#two separate people have messaged me to say my tags are nice and I'm <3 about it

[theluckywizard]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you for the tags @rowanisawriter and @nirikeehan

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

32

2. what’s your total ao3 word count?

359,445 (since February lawdy)

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Only Dragon Age

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

In the Shattering of Things (Cullen x Rose Trevelyan, Hawke x Trevelyan long fic)

The Boy Who Talked too Much (Alistair x Cousland fluff smut one shot)

Some Kind of Witchcraft (Cullen x Rose Trevelyan fluff smut one shot)

The Protestations of the Commander's Bed (Cullen x Rose Trevelyan fluff smut one shot... sensing a theme here? LMAO)

Unvarnished (Blackwall x Rose Trevelyan Smuuuut)

5. do you respond to comments?

Yes, always! Someone is going to take the time say something nice about my writing? I'm going to like awkwardly hug them with words.

6. what’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably toss up between

Fractures (Cullen x Rose Trevelyan whump smut)

and

Well Did You Miss Me? (Hawke x Rose Trevelyan angst)

7. what’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh this is tough. I end a lot of short fics on a very hopeful note where two people are teetering on the precipice of Looooooove.

But actually maybe a short Bethany Hawke drabble where she learns her brother Garrett is still alive in the Fade.

Contact

8. do you get hate on fics?

The closest I've gotten to hate, which wasn't really hate, just kind of funny is a few different commenters messaging me after I introduced Hawke in my long fic (the other clearly labeled Love Interest, 250k words in mind you) asking whether it was going to be Cullen in the end because they aren't interested in Hawke x Trevelyan and they don't want to read it unless it's Cullen in the end.

9. do you write smut? if so, what kind?

Yes. I try to write really characterful, joyful/emotional smuts generally-- the kind where it's just 'totally THEM'. I think smut is only as good as the set up and characters expressing themselves, because clinical/gratuitous descriptions of sex acts without those things doesn't interest me.

10. do you write crossovers? what’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Nope!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have not but I would loooove to!

14. what’s your all-time favorite ship?

God I can't risk showing my whole ass here because a bunch of long fic readers follow me but suffice to say the race for my love is real tight between the two separate ships in my long fic - Rose Trevelyan x Cullen and Rose Trevelyan x Garrett Hawke.

Also Dick Grayson x Barbara Gordon in DC 😍

15. what’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

Probably The Bequest which is my oc/oc/oc/oc/oc/oc spooky murder mystery fic. I want to believe I will but I would have to learn how to write a damn good mystery and I'm not sure I can. But will at least write some more chapters minimum!

16. what are your writing strengths?

-- snappy, authentic sounding dialogue and banter that captures the characters

-- joyful, ridiculous smut

-- setting descriptions when I really put my back into it

-- being inside a character's POV and capturing their narrative voice uniquely

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

PLOT. GAH. I only got into Fanfic in January and that's because I languished in Original Fiction Hell for two decades where I wrote and wrote aimlessly. I am a shit plotter and a shit planner. Stories come to me in scenes and feelings. So you can imagine that getting to write something that is fully plotted and world built for me is like THE BEST FUCKING THING EVER. It is so satisfying.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I have written in French a little bit for effect in the Winter Palace, but generally I don't do it, no.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

I wrote a sequel to the book The Witch of Blackbird Pond when I was thirteen maybe because the main ship gets together in the last pages and then it just ENDS and it was written in the 50s and the author was dead. I HAD TO RESOLVE THIS FOR MYSELF.

20. favorite fic you’ve ever written?

Aside from my long fic which is my ongoing baby and I am very proud (I am in the midst of Act 2 and still loving it), it would probably be --

The Commander, the Tevinter and a Bottle of Lightning which is Dorian getting Cullen drunk on fussy Tevinter booze and Rose showing up after he's sauced. (Fluff, Cullen POV)

or

Good Old Garbolg which is Rose and Hawke getting into the storage room to try a bottle of mystery booze (one of the Bottles of Thedas) and it having some unexpected consequences (Fluffsmut, Rose POV)

I have read both of these A LOT.

Tagging @crackinglamb, @greypetrel, @bluewren, @kiastirling, @melisusthewee, @rakshadow, @ar-lath-ma-cully, @ir0n-angel, @smutnug, @monocytogenes, @skyeventide and @ammoniteflesh

[fioras-resolve]

Hello, person reading this! I'm Angie Nyx, a video game developer and frequent good poster. If you're on my page, you're probably here because I talked about my projects, about games generally, or about Toki Pona. So lemme put essential info in this pinned post.

-Gamedev-

I am, among other things, a developer of turn-based RPG's, with the goal of uniting story and gameplay as a cohesive whole. So often in games we treat the two as separate things, because so often games basically are a movie or visual novel inter-cut with bits of interactivity. I don't just want to make a good game or tell a good story, I want to make a good interactive story.

My current project is Daybreak Hearts, a tactics game about the necessity and difficulty of forming connections. I'm making this game in SRPG Studio, which is the same engine the old Fire Emblem director uses to make Vestaria Saga. I've been using this engine for a good few years, and I'm very close to somebody who does plugins for it, so if you have any questions about it, just send an ask my way. And of course, if you want updates on Daybreak Hearts, feel free to ask, or check the tag.

If you want to check out the rest of my catalogue, I'm on itch.io as nyx. You should especially check out Fiora: Full Bloom, which is a turn-based RPG that uses the genre's mechanics to explore gender identity and mental health. I'm also proud of If You Had One Turn, which I made for a gamejam and later updated, and which is about winning RPG battles in only one turn. I've been at this for a while, and I'm getting better as I grow more confident and take things more seriously. Also check out this post, a series of manifestos about what I want as a game developer.

-Talking About Games-

Part of being a game developer and also autistic is that I think about games constantly all the time and do so with an analytical lens. The longer-form stuff tends to go to my essay blog, but I do post a lot of my stray thoughts on here. Just so know where my preferences lean, I like:

Tactics Games: This is my favorite genre, and I love talking about it. I love Into The Breach, Marvel's Midnight Suns, and Triangle Strategy, all of which are worth checking out. I also like modern XCOM, some of the Fire Emblem games, and I can even find something nice to say about Gears Tactics.

RPGs: I find a lot of comfort in a genre that is mostly centered around number-crunching. I'm really into Xeno, more Gears than Blade though. I have a complicated relationship with Final Fantasy, let's just say Motomu Toriyama is an underappreciated director. And on the western side, Deus Ex is pretty cool, and I have GOT to get back on Baldur's Gate 3. Also on the indie side, play Cataphract OI and Helen's Mysterious Castle.

Mystery Games: Ace Attorney changed my brain chemistry as a child and now I have Miles Edgeworth in my head. I also love Ghost Trick obviously, and I also really like the Zero Escape games (yes, even that one) and Her Story. If you wanted to get me a Steam gift, either Telling Lies or Return of the Obra Dinn would be perfect.

Platformers: Mario... good. I'm also into Celeste, Metroid, Sonic on its better days, and also A Hat In Time is pretty good. Platformers embody Video Games to me.

Puzzle Games: This is partially an extension of the mystery games thing but i also really love 14 Minesweeper Variants and other stuff by Artless Games. Also Baba Is You is good, of course.

I try to appreciate everything I can about a game, and use my perspective as a game designer to maybe give some new insights. If you're looking for some videos, I'd recommend New Frame Plus, Game Maker's Toolkit, and especially talks from GDC and GDoC. I have a playlist of my favorite talks here.

-Toki Pona-

I speak Toki Pona, and I like to think I'm pretty good at it. To prove it to people who care, here's a special message that i'm too afraid to say in English, so we tokiponists get to have it for ourselves. (content warning for pakala unpa)

toki! mi kisa Ansi. tenpo mute la, mi pilin e ni: mi jan wan, lon insa kulupu suli. ni li ken ike e pilin mi, tan ni: kulupu suli li wile e ijo mute tan jan, taso jan li wile pana ala. tenpo mute la, kulupu tonsi li toki e ni tawa mi: "lon tonsi li unpa. sina tonsi la, sina wile unpa." taso, mi tonsi. tenpo mute la, mi wile ala unpa. jan wan li pakala e mi kepeken unpa, la mi monsuta e ona. ni li ike, taso, mi ken pilin ike. pilin ike li ike ala. ni la, mi toki e ni tawa sina: o sina. o pali e wile sina. o pali ala e wile pi sina ala. sina sina. sina ken sina. o pana e pona tawa sina. sina jan wan, taso, sina jan suli.

