#ugh i'm ranting. sorry about that. i wanted to complain about how hard it is to translate and offer my eternal respect to those who can

[exalok]

i am attempting to translate what resembles the grave into french for my mom (and will maybe post it on ao3 after) and GOD. FUCK. DAMN. i suffer

[satorusugurugurl]

If this request makes you uncomfortable or isn’t something you want to write, I apologize and please ignore my request!

Heyy! I was wondering if I could request a satoru x reader x Suguru smut? With like, some bdsm mixed in yk. Tying reader up, satoru is a tease, and likes to make her squirm and ask questions he know she can’t answer because Suguru is fucking her throat. But Suguru is mean. Mean and tougher than satoru. He tells satoru to stop being so gentle with you, that not only do you deserve rough treatment but you like it. And satoru listens to him, of course. I just want them to run through me like a train😞

Also same mean geto anon (again lol) I’m gonna just sign off w an emoji now :3 -🍭

Hi Anon!

This isn't my cup of tea, it's my FUCKING jam!!

Summary: Gojo and Geto had been on a two-week-long mission, which hadn't gone as smoothly as Suguru wanted. He was pent-up and frustrated. So, of course, Gojo called you to warn you it might not be a good idea to come over. You, of course, did not heed his warning. The second you get home, you realize that you were screwed.

Word Count: 3,706

Warnings: BDSM, rough sex, oral sex, so much sex, degradation, teasing, the smuttiest of smut

A/N: Good God, Satoru x Reader x Suguru is my weakness!! I put my whole heart into this. Geto Suguru, teacher AU, is my kryptonite!

Part Two

She Likes it Like That

“Y/N babe,” Gojo said in a hushed whisper, “you probably shouldn't come home tonight.”

You cocked an eyebrow, looking away from the first year's training. “I'm sorry, did you just tell me not to come home. . .to our apartment?” The world ‘our’ came out like acid.

Gojo sighed overdramatically. “Don't say it like that. I'm trying to save you! Suguru is in such a bad mood.” You listened to him walking around. “I sighed out loud when I noticed the last of my mochi was gone. Fuck you for that, by the way, and do you know what he said to me?” You pinched at the bridge of your nose, waiting for the rant to continue. “He told me to shut the fuck up! For sighing!”

“What did you do to piss him off? Oh, and just an FYI, I bought you more mochi, asshole.”

“Oh—” silence, “thank you-I’m sorry, please don't return it.”

“Satoru! Forget about the mochi. What happened to Sugu?”

The mission your partners were sent on did not go as planned. Their hotel had flooded; it was not like they had time to consider sleeping. The higher-ups sent them to an abandoned mountainside village full of cursed spirits. Poor Suguru had to swallow dozens for nearly two weeks. Gojo had enough; he couldn't stand the pained expression on his face as he gagged the last spirit down. So he decided to Hollow-Purpled the entire village.

The second they got back, the higher-ups scolded the hell out of them. Chastising them, complaining that they didn't do a good enough job. After all their hard work, the time they spent away from home, from you. Those bastards dared to complain about their hard work. It sent Suguru into a terrible mood, one that was bound to end with either a fight or someone getting fucked into the mattress.

One thing about Suguru was that when he was pissy, things felt out of his control. He needed to take control back. Which meant he wanted to have sex. He would be rough, really rough, tying either you or Satoru up, not letting you go until he had calmed down. Or if one of you was fucked too stupid to continue, his eyes focused on the other that wasn't tied up.

“So please, just stay with Ieiri tonight. I'm going to lock myself in my room. Last time he was this pissed off, the both of us were so sore we couldn't move.”

“Ugh, fuckin’ whatever.” This whole situation wasn't fair. You hated how your boyfriends were mistreated.

“Yeah, just stay the—oh, hi Suguru.” There was a shuffling in the background. “No, I wasn't talking shit.” Satoru nervously laughed. “Look, Sugu—no, put down the rope—”

“Toru?” Panic for your boyfriend sank into your stomach.

“Hey! Wait a second—Sugu—”

Before any other indication of what was happening came through the receiver, the other line cut off. So you quickly yelled to the students you had to leave and took off. By the time you made it, you were breathless from running and realized that in your panic, you left your keys at work.

You picked up the spare key hidden under the doormat. Just as you were about to unlock the door, it flew open. You slowly blinked, looking up at a very irritated Suguru. The man radiated gloom and tension. He was in his sweatpants, and his hair was tied in a messy bun, and, dear God, he looked pent up.

“Why the fuck are you using the spare key?”

“I-I uh—”

“Ooooh~ there she is~!” a hand gently rested against Suguru’s shoulder as Satoru peered down at you from behind your dark-haired boyfriend. “There's our girl!”

It only took a moment to see that Satoru mirrored Suguru’s frustration and anger. Oh fuck. The key fell from your hand as you took a step back. Suguru was demanding and rough when he was pent up. Satoru, on the other hand, was a tease. He liked pushing you, making you cry. Both of them being in a pissy mood simultaneously, this was a nightmare for you.

“Y-You, I thought you were in trouble!”

“Oh yeah, no.” Suguru’s soured face slowly twisted into a smirk as Satoru licked his lip. “But you~?” Suguru’s hand darted out, grabbing you by the front of your shirt, preventing you from moving further back. “You're royally fucked.” Before you even had a chance to respond, Suguru and Satoru grabbed you, yanking you inside.

“Awe~” Satoru hummed as he trailed his kiss up the bare thighs he lay between. “Look at you~ trying to clamp your thighs shut.” Gojo’s fingers were buried deep inside of you. Finger fucking you to the edge of yet another orgasm he would deny. “But you can't, can you~? Suguru’s got you all tied to the bed, spread out for us to use you.” A muffled moan escaped you. “Huh? What was that princess? You gotta use your big girl words.” Satoru tilted his head, cupping his free hand around the back of his ear. “Oooh! That's right, you can't talk when getting your throat fucked.”

You gagged as Suguru's cock hit the back of your throat. He was quiet, his eyes shut in concentration. He looked so fucking hot, so focused on the feeling of your mouth. Sweat was beading on his forehead as he pulled in and out of your mouth, grunting softly as you hollowed your cheeks. But the more Satoru spoke, the more Suguru knitted his eyebrows.

“I bet you want me to stuff your pussy, too, don't you~? You want to be spit-roasted between your two boyfriends?” Your pussy twitched at his words. “Oooh~!! Your cunt just twitched. Is that what our sweet girl wants—”

“Satoru,” Suguru snarled, “shut the fuck up.”

“Well, excuse the fuck out of me. Y/N likes it when I tease her.”

Suguru tsked, pulling his thick cock out of your mouth. You gasped and coughed, spit and precum coating your chin. Between your pants and the gasps for air, Suguru went to what you thought would be a head pat. Instead, his fingers tangled in your air with a hard yank, pulling you up to look down at Satoru. His face was flushed, cerulean eyes wide as he looked between his two partners.

“Look at the fucking slutty face she's making.” The grip on your hair tightened. “You think she looks like this because of your pitiful teasing?” A shaky moan escaped you as he tightened his grip harder. “No, she looks like this because this little slut likes it rough.”

Fuck, you wanted more, to run your hands over Suguru’s arms, to grip his cock, urging him to keep fucking your throat. You were desperate to trap Satoru's head firmly between your thighs, forcing him to kiss and lick your clit. Instead, you weakly tugged at the purple restraints tied to both your wrists and ankles. Suguru had set up the rigging underneath the mattress, making it impossible for you to move. Meaning if you wanted his cock back in your mouth or Satoru’s tongue inside of you, you had to wait for them.

What made it more frustrating was the fact that you were completely bare. Not allowing you to hide the way your body reacted to Suguru’s dirty words. He was telling the truth. And the truth was behind your body's reactions. Gojo could see it in the way your tight entrance clenched around his fingers. He could feel your pussy drip around him, your wetness running down his knuckles. Suguru was right; you did like it; no, like wasn't the right word.

You fucking loved it.

Suguru could see the wheels turning in Satoru’s head as his eyes glittered with lust and excitement. “Satoru~ do you finally see it?~” The way Suguru purred his name had Satoru’s cock throbbing. “You see why she came home, even though she knew she’d get fucked?”

“Yeah, yeah, she's a fucking slut.”

“Yeah, she is.” A sharp tug on your head made you yelp. Suguru grinned, cocking an eyebrow at you. “You want it rough? Want me to fuck your throat so hard you cry, pretty girl?”

“Y-Yes, please.”

Gripping his cock at the base, Suguru slapped his thick meat against your cheek. “That's a good girl. Now open up.” slowly, you opened your mouth to him. Watching your tongue slip out had his tip angry, throbbing red. “Now,” he smeared the beading precum over your bottom lip, “say ah~.”

“Ahh~” The second that sound left your pretty mouth Suguru shoved his cock in your mouth. Your eyes stung as tears filled your eyes.

Satoru’s fingers had stopped their slow movements inside of you. His mouth was dry as he gulped. Suguru had been rough before, but this was a whole new level. His thick fingers wrapped around your Y/H/C hair, holding your head in place. His hips pull back before slamming forward, his ass clenching with the force of each thrust. Blue eyes slowly trailed over to your face. Your eyes were red, big tears slowly down your cheeks, and your throat was fucked. Satoru swore he could see Suguru’s tip bulging in your slender neck.

