#turly hate it

[icanbeyourgenie]

— AND I SWALLOW // d.s  (via dangeress)

[angstigone]

ok so today the day has barely begun and I have:

I arrived late because the buses didn't even show up.

I forgot my lunch (and I have celiac disease and obviously at the canteen they don't cater for me)

[ilkkawhat]

I don't know about you, but it is really hard picturing myself getting into a romantic relationship at the moment when it is not considered normal to talk for 9 hours straight about a horror game 😞. Also, how am I supposed to explain the fact that 95 % of the 500 + pictures on my phone are of some Finnish man

exactly! sometimes i have the legit fear that my SO would like see one of my fav obsessions and be like "yah that's trash" but lol they better be ready for those long ass dissertations about horror games and a certain finnish man if they wanna date me for the foreseeable future 😂

[frizzypom]

i think about that one guy who reblogs homestar art and writes about how much they hate marzipan in the tags.

[a-romantics-guide-to-life]

⋆ ₊☽˚𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓰 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓼˚☾₊ ⋆ 

𝓼𝓾𝓶𝓶𝓪𝓻𝔂 : you and coryo had gone through hell and back, you've been together and far apart yet you could never find the courage to say how you truly feel for him. so, you wrote them into letter form, but you never sent them. and so what happens when one mr. snow finds each and every letter only to realize that it's too late?

𝓽𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 : written in letter form from the readers perspective, talks of jealousy and sad feelings, r is definitely from the capitol, self blame, kinda sorta depression, angst, deceit, suicide, coryo finally responds

𝓪/𝓷 : so here’s the grand finale! thank you all for all the support and love on this fic, i turly am so grateful for every single note, kudos, reblog, and comment (even if its just you telling me how i made you cry ; ) ) here we are! hope you enjoy!

𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓸𝓾𝓼 𝓹𝓪𝓻𝓽

⋆ ₊ ☽ ·˚𓍲⋆ 𝓮𝓹𝓲𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓮⋆𓍲˚· ☾ ₊ ⋆

To my Dearest Darling,

My love, my darling, words cannot describe the pain in my chest.

You can’t truly be gone. This must be some kind of hoax. I find that my eyes that you once called the most precious gems are filled with tears as I read the letter I received promptly after returning back from 12. 

I have many regrets my dearest, but my most haunting is you.

I can’t believe what a fool I have been, to have tossed you to the side when you have been there for me in a way that no one else can. 

Your family has invited me to your funeral, the audacity of those ingrates. They plundered your room, taking anything and everything. Which is how they happened upon your delicate box filled with tear stained letters.

All addressed to me.

The shock that overcame me as I heard straight from your bastard of a father had nearly killed me alone.

He had told me that you had thrown yourself off a bridge. Called you an ungrateful whore who didn’t do anything but take his money and take advantage of your family's good name.

I nearly jumped up from my seat and beat your father to death. How dare he call you names when every single dollar he ever gave you to keep you quiet lay in my drawer. How dare he call you an ungrateful whore for turning down an arranged marriage. And how dare he belittle you behind your cold back when I know I have hurt you like no other.

I have turned my back on you when you have been my greatest supporter, even greater than my own cousin. I have chosen another girl over you who has loved me since the very beginning, since we were young. I have cut you so deeply that you could not bear living anymore.

How could I?

Please my darling, you must know that I, there is no way I can atone for my sins, not that you are no longer here.

Please my darling, you must forgive me.

Please, please, please. 

Please forgive me for not writing to you all those years ago when we were young and caught in the middle of a war we had no part in. Please forgive me for not seeing you as the Angel you truly are.

Please forgive me for not noticing how you hurt for me, a man who is so undeserving of your compassion and empathy. 

Please forgive me for turning my back on you, even when I knew that you understood me like no other. Please forgive me for not hearing your pleas for me to wake up, for not thanking you for weeping over my sickly frame.

Please forgive me for not turning to you first, my loudest cheer when Lucy Gray was finally out of that arena. Please forgive me for not noticing how you were hurting, how you were aching, as I held you when I kissed you cheek tenderly. Please forgive me for not seeing your inner turmoil.

