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i-am-a-fucking-nerd · 2 years

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Been so fucking dysphoric lately and idk what to do. It’s like. Debilitating in a way it never has been for me before. All I wanted to do td was claw at my skin and try and move to be in the right shape but that’s not smth I can do lol. Had to go out to get food and I genuinely thought I might have a breakdown in the middle of a convenience store and I was so paranoid that everyone could see that I was wrong and I wasn’t a person correctly. I had to force myself to stop scratching my skin.

#trans #queer #dysphoria #havilah's thoughts #like I’m so sorry boy Havilah I did not mean to let u out just so u could constantly feel distressed and bad #idk how to help u deal w these feelings! I obviously haven’t been! they’re new to me and idk what to do w them!!!#u did a good job td. and I believe in u for tm. we can do this. we can do this.#if I could give us the right body right now I would I would I promise #but idk how to get it rn. idk how to get surgery or hormones. and we’re stretched so thin rn tryna get a therapist like. buddy I Promise u #I am trying my absolute fucking hardest #and we will make it through this #but I need u to be alright enough for now and to make peace w the body hashem has given us until we can make any modifications yknow #wish I could wear a binder my top dysphoria isn’t even that bad but it’d be like. an actionable thing u could do to put on a binder every #day yknow. but I can’t stand to wear them #anyway. enough rambling. if anyone got this far thanks for listening and have a good time of day

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