This was fucking hot. Suguru’s bare back glittered in the low light of the bedroom, a sheen of sweat beaded over his toned muscles. It was like watching a god fuck a mortal Suguru radiated a dominating power as he watched their girlfriend choke and gag on his cock. Satoru’s cock was so hard it fucking hurt. Reaching down, he wrapped his hand around his throbbing shaft, jerking it slowly as he leaned down, kissing and nipping at your inner thighs.

The gentle kisses had you sighing contently around Suguru’s cock. Looking over his shoulder, Suguru sighed as he watched Satoru. His pink tongue was stuck out, gently teasing your damp folds. The sensation had you sighing around his dick, and that was not what he needed right this fucking second. Suguru wanted more; he needed it to relieve the tension in his shoulder. But that relief, the release he needed, wouldn’t happen, with Satoru teasing you like he loved to do.

“Satoru,” Suguru's voice was rough, “I just told you Y/N likes it rough.”

“Uh-huh~” Satoru’s voice was muffled as his face buried in your pussy, making you whine around the cock buried in your mouth.

“You’re not being rough enough.” Satoru pulled back, making you whine in protest. “Oh, I’m sorry. Do you want to come down here and eat Y/N’s pussy while I get my dick sucked?”

“No.” The cocky smile that was beginning to form on Satoru’s face was suddenly gone as Suguru reached his free hand down, wrapping his fingers in soft white hair. “I want you to fucking eat her cunt out like you fucking hate her.” Your eyes rolled back as Satoru was slammed back down into your pussy. The moan that left his mouth vibrated just right against our clit, making you cry out. “Ah~ fuck yes.” Your cries vibrated around Suguru’s cock, just the way he wanted. “That’s it, Satoru, keep it up.”

“Mmmmph.” Finally, having a picture of how Suguru wanted him to act, Satoru found himself motivated. Again, it might be because his boyfriend was tugging and pulling at his sensitive hairline. Yeah, that was motivating him. Fuck you like he hated you, he could do that. He was just as pent-up as Suguru was.

Fingers slammed inside your pussy, fucking in and out of your tight hole with a force and speed that had you crying out in pleasure. Your moans felt so fucking good, and the more you opened your mouth to cry, the deeper Suguru fucked your throat. He hit the back over and over again, his hand pressing firmly against Satoru’s head, pushing him harder against your clit. The two of you moaned while your mouths were being used; the sounds of whimpers, squelches, and gagging were like a symphony to Suguru’s ears.

Out of all the ways for him to relieve his stress, this was by far his favorite.

“Hah—fuck keep that up, Satoru, bring her right to the edge, then stop. I want her cumming with both of us inside of her. Fucking her so rough she has to call out of work tomorrow and Friday.” The thought of that had you pulling on your restraints. “Oooh oh, you like that? You like knowing the two of us will make sure you can’t walk or talk tomorrow?” Your muffled moans were quickly molded into gags as Suguru roughly fucked your face. “Yeah, you fucking do, you nasty little slut.”

Your mind was spinning as you felt yourself climbing closer and closer to your orgasm. The room was so hot and reeked of sex. It was all you could do not to allow yourself to cum right then and there. Satoru could feel it, the way your little swollen clit throbbed against his tongue, how your walls clamped down on his fingers. He wanted to send you over the edge. He was close to following you as he fucked his hips helplessly into the mattress, wishing it was your wet pussy instead.

One orgasm wouldn’t hurt, would it? You had been so good to them, allowing the duo to drag you into the house, strip you in the entryway, and tie you to the bed. Plus, on top of all that, they had left you alone for two weeks. You had to rely on that stupid vibrator Suguru insisted on allowing you to keep. That stupid toy was nothing compared to his tongue. Which was probably why he was bringing you to a mind-blowing orgasm in under three minutes.

Yeah, he was going to let you cum.

Curling his fingers up into your g-spot, Satoru fucked you as fast as his wrist would allow. Suguru instantly knew what was happening. From the way your eyes shut to how loud you were moaning around him, you were seconds away from cumming. If he was in a better mood, he might have allowed it to happen. Unfortunately, he wasn’t done with you yet.

“Stop.” Suguru scolded, pulling Satoru away from your dripping sex.

Both you and Satoru made disapproving groans as your orgasm slowly faded out of sight. “Doesn’t she deserve a treat? She’s been so good!” Satoru whined, licking your juices off his lips.

“I agree. Y/N does deserve a reward. But you need to give it to her in the roughest way that you can.” Suguru pulled his cock out of your mouth, allowing you to catch your breath. “Look at it this way. We get to blow off the steam while we make up for making her play with herself for two weeks.”

“Huh?” Those words struck a different chord in Satoru, and his cock twitched.

“Y/N, sweetheart, how often would you say you played with yourself when we were gone.”

You swallowed at the air greedily. “I don’t know, seven, maybe eight times.” Both your boyfriends shuddered, hearing the hoarseness of your voice.

“And out of all of those times, did you cum as hard as you do with us.”

“Not at all. They were all baby orgasms.”

Suguru shut his eyes, nodding his head. “See, Satoru, not only does our little slut like us rough and demanding, but we have to make up for those eight little orgasms.” When the dark-haired man looked back at Satoru, he saw a flash of white before your scream of shock and please bounced off the walls.

Suguru’s eyes were slightly wide as his brain tried to catch up with what his eyes had just witnessed. What he saw was Satoru balls deep inside of you. His thrusts were sloppy and needy, and fuck you looked as stunned as Suguru. One second you had been empty, pussy craving a cock deep inside of it from the denied orgasm. In the blink of an eye, Satoru was fucking into you more brutal than he’d ever fucked you before.

“I fucking told you, that toy was nothing compared to us.” Satoru snarled against the crook of your neck, digging his teeth into the sensitive skin. “Fucking stupid toy, not pleasing my girl.”

“Oh my—fuck, holy fuck!” You cried out, mouth wide open. Giving Suguru the perfect opportunity to get back to fucking your throat. The bittersweet taste of pre-cum had your mouth watering. He returned to the brutal pace he was in several minutes again.

“She needs that Satoru. What if we get sent on another long mission? She’s just supposed to suffer?” The thought of that had Suguru tilting his head, bangs falling in front of his eye. “You know what, I think you might be on to something. If we take her toy away, then we’d have to fuck her even harder the next time we get home.”

Satoru’s teeth sank harder into your neck as the tip of his cock slammed almost too hard into your cervix, making you scream around Suguru. “Exactly. Let me use reversal red on it, Y/N, please, baby.” You started to shake your head in a desperate plea to let you keep it. But Suguru’s cock in your throat made it impossible to do so. “What was that? Oh, right, you have your mouth full.” His lips moved against your pulse as his fingers dug into your hips. “Guess we’ll just have to say the way your clamping down on my cock is a yes in our book.” Your eyes darted up to Suguru, who had bought you the toy, for help.

“Mhmm fuck, yeah, I’m pretty sure she just hummed an ‘uh-huh’ around my cock.”

You wanted to argue, to fight against this rash decision, but you felt so good it was almost impossible to care. You were screaming around Suguru’s cock. Tears streaming down your face, leaving behind trails of mascara. They were both being so mean and rough. God, it was so fucking good. Who cared about a clit sucker when your throat and pussy were being fucked into next week.

“She’s close.” Satoru cried out, his balls slapping against your ass. “Oh fuck she’s hugging my cock so tight I’m going to explode Suguru.”

With blurry eyes, you glanced up at Suguru. His cheeks were flushed, and his eyes shut tight. “I know, oh fuck I know, I’m so close, Satoru, don’t fuckin’ stop, make her cum, make her cum so hard.” Both his hands grabbed your face fucking your throat roughly as Satoru cried out, his hand pressing roughly on your clit, rubbing it in fast circles.

That was all that you needed. You cried out, squirting all over Satoru’s crotch, abdomen, and the mattress. Your orgasm set a domino effect between your boyfriends. Suguru followed behind you, his body hunched over you, his hands gently squeezing your head as he filled your mouth full of his thick cum. You weakly tried swallowing all of it, but that was somewhat difficult as Satoru extended your orgasm.

His thumb continues to rub your clit until his face scrunch up, mouth open in a feral growl. Satoru's orgasm hit him like a punch in the gut. He fucked all three of you harder, closer to oblivion. The headboard slamming against the wall as the restraint dug into your wrists was the only thing grounding you to remain on Earth. Satoru didn’t let up on the rough thrusts until he felt his cum dripping around his cock onto the bed.

The throbbing pain in the back of your throat, deep inside of your pussy was all the confirmation you needed that your boyfriends had fulfilled their promise. Never in your life had you been fucked so roughly. But it was a pain that you warmly welcomed.

After coming down, Suguru was the first to move gently. The rough hands that had been holding you in a vice gently held you as he pulled his softening cock out of your mouth. “Lay down.” His gruff, gentle voice whispered as he helped rest you against a pillow.

“Oh fuck—“ Satoru lifted his head off your shoulder, “I haven’t cum that hard in a while.” He was so slow, pulling out of you, grimacing as you cried out. “Sorry, fuck I’m sorry, baby.”

