#u call people parasocial and call idols just some dude and when u talk to them is like seeing a bbc reporter interviewing jesus christ

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Unpopular ofc but: People find roleplay cringe in fan calls(I find it funny personally and most idols too bc they're always laughing) but those western fans exaggerating the compliments and talking in a weird formal way to idols are more cringe to me. They're famous but normal dudes talk to them like normal people

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Hi lovelies, if you're on tiktok, PLEASE REMEMBER SOME FUCKING INTERNET DECORUM.

Call me a bitch, but I'm about to bash some people rn. This shit is making me mad.

For privacy reasons, I'm not showing u usernames. Don't go bullying these people. I'm using them as an EXAMPLE.

But before we get onto that, please read this.

NOW GO BACK, AND READ IT AGAIN UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND THIS GUY'S WISHES

Onto my angry woman rant now

COMMENTS LIKE THIS ARE NOT OKAY

Like do you see the problem?

No?

Let me point it out to you.

The first two have the same problem

"This is my second coming of Christ, I missed Zar so much"

"OMG?!? WE ARE SAVED"

Really? Your second coming of Christ? You're saved? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Dawg, the reason they left is because people like you were being fucking selfish omg. Get it through ur thick skull. Like genuinely shut the fuck up and touch some grass. Authors are PEOPLE. WE'RE NOT CONTENT FARMS, NOR ARE WE FUCKING ARCHANGEL GABRIEL STANDING IN YOUR BEDROOM WITH A BAGILLION EYES AND PROCLAIMING UR BABY IS JESUS. We're literally just people and the whole, "omg im saved" thing is really unhealthy and like, fucking problematic. It's also like, fucking creepy in a parasocial black mirror kinda way. Like imagine bullying and idolizing someone into leaving a fandom, and then bullying them and idolizing them into coming back, TO TURN AROUND AND DO IT SOME MORE OMG. Like be so fucking fr rn. Can't you see the problem in this!?? It's fucking creepy ass shit dawg. Idk who authorized you to go and run amuck on tiktok but pls for the love of god, go the fuck outside and talk to people so you know how to fucking talk to people you admire without comparing them to FUCKING JESUS CHRIST. And maybe, just maybe, STOP BRINGING UR EMOTIONAL MANIPULATION "omg ur back I'm so glad I was so sad u made me so sad bc u left me and I took it personally even though shit like this is why u left and imma keep continuing to do it again but I'm so glad ur back 🥺" BS INTO THIS. Maybe just stop and FUCKING THINK AND REMEMBER THAT YOURE TALKING TO A PERSON WHO IS LIVING AND BREATHING.

Onto the third comment, it's short, simple, to the point and absolutely THE WRONG THING TO SAY IN THIS SITUATION.

"FINALLY!!!!!"

All I have to say, is authors don't owe you shit and ur acting entitled. Check yourself babes, this isn't the take you think it is. Maybe you should "FINALLY!!!" check your attitude towards writers bc shit like this is why zar left in the first place and why the comments are turned off on his works.

SOMETHING ELSE I SAW: people using his deadname as a hashtag

Quite literally, why am I sitting here and having to explain why that's bad. Like that's fucked dude. I don't even wanna talk about it and I can't because I don't have experience having a preferred name, but like, that's so fucked up dude. Like come on. Maybe just don't. And no, I'm NOT posting a screenshot because that's his fucking DEAD NAME OMG HAVE YOU NO SHAME.

An example of an okay comment is something like this

Isn't this beautiful? And good behavior, I applaud them. Yes, it wasn't phrased the best, but they A) respected Zar's wishes and didn't SEEK OUT THE FIC, and B)they expressed their happiness that CR is back without like, idk, calling zar FUCKING JESUS CHRIST????? Kudos to them for doing the bare minimum and being respectful 💜

Self explanatory, honestly me too. Kudos to you both 💜

And finally, something that made me a let out a little laugh when i read it

A joke so bad that it's good LMAO

Okay, I shall now get off my high horse and take off my shining armor, but I just wanted to say this real quick and reinforce my statement that AUTHORS ARE PEOPLE, JESUS FUCKING CHRIST.

Edit: the "war is over" sound, really? Really?? Fucking war? Babes, you didn't get to read a Jegulus Hunger Games au; u didn't actually fight in the hunger games or in the fictional hunger games war. Like just stop pls.

Crimson Rivers, is it back? What now? Does that mean Zar is back?

So, like a normal, sane reader, when I get an AO3 notification, I immediately drop everything and check it out. In my little tiny brain filled with angst and smut, I was thinking that it was maybe a chapter being updated, or maybe someone I love replying to a comment I left about how their writing is so fantastic and giving them vivid descriptions of how I wish to burn it into my brain because how good it is. Turns out, that was not the case.

It was a fucking notification about Crimson Rivers being posted.

I sat on my bed, and just stared. My brain wasn’t working. I was halfway though a bag of chips that my dog really wanted and staring at an email that bizarrestars fucking posted Crimson Rivers.

And Best Friend’s Brother.

And Just Lovers.

And all of those fics I was dying to read were back. All the fics that had me frothing at the mouth with want and the insatiable urge to consume everything he put back out into the world. And so, I followed the link in my email and oh my god-

They were back.

All of them. 

Every single one of their fics was back up and I was fucking psyched because I have an AO3 account and I have access to it again. Me, along with many other fans of his works and readers in this fandom, texted friends and loved ones. We smiled and downloaded the files, swearing that we will never lose those works again. 

