#ty for your message anon

[bishonenspit]

Honestly so happy to find another person who doesn’t like colleen. Depressing how they’re the face of shojo when they make such mediocre content. Their queer shojo video was so bad it made me depressed…why do so many popular shojo influencers hate bl??

I think the main point of contention that shoujo fans have with colleen's content is that it's definitely more surface level beginner info in many cases, but it's packaged in a way that acts like it's targeted at long time fans (like the history of shoujo vid or the queer subtext vid). I think their videos are solidly FINE if you don't particularly hold any long term interest in shoujo (as in, maybe you're a casual reader or even just know of it) but beyond that they aren't necessarily a source of EXPANDED info. However I can't really look past the pretty easily disprovable misinfo that could have been rectified with....basically a singular google search especially in cases like the queer subtext video lol. Like that stuff can really only slide if the viewer doesn't care THAT much.

Which I think is where the whole influencer persona gets a bit frustrating. You can only really act like a figurehead to a degree with a language barrier and also a relatively pretty limited catalogue of things you've read and limited knowledge within the space you're acting figurehead of.

But honestly i think a lot of big shoujo accounts (on twt but I suppose elsewhere like maybe tiktok and youtube but I'm not really in the space there + don't have tiktok myself) do a disservice to the queer roots of the genre for the sole reason that within English publication spaces it's pretty glaringly left out. The shoujo that gets published in English is in a landslide percentage mostly heterosexual romance or easily digestible drama.

Not that something like that should prevent people from reading the queer stories, obviously there are scanlations of a lot of them and even official publications in a few cases, but it's way easier to make an influencer-esque persona based off series that are easy (and legal lol) to access and promote. That being said I also think the anime and manga community online has a homophobia issue and the online aversion to BL in any form is still going strong so 🤷‍♂️. In an online climate where reading things with unhappy endings or controversial topics gets you labelled as a problem or worse I'm not surprised the people with platforms steer clear from talking about them, as disappointing as it is for people who actually care about the history of shoujo. And also for people who are also you know gay and like to read about gay characters rather than the same straighty drivel.

All that being said tho I don't actually have an issue with Colleen as like, a person mostly because I don't get access to their person, the same way ppl who just follow me on here don't really get access to MY person either. I don't really get to say I dislike THEM but I do as it stands dislike their content and what exists of their online "celebrity" for lack of a better term.

And for the record while I'm on this tangent I think they (and their friends/followers) could probably learn to handle criticism levelled against them a little bit better, because you (in reference to anon specifically, and I'm taking you being on anon as more proof of this) aren't the first person to come to me in private or anonymously to voice their critiques or distaste because they don't feel comfortable publicly posting about it. I think a niche community shouldn't have a person with a platform acting figurehead that people are nervous about disagreeing with on their own personal accounts. I think that just kinda sucks overall for the general community. I haven't had any kickback that I've seen and I'm pretty used to being disliked online atp but others can't handle it and really shouldn't have to if all they're doing is voicing complaints on something posted publicly!

(Also also, I'm kiddinnnnggggg anyone can read the manga I like and talk about it. Obviouslyyyyy. I might just not like what they have to say about it. lol)

[iliothermia]

I'm really struggling with communication right now, so I'm gonna be a bit distant for a bit. I really appreciate the patience n kindness 💗

[patrothestupid]

You should draw whatever you’d like forever

[asarigg]

so in your doc you say you don't really get why koujaku would have his sword with him or that its likely just a design choice. which honestly, could 100% be right and i wouldnt be shocked if that was the case. After hearing him talk about how he used the same sword to kill his mom (and injure others) AND attempt suicide, it made me question it too, why would you carry something that has so much emotional weight to it? would that not make you think of the past at all times and make you scared youll use it again? i like to think that once he saw aoba again he tried to come to terms with his past on his own (at least a little bit) and that meant keeping the sword around. maybe to try and test his own control, maybe to remind him that he can kill himself at any moment if he deems necessary? and maybe after carrying it for a while it started to become noticed by others as being this badass thing and ends up being fairly useful in fights so he keeps it around...? maybe a part of him wants to be reminded of that terrible day so he can tell himself that hes alive now and he can do good things and that he will always have aoba and things can be fine (even if he doesnt entirely believe that)

This is such an interesting read.