You shut your eyes, listening to Satoru getting out of bed. You could hear water running in the bathroom as gentle fingers began undoing your restraints. “You did such a good job, Y/N,” Suguru whispered. “Such a good girl for us.” His praise had you humming happily as he made quick work of the rest of the ropes.

“Suguru, let’s order in, yeah?”

“Yeah, that sounds good.”

The next half hour was a blur of warm happiness. Satoru helped wash your body in a bubble bath before Suguru joined you, kneeling next to the tub, lovingly stroking your face and hair. After you were cleaned up, your hair brushed, and pajamas on. You crawled into your bed with fresh sheets and relaxed. Satoru and Suguru fluffed your pillows and brought you a cup of tea for your raw throat. When your dinner arrived, the three of you sat in bed together to eat as a B-grade horror movie played on the television.

After eating, Satoru left to throw out the take-out containers. “Mmm, thank you for letting us do all that,” Suguru said as he crawled into bed after his shower. “That mission, it was rough.”

“I’m always happy to help.” Your voice cracked, making Suguru frown. “Stop frowning,” you flicked his forehead. “I like it rough.”

The bed dipped, and Satoru wrapped his arms around your waist. “Y/N can handle it. She is dating the two strongest, after all.” Both you and Suguru scoffed, relaxing in the growing silence. “Oh, by the way, Y/N.”

“Yeah?” You yawned, snuggling into Suguru’s chest as he turned the bedside lamp off.

“Did you bring home my mochi?”

In the dark of the room, you heard a thump and Satoru’s whine before Suguru pulled the three of you closer to him. “Satoru shut the fuck up about the mochi.”

[woman-respecter]

okay one last rant about chappell cuz i'm sure you're sick of herr (same):

i'm soooo tired of white people. i hate how chappell acts about palestine because it's SO "i learned activism from the internet and i have insane white guilt and i feel guilt for being a privileged white american" and that helps no one. bonus: she has republican parents so she has to force the activism even harder to compensate for her shitty family. i hate both sides as well but i'm not a stupid ass white person who won't be affected as much by not voting and not backing kamala.

chappell is so embarrassing like even taylor swift said i support kamala. her internet activism means that she would rather say guyssss both sides bad :/ than actually do anything of any value (it feels like she wants to be leftist so baddd that she ends up a fool... "all presidents bad i can't support any" girl you're high up in the evil capitalist music inudstry i wouldn't judge too hard if i were u..) but that's current activism for you doe. why make any change when you can just complain and do nothing? besides, leftists rn would tear any change apart to shreds cuz they expect everything to be fixed immediately. i've seen so many leftists get upset seeing progress of anything rn because because g-g-genocide!

leftists: you evil white gays celebrate improved gay rights in a red state ur so evil ugh a genocide is happening and ur happy? you need to blow yourself up to prove your loyalty to palestine and to understand what they're going through!

lastly everything chappell and ethel cain does for palestine is so forced and fake lol. it's all to make them feel better about being white and privileged. ethel cain makes jokes about killing the president girl! 🤔 youre enjoying your nice white life in a comfortable position in the music industry...you'd never give that up and stand on business cause ur all words no action..

ethel made a song for palestine and it was good but since she graduated with honors from the school of internet activism i cannot take it seriously. everything she does screams "sorry for being white :("

and then hunter from euphoria got praised for getting arrested at a JVP PROTEST (LMAO). like that rich white girl getting arrested and then nothing happened to her is not revolutionary it's actually giving kendall pepsi ad ! i will say it's more than ethel and chappell put together but still pathetically whitee.

lastly hayley from paramore ethel hunter chappell none of them actually support palestine. they try so hard to be leftist and activists which is ironic because they are capitalizing on palestine to look good, to overcompensate for their whiteness and privilege and because of guilt. their "support for palestine" are just large pr stunts that bring them more fans and more money. look at ethel. she LOVES florence (i believe they are good friends) and florence is besties with taylor swift and endorsed kamala. all bark no bitee :)

i HATE all of the performative leftist celebs you mentioned (except hayley from paramore) so fucking much. it’s obvious that their priorities are getting rid of their white guilt, being edgy, and winning clout points with the online left. they do not give an actual shit about palestine. the funny thing is that if taylor’s endorsement really does help keep trump out of the white house she will have done more for palestine than all those losers combined. sorry!

and yeah its funny that ethel, and almost every pop girlie, is at most like 2 or 3 degrees away from someone who is friends with taylor or idolizes taylor. sorry haters it really is that way. she’s your favorite artist’s ACTUAL favorite artist

[alloftheimagines]

sorry for the long rant in your inbox, i'm just so mad as reader and writer in this fandom, to constantly see fellow writers make shit about them and it's ALWAYS the women in their 30's who do this and make it into "discourse" like no offense but sometimes no one wants to hear your take bc your take is stupid and you're making it about you.

last year when POC readers/writers were (rightfully) complaining about the lack of inclusivity in the fandom, so many white writers harped about it and essentially POC writers were bullied out of the fandom. they keep getting away with this behavior bc they make rant posts about how "they don't wanna write anymore" bc "they're sad and upset about what's happening in the fandom" and then bc they have a big following all their followers kiss their ass until the writers feel ready to post their writing again....which is all a manipulation tactic for them. first they cry about people being mean to them and say they're gonna "stop writing for a while", then their followers kiss up to them, and then a week later the writer posts a new fic, and the comments are almost always filled with their followers kissing their asses again. it's so ridiculous.

ugh, I missed that happening but I’m so sorry to hear it. it’s so so easy to write a reader whose age, gender, and ethnicity aren’t specified to make everyone feel included. sure, we write self-inserts a lot of the time, but fandom is supposed to be about community - a fact they only care about when it suits them.

tbh I find it harder and harder to find fics that aren’t just dad’s best friend, extremely young woman reader, etc. and I *personally* don’t really get it. you can read those fics anywhere for anyone, even in traditional publishing. joel’s story and character is so rich and I’m sad to see his complexity get buried under so much smut.

AGAIN, I am not telling anyone what to write, and I will continue to write the fics I want to see in the world, before y’all come for me. smut is great! I’m glad you express your sexuality and have fun doing it! its just hard to find alternatives when there is so much of it, and we want to read something else.

I guess like everywhere else, this fandom lacks inclusivity sometimes and the voices most boosted are often the ones who write similar works, usually for straight white women. you can say fic writers don’t owe you anything, and perhaps it’s true, but as a writer I’ve always wanted to enrich other people’s reading experiences. to make people feel seen. I hope we can at least listen to each other and try to grow so that everyone can find a place here.

[heyitsjooooanne]

My father gave me an attitude and the silent treatment because I… [checks notes] offered him an alternative to something that he wanted

Ugh.

Just another day with my father being unhinged AGAIN.

How unsurprising (not really).

But let's rewind a little bit here.

On Sunday night (so yesterday), he called me over, asking for a flashlight to use. He wanted to use my mom's new flashlight because he said the light on it was really good.

I suggested he use the flashlight on his phone, because it's usually really good and bright, plus he'd been giving her an attitude and the silent treatment for a dumb and petty reason for a week now, so I wasn't really comfortable giving it to him (although I didn't say this out loud).

He insisted on getting her flashlight and when I told him I was just giving an alternate suggestion he said he didn't want me to say it and I told him that I'm gonna say it anyway.

BOOM!

That was all it took.

He swore in English under his breath and I left the room to get my mom's flashlight.

When I came back, I tried telling him that I had her flashlight, but he said "I don't wanna talk to you!" like an idiot with an anger problem.

Wait…

Why did I say "like"?

He IS an idiot with an anger problem.

(Not sorry. He gets no sympathy from me for making me feel anxious my whole childhood and making me feel tense and terrified now. From what I know, he had a traumatic and lonely childhood and was raised in a Spanish country in the 50's so basically toxic macho central. But still no excuse.)

So now he's not talking to me and my mom because he can't control his own disappointment over silly things.

-_-

It should also be noted that I never actually told him "no" (although it wouldn't have mattered if I did), I just offered him an alternative.

Me standing my ground and saying "I'm gonna say it anyway" is what drove him over the edge.

And you know what else really frustrates me about him?

Ever since I was a teen he would always tell me "control your emotions."

But he's the one who doesn't know how to regulate his emotions.

Seriously.

I still have this vague memory of him spilling a full cup on to the kitchen counter because he was upset with my mom over something.

Compare that to me in situations that stress me out where I either:

a) rant to people I trust (or think I can trust) through speaking or chat

b) write it down when I can't talk to anyone about it (like now, but I'll definitely be sending this post to my friend who is, of course, a young woman like me since it's hard for me to trust guys/men in general)

c) take a deep breath and try to stay calm

or

d) sob about it in private

And he has the nerve to make my mom pay his car repair bills while he's out spending money on Lottery tickets.

Yep.

He gambles money (instead of saving a little every month for emergency expenses) and then complains that he has none.

Funny how I barely have any money, yet, I never spend over my own limits.

But if I merely suggested he save his spare money instead of spending it on Lottery tickets when he's in a BAD MOOD?

Ooh, boy.

And my mom tried to justify it by saying we need a car, but now I'm not so sure she believes that anymore.

But yeah, just another thing to add to his long rap sheet.

X - emotional child/adult abuse X - physical child/adult abuse X - volatile personality/prone to fits of anger X - threats of violence and/or bodily harm X - gambling X - financial abuse

No wonder I'm so depressed these days.