Please forgive me for not seeing how you loved me.

Please forgive me for becoming the very thing I hated. Please forgive me for giving into the temptation that was Lucy Gray. Please forgive me for not telling you, the one who’d never even breath about my deepest secrets to another, that I had been exiled.

Please forgive me for leaving you all by yourself in the large, large Capitol. Please forgive me for not even thinking about how you would feel all by yourself.

Please forgive me for not being there for you when Billius proposed to you. Please forgive me for not being there for you.

Please forgive me for not telling you the truth.

To be honest, it’s been eating up my insides. I wanted to tell you so badly. I regret it so much, I never even realized how much I would suffer, how much you would suffer, from my actions. 

Darling, please forgive me. Please forgive me. Darling, please forgive me for lying to you.

For not loving you like I have.

For not showing you how much I love you. 

Please, darling, forgive me.  

Wherever you are, please forgive me. 

Please, darling, forgive me.

Sweet Angel, my heart felt ripped out of my chest as I saw your delicate face in a coffin, skin cold and flushed pale. Your parents were as stone faced as usual, their eyes bone dry. 

Sweet Darling, I pray that you forgive me from the great beyond. I pray that you watch over me and guide me to become a person worthy of your love for as I am now, I am undeserving of your life, your tears, your love. 

My Dearest Darling, as I read all those letters and saw the tear stains that marred the paper, my heart ached for you, felt the unbearable pain that no number of sorrys and whiskeys can drown out. 

My Dearest Darling, I love you.

I am so sorry that I have been an ignorant fool who is unworthy of everything you ever gave me. 

I now know that I will never smile again, unless I smile with you.

Please wait for me my Darling.

Please forgive me,

Coryo

[frostbitepandaaaaa]

top 5 cassian andor moments. can be from either andor or rogue one!

brie you truly love me, don't you? <3 (or maybe you hate me this was really hard. the man turly has no skips)

in no particular order:

"But I do... I believe you."

Shooting Skeen (rip)

"Power doesn't panic" (honestly the whole radicalization of Kino Loy-- truly iconic)

"Your father woul have been proud of you, Jyn."

honestly the entirety of Rix Road is JUST! king shit.

BONUS because i can't help myself: wet cassian

[oscconfessblog]

hi oscconfessions alternative. Is that what i should call this blog.

anwyays FLOORPHONE PROPAGANDA GO!!!! please guys they're so silly. they hated eachother at first (i think floory was just tryna be nice tho i don't think je hated mephone) i know but guys theyr turly a married couple. idk. enemies to lovers??? they ain't that tbh i don't thunk that w9uld describe their relationship very well. please guys they're so silly. you can't tell me they aren't married. any variation of floorphone will do. cabphonefloor (cabby x floory x mephone)? cool! mefloorfizz (mephone4 x floory x dr fizz)? awesome! I love dr fizz! meflooroj (mephone x floory x oj)? sure! i love floorphone!

-🥤

conf 40

[ducknotinarow]

"Just tell me why you left. For seven fucking years, Alastor." If he still sounds upset by it, it's because he is. He didn't know where Alastor had disappeared to, if it was because of him? If Alastor hated him now because of the confession seven years ago? "I deserve at least that much from you."  ( - Vox :3 )

| Muse interaction

It was a bit of a mystery. The radio demon that had seemingly overnight turned all of hell on its head toppled over the higher ranking overlords almost overnight. There's no clue to their end outside the sound of their delicious screams broadcasted all over for all to know. It was his calling card by then. But as suddenly as Alastor had apperned and made a name for himself as the 'radio demon'.

Alastor jad also just disappeared without a word spoken on where he would be going. And though he was keeping thst as need to know not even demons who souls were his knew his whereabouts. It wasn't important for anyone else to know about. Though he did enjoy how often it was brought up.

What can he say he loved the attention. Well attetion he thought he would get. Not many seemed to care he had been gone for so long. All but one demon, of course.

Vox.

"Just tell me why you left. For seven fucking years, Alastor."

