#trying to convince myself im doing my due diligence

[scribbledquillz]

Anxiety rambling under the cut.

I don't like having to make posts like this because I inevitably end up feeling like I was somehow trying to manipulate people into telling me I'm not a bad person. But sometimes the anxiety brain rips the wheel out of my hands and leaves swerving all over the road, and this is definitely one of those moments. Getting things out tends to help so here goes.

I realized this afternoon that - despite doing my best to research and plan my script and plot with the right care towards a certain minority group - I've still managed to inadvertently include at least one, possibly two depending on perspective, tropes that are. Not cool. The "silent native" one specifically. Add that to the fact that there's a situation in the plot done by the main antagonist that is EXTREMELY messed up (and never presented to be anything BUT messed up and vile) and I'm basically in panic mode over it.

I'm trying to tell myself that I caught it. I'm fine, I'm fixing it. I've added an additional scene that lets the characters have more voice in the story and gives a more direct perspective on why one of them reacted to something with anger and (mild) violence (injury to and threat toward the life of their child). I've also settled on a way that will allow them to be shown to be speaking in a different language than the other cast members, at least until I've been able to build up interest with my prologue and (hopefully) raised enough money to cover the cost of first a sensitivity reader (which I'd planned to do from the start) and then potentially a translator who can help me have their speech translated to a dialect appropriate for the region they would feasibly be in. Coast Salish, Halkomelem specifically.

But anxiety being what it is, I can't stop rotating a hundred more what ifs around my head.

What if there's another huge problem you aren't seeing? What if your fix isn't good enough? What if you've got to go back and redo the last six months of work? What if even after bringing in a reader, translator, etc it still isn't enough and the internet rips you to shreds for being an entitled white lady trying to tell stories you shouldn't be?

Given the context of the story, where it takes place, what it involves, it only makes sense that this group of people I'm worrying about (which technically aren't homo sapiens, but are an extremely close evolutionary relative) have a lot of similarities with the indigenous populations nearby. It wouldn't feel right or genuine to try to make them something else. And I swear on everything I'm doing my best to make sure I approach this story with the right respect and consideration it needs.

But omg if I fuck this up... My first writing project I've actually managed to see this far... Jesus I don't know if I could handle that.

[amuelle]

“The train doesn’t stop twice” (J. Mourinho).

The train doesn’t stop twice….just long enough for you to decide if you want to get on. Life, is a series of trips on different trains. Every station a different place in your journey. The next train never heading to the same place as the last train, just trains at the station going to where they are going….

After ignoring all the red flags and convincing myself that some of my non-negotiables were irrational and unfair. I boarded the train. For a year and a few months I would try to convince myself that my relationship with Chocolate Daddy wasn’t one sided. It didn’t start that way. He meant well. His heart was in the right place. I was just starting to resent him for things that I had made comfortable for him. I hadn’t meant for him to get comfortable but now that he was and I couldn’t help myself. I resented him. It didn’t feel right that he was comfortable enough not to try. He knew what he needed to do but he could also comfortably say “Amo will understand”. I had understood and been understanding all along. The ride had lasted long enough, as the train pulled into the station I decided that my life should change in a split second. With the luggage I had amassed on the journey I stood on the platform watching the train leave. I had had enough and decided that I wouldn’t pass another station.

I began to check my luggage. I checked that every single piece of me made it off the train. I wanted to be sure that the things I had before I started the journey and the things I amassed along the journey were together in one place. Most people don’t check their luggage at the station but in my case the station was the last place I wanted to have anything that reminded me of him. I wanted to leave it all right here. Perhaps I’d keep a memory or two in my heart but mostly I wanted a reminder that I’m not crazy, I just want to be loved.

THE PROCESS OF UNPACKING!!!!

The first mistake! I met him when I was on a personal high and thought I had to share it.

I had spent all of 2019 pouring into myself. I fed myself like a goddess, drank from the challis of life and loved every moment. I was a whirl wind of Cartier perfume, faux gold accessories that was never in the same place twice. It was amazing and when I first met him it felt magical. However, magic has never been practical. I would spend most of the time in our relationship apologising for the life I had created because it was so vastly different from his. It felt like love and love compromises….right? I took something that had taken me a whole year to create and tried to share it with someone, turned out to be the wrong someone.