[writingintheshadowsforever]

Ugh can tomorrow hurry up and get here I need the start of a new day. Because today wasn't it you know sometimes I go so long without a super bad day and forget they exist and eventually will come. Work wasn't horrible but it was a bit stressful. We were short staff and so even though it was never super busy. It felt that way and we had some customers complaining about wait time. Of course they were little moments of my coworkers getting irritated with each other.

I didn't get a break which wasn't a big deal I only work 6 hour shifts, and I make sure to eat before I go in. Because we only ever get breaks when it's super slow and there is enough staff. But when I get off I'm hungry and for once I don't eat at work. Because when I left things were still super crazy and I didn't feel like bothering anyone. I'm decided to go somewhere else for food but the restaurant I picked just happened to be going through the same thing. As mine and wasn't taking lobby orders so I say forget it and doordash food.

I haven't doordashed in months because I got tired of spending so much money. But I made exception for today and I get home waiting on my food. It gets here and as I'm eating my mom says I could've got her some fries. And that was the icing on the cake for my bad day.

I love my mom and I'm not trying to be insensitive or anything. It's just I've been at work all day how am I supposed to know rather or not you have ate. My mom hardly ever sits around and waits for me to get home to see if I'm have or I'm getting food from somewhere. Not to mention if she wants something from my workplace. She always tells me before I leave for work and gives me the money. Plus my mom has been going out a lot lately with her friend. So it's not too hard to believe she had already eaten for the day. Which I feel like she has another reason I stopped doordashing is because whenever I did. My mom would want something and would complain about how much it costed. Like my own food today cost me $32 and I only spent it. Because I was hungry and my grandma's car was messing up so she couldn't take me anywhere else.

Sorry about the long rant I just needed to get it all off my chest.

[justmeandmyships]

Loving your posts about Control Z! I've just finished s3 and I'm a little disappointed. I felt they rushed everything. I get that Sofia and Javi needed to get each other off their system, but they took so much screentime. And acted even more bland. Like they both know they just don't work together but gonna insist anyway. I felt like the writers wanted to please everybody but really didn't satisfy anyone lol And don't even a kiss for Sofia and Raul? They teased them kissing and they got nothing at the end. Felt very obvious to me that the writers didn't want to give really romantic/sexy scenes between them. They want to let open to interpretation. I don't know, Sofia and Raul are much more popular than Javi and Sofi, so why waste the last season with her and Javi? Maybe the writers had more things planned but Netflix axed the show? Or they didn't want people reacting badly that Sofia choose Raul? Anyway, I've seen few people talking about this season and not having much Raul and Sofia didn't help. And the fact that Netflix forgot to promote the show...ugh.

Sorry for the long message. I got carried away 😁

Don't worry. I love to talk about my shows too!!! ...I mean my whole blog is about me ranting alone about them lol.

First of all, THANK YOU for complimenting my post. I love that you loved them.

I definitely agree with you on Sofia and Javi. Their scenes were very annoying and boring. Many people didn't like this finale season and I think their relationship had a lot to do with it. Literally, it felt like it came out of nowhere and was there in our throats since ep 1. I definitely wasn't expecting it but I guess they did it because since season 1 they were hinting at it but they thought they would have time to go for it but then Netflix was like "Ey this would be your finale season" and they tried to capsule everything they have planned for their ending in 1 season when it could have taken them two.

However, I did enjoy this season because for me was really nice to see how they took all the characters and the storyline to season 1 because season 4 was just season 1 but bigger; with characters more mature and with a different mindset.

For me, it was beautiful to see, especially Gerry's. I hated him in season 1, and for them to be able to show us how he went from a lost guy with repressed homophobia to a guy who doesn't care if they killed him but he would remain true to himself. Not gonna lie, the scene where they beat him up while he screamed at them "I´m gay" made me cry. It was beyond amazing.

Another moment that touched me was when Nata was trying to feel what Maria felt when she drown. It was painful. If you have lost someone, it would hurt even more.

I don't think people realize how hard it is to write all those things. I love to write, so I know that what they did wasn't an easy challenge. To tell the SAME story twice without making it feel like a repetition AND respect the characters and their arcs... not all writers can do it, not even trying it. So I respect them for it. I really enjoy the effort they did.

Of course, it wasn't perfect but like I said I think they were planning to have at least four seasons and everything we saw was for the last season, with the 3 being a preparation for it but Netflix didn't give them a chance.

But in general terms I'm satisfied. What played against them were the relationships that they presented this season. because I've seen people complaining not only about Sofi and Javi but also about Gerry and the new guy (I don't remember his name, sorry), but as well as I understand why the writers did Sofi and Javi, I understand their relationship. In both cases, they were never meant to last.

In Sofia and Javi's case they show us how, even though, they were kind of happy, they were more using each other as comfort and security after the accident they witnessed. Like in season 2, both of them learned that loving Raúl and Nata was dangerous and a bad idea. Raúl lied to Sofi and Nata "cheated" on Javi. And all that mess ended up with Nata almost dying and an innocent person dying. Both Sofi and Javi experimented and did things that were so out of character for them and the consequences were fatal. THEIR LOVE FOR NATA AND RAÚL WAS FATAL. so, why not to try act "normal" and be back to who they were before. Javi never disappointed Sofia before and vice versa. After a trauma like that, ofc you will want to feel safe. However, even when they wanted to play safe, we have little moments where Sofia was smelling Raúl's shirt when she was about to have sex with Javi, or her being concerned about everything he did. We also have Javi immediately saying "You shouldn't have to go for all that alone" (I don't know if he said that in English because I saw it in Spanish and it was so sweet because he said it like she was a baby who left alone )...so all those little details showed that Sofia and Javi were thinking all the time on Raúl and Nata but they were scared of let themselves to be carried away. They were never meant to last

A similar thing happened to Gerry and the new guy. They were cute, yes but the writers showed us many times that Gerry saw Luis in this new guy and if we go back to season 1, what the writers wanted was to explore and recreated Gerry and Luis's relationship. That's why the new guy betrayed Gerry at the end because Gerry too betrayed Luis. Gerry failed Luis and that's why he forgave the new guy because Gerry understands how it feels to not want it to do something but feel forced to do it anyway because all you want is to survive. It was a sad thing but so was Luis's destiny in season 1.

but the difference lies in the fact that Luis and Gerry's situation led to confusion, pain, anger, and death. This new situation between Gerry and the new guy led to forgiveness, acceptance, and the ability to move on. not only for Gerry but for Luis's mom too. That's top-tier writing right there.

I'm sorry for the long post haha. But I'm just like you. When I got carried away, I got carried away. I guess we also did a full circle too lol. Please come to talk to me whenever you want. kisses.

[sageinacage]

Hellooo I saw you were taking requests again!! :D Would you be alright doing a bit of a hurt/comfort ish playful fic like Tommy asking techno to help train him. Techno notices that tommy starts to completely overwork himself and comforts him about like not feeling good enough to be techno's brother and techno playfully tickling him to force him to take a break? I'm sorry if this was a long prompt, it's 4am lol... Thank you so much!! :D

summary: tommy wants to be as strong as his brother techno, but doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to a/n: sorry i haven’t been active this weekend :[ im on the last 3 weeks of school and they’re piling so much stuff WAAAH warnings: swearing, self consciousness, self doubt (this is a hurt/comfort fic!) w/c: 1.6k

DSMP

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“Techno, how did you get to be so… strong?”

“Hard work, Tommy. A lotta’ hard work.”

Tommy huffed, crossing his arms. That was definitely not the answer he wanted, because the boy wanted to be a force to be reckoned with now. “Well… what kind of hard work?” He egged on, raising an eyebrow in curiosity.

“Well, experience is a big one- I’ve done a lot of fighting and gained a lot of perspective from that… uhhhh… I study books with ancient techniques? I uhhh, let me put some thought into this, kid,”

Techno continued to think, putting a hand to his chin in thought. None of these Tommy liked, as they both took much time, perseverance, and he was just too young to have had as much experience as his brother. “Oh, I’ve trained a lot-”

“Aha! Training! How do I train?” Tommy cheered, almost leaping with how excited he got. The boy assumed he would be able to be unstoppable after one training session, but his older brother didn’t know how to convey that it wasn’t possible- but also didn’t want to crush his spirits at the same time.

“Tommy,” Techno started, then let out a long sigh, “..it’s not that easy. I’d be willing to help but-”

“Let’s go now then, big man!” The blonde exclaimed triumphantly, marching towards the entrance to their house’s backyard. Techno watched him stomp out the room towards the back exit, shaking his head and following the boy.

When he arrived outside, Tommy was already in a set of armor with his sword out, grinning madly at Techno. With an amused huff, the piglin picked up his sword and stood a good distance from in front of him.

“Alright, the first thing is stance. Make sure you’re standing so you’ll be able to block on any side of you.” Techno placed his sword down, heading to Tommy. He gently moved his arms and shoulders to be in a preferred position. The boy stood there, completely stiff like a statue.

“Y’know you gotta loosen up, you need to be able to block and dodge attacks and can’t do that when you’re stone.”

“I gotta be like stone, so I can’t be knocked down!”