Oh, if anyone was going to give Alastor the reaction he was seeking? It would, in fact, be Vox. He would nearly admit to maybe even missing his old aquintance. For the simple fact they did least act in a way Alastor found amusing. It was clear Vox was still haboring a lot of emotions over everything. Alastor vanishing act only added fuel to the fire.

"I deserve at least that much from you." 

"Now now Vox my dear, you know how I am." Alastor shrugged off nonchalantly. "I'm a craftsmen and all craftsmen have thier secrets. I was simply uninspired so to say." But even Alastor wasn't that blind to the emotions being displayed under all that surface level anger. And maybe old times made for a soft spot in Alastor.

"I just took a sabbatical." He shrugs his arms up before reaching over and talking old of the two ends of Vox's bow tie. Straightening out before giving an unneeded sudden tug to tighten it. "Nothing to get your knickers in a twist over." He smiled clearly amused. Vox turly never failed.

"Can't blame me for the needed break now can you? Even you must understand the mental block that can occur time to time." He tries and relate to Vox with. Offering a tad bit of reassurance in his wording if he meant it?who knew it was mostly to deter Vox at the end of the day.

[hopepaigeturner]

omg i absolutely love Lucy’s drabble

her hate for Anthony Bridgerton lol it’s so funny to me ahahhah and all the feelings she has because she feels different and unuseful in her family, you portrayed them perfectly, i loved it

she and gregory are super cute and i’m so curious to know what happens next, now that she has realised he’s the missing piece

Lol the hate for Anthony is strong in this AU...justified? You'll have to find out 😉

Glad you enjoyed the snippet, sorry for the long repost but I've finally got the answer to your question about Grucy after Lucy realises he's Gregory Bridgerton.

~*~*~*~*

Well, the first thing that goes through her head is...How to stop Gregory from freaking out?

Because, from Gregory's POV, no one has ever spotted him on any mission he's tagged onto. And even in real life, no one turly sees him for who he is. So, for the girl that he sorta-kinda-has a crush on, to actually sees him for who he really is, is a bit of a shock. Then ofcourse this sprials when Lucy starts explaining her family and their role with his siblings.

Now Gregory has been raised that no one must know about his siblings' powers--other than the agency he's grown up training in . Young gregory had many lectures from Anthony and Violet of the dire consequences of exposing his power, including threats of experimentation, incarseration and assasination.

But gradually, Lucy can calm him down and get him to understand that the UA wants to help. And that Gregory needs their help because Lucy is not medically trained to remove knife wounds.

So, begrudgingly, Gregory and Lucy make their way to the academy. On the way Gregory eplains that he usually magnifies his siblings' power but after the lightning strike, this has been dialled to 11. He eplains that after the strike he felt utterly lost, and only focused when near his sibilngs, so instinctivley followed them.

By the time they enter the academy, the pair have caught up with each other's respective secrets. Even though Lucy is quick to assure him that she is 'normal' unlike her siblings. To this Gregory turns to her and says,

"Oh Lucy Abernathy, you've never been normal. I knew that the moment I stepped foot in that coffee shop."

And the way he is smiling at her actually makes the words sink in, causing her to blush. Lucy is about to reply when utter chaos erupts.

Violet Bridgerton screams upon seeing her bloodied son and runs to him. This alerts the entirety of the house.

Simon reaches the pair first, blocking Violet and insisting that they do not know what Gregory's abilities are. Gregory starts coughing and bumps into Simon's shoulder, trying to warn his family not to touch him. Lucy comments that Simon will never find out what Gregory's abilities are if he dies on the marble floor.

Lucy's comment is lost under a thundering Anthony Bridgerton who shouts at Simon to take his hands off his brother. With Anthonys emotions as out of whack as his powers, he grabs something metal and throws it at Simon's face. Simon lifts his hand, ready to divert it--when his face drops. He can't. He can feel no power.

On instinct Gregory raises his hand and the metal rod sails away and clatters on the floor.

The entire room is stunned.

At the bottom of the stairs, the air shimmers and a young woman, a year or so younger than Eloise, materialises.

"What on earth, Greg?"

"Francesca?!" The Bridgertons cry.