(Also I'm catkin and plural so don't be surprised or angry if I post about either of those.)

[aethersea]

my friend who studied marketing: *tracking engagement on her twitter posts, carefully balancing original content with retweets of well-known twitters that enhance her brand, probably does cute little polls sometimes*

me, periodically remembering I have followers:

[amhrosina]

Fics & Amhrosina Updates <3

MASTERLIST // TAG LIST REQUEST FORM

i have had a massive influx of followers and notifs in the last 24 hours so i wanted to say hello to the new people and give a small update!

i have possibly the worst cold in the history of colds right now, so writing is going much slower than normal. to the people who have sent me requests - i see them and i am actively working on them!

i'm currently in the beginning stages of a pretty beefy Bucky fic that i'm hoping to publish in one complete post (not separate parts), but we'll see!

the pregnancy headcanons are getting at least two more parts, but possibly three depending on how much story i get through in the next part. i'm hoping to have part three published tonight (10/20), but again, this cold is kicking my ass so patience would be appreciated!

i also want to write more for Matt & Billy, so keep an eye out for those.

my requests are open, but like i said, my account has gotten a lot of attention in the last two days, so please be patient if you're waiting on me to write your request! i will get to it - i promise!

thank you SO much for following, reblogging, liking, commenting, and the nice messages some of you have sent me!!! my welcome to this community has been so warm and i am so excited to continue!

amhrosina <3

p.s. - if you've commented under one of my posts, asking to be tagged in a fic, i am doing my best to keep up with all of those, but it would be sooo much easier if y'all could fill out the tag list request form. i have it linked to an excel sheet where everything is separated and i can clearly see what you've signed up to be tagged in. it's completely customizable and makes my life soooo much easier. thank you!

[someone-worth-racing-for]

Hello! :) I have seen this questions the other day and I would like to see your answers to them (see my next messages)

Hey anon! 👋🏼

First of all, I'm so sorry that it took me sooo long to finally answer your questions.

Questions for a writer about their own works - my heart.. 😅❤️ I really think those are great questions. Every writer likes to talk about their own stories and give an insight about all the stuff behind their works - the whole package 😉

I will do the tagging at the beginning, so all of you don't have to go to the end (even tho you still have to scroll to find the questions 😅). Maybe some of you would like to answer those questions as well 🤗

@hurtsprincess @hibwascus @mahixa @redshoulderedblackbirds @chasingpegasus @imme-youareyou @la-rascasse

Anon, I hope you don’t mind, that I have written down your questions and haven't used each of your asks to answer your questions separately 🙈

You can find your questions and my answers to them under the cut 👇🏼

1) Which of your fics you wish had more kudos/comments/bookmarks?

That’s actually an easy question for me to answer – the first one would be And Suddenly All Love Songs Were About You. I know, this one is pretty hard to read - an almost 22k OS I should have definitely subdivided into at least two chapters and the storyline also isn’t always that lovely and “easy” to read. And I don’t know how to describe it, but this fanfiction actually feels so “real” to me, even tho it’s a contradiction in itself to call a fanfiction real, but maybe you know what I mean here 😅 I’m also aware about that it’s actually also not the typical story I usually write/people like to read. It’s not always everything perfect, not a perfect life, not a perfect world, just like in real life. But I still love that story a lot, maybe because it’s not perfect and “so close” to reality.

And the second one would be I Will Always Be There For You Brother (even tho it's not finish yet) I actually have lost count about how many times I have ugly cried, while writing this story. But it were definitely A LOT of times.. It’s an AU, maybe that’s one of the reasons, why it’s one of my favourite stories, but the main reason is still because it’s based on a true story. Actually it’s only one part that has happened in real life, but knowing that this has really happened, still breaks my heart and gives me goose bumps every time.

Yeah, I really wish those two stories would have got more kudos/comments/bookmarks, since I have spent a lot of time, tears and much effort in writing them and both of them mean a lot to me. So it would be really nice, even tho I know these are not the typical "love, peace and harmony" Carlando stories, people like/use to read.

2) Which of your fics do you feel is overrated?

That’s actually another easy question for me to answer – it’s definitely Someone Worth Racing For. Just because I have made so many spelling/grammar/carless mistakes in those chapters, it’s actually incredible! 😅 Besides, it was my first, longer fanfiction for this fandom and back then I really had zero knowledge about F1 at all. Okay, to stay fear – nowadays I only have about 1% more knowledge than back then, but still. But not only that, I have still known so less about Lando and especially about Carlos and their lives. For example, I haven’t known about Carlos Onoro (Carlos’ cousin) being called “Caco”, why I always had much trouble to build him into the story, since I always had to make sure that people will know which Carlos I actually mean at the moment 🙈 I also haven’t known about that Carlos actually also has an older sister, not only a younger one and that he had a place in Woking at that time and so on. One day I really, really have to correct/re-work that story.. 😬

3) What is the fic that took you the most time to write?

Well, if you mean based on time here, then I would say all of my unfinished multi-chapter stories, especially Becoming a Man, since I have still planned so many more chapters for that story. So I guess this will be the story that took me the longest to write/to finish one day. If you mean here which story was the hardest for me to write and it felt like it took myself a half eternity to finally finish it, then it’s definitely Babylove.

As much as I have liked that story first, as less I like it today. I actually had a lot of fun writing the first chapter, especially collecting all those facts about Lando’s and Carlos’ career before F1. But I have already struggled a lot to write the second chapter - please, don’t ask me why, because when I have finally jumped over my own shadow and set down to keep on writing it, it has actually always worked, but it was until I finally did so, that gave me so much trouble and worries. But more to that story later by question 6..

4) What do you think is the best fic you ever wrote (until today)?

That’s actually funny, because even tho it’s the same story that I think is the most overrated fic of mine, I also think at the same time, that it's my best one so far 😅🙈 Someone Worth Racing For. Because of the before, by question 2 already mentioned reasons, I have never understood why this story of mine is actually so “popular” until I have started to (re-)read all Carlando stories on AO3 again last year and I realized that this story of mine had been one of the first longer, multi-chapter stories for this couple back then. Also because I have been able to deliver weekly updates, that’s why I guess this is the best story I have written so far, based on all the hits/kudos/comments I have received for it.

5) What do you think is the worst fic you ever wrote (until today)?

Mhm.. Even tho I think they also aren’t that bad, I would say Together, Carlos vs Lando’s PC and/or chain beast. I don’t know, just since I haven’t spent that much time writing these stories and they actually also don’t mean much to me 🤷🏼‍♀️

6) What is the saddest thing that happened to you related to a fic (may it be success, a draft that erased itself and so on…)?

Now we come back to Babylove.. It all started, when I have said that I will make a little break over summer and people were concerned about that I won’t continue Babylove. That I won’t post the final chapter (even tho I have actually never said so, only that I will take a little break, however). I haven’t counted them, but I think I had at least 10 anonymous asks about when I will finally post the last chapter. And because people obviously really seemed to be interested in that story, I finally jumped over my own shadow once again, because the third chapter was really, really hard for me to write. Probably the most difficult one since I’m writing. God, I was so happy and relieved when I have finally made it and when I could upload it. But what did really, really hurt after was that until today no one has left a real comment under the last chapter on AO3. I know I have got a few reviews here on Tumblr, but after all those asks and messages, I have really thought that people would leave at least a few comments. I don’t know – maybe it was all the time just one anon asking the same question about the final update over and over again or maybe it were more people, but they were probably all not satisfied/disappointed with the end of the story. I don’t know, but it’s really sad to see under all those people who have at least clicked on my story for the final chapter (I don’t know if they have all read it, but I guess at least some have), no one has said anything about it, at least not on AO3. The “relationship” between the story and me was never the best, but after that, I actually really have enough of this story and don’t want to think back about it anymore, about how much I have struggled with it and all that for nothing. (I know it’s not like that, but it still kind of feels like it.) So yeah, that’s actually the saddest thing that has happened to me related to a fic so far. But I have also learned my lesson to not get up my hope anymore, only because people ask about a certain story/update..