Techno shook his head, pushing his hand into Tommy’s side, making him fall on the grass. “That wasn’t fair!” Tommy whined, getting up and brushing the dirt off of his light armor. “All is fair in fights, kid. You never know what your opponent will do.” The piglin explained, pushing up his glasses.

Tommy muttered something under his breath, getting into the fighting stance his brother showed him. “I’m ready!” He announced, Tech sighing. “Tommy, you need to know the basics before going into battle.” He frowned, crossing his arms. “There are no basics in war!” Tommy rebuttals, using the phrase Techno used earlier against him.

“Actually there is-”

“I didn’t ask!” Tommy ran at Techno, falling onto the dirt as the man stepped to the side. “You don’t just run at someone and expect to get a hit on them, smartass.” He playfully flicked his brother’s head, who grumbled and got up, trying to get more hits on Techno.

The piglin continued to step out of the way, eventually sighing and easily disarming him from his blunt training sword.

“Tommy-”

“I can’t do it! How can I even be your brother?! I can barely even hold the sword, it's so heavy! I’m done with this, I’ll never be as strong as you!” Tommy fumed, throwing his armor off and stomping inside the house to go up to his room. Techno put his training sword away, sighing softly. ‘The kid has potential, he just gets ahead of himself.’ Techno thought, then heading inside to go upstairs to check up on his little brother.

“Can I come in?” He knocked on the door, hearing a small ‘no’ from inside. Techno huffed. “Please? I want to talk to you, Toms.” He asked again, then hearing nothing. “Fine.” Tommy gave him permission to come in, which Techno gladly took.

“Hey,” His brother sat at the foot of his bed, looking at him. “You’re just so cool. You’re Technoblade, everyone knows you as strong and scary. And… and I’m just Tommy. The little brother, the obnoxious one.” He ranted, sniffling softly as he curled his knees in and hiding his face.

“I wouldn’t say that, Tommy. I’ve heard people talk about how brave you are, which I’m gonna have to agree with. Also, you’re not obnoxious, I wouldn’t want to hang out with you if you were.” Techno showed him a small smile, opening his arms. Tommy leaped into them, wrapping his arms around his brother and holding his cape with an iron grip.

“Really? People think that?”

“I wouldn’t lie to you about that, kid.”

“I am pretty brave and cool, I gotta say,” Tommy chuckled softly at himself, his giggles slowly growing as Techno sighed at him. “Oh, I’ll give you something to laugh about!” He exclaimed playfully, his dull claws shifting around his waist.

“TEHehehechno!” Tommy made the poor mistake of shifting onto his back, so now he was just sprawled across his brother’s lap, stuck in his tickly grasp. “Tommy!” Techno playfully mocked, snickering at Tommy’s small growl in defiance.

“You’re really brave to try to rebuttal my attack, ain'tcha?” He spoke lowly, slipping one of his hands under Tommy’s loose shirt to lightly scratch at the sensitive skin around his belly. “Yohou suhUHUCK!” He complained, kicking his legs out in front of him. “What did you just say to me? You really are fearless.”

The boy was about to smile triumphantly until a blunt claw gently scritched over the bundle of nerves over his hip bone. “SHIHIHIT- Nohot thahahat!” Tommy complained. “Sohomewhehere else!”

“Y’know Tommy, when I tickle Ranboo right here he’d dip out right away. You must be tough if you can withstand this!” Techno praised, a fond smile washing over his face. Tommy continued to shake his head, the ticklish sensations making him tingle all over.

“Hmmm, let’s see if I could make you break. Highly doubt it for how well you’re taking it though, kid.” He chortled before laying Tommy down and skittering both his fingers up his sides. “IT’S SOHO BAHAHAD!” He arched his back, a wheeze escaping him. The claws continued to explore up his sides, dragging back down before stopping at his upper ribs to scribble over the ticklish skin there.

“WHIHIHIYYY?!” Tommy whined, slamming his arms down. “Because!” Techno smirked, drilling his fingers as they were trapped and he couldn’t wiggle them anymore. “THAHAHAT’S WOHOHORSE!” He screeched, the piglin just laughing. “Then free me, smarty!” His fingers continued to drill and prod as much as they could, shifting up to reach his underarms.

“NOHOHO! IT’LL BEHE EVEN WOHOHORSE!” Tommy grumbled, kicking his legs. “Good observation, Tommy! Never let your enemy get an advantage!” His brother praised again, smiling down at him. The grumpiness in the boy’s tone turned more gleeful, the pinkette grunting in success.

“But what if the enemy planned a surprise attack?!” Techno exclaimed, leaning his head down to blow a raspberry over the upper part of his tummy, repeating the action but on his navel next time. “I WIHILL SUHUHURVIVE!” Tommy retorted, trying to push at his head. “I’d like to see you try.” He challenged, lifting his shirt a small bit before leaning down to place nibbles along his lower belly and around his hips.

“FUHUHUCK! TEHEHECHNOHO!” He threw his head back, still holding onto Techno’s hair but not really pushing him away. Techno was genuinely surprised- usually, his nibbles can kill anyone and make them plead for mercy. “Wow Tommy, you can withstand my nibbles? You must really be a champ, huh kid?” He complimented, smiling at Tommy’s giddy squeal.

Techno knew how much Tommy needed this, he needed to hear how actually brave and tough he was, because the truth was the kid was strong, just needed to hear it to believe it. “You were able to survive that, but can you survive this?” He devilishly smiled, moving his claws over to scritch at his lower tummy as he nibbled up his sides.

“YOHOHOU’RE HOHORRIBLE!” Tommy shrieked, kicking his legs and arching his back, but still wasn’t begging for mercy like Techno thought he would. “Able to survive again? This is like the hardest time I’ve had tiring someone out, Toms.” Techno admitted, Tommy giggling and happily chortling in response. He was genuinely proud of himself, feeling stronger than ever.

“Alright. I give up.” Techno chuckled, pulling his brother in for a hug while he calmed down. “I wohohon!” Tommy announced excitedly, hugging him back. “Yeah yeah, whatever.” The piglin sighed contently, pulling away.

“You know Tommy, being strong is more than just physical strength. You gotta have the right mindset, and you’ve definitely got it. I’ve never met someone as strong-willed, enthusiastic, and brave as you.” Techno explained, rubbing his stomach and side area, trying to help with the after-tickles.

“Reheally?”

“Yeah, really.” Techno chuckled, getting up. “How about I teach you a lesson in some historic techniques in fighting, I think you’ll find it interesting.”

“Books are so boring- ugh, fine.” Tommy crossed his arms, standing up and stretching, before following his brother out of the room. “What were you boys doing?! I thought Tommy was being attacked for a hot minute.” Phil laughed from the kitchen, seeing them walk by. “I beat Techno in a tickle fight, that’s what happened!” Tommy laughed, nudging his brother.

“Yep. He beat me. Strong kid, I tell ‘ya.”

[bookofmirth]

How exactly did SJM derive the name Morrigan right from the Irish goddess Morrigu with the hints of "speaker of truth" and "queen" with her, put her in the Night Court, and still manage not to make Mor's powers clear? She has an entire mythology to derive the character, the backstory, the theology from... how do you manage to make her the most divisive character identity wise still? Don't mind me, I just keep getting pissed at this habit of SJM's that seems to show only with the ACOTAR series where she dangles something in front of the readers like she's testing waters with both herself and her readers (the way serial fiction usually works), and then not deliver after building up all the expectation. I know, it's been so long since WAR came out that it's ridiculous to broach this topic again now, but I was rereading my notes on Morrígu and I just went back to those early days. I mean, she had "Dagdan" in WAR, right? Another Irish connection, the god Dagda, who...literally owned a cauldron, coire ansic! And he was an intriguing character, far, far more than King Hybern who's just...a gimmick, really. Dagdan was playing mind games with Feyre, there was a spark in the plot--so much potential...Feyre-Lucien could have teamed up more (ugh, I've so many complaints about the "Lucien kneeling to Feyre the Cursebreaker" scene - it could have been so much more, Lucien knowingly undermining Ianthe...so delicious), they could have circled around Dagdan and Brannagh playing politics (Lucien) and mind-games (Feyre) - it could have led up to Dagdan, the daemati, manipulating the drab-villain Hybern, aiming for The Morrigan from the start like it was implied at the end of MAF. Not to be a Theorist but Morrigu could even have had a decent (maybe flimsy, because the witchcraft and magic thing isn't exactly Morrigu's sphere) connection to the Three-Faced Goddess of TOG too...

Just...ugh, crying over spilt milk, yes, but I'm just sad at the lost opportunities. Sorry for this rant in your poor inbox.

acotar is thousands of pages of "what if I did this cool thing and then never think about it again".

The potential is *chef's kiss* and a lot of it is squandered. So we fill in all the blanks that could have been. She writes 800 pages and still manages to have a mangled mess of a plot in acosf and just forget about a ton of potential that she dangled in front of the reader, all those things that you noticed, for what!!! For the ~aesthetic~ I guess???

It's... kind-of a good example of how people can write a lot without saying much. I am still convinced that that's why I am stuck in this cursed website. She set up something really great and we're all left wondering where the fuck the rest of it was. Sorry I'm thinking about this today but I literally just taught a lesson on concise writing and precise language and asdlkjaldsjad

I know, it's been so long since WAR came out that it's ridiculous to broach this topic again now,

No it's NOT ridiculous because everything from the series is still relevant, right? Even if it had come out 20 years ago, the mess that was acowar is still glaringly apparent. If anything, I'm thinking more and more about how much of a clusterfuck acowar was, even though I tried really hard to like it when it came out.

