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[false-cowboy]

having long term ocs is so fuckin weird to me because like when im away from them for too long i. miss them

i miss Lev a creature only existing within my mind and like three drawings. he barely even exists as an entity; hes just a mish mash of Things Cowboy Likes At The Time because its fun

and i think thats what it is, hes a representation of my fun. hes been a vampire and a worldhopper and a blood bender and a bird person and he hears voiced both real and hallucinated. he is never allowed a moment of silence and its both his greatest blessing and his greatest curse.

hes the most inconsistent, mary sue, 'i just thought it was neat' thing i have ever made in all my life and i love him despite and maybe because of that

all of my long term characters come with that core feeling; no real 'skill' or 'talent' behind any of my ideas, theyre contradictory and the magic system is held together with chewed gum and spite. any 'real' author would pass out with one look at my mess of a google doc. but its fun goddamnit! i dont want acceptable or good characters, i want to look at my hot fish woman with her mouth covered girlfriend and feel the same feeling i did when first making them over and over and over again every time i come back from a break

sure i get new ideas and such but nothing can every really replace my main characters; underdeveloped and overhyped and the best thing ive ever made and the worst thing ive ever made and i Love Them more than anything. all roads lead back to Vintreth no matter what i do to stray away, thats alright with me :3

[false-cowboy]

Love how much of a whore my oc Lev is because drawings with him and someone else are like smashing random combinations of dolls together and going 'mwah mwah mwah mwah mwah' however it also means I have to pick one character over another and I can't handle that pressue

that's it. Vintreth is just a dating sim now where all of the characters have abnormally traumatic backstories, my only solution

[false-cowboy]

i fucking adore when voice actors just have fun with their shit

why does Argrave sound like a bard Luke Daniels I love you