#tw: Nikki's Bitching

[sennenpharaoh]

Yea I dodged this series because 1. I wasn't allowed to watch much while under someone else's roof and 2. The stuff I did watch was kinda hidden from said person because "I'm too old for that" (I was in high school entering college when the 05-06 anime boon happened)

Cons didn't really help because mine was FILLED with fangirls that hounded one of the VA's (funny enough I got a picture with them accidentally on a Thursday before the con)

So while everyone was crushing on Roy and Ed... I was crushing on Yami and staying in my lane.

Reason why I'm extremely Doma and feelsy heavy is, well... this is really the only place I can have fun with it and kinda just talk/do whatever. Work wouldn't get it, school would belittle you for it, and home... I'm "too old for that". It's why I suck at fluff because happy scenes are foreign to me so ya... hit me with them feels like a fucking truck.

[elegantharpiequeen]

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS NEW LAYOUT

[dogbound1128]

Dad

Jus some fitting(?) music below

[IMG ID: a pencil & paper drawing of Casey Jr from Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (2018) lying in the lap of a stone statue of 40 Fleo. Casey's face isnt visible, so theres no facial expression to read. The statue's head is broken off. The scene is in a black void]

[starpearlz]

Hi idk if you’re open to writing smut but I have request about Nikki Sixx. So basically the reader is also famous and her and Nikki had a summer fling that Niki wasn’t ready to let go of so he is bitter and says some stuff and they go back and forth until they met again and start arguing and it leads to angry smut or just make out

Hole -> Nikki Sixx

Summary -> ^^

A/n -> originally I was just gonna write an angry make out but something got a hold of me.. not full smut

Tw -> fingering, possessive Nikki

There’s that son of a bitch, you’d knew he’d be here. You just didn’t realize he got such a good view of you. You made eye contact with him, it didn’t last very long with the pink light hitting your eyes. He was up on the balcony of the auditorium, him and the rest of the band. The rest of the guys had girls on them but Nikki had his eye on you with a sly smirk on his face. You tired to make it seem like the contact didn’t effect you and kept dancing and singing.

You were thankful that you didn’t look up the rest of the night, keeping your focus on the crowd of people cheering you on and singing along. They made time move faster and make you enjoy what you do. You walked off stage saying your goodbyes to the crowd and city before walking to your dressing room. You opened the door seeing Nikki on the dressing room couch a drink in his hand and sunglasses on. I don’t know what a bigger red flag is than someone wearing sunglasses indoors.

You groaned “what do you want Nikki..” you asked taking off all the accessories you had on. “I wanted to see my favorite girl that’s all..” Nikki said coming up behind you and started kissing your shoulder. You turned around to face him, “Sixx you had your chance and you blew it!” You told him walking to the other side of the room pulling out your clean clothes to change in.

“Look I know I’m sorry, but I couldn’t I have a girlfriend on a tour that’s just.. a bomb waiting to go off. I’m sorry ok..” he walked up to you again. “I’m not on tour anymore tho..” he said putting his head on your shoulder and wrapping his arms around your waist. “I miss you..” you rolled your eyes. “I think you miss something else you horndog.” You said before shoving him off.

“Look I told you I’m sorry what else do you want from me!” Nikki yelled out you making you turn around to face him. “I don’t wanna just be a fling every summer, or a fuck whenever you see me Nikki, I don’t want that especially from you.” He threw his hands up “you were fine with this deal what changed?” You scoffed “people change Nikki, if you want or not, and it’s obvious you have.”

“I’m the same guy you were with last year I didn’t change shit!” You shook your head “you could go weeks without a bump but now you can’t even go hours. You were so nice and sweet now you’re just a dick who wants to find a hole to fill!” You yelled to him before taking off your outfit and putting on your new one.

“You know what, your right I do. But ever since I filled yours no other one I’d good enough.” You cringed at his somewhat metaphor even tho he was being serious. You put your clean shirt on before turning back to him “yeah you know what I want to be more than a hole tho I think I’d rather be a person then Nikki hole!” You screamed at him putting on your clean pants.

“Oh come on I know you love being Nikki’s hole!” Nikki yelled in a teasing voice. “Yeah your right I do love being your hole but can’t I be a person too!” You yelled back moving closer too him “of course you can you can be Nikki hole and Nikki girl! You’d like that wouldn’t you!?” He yelled moving closer to you.

“Yeah I would love that! I’d love to be more than a hole!” You moved closer “Good!” He yelled moving closer to the point where there’s no space in between you two. “Fine!” He kissed you hard pushing you onto the couch. You kissed harder as his tongue slipping into your mouth making your kiss sloppy and messy, but you didn’t care. You need a piece of Nikki at this moment no matter how sloppy it sounded.

“Fuck I missed you..” he said moving down to your neck leaving marks and bites “I missed every inch of you.. thought of you at night.” You gasped as you felt his hand pushing inside your pants. “Missed your tight hole so much..” you felt his rough hands through your underwear. Rubbing little circles even the smallest touch make you see stars. You closed your eyes just enjoying him ravish your neck and play with his hole.

“I thought of you every night too.. missed you so much..” you moaned out making him slip in his hand inside. “You always got so wet for me so easily..” Nikki whispered in your ear making circles on your clit. You squeeze around nothing feeling empty without him. He pushed more pressure onto you, “did you imagine what I’m doing right now?” You whined out but nodded your head.

“You used your hand imagining it was mine.” He slapped it making you jump and gasp. “Oh Nikki..” he hummed in satisfaction make faster circles. “Oh I love how this is my tight little hole.. made just for me isn’t in.” You nodded bitting your lip holding in your moans. “Your almost there aren’t you?” You nodded before throwing your head back.

You gasped making Nikki chuckle kissing your neck. “Whenever your ready..”

[jae-is-confused]

A Little Less Talk, & A Lot More Lovin'

Jay Kelso x Male!Reader

Romantic/Platonic/Unspecified

Pronouns: He/Him

Summary: Both you an Jay skip school, leaving you both home alone in the Forman basement. A little bit of weed and a lot of kissing later, both you and Jay are as high as kites.

TW's/Disclaimers: Making out, Weed, implications/mentions of boners, y/n and Jay being horny ig.

You exhale with a slight cough as you pull the, definitely not rolled properly, joint away from your lips. The basement air was thick with the smell of sweat and weed as you passed the joint off to your boyfriend who was staring down at you, your head resting on his lap.