You sound like @rayonfrozenwings with your theories and notes though, the two of you would get along great. 😂

I'm curious how much of Morrigan's story is like the character from The Wicked and the Divine? Because she was one of my favorite characters in that graphic novel and she did have three forms and was just great. Unlikeable but I still would let her step on me. I haven't looked into the source for her name, partly because I don't want to accidentally stumble on something that will spoil me for a future book, and partly because I now realize that sjm never uses those references with any deeper meaning other than "heh, pin from my board on Pinterest was cool looking".

It does feel like she's testing the waters, but that's... not something to do in a revised, edited, and published work, call me crazy! I guess she really can do whatever the hell she wants because ToG was not like this.

It borders on slightly offensive, given how many cultures she casually takes from without thought about the significance of those references to the culture or religion or clothing or beliefs etc. It really became apparent in acowar (I probably have posts from 2017 complaining about it lol). I wish she would just stop and deal with what she has in the here and now.

[honeyymistt]

hey honeyy! i just wanted to rant for a hot minute simply bc idk how to handle this situation; i'm 20, and will move out soon to go to uni (in october, presumably) and my parents will pay for rent and food, which is v nice of them. but despite their reassurances that they'll pay for it, they are so passive aggressive, especially my mom. she just straight up told me today that "enough is enough" and basically said i need to move out asap bc i'm such a burden on them financially + i'm so spoiled and dumb and don't know how to real world works and she does (which ugh,, not to brag but they're loaded and i feel so heartbroken bc as a child they would spoil us rotten), but now she just wants to kick me out. i know at 20, i'm long overdue for moving out — and i will, soon, in like 2 months — yet my mom acts as if she couldn't wait for me to leave (which, okay, fair. same tbh) but idk what she wants me to do about it rn?? like i'm looking for jobs & am in the process of applying to different jobs, but that's somehow a time consuming process. it's just v stressful bc i feel betrayed, bc they always told me i should focus on school instead of getting a job, and it's my fault for not thinking for myself, but now i have no money saved up and i'll probably work a minimum wage job for the rest of the year every month (and the next years, like my whole uni time which is a-okay, it just stresses me out a bit). i think you're younger than me, so maybe this is very out of line for me to complain to you about?? feel free to just delete this ask, but i wanted to ask if you have any advice on how to deal with "loveless" parents and a dysfunctional family, where respect is requested but you as 'their child' are not brought the same respect bc you're 20 and still living at home. it's sooo funny bc i'm so gullible; my mom used to tell me the exact opposite for years — ‘no, it's fine that you're still living at home with 19’ and now she holds it against me bc she moved out at 17. my dad is also v mentally unstable, he has anger issues and never sees that he behaved wrongly, basically gaslighting me into believing it's all my fault for everything's that happening to me when something goes wrong. idk how to deal w/ this, everyone in this household is toxic and i feel trapped, despite my plans to hustle on the side and earn my own money. i'm stupid for feeling betrayed, but that's how it feels like. i think my mom stopped loving me a long time ago, like until i was 11 she loved me, but then i grew up and developed my own opinions, character etc. i just hate her so much. same with my dad. i hate relying on them for rent though and idk what to do (😭ik, this is a very, very privileged standpoint but idk how to handle all this hate; it's been getting worse these past weeks) — sorry for the lang rant!! 😭✋ hope your life is going great, though <3 -💌

hiii 💌-anon!!! im happy to hear from you :) i’m sorry to hear you are having a hard time 🥺 i'm sending you a virtual hug. i hope it cheers you up! <3

it makes me sad to read that you think that you're long overdue for moving out because you really aren't!! where i live, a lot of people are living at home until they graduate from university (possibly because it is very expensive to live where i live and no 20 year old is able to afford it🥴) but anyways, i actually don't think you're long overdue for moving out. i know that there a bunch of YouTube videos titled "MOVING INTO MY DREAM APARTMENT AT 19!" and yes, it's such a milestone but it's also so unrealistic. YouTube and being an "influencer" in general, pays really really well. not a lot of people are able to do what is "normal" to them. you are right on track! don't worry :)

reading about your parents really made me upset because you don't deserve to be talked to like that at all. a good parent takes care of their kid because they love them. they don't guilt trip them and tell them that they are a financial burden or that they're excited for them to move out. like your mom offers to pay for your rent and food but then tells you that you're a financial burden ?? like ma'am, where is the logic in that 😐 i'm sorry that she makes you feel unloved,, you don't deserve that at all :( i hate that you feel like once you developed your own opinions and character, she started to dislike you. that's what makes you wonderful!! you're a beautiful person, inside and out. don't let her opinions and actions tell you otherwise.

as for not knowing how the real world works, literally same. to be completely honest, i'm probably worse than you 😭 . i think i wrote this in one of my posts about my insecurities but basically i wrote that i don't know anything beyond school. i feel like i've been working so hard on being the "perfect student" that i'm so book smart but when it comes to very basic life skills, i feel like i'm lacking. i feel like i'm unprepared. whenever i tell this to my mom, she tells me that it's okay and that it's her job to take care of me and provide for me. one time she said "you have a whole life ahead of you to learn about taxes and cleaning and bills and finances and cooking. just enjoy the time right now. enjoy your life where it is. you're going to learn all of these skills eventually. the best way to learn them is just to experience life and make mistakes." so listen to my mom and try not to worry!! no one is born knowing how the real world works. you're going to be okay!

i think when it comes to dealing with loveless parents, you make up for it through your other relationships. one of my friends doesn't have the best relationship with her parents and whenever i ask her about it she says, "it's sad that i don't have the love that most people get from their parents but i get so much love from you, my other friends, my boyfriend, my cousins, etc. i know that there are people who care for me. these people are my family." maybe you and your family just need time apart. maybe your absence will make them realize that they didn't really treat you all that well. or maybe you'll realize that you deserve a lot better and that you don't want to be in contact with people who make you feel badly about yourself. time apart will give you time to come to terms with what you need! 🤍 if i were you, i'd get really excited for moving out in october because you're going to be removing yourself from this environment. you won't have to deal with feeling like a burden or dealing with your parents being cold towards you. you're moving out!! this is exciting!!! i'm excited for you!! everything will align and fall perfectly into place, i just know it.

i'll be by your side every step of the way - packing, moving out, moving in, unpacking, and we'll experience the harsh reality of the real world together :) i'm right by your side 🥺🌟🍯🤍

[god-save-the-keen]

Rory Gilmore time!

1. "Nothing excites me before 11:00."

2. "I really do hate everyone today,  including myself."

3. "I  just got hit by a deer!"

4. "I  think I may have loved you, but I need to just let it go."

8. "Like, ‘Stop eating the paste’ special?"

5. "I love you, you idiot."

6. "The dress is fine. The person in it, however…"

7. "One of those moments when everything is so perfect and so wonderful that… you almost feel sad because nothing could ever be this good again."

8. "I should hate you, not miss you. Make me hate you."

9. "Says the woman/man with a Hello Kitty waffle iron."

10. "Name, I promise, the only way you could be more important to me is if you had a Kit-Kat  bar growing out of your head."

11. "No, he/she’s not, we broke up. No, oh no, I’m sorry, he/she broke up, I thought we were  just taking some time, but apparently, I’m a moron!" 

12. "I can take running  into him every day in the halls, and in the paper and the coffee cart… Oh my  god! I'm gonna have to quit drinking coffee! And I love coffee!"

13. "I think I may have loved you, but I just  need to let it go. So, that's it, I guess. Um, I hope you're good. I want you  to be good, and, um, okay, so, goodbye."

14. "Did you do something slutty?"

15. "I'll eat to that."

16. "Oh my god, he kissed me." 

17. "Are you ever gonna ask me out? You flirt with me. You act like you like me."

18. "That okay, there's nothing to see. Name1's in a Speedo, Name2's in a skirt, Name3's in assless chaps." "Oh my God, stop! I'm never gonna be able to close my eyes again."

19. "Hey, I have an idea! Why don't you just pretend we did and go around acting really immature. Oh wait..."

20. "We need perspective." "We need therapy."

21. "What do you mean what am I doing? I'm ranting! You should recognize it, I learned it from you."

22. "You'll find someone else." "What if there is no one else?" "Then you'll get some cats."

23. "So you mean someone broke into our house, went past our TV, our stereo and our jewelry, then headed straight for the booster club cashbox, took $18 and left the rest?"

24. "They haven't had any cocktails yet." "Really?" "Oh yeah, when they start having cocktails we're gonna have to hide you."

25. "Hey, I haven't been dressed by a bird since I was two."

26. "Oh my God, just eat the burger already!"

27. "You need to start napping in the afternoons."

28. "Would you really feel guilty?"

29. "Which means you lied about why you came over."

30. "You're squirming. I've never seen you squirm. It's entertaining."

31. "But then you guys talked and eventually, time went by, and now you love him."

32. "Please, don't walk away like that!"

33. "Name, how much do you like this girl/boy?" "Do what you gotta do, Name."