The second mistake! I tried to forgive something that was a deal breaker for me.

Vivid in my mind like the day I heard Agape for the first time by Nichols Britell (from the soundtrack for If Beal Street Could talk). This day is imprinted on my soul. It’s unforgettable. (LISTEN- I WILL NEVER FORGET)

We were laying in bed when the window flew open, it was the sound of breaking glass and a shrill voice cussing that woke me. He jumped out of bed and said he would be back. For the next five minutes an argument ensued. She kept asking if “she” was the reason and he kept repeating that it was over and asking what she was doing there. Only when she came back to the window to find me paralysed in confusion covered in a duvet did things become absolutely clear. “She” was me and she had been the reason Chocolate Daddy had stopped seeing her. He pulled her away from the window but not before she called me a little whore and promised to find me and kill me. I got dressed. When he came back a heated argument that ended in me having a panic attack began. The crux of it being that yes he had a relationship with her while he was with me and that these were the difficulties people endured in relationships. “Other people” I thought. “These are things that other people go through Amohelang, not you. No. This is not on brand for you.” But what did inner me know? She was a girl who was still trying to reconcile being called a little whore and betrayal had stolen her voice.

I remember him wanting to talk about how he cut his finger, how the window was broken, how embarrassed he was this happened in front of his neighbors but not for a second did he want to talk about how it made me feel and still...I stayed. Not because I loved him but because I wanted someone to be angry at. Someone to punish and abuse emotionally and boy did I ever…

The third but not final mistake! I stayed when I wasn’t in love anymore.

After the “incident” a variety of things happened. One of which was at a Christmas braai with my family. My aunts asked me if he were to propose tomorrow what I would say. I was dumb enough to be honest. I told them I would say no because he wasn’t where he needed to be in his life to be with ME. My aunts laughed and told me to stop wasting his time if I didn’t see a future. What I didn’t say was that for all the time we had been together I still felt on the outside of his life. We were strangers. I was the sea side resort he visited when his life in the city was too much. No gift giving, money lending, compromising or rationalising could change the fact that I had no idea who he truly was. We, were a “we” but more for me than him. What I also couldn’t say was that I had caught him cheating and I didn’t trust him. I had gone through his phone, found messages and confronted him about it. It didn’t matter, I was playing myself and he now knew how to play me too. I was in this relationship as a selfish exercise of masochism. I couldn’t say what it really was. The more of him I got to see the less I liked and the more I fell out of love.

The build up to break up….

As a firm believer in advice from the right people. I am sure I put the wise women in my circle through an ordeal from the time I decided I’d start the break up process. I was trying to love but there was no love left. And so, love less and frustrated my wise women soothed my heart and spent the better part of three months telling me that nothing, not a job, a pair of shoes or a man should be this difficult to love. It was the day I had filled my weekend with plans that remind me and everyone in the house of a version of myself I hadn’t been in a while. I came out of my room. Dolled up after two hours of makeup. My sister cupped my cheeks, looked in my eyes and said “ You do you, so well”. On the day of my 34th birthday I decided I was done. When he gave a half-hearted happy birthday and the next day followed it up with an expectation that I would be understanding as to why for two birthdays he had disappointed me. I had nothing left to give. I understood only one thing and that was this relationship was over, it had been over but I wasn’t tired of suffering then but now I was. I turned into more of a stranger to him. I told him I had accepted that our relationship was over and he should do the same. He didn’t argue, just accepted it without a fight. I was disappointed mostly in myself for thinking for a second that after all this time not trying he would try now. I thanked him for freeing me and that was the last time we spoke.

What I can say in retrospect….

I keep thinking if I had listened to him more I would have heard him say over and over “Im not ready to be in a relationship”. I should have believed him but he kept pretending to want it so bad that eventually he was the man in my life and we were in a relationship. Even if the foundation was made of sand it was nice to look at but it would never stand against a gust of wind or a rainy day. It’s a role he filled very well, or perhaps it was easy for him to fill because my cup was never empty. Our lives never intertwined such that I was inconvenienced by his presence. I was okay without him because he had taught me how to live without him for so long. After a while I was happier without him but still maintained we were together when we really weren’t. Confusing, yes. I was very confused at the time.

