#tyhjvg

[tyhjvg]

Wait I was thinking

I'm black and poor in a country when it like to kill us for sport

I mean take us to court

I mean jail us for sport

I was thinking I'm running away from the inevitable that sooner rather than later I'm going to lose my mind but it's going to go bkank

my heart was going to stall my feet were going to stop

I was thinking will my last moments be spent on the ground being penalised for making this sound being treated as if it was nothing but roadkill

as if I was just another anonymous face on a bill I was thinking I'm standing on solid ground but I feel like I'm drowning or I'm sinking.

I was beyond reality, stuck in fantasy.

[josy57]

tyhjvg a réagi à votre billet “Deciduous”

Iconic. Thank you for the contribution to art

Thank you for that wonderful comment ✨

[tyhjvg]

There's this guy I know, he messes me up in all the right ways, Boy got me swooning for days, his voice is smooth silk over rough vegan leather, he's sinfully beautiful, a masterpiece come alive, head to toe , reminds me of something sculpted by Michaelangelo, his mind is delicious, damn I love the way he talks science to me, well let's say he doesn't need to dirty talk me to get me going, his heart, a heart of gold, so golden he looks like he's forever glowing.

[tyhjvg]

Queens are underrated, as women often are. Look back to the history books, Queens are often overlooked, mistreated as if they are weak just because of their sex, this all leads back to the garden of Eden , to Eve, the 1st women and her crimes against humanity. Or is it crimes against god's differently functioning moral compass, He put two people he had blessed with free will in a garden, then allowed them to be tested by the devil, allowed him to see if they could resist the temptation of the master of lies, like the tale of pandora , Eve is also gifted with curiosity, a suggestion that every woman is gifted with curiosity, that their curiosity can lead them astray, I mean that the use of their own brains could lead to the destruction of the patriarchal society, I mean polite society, I mean of the world,to anarchy.

As if women aren't the building blocks of our society, as if they didn't conceive the men that weave the lies that say that women are the enemy of men , that women should bear children and do nothing else but be housewives, that we should live our lives only to survive, instead of thrive. Instead of making a name for ourselves, instead of living off our wants and needs. Again looking back at history, yes women have gained more and more rights , but women around the world are still facing gender based mistreatment, being treated as if women matter less than common animals, as if women are made to be traded , degraded for everything, from eating what they want to being able to speak freely, women are still getting their wings clipped as if we are mere farm chickens to be kept in pens instead of flying freely in the sky , instead of being free to ascend to the highest heights, to be who we want to be. Again look through the history books, women have had our growth stunted, then being degraded for being unable to read and write as well as most men, being called illiterate, unworthy. We,Women are as great as men, sometimes even greater than, we need to rise up, I mean we need to allow ourselves to fly instead of fall, to help eachother, instead of always quarrelling with each other, we need to get on the same pages instead of acting like we are all enemies, all islands floating apart with miles of sea separating them.

[tyhjvg]

You talk about trust,

talk about the unconditional love of family but look how easily you throw me under the bus, how quick you are to divorce me from the family name, how quick you are to hide the truth and how you lie so fluently, look at how quick you are to bury me,

like the forgotten royals, forgotten as if they never were great because history is written by the victors. So you'll burry me to be great.

[tyhjvg]

Be the typical girl that you want to be, be free to fly in your imagination, free in your mind, free to take every opportunity, to open door after door , to make your own choices.

Don't forget that you are not a pawn on a chess board, not a puppet to be played with, no you're strong and resilient, black and brilliant,

you're gorgeous with an amazing mind, hard of hearing at times, you're young but already have been crowned, already begun your descent to the skies, young but you've already taken off and now your feet don't touch the screen.

[tyhjvg]

I've got no one to talk to, no one that understands what I'm going through, that I feel like I'm the man in get out, getting hypnotised and falling down into his subconscious mind whilst struggling to get out.

I scream and I shout but nobody comes, nobody is coming to save me from myself, so this is me asking for help.