"How you doin' up there pretty boy?" You look at your boyfriend who has a doped up smile plastered across his face. You were always the more tame one of the group when you guys smoked. Besides Ozzie, whenever he decided to opt out.

"Amazing." He bobs his head a little after he pulls the joint away from his mouth, placing it on the ash tray on the coffee table in front of him. He looks down at you and grins like an idiot. "Hey Handsome."

"Hey Casanova." You laugh. Jay stares at you with a far away look for a moment before leaning down and placing a kiss on your forehead. The kisses then being trailed down to your temple, your nose, and all the way to your lips. You hum into the kiss as he pulls your face closer by the nape of your neck.

You pull away with a whine of complaint coming from Jay. You sit correctly on the couch and look at Jay as you grab his hand, pulling him as a sign to move and straddle your lap. Which wasn't something you did often. Every time, Jay got to embarrassed and flipped you so you were straddling him.

But you wanted to tease him.

Reluctantly, Jay swung one of his legs over your hips. He avoided eye contact with the most absurd head motions, looking anywhere but you. You laughed and moved you hand to his hips, pushing them down so he wasn't hovering. They stayed there when Jay finally looked at you.

Jay didn't like straddling you because it made him feel small. But you did like feeling small. So giving him all the control was well in your favor. As well as his. It took him a second, but after sitting there for a moment and getting comfortable with the situation, you could visibly see Jay's confidence return to his face. His demeanor becoming more cocky and confident.

Jay grabbed your face in his hands, smashing his lips with yours. It was sweet and slow, with just a bit of tongue thrown into the mix. It was as if everything had fallen into place.

You both had only started dating near the end of summer, so 5 months into your guys' relationship, and out of all the kisses you had shared, this one takes the cake. You weren't sure why but something about this one just felt different, more slow and meaningful.

The kisses get heavier the longer it goes on as you hold Jay's hips, his chest pressing against your own. Jay pulls back a second. Only to grin at you and flip you both over.

"You little bitch-"

"Babe, less talking. More kissing." Jay nuzzles his head in the crook of your neck as he sucks and presses kisses to your neck. Not knowing what to do with your hands, you place them in his hair as his hands guide your hips to fully sit down on his lap. His kisses migrate to your lips, soft lips against yours, tongues brushing, and breath heavy.

Half-way through a kiss you hear the sound of laughter and footsteps as the gang comes rushing down the stairs. Both you an Jay quickly jump to separate, each of you grabbing a pillow to place on your lap as you put as much distance between you and him. You on one side of the couch, him on the other.

The gang makes it downstairs and the chatter slowly dies down when they see you both, awkward and red faced. Nikki is the first to say something.

"How are you guys already here? School just let out." She walked over to you guys and took one look at the joint in the ashtray before gasping. "Did you guys skip!" She threw her bag down and sat on the coffee table so she was right in front of you.

"Jay, bro, you skipped without me?" Nate leaned against the couch behind Jay but both of you just sat there frozen in place. Neither removing the pillows that lay in your laps.

Ozzie stepped up and sat in between you and Jay, no shame at all. He sighed and looked at everyone in the room, giving Gwen a knowing look, making them both smile evilly. Ozzie cleared his throat and grabbed both pillows covering yours and Jays laps.

"Observe. Boners."

Nate and Nikki gasped as Gwen and Ozzie smiled wickedly at each other. Both you and Jay stood up quickly as you reach for his hand.

"You want to leave? I think we should leave, let's leave." Jay rambled as you nodded your head, Jay pulling you away and out the basement door.

I DID IT! When I tell you I RAN to make a list and find prompts for Nate and Jay when I finished the series. I remember watching "That 70s Show" with my sister when it was on Netflix and us being so upset when it was removed. :(

[tobybestupid]

Peachy Keen.

Background: Reader is extremely intoxicated and is completely out of it, so Mick has to deal with you. (+A little bit of pervy people, just to add drama)

Mick Mars x Reader

Tw: Alcohol, drugs, perverts, foul language.

You stumbled around with Tommy, laughing loudly as you threw a bottle at the wall of Vince's house. After concerts they'd usually have a party, this time at Vince's. You'd ran off with Tommy, to fuck shit up and to get drunk.

"Oooo~! Nikkkkkiiiii" Tommy ran off, hitting his side on the couch and almost falling over as he ran to Nikki, obviously to bother him.

You pouted as you looked around, attempting to find somebody else to annoy. But then you felt somebody grab your waist.

"Miiiiccckkkk!-" Your whine being cut off by a chuckle from the tall, drunk hic.

"Oh sweet heart I'm not that old bag of bones-"

"Then let me go cause I want him!!" You whined, pushing his chest away from you as he just held tighter, rubbing your bottom as you tried hitting him and pushing him away.

"Quit being such a dirty bitch" The man growled, making you instinctively punch him in the balls.

"Uh- Mick!!" You yelled, running off as the man groaned and chased after you.

You quickly ran into the kitchen area, looking behind you and seeing the man running full speed after you. But then-

"Oof-!"

You ran into somebody, "AH- I'm sor-"

"Hun? Are you okay" Mick asked, pulling you close to him as he placed his free hand onto your back.

"That- that man was chasing me- and tried touching me- and- and-" You started to cry a little bit as you pointed to the large male whom was now staring at you two.

"Ah...oka-"

"Buh-but I'm peachy keen- and- he called you a bag of bones- an-"

"Hun...shh...calm down a bit, I'll get it under control, okay?" He reassured, obviously pissed off but he was trying to be calm.

"You sit down right here, I'll be back" Mick said, walking off to the man.

You watched as Mick looked the man dead in the eye and said some stuff you couldn't here, but the drunk hic looked scared as he walked off. Mick walked back to you, watching you stare at him.

"Lord..let's get you home Hun...nobody, touches MY girl.." Mick grunted, helping you up and humming softly as you held onto his arm tightly.

"Y'know, we can just calm down and watch some TV when we get home.." Mick suggested tiredly, yawning as he got into the motorcycle.

"Mhpmmm...Nuh uh, I wanna make some speeeeecialllll brownies.." You said, making him chuckle.

"No way in hell" Mick laughed.

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Lord, I'm sorry I haven't been posting...like- at all😟 But I'm tryinnnnngggg. SCHOOL IS KICKING MY ASS⁉️⁉️ Anyway, hope y'all like this one :3

+Silly picture of him

[stellacaerulea]

Lilith being 16 is an error

OK don't panic, I know it's what it says there in the game but I'll explain how Paper just (in)conveniently forgot to age her.