Michael walks leisurley into the hallway, flask in hand and raises an eyebrow,

"Wait, you can see her too?"

*~*~*~*~*

As always check out the rest of the posts, and send your asks to either me or @bridgertonbabe

[ray-the-fanatic]

2k12 tmnt for the fandom asks

(sorry i haven't answered yours yet, been having an off day but i'll get to it soon 🙏)

(lol no worries take your time friend!)

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 I’ll tell you:

The first character I first fell in love with:  I feel the answer is well know XD I love Raph! I mean makes sense he was my favorite in 03 but I turly loved what 2012 did with him as well. He such a cocky shit at the start of the show and its not that he stops that trait but you do see how he develops for the better as the shown went on. Him feeling he was better and should be leader to how he more takes to his role in his team. You see him go from someone who cracks under pressure when given leadership to making sure he's always prepared, how he makes sure none of them esp Leo are left behind how he lets his softer side come out more when Chompy comes in. HE's also a little smart ass and people need to let him cuss he's had it u-u

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: 

Shinigami, I sort of dropped off watch 2012 during season 4 so I didn't see her much outside a few epsiode I caught here and there. I havent quite gotten to when she is in the show now either outside clips and such I have seen. But I expected me to feel as I do Renet shes fine but there. Honestly though? I love her. I like how she isn't the usual gloom and doom but even laughs at Mikey's jokes i dunno I just enjoy her.

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: 

Renet, I wouldn't say I hate her. Much how I just wasn't much for the 03 version I would say gose the same in 12. I like her just fine shes a fun charater for the episodes she comes in for and such mostly love the season 5 monter arch. I personlly love her most for the fact she shares a VA with Terra from Teen Titans so it was like getting Beast Boy and Terra back. She just there she's fine I dont find her annoying but Im not hyped about her personally myself.

The character I love that everyone else hates: 

I wouldn't say he is hated but I do see Casey tends to not get much love or people will makes statments about him I just don't agree with like saying he is selfish and uncaring. When you do see that isn't ture. You learn that he and raph talk about stuff like what happened to spike. You see hes the one April talks when at the time who she thought was her mom wanted to leave and she had to pick to stay or go with her. Casey dose care about the turtles he often right there when they need help, he covers them in their battles and like the nightmare episode from the farm house arch he was ready to beat an old man for possibly being the reason they were going to die. I genuinely just love Casey my re watch has made me love him even more I just can't get over his stupid laugh sometimes XD

The character I used to love but don’t any longer:

Slash, NOT that I hate him either I thought he was villain longer though? but he had such a sudden turn around and it felt like such a waste to me. I felt like he could have been good as Raph arch enemy over Xever. Could been used to add to Raph and Casey friendship/partnership. I still like Slash I just wish he had been a villain a bit longer just for all untap story he had to offer.

The character I would totally smooch: 

Give all the turtles smooches on their heads they been through it in this shown u-u

The character I’d want to be like: 

hmmm mr murakami? I dunno dude seems to be enjoying live got hos own businesses willing to make stuff for the turtles he seems chill despite getting dragged into stuff from just knowing the turtles.

The character I’d slap: 

-Raph I love my boy but he needs to be slapped u-u

-Leo also needs a slap sometimes

-Casey he exsits hit em

-Donnie i love him to but smack this boy A pairing that I love:

Rasey uwu I love these two no matter the series I gotta ship these idiots im a sucker for the best friends to lovers trope A pairing that I despise:

hmm I don't think I have any sure theres some I dont ship or personally like much but eh cant say I have a ship I like hate you know? Besides I rather spend time enjoy what I love anyway.

[jinouchibhue]

Since profiction-monika doesn't know when to quit or when to shut the fuck up. profiction-monika engages in victim blaming abuse victim whenever they don't fit into their little misunderstood psychology image of what that looks like. Like it's turly wild how they straight up think men can't ever be abused. Or teachers by their students because "they hold more societal power. " Straight up uses the same logic people use to say black people can't ever be racist. And we all know how much coverage Stop Asian Hate got. Maybe if I was in a more charitable mood I would just say they're fucking stupid and not the racist victim blaming piece of shit they're trying to paint someone else as, but I'm not. so yeah, actually, I'm saying that.