The sword serving as a reminder to not lose his focus and the reasons why he's still there, and instead of being a threat to other people, keeping it for it to be a threat to himself, a blade that should only be withdrawn for his own death.

Maybe he couldn't get rid of it even though he wanted to forget his vengeance, because deep inside he still wanted it. Deep inside, just like his tattoo, his hatred could never been forgotten. He knew Ryuuhou was still somewhere, so he couldn't put closure to his pain as much as he wanted it.

[anxeious]

u r not annoying your bday is literally once a year and that anon can kick rocks lol. happy bday again <3

thank you sm 🥺 i really had no idea how many birthday wishes i would receive & to me it felt kinda insincere to just to make one “ty for bday wishes” post and nothing else?? idk i’m sorry if anyone was annoyed i really did try to space them out with posts in between. thank u for this message & the birthday wishes!!

[tojiscrack]

HIIII I LITERALLY JUST BINGED THE WHOLE LIAR LIAR SERIES IN 7 HOURS I DON'T REGRET IT AT ALLLLL YOUR WRITING IS RLY GOOD AND I HOPE YOU GAIN MORE POPULARITY!! anyways just wanted to ask, how long does it take to make each chapter? And when is the next gonna release? No pressure of course! Just curious :) AGAIN LOVE YOUR WRITING SMMMM

HEYYY, ANON 😋💞

SEVEN hours? 😟 girl are you OKAY? 😭

also i’m acting as if the story, despite only having 8 chapters so far, isn’t already at 150k+ words, so ofc it would take SEVEN hours to read it in one sitting…

‘your writing is really good and i hope you gain more popularity’ 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

thank you sm?? idk how i can put into words my appreciation for that small comment (ironic ik, i’m a writer 💀). i always get flustered and giggly, i forget how to speak and just wisjwisjwiej ugh ty <333 so glad u like my writing so far!

okie now to address ur first question! how long does it take to make each chapter?

😟

the dreaded question…

i think my updating schedule has that answered in a way 😭

for everyone that was here during liar liar’s first release, the making of chapters 1-5 took months each ‘cause the word counts ranged from around 18-33k words 🫢 (ik, wild, like what do you have to say in a single chapter that’d make up an entire book in itself? 😭 idk i just like detail).

chapters 6, 7 & 8 were released in good time intervals, i think, and that’s ‘cause we just got into the main story, no more background was needed. these chapters’ word counts ranged from 7-16k words (still a lot, ik, but considerably and notably less than the first five chapters) so they were easier to get out as they got completed quicker.

so how long does it take to make a chapter? depends on the word count, really. if it’s on the heavier side, it’ll take about a month or two. if it’s more like the ones being released now, less heavy and straight to the point, probably 3-4 weeks? give or take?

second question! when’s the next release? 🙂‍↕️

(i appreciate the clarification that you don’t intend to rush me <3 ty for that! 💘)

honestly, idk 💀 i haven’t even started writing it yet.

usually when i release a chapter, it’s late into the night (i’ve noticed a running theme here recently, it tends to be towards the end of the week) and then i just stop writing altogether for the next 5 days so i don’t burn myself out and basically invite writer’s block 🫣

i checked my plan and notes for chapter 9, and using an educated estimate, i predict that it’ll probably be around 10k words (without including a bonus scene). taking my school schedule into consideration, it’ll maybe be out in another 4 weeks? maybe less (or more) depending on when the christmas holiday starts!