7) What is/are the comment(s) you received that you can never forget even now (negative and positive)?

There are many comments I hopefully won’t ever forget, especially on my first Carlando stories, but the reviews I sure won’t ever forget are the ones coming from a certain person (you know who you are). Without you I wouldn’t write stories anymore, or at least I wouldn’t publish them anymore. But I can also call myself lucky, because I have never really received any negative comments or even hate for my stories.

8) A fic you’d dream to write even if you know it wouldn’t get much readers/feedback?

There is this is one I always daydream about, especially when I’m going for a walk alone. The one I actually can’t even give a name 😅 You know, I’m a big fan of our Austrian Alps, I just love those landscapes. When I have been a kid, my favourite TV show has been Heidi 😅, since then I have those daydreams about the Alps and everything that comes with them – the forests, the animals, the adventures, the mysteries. That’s why I also really enjoyed a lot to write Stop Time. So that daydream-story would take place in the Austrian Alps and it would play in another universe. I know that fic wouldn’t get me many readers nor feedback, because most don’t know about that magic of the Alps I’m talking about here. They probably wouldn’t get the vibes and so the story probably wouldn’t be able to touch them. At least not as much as it always touches me whenver I think about it.

9) Coming back to the last question, did the fact that a fic wouldn’t get many readers (rare ship/different dynamic and so on) already stopped you from writing it?

No. And since Babylove, I can tell that I even prefer it that way. I mean, to expect not much or even any kudos/comments at all, so I can’t get disappointed. Best I could get surprised, if anyway, if someone would leave some feedback. But that fic I’m daydreaming about would take too much time and effort for me to write, so it will probably stay in my head forever. Except I will have so much time one day, which I really doubt. But who knows.. 🤷🏼‍♀️😅

10) Which of your fics represent you the best?

That question was actually not so easy to answer.. But I would say Taking Care Of You, since I see myself (especially when I have been younger) as Lando in that story. Someone who needs someone else to show them their way, who is there for them and takes care of them. Makes themfeel safe and exactly knows what they need. In real life, I can be pretty shy and insecure sometimes and even though I maybe don’t seem like that, I still sometimes wish there would be someone stronger next to me when I can’t be, someone I can lean my head against their shoulder when I have a weak moment. Yeah, I think that fic represents me the best.

11) What is your main source of ideas?

My main source of ideas? Woha – there are actually many! First of all – real life situations “live events”, because the muppets themselves are giving us/me enough content to write books about them. But also fanart like in Modern Romeo And Juliet, music like Tell Me What You Want To Hear (One Republik) or Talking to the Moon (Bruno Mars), movies like by Who Needs A Wingman, When You Have Uno And Pinon (101 Dalmatian) or just simple labels on shirts, when I’m shopping like it had been by And Suddenly All Love Songs Were About You. But of course I also get inspired a lot by other fanfictions I read, not always Carlando related. Also some I have already read a lifetime ago and of course also requests.

12) Is there an author that inspired you?

There are actually A LOT – here in this fandom, in my past fandoms but also “real” authors (don’t get me wrong, I think we are all real authors, I just meant here authors who don’t write fanfictions), but I won’t name any of them here now, since I have learned my lesson and don’t want to make anyone feel sad or left out ever again.

13) Is there a fic you wish people to read, because it left a big impression on you?

The same as above. But if you want to check out my favourite Carlando stories from 2019 and 2020 – just follow the link

14) What is your favorite topic to read? And to write?

It’s actually the same for me (I mean to write and to read) – I’m a sucker for slow burns and I also love happy endings. I like mild angst, alternative universe, crossovers, soulmates, fix-it fics, fluff, hurt-comfort, ABO fics, sick fics. I also love, enjoy to read and of course also to write stories with a deeper meaning, ones that are more extensive and meaningful.

15) What motivated you to make your works public?

The first fanfiction I have ever written was back then in 2016. I did write and later also published it, because I have got very inspired by a great fic, which plot I have really loved and enjoyed to read a lot, until a certain point, when everything suddenly became too “dark” for me. I didn’t feel happy/satisfied with the end, so I wrote my own version of that plot, with the ending I had hoped the original story would actually have/I had daydreamed about (but of course giving full credit to the storyline to the other author!). Actually, I have just noticed that the first story I have written/published was for a giveaway contest and not the other one 😅 But I for me the first real story I have written is the one based on the storyline of another author.

But if you want to know what has motivated me to write stories for the F1 fandom, well – there has been once again two reasons. My very first story About Date Nights And Babysitting I have actually written for a friend as a surprise. But my first Carlando story I have written Tomorrow Will Be Kinder had been after the first race I have ever watched, Spa 2019. And since that time of the year is always an emotional one for me and I think everyone remembers what has happened on that race weekend, I just needed to write down my emotions to somehow feel better and be able to deal with it.

16) A word you’d like to say to people who pass by / who follow you / who read your fics?

I would actually like to take that chance and even tho I have already talked about this so often, I still want to remember people/readers that we are doing this all here for free, writing stories. And I really don’t only mean myself, I mean every wonderful writer out there. Like I have already said, we are all doing this for free, in our free time, spending hours and hours with writing, putting so much love and effort into every single sentence, but it really breaks my heart, when I have read a great, emotional and so well-written story on AO3 and I see there is not one single feedback under the last paragraph.

Of course, I don’t want to force anyone to anything, that you have to leave under every fic you read a comment, I also don’t do that myself, but please always remember how much work it had been and how proud the write actually is about their work, about their “baby” and think about how happy you could make a person with leaving a little note for them.

It really means to world to us writers. Of course, every feedback is appreciated and even tho it’s great to hear that someone has liked the story, it still feels like a firework exploring, when someone tells you more about how beautiful your “baby” is. I’m aware about that many don’t know what to say, but also asking the author questions about the story is some kind of feedback as well – showing interest.

Leaving a comment is not far as exhausting, it doesn’t take so much effort and even less time than writing a story, believe me. And after reading something that has really touched you and you can assume that the writer has given their best, please just stop for a few moments and leave a comment. You really can’t imagine what that means to a writer and what that causes inside them. We are actually living from feedback, because it’s how we get “paid”.

It just really hurts me to see so less feedback under certain, amazing fanfics, especially under works of my friends, I exactly know they have put so much time, effort and sometimes even tears into it.

Or when a writer posts here on Tumblr the word count of their stories from this year so far on a handwritten sheet and the only comment they get is about how beautiful their handwriting is. Seriously, best I have wanted to jump through the internet and shake those commenter’s shoulders, because that was definitely NOT what the writer has been trying to say/show here. Again, our works are our babies and we are proud of them and want to show them to the entire world.

I know many writers feel the same way like I do about the lack of feedback lately and I also know that many feel uncomfortable, maybe even ashamed or also stupid for talking/”asking” about it and “complaining”, but I don’t care, because I’m sure that most of the readers don’t understand what feedback means to us, because they just can’t understand it. That’s why I want to explain it and make them understand us, because they aren't even aware about it. Maybe I do sound whiny, but I really don't care. I’m speaking for so many, not only for myself. And especially for new authors. I’m already used to it, I write fanfictions since years, but I feel sad for all of the new ones, who get insecure about their works and maybe stop it already again after their first try, because no one has left any feedback at all, no matter if it were praises for their story or tips. Feedback is important for us to grow, so it’s of course also okay when you enlighten writers about any mistakes they might have made as long as you stay respectful and kind and maybe even find at least one thing they have done good in your eyes.

Again, just don’t be afraid about leaving comments, because the biggest "mistake" you can make is actually not leaving any feedback at all.

Just remember that after you have read another story, which had touched you and you have really enjoyed to read. It only takes a few moments to make someone happy and isn’t that worth it in the end? 😊

Okay, but still something I also want to say especially to the people who read my stories/follow me – I really appreciate every single one of you, every word you have ever left under my stories, ever kudos, every hit and every bookmark. I’m really glad that I can make people happy through my stories. I have actually never thought so, when I have written my first story already such a long time ago. It’s really a pleasure for me to write for you and make you feel good/better. Writing is my own therapy, my opportunity to flee from the real word, at least for some moments every day and create a world according to my ideas, imaginations and dreams and it’s really a pleasure for me to let you be part of it. I hope you guys can enjoy it as much as I do and that the whole work is worth it.