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So, like a normal, sane author, when I get an AO3 notification, I immediately drop everything and check it out. In my little pea brain filled with ways to torture my readers and ways to get them off through my words, I was thinking that maybe someone had kindly left a kudos on my work, or maybe even comment on it. All my works are ongoing and to be honest, I was a little scared to open my email because what if it’s a negative comment? What if it’s someone telling me that they hate me because I’m sick and twisted, writing the filth I do. What if it’s someone telling me that they hate how I made a certain character bisexual because in their mind, bisexual women can’t also be attracted to women? What if it’s someone telling me that the trauma I write about is misrepresented and that I am an awful person for romanticizing it when I swear I’m not, when I know that I’m drawing from experience. What if it’s someone saying the aforementioned trauma is too dramatized, and that the way that I write it as something to be worked through, doesn’t fit their “one kiss and all the bad memories go away” narrative they have in their head. What if it’s someone telling me I should be ashamed, telling me that I am disgusting, telling me that I shouldn’t write what I write even though I have hyperlinks embedded in my fics and even though I have additional warnings per chapter and even though I have so many tags the plot is given away. Turns out, that is not the case.

It was a fucking notification about Crimson Rivers being posted.

I sat on my bed, and just stared. My brain wasn’t working. I was halfway though a bag of chips that my dog really wanted and staring at an email that bizarrestars fucking posted Crimson Rivers.

And Best Friend’s Brother.

And Just Lovers.

And all of those fics people were dying to read were back. All the fics that had people online frothing at the mouth with want and the insatiable urge to consume everything he put back out into the world. And so, I followed the link in my email and

oh my god-

They were back.

All of them.

Every single one of their fics was back up and I was filled with fucking dread, because all I could focus on is how there’s a shiny new prongsfoot fic right there on the top of their page, the first thing people will see. All I could think about is how they talked about people not respecting their wishes with their fics  and how people on the internet are fucking relentless. All I could think about are the videos I will see with people complaining that they can’t read it because they don’t have an AO3 account and people attacking them for the two chapter prongsfoot fic right there, and how people fucking idolized the guy, putting him on a pedestal and hailing him as the “best fanfic writer ever, right there along with misskingbean (who may or may not be Taylor swift (I swear, Taylor is NOT misskingbean))”All I could think about is the exit he, and MANY OTHER authors made because people got ahold of their work and were fucking rude about it. All I could think of is someone who was practically pushed off the internet for doing what he loves so well that people started hating when he wrote what he wanted to write, and how now, he’s back and honestly, it scares me a little bit because he didn’t deserve the hell people put him through.

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Crimson rivers, is it back? What now? Does that mean Zar is back? Short answer, yes, yes, and yes. Long answer, yes but only if you have an AO3 account and ONLY IF people can be fucking nice this time around and maybe remember that zar is a fucking person with fucking feelings and something called a fucking mental health to take care of. Authors have feelings too, we aren’t some mindless fic generator. If you want that, go to chat gtp or some shit. We put our hearts and souls into our work and share it because we want to put it out there, not because we want to get bullied.

Now, I know what you’re going to say, “oh, but I just really loved the guy, he was like the second coming of christ with his words like I just really wanted to read more because I loved him so much, like I forgot he was a human because I just loved him and a little love never hurt anyone.” 

But like, that’s also really fucking problematic and actually obsessive. Just think about it. Like this guy is a person and like, maybe you shouldn’t treat him like he is anything more OR ANYTHING LESS. Like honestly, he probably didn’t start posting his work to gain fame, like this was probably really unexpected for him. AND EVEN IF HE DID, IT DOESN’T MEAN YOU GET TO TREAT HIM LIKE A FUCKING PRODUCT GOD DAMN. Like, this is a PERSON. Imagine if your best friend or little sibling came to you and was talking about people putting enormous pressure on them and being obsessed with everything they do and how they feel like they have to be perfect and please everyone because if they don’t, they’ll get harassed online and like, it’s genuinely damaging their mental health. Like, imagine if that happened to you. What would you tell them? Well, hopefully, you would tell them that those people are fucking obsessed and that they need to take a break and maybe, just maybe remove the works so they could put their mind to rest, because that’s better than this. Like come on everyone, can’t you fucking see the problem with that? Idolization and bullying go hand in hand and the poor guy has been though enough. 

Also, remember, be kind to the guy and like, idk, treat him with fucking human decency? Don’t deadname him maybe? Don’t like, idolize him? Don’t get mad when he writes what he wants to fucking write because you don’t like it? And maybe like, respect his wishes? It should be pretty fucking simple tbh, but apparently it’s a difficult task for some of you. He isn’t a fucking god and maybe like, before you comment, actually sit there and reflect on what you are going to say to him.

SO MAYBE, BEFORE YOU COMMENT SHIT, REMEMBER THAT ZAR’S, (and, for the record, every other author’s) MENTAL HEALTH IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN A 800K WORD STORY ABOUT DEAD WIZARDS. LIKE PLEASE, YOU CAN FUCKING LIVE WITHOUT ONE SPECIFIC FIC WHEN THERE ARE SO MANY OTHER FICS OUT THERE, AND SO MAYBE LIKE, REMEMBER TO RESPECT THE AUTHORS WHO WRITE YOUR STORIES.

MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, BEFORE YOU SAY SHIT, THINK ABOUT WHY HE FUCKING LEFT IN THE FIRST PLACE, DEAR GOD.