but again, TY FOR DROPPING IN AND LETTING ME KNOW YOUR THOUGHTS! 💗 I APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT MORE THAN YOU’LL EVER KNOW :D

and i hope i managed to answer ur two questions properly! 😊 i realise how vague they are, but unfortunately giving a clear answer isn’t possible in this case ‘cause it makes it seem like a promise (like ‘the next chapter’ll be out in 4 weeks’ without considering obstacles or school which i take really seriously haha) and if i did give a straight answer, ik for a fact that i wouldn’t be able to be consistent with it :)

[blackjackkent]

hihi!! i just wanted to stop in and say your writing is beautiful and the last tav x karlach request you did genuinely had me tearing up and smiling so much, i absolutely adored it ^_^ and i also wanted to possibly request one with a fem tav and karlach who both found a home within each other after not feeling like they had a place to belong for so long. if that's a little too vauge or if you're not up for it then no worries!! i'm excited to see what else you'll write in the future regardless :3

Ahhhhh, this is such a kind message, ty. <3 I'm so glad you enjoyed it. c: I hope you like this, anon!

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"You sleep like a fucking rock, y'know." Karlach pokes her head in the flap of the tent and grins as Tav curls away from the shaft of sunlight that stabs in past her. "I've been up for hours."

"Yes, 'cos you're you," Tav mumbles. She rolls over and pulls the pillow from her bedroll over her face. "Some of us actually need rest."

"Missed a beautiful sunrise over the city," Karlach says lightly. "And uh. I made breakfast." She says it with such elaborate, studied casualness that Tav shifts the pillow and peeks one eye out at her. Karlach is sitting in the tent flap watching her intently, her fingers fidgeting on her thighs.

"Yeah?" Tav asks with a slight smile. "What'd you make?"

"Eggs." Karlach shifts awkwardly and her head dips with a sheepish grin. "I mean, I know Gale makes eggs a lot, and you've probably eaten even more than I have, all your hunting trips and all before all this mess started, ranging around. But... I know how to make eggs, and I wanted to make you something."

She hesitates, squinting. "I mean, I wanted you to have eggs that I made. Y'know? Does that... make any fucking sense at all?"

Tav's smile widens. She sits up and scoots a little bit forward, then flops over so her head is pillowed on Karlach's lap instead. "Yeah."

"Yeah?" Karlach looks visibly relieved and grins down at her with a smile from ear to ear.

"Yeah, and I'll tell you a secret." Tav reaches up and pokes Karlach's cheek gently with one finger. "I want to eat the eggs that you made, too." A pause; she laughs softly. "Y'know, I gave up on thinking I'd say that to anyone, years ago."

"Me too." Karlach's smile fades. "I gave up on a lot of things. Fucked up that that nautiloid feels like it might've been the best thing that ever happened to me."

Tav hoists herself up again, this time curling into a sitting position in Karlach's lap and kissing her softly. "Yeah. I know what you mean. I don't miss that lonely road, that's for sure."

She tilts her head slowly to one side, and then grins crookedly, draping her arms around Karlach's neck. "I do have to tell you something, though..."

Karlach tilts her head to one side. "Yeah?"

Tav snickers. "Those eggs you mentioned? I think they're burning."

"Oh, fuck--" Karlach jolts to her feet and darts away from the tent towards the campfire, leaving Tav sprawled on the ground and laughing hysterically.

"Next time," she calls after Karlach cheerfully, "romantic speech first - then cooking."

[itsalwaysdark]

i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

[caitlynxviolet]

That little object dropping from young cait's box she was carrying for jayce really saved both her and vi. the sound alerted vi that they needed to get out and it made cait stop and not get blown by the hex gem. they were sooooo close though, and i wonder if they would ever bring that up in s2. but also, would it even matter after all?

RED STRING ENERGY YES. I could write a dissertation about this moment. It really was the catalyst for Vi's most awful memories. It's crazy to think they were so close to seeing each other for the first time, but it had to wait a couple of years into the future for them to meet.