Thank you so much. Every single one of you, thank you to the moon and back 🤗❤️🙏🏼

[hollyhomburg]

can u show what happens after the snipts and i'm curious about the tae x reader, pretty please my heart is broken from that angst but the way you wrote is beautiful

here is the next part!

SANDCASTLES: SNIPPETS IN SEQUENCE (3) (YOONMINJOONSEOK X READER) (TAEHYUNG X READER) (OMEGAVERSE AU) 

TAGS: angst, unplanned pregnancy, depression, loneliness, BETA! taehyung x reader

W/c: 3.5k

A/n: here you go! here are the beta Taehyung parts, as well as what happens immediately after she leaves the alphas and Jimin. The next part will be about what happens to them in the wake of her leaving, and I will say this; the next part has some heavy tags so be sure to watch out for those. ALSO- TAE IS THE VILLAN OF THIS STORY, but the beginning with him isn’t bad. he will eventually betray the reader so be prepared! 

- You cry yourself to sleep every night the first week in your new apartment. 

- It’s a nice place really, too nice- but your company had told you it was more than within your means when they booked it for you. and you can barely believe the first paycheck you get.  it has an extra bedroom and a kitchen with a retro-style but new appliances and molding on the ceiling in the old district, full of restaurants and coffee shops that you live off for the first few weeks. 

- You don’t have a bed frame yet, so your bed just sits on the carpeted floor.  Your boxes scattered around you, the one that holds some of your books acts as a nightstand.  Your new job isn’t that terrible- in fact they make every point to tell you how good it is to have someone capable fill the position, and how good you are at your job. 

- After so long it’s nice to feel appreciated. 

- You even make friends with two of the other women that work there, an omega female named Yeri, and an alpha female named Irene, who would have made you nervous if not for the mating mark clearly evident on her collar bone. 

- Despite the fact that they were slightly under you in the company, they both treated you, the new girl, with kindness. They even invited you to have lunch with them and get to know them on your second day and showed you around the company. 

- It wasn’t safe for an unmated omega in a new city they said, you ended up crying in the bathroom for a few hours after that- it used to be your dream to be marked by Namjoon, Yoongi, and Hoseok, and for them to bear your and Jimin's mark. But now that dream could never come to fruition. 

- But they are kind- so kind. They don’t ask you where you came from or even if you have any family- keeping your conversations mostly on company gossip and pop culture. You end up going to see a movie with them in the second week. And by the end of the third, the three of you are the best of friends. 

- You’d never really had any friends that where girls- after all you’d always had Jimin, you’d never needed anyone else other than him until now. 

- You get a dresser and put your old phone (still turned off) in the top drawer once you get a company cellphone. You adjust well, your apartment overlooks a park and a small pond in the very middle of the bustling city. Your place of work is only 5 blocks away, and you find yourself enjoying your walk to work every morning. 

- But you’re miserable, you can't breathe in the smell of coffee without thinking of Yoongi and feeling sick to your stomach, every time you hear music you think of all the times both Jimin and Hoseok used to drag you to your feet to dance.  

- You cant even watch TV without your and Namjoon’s favorite documentary show coming on- or that drama you and Hoseok used to curl up and watch. - What’s more, is that it seems like you’re actually getting sick, your fever is raised and every time you go for lunch you end up vomiting it all back up a few minutes later. Even your favorite foods don’t stay down. you try to chalk it up to the stress of moving and being separated from your alphas (which has been known to happen in some omegas after they part with a pack, their instincts regecting their minds desire to stay away), but it seems like that's less the case the more time goes on. 

- It happens one day at work while you sit and eat your lunch with Yeri (Irene had a meeting during your usual lunch hour- but she told you not to wait for her). and you narrowly avoid vomiting on your new white blouse before you lean over and throw up your sandwich in the waste paper basket, a sudden wave of vomiting hits you so harshly that Yeri looks more than a little concerned. 

- After you assure her that yes- you’re going to the doctor soon about it, and yes you’ve been able to keep water down she gives you a final withering look before she offhandedly says, “fine just don’t go getting pregnant on me like Irene’s wife did- I swear now all the two of them ever want to do is watch baby TV and talk about their child’s poops.” 

- Throughout the rest of the day her words stick with you, and you end up going home at the end of the day only to pacing your apartment for a few hours,  before you head back out to the store to pick up a pregnancy test and some ice cream (because why not). 

- You pace around your small unfurnished living room as you wait for the stick to give you your results.You never expected to do this alone- in your mind someone was always here with you, you even expected to have all of them there. You wanted Jimin's hand on yours more than anything, you wanted to grow massive with him, and maybe raise your children together if you could. 

- You openly sob the stick comes back as positive, you pace around your apartment crying and thinking on your situation for the entirety of the night before you realize that you being pregnant does nothing to change your situation. this is the only time you strongly consider turning on your old phone. you didn’t know if there would even be messages waiting from you- probably from Jimin, but not from any of the others you’re sure. 

- Out of all of them- it has to be namjoon’s, you think back to the time in the kitchen, how your front was pressed to the granite, how it felt impersonal, how you’d sent the email for your job immediately after. that was probably the day you got pregnant. 

- the more you think about it, the more you're sure. you put your phone away and don’t turn it on. Why would they want you now? if anything this would only make them hate you more. they where good people, and they wouldn’t have let you do this alone, especially Jimin.  but They would resent being tied to a pregnant omega that they weren’t mated too or even in love with- that you were sure of. 

- you imagine it briefly, sure- you’d have them in your life, but only so far as your child would have a parent in Namjoon, and uncles in the rest. you imagine the awkward doctors visits, the offers to pay, needing to share your child between here and Seoul. whatever children they’d have one day with Jimin, would be cousins to yours, and whatever children he’d have with Namjoon. well- they’d have the love of all the alphas, not just Namjoon. and you don’t want your child to feel any less loved because of your mistakes. 

- So You’d have to raise your child alone, in a city that you barely knew. Without any support system. Sure your new friend were great but they were so new. So to distract yourself from your situation, the fact that you’re going to do all of this alone, and the fact that you left your baby’s father- You drown yourself in work, staying later than anyone else consistently, falling into your bed exhausted. 

- You go to your prenatal appointments alone, and when you start getting cravings, there’s no one to lean over to in the middle of the night and ask for chocolate sauce and watermelon, or barbecue mayonnaise and mac and cheese fries, you get up and do it yourself. 

- By week 5 of your pregnancy, your hormones have started to change enough that one day you walk into work and Yeri almost screams in happiness, congratulating you and jumping in your arms when she notices how your scent has changed. It’s only when she pulls back and sees your withdrawn sad expression that she says, “oh honey…” and Irene slaps her on the arm lightly as she tries to broach the topic of the father. They both know you live alone by now.

- you notify your boss, and you almost pass out when they offer you nearly 4 months of maternity leave. they seem determined to treat you well. it helps that your ceo is also an omega. 

- By about 12 weeks- you’re starting to show significantly enough that people on the train start to give you the priority seat when you were tight clothes. You show Enough that you begin to fiddle with your old phone again. You get close several times to turning it on-But in the end you never do. Preferring to leave it in the drawer of the nightstand next to your bed right next to the picture of them. 

- “You can do this, there are plenty of single omega parents, it’s not like it used to be” the doctor and the clinic that you go too for your prenatal appointments assures you when the other omega finally asks if they’ res a father or another mother in the picture. 

- And you’re not over what happened by any means but things slowly start to get better. 

- You don’t cry randomly as much, you start coming home earlier and going on walks- the doctor said it was good for the baby. On the weekends you go to this fresh fruit market, sometimes with Irene and her wife and child, making a day out of it. 

- And you enjoy the little child as he reaches up for your stomach, patting on it gently and slurring the words “baby out now!” that causes all of you to giggle and Irene’s wife apologizes- saying that their little Eun just loves babies more than anything. 