I had lost parts of myself and it was my fault. I convinced myself that loving him had to come with sacrifice, partially because every time I was ready to end it, he made it seem as if I was leaving him stranded and if I loved him I’d be more patient. Had I just done my due diligence, a true deep dive of who he was as a person I would have known he wasn’t ready and not even the one to pass time with but you learn these things along the way right? WRONG!!! I just learnt it for you, so do be me, do your due diligence!!! Before you are all in get to know the good the bad and ugly about a person. You are too old to figure it out later.

Something that I have also realized is that once you want to hold back and you have legitimate reasons to besides meeting him two weeks ago then something is really wrong. When its really right, you won’t want to hold back because what you give is multiplied and returned. You are not designed just to give love, you are designed to also receive it. So before you are there selling yourself short ask yourself the simple question if this person has invested enough love in you to warrant whatever you are giving….if not…well, I suggest you stop playing yourself.

Let’s go back to the train analogy. So now the luggage has been unpacked and I intended to leave it at the station. I’ve taken the escalator up to street level picking up a pair of sunglasses and a scarf for my hair in the gift shop. Now shrouded, standing on the street, the train station behind me I’ve decided that at this new point in my life. I will try something new. I will explore, taste things and spit them out if they don’t agree with me. Everything is new again, the relief of leaving a bad lover is a comfort I can’t explain. I’m no expert and I can only share my personal experiences but one thing I know for sure, I’m done taking trains. I’m on to yachts now….

Bisou…bisou

[myinnerletters]

Dear Tal,

Tomorrows the last day of your internship. I thought i may have wanted to try think about getting back with you when you returned but i dont think so anymore. So much of your “Humour” seems more like ways to put me down. You said i didnt know when you were joking - perhaps you just straight up weren’t funny? Or what i think now is that you just slapped a big ol I WAS JOKIN YA DUMB DUMB when you said something that may have gotten you in trouble. Cause i was the one that “shot from the hip”, after one incident. In which i profusely apologised. Get over yourself, seriously. 

I feel like i wasted time. I feel like you’re good with words. To convince people to bend at your will to what you want. You sugar coat, and you say just the right thing. You come on strong and you treated me from the beginning like we were building a relationship. DIdn’t want to sleep wtih me early on because “you respected me too much” but then a week later you had done your due diligence. Calm down. Just fuck me and get on with it and stop pretending like you respect me or care.

Cause you dont. You stopped trying. You made it all on me. You kept trying to get me to open up, to fall for you, i was there for you. Through and through and you turned around and made it out like i was the one head over heals for you. Like you were doing me a service. 

You know, i liked you best when you werent putting on such a bravado? When I could see that there was a person in there who could care, who didnt want to have a different opinion just for the sake of it. The one who wasn’t trynna flex the law career, or being a doctor (WHICh doing a biomed degree does not make you a doctor), or flexing how much money, or what drugs you did, or acting that lifestyle that you SO desperately crave to be in. I liked you best when all the guards were down, when i could see a glimpse of a boy who didn’t care about all these things.

You made me think you were different from the pact. The way you acted at times, like things i had done were shameful. I dont regret not being in a relationship for the last 5 years. I’ve had shit ive been doing, i’m not gonna settle for someone whos not right for me. I felt judged when you asked if i slept with sam on the first date, does it matteR? When i decided to spend time with you instead of my dad? and yet you still joked about how i almost didnt chose you. You and your weird mind games.

I did like you. I did see a future. I also guess i was just enjoying the fact that i had feelings and that you treated me right (although again, i guess this is just what you do. You’re a business man through and through) I don’t agree with your politics. You dont agree with mine and thats fine. But we pretty much didn’t see eye to eye on anything, and i think in my heart of hearts my fear about your politics, and the fact that i couldnt let it go has all to do with a gut instinct that i knew deep down that it was wrong. That my fear that you would somehow be against my lgbtqia+ friends, that you felt weirdly uncomfortable.

Or the fact that you feigned support for me, but then said my show was weird? that you didnt understand why period equality was important or why it should be discussed. You thought so much of what i said was weird, was strange, i was nuts, whatever. I do say silly things, i said it to you then and ill say it to you now, no one things what im saying is nuts. You were the only one who made it out like i was speakinga nother language.