Caitlyn dropping something saved them from being caught, but the damage turned them from regular thieves to criminals. Vi knew she'd have to take the fall for it when she decided to surrender herself to the authorities. It shows how brave, caring, and selfless she is.

I love the parallel between Vi's intention to protect her sister from the unfortunate circumstances and Caitlyn protecting Jayce from her parents. They're both driven by righteousness and I think that's why they work so well as a pair. They both want to be good and behave accordingly. Ahhh they're so beautiful together I could cry.

I think this incident is worth addressing in s2, but I'm not expecting a whole scene about it. I think Caitlyn would like to know how or why Vi was even thrown in Stillwater. It would definitely be interesting to see how Caitlyn reacts to this information. She'd definitely be devastated for Vi. But the real mystery is how Vi would react to a retelling of what happened. I suspect it'd be as heavy as you could imagine.

[deepspacexavier]

Xavier!! U shouldn't glare at every man that looks my way!! They get scared by your big blue eyes!! 🧿👄🧿

It's not glaring. It's just... making sure they know we're both hunters. Spoken for hunters.

[yxstxrdrxxm-a]

He's still the biggest red flag of the current event, but I wanna know if you'd go "yeah, but he's hot so I'd try anyway" lol.

I mean for me, if you did make the boss dateable in some Alternate Universe (even if it's only for a short time), for funsies, I'd give it a shot.

I'd flame out and burn out hard, but I still think I'd give it a try. I'd be a falling fireball, and I'd hit the ground hard. But at the very least, it'd be entertaining.

Also for me, as aesthetically pleasing to the eye the boss is, I'm more intrigued by his story and what skeletons he has in the closet.

I mean, Navia-mun, you hint at his red flags and his treatment of Cupid and Eros, which means there's a story there. Whether or not he's sympathetic is another issue entirely, but I'd like to hear his story.

Also, given his very bright red flags (attire not withstanding), I also think he'd be super interesting to write as a yandere, if he isn't already one in your mind.

To what extent will he go to, if someone's caught his eye? What sort of things would cause him to be obsessed with someone? Which aspects of his personality would end up coming out more if he does end up being matched with someone?

I think these are all interesting questions the Boss character raises, and I would like to see what sort of character he is or would be, if he was datable.

This was a super long winded ask, but the short answer is yes. Yes, if you made him dateable, I'd shoot my shot and see if I end up his match. And then if not, at least my attempt will be an entertaining fail.

Hm... You know, this actually gave me an idea. Unrelated to the event, but as a what if scenario.

(utc for an imagines. tw for yan behavior and tendencies, obsession and possession, isolation, implied murder but not in a way you'd think, manipulation, heavy lean to unrequited love, toxic relationships... And other tws that can spoil him because its a yandere blog. I think that speaks for itself.)

Boss is a yandere that is a mix of possessive and obsessive. In his worklife, personal life, and even to his friends and family, people can just tell that he's distant. Distant and a bit of a cruel man to those who he sees to have some sort of vendetta against him.

He had people that wanted him. He actually had some that were so, so convinced that they were fated to be together. However, it only took one day spent with him to leave, yelling and crying about how he is so 'abusive' and how 'his workers shouldn't tolerate the bs they all go through because of him'.

How amusing, he thinks. Do they honestly think that they had a chance? A sliver of hope that, in some way, he'd love them like how they do? To him, he saw them as obsessive freaks. He was just dishing out who he is.

Now, him falling for someone is almost laughable. He'd probably be the one who'd question why he'd find some form of interest in a romantic relationship. After all, he sees it more as an inconvenience. He doesn't exactly... Get the appeal as others do.

If he were to, God forbid, fall for someone... That someone better be prepared for a man who is more than ready to simply find any means to get to talking with you. He won't plan on showing his hand that he's managing MixMatch and is associated with Celestia Inc. to some degree, since he hates mixing work life with personal life. He'll just... omit it.