34. "Hey, I got your note." "Yeah, well, putting it in the mallomars was a pretty safe bet."

35.*Rory, holding burger with two hands, puts her pinky up.* "Being a lady is hard."

36. "There's more of them!" "Name, the flowers on the wallpaper are not growing or reproducing."

37. "Okay, our house is burning down, and you can save the cake or me. What do you choose?"

38. "I need you to be serious here." "You're wearing a newspaper on your head and you want me to be serious?"

39. "I have multiple personalities, it might be one of me."

40. "My sister recognized you from the pictures in my box." "In what box?" "The box of stuff I have of us. Pictures and letters and everything I got from you." "You have a Name box?"

41. "Don't take this the wrong way, but get out."

42. "Just making an observation." "Great. We'll build a dome over you and jam a telescope in your head."

43. "You can't just say a normal sentence right? Just 'Hey, lets talk' is too dull for you?"

44. "So, what time does the judgmental express arrive?" "Grandma gets here at noon."

45. "You whine, you complain, you act like a child." "I do not." "I had to pay you five bucks once so you wouldn't go in sweats."

46. "Ladies and gentlemen, the drama king and queen of *Place*."

47. "What, are you afraid?" "Of going into a strange city with two guys I don't know? Yeah!"

48. "I want a pet." "You have me!"

49. "What the hell is wrong with you?"

50. "Do you have any idea how many people you've hurt? What is wrong with you? Forget it, I wouldn't expect you to understand."

51. "How many languages can you say "none of your business" in?"

52. "You did not." "I did too!" "You did not, because you are not stupid! Slimey and weasily yes, but stupid no."

53. "Nothing happened! We fell asleep!"

54. "I got kissed! And I shoplifted!"

55. "The cops shut down an eight year old's birthday party?" "And arrested the clown."

56. "Name! Who's your friend?" "I don't know, but this is Name."

57. "And just what is wrong with you? You already have everything! What the hell is wrong with you that you have this constant need to be the biggest jerk in the entire world?"

58. "Would you like me to drive so you can continue your diatribe?"

59. "It's not that bad." "Do you want a mirror?" "I'm taking it off."

60. "You're feeling pretty good about yourself right now, aren't you?"

61. "You're happy." "Yeah." "Did you do something slutty?"

62. "A little nervous breakdown can really work wonders for a girl/boy."

63. "Did you hear what she called us? 'Adorable.' She called us an adorable couple."

64. "God! You are like a pop-up book from hell!"

65. "Why doesn't he like me?" *Crying on the floor.*

66. "Can't you shut up for five seconds? Thank you."

67. "I cannot do this alone."

68. "I'm madly in love with you." "Well, good luck with that."

69. "Why did you come here?" "Because you didn't say goodbye."

70. *Hangover.* "Ugh, I need a taco."

Use them, reblog them, quote them, make request, whatever you like!❤️

[jjungkooksthighs]

finally got enough time to read yearn for you and girl!!!!! where do I start from? first of all, I'm sorry you did not receive enough love for this fic but I'll try my best to try and express all the gratitude for you. ok so, this is gonna be messy because english is not my first language and I'm a bit dyslexic so forgive me😔... I remember reading edacity and thinking damn! she can write! and got soooo hooked on the way you write. then I stumbled on claws of carnality and I already told you anything I had to say about this fic: a masterpiece. then I decided to read undercurrent (I couldn't read it straight away because of how long it is and how hectic life could be) but then again, what else could I have expected from you? the way you described the scenes (don't wanna spoil anything if people didn't read it yet).. it was like I was there (this applies for all of your fic but this one has something different to it? can't really describe it, I'm sorry). you are such a talented writer, so elegant, so eloquent, so detailed, so entrancing, so attractive in a way? so when you announced you were going to post another story I was thrilled! and you delivered, god, did you deliver. I was so frustrated with jk at the beginning of the story, you pulled me in your story with just a few sentences.. but at the story went, I felt so content because of how you described their relationship, the trust they have in each other, the desire to please the other, the love you can basically feel through the words and when I was reading about the flashback, I could feel the love. I also loved how even if he is a hard dom, he is so whipped for her... when she stands after he strips her and he sees her kick her heels off and he grins? my heart beat a little faster, don't ask me why. I loved how even if jimin was there, he could also have not been there at all and the after care? the way he is basically going around, calling her his fiancee, love them. at the end, my greedy, curios brain (and heart, who am I kidding) wanted more lmao. I have a few questions if you don't mind.. what happens with taehyung? because he was a bit of a brat, trying to get in her pants and then complaining when he got a bit left out? honey, you got a big storm coming. will you ever write little drabble for this couple? like, how did he propose? not gonna lie, kinda curious about the dress he picked out for her for the gala.. no pressure tho baby, feel free to ignore this part. I also loved how he called her petal and flowers and how he didn't even think twice about buying the necklace. want something like this for me, it would be the life, having someone you love who loves you back and is always ready to remind you... anyway, this is all for today, gonna go read yean for you a few more times now☺️🥴. hope you are having a good day, we love you💙

Your english is very impressive for someone that doesn’t speak it primarily, darling. You don’t need to apologize for being dyslexic, either. You can’t help that and should not apologize for something beyond your control. Anyway, you found me through Edacity, huh? It’s always interesting hearing about how you guys find me, I have to say. That one was written in a lust filled craze following the video that the gif used for that fic was recorded from. Manbun Jungkook really took my pussy (and fingers) and said WORK FOR IT. Ugh, he’s just so hot istg I really couldn’t help myself when I wrote that fic, lol. Anyway, it’s cute that you cycled through like all of my fics and I’m glad that you liked my work enough to keep reading through everything that I had posted on here! I will say that Undercurrent is very precious to me because it’s the very first reader x member fic that I wrote and posted to Tumblr. I love that story so much and I’m so elated to know that you appreciated it as much as you did! It took about two weeks for that like YFY, but every time that I sat down to write it, I just would smile like an idiot whenever I’d read through it at how cutely I encapsulated the lovers to be in their feelings for each other. 

Truly, who else writes a damn novel for their first ever fic? Gah, I am still so soft over Undercurrent. That fic is like my first child, lol. It is very special to me. So is COC, but we all know my sentiments about that fic at this point. I feel like I’m being annoying with it, but the self-consciousness and insecurity about that one still persists and whenever I hear about it from my readers, I get nervous because I have this lingering anxiety that more negative comments will be given on it. Well, this ask isn’t about COC, so I should move on, I think. Sorry about that mini-rant, anon!

Switching back to YFY, Jungkook’s personality in this one is a little different than what I have done before and I am glad that you liked the way he’s built in terms of his characterization. I wanted to show a Jungkook that was so in love with you that he is willing to give you anything you want (even if that means fucking another man) while also staying true to the possessive creature that we all know he is in real life. He adores reader very much and because of that, he just wants to see her happy at the end of the day. She is a constant in his life and gives him stability where the world would fall apart under his feet and he cherishes her for that for sure. I adored their relationship just as you did because they care about each other so much and each one of them just wants to please the other always. It’s funny that you say that Jimin could have not been there because the person that commissioned this fic from me actually wanted just a CEO!Jimin fic in the beginning, lol. Kook wasn’t even factored into the story in the initial stages and it actually was going to be a hybrid CEO!Jimin fic where he goes into heat while at work, but that idea was never fully fleshed out because Jungkook had to come out with his D’ICON stuff and really, it was over for me when I saw that video of him in the leather fit. 

I talked to my commissioner about it and she was more than eager to have Kook involved in the fic (even though she originally thought that I would not go so far as to write 31.5k words worth of shit that Kook was responsible for over 22.3k for before Jimin even makes an appearance, lol. I couldn’t really help it being the Jungkook slut that I am, but hey, it brought such sin out of it and I can’t apologize for THAT because it was too much fun to keep writing the lewd escapades of reader and her fiance that loved his future wife too much to deny her of anything so as long as he is part of it. 

As for Taehyung, well...let’s just say that Jungkook had a nice “chat” with Taehyung and the two ended the discussion with Jungkook sat in his office while Taehyung got to listen to a recording of reader fucking herself with Jungkook’s name falling repeatedly from her lips. Taehyung may or may not have had a tent in his pants while Jungkook gave a cruel smirk and when you’re summoned to his office, let’s just say that Taehyung gets a nice show while Jungkook fucks you over his desk. Now, this is done AFTER Jungkook orders you to bind Taehyung’s wrists with his tie so that he can’t do anything while he watches, his lips drawn between his teeth the entire time that Jungkook fucks into you like a crazed man. When it’s all over and you lie boneless on the desk, Jungkook eats the sandwich you brought him off your stomach before eating you out and let’s just say that when Taehyung leaves the office, his cheeks have never been more red both with embarrassment and rage. 

Wow, I really let myself keep going with that, huh? I guess that shows just how much I’m fond of YFY, lol. 

I would consider writing a drabble for YFY, but that would have to be commissioned as I am facing a financial crisis right now and can’t really afford to spend time writing anymore unless I will be compensated for it! It’s very sweet to ask that because it shows me you want more of this story and that’s very heartening to know!

As for the dress, I would be more than happy to show it to you if you message me (you can go through anon again if you prefer) once more with that question because this ask is already really long! 