My show is not weird. I mean it is. But it helps change peoples lives. WHich is more than I can say about keeping up appearances so that you too can live in the cum dream that is the suit lifestyle. Men saw the show and thought it was great. they engaged with me after. they spoke about my fucking cycle with me. And about my period. and my endo. They didnt get weird like you.

I wish i could look back on our time now and enjoy it. i enjoyed having someone. I enjoyed speaking to you on the phone and dreaming of a future, that involved getaways and maybe i got a bit carried away. I liked that you made an effort. or that you bought flowers. I liked so much of it. But the way it deescalated, it feels like a farce. it feels like a prank. it feels like you did exactly what every other guy did and i feel silly for listening to you and believing you over everyone else.

why? i still see stuff that i want to tag you, but because i sent a video its all broken. And as i said, i liked what you offer but as people despite having that intense connection, we arent particularly compatible. I lost myself in you. I started to ignore what mattered to me and thats not cool either. Sitting in Women of the White house i thought if you were here youd get up, youd leave, youd tell me afterwards how unfunny it was. Youd probably call my friends nuts. And that was when i knew it wasnt gonna happen. 

I felt like you knew too. You didnt want to try anymore. I was somehow in your way, and i wasnt even asking all that much of you. i just needed to know that you were still thinking of me. that you still cared. I saw you on that last date and it was not good. I felt disconnected from you. you wanted me to finish my drink. You wanted to go home. but you didnt make me feel like you cared, and then we continued not to talk to each other. You didnt care. Its like you wanted me to break things off with you, but you were too chicken shit to do it before my show cause you didnt want me to fall apart. But i wasnt. you were nice when it lasted. thats it. youre not my everything, i wont fall apart without you. You didnt really add much to my life, just some affection and someone to share some stuff with who stopped caring.

I feel done. the idea of dating. of letting another person in right now, i dont want it. I dont want to get my hopes up anymore just to have them dashed. I built an idea of you and thats on me. But you strung me along, and you lied, and you said vaccuous things that meant nothing to get me on side. I dont want to date anymore. I dont think im supposed to. i dont know wha tthe rest of this year holds for me, but the idea of meeting someone, of putting myself out there. i just cant do it. you were good for my acting. you made me open up a bit and for that i thank you.

Im sure ill never hear from you again. i dont fit into your world, and you most definitely dont fit into mine. It is fucked that you just starting kind of ghosting me. literally cooked. 

also i can do without expensive things. they dont mean shit. human connection. decent human beings. thats what i value. not expensive meals or the fact that you dogged a trippy taco. like so what if you didnt like the food. this is becoming silly now. 

[optimisticpoetrypost-blog]

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hi, iam looking for a 6month cheap insurance policy plan for my bf's blazer. the court says he has to have sr22 with a 6month policy... if not he will go to jail. we have found one where 1200 is the cheapest at the moment but i would like to know if there is anything cheaper.""

Scooter insurance/plates/registration. How much?

Im moving to portland maine and my work is going to be only a few miles away, i have a jeep but i wana get a scooter for the lower gas milage and i always wanted a bike of some sorts. so how much am i looking at to buy a scooter insurance and everything else that is needed to start off? im thinking i probly gota get plates registration and insurance, anything else? also if anyone can post some cool scooters that would be nice, i want something thats prity fast and almost like a ninja bike. anyways thanks for the help guys =D ps. I know scooters arnt fast, i just want one that is a little faster than average.""

Why would young people refuse to sign up for inexpensive health insurance?

Don't they know they will soon be older people in need of affordable health care? Or that community rated affordable insurance depends on a high rate of participation? Why would they want to subvert a system they will soon depend on?

""Buying new car over weekend, But need insurance?""

Ok so I am most likely buying a used car tomorrow. This will be my first car as I am 16 and need something to drive to my job yada yada yada. Anyway, tomorrows a Saturday and my insurance company is closed and my parents need to add me to their policy. Since we are not trading in a car, we dont have a policy to carry over to the new one which I know some insurance companies do. Also, I have Farmers insurance so I am not sure what their policies are over this sorta thing. Any help is appreciated. Especially if you have farmers insurance or have had this kind of problem with them.""

Life insurance for seniors over 75yrs?