[tyhjvg]

I've had the weight of the world of the world balanced upon my shoulders, I've flown too close to the sun, with wings made of wax and feathers, the wax melting and wings loosening until they fell apart and Ive found myself freefalling through the air, trying to grab ahold of something to delay my fall. I've been the girl to fall a pretty face, been the princess who helped Theseus find his way through the maze, only to be betrayed by her own heart and the hero himself then been dumped on an island in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by sea and open space. I've been medusa, been a beauty with no comparison, had my beauty weaponised and my body desecrated by someone who ended up leaving me disfigured and full of ptsd, as well as the power to turn people to stone like a descendant of medusa

[tyhjvg]

I can't lie,

I'm green with envy, coz you're staring at her the way you used to at me, she's all dolled up, dressed to the nines, my oh my she looks so divine, an angel in human flesh, a vivacious beauty goddess, yes she's taken my place by your side, but I cannot hate her, because she makes you feel like how I used to make you. I see me in her eyes, I see two lovers, who wholly love eachother, so I guess I'll make my own way home, I hope you are blessed with lots of happiness, anything else I couldn't wish

[tyhjvg]

I find myself in a situation that I can't weasel my way out of, I made my bed, now I've got to sleep in it, I'm trapped in a never ending loop, like happy death day, I die again and again, find myself retracing my steps, reliving the same day, unable to escape.

[tyhjvg]

I'ma queen without a crown, I'ma queen when I'm a clown, I'ma queen with make-up and a queen without, I'ma queen without heels, I'ma queen with a dress on , a queen in leggings and or jeans, I'ma queen when I'm a mess, a queen when I'm best dressed, a queen when I smoke, I'ma queen rich, I'ma queen broke, I'ma queen with a smile and a queen without , I'ma queen with my head inna book, a queen when I'm doing sports,. I'ma queen when nice, a queen when I'm mean, I'ma queen with a resting bitch face, I'ma queen when I'm awake and asleep, I'ma queen when I work and when I don't, I'ma queen as a mother and a queen when I'm childless, Basically I'm a queen whatever I do and wherever I am. Queens come in all shapes and sizes

[tyhjvg]

My body

My body is mine,not yours,. So keep your dirty add paws, I mean hands , off and away from me, you want a queen without a voice, without the power of choice, I suggest you look elsewhere , you ain't gonna find her here, I'ma queen loud as a lion, not a pillow to lie on, or a stool to step on , you want me, but just the parts you find sexy , like my mouth without a voice to speak with, you'd rather I use my tongue for other purposes, you want a rose without thorns, you want a queen without a brain, or a queen you can contain, one you can put in a cage and she won't complain, you want a beautiful bird with clipped wings, so you can deny her right to fly, so you can hold her down, instead of helping her fly higher than the limits of the sky. You seem to think that your worthy of me, when you're really just dirt beneath my feet.

[tyhjvg]

I dreamt today that I lost you, I've only known you for a little while, but I know that you're a great friend, a total god send, you're someone I want to get to know more about, I don't mean to impose but I wanted to let you know that I think you're amazing as yourself, that you and I could be more than friends, not lovers but basically family,

[tyhjvg]

Fell from the plane, hit the ground running, no time to stop, as soon as I hit the ground it signalled time to start hunting, their flying overhead, reminding me of vultures, up on the celestial plane I was surrounded by enemies but at least I had heard immunity, down on the ground signalling my descent from the celestials, signalling that I've fallen from my place in the sky, lost my place on the throne,

[tyhjvg]

I have days when I'm feeling okay for a while then I'm just not, I don't know what's happening to me, but I hate it, I hate feeling like I'm falling through the sky, flailing and screaming as loud as I can, but no one hears as I cry, leaving me all alone, wondering why. Apparently I don't look different on days like this then I do normally, because I apparently am an attention seeker, as I'm reaching out trying to let people know that I'm not okay, but it's clear that they don't want to hear my cries, I'm the boy who cried wolf, I've messed up one time too many and no matter how hard I try, they ignore my cries, telling me that I'm being stupid, to stop being an idiot and so on, when I really need help.

Can somebody please help me,

[tyhjvg]

I see through your closed eyes, I see through your hole filled lies, I see you screaming at the top of your lungs,wanting the ground to open up and swallow you whole, I see your humiliation and embarrassed laughter, I see you, you,who is looking for forever after, for a fairytale romance, you who believes that you are not enough so you are determined to never be you but someone else entirely, you who is so full of soul, love and mischief that you're ready to overflow, out of the hourglass cage you've hidden the true you in. I see you, you are pure brilliance, beauty, generosity, kindness and childishness when you allow yourself to be seen, I see you, you with your wings that you haven't yet spread, I see you, you with shooting stars for eyes, you with your love of reading, writing, you always full of light and hope even when you're eternal clock is messed up and you find your heart bleeding. I see you, a true iris, goddess of rainbows. You, whom no one can contain, you and your beautiful brain