Let's begin at that fire that happened two years before Nikki arrived in Miraland year 0. We all know that story, Ashley set some bitches on fire, passed out and Lilith took over to make that deal with the devil blablabla.

Evidence 1

According to Mind Maze 2, within a month after the fire, the Starheaven Swan is called back, Lilith wins the contest easily AND is running for the election.

Now, note the age Lilith is listed as being in Telosma's Kiss, the reflection for that mind maze, which depicts her crowning as the Starheaven Swan and the following days.

So first piece of information: two years before year 0 Lilith was already 15.

Evidence 2

That alone should already state that Lilith was supposed to be 17 during her reelection campaign. Except she wasn't, as most of her reflections at the time say. It could be easily explained by the fact that her birthday is listed as being in November while Nikki arrived in Miraland in early spring, which means that logically she was indeed still 16, turning 17 in some months, and soon the elections would come again - earlier than it was supposed to but that can pass as Nightbane's intervention. But even then... Volume 2 chapter 7 stage 11 gives us this:

Even if Lilith hadn't turned 17 yet during the reelection ceremony/Desire's rampage, since it's been over a year since Nikki arrived, Lilith should be 17 and about to turn 18 by now - especially in the TW/CN servers, where the story is already months past Nikki's first visit to Wasteland, which means this

is an error and at this point, even if Lilith began the story as a 16 years old girl, she should be turning if not already 18 by now.

[22bananapudding]

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[sennenpharaoh]

Yea, no. I'm deleting that anon.

You can not go and claim actions that another muse has done. Especially an important plot point for certain muses.

Also bold of you to try to take the credit.

[yourfavehatesyanderes]

Yuno Gasai from Future Diary fucking hates yanderes!

[montyduff]

Task 007: Closet

Niko is always in graphic t-shirts featuring District Six or something obscure from the earliest days of Panem that he doesn’t even recognize. His shorts are all torn, both intentionally and not. A part of his everyday attire is usually bandaids and patches as well, since he’s constantly getting hurt out on his skateboard. 

[ryleigh-jae]

Aching Soul

Nikki Sixx x Reader

Hey friends! I hope everyone is doing well during this crazy time. I thought I’d pop in with a Nikki Sixx fic! I hope y’all love it. Stay safe and have a great day!

TW: Language, Mentions of drugs/drug use, Mention of death

Her fingers toyed with one another, hands settled in her lap. It had been months since she had seen Nikki, six to be exact. He was busy on the ‘Girls, Girls, Girls’ tour with his friends, but she would receive a call each night from her raven haired lover. Same time on the dot each evening and it was the most relieving thing to her. (Y/N)’s nerves got the best of her, knowing that Nikki was due home any moment and she’d finally be able to see him again. What she didn’t know was that Nikki would come in, fiending for his new flavor of choice: heroin. 

Hearing the door unlock, the girl jumped up from her spot at the kitchen table, a grin sprawling from edge to edge on her lips. She rounded the corner, eyes narrowing on a completely drunk and partially high Nikki, heart dropping into her stomach. (Y/N) swallowed thickly, trying her hardest not to allow the grin to falter as she stood there, watching him place his bags down, digging something from the side pocket before starting up the stairs.

“Baby?” her voice asked softly as she watched him continue up the stairs, following behind him, “Nikki!”

Only when she raised her voice, he spun around, looking at her with a smile, “Give me like ten minutes okay? Then you have my full and undivided attention.” His words slurred, eyes heavily hooded and blown with a craving as he gripped the baggie in his hand.

“What the fuck is that Nikki? Zombie dust?” (Y/N) reached for the bag, only to have Nikki yank his hand back, “You know how I feel about that stuff. Especially when you’re home from tour.”

Something flickered in Nikki’s eyes, his whole attitude and demeanor changing, obviously annoyed that he wasn’t getting his fix right away like planned, “For fucks sake (Y/N). All you do is bitch and complain at me for doing what I want. Do you ever stop? Or is that the first thing you think about as soon as I walk through that front door?”

Fighting back tears, (Y/N) murmured a soft, “Nikki you don’t mean any of that..”

“Oh, but I do, (Y/N). It’s a constant fucking battle. Don’t you realize that this is the only shit that makes me happy and your constant bitching takes away from that?” He paused for a moment, continuing to the bedroom door, “So just fuck off and mind your business. I just got home and you’re already on my shit.”

“Nikki..please.” her voice cracked as she reached for him, her arm being smacked away by the fiending rockstar.

“Please what?!” Nikki shouted at the girl, throwing his arms up in frustration as he towered over her, “Just go away. I don’t have time for this right now.”

Flinching at his aggression, (Y/N) backed off, heading down the stairs, yanking her car keys from the hook. Slamming the door behind her, she didn’t care at that moment, all she wanted was to get away. Not only had Nikki upset her, but he’d genuinely scared her. Finding herself at Vince’s home, she got out and headed up to the door, knocking a few times, wiping the tears from her face. The sun had just fallen below the horizon at that point, the first stars starting to shine in the darkening sky.

(Y/N) looked up from her shoes upon hearing the door open, a soft sniffle falling from her as her watering eyes met Vince’s. She didn’t need to say anything for the blonde to realize what had happened, so they both opted out for a hug in exchange for words at that moment. Her hands clung to the fabric of his shirt, body shaking from the sobs that silently ripped through her. Vince gently tugged her frame inside, closing the door behind the two.

“Hey...Hey it’s gonna be okay. Everything will be alright. He just needs time alone to realize what he’s done. He’ll be here any minute.” Vince spoke calmly, wiping her tears away with the pads of his thumbs, “C’mon. Let’s go sit down on the couch and take a breath.” 

(Y/N) nodded and followed after the singer, taking in a few shaky deep breaths as she took a seat on the couch, Vince occupying the spot next to her. She watched as he flipped the tv on, her body settling back into the couch. Shaking her head slightly, she wiped the tears from her eyes once again, glancing over at her closest friend.

“Skylar’s upstairs sleeping. I’m sure she’d be excited if she knew Auntie (Y/N) was here.” Vince smiled, trying to cheer (Y/N) up. 

“I missed my lil bug. Sharise brought her over a few times while you guys were gone.” a smile peaked on (Y/N)’s lips at the mention of the sweet child. 

The sound of an alert on the tv rang through the room as words fanned across the screen, (Y/N)’s heart falling to a stop.