Whats the slim chance that their is a company out there that provides life insurance for a Senior over 75 and has had and removed cancer in the past 12 months? None i bet huh?

Car Insurance Question?

I am a little under 15 and a half years old and my dad has debated and almost bought a lot of cars for me, from ford f650's to 1965 or higher mustangs and jaguars. but so far we have thought that the car that would be good for my first car would be a 1994 Ford Mustang with a V8 with 30k miles0. which is perfect because that was the year i was born. So my question is that since its a sports car and its V8 about how much would my insurance be when i could start driving by myself?/ insurance for the other kinds of cars/trucks?""

What kind of liability insurance do gyms have?

I was playing some basketball on a guest pass at the gym yesterday. I rolled my ankle and just left thinkin it wasnt that bad, decided to sleep on it. turns out, it's a lot worse than I thought and I can't even walk on it today. I dont have any health insurance, or any means to pay these medical bills right now. Do gyms usually have insurance for things like this or are you on your own?""

Laclede Missouri Cheap car insurance quotes zip 64651

Laclede Missouri Cheap car insurance quotes zip 64651

How much does it cost for 2 door car insurance?

Getting my second car soon...found a 2006 honda civic LX...this is a 2 door car (coupe) verrryyy nice and I need to know what insurance would be monthly/yearly for this. I'm still on my parents insurance- 19. Female. No accidents; tickets. North Carolina. College Student. Please help. Thank you.

Auto insurance for a job?

I got offered a full time job delivering for dominos. I need to know what to do about my insurace. My boss told me to raise my minimums and thats it but my mom has been yelling at me about special insurance i HAVE to get blah blah. So what do i really have to do? My insurance now on my suv is 120 a month but the quote from progressive is 5700 a year for commercial do i really have to triple my insurance for this...

Does anyone know how much your car insurance will go up on a 1st offence dui???

Does anyone know how much your car insurance will go up on a 1st offence dui???

""If your home is valued at 73,000, why would your insurance company raise the coverage to 101,000?""

If my house burns down, would they really pay out 100,000 or just the property value ?""

Should I get collision on insurance for a 2004 Honda?

I'm 19, new driver, and the car costs $8500. I'm going to get comprehensive because I live at student apartments and people are always breaking into cars and stuff. I can't decide to keep or delete the Collision. The lowest quote for Collision coverage with $1000 deductible is $650 for 6 months (not including the whole premium). I'm terrified of wrecking the car, but not having collision cuts my monthly premium by $100. I don't have a lot of money and don't know what to do!""

Cheaper insurance for a second toy car

I currently am driving a 99 corolla and am looking into getting an 87 firebird Is their a cheap way to insure the car just as a toy not a daily driver mabey drive it tops 5 times a month?

Do I need car insurance the moment I get my provisional license (CA)?

I'll be going out for my provisional drivers license tomorrow, and I was wondering whether I need car insurance if I do get my provisional license. My parents are planning to allow me to get my provisional license, but won't add me to their policy until a year down the road. Am I allowed to drive alone with my provisional license as long as the car I'm driving is insured by my parents? (California)""

What insurance companies will insure a dog in California with a prior bite history?

My two dogs were involved in a fight with another dog last year. All three dogs were bitten, and my homeowners' insurance paid out a claim. They have now sent a notice of non-renewal and I am having trouble finding an insurance company that will write a new policy. Does anyone have any suggestions for an insurance company or broker in California that can help? Thank you!""

Do you pay insurance on a lease car in the UK?

im 18 and looking to get my first car would a lease car be a cheaper option for me as i have been told in unsureness that its all included in the price but would i still have to pay separate insurance on the car? if so what would be the cheapest option? a lease car or buying a cheap car? thanks

""I want to get insurance for 10 acres of vacant land in Scottsdale, Arizona. Where can I get a quote?""

I want to get insurance for 10 acres of vacant land in Scottsdale, Arizona. Where can I get a quote?""

Car insurance for a new driver?

