, but I might add it in later once some of that has replenished

Anyway enjoy Archon outfit Venti

[saltminerising]

why why WHY does it take staff 8+ days to tell me my accent has been rejected with NO helpful advice, just the same copy-and-paste response about needing to darken lineart and/or shadows. this is a product i'm selling, i feel bad that it's taking this fucking long but i can't do shit about it! fuck! why do the lineart/shadows need to be visible in the first place(/genq)???!!!!?? why isn't there a better system??? why isn't there more staff dedicated to the skin queue if UMAs are such a big part of the site ecosystem and literally everybody complains about how absolutely fucking glacial the queue is and inconsistent the parameters are??? it almost feels like they're being arbitrary to fuck with the playerbase it makes me want to cry i'm so goddamn frustrated UGH.

[meggannn]

i’ve been having a chaotic week at work and today it hit me that the reason for the trouble is really all my fault, so i have no one to blame but myself, so i’ve just been like. disconcerted the whole day

i’m working on transmitting a book in a discipline i’ve never done before, which is very exciting but also -- i’m learning now -- comes with new problems that i guess i just... didn’t think to look for. like i’ve been here for nearly two years, and all of the books i’ve worked on have been engineering books by well-established authors. that means that a lot of the manuscripts are often complex, have complicated files (most of which i can’t even open), and need a lot of special, tedious work to make note of all the figures and formulas and lineart, etc. that’s what i’m used to, i’m used to dealing with this engineering tedium, so i was really excited when i got to work on a geosciences book, which contains no complicated formulas or weird figures or whatever. i expected it to be, like, so much easier.

so i guess i let myself get complacent, because the problems that i normally look for (figures, file corruptions, etc), are not the problems that i ended up needing to, and i just kind of assumed everything would be fine, and now that it’s time to handover the manuscript, i’m realizing things are actually quite messy and i didn’t notice until now and shit, we gotta push the schedule back because of me. this isn’t, like, a huge deal, because schedules get pushed back all the time, but it’s irritating beyond belief when i know it’s my fault. like it’s also embarrassing, but mostly i’m just mad at myself.

really the biggest problem that i didn’t account for is that the authors i’m working with now are first-time authors, so they aren’t used to the type of thoroughness that all our other authors provide us by default. so i’m noticing now these little inconsistencies like, one chapter has a “conclusion” but another has a “summary” and those are the ONLY chapters in the entire book to have either. we can’t have a summary in one chapter and a conclusion in another and exam questions in all the rest, lmao, this manuscript has to be consistent, and i should have known to check for that months ago. i was so used to my engineering authors, who provide me fully-fledged pdfs, because they lay out all their work in latex and then it converts it into a clean and consistent manuscript for them.

so like, i guess i just gave these authors the benefit of the doubt because they were nice and i liked them a lot. and i shouldn’t have? i should have been pressing them more to get clear answers, even if it made me annoying or unlikable to them. because now, after saying “i’m sure there won’t be any problems!” months ago, i’m in the position of bothering them with questions well into the production cycle and everyone probably thinks i’m incompetent. 

i know there’s really no answer to this other than “take a breath and get to work fixing your mistakes,” and that’s really just the only thing i can do. i let my editor know this morning and he didn’t seem angry, just kinda like “okay, this isn’t the kind of thing you and i can fix, so write to the authors and we’ll get it sorted” -- he also said “this isn’t your fault” which i’m pretty sure is objectively not true, but if he’s not angry with me, i guess i shouldn’t be that hard on myself. and i’m not the type of person to get swallowed in guilt, my immediate reaction to seeing a problem i made is to jump up and fix it out of fear someone will get mad or think bad of me. so i’ve done what i could to fix the problems i’ve found, i’ve let everyone know what’s going to get done and when, i’m being thorough and clear and (i think) pretty professional about it, and until i hear back from the authors about these questions only they can answer, there’s nothing else i can do. i just really should’ve done this a whole lot sooner.

i just. ugh. i guess i thought i was better than this and it’s embarrassing to realize i got this lazy. i figured that the problems i see in my other manuscripts are going to match the problems i see in this one, and so the lack of those problems let me get complacent here, and i assumed there was nothing else that needs my attention. and this is going to be a lesson, or maybe a story i tell interviewers in a year or five or ten, and i know the response to this is “accept you messed up and grow from it,” which i think is what i’m trying to do, but for now while i wait i’m just irritated with myself.

[mxlxdroit]

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