“It’s a sad night for rock and roll. We’ve just received unconfirmed reports that Motley Crue bassist, Nikki Sixx, has died in Hollywood this evening of an apparent drug overdose.”

A cry of pain fell from the girl’s lips as she scrambled to the tv, hand resting on the screen as footage of Nikki played. Her pained sobs drowned out Vince’s panicked breaths and words, eyes falling shut as the news station went to commercial. (Y/N)’s hands fell from the screen, gripping her jean clad thighs as she simply sat there, unable to move.

“Daddy? Auntie (Y/N)? Are you okay?” the little blonde girl asked, gripping her stuffed rabbit to her chest.

“Yeah baby. We’re fine.” Vince bent down, gently hugging the girl, “Let’s get you back to bed.”

The small girl nodded, making her way over to (Y/N), placing the stuffed rabbit in her hands, “Tell Uncle Nikki that I said hi.”

Tears dribbled down (Y/N)’s cheeks as she nodded at the innocent little one, clinging to the stuffed toy in her hands, “Of course baby. I sure will.”

With that, Vince led Skylar to her bedroom, rejoining (Y/N) in the living room. He stood there, watching the girl weep on the floor at her loss. He hadn’t noticed, but tears had begun to pour down his cheeks, quickly moving to scoop (Y/N) up in his arms, holding her tightly to his chest. The blonde rocked the two back and forth, their sobs mixing in an aching synchronization. 

“Vin, I have to go home. I have to go now.” She cried, shakily pulling from him, heading towards the door.

Ignoring his pleads and begs for her not to leave, he knew she was going to distance herself and fall apart even more, she closed the door behind her. Her fingers curled around the steering wheel, knuckles turning white as she sped down the road. One hand came to wipe the tears from her face, sniffles and sobs drowning out the music coming from the radio. She pulled into the driveway, stumbling up to the door, pausing when she saw a light on through the window. 

Nikki never left lights on in the house, not even when he was strung out. Reaching for her house key, (Y/N) stopped, noting how the door was already unlocked. She crept inside, closing the door behind her as she made her way up the stairs, fingers tracing along the railing. The house was eerily quiet, something that it never was. She came to a stop on the last step, pushing the hair back off her shoulders that stuck to her neck and cheeks from tears.

Standing in the doorway to the bedroom, Nikki turned around, obviously worn out and in pain. Her hands shook as their eyes met, almost tripping over her own feet as she raced into his arms, burying her face in his chest as she clung to him. The feeling of his arms squeezing around her, pulling her closer was as she needed to trust that he was really there.

“Nikki…” (Y/N)’s voice cracked, “I thought you died.”

Resting his chin on the top of her head, the raven haired man closed his eyes, allowing a few tears to slide down his cheeks, “I couldn’t leave you here alone. Not after everything we’ve been through together. I couldn’t leave you. I’m sorry for what I said and how I treated you. I have to get clean, (Y/N), and I can’t do it without you. I need you. I love you.”

“And I love you too, Nikki Sixx. I’m not going anywhere. I’m right here by your side for the long run. You couldn’t get rid of me even if you tried.” A small smile spread across her lips as her hands came to rest on his cheeks, thumbs brushing away a few of his tears, “It’s gonna be okay. We’ll get through it. We always have.”

With that, Nikki leaned down and connected their lips, fingers tangling in his lover’s hair. A feeling that comforted him, the feeling of her. He had never met someone quite like (Y/N). Someone who healed and filled his aching soul. 

[campcampfanfan]

Ranking every CC episode (except the specials)

You read the title! Every episode except the specials will be ranked here and now, by your truly. TW for swearing. Also, spoilers, obviously. Remeber these are all my opinions, and enjoy!

Episodes I don’t like too much/ Don’t watch:

54:The Candy Kingpin

I know, I know, probably an unpopular take. I don’t really like Dolph, and think the series could have done without his whole… thing. I like him as a character, sorta, but I also don’t really like him. I honestly forgot this episode even existed until I looked it up, and the only thing I remember was Gwen and David’s conversation. The whole story was… eh? Whatever, it was still fine-ish in the long run.

53: Reigny Day

Enough said. Everyone’s lowkey kind of a jerk in this episode, except for Neil and Max for like two seconds.Also, Dolph jokes. Don’t like it.

52:Cameron Campbell the Campbell Camper

This one was pretty meh. I, once again, didn’t remember it existed until I looked it up. It wasn’t Cam’s best episode (I’ll get to that later), and it was kinda bland. Bland doesn’t mean bad though, but it just wasn’t the best. Only thing I remember was the wholesome Dadvid moment and Max saying a funny line. Enough said about that.

51: Anti Social Network

Now, I wasn’t too sure where to put this, because this was in theory a good episode. I just don’t like it. I’m not sure why, but Max being a tiny perv is very funny to me, because that is exactly what a ten year old is like. I just didn’t really find it interesting or catching my attention, but it wasn’t a bad episode.

50: The Order of the Sparrow

I get why you like this, I totally get it. It’s funny and lots of Dadvid, plus Gwen singing for the first time. Honestly, Gwen singing and David’s mental breakdown is what got this higher than Anti Social Network, but it’s still racist. I get it, it’s comedy, but it’s still really… interesting. I know the CC people are trying their best, and it’s a delicate balance, but I still skip over the first few minutes.

49: Jeremy Fartz

We love a hilarious mess up, Max cursing, and David making fun of someone, but it’s also a really awkward episode? Like, it makes for a really good backstory for Jeremy and joining the Woodscouts, but it’s such an odd episode. Not bad, just odd. Whatever, I still like it. Sorta….

48: Fashion Victims

Oh boy, Russian Waifu comes back. I love Ainsley, she’s my precious baby and Max’s purified Doppelganger, and I love her so much. But Sasha’s not my favorite character in the show, and she got especially mean in this episode. I love the whole Vera thing, but really dislike this one. I watch it once in a while, but not too often. Also, we love positivity from Tabii and Erin.

47:Time Crapsules

We love Gwen blushing, improvement from Max, and making fun of baseball. But this episode really hit me with second hand embarrassment for both Gwen and Max. You know when you can’t sit through an episode without getting second hand embarrassment? Yup, that’s this one. I wanted the guy coming through the door to be David and I’m salty, ok? This is my list, and we stan Gwenvid on this account.