So for my first car I am trying to convince my parents to let me get a used '03 infiniti g35 the price isn't a problem. What would the insurance be for an infiniti? Also what would insurance be for a car like a subaru or something like that just so I can compare...BTW new driver

Car insurance on eclipse?

i recently had suv and a pickup truck. ar insurance is about $500 a year through farm family were on the farm policy so its a lot cheaper. I recently sold my truck (diesel) got tires of the awful gas milage (ford f-250). with the cost of diesel going way up again it was costing on empty-full $150 thats total b.s. anyway i been looking to get something with good gas milage that does not cost a lot to fill up. i have been looking into cars and taken carefully into consideration they get better milage but i have seen cars even is 20 mph accidents totaled. my next question is how much would car insurance be on a eclipse. if i did get a car i don't want a pice of junk looking old lady car i would want something that looks very nice. i was looking into the mit. eclipse/spider. was curious how much car insurance was if i stayed with farm family. i was going to call and ask them but i don't have the physical car yet and they would need to know exactly what kind of car year etc it is to give me the exact amount. I'm 22 years old with 5 years driving experience. only 1 accident. (old person was in hurry to airport for vacation told me and cop he did not think it it was needed to stop so he ran stop sign and hit me. i have owned 2 pick ups, 1 trail blazer. pickups, ad suv's fall under farm category cars don't so i am sure it would be more then what i pay now. i don't want to switch insurance either i hear horror stores with others. farm family paid me every time that week for accident repair i hear others you won't hear from them or they don't pay you or hospital bills if its needed farm family does. my spelling is not the greatest at it i got a little lazy.""

Who do you think has the best car insurance rates?

Who do you think has the best car insurance rates?

Around how much would car insurance be for a 16 year old girl?

I'm just looking for a range of prices per month. If you can, comment with any good insurance places that I could look into because I am getting my license in August and am curious of what I'm going to have to pay. Also, what depends on the cost? Type of car, or etc..""

How much are typical monthly home owners insurance rates?

i am doing a school project and the only way to figure it out is to call and talk to a reprisentitive, and i would really rather not. I just need a ballpark figure... $500? $1000? any ideas?""

How much *Roughly* would my car insurance cost?

Im 19 i had my permit for almost 4 years now im about to get my license my mom has state farm and ill be added on to hers but i still have to pay her the difference. if it matters or affects me but shes had her license for about 20 yrs idk exactly shes only 38 though has never been in an accident or any tickets, always pay her bill give or take some how much would you say my insurance would cost?""

Why would auto insurance go up just because of a divorce?

Years ago, when I was married, I had a brand new truck with a full-coverage policy costing $114 per month. I had a spectacular driving record, I was a 31 yr old female with a family, not a 19 yr old ripping up the streets. When we divorced, my auto insurance instantly doubled! It didn't just go up $50, it DOUBLED. Does anyone know why??""

What are insurance premiums?

I received a letter in the mail saying they will pay me back my insurance premiums.. Is it cash or what? I have no idea what they are...

Insure the box car insurance? miles question?

hi ive recently done a quote with insure the box and i got my insurance to 1600 on 2006 corsa 998c engine fully comp, i understand they give you 6000 miles standard my question is if i go over 6000 miles i need to top up how much does that cost? 250miles ? 500miles? 1000 miles ? and so on ? anyone know thanks""

""In NYS can I make auto payments on a car in my name, and have the insurance in my boyfriends name?""

Will the car dealer have a problem with the insurance being in his name because I am only 20 and been driving for a year so my insurance rate is alot higher than his but the car is for him, so its not like I am going to be driving it I am just putting the loan in my name to build my credit. Is that against the law??""

Would a MINI COOPER 1275 CLASSIC be a good first car?

I will be 17 in July and soon after will be learning to drive. My dad said he will get me a car for my birthday. I really like this model of a classic mini and the ones I have been looking at are going for about 640+ but I am willing to pay about 1000 (maybe a little more!! ) for one. I am aware that Classic Minis are going up in price. Will this be a good car for a new driver??

Health insurance for college students?

I'm a full time college student, and there are no state programs out there to help me. I had to move back into my parents house (I know I know) and my medi-cal got cut, and ...show more""

Why do people buy life insurance?

What groups of people buy life insurance? Why do they buy it?

How much on average do you pay for auto insurance?

My mother is kicking me off her auto insurance and i can't get an online quote because she also took my car away but says i still need insurance to drive any car. She lies sometimes so idk what average insurance cost and idk how to get it without having a car to put it under?

Anyone know of a good car insurance agency in Homestead FL?

