#ugh im sorry im rambling and its super annoying and personal just

[shararan]

tfw you cant write because no manner of seating arrangement currently works without major pain and your body feels like its about to fall apart into pieces jfc if it aint the neck its the shoulders or lower back or elbows

[detective-ws]

i was full of poorly hidden annoyance and i just need to air it out bc the gc i normally ramble in theres something else going on

(this is NOT about anyone i know over here on tumblr /gen)

ugh why do people use the general chat, in a PUBLIC discord server, as dms

im just like, annoyed

there is a chance itll get covered, and they in general they are just WAY less likely to see it

i have to help moderate this chat, but i dont want to see 2 people talking at length about a show with no room for other members to join the conversation (thats the main issue with doing it)

i understand if a conversation starts from general and thus continues there, but @/ing someone and just attaching a link is like ‘??? just do this is dms, please oh my cod’

sorry im just like so annoyed, this has happened multiple times

when i asked the first person to take their messaging the person to dms though they were very nice

the second time the two people (different from the first person) just misinterpreted every single point i was trying to say..

while i am pretty bad at phrasing, but it feels awful to have people seem to constantly not listen to you or not care about what your politely asking/suggesting of them

im a mod, but i dont want to abuse mod privileges, because thats not cool of me, but i have to physically stop myself and force myself to step away (i muted the chat and moved to the second general)

they just continued chatting until one of them had to go, i feel so bad for feeling relieved that they had to go, because they are a known member (we have had many convos and they seem cool) but i feel so relieved right now

i need to get over these things but this members friend (the one who started the convo out of dms in the first place) just wasnt super nice in the beginning and also hasnt really been. i dont dislike them i dont think? but being mean to people as, what i presume to be, a joke, isnt funny from the outside if you dont know they are joking.

also, they just refused to get roles, it bothers me when people dont get a single role, or when people join a server for a SPECIFIC FANDOM, without being in that fandom for no reason other than their friend inviting them

i mean i dont think i hid my annoyance well, but they just responded to my ‘hey you can do that in dms you know’ (they were sending a link unrelated to literally anything that has happened in the server before, to my knowledge, seemingly umprompted) with just justifications. then when i responded with reasons they were constantly misinterpreted

maybe i should just try and learn to phrase things better.. its an issue

sorry i just needed to vent all that to nobody in particular, maybe delete(/private if its possible) this later,, idk

ive been really prone to almost crying today over slight things, maybe a side effect of forgetting my adderall, probably not though. im just more emotional today for some reason, so that may be affecting my feelings on the situation

[jjinomu]

aaAAA now that you've done crypton headcanons i really wanna see what your headcanon for the others are :,) ('specially sonnie boi meito hehe)

WELL U ASKED FOR IT!!!!!!! LETS DO THIS AGAIN im supposed to be doing university readings but yknow fuck dat shit 

i SHALL REVEAL TO U MY HC's for gumi (and gumo), gakupo, meito, luki, kaiko, mikuo this will b a long one (jks im gna keep it short and sweet- i say rambling)

GUMI- SUPER SOCIAL bffs with everyone ultimate social butterfly - also (this shud be known to everyone by now) but i always hc gumi as an aroace and she also screams a lot probably- screaming carrot person- loves fashion apparently- she's super energetic and usually the life of the party, always dragging whoever she wants to be in company with in the moment into a state of what the fuck is going on right now idk but i like it

GAKUPO- on the outside or to new ppl he's a lot more mature and calm and quiet (pretty much the male ver of luka)- he's very pretty and cool- and then u get to know him and he's a total weird creep, noone wants to be in the same vicinity as him, but u can't escape him now- very flamboyant, skinshippy and full of LOVE a lil too full and ppl r like pls gakupo and he's like "IDK WAT PERSONAL SPACE MEANS"- uses the eggplant emoji a lot and ppl get even more creeped out since it's like the universal emoji for dick but gakupo's innocent he just likes the eggplants