46:Campfire Tales

Dolph’s story was boring, Space Kid was great, We love ghost parents. We l o v e Slenderman! AU David in this household, and I want to see more of them. Oh yeah, outfits were great. Max is a baby in this episode, and I love his fear because it makes you see that he really is a little boy with feelings. I also laugh at everyone’s faces after Space Kid’s story.

Ok Episodes/ Ones I do like:

45:Preston Goodplay’s Goodplay

Oooooo, this is a tough one. I love Preston as a character, because I too am a theatre kid who dislikes most people and wants to be famous for her storytelling. I can relate. I love how David talks to him, and how Preston comes to his realization that he doesn’t need to please everyone. Also, canon French Speaking! David is canon. Amazing. He’s still Candian! Anyway, Clown College was odd, but whatever, I can roll with it.

44: The Quarter Moon Convergence

We totally saw Zemug and no one said anything. No one! Why was no one talking about this! We saw the elder god! Anyways, I love Harrison and Quartermaster working together. It’s funny, it’s clever, and I want to see more of it. I do not like the subplot with the other characters, and it really took me out of the main story. Other than that, pretty interesting idea, and I love my pure magic boy!

43:Who Peed in the Lake

Ew. That’s all I need to say about it. It’s extremely funny, I like the motives, and I love detective Max. However, Nikki and the final answer are disgusting in this episode. It gross, it’s gross, it’s gross, but it’s so funny. I know I have the humor of an eight year old, I don’t care.

42:New Adventure

I love how this episode was played out. Funny, clever, and overall pretty ok. Plus, guess who shows up? Dirty Kevin, my friends! Best trash boy :)

Overall pretty good! Not too many complaints, but not too many great things either.

41:The Fun Raiser

Hmmm… This was an… interesting episode. David and Gwen scheming is my new religion, and they are both idiots. Who the hell thought this plan was a good idea? David? I mean, he’s a little bit dipsy, but has SOME common sense. Gwen? Maybe, but you know, she’s logical. You know what? I’m being too picky. I love my dumbasses, they are the best. Also, Gwen sitting on David is everything I love in my life and everything I need. Harrison makes a very good point, Nikki probably found Jasper’s skull, and Max is my scheming child. Whatever, eh episode, love the plot, but I have cringed at it.

40: Foreign Exchange Students

Like I’ve said before, this episode is out of place. It’s not bad, it’s just… blandish. I know, I know, Russian Waifu was in it, but this episode was only ok. I love Vera and Brian, and the ending is super funny, but other than that, eh episode.

39:Attack of the Nurfs

I honest to gods forgot this episode existed. I ended up rewatching it, and had a few good laughs. Gwen in this episode, for the little time she appears, is so funny. David’s sparkle eyes always make me laugh, and Max ends up making me laugh most of all. Nurf takes “talking to yourself” to a whole new level, and I relate my man. Get that therapy!

38:Camp Cool Kidz

This episode is eh....? I love my tiny rebellious children, but I really hate Ered in this episode. It just feels… so unlike her. I get it, it’s the start of her ark, but really and truly I disliked her character in this episode. On the other hand, Nikki is me trying to flirt with other women. She’s my little baby Pansexual, and I love her to death. Honestly, I really enjoy Nikki episodes, so yeah. Also, the literal moment I began to love Gwen with the “Stab her bitch!” line.

37:Quest to Sleepy Peak Peak

Honestly, I almost never watch this episode, but I still really like it. Nerris’s lines, the battle between two magic folk, the one liners, the ending, oh it was really good. However, some of the parts were boring, it’s not the best, but it’s still pretty good. Whatever, I like Nerrison and magic, so boom.

36:Escape from Camp Campbell

Honestly, what a classic. First episode, Gwen being overall great, “No Running”, Max being a  tiny Satan, Nikki and Neil being amazing. But, once again, it’s the first episode, which means some things aren’t the best. But! I do enjoy this one, and watch it sometimes.

35:Mind Freakers

Eh… It’s pretty ok. We love Harrison and Neil being jerks to each other, and we love Max having an identity crisis, but all I could really think through this was “Poor Max” and “This is a really stupid and petty fight”. It really is petty, which isn’t bad, but I feel like ti was an odd episode. Not bad, I thoroughly enjoy it, I just couldn’t swallow normal for a few days….

One I really like/ Second highest ranking:

34:Romeo and Juliet 2: Love Resurrected

Bon Bon~! Yay! We love David for having a Tinder, for Max’s amazing performance, and the drama! That being said, it’s overall a pretty good episode! Not the best, but pretty good!

33:Mascot

Welp, I feel like you all know what I’m getting at. The jokes are well landed, Muack appears for the first time ( and steals the show, and that’s the tea), and my girl Nikki is so precious. Quartermaster is weird as hell, and speaking of which…

32: Quartermaster Appreciation Day

I know, it’s gross, it’s weird, I hate the relationship almost as much as I can, but this episode is so freaking funny. So many of the jokes are well timed, some classic lines come from this episode, and Quartermaster being his weird self is a major playing factor.

31: Space Camp was a hoax

More Gwen and David being two idiots sharing one brain cell? Hell yes, lay it on me. Space Kid is so funny, and his inner dialouge is fantastic. Also, Nikki cursing is incredible, even if it isn’t really on screen. Gwen’s line “Is this what success feels like?” is a major mood, and I just generally think it’s a good episode.

30: Ered gets her cool back

We love Nerris and Ered’s relationship in this household, ok? Older sporty sister spends time with dorky younger sister who has more common sense? Bigger sister gets better at being with other people and learns a lot form the experience? Nikki”s outfit? All major amazing things I love in this episode. But, the plot was a little eh, and I got second hand embarrassment.

29:Jasper dies at the end

All I have to say is H O O E Y

28:Cameron Campbell can’t handle the truth serum

Dolph’s autstic? Oh, ok, that’s pretty cool! We love representation. Anyways, this was an odd episode. Not good, not bad, just… odd. The therapy and plant jokes made my dad have to come in and check on me because I was laughing so loud, and most of the other jokes hit well. But it was… eh plot wise. It was pretty good joke wise though!

27:Journey to Spooky Island

Jasper, Quartermaster’s ahem… thing, and Max screaming were the best things in this episode. This episode is pretty great if I do say so myself, but this is ranked lower because I did not need to imagine Quartermaster like that. Excuse while I go burn out my eyeballs.