- Your life is nice, calm. There is a tense atmosphere in your apartment, though you do buy a few plants, and a few poster pictures to put on the white walls. slowly the space starts to feel like yours.  You paint the spare room the lightest shade of robins egg blue and add puffy white clouds to the walls with Yeri, giggling and laughing harder than you have in months as she accidentally splashes paint onto her face. 

- Your relationship with a kind and soft beta named Taehyung starts simply and in the most cliché way possible.

- You accidentally ran into him while coming home from the grocery store, your belly barely showing through a baggy sweatshirt. Two paper bags in either arm. One of the bags rips when he bumps into you. his other coming up to stop you from falling backward, his arm like iron, his hands digging into you to steady you. all of a sudden your whole body flush with warmth. 

- Tae is an absolute gentleman, picking up your weird assortment of food in his hands and walking the few blocks to your tiny apartment. you feel surprisingly safe with the stranger, your instincts have been in overdrive since your body started to adjust to your pregnancy, and they’re something about Tae’s scent that immediately settles your stomach. 

It goes surprisingly well, there is something so gentlemanly about his deep voice and his quiet smile that makes you feel so relaxed. His beta scent- the smell of clean laundry (beta’s always smelled clean) definitely has something to do with it. not his pretty jaw or his delicate style. 

- You invite him in for some iced tea and you spend a few minutes chatting, now that the bags not in front of your stomach, Tae can see why you seemed so unsteady on your feet. You expect it to scare him away- but he doesn’t mention you're obvious condition until he’s about to leave. Handing you a small slip of paper with his number on it. 

- He touches your shoulder softly. “I live in the area so If you ever need any help- please don’t hesitate to call me.” by now he has scented the room, know by the lack of a competing scent as well as the lack of a bite on your shoulder that you’re alone. that you don't have anyone. 

- You pin the number to the old fashion fridge and try to forget about it. After all, tae was more than a little flirty and you’re in no position to even want to date anyone right now. But when you finally call it’s more about needing help than wanting to see him. Though seeing him was an added bonus. 

- He helps you move your refrigerator after an important document falls behind it, the literal social security card that you can't reach or get at. And he’s sweaty sipping more of your ice tea when he says, “I hoped that when you finally called me it would be for a date and not to rescue your medical stuff behind your dusty fridge.”

- “You don’t want to date me tae,” you say, your hand hovering over your stomach. He looks at your tummy too, sicking in his lower lip. 

- “No I’m sure that I do” he says, taking your hand in his before he says softly, his warm brown eyes piercing into you as he looks through his black bangs “I don’t know what you’re dealing with, I don’t know who or what you’re running from, but trust me when I saw that I really, really want to take you out on a date- at least once.” 

- You relent and agree to go visit a night market with him- one of the hallmarks of this city that you hadn’t yet indulged in.He buys you ice cream and fried mac and cheese and doesn’t criticize you when you dunk your French fries in your chocolate Sunday. In fact, he joins in- letting you dunk one in his Oreo mango ice cream. 

- You listen to Tae talk about his job; you find out that he owns a pair of café’s the first one that he inherited from his grandmother, the second one that he opened last year after the first one did so well. Business is booming so much that he’s contemplating opening a third. the cafe is just between your apartment and your job, it’s no wonder that you never ran into him sooner. 

- You promise to come to try his berry macaroons that are apparently the best in town. He starts to talk about coffee but then a glance down to your stomach reminds him that you can’t have that- and he switches to boba tea

- You sit in the warm summer air listening to a live band before you go to walk along the river, the lights reflecting off the water like one of van Goh's paintings. You’re laughing at some joke Tae tells you when he leans over surprisingly and kisses you, you recoiled a little, more surprised than displeased. 

- “I’m sorry- you just looked so…. i’m sorry- I rushed you didn’t I, shit- y/n I’m so-” 

- “I don’t know what you want from me Tae,” you say gesturing to your stomach, he starts to look abashed and ashamed, but then relents at your soft expression “but if we’re going to see each other like that, then you have to know that I miss them.” You say softly while looking out at the water, your hand hovering over your swollen stomach.  

- “them?” he asks, looking surprised, you nod, “them.”  

- “And I’m not going to stop missing them, probably for a long while. I think I always will. And if you’re ok with that- if you don’t mind-” Tae reaches up, running a hand across your face and you find yourself leaning into his touch, its been so long since anyone’s touched you with any affection. Your body is so hungry, so needy for it.

- “I don’t care who else is in your heart, I only want a place in It.” Tae says after a moment. Leaning his forehead against yours.

- You and tae start casually seeing each other, you stop by his coffee shop most days before work, it’s a street off from your company’s main building, and Tae always has a bag of coffee cake or a plate full of raspberry tarts for you, he pushes away your money with a lopsided grin the makes your heart beat rapidly.  He even steps away during the busiest times to sit with you and just talk. 

- Sometimes he plops your feet up on his lap and massages your swollen ankles, his smiles sweeter than the pastries, not taking no for an answer until you’ve tried every kind the café offers at least twice because he wants to know which are your favorite. 

- One-night Taehyung finds your photo of all of them and your old cellphone in your dresser. And you're just trying to crack an egg into a pan when he comes out holding it. you almost drop the carton when he asks you who they are. 

- He sits you down and you start breathing heavily and tells you that you don’t need to tell him- he sends a concerned look at your stomach, and that it doesn't matter if it's going to make you upset. you don't mean to have a panic attack but really, turning around and seeing your...your boyfriend holding the picture of your baby daddy just suprised you. 

- tae looks like he honestly wants to know, So you launch into the story of your best friend who you’ve loved and will love until the day you die. Cradle to grave and all that. 

- Fuck you miss jimin so much. You miss them all, Hoseok, yoongi and Namjoon. He laughs like Namjoon did when you tell him childhood stories of you and jimin and listens eagerly as you tell him about your college experience and trying to stay away. 

- He’s a little quieter when he learns about the alpha’s that you love while you point at their faces in the picture and smile. He smiles a little though when you start listing off the things about them that you love. And he gets a little sadder when he realizes it will always be love- And not loved. 

- your love for them hasn’t faded. not in all these months apart. 

- He wishes you would move on from them. Wishes he was the only one who had ever made a home out of your heart. But he understands why you can’t- you’re carrying his child after all. The one with the gray hair in the photo, you tell him as much. 

- he touches the photograph softly, “I understand why you miss them so much- it must have been so nice having so many people to love you and to love them back.”

- “it really was.” 

- “I wish I was worth that” Taehyung says softly, his face downturned. You kiss away his worries, “you are tae- never think you’re not worth it- because you are.” he pulls you to him and kisses your forehead as his mind turns your words over in his head. 

- maybe your words have a double meaning, maybe maybe, runs through his head. And he shakes off thoughts of other omega’s and directs his attention to you. 

- “so are we going to eat dinner together or what? Should I call for takeout”

- But no matter where you go home too at night, no matter how good things are with Tae, you can’t help but think about Namjoon’s arms encircling your waist, about Yoongi’s quiet roll of his knuckles against your side in a silent hello.  

- About Hoseok’s sweet kisses and how he would take your hand in his and drag you up from wherever you were sitting to slow dance with you around your kitchen when you were sad, and how it would eventually devolve into giggles and awkward butt wiggles.

- Nothing like how it was when you left when Hoseok would barely look at you- and if he did even look at you, it would only be with disdain and anger so severe that it would make you shake.

- But most of all you miss Jimin, the way he would hang on Namjoon’s thighs while gripping yours, how when he would laugh he would throw himself onto your shoulder to hide his closed-eyed smile in your skin. the way you’d smell so much like each other you could hardly distinguish your scents anymore. 

- The first night you sleepover at Taehyung’s house you end up waking up in the middle of the night and reaching out for another set of arms. 

- Taehyung wakes up too you wearing his silk robe and crying on his balcony, where you went to hide your sobs, he runs his hands up and down your arms while talking to you quietly, saying that you should come inside. 

- That the cold is bad for the baby, and he’s right, you’re shaking like a leaf and your belly has grown so much in the past month. You’re nearly 5 months along- you’ve only known tae for a few months, but he already wants to tell you he loves you. He already loves you and the baby- it doesn’t matter that he’s not the father. 