[momiamtired]

dear god, why do you hate me? what have i done? i never asked for a lot. i dont want to be rich or famous i just want to be happy. i just want to have my closesr friends around me and a botfriend and a child and a secure work. i just wish a happy life. why do i need to go through this. why do you hate me? i just was born in a wrong place. why me? of all people why me? i hate this town. i never slept more than 5 hours these 3 days. i wake up at 2 am with an alarm that soon will make my heart stop just to play with my friend because we have huge time difference. thats the only thing that gives me happiness. everything else is rather anger or sadness. im not exaturating. im not a whiny teenager. i want to kill myself. and only because of fucking hope that every day gets ruined i am still standing and sitting on my disgustingly uncomfortable anti suicidal chair and write this in hopes to get better. i only have 4 hours of sleep left, thanks emily. i have finals soon and i still never realised it so good luck to me. i dont really know why am i still alive. i really wish i didnt have things i would be regretting to lose or just i dont want them to be sad. my friend, my dad that is going to be shamefull of my death and regreting how much money he spend on me, my mom, maybe my brother, my relatives which im afraid the most becuase since childhood im afraid of being told to them that i am a failuer, my cat, my hopes that everything will become better. thats all that stoping me and tbh im not sure how long will i manage. no its like i dont even have a choice. if i will die many bad things will happen and i dont even have a cnhoice to unalive myself because even after my death something bad wiill happen. im just amazed thats its jkust getting ridiciuluose. tbh if i will get raped or i will lose my phone or someone will stab me with a knife i wont be surprised im not exadurating im tired of people telling things that are not true i turly feel that if something as bad as that will happen to me i wont be surprised. i hate this town im afraid to walk on streets here im tired of me not knowing english im tired to say things im tired of. its like its just a situation where u are getti ng happiness only from 3 max source and its playing online games with ur friends( u have to not sleep at all and then go to studying while having undiagnosed adhd and just getting emberessed after sleeping on lessons), tiktok which more often gives me strong negative depr4essive emotions like any social media would, and other internet stuff that can give me positive emotions only really rarely and if i willf find something and only if my roommate is not hope and she didnt left homne in like 2 weeks. i dont want to sleep at all and im tired god oh how im tired how ianything that makees this things happen to me oh how i wish he would be suffering eternaly oh how i wish you cant imagen how much i hate my life how everyday get into awful situtions or things all the time and i dont even have a choice its like im a clown or a puppet somebody watches and experiments and laughs. i wish i could be dead tbh god idc anymore just fucking kill me already i dont care at this point i know u wont make my life easier just kill me im tired of crying and anger

[fzrticv]

Illness starter | accepting @jestamuses : "Let's take it easy and focus on healing, healing!” Jevil sighs as he hovers over to Fizz and tuck in the covers. “Resting is the best healing, healing! Plus, plus I don’t healing darkener magic!” || Jevil for Og Fizz ||

" hah, what you got magic even then for?" it was teasing of course, even wiht the jester being more then a little frustrated - not that he was one to talk, not evne sure if hell magic could do something a like - maybe minor things. Fizzarolli wasn't gonan break his head thinking about it, not right now.

A huff left their lips, his tail meeting the sheets with a 'thump' sound. He hated this, being stuck to bed, unable to do anything. Rather work but also aware this isn't a option - even wihtout jevil, Ozzie would know regardless. So, he was stuck.

Yes, rest is important but he turly wasn't a fan, not when he was 'forced' into this postion.

" its sooo borrrinnng "

[elle-smells]

I am mentally unstable

[helpimstuckinafandom]

"You were good to my daughter, but you fight for the wrong side" damn.......