26: Camporee

Fuck Pikeman. All my homies hate Pikeman. No seriously, he is my least favorite character on the show. His sexism and gross advances really get to me, and the way he treats Gwen is disgusting. Now I have that out of the way, I actually enjoyed this episode, except for Pikeman. Hot take, I know. I’ve seen the Pikeman X Reader stuff on Wattpad. Whatever, back to the topic. Episode was good overall, especially the lesson. Each person’s talents were fantastic, and the ending itself was great. 

25:Camp Corp

We stan business Gwen and her telling Nancy to shut up.I love the plot, forcing three people who usually don’t work together to solve a common problem. I love that, and it does make for an interesting story. However, there are some flaws to the episode, but it’s overall pretty fantastic!

24:Follow the Leader

Are you kidding me? This was a great idea. Funny, creative, inventive, and overall pretty good. Playing with how each character leads was a great idea, and very inventive to give them all a common goal. Why it’s so low is personal pettiness. Pikeman, and Jasper was probably on the island when it blew up.

23:Squirrel Camp

Why is this so high up? *Looks at notes* Oh yeah, it’s so stupid I actually like it. No, but for real though, I know people don’t like this one as much as I do, but I think it’s pretty funny. Sure, dumb idea and kind of mediocore, but to me it’s so fun and entertaining. I’m sorry if you don’t agree, but you can make your own list if you’d like. It’s such a weird plot it’s entertaining. You get me?

22:Panicked Room

I just really like this episode, no rhyme or reason. It’s really funny and romantic, and the interactions were so good. David and Gwen through this episode were amazing for the mere seconds they were on screen, but it was overall pretty good!

21: City Survival

I couldn’t remember much of what happened in this so I ended up rewatching it. We love Dirty Kevin, David’s reaction to the city, and David being a homeless twink. Gwen also has the fancy outfit in this episode, and I am all for that.

20: Cookin Cookies

Three girls accidentally start a meth lab and go all breaking bad? Hell yes.It’s funny, the completion of everyone getting father figures, and it’s an overall good idea. It’s creative, good, it’s amazing. I really wanted to know what the main three were doing though, I’m actually kinda curious. Anyways, good story, and very enjoyable.

19:Keep the change

I found this episode very entertaining! Dadvid, Campbell getting better, funny moments, and a good plot! It’s really a great episode, and establishes what the season will be about. In fact, I believe I have themes for all the seasons:

Season 1:Beginnings

Season 2: Family

Season 3:Friends

Season 4: Change

18:Parent’s Day

Ok, Ok, know, Dadvid, but really I feel like this episode is a tiny bit overhyped. I love the Dadvid, Candy and Carl (Except I really don’t ship Neil/Nikki anymore), and how Max’s … situation is handled. Yes, I am on the side of thinking Max’s parents are abusive or at least ignorant. They just don’t care, and that’s where Max’s attitude comes from. It was well handled, and I very much like this episode.

17:Dial M for Jasper

I love Jasper with all of my heart, and watching his backstory was both heartbreaking and amazing. It wasn’t what I was expecting, but I thoroughly enjoyed it. Watching it made me hate Campbell more than I did, and I expect the episode where David finds out about Jasper would be heartbreaking. David most likely screams and curses at Campbell, and takes off. I’m hoping Gwen runs after him, but that’s wishful thinking.\

16:David gets hard

The ending is amazing, I love learning about Nurf’s trauma, and watching Gwen,Max, and David scheming is incredible. It was interesting to see Nurf's side of the story, and it was pretty good. Enough said.

15:Cult Camp

Yes, it is high. The song is amazing, the plot is amazing, and Daniel’s stupidity is amazing. He is a very good villain, and it works with the comedy of the show. If everyone wants, I will write an essay on Daniel and what he means to the show. Anyways, good episode, funny and inventive.

14:Bounjour Bonqueesha

Oh, what to say about this episode! I love Bon Bon, but her breaking up with David an hour before their date? Not so cool. Whatever. Watching Gwen comfort David made my day, my week, my month. It was amazing. The “I’m a girl” line was extremely funny, because me too Nikki. Me too. Anyways, loved it!

13:The Lake Lilac Summer Social

Oh, what an episode! Gwenvid, Makki (I sorta ship it? Eh?), love triangles, Gwen going ship crazy (me too, man, me too), and David being level headed for once. Uh, so glad this episode exists. Only bad part, Pikeman and Jeremy. That’s literally it.

12:Operation: Charlie Tango Foxtrot

The ending was gross, but whatever. No judgement. Funny episode, and I love how the experimented with the points of view. Petrol’s side was a nice gag and it was overall a good episode! No complaints other than the weird ending.

11:After hours

Honestly, this is a tie with the next one. It is a great look at what happens after all the kids go to bed, what Gwen and David have to deal with, and what goes on outside the camp. The Gwenvid is strong with this episode! It’s really funny and creative. Also, ChibiKawaiiCat97 is absolutely a real username out there, I’m sure it is. Gwen deserves all the good things.

My Favs!

10:Scout’s Dishonor

Neeancy, my child! Yeah! Also, Neil cursing out of nowhere? Amazing. It’s so high up because it actually was the first episode I saw a clip off! It’s what got me into Camp Camp overall, but it’s not listed up there because I do like others better.

9:The Forest

I know, not number one. It’s an amazing episode, with a great plot and a good lesson, but I physically cannot watch it without sniffling. Yes, I know, I’m pathetic for crying at this, but I really see the pain. You can feel the fear in his voice, and it always makes me so sad. Whatever, I still love this episode.

8:Into Town

I mean, I have no rhyme or reason, I just love this one. I can’t even think of a flaw for this one! It’s kind of an amazing thing! A lovely episode with good visuals and amazing dialogue!

7:The Butter Fingered Effect

An amazing episode about change. I love Neil cracking, Ered becoming a nerd, Nikki becoming a scientist, and the counselor outfit swap. I appreciate Gwen wearing David’s clothes, because that’s amazing. I like the theme of change that fits with Season 4. Good episode with almost no flaws!

6:Eggs Benefits

I love Max and Nikki interacting, trying to take care of the egg and Nikki basically having a panic attack. I just love Nikki episodes in general, ok? Don’t judge. Whatever. Preston and Nurf, were um, problematic, to say the least. Whatever, the ending was funny, and this episode is dear to my heart.

5.Camp Loser says what?