MEITO- unlike meiko, he's a rly good FUCKIN COOK (well mostly at baking) and ppl r like wow make me a sick pie meito and he's like "ok"- he's a huge dorky mcdork, like probably just a lil less dorky that kaito but pretty much also the same amount (they also have the same level of knowledge except meito doesnt know random facts he's just naive)- he's very happy like all the time, noone can stop his happiness, always happy- he can't handle alcohol like at all, just a lil bit and he's like bye - he will throw u in the air, give u piggybackrides, hold u up like an airplane, carry u bridal style as he runs across the beach wearing nothing but swim trunks to hell and back, drunk or sober, he'll do it, bc its fun for both ppl- that last one was a bit intense- he's buff basically- he's also very dad-like, good dad- probably takes pictures of luki on the toilet for fun

LUKI- "i want to speak to the manager, where's the manager"- soccer mom, also kinda short-tempered??? very agitated - very pretty human being, how is he so pretty who knows- hurt the crypton fam (genderbend and original) and he'll hurt u- protects his bois (the girls can take care of themselves he says)- very tolerant to alcohol, often hangs out with luka and meiko in their weekly drinking sessions and sometimes even outlasts them (or he's the responsible one and drives them home)- both kaito and meito are not invited bc they'll probably destroy things- effeminate and super trendy what a trendy man- also can't cook, will accidentally put too much salt or something

KAIKO - and side meito sakine and meiko sakine (i honestly have 2 headcannons for kaiko, but i'll go with my main "cool older sister" headcannon, my other one is "cute little sister" but fuck dat one)- lovely, so lovely, what a lovely lady, how are u so lovely- probably also a closet pervert, mostly @ meiko sakine- very mature, looks after the little ones (like idk meiko sakine or meito sakine or smth)- i had a whole hc for the friendship between the sakines and kaiko lemme break it down for u: kaiko babysits the sakines, she's always oogling meiko sakine bc she's cute and kaiko's anime-weird like that for lil imouto (#1 meiko sakine supporter), while meiko sakine is always like UGH UR SO WEIRD!!!! GEt away from me agh gross wtf kaiko-nee???? also meito sakine has a fat crush on kaiko, but kaiko thinks of him as a lil bro "im babysitting u today again meito, hope u did ur homework or else im gna have to punish u" "im not a baby anymore kaiko-nee!! im a MAN u don't have to call it babysitting :((" meito sakine tries to be the Man, but kaiko's like haha u qt where's meiko sakine (who is probably hiding and snickering to herself)- good headcannon right- kaiko and luki get along heaps, and meito and kaiko are bffs4ever- kaiko also tries to ignore kaitos existence as much as possible, "im an only child" "kaiko why are you like this im right here"- kaito loves his lil sister, such shame

GUMO- like gumi, screams a lot, a male screaming carrot- SUPER SUPER energetic like, take energy and multiply by a thousand- constantly wants to be involved with everyone at the same time, always there somehow- talking??? with someone??? in a serious?? conversation?? poof gumo is there for NO REASON besides the fact that he just wants to join in- probably the annoying kid- breaks into the genderbend!crypton house very often bc he wants to hang out and play games with mikuo- gets dragged out by luki (using meito as the proxy and muscleman)

MIKUO- nerdy, very into his studies and work and success (what a focused kid)- probably the maths kid- likes to read, super quiet- whenever gumo stops by, mikuo tries to ignore him while gumo keeps talking and being annoying while insisting they play a game together- and they do and mikuo is full competitive ("im not first in school bc i let myself be beat")- the only reason gumo breaks into the house very often is bc mikuo lets him in or tells him the secret places to enter the house- mikuo denies this though bc "if gumo wasn't here i'd be able to study"

THE END OF another headcanon ramble i have readings to do but i wanna do mORE OF THESE Ah if u read all of this congratualations im so sorry