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shame-kink · 2 days ago

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reacting SO badly to the last third of HnK is really funny to me in retrospect because of how much it endeared me to the series in general. that shit pulled a homestuck, if it was uncomplicatedly good i’d probably not be as invested in it still

#my favorite character being the one whose story upsets me most (& not even in like. a deliberate or goodly-intentional way?)? CLASSIC ICONIC #cairngorm sweety darling baby i’m so sorry for what they DID to you but at the same time. good gravy i feel like thats lightning in a fuckin #bottle when it comes to disagreeable writing choices - that still make enough in-character sense to be REALLY icksome #like if it was just completely left field it’d. end up feeling like a nonsequiter but cairn WAS always tied to themes of freedom and codepe #codependency even without the plot twists (& the shifting gendered aesthetics is a theme common to basically the entire series #tying in more broadly with the shifting nature of identity and self-image in general)#…that said just because it ostensibly makes SENSE doesn’t mean its. TONALLY appropriate to itself but that was a ball dropped in general wrt #the moon stuff #like. i do not feel like the cognitive dissonance of finding indipendence through a whirlwind romance with Personified Captivity Domination #& Both Soft & Hard Power was deliberate or if it WAS the story did not do a sufficient job in actuallizing that cognitive dissonance into #any sort of positive meaning #it was A Bad Thing For The Narrative To Be Doing #also grumble grumble ‘insecure-because-she-cant-go-on-E-yet-thus-denying-herself-the-one-way-to-‘prove’-shes-a-woman transfem butch is #is extremely mixed emotions on the way one of the more masc gems gets feminized’ lol #(while it also appealing to the part of myself that really wants to dress another smaller prettier myself up in frilly outfits and carry her #around in a purs-MESSENGER BAG!! lol)#(its honestly not that far off from a ‘this feels lazer targeted at my ambivalences specifically’ moment rofl)#aecomphetmea #thats nothing nvm #I. REALLY REALLY R E A L L Y NEED TO REWATCH UTENA

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