- But what you don’t know is that at that moment, Jimin is doing the same thing, crying on a balcony, feeling unable to go back inside as he looks out over the view that the two of you used to love. He remembers how you would drag the alphas out onto the balcony to eat dinner or play a game or just sitting, talking as you looked at the city. 

- Because the apartment inside doesn’t feel like it used to- try as he might it doesn’t feel like home anymore, because you’re not there and everything is slowly falling apart- has been for months, and by now Jimin feels like he’s falling apart too. 

- It feels like he’s been watching a train wreck in slow motion since you left.

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(once again! this series will never be finished! just fyi!) 

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Hey!! 👋🏽😄 I know you said in your last rant about SK8 and Reki and Renga that you were one of those people that always looks up and learns from others, but after your last Langa edit, I just wanted to remind you how immensely talented you are. I might have not seen your first attempts at editing, but I know how it looks like when you're barely starting something, and I'm sure everyone is proud of the progress you've made and many people looks up to you as the level of skill they want to achieve. You're doing amazing! 💖💖💖

Hi, my love!!!!!! ASDFSDFGHG that’s soooo sweet, thank you so much for saying this, it really means the world to me <3 Oh, haha I’ve deleted most of my old videos so it wouldn’t hurt anyone’s eyes lmao T_T I’m still a bit nervous each time I’m uploading my vids to the day to be honest, even with so many subs rn, but at first I really didn’t have any supporters at all and my god I sucked at this, but I guess the love for my fav ships was stronger apparently haha. So I always get silly happy at each nice comment and feedback, so thank you seriously. 

I really love love love vidding, Idk why but when smth comes out the way I wanted it’s a super addictive feeling for some reason, but many times I just looked at the final result and just threw it in the trash and started over and my god how many times SonyVegas crushed and didn’t autosave the project. I’m like Suga now, I’m pressing the save button each 2 minutes, cause don’t want to lose anything xD Being someone’s inspiration is truly an honor to me, I’ve got some messages that hit me too hard. Still feels weird bc I’m like “but do you know that I can’t even use photoshop tho, how do u like me now then?” lol.

I’m always drawn to talented characters, bc they amaze me, esp the humble ones. Like those who hate Haru or Lanaga just buffle me honestly. I understand that they’re pretty and talented and everything, but they’re also the sweetest and loveliest human beings, so like...??? And I adore those who don’t whine and get what they want. I just can’t help it. I’m a strong believer in the fact that "you can do anything if you put your mind to it”. So far it worked in real life so suck it lol.

People are also saying like Langa doesn’t deserve to win this and Haru doesn’t deserve to be in Olympics, like Langa didn’t snowboard since he was 2 and Haru wasn’t swimming every day since he was born. I’m like.. and you need to check in the mirror if your face is a shade of green. BTW I’ve also been in a professional sports for quite a long time since I was a little kid, ballroom dancing and adored it back then, and I did not get jealous at ppl who were talented than me, I was watching the tapes actually with a popcorn. And oh god those large competition events when you sit there for days and give it all, but then you’re like 296 out of 1000. Why was I proud instead of being sad? Idk xD It was fun.

So thanks for liking the vid, cause I even regretted uploading it a bit yesterday. Sadly everyone already knows that we lost this fandom to the middle schoolers being extra, so they do not care for anything each episode except for this ship, so that’s what I got for posting a just Langa vid:

And etc. and that just made me sad, cause I do not like such fandoms, like it’s not even related to the video, that I’ve been making... with love.  Also thanks for the "sama” title, I’m flattered, but editor only wants to vid matchablossom for now, so like there’s no need for any warnings. I’ve been in such horrendoes fandoms, that I’m immune to this. I also in fact didn’t know some keep ruining Langa’s page and saying that he steals Reki’s screen time... cause he’s aparently the only main character...? ...lmao? I didn’t even know Langa can be hated tbh. I wasn’t really ready for all the drama that followed me making a vid about him.

I’ve already deleted some comments, cause I’m like what this even has to do with the vid about Langa? No, I am not obliged to make a vid about Reki, too. What if I post a matchablossom vid, everyone will only start commenting “do renga”, cause fuck your efforts? I’m like... I hate such fanbases, seriously. I do not even know where this is going, but their fans are already pissing me off. I’m still trying hard for this to not affect my point of view about the ship, cause it’d be kinda unfair to them, but its getting harder each week istg.

And I maybe can’t take requests, but I love when some try to get me addicted on their ship with passion and great arguments. It happened to me with some nice ppl. But def not with agression and stupidity haha.

Cause apparently its one of the fandoms where you can’t NOT care for the main ship, even if you accept it for the only possible Langa ship (cause he doesn’t give a shit for anyone else, so like what’s the point), but it doesn’t do anything for you. I’m like... thanks for threatening. This will make me on board ASAP. Like it’s not the epitomy of love to me... I’m sorry? LMAO 

Some anon even sent me a “you’re dense” (literally thats it) ask after that Reki ask. I was tempted to write smth like “oh I’m sorry, this is the most epic love story of my life and his character is the most complex in the world and he’s the best friend and the most inspiring human being that ever hit my screen. can I become undense now? xD”. But you know I do not know if they’d realise the sarcasm and my pride sadly never allowed me to sell my life values for a bunch of 12 years olds to love me lol

My sister always laughs and jokingly says “but you’d probably get much more subs if you made a vid about this or that, but at what price that would be lmao”. Cause yeah, I never could make myself vid smth I do not like, cause I love vidding and do not want it to be associated with things I do not like, plus it’ll most likely turn out ugly, if I do not care. My mom says that she can feel love I put in my shipping vids that’s why she loves them. I really don’t think she’s wrong. But that also kinda makes me an idiot technically, cause I’m not into many of the popular ships, and some popular animes I just find really basic. 

Also I’m like 100% sure it ain’t happening, but even if they miraculously suck each other’s dicks while sitting on a skate board, I can still have the rights not to care at the end. Like did I sign some form where I’m obliged to love each and everyone canon gay ship even if it’s not what I like? Like gay is not the type of love in relationships. You can only care about his ass like Lan Zhan for example or you can only care about your ass. Like that’s different types of relationships, and whatever you like you like. So get all the way of people’s backs, please.

Also do ppl know that you do not need to be blind to the bad sides of the characters in your ships? Or you just gonna be like “I suddenly can’t see” for forever.

So really thanks for such wonderful message and liking the video and for the boosts when I need them and not being an ass to me if I’m not being obsessed with smth, when you like it. (like I think we have different ship in bnha, right? but we’re still doing great tho, thanks for being an angel <3)

I still didn’t expect this becoming a Voltron 2.0. situation tho. We in our twenties see everything differently, I guess. I do get extra about “their love is everywhere”, but I do not get extra by anonymously attacking ppl, threatening creators and yelling “queeerbating psychotic blind assholes if these two aint fucking by the end of the season I’m shaving my head and jumping out of the window and shoot the director. you do not ship it HARD? YOU DUMB FUCK. THAT’S THE BEST LOVE STORY IN THE WORLD”. Like damn, take your blinders off and see the world, kid. Firstly, it’s definitely not, secondly, ppl see love differently in general and at each age too.

Ah, also you must kill Adam, cause he’s a pedo apparently. Like he ain’t even a threat to your ship, unless you’re blind, but they’re still at it, like they do not know that this kind of age difference is literally nothing for an anime? And that there are canon ships with a huger age difference left and right, too. It’s like its their first time approaching an anime or smth. Like in anime world character can literally kill 1000 ppl with his bare hands and bathe in their blood and we can still stan them, depends on their story, ok? Also Langa couldn’t care less for his advances, so like separate Adam from your ship pls. Like, fuck off, if someone is interested in his character. Yeah, he’s a weirdo for reasons, but anime kind of weird do not apply to real life. Stop acting like you’re some purist, when later you’re gonna ship smth else and it suddenly will not apply. Also rules do not apply to animes, everyone knows they do not apply. These are not western cartoons, my god. And 24 years old flirting with 16 year old is defiinitely not the weirdest shit anyone has ever seen in the anime. Chinese BL has characters who were 14 and 30 when they met and happily married. Also FICTION is not life. Literally no one cares. If you’re scared for your saint eyes, do not watch animes, you’re gonna have a heart-attack from what you can see there. Also we’ve seen gayer bromances in animes, who are just bromances, so pls do not shoot anyone if it’s not canon.