I am moving from Michigan to South Florida soon and of course I need to get car insurance down there. I go through a agency in Michigan that searched 5 different insurance companies to get me the best price.. Anyone know of a agency like this in the Homestead Florida area?

Laclede Missouri Cheap car insurance quotes zip 64651

Laclede Missouri Cheap car insurance quotes zip 64651

Car insurance help?

Ok so im about to turn 16. my parents said they would get me a car, but only if i paid my own insurance. can u please tell me how much it would be a month. and what company would be the lowest price. i dont know if u need this info but. im 16. white ( someone told me it matters?), i live in florida (palm beach county), and the car will probably be an audi a4. can u please give me an average amount a month so i know what my goal to save up is.""

Are vauxhall corsa's cheap on insurance?

Are vauxhall corsa's cheap on insurance?

Does anybody know of a company that will insure me daily on hire and reward insurance?

I want to run a one vehicle WAV (wheel chair accessible vehicle for disabled people) car hire/rental business serving Hertfordshire the customer would hire the car and arrange for a person to drive it for them. On the odd occasion the hirer does not have anybody to drive the car for them they might want me to drive for them I have been told to do this I would need a private vehicle hire licence (mini cab drivers licence) also hire and reward insurance along with a mini cab office operators licence and the vehicle would need to be plated (tested) This is not a problem except for the hire and reward insurance which would be about 3000 per year and would not be cost effective for the amount of driving I would be doing (I would probably only be driving a customer 1 day per week). Does anybody know of a company that will insure me daily on hire and reward insurance?

How cheap is Tata insurance?

How cheap is Tata insurance?

Can I afford motorcycle insurance?

So here is my situation: I currently own a 2003 Toyota Matrix that I make payments on. In between the payments and the insurance and gas, it costs about $350 a month to have that car. For the last couple years I've been really interested in getting a motorcycle, specifically a newer Kawasaki. According to my research, I could find a Kawasaki Ninja 250cc for somewhere around $3000. My question is basically how much insurance do I need? Right now I have comprehensive coverage for my car so that if I'm in a wreck and it's totaled I can replace it. If I had a bike AND my car though, I don't want replacement coverage for a secondary vehicle (even one as cool as a motorcycle). I got quotes from Geico and State Farm that put my minimum amount of insurance a month in the neighborhood of around $30. Does this sound accurate to anyone? Also, can anyone just give me some sound advice about owning both vehicles and whether it's worth it?""

""I'm moving to California to Hawaii, can I use my dental insurance in Hawaii?

I have liberty Dental insurance here in California but I am moving to Hawaii in a few weeks. Will I be covered in Hawaii?

What is the best car insurance?

im 18 i just bought my car and now i need insurance what is the cheapest insurance out there for a guy of my age?

How can I get Cheaper Auto Insurance?

I'm looking to buy a 03-06 Mitsubishi Evolution was wondering if it is possible to get cheaper insurance? My Father owns a Business can we classify it as a business Vehicle? I'll be 18 when i buy it. I can afford the payments, Just not insuracne, lol""

Is it legal for car lot to hold my check from insurance?

I had a wreck a couple weeks ago and told me I could come pick up my check today from insurance. When I got there to fill out the paperwork and pick up the check they told me it wasn't ready and that they will have to send it to the car dealer (Express Credit Auto) so they can take out what I owe and they give me whats left which I do not have a car now and the check was to get me another car, which I told them and all they said was to use what is left to get another car by them. Which I just want my check so I can get my car, I told them I will still be paying my bill for the car but they then said it is illegal for the insurance to give me the check when they hold the lien to the car. I don't know what the legal side is, can anyone help me??""

How much will car insurance cost?

I am 19 and got taken off my parents policy because I had to at fault accidents. I am a female college freshman who would be driving a 1996 Honda Accord. About how much Should I expect to pay for auto insurance? I just want basic coverage. Also I have had my license for about 2 and a half years.

Health insurance for foreigners?

I am from India & I would like to know about the health insurance options for indians working in Malaysia. My husband is working but I am a housewife. His company takes care of his insurance. We are trying for a baby and I would like to know about the health insurance options for foreigners in Malaysia.