Boss is twisted in his perception of who he enjoys being around with. Quite often, you saw how he simply treats his employees like they were just people who can't understand him. It's laughable, actually.

What isn't laughable is his power.

He's not vocal with what he enjoys, opting to simply let you be the judge. You hold the 'gavel', per say; and although he may be the defendant in your eyes, he aspires to be the prosecution.

He wants you to view him more favorably, so it would be convenient for him when things go awry.

He'll treat you better in dates if he had to. God forbid you tell him that he didn't, for he'd rectify it and say that work made him so, so busy to focus on his personal life. He'd be meticulous to what you like and don't like, what you don't tolerate and do...

... And while you're busy focusing on how nicer he became, he'll slowly taint your views, working and worming his way to someone that you can't push away anymore.

He'd slowly push you till you were unable to get your support system back. He'd make extra sure that you yourself will tell them that you can't be near them anymore. He wants you to do the work for him, since if you loved him so much... Wouldn't you do this for your relationship together?

He'd make sure that you understand your place, even if you aren't his worker at the company. He'd deny any sort of reward until he thinks you've 'straightened up'. He wants to see you squirm and struggle on doing just that, because he himself wants to see if you can be strong to withstand the eye of the storm itself.

He'd shower you with love on the first few years, making sure you're well fed-- no, spoiled without a single bat of an eye, and then he has you in the palms of his hands. He's quite well off, so it wouldn't be long to satisfy your greedy mind with things you wished you could afford.

Then... He'll stop.

If you ask him why he stopped, well... You clearly forgot who you're dealing with.

Bit by bit, your relationship will sour. You'll have to work your way into getting the basic necessities because you've been far, far spoiled for his liking. He'll make you writhe as you try to get his affections.

Then, the cycle repeats. Over, and over, and over, and over. He'll make you so spoiled, then he'll deprive you of it.

He doesn't care what violations he's breaking. He doesn't care if you sobbed and kept saying you can't. He does not care if you tell him you're going to die because of how hard he's been on you.

You wanted this life of luxury. You wanted him.

It's not his fault that you can't read the fine print, is it? That you're so busy obsessing over a man's appearance, riches, and even his manners that you forgot the basic decorum. You forgot to act like a proper individual cause you went 'gaga' over him.

And he hates it. He hates that behavior you have.

Really, he doesn't love you like how you love him. He doesn't give any fucks. All he wants is someone who's so dumb to like him just so he'd have a little toy.

What, you're getting mad because of it? Shocker! He doesn't care.

He's not afraid of getting his hands dirty if he was threatened. Unlike you, he had to work for everything he got. In his eyes, no one deserves the fame unless he permits it.

You're fun as a little toy he had, but he grew bored of you. He doesn't want you anymore.

Maybe he can tip those men off to deal with the mess he's faced with.

[arkhammaid]

Do you have a posting schedule for The Legacy of Nemesis?

Love the series so far! ❤️

no, my actual posting schedule is just one chapter per week for ongoing fics, but since i'm off in another country (and going to school there) i don't know when the next chapter for legacy of nemesis will come out

i'm trying to write ahead, especially since a new 'arc' has started and there is so much going on 😭 so yeah, no schedule, if i post a chapter, it's always on the weekends :)

[terrainofheartfelt]

this is old news but it’s so funny to me how 🪑s like to pretend that blair wasn’t horny af for dan humphrey. like miss “we’re not servants to our emotions!” didn’t spend two whole episodes trying and failing to keep herself from making out with him, and another one literally licking her lips with how badly she wanted to bone him. like we can all argue over chuck v dan until we’re blue in the face, but she canonically wanted that man to flip her like she was a pancake 🥞

"flip her like she was a pancake" lmaooooooooooooo

like literally though blair spends an entire episode tryin to fuck dan and then jumps his bones in 1) an elevator 2) a taxi 3) a dive bar bathroom and 4) an alleyway in Williamsburg

and, idk if I've said this on the my public blog, but I have definitely said it. the thing about the njbc is that they all desire dan humphrey carnally. and that includes chuck.

