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[lunasteasonne]

Don’t start with me.

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If you ever questioned my capabilities, you better satisfy yourself upon watching me. I stumble upon a lot of mistakes and endeavors that sometimes, it takes me months to pick myself back up. But, the question is, when I finally do, that intimidates you, right? Why is that? I’m sorry, does my wisdom intimidate you? I am well-aware even from the slightest of my failures. Who are you to budge in and involve yourself? You can never bring me down again. Although, I gotta admit, it would be funny to see you try. At this point of my life wherein I prioritize placing the love in my heart at the right things, I have never really forgotten what brought me here. I may not have been grown enough yet, but my ugly past is quite reasonable to embody all the burden you gave me—as it’s what’s keeping me going. No, I DON’T owe you my growth. I am NOT thankful that you hurt me. You have taught me not to forgive; I will never forgive you. If you ever think you can pull me down, go ahead. Here’s what you can do: Trigger my anxiety, push my weak spots, make me cry like a baby. No, don’t hurt me physically—wounds can heal. Torture my mind, that’s what’s effective. Slap me my insecurities, doubts, and worries. Yep. That’s it. So simple, right? Physical wounds can heal, e. I want the kind of pain that makes me crazy. However, I don’t guarantee that I won’t laugh out loud afterwards. You have to realize that if you hate me, I don’t give a fuck. You can despise me all you want, but you can never hate me more than I hate myself. Am I clear? Don’t compete with me. I’ve been trying to kill myself for years too. You can spend your time for something else more worthwhile. I am deeply aware of all my flaws. I know how reckless and irresponsible I am when I’m out of my mind. I know how limitless I can get. But that’s none of your business. Besides, have you ever asked yourself at which point you’re standing on to have the right to pin your nose in my life? Have you never gone mad? All I did was be truthful to myself here; I don’t bullshit anybody as long as I’m sane. If my being as a person annoys you, do yourself a simple favor and unfriend me. As if you’re pure. Nah, this post ain’t for something serious. Just wanted to let off some steam in my mind. People around you will always say something about you, right? So let me say what I want to say about myself too. I am very much aware of my imperfections and I am more than willing to embrace growth each day, perhaps, your point of view tells you something else about me that makes you hate me? Well, why is that? Anyway, I know you’d mind telling me. Let’s better drop it here. Don’t start with me. I’ve been through worse. Meddle with what I am right now and I sure won’t waste a second to deal with you, properly. Again, don’t start with me. Bitch.

—lunasteasonne

[rovye1]

RAIN

Coffee, books, and music are the best combinations to relax during rainy days when you are inside your house or you are just in the car watching how it falls. You’ll amazingly appreciate how the rain calms you and you feel your presence towards yourself. You become more aware of your inner self-your feelings and your emotions.

You feel relaxed.

You feel loved.

You will smile.

Somehow dancing with your perplexing emotion.

And when the rain stops, you will see the trees and plants bloom.

But when you are in the workplace or the street walking while raining-you’ll walk so fast and will not recognize its value. Because you are so focused on your destination or to get home.

Instead, you feel anxious about how it sounded when it falls rapidly.

Therefore, for us to see the beauty of the rain, we must be in a secure place and feel safe. We must be home. <3

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