Wow… Gwen in a wood scout uniform is actually really pretty! Entire episode was pretty much a fanfiction come to life, and we love the team for that. Uh, I yearn for more fanfic like episodes. God, if you have followed me for long enough, you’d know I would love for the fans ideas to become canon.Anyway, good plot, glad Daniel came back in this way and Pan and/or Bi David is canon

4:Nikki’s Last Day on Earth

I wasn’t expecting that! Honestly, I didn’t see the twist and thought it was a good idea! Funny, creative, and shows off Max’s jerkiness. We love Max development and amazing plots. We also love a Mother and Daughter relationship between Gwen and Nikki. More of that please1

3:Gwen gets a job

This is so damn creative, I love this episode so much. Gwenvid fuel, Max being a terrible person, Gwen breaking down and David comforting her. I bet Gwen never heard a speech that encouraging in her life…

2:Party Pooper 

I know you thought this was going to be number one! Haha, tricked you! But really, this is an amazing episode. The way Gwen bonds with her father, the beautiful scene at the end, the background, everything. I love a good “Gwen is underappreciated” episode, and that’s why this gets second. Almost no flaws! Which leads to number one….

1:Something Fishy!

What an amazing episode! I have never seen “Shape of Water”, but this one is just incredible. Gwen is an underappreciated overworked mess, and she finds what seems likes the perfect option. But turns out it isn’t what it seems, and it’s amazing. Also, this episode has so much Gwenvid fuel, it’s amazing. The art is amazing, Gwen’s dress is amazing, it’s all perfect. No flaws here for me!

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We live in a community

[eric---matthews]

Crossfire || Self || Closed

TW: Kidnaping, Violence

Eric had sent Austin home after he finished, he told him that he didn’t need to wait around to clean up his office. It wasn’t messy to begin with. He knew that he wasn’t going to be in the office tomorrow or for the rest of week or maybe even two weeks, so naturally he wanted to get as much work done as possible. Richard was coming home and that was the most important thing in the whole world and Eric wasn’t about to miss that for anything. He just had a few more things to finish and then he was out of there, of course he had given Alexa the day off as well. But she was expected to be in the office while he was gone for the week. This way he could get kept updated.

Getting up, he grabbed some paperwork and then moved out of his office. Setting the papers down onto Nikki’s desk, he left a her note on top of them to make sure that they make it to the printer tomorrow. Making his way into the copy room, he grabbed what he printed looking over it for a moment. He kept reading the lines over and over again. This was not what he had printed. Glancing around some, Eric knew that he was alone. So maybe the computer malfunctioned or something. Sighing a little bit, he moved back into his office. Not noticing the shadow in the room since it was pretty late anyways, and his only the light on his desk was on.

Moving over to his laptop, he looked at the screen again. This had to be a mistake or something. He read the words once again. ‘I killed Alexander Turner!’ was across the screen. Slamming his laptop shut, he couldn’t figure it out. He didn’t kill his brother. Was -A trying to fuck with him? Get into his head or something? Fuck. Standing up, that was when he felt it, something like a bee sting. He turned, and he was face to face with -A. “Son of bitch.” He couldn’t see her face. That was when he took a swing and actually connected with the person. Hearing a grunt though, the two started struggling, he thought he had the upper hand but whatever -A had injected him with was taking effect. “Kill..you..” He fell over and hit his head on the side of his desk. Knocking him out completely.

That was when -A set up to work, making Eric’s office look like a bloody horror show. And it wasn’t just his blood. Granted, most of it was from before when Daisy had taken him. But all the rest of it was of cases in the past even those that Daisy and Jamie had done and of course the now -A. The blood was all over the place. -A liked playing games with the cops. It was fun. Once -A was finished, they looked around, and took some of Eric’s fresh blood to write out a message. 

‘Good luck finding him and me. -A’

Eric wasn’t easy to get out of the building but they managed. Loading him up, and driving out to a destination in mind. Pulling up, -A opened the building and drove in. Taking Eric out of the car, -A took off the wedding band. They would be giving this to Imogen sometime later. Taking a photo of him, they would be sending that as well. The three were asleep, and that was when -A snuck in and dropped him off. With a message pinned to his shirt. ‘Keep him alive. -A’

Brad had been sleeping lightly when -A came in, he was ready to strike just in case something happened but he heard the door close. His eyes opened, and he looked at the sleeping redhead. -A had brought them something again. He woke up the redhead gently. Glancing over at what -A had left them. It looked like a body. Getting up, he moved over to it and took the hood and mask off the persons face. “Eric?” He questioned, as soon as he saw his face. His eyes went back to Sophie. “What the fuck?” His eyes went back to Eric, who was seemingly still passed out, and he read the note. “Sophie, do your saving of lives thing. I’ve got questions for him.”

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its all you know

Run to Paradise & Charlotte Lee 'verse

Summary: Sometimes Nikki wonders what it would be like if their respective youths hadn't been a living hell.

A/N: @misscharlottelee said she missed my lola content and i was thinking abt a hs au for the pacl (which i still might write, i have genuine ideas for a legit hs au) so i wrote this on my phone on a whim. ft. mentions of Charlotte and Nikki and Lola's lowkey possibly joking possibly not crush on her (and TW for brief mention of suicidal ideation)

Nikki looks at Lola sometimes and wonders about how things would be if life had been kind. If her dad had been around, and her mom wasn't a bitch, and her whole life hadn't gone to shit, would she still be in his arms, telling him she loves him by telling she loves his songs, with that sincerity in her voice, in her eyes, that melts his heart's defenses without her even meaning to.

What if life had been kind to him, if his dad had stuck around, if his mom wasn't a raging cunt with a string of asshole boyfriends, that couldn't give a shit about Nikki. Would he still be here in this golden Thursday afternoon, tracing patterns on Lola's scarred back, telling her that she's beautiful with his lips against her shoulder when he can't look her in the eye for fear of her seeing his honesty.

What if they'd grown up together, white picket fences side by side, normal kids with normal lives; Nikki still plays music, there's no reality he can see himself in without it.

"Dad would have loved you," he remembers Lola once saying. She'd thought the world of him, sometimes Nikki would have liked to have met him. If he'd been around, Lola would be different, and probably more well adjusted. In this fantasy Nikki's created for himself, a childhood not stolen, her dad probably comes to Nikki's gigs; he would have liked their style, after all, if what Lola says is anything to go by.

