#tw!panickattack

[kagami--uchiha]

Plotted starter for @konoha-interrogation

Red.

Covering the ground, staining clothing and drenching his fingers. Red on pale lips, a smile that was turned into a grotesque grin with all that red.

It stained everything, it swallowed everything and it reminded him of what he was sure of since that one day:

He's so useless. He should have done something but all he did was watch and cry like a child, pleading to some imaginary figures to help him, to bring back the one he loved but all he sees is his face, head rested on a lap where it had grown as heavy as lead, still... Never to speak or smile again, never to give him any playful winks or give him a stern look and he...

... wakes up. It was that dream again. The one that just showed him what a huge mistake he was a d the one that almost immediately gets him to panic. Quickly he turns, mind set on seeing ibiki and making sure that be still is there, alive and well. Breathing and with a healthy heartbeat. But all his brain did was paint that picture of him bleeding again, laying there and bleeding, causing his panicked mind to run hands across that broad chest. Frenzied motions trying to stop the wound from spilling more of that precious life essence, but just like that say if the attack, it did nothing.

"No, no,.. no no no no, not again no.. no." There were several breaks in his voice, even though it was merely a whisper. "No, no don't do that no.. I can't.. not again I can't..." And so, the claws of the monster that took over his mind just tightened it's grip, tears breaking out if their confinement as if a dam just broke, almost jumping out of bed to stumble into the bathroom, having a lot of things hit the ground as he tried to find that medical kit.

He was shaking, hiccups wracking his body like a storm. "Don't die again, no no, no not again I.. I am right back and all.. I will.. help this time... I swear you won't... I swear really, so please... Please.. PLEASE!!" He himself didn't even notice that he was getting louder, but that didn't matter right now since he had to help his partner, it was important but he couldn't find the mes-kit. "FUCK PLEASE!"

[phanfictioncatalogue]

So I did something dumb and cleared my open tabs, I’m looking for two things. The first is the fic about Dan constantly in pain where he quits school and his job and Phil looks after him it’s on AO3 and is chaptered and not completed. The second one is the sequel to the fic where Phil got really hurt and is put in the hospital for a really long time cause he can’t respond to anyone and has PTSD, Dan kinda works at the hospital and helps him, it’s on AO3. Thank you so much for saving me!

flares (ao3)- huphilpuffs

Summary: (tw) Dan's body has been broken for as long as he can remember, and he's long since learned to deal with it. Sort of. But when his symptoms force him to leave uni and move into a new flat with a stranger named Phil, he finds that ignoring the pain isn't the way to make himself happy.

chase the sky (ao3) - overwhelmedbysonder

Summary: (tw) “I promised you I was going to get you out of here. I promised you we’d chase the sky. We can't do that until you get better, Phil. I know it’s hard, and I know it hurts…but I’m fucking sick of this room, and if I am, I KNOW you are too. We’ve got to get you into the world, before you forget how good it is out there." Or, the one where Phil is still struggling with depression, PTSD, and being a mute in recovery, and Dan still just wants to hug him (Or, alternatively known as the sequel to Restless).

- Rosie