[lillydiana304]

she fell first, but he fell harder

bucky x sweet reader, the reader wears glasses but it is only mentioned once, the reader as nature powers, the mood brood below does not mean the reader is a specfic race. all of my fics do not go into races making them friendly for everyone.

he couldn't stand her voice humming through the kitchen as she made her pancakes. her long hair messy from sleep a smile casted on her pink lips in her matching set of heart pjs. bucky hated y/n. he didn't want her on the team; he didn't want her in the tower, he didn't want her by his friends, he didn't want her crazy laugh to echo in his head, he didn't want to see her soft smile, he didn't want her near him. he thought that a girl with the powers of nature was stupid. he hated her.

whenever she would laugh or smile of joy flowers would bloom behind her ears like a crown but only when she was turly happy. she had a pink-ish gold arura that admitted from her, a glow that made her look soft and she was. but what made bucky hate her the most was how much she was nice to him

she would bake him is favorite cookies and food, y/n would try and talk to him and play around. she was would include him in everything. bucky was dud not girls like y/n at all, he liked strong women, girl after girl bucky was a player. he liked dark, red-lipped mean girls that were toxic. he had a type so when he stood watching her dance to the song "there goes my baby" by the difters he found himself smiling.

but then he remembered who she was and it went away, a tall long legged woman with wild hair came in the kitchen with one of buckys shirts on and no pants underenth. Cara was her name and she was one of buckys girls, it saddened you to see him with them.

they were nothing like you, they drank smoked which you didn't do. Cara has been buckys new girlfriend for about 3 months now the longest he's ever had. cara walked past bucky who still stood glaring at you, she went to the fridge.

"gosh will you turn this shit off! its 8 in the morning" Cara scoffed walking away with a beer in hand.

"its actually 11:30" you mumbled, cara rolled her eyes huffing.

you have been in love with bucky since he came too the team two years ago, for you he was everything and more. you tried to make him like but with every try it seemed it only made it worse. from the moment your eyes laid on him it was like your world was bounded into space. you thought he was a cute little grumpy bear, his little pout he wore, he was your personal eeyore. you sighed, as you kept your head up trying to not let Cara get to you.

once you were gone with cooking and cleaning up your mess a little before you sat at the breakfast table with your plate of banana pancakes. Cara sat on buckys lap kissing up his neck as he glared at you with hatred.

"baby we should go back to bed" Cara mumbled into his skin still kissing him.

"no" he spoke harshly

"ahh! why not, i'm wet" Cara said to him not trying to whisper just simply not caring that you were sitting across from them. bucky was to caught up in y/n to notice Cara kissing his neck, the your soft hair smelt like apples, and your lotion of peachs and lemons. he could smell you from where he sat your aroua was more pink this moring and your eyes casted down clearly umcomterble with what Cara was saying. he just couldnt figure out why his mind would always lead him back to you. why? why did he care? why did it affect him when he saw you?

"fine i guess we can stay here then" Cara smirked at him as she slipped off her shirt. you quickly gasped your face turning pink and eyes wide.

"you can't do that here, bucky go to your room!" you said looking away from him and Cara. bucky smirked "no we wont ,you go" he said cooly.

you grabbed your plate and glass of juice, look of disgust and hurt in yours eyes flashed and the flowers that sat in the vase on the middle on the table slightly willted but only he noticed.

you didn't have good control of your emotions from showing and your powers were just another way for people to tell what you felt like. bucky watched you leave Cara now griding up on his lap. but guilt came to his chest when he looked at the flowers again. why did he have to be such a jerk.

"get up" he growled at Cara, bucky gragging her to his room to scerw the frushtion off of his emotions he couldn't seem to figure out.

two days later...

"why does she need to be here?!"

bucky yelled as steve held him back. the mission was breaking down a drug ring, 200+ men all armed waiting for you and the team. everything was going fine until one of the guys slipped past you, when you were helping Natasha causing you to get shot in the shoulder. running back to the quinjet after it was all over, hand over your shoulder that was still leaking blood, bucky saw red.

"she can't even take care of herself! she's shit" he said.