So basically I was kinda pissed yersterday, cause fuck them for ruining the tag, but after chatting with my hommies and your ask, I’m okay again, I just have to avoid this fandom and stick to a tight community xD. I just got used to my nice fandoms and forgot for a bit about the precautions you need to take if you’re in one of those. You know. Who make a circus out of lgbt, instead of supporting it, and make other ppl hate being in fandoms.

P.S. sorry for this partially unrelated rant, your messages really always make my heart bloom, so thanks for supporting me, and I know you’re proud of my progress, too <3 and this makes me happy. LY

[toastedbuckwheat]

Hello! I got Tumblr at the beginning of quarantine, so I'm a little new to this and I have a question based on your post about reposted art. I originally got Tumblr to lurk in the shadows, but started re-blogging stuff when I noticed posts about how creators want re-blogs instead of kudos. Is re-blogging the same as re-posting or are the two different?! Also, if I re-blog someone who re-blogged is that bad, or should I reblog the original post?

Hi anon! Welcome to the Hellsite of Tumblr hehehe and thank you for reaching out to me! I know this is confusing at first (I was super confused when I first joined Tumblr and also needed someone to explain things to me fjghfchg)

Reblogging is not the same as reposting. Reblogging is great! it’s in fact the greatest thing you can do here to support a creator - this way you expose their post to a wider audience (because it ends up on your blog = your followers get to see it, and may pass it on further)! 

Okay this might be difficult to describe... Basically, when you hit reblog, no matter how many times it gets reblogged, the post can still be tied to its source (the ‘OP’ - original poster). I might get 10 or a 1000 reblogs and everyone will still see that it was originally posted by me. This way the notion of authorship of the post is preserved! And reblogging from someone who reblogged from me (or anyone else) does the same thing. In fact, i can still see it in my notifications that my post got reblogged, no matter if someone reblogged it directly from my blog, or from some other account (because the post is still tied to me - i’m the OP)

Reblogging works like a chain. you reblog something from me, someone reblogs from you, and everything is nice and trackable to the source. when you click on the notes you can see everything people said when they reblogged the post, even all the tags they used (those are often really funny)! When it comes to art posts, it’s great because I can scroll through all of this and see what ppl think about my work. it’s really satisfying!

Please reblog!! :D

Now, reposting. Reposting is when you, let’s say, see a drawing on tumblr. You decide it’s nice, you download it.... and then you RE-UPLOAD it to tumblr (make your own, separate post) or WORSE, you put it on another platform (Instagram, vk.com, whatever) without asking the artist (the original poster). This is Bad. Because it’s not like the reblog chain! if you re-POST someone’s work, it is no longer tied to the artist! So above i said that no matter how many times/from whom ppl reblog, the OP still gets notifications and feedback. If you repost, they obviously don’t! like, unless you ask them, they will never know where the hell their art is. and when something gets reposts once, even with credits, it’s likely to be reposted again and well, the authorship becomes obsolete. It becomes just another image on the internet while someone spent hours working on it. It becomes some sort of a common good (which it’s not - it’s got an author!) and might even end up getting reused/sold on products, and ppl will think it’s right because ‘oh i found it on the Internet, i don’t know who the artist is’.

Imagine you worked on a piece for 3 days, put it on tumblr, and then some time later it got reposted multiple times, got popular, people use it as their icons on instagram or something, and you get absolutely zero credit, feedback, or material income (in case you make profit off your art). Everyone recognises your drawing but nobody ties it to your name! :(

Obviously another thing is deliberate art theft, which would be someone downloading art and reuploading it while claiming it’s their own.

If some very popular account re-POSTS a piece and it gets a thousand likes and a dozen comments, the artist usually gets fuck-all from it. 

On the contrary, if a post on tumblr happens to get re-BLOGGED by a popular tumblr account (with a large follow base), it is likely to get a lot of likes and reblogs, and the original poster gets notified about all of these, and they might benefit from it! :D 

If you ever wish to share someone’s art to a platform you assume they’re not on, make sure you ask them for permission, that’s all. 

Lol this got long, i hope it answers all your questions. feel free to send me a message if anything is unclear!

[lumiellle]

hi there, i'm considering giving pillowfort a try and have been informing myself a bit about its features etc. if you have a few minutes to spare, can you tell me a little bit about it? just general stuff like the atmosphere, the fandoms/communities, is it comfortable to create posts, how does the dash look like, what are big big similarities/differences between pillowfort and tumblr? just trying to get a better feeling for it. thanks & have a nice day :)

hi hi! i have to admit that i haven’t used pillowfort much in the recent months! what i can tell you is that it’s very similar to tumblr in its essence. there’s a tagging system and personal blogs, you can reblog and comment on other people’s posts! however, it’s pretty barren so far? there aren’t many options to customize your blog yet and it all feels a little bit clunky to me, but i’m sure there’ll be improvements in the future. the messaging system is also pretty nice.this is what a post looks like on my blog right now! (i know it’s too tiny to read ^^; also, don’t worry, the content body isn’t as far on the right as it looks, i just cropped the screencap)

there isn’t much going on in terms of decorating your blog (as far as i’m aware of), but i do like the overall look! i think we can put images into our sidebar as of two weeks ago, though i can’t say i’ve tried it. there’s also a community system in place, a little bit like sub-pillowforts (?), like tumblr’s haikyuu!! tag for example, and you can post directly into these communities or reblog a post from your own blog into them, if i remember correctly. posts in communities you follow appear on your dash, which looks like this:

also, you can mark your own posts as nsfw if you want to (without using a tag)! lastly, you can directly see someone’s own posts on their blog if you want to skip out on their reblogs, which is neat! that way, you don’t have to make a separate tag for your own content, unless you want to of course.

creating posts is easy enough, even though i hecked up trying to use the read more feature just now ^^; i definitely like pillowfort though, especially for text posts! i hope this helped a little bit! have a good day

[sawyersscribbles]

Um I'm really sorry to do this but I'm a new writing blog and I was wondering if you could give me some tips on how to get followers?

Hello there, welcome to the writing community! First off, awesome url, but secondly, here are a couple tips that might help you out:

1. Say Hi to People!

This tip definitely belongs at number one, because it’s not only the easiest to do, but the quickest way to build connections with people with not a lot of effort. 

The writeblr community is so awesome because we all engage with one another, and by mixing yourself into the fray of people who talk with one another often, your name will slowly gain recognition, and people will start to do things like tag you in games, mention you in posts, tag in writing, all that fun stuff. Here are a couple bullets of what to try:

Respond to “send me an ask about ____” posts

Send asks about characters and WIPs even when not prompted

Comment, comment, comment! Leaving a nice message below a WIP page makes a huge difference

Tag blogs you would like to be friends with in games

Send people DMs about their WIPs if you find them interesting and be sure to ask them questions. People love talking about their projects :)

2. Make a WIP Page

This one’s a little bit trickier, but is definitely worth it if you want to gain more followers on writeblr. Not every writeblr has a WIP, but having one under your belt can help people connect with your writing and characters, which precedes the asks about characters that people always love. A couple things to include on a WIP page are the summary, characters, moodboards, (optional) face claims, and maybe even a short “profile”, as in likes and dislikes, age, sexuality, things like that, if you’re feeling up for it.

Here are the steps to making a basic WIP page:

1. Go on a computer or desktop (anything that’s not mobile) and click on your blog. Go to “Edit Appearance”

2. Scroll until you find “Edit Theme” and click it (P.S if you don’t have a blog theme right now, don’t worry!)

3. Scroll aaallll the way down until you see a plus sign with “add a page” next to it. Click it and fill in whatever you want about your WIP!

4. When you’re done, make sure you’ve hit “Show a link to this page” so that people clicking on your bio can see it right away

5. Make an intro post separate from that one on your main blog (this is so that it can appear on peoples’ dashes – the one you just made doesn’t appear like that)

If you’re good at programming, then you can also make a master list later on to archive your posts, but starting out, I don’t think it’s a necessity. After you’ve finished making a WIP page, the next thing is to bring on the pressure!