Sometimes Nikki envies Tommy and Charlotte, who didn't have to grow up too fast, who went to prom, and on cute dates, and who got to have reasonably normal lives. Sometimes, in this fantasy world he's creating for himself, this youth that he was never allowed to have, he brings them all together, pieces out a life from the stories Charlotte and Tommy and Vince have reminisced about. He wonders about prom, about laughing at Vince in a white suit, who agreed to go with Charlotte when her first choice turned her down, and he thinks about Charlotte and Lola getting ready together, laughing and talking and smiling, still able to smile without reservation or hesitation.

In this idealised world, he thinks he might even work at Lola's dad's takeout shop; the old man takes a liking to him for his music after all. Tommy would complain that he's still unemployed, but somehow, even in this fantasy, Nikki's looking for excuses to stay out of his house. Old habits die hard.

And this Lola would be sweet, would still have a dad to idolise and teach her right from wrong, lead her on a better path than any she was destined for the moment he'd passed. But she's still Lola, a bit rough and tumble, a little bit rock and roll, but she doesn't feel the constant need to prove herself. She'd laugh at Nikki's jokes and call him an old fucker who likes dad music, but she'd be his favorite person to work with, because she'd always be the first to hype up his new music.

Nikki claims to be too cool for prom, but ends up driving the rest of the gang, and Lola stays by his side the whole night, and shares the flask of vodka she'd borrowed from her dad. He won't be too mad; he could never be mad at Lola. She rides shotgun on the way back and Nikki's got his hand on her thigh and doesn't move it, even when Charlotte, Tommy, and Vince notice and loudly tease them. He kisses her before she leaves, and it actually would give him butterflies.

But they wouldn't be the same people.

The world is unkind, even to those who don't deserve it, and if they had met bacm in high school, Lola wouldn't have looked him in the eyes, a frightened and downtrodden mouse of a girl. Nikki knows he'd only be interested in corrupting her, not caring what consequences it would wreak on her life when he got bored and tossed her aside.

"What do you think would have happened if we'd met in high school?" Nikki asks softly, and Lola shifts a little in bed in order to look at him.

"You probably would have terrified me," she tells him with a sharp smile, on her side, one arm reaching across his belly to pull herself a little closer to him, "mom wouldn't have let me think of you, let alone talk to you, and between supressing the urge to kill myself and piano lessons, I didn't exactly have a lot of time for new friends." And though her tone is light, Nikki's expression still crumples, sympathetic to her struggles, given his own rocky high school years. But Lola makes a considering noise, which brings him back to the present.

"Actually, I'm not sure," she admits, "technically we did meet in high school, at least for me." Nikki often forgets that she'd never even properly graduated middle school. "Why?" She asks, interested in his train of thought.

"Vince took Charlotte to prom once," Nikki says with a hint of a smile, and Lola pressed her laughter into his chest.

"Yeah I heard about that."

"I'm just thinking about what it would have been like if we had been normal too; what if we got to grow up together, all of us, with that whole happy families, white picket fence shit?"

"Do you think we would have slow danced?" Lola teases, poking him in the ribs, and Nikki snorts.

"I think we would have gotten drunk together -"

"Would we be a whole cliche? Take my virginity in the back seat of your beat up old car on prom night?" But she's grinning, her adoring little smile pressed soft against his skin as she looks up at him, falling more in love with him as she falls in love with the fantasy.

"But we wouldn't really talk about it, except that I'd come to your house in the week and throw rocks at your window until you snuck me in," Nikki leaned in and pressed a kiss to her hair. Lola sighs, tucks herself against him, warm and content in the moment.

"You'd be my backup date, by the way," Nikki teases, to which Lola made an indignant noise in the back of her throat, and Nikki elaborates on the verge of laughter, "I definitely would have asked Charlie, but she thought I was kind of gross and an asshole."

"You are gross and an asshole, not just kind of," Lola smirks, but continues with surprising sweetness before he can respond properly, "that's why I love you."

"How would we even know each other in this timeline? I don't know about you, but if my life had gone differently, there's no way I'd still be the same person," Lola asks, brow burrowing.

"Oh, we both work in your dad's restaurant," he tells her, like its the most obvious thing in the world, and Lola's whole being softens to something warm and fond at the mere mention of her dad.

"He really would have loved you," she confirms his suspicions with a soft chuckle.

"I don't think we'd be here," Nikki gestures to their bed, their surrounds, their life, "but we'd end up together. Somehow. In all my realities, I see you in the end," he admits.

"You've been blinded by love, you sap," but Lola's blushing, and Nikki can't help it as he pushes kt further, enjoying Lola's rare sweet and flustered state.

"Maybe I juat don't want to see a reality without you."

Lola's actually gone speechless, her fond smile and pink cheeks hidden where she's pressed her whole face against his chest. Nikki holds her just a little tighter, wearing his smuggest little smirk.

"Okay but what if Razz was in this little fantasy of yours?" Lola finally surfaces, resting her chin on his chest.

"I would make fun of his accent constantly," Nikki answers with probably too much certainty, "I am and I was an asshole," he reminds her, not that Lola's trying to correct him.

"Even if he was dating Charlie?"

"Especially if he was dating Charlie; you've seen her high school photos, Charlie was just as much of a bombshell back then. See she and Vince make sense going to prom together, both of them being hot as all hell, but that weird little English fucker landing Charlie while we're all in high school? I'm not even sure how he managed it as an adult." Nikki snorts, and Lola punches his chest and calls him an asshole.

"You're so mean to them sometimes," but she's smiling even as she rolls her eyes, "Razz is cute, you're just jealous."

"And you're not?"

"Every day, dude, obviously, but she's my friend and I told her I'd get you to be a little nicer."

"You can try," he says with his most shiteating grin before silence falls between them.

"Where would we end up, if not here?" Lola asks, so quiet her voice is barely a whisper, the hypothetical playing in her head on repeat.

"We'd be different people," Nikki muses quietly.

"Sounds like everyone around us would be different too, stable and shit, happy families."

"We'd probably end up just like them," Nikki says with a laugh that sounds a little hollow at the very thought, "you'd be a PTA mom and running your dad's shop, and I'd be teaching music, and we'd have Sunday brunch with the Lees."

"Not the Dingeys?"

"Charlie and Razz would move back to England."

Lola hums thoughtfully at the mental image, but something about the stale serenity of it all has Nikki's stomach turning at the thought.

"Is it bad that I'm glad we're in the reality where everything went wrong?" She asks softly. Nikki swallows hard, and in this moment, knows clearly, and with absolute certainty, that he is in love with her. She gets him, without even realizing, she understands him so completely.

"There's no reality I'd rather be in," he agrees.