"bucky stop" steve demanded "no i wont stop, y/n listen here bitch your worthless. you almost got everyone killed! one! one slip up could have killed all of us! your a dumb selfish slut" he yelled in your face. tears streaming down your face, your aura turning into a muted brown. steve finally got a good grip on bucky pulling him away.

the pain in your body doubled at his words. now the message being clear. no matter how much you loved, cared, longed for bucky he would never want you. you stared out into nothing slient tears escaping. bruce finshed stiching you all up, his face remorsful for you. Natasha mumbling in russain to bucky angerly yet he didn't hear a word only watching you with hard eyes. but on the inside of him he felt guilt, watching you cry your little chin wobbling as you looked down. he hated himself for what he said but the anger from seeing you hurt over took him causing him to act out. when he saw the blood his whole world stopped on its axel. every feeling he denied came up burning the back of his throat. he could never lose you

when you all arrived back at the compound, it was dark out well into the night. you went to your room still crying buckys words ringing in your head on an endless cycle. the pain in your chest from the heartbreak hurt more the the bult wound. once you got out of the shower and finshed your night rotune you laid in bed stray tears still fell.

bucky laid in bed watching the rain and wind slam against his floor to celings windows. it ate him inside, to now that you still cried, that he hurt you, bucky knew from the moment that he saw you that he was head over heels. but he thought with someone so soft, delicate, and sweet he would break you. that no one as pure, and kind was ment to be with him. cara's mumbles in her sleep are what pulled him away from the rain -the tears that caused the rain.

the next few weeks were tense, the day after the mission steve yelled at him so with the rest of the team. you stayed away more, no more baking, music, no flowers, or sunshine, no joy. the whole tower looked darker and it was not just bucky who noticed. you went no where you knew bucky and cara would be. when cara heard what happened she smiled. a chuckle came from her

"i mean she shouldn't have messed up. what did she except to get off with a warning. no bucky had to tell her straight." steve shut cara down quickly

"no. no you are not an avanger, you are a normal person. you have no right to jugde her. she risks her life everyday like everyone else here to save ungarteful people like you! she could have died and everyone on this team has had worse slip ups. it wasnt even her fault!"

on the third week of you not really coming out of your room tony took things into his own hands.

tony had anncounded a gala that he was throwing, he knew you loved to dress up fancy; get your hair done; and nails. you loved getting dressed up and putting on pretty dresses.

you walked in a shy smile on your face as the cameras flashed. a warm hand snuggled into your waist making the people behind the cameras yell with quetions. you looked up to see steve smiling down at you. "hello" you said, the past three weeks were hard on you, between mentally struggling with buckys words and your doubts. but you still had fantum pain in your shoulder. walking fully into the gala with steves hand still sat on your lower back.

"y/n are you alright?" steve asked he said, his warm greenish blue eyes looking warm and soft. "i- what bucky said really hurt my feelings. i'll be fine" you said looking down at the ground. steve gentle hand brought your chin in between his fingers lifting your head up to move your gaze up to his.

"your stunning flower, if he cant see that then to bad cause he's missing out on a whole world you" you blushed. steve kissing your forehead, you pulled away to see bucky marching up to you angerly. steve smrikered to himself, his paln working. bucky grabbed your arm gragging you away from steve to the bethroom.

"bucky let go of me! now!"

"NO! i wont let you go!"

"why?!"

"because i love you! i've loved you since the moment you walked in with your sweet smile and rediculous amount of flowers and your bad jokes and your complete inability to hide any of your emotions. i love you, i love the way you dance in the morning while making breakfast, i love how thoughtful you are. i dont think i could go a day without seeing the way you squint when you forget your glasses and your nose krinkles up. i love when you laugh poppies bloom behind your ears. i how you cry during any rom com movie that has a happy ending which they all do."

"why'd you say those things then?" you said delicate tears streaming down your face. "i-i cant lose you, i knew that when i saw you that i would ruin you. someone so beautifull as you cant be with someone like me. at first i tried to stay away from you but not having you at all is alot better then you hating me and yelling at because i got you to hear your voice. im so sorry petal, andnwhen you got hurt. i said that out of anger not at you. i was angery at the thought that one day i might have to live without you" he was holding you snug against his chest. you hands resting on his forearms, his eyes told you the truth.

"i love you too bucky, i-if we try to be together will you promise to never hurt me again?"

"i will never hurt you again babydoll i promise. can i kiss you?" you giggled tears still falling this time happy.

"yes"

she fell first, but he fell harder.