[jockpoetry]

16.  the tower  :  what event drastically changed your muse’s life ? do they resent that event or are they glad of it ?

OH MAN! where do i start.

there is, i would say, about six main events that really changed who and what he is and how he interacts with the world. they span from when he was a human child to when he was a fully grown and matured vampire. there are lots of these little mile markers in his life that i personally am deeply fond of writing about, and am kind of bemused by how serendipitous some of them are.

in order of the six main events and if he resents them (cws for assault/death/general trauma? i'll be vague)

a big move that his family overtook when he was very little - no resentment. i think out of everything on this list it is the one he is the most at peace with. there was a lot of traumatic events he witnessed and lived through and still sticks with him from this, but he doesn't resent it and while he's not glad about it exactly He Gets It and wouldn't change it.

an assault at a young age - minor resentment, but mainly it's internalized. he has a lot of grief over this event, it was a position he was put into not out of meanness, but it like...really fucked him up and completely changed the course of his personality and who he became as a human. there's a lot to this, but in broad strokes he resents himself for how badly he handled the interaction, and he held resentment towards not just the woman who assaulted him but later on the resentments became externalized towards others who, for lack of a better word, triggered him due to this assault.

becoming a vampire! huge resentment, every day he wishes he had been allowed to live out his mortal life, and he also harbors a lot of resentment towards his sister who was the person that facilitated his turning and his sire because he and his sister were shortly thereafter abandoned, and it also caused the death of his parents. hugely traumatic event, would not have gone through it willingly, he was born to die young forced to live forever lol

the part of the story i am writing right now - a heartbreak. and he holds huge resentment over it, the collapse of this relationship absolutely altered him - and for the worse! sometimes you are in love with someone who loves you but you are two broken parts that just don't work and both of you know it and still try to force it to work and eventually it just doesn't. it just can't. it's not sustainable, but it was one of those relationships that changed who he was for the better, and when it ended all of that goodness, all of that kindness just dried up. it was a huge loss for him, and one he genuinely never fully processed. he pretty much never gave his heart away again after this, and just kind of is like i'm a vampire why the fuck am i playing house with mortals anyways and for the first time after this embraces his vampiric nature and so i think he holds a lot of resentment, but would be hard pressed to actually admit it, because it would mean that he would have to admit that he still feels human emotions and still longs for human connections, and he's supposed to be above that, he's supposed to be better than that.

(tl;dr event happened he had no control over, hugely resentful, changed how he lives his life as a vampire, would change it if he could, it really is tl;dr to explain this one but if the heartbreak made him embrace his vampiric nature this like... nailed home that he had no choice but to do so)

(tl;dr this is the inciting event of his original story arc, he did something that caused other things to occur and kicked off a hugely life altering chain of events that he holds some resentment over but mainly doesn't. it is very complicated and too long to explain here, but because that story never really got to have a natural conclusion to it i cannot say whether or not at the end of the day this event would be one he looks back upon fondly or negatively)

sorry this became soo much longer than i meant for it to but tl;dr he is someone who is resentful of much in his life, but i don't think would change much of it even if he could, because to change those events would be to change who he is, and change is very scary to him even if he puts up an act that makes it seem like he is the most easily changeable being to ever roam the world, he's a bundle of regrets and resentment but what good does that do? it happened. it happened and he can't escape it and he has to live with it and he has to continue to live with it forever and ever unless he decides to kill himself, uber depressing! but that's the character.)

[taegularities]

to the recent anon

[ryuryuryuyurboat]

I ACTUALLY LOVE JUJUBES SO MUCH?? LIKE THE DRIED ONES AND THE CRUNCHY FRESH ONES TOO

-eccentric anon

OMG HELLO??? SAME!! THEY'RE SO GOOD OMFG