Also, I’m pleased to know that you liked the pet names! I have a weakness for them, you see, so you’ll find an abundance of that in just about everything you read from me. 

It would be quite a life to have a man like YFY Jungkook in it, wouldn’t it? You would never want for a thing with him, that’s for sure. You also would never feel deprived of attention or love because he’d readily relinquish both to you 24/7. I wanna swoon over YFY Jungkook because he’s just so dreamy, isn’t he? 

Anyway, I am so happy to hear you liked the story. Thank you for reading my work and taking the time to say all of that, lovely. It really makes my day so much better when you guys tell me things like this and I can’t thank you enough for being nice enough to let me know all of this!

[defeatedbyamerechild]

Look, hmm yeah, I know this has nothing to do with my blog, but... UGH. Sorry I just GOTTA.

I’m fat. I am fat! My mother is fat too and my whole family is chubby to say the least so this is very important to me and this is so REAL.

Also HUGE rant warning, skip it if you want.

Literally that’s just how it is! We can’t   D R A W   FICTIONAL fat people, because we get called out for “ProMOtIng ObESitY”, even if the character is NOT obese, only FAT - WHICH IS DIFFERENT. We can’t EXPRESS HAPPINESS for seeing a fat woman on TV because “IT’s UnhEAltHy”, even when said woman is not unhealthy, and when there’s tons of unhealthy things being shown on TV every day! (And emphasis on “woman”, because I almost never see this kind of logic applied to men tbh). We can’t fight for the right of being SEEN AS HUMAN because people will say that our fight is “harmful” to others somehow.

Like, wow! Apparently, I'm not allowed to complain that people act as if being fat made me less of a human being than others! Like the fact that me being fat is seen as reason enough for me to suffer bullying and not be pitied for it, because I’m the one who should “do something about it” right? Or that it is seen as dehumanizing to the point that a fat woman “should be thankful” to be raped (!!!) because “naturally” no one would ever want to be near her in any other context, right??? Or that I’ve seen people not being hired or being fired from jobs for being fat because that “means they are lazy/have let themselves go”... I cannot complain that I’ve had trouble feeling beautiful my whole life because I was heavier than “I should be” (and no, I wasn’t obese). I cannot complain I’ve been told before that I’m beautiful EVEN THOUGH I’m fat and then FELT BAD for not being flattered by that. I cannot complain about how, while we were watching a documentary about actually obese people and their day-by-day struggles IN SCHOOL to, supposedly, promote empathy towards people facing actual health issues due to extreme overweight, I had to hear a stupid skinny girl in my class yell “wow, it’s not that hard! you just have to stop eating!”, making the whole class laugh, and the TEACHER SAID NOTHING. That’s what obese and fat people get when they ask for empathy: Laughters.

But if I complain about these things, I’M the one being harmful? So if we stopped putting literally every woman as well as many men under the pressure of constantly trying to be thinner (because that’s LITERALLY what society does, don’t come talk to me about how “it doesn’t pressure fit people into being thinner” - I grew up my whole life near fit and skinny girls who ALWAYS thought they were too fat - ALWAYS.) - If we stopped putting that pressure on people and just told them that, as long as they don’t have health problems, it’s OK to have a larger body, that would SOMEHOW be worse than destroying the mental health, self esteem, work opportunities, social life and etc of thousands of people becaseu *gasp* we’d have more fat people then! How horrible!

I mean, we can’t give fat people the benefit of VISIBLY EXISTING because that will make children think that *gulp - sweating cold* IT’S OK TO BE FAT???? Or maybe that, I don’t know... FAT PEOPLE ARE NOT LAZY UNHEALTHY HIDEOUS FREAKS OR SOMETHING??? OMG right? How horrible, we can’t let people get exposed to this kind of world view, it’s way too dangerous... -.-

Because literally EVERY fat person is seen as unhealthy. Every fat person is seen as someone who doesn’t take care of themselves and doesn’t care for their health... to the point that society started seeing “fat x fit” as a quasi-synonym for “healthy x unhealthy” when that is actually a horrible lie! There are several fat people who are not unhealthy! Fat people who live long healthy lives! Fat people who have a better diet than many others! Also how many times have I seen people close to me who START TO SMOKE to get thin??? Or that completely destroy their diets and get malnourished to get thin? Or take unnecessary meds to get thin? Or take high-risk surgeries that should only be used in emergencies when they don’t really need them just to get thin? People will sacrifice their actual health for this fake aesthethic one that has been made up and buried into our brains...

I know I’m writing like, a huge rant and whatever, but like... What they said above is true. All this “health” discourse that is (only) brought up when talking about representation of fat people is completely biased and makes no sense... As was said above: “If you put a fat girl who exercises next to a skinny girl who’s on meth they’ll say the skinny one is healthiest”. This is the perfect example. This is our reality. I’ve never seen something more precise than that sentence.

[dear--sarah]

Hi sarah, i really need someone to talk to. A couple days ago my mum told me that my dad was complaining to her about me that im 'grumpy' and always in a 'bad mood' and he doesn't want to be around me. I'm honestly NOT grumpy. In fact im always happy and laughing. Im the jokester in the family. And im 20 so its not like im a hormonal teenager. He said that i 'looked' grumpy, which really pisses me off because according to him in order to not be grumpy you have to always smile

& its double standard too cos hes grumpy alot. One time i was reading & i was concentrating & he said that i looked really moody, when i was just concentrating. My mum told me off & when i told her this she wouldn't really believe me. She also told me not to tell my dad that i know because he didn't want me to know. So i can't approach my dad about it. Im really disappointed in my dad. Am i just overreacting? Its like, i have to smile 24/7 to make him happy but he can do whatever he wants.

& to be honest, he has proven to me that he can be a bit nasty. When i was younger he told me mum is too fat & that i needed to take her walking so she could lose weight. My mum is NOT fat btw. I was too scared to say anything back then because i was very timid & tbh i was in shock. Ive never told my mum cos i dont want to hurt her. Anyway, sorry this turned out to be more of a rant sorry. I was wondering if i should just smile more to make him comfortable or just ignore him? Thanks so much :)

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ugh, honestly, your dad sounds pretty terrible from where i sit. he’s projecting a lot of his really toxic masculinity onto the women in his life and that’s unhealthy. 

you should not smile more just to make him comfortable, unless it becomes a question of your safety and whether or not you feel you have it---but beyond that, this is a complicated discussion and i don’t really have a simple answer, because the people i’ve known who were like this were simple to cut out of my life, not direct family. 

i’ve been sitting on this and thinking about it, and i feel as though without being there to read the situation or your father’s potential temper, my personal reaction would be towards calling that toxic behavior out.

my dad isn’t like yours, but like many men of older generations there’s a lot of sexism wholly ingrained in him, so there have been times where i’ve had to say---hey dad, that’s not okay, and here’s why. and he’s listened. 

this is heavy emotional labor though, and sounds like it would be particularly so in your case, since your dad has very strong opinions about the way women should present themselves. if you don’t feel up for the task, that’s understandable. 

so it’s hard. i think my advice to you is basically the question---do you want to have this tough conversation with your dad, or even your mom, just asking her how she feels about all this? 

because again, educating the misogyny out of people is heavy work and it can take a long time. but can be incredibly rewarding for your relationships, if people are receptive to the discussion. 

i wish i had more concrete advice for you, but there are definitely resources and articles online that might be able to speak more to your situation than i can. 

here’s one i found: https://www.bustle.com/articles/121507-6-ways-to-explain-feminism-to-parents-who-just-dont-get-it

but i think that there must be a lot more out there. good luck, and keep me posted. hopefully this helped!

[kaityper]

It's really not that big of a deal. You know why people like to headcanon or hope that charecters are lgbt? Cause most of them aren't allowed to be. We can't just watch a show or a movie and expect there to be open lgbt scenes, especially from disney. And tbh it feels really silly to say, "open lgbt scenes", cause it literally just people who are attracted to eachother, which is not different from any hetero relationship.

Also, Merida never showed any signs of liking boys whatsoever. In fact, she made a whole deal of not ending up with a boy. For people to headcanon her as into girls, it's not different for the people who headcanon her as straight. But.... I dont see you complaining about that??

ALSO it's not "everything has to have a gay charecter or people get mad". It's "everything hasn't had lgbt charecters and now people are getting mad."

I'm so sorry that people want more representation and would like to watch show that they can relate more to!!! I know how hard that must be for you 😭😭😭

Ugh I'm ranting and kinda being mean but this post really irked me. (I'll probably feel bad for being a bit harsh later but I mean?? You really felt the need to make a whole post about how annoying it is that people are having enjoying stuff?? And getting excited over stuff?? Like you must be fun at parties)

Just because she has boyish tendencies, doesn’t mean she’s lesbian.

I dislike that. It’s also the same with Mulan, but with her being bi. She showed no signs of ever liking a girl whatsoever.

It’s just annoying at this point.

I guess I should clarify, I have nothing against the lgbt community.

It’s the fact that everything has to have a gay character or people will get mad. It might be your headcannon, which I can respect. It’s just annoying to see people want everyone to be gay.

Just my opinion.

This has become a shitshow. Lol.

This really blew up, didn’t it? More attention for me I guess.

I’m fucking gay as shit. Stop calling me homophobic. Lmao. Also, I’m not scared of anyone, so fuck outta here with that shit.