3. Talk About Your WIP Frequently

This is something that I’m actually just starting to learn myself, but this one’s quite important. When I made a writeblr, I thought I would start with writing advice and the questions about my WIP would just magically follow, but that’s not the case, but more on that in a second.

I’m not saying you have to post every day, but even short, original thoughts about your process can help people hook on. Even something as small as “oh my god, I love _____ but can she like,,,,, take five minutes?? Have a time-out?? I can’t work with her right now, ugh” can be funny and relatable enough to make someone say “man, I gotta follow this dude, they’re rad!”

It’s going to be frustrating at first to have people not ask about your story or OCs, but I promise that with enough time and enough blog attention focusing on your WIPs the fans, even if there are only one or two of them, will come.

4. Start With Something

Something I tend to see in a lot of rising writeblrs is the fact that a lot of them become very good at their craft, and as a result spread their talents to bring their WIPs more full circle. For example @ava-burton-writing does professional quality edits and moodboards, and they always look amazing! Their talents help broaden the characters of To Bet Your Life (wonderful WIP by the way, go check it out!) and help show them in an artistic way.

Another example, @idreamonpaper is very good at characterizing her characters and does an incredible job at making them come to life (From the Shadows is another incredible WIP, check that one out too!). She does this with asks and rambles, and it really works for your advantage.

I, myself, started with advice. I’m not really artistically inclined, so I started with helping people with their writing problems and helping answer asks to try and further their journeys, much like this one :). From there, with the follower base I already had from writing advice, I was able to branch out and (finally) talk about my WIP. This strategy helps because you’ve already made a name for yourself and it’s a lot easier to have people notice your WIP once you’ve already been here for some time.

~

It’ll seem like an uphill battle for quite some time, but believe me when I say that it gets easier. When you find yourself becoming more comfortable in this community, it’ll start to get easier and easier to reach out, make friends, and make your blog into everything you want it to be. Until then, good luck, and happy writing!

[dizzyon]

I'm not sure I remember quite everything I asked you? But I'll try?

I honestly don't think I'm very similar to any of the 1D boys, but there are a few traits I relate to. I'm deeply protective of my family (a label under which my two best friends also fall), in a way that is not dissimilar to how I view Louis. I try not to emulate Liam's insecurity too much, but it's something I struggle with -- I worry that people don't actually like me, except a very few I feel okay with. I actually love Niall, in spite of his silliness (don't tell Alice, rip), but (1/2) (2/2) I don't think I have much in common with him. The reason I sent you the ask, actually, is I was thinking about the one (1) thing I might have in common with Harry. Harry is kind of a mystery to me--I think he's so wonderful, but I'm not entirely sure I understand him. But watching videos of Harry on tour makes me miss performing SO MUCH. Being in front of a crowd is my favorite feeling in the world; I feel like I'm glowing. Harry glows, and he knows it. --Shakespeare anon

Christ, babe, I can tell you one quality you share with Harry and that’s that you kind of make everyone fall a bit in love with you, don’t you? You did with me. You are more than a decent writer, I’d say! Based on this and also going on what Alice and Amber say in their tags. Also feel free to hit me anytime with those facts! (and being good at keeping in touch with friends is a brilliant trait)That’s such a beautiful trait, I admire that so much in Louis. I love that you consider your closest friends family, too. I feel you on Liam! I’m so sorry you struggle with that, babe. It’s such a shitty feeling isn’t it? Always second-guessing people and yourself. I’ve never ever seen it manifest itself with you playing the victim, though, or guilt-tripping people, so I hope you don’t worry about that at least! Can you feel yourself growing in it or is it still as hard as ever? Either way, we’re all still young (you, Liam, me) and we can definitely grow

Also your secret is safe with me (I love Niall too) fghfkjhjkg STOP the (1) JULIA PLEASE FMMFGKFMGKMF but also this made me smile so big, that’s incredible. You used to act in plays, right? I bet you glow, too. You can already shine and glow through your messages. What kind of plays did you do? And what did you love most?  

[eating-rocks]

I'm on mobile so I can't put it under cut and I can't get out of bed rn either. But fuck buckel up or something.

(A few people I've tagged aren't mutuals but they mean a lot to me)

I started watching yoi a day or two before ep 10 came out. I was lonely and miserable and in a lot of pain. Little did I know that it would becom the biggest part of my life. I obsess over things easily, but I've burned out 3 times since I was 14 and hadn't really had the energy to invest myself completely in something in a long time.

I didn't really start to get into the tumblr-fandom side of yoi until about may, and I was very shy and akward. I was about to drop out if high school because of my endo and really didn't know what would happen to me. I've realised later that I was kinda suicadal in a "not giving a fuck about surviving" kind of way. I didn't care about much and time had started to feel unreal. I don't remember why, but I eventually started to turn on notifications for blogs. It started with @daddybek . It helped me slowly find a way out of the black hole I'd dug. I knew that at about the same time every day, she would come online. It became something that was consistent in my life, something to look forward to and stop the hours from melting together. I eventually built up the courage to send Kim a message and we started talking regularly. Suddenly, the thing I was looking forward to was her response.

Through Kim, I started following other bigger yoi blogs. One of them was @meimagino. I think it started with her acknowledging Sana and I then asked if she wanted more pictures of my kitties. Kim had then started to get more and more inactive, so I started to talk more with Mei instead and eventually it was her messages I was looking forward to.

Mei wasn't like any other I've met, and it was really comforting to talk to her. She's so passionate and understanding about everything, and I think I really needed that. Since she's almost 10 years older than me, the conversations got more mature at times and it was a nice change.

We're around August/September now, and it was probably the worst part of this year. My endo had gotten instantly bad and I was in so much pain I didn't know what to do with myself. Mei was also busy with her real life so I didn't have anyone to talk to at the time. That's when @pluttskutt came into my life.

It turned out he was Swedish too and I think that's part of why we get along so well. It started with me asking about his url because it sounded really familiar, and it turned out to be because it's from a comic I grew up on. Unlike Mei and Kim, me and plutt didn't message each other much. Our friendship ended up forming by sending "send me a __" asks to each other whenever the other rebloged such a post. Plutt is the Tumblr friend that's stuck with me the longest so far.

At this point, I'd started to get more brave when it comes to talking to people. And big shock, I suddenly got a lot more followers for putting myself out there. A lot of those were sudden follow-backs from bigger blogs I've come to idolize. Amongst them are @seekingsquake @dotingdamen and @tenaciouscorpse . While I'm bad at talking to them because I tend to stick to my trashy boi's (more about them later), they still mean a lot to me.

Then there's my little trash squad. I don't really know how we came to be, but it seems like the mesiest "follow my mutual's mutual" situation. But after an anonymous ask (that I admit I was the one who sent) me, plutt, @tameholly and @clockwork-laine formed a squad of trash people. We now even have a collaborative blog and a discord chat, both a fucking train wreck.

Then we have @allegiancewlllcarryus . another random follow back, but I felt like I needed to mention him separately. I must've just made a post that I'd tagged with "endometriosis", because a few seconds after Casey followed me back, he messaged me saying something like "sorry you got endo, can I send you a picture of my cat"  That blossomed into bitching about endo BECAUSE FUCK!!! and Casey being such a fucking amazing person that isn't bother by me being high af and sending pretty messy messages.

Then fucking @lycaanroc . My most recent friendship. It started with me thirst-following them (BECAUSE SWORD VIDEO GOT FUCKING DAMN). And they turned out to be a pretty cool dude (HOLY FUCK I'M GAY HAVE YOU SEEN THOSE GUNS GOT DAMN) and they have a really cute cat and cool life and hnggh Tristan, you are the coolest person that's talked to me.

Honourable mentions because I don't really know where to put these:

@inquisitorsmabari ENDO SISTERS. You are really cool but we don't talk a lot

@triceratops-tricerabottoms +@frukmedaddy you two are the cutest couple and cool dudes

@nackledamia NEW FRIEND ❤💖💛💚💙💜

Musings of a Pseudo-Author

I was thinking today about good things that happened this year. Know what popped into my mind within five seconds? Each one of you guys.

So this leads me to something I’d like you guys to do. What happened to you that was truly positive and made you happy beyond belief? You have twenty-one days to figure it out.