#tw mentions of wanting to die

[screams-n-shackles]

Strong characters that are afraid of dying.

And I do not mean afraid of dying in a life threatening situation.

Let them be used to chaos, to pain. Let them thrive in conflict and near death experiences.

But as soon as it's quiet. When it's not possible to keep out thoughts by being busy, by fighting.

Let them lay awake. Staring into the night, and thinking about what they are fighting for.

What they are thankful for.

And then the realize, they are not only afraid of loosing those precious things.

They are afraid of never getting to experience Them ever again.

They don't want to say a final goodbye to a dear friend.

They never want to See a last sunset, their last movie.

Thinking about the Last Time they Said their mother that they Loved her or Vice versa sends Them into a Spiral.

Why does everything have to die?

They don't want to die.

They don't want to die.

That's when they start shaking. Eyes filling with tears as they struggle to breath between their sobbing.

Covering their mouth, so noone can hear them in this State of Mind.

Their mind fogs as panic overwrites every positive thought they might try to conjure up.

No Matter what they try, Images of their Possible deaths appear in their mind.

They could get shot and die in Combat.

They could choke on a peanut or get a Brain aneurism in the middle of the night.

That's it. Their end.

Nothing more. No afterstory. And in a while their name won't be mentioned ever again.

A life of suffering to protect others, only to vanish into nothingness.

Reduced to Ash and Stardust.

What are they even Fighting for?

What does it matter?

Does.... Anything Matter?

[waywardsunlight]

Hunter and Luz's deaths being reverses of each other is crazy work in so many ways. Hunter is working on his emotional well-being, and beginning to accept himself. He lists the things he wants to do in order to stay focused so he can take himself (and Belos) out. Hunter hasn't been able to fully escape his trauma, in fact it literally overtakes him and he hurts people he loves, and he's holding onto the potential life he won't get due to Belos. Hunter's possession is forced on him, it's out of his control, it's the unfair expectations and history of violence that he could try and recover from but it still a part of him.

Luz has been in the exact opposite mindset. She's been really depressed and doesn't see a future for herself where she doesn't hurt everyone in her life because of her guilt. Luz is planning to sabotage her friendships in order to protect her friends from her perceived "brokeness". But her death is sudden and shocking, her sacrifice isn't made out of guilt but of an inherent impulse to save somebody else. Luz has to choose to come back, and she accepts a "possession", where she's in control. Luz has to accept that she's good, that she is worthy of life because she's here, right now, and she is enough.

They both also deal with the aftermath differently, with Hunter grieving and being angry at himself for what happened (which Luz and their friends perceive as him being angry at them). Hunter wants to get revenge on Belos at first, but then his focus shifts to protecting his friends and fighting for the Isles instead. Luz comes back with a lot of joy and excitement, she's happy to be alive again and its fun and she's more than happy to get revenge. After that fades, Luz is left tired. But they both end the series getting on the same page- they both love their families, and they both choose to live.

[frownyalfred]

“Great,” Bruce said, watching as Kent did a slow circle around him, nostrils flaring, “I’m bringing the party to you.”

“I’m far too old for that kind of party, sir.”

“Could’ve fooled me.”

IM RE-READING A CORAL ROOM AND JUST. UGHHHHH YOU WRITE ALFRED AND BRUCE SO WELL.

First of all, Bruce has no business being as funny in his own head as he is. He's fucking hilarious. Every time he's about to die he just thinks "oh this bodes well" and Idk id I make it out to be funnier in my own head but shit I keep giggling like a school girl.

Also, his banter with Alfred??? Like that dialogue I added in this ask??? Those jokes just after they had a moment of pure love as Bruce tries to get him off the comms bc he doesn't want him to hear him die and Alfred refusing??? And immediately after when things take a turn, Alfred being like "nvm you're on your own"

AJDKAJDKDJD I CANT GET ENOUGH OUT OF THIS SERIES

Thank you so much! I loved writing Bruce in that first fic, he was so miserable but also so funny (in a dark, grim way). And Alfred was the same, trying to be supportive and beta-like without spooking his charge. They really are a Pack, even though they tried to deny that for like four decades. Agh they make me crazy.

[arttsuka]

Sorry for this super depressing poll but

[pain-is-too-tired]

Trafficking technically being canon in pjo still- it just drives me insane.

Like yeah, it might be one(two if you wanna count ttc opening conflict) instances we see

BUT THAT STILL NOT GREAT

I mean it also is great for fic ideas- surprised I hadn't really seen it- but still.

Just insane to me. It's not even "the Titan Army is paying good money for demigods" it's "Luke Castellan is paying good money for demigods."

Like no matter what way your splice it Luke is at least complicit in it.

I know I get silly when writing him with the Leeluke stuff, but there's a reason I tend to focus on divorce Leeluke

Because it's so hard not to write him getting the consequences of his actions. Because he DOES STUFF LIKE THIS.

Especially with how I write Lee. If Lee found out the Luke was at least complicit in what's pretty much the buying of other demigods, he'd kill him with his bare hands. Being stuck as Kronos' vessel would seem like a mercy compared to how badly Lee would kick his ass.

Anyway... looks at my Fae!Lee/were-coyote!Luke au wip Suddenly that doesn't seem too out of pocket anymore...

[eternalergo]

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[kindheart525]

Tragic AU idea: Pim and Mr. Boss are officially executed in Spamtopia. Allan, Charlie, and Glep have to figure out what to do with themselves and the Smiling Friends business as time goes by with no word from them, wondering when—or if—their missing boss and friend will come back, and what they're going to do about Jason dying on their watch in the meantime

[silly-ash-meow]

I thought everything was fine...I fvcked up again...my mom called me the worst kid.. I'm her mistake....I don't have anything to cvt myself now but I'll try to get something and then I'll try to km$

[alibonbonn]

Of all mythological characters, Thetis' grief resonates the most with me. The loss of her son is so final, more final than mortals losing each other- mortals might still meet each other in the land of the dead when all comes to pass. Somehow her sorrow feels the most like grieving a loved one who was of a different religion, you know what I mean? Like...we're not going to the same place! and I hope they've made peace with that before their time.

[averlym]

" just...come here. just sit here with me" (...that one scene from princess momonoke, click for better resolution)

[willwoodshipsbyler]

long personal ish post

i think it's really beautiful how every decision you make and thing that happens to you makes you who you are and changes your life in some way. I love my partner and my friends so much and I am so lucky that I made the right combination of decisions to have them in my life. it's hard to explain but it's like how choose your own adventure games work. one decision can change the entire outcome and to get a certain ending you have to make all the right choices. I somehow chose all of the right decisions to end up with the life I have now and I think that is so awesome. I also think that having this view on things makes me appreciate what I have and the people I have much more because like... what are the chances that I took the exact right steps to lead me here? I got so lucky and I am so grateful for it and I love everyone so much.

I also appreciate bad things that happened too. like friendships that made me want to die and my parents getting a divorce and my mom and stepdad fighting all the time and living with my mom's friend for six months. all of these things sucked and hurt and were obviously bad but they made me who I am and made things happen that gave me the life I have now.