Does 1500 seem ok insurance?

ive got multiple quotes for 1st car 1st year driving. its going to be a 1.1 pug 106 independence and have been quoted 1500 is that reasonable? how much did your 1st car insurance year cost you? im 23.

Important question about auto insurance?

could anyone help me with this, i am a 22/m living in nyc, i want to get an affordable auto insurance cost for 6 months and a year. what does it usually run? what is the cheapest i ...show more""

What is an affordable life insurance for a cigarette smoker?

What is an affordable life insurance for a cigarette smoker?

Are you glad you have individual Health Plan?

I work freelance and I am looking into getting a health care plan. I haven't had medical insurance since elementary school but now that I'm approaching mid 20s, I wanted to prepare for the emergency, the 'just-in-case' situation. My problem is that I have a very negative impression on the insurance business and health care itself. I've gone to health clinic from a floating rib and I paid $300 to be told that I need to get tylenol LOL My relatives and friend went through some misdiagnose, multiple exams and charges. Some friends go through such a bull5hit time - one friend was charged $500 to borrow a blanket in the waiting room at a health care clinic and all she had to do was make a call and complain to cancel the full amount. We were baffled So.. they get paid $500 for lending a blanket? They take the $500 away if we complain? It's like complaining at a restaurant LOL!!! I maybe ignorant, but it makes me so upset to see people without insurance having such a hard time affording health care. Health care and insurance makes me feel like I'm giving into a manipulative scam - like buying a $120 clothing that only costs $5 to make. But incase I break my face crashing on my bicycle, I guess I need one. $500 for a blanket? I wonder how much X ray actually costs to buy, operate, and maintain. I'm sick to my stomach thinking about it. Anyhow, I know I'm ignorant, please enlighten me. Any positive experience on having affordable individual plan would be great. Thanks in advance.""

Car insurance for a 17 year old?

Hi, ive just passed my driving test and now want a car. The plan was to buy a clio/corsa/punto as i thought they were cheap insurance. When i put them into car insurance comparers though its coming out at like 2500. Even thought im a lad i though it would be cheaper than this. Can anyone suggest where to go to get cheap car insurance or what car to buy were its cheap insurance or any tips any information is helpful thanks a lot xx""

Do you have to pay insurance for the driver or the car?

my friends keeps telling me her parents wont let her get he license because it is 2,000 dollars a year to have a licence, for like insurance. Don't you only have to pay for a car? like if she was to not own a car and just borrow her parents when needed would she still have to pay insurance? I am so confused haha""

Damaged rental car. How much should I pay?

Hi. I was involved in an at-fault car accident while driving a rental. Here is the rental situation: The rental car was not insured through the independent rental company. My insurance won't cover it either. I was never offered rental insurance and there was no contract signed regarding the car in question. The owner of the rental company has a rent-to-own business as well, and priced the car at $6,000, but is letting me pay just $4,550. According to Blue Book, the car is worth anywhere from $2,100 to $2,900. I'm willing to pay for the car. My question is, do I pay what he is asking or pay what the car is worth according to Kelly Blue Book? If I would have bought the car before the accident I would have never paid $6,000. It was only in fair condition when I got it. Thoughts? Thanks""

How much does short term disability insurance cost?

what are the premiums, if you have short term disability insurance on your own, to supplement an employer's plan or just to help out with bills if you're termporarily disabled?""

What is the average cost for insurance on a fuel company?

homework help.

""If you crashed your car into someones, how much would insurance pay out?""

Assuming the cost is 18,000, most of it being for injuries the other party claims to have (<1000 bucks in damage). How much would insurance pay and how much would i have to pay? No damage to my own car. No need for insurance after this because I dont think im going to drive again after hearing the cost. I cant call the insurance company unforunately. Do you think I would have to pay all of it? I had full coverage.""

Can you deduct your cost for health insurance on your taxes?

Can you deduct your cost for health insurance on your taxes?

Graduate student health insurance ?

I am planning on attending graduate school it is not a reasonable option to have a job during this graduate program, what are my options for health insurance, how much should I expect to pay?""

Best cars fopr cheap car insurance!?

HI! im 17 and currently learning how to drive! i was going 2 be put down as a named driver on one of my parents cars when i had passed but the insurance cost is insanely expensive! so my parents r going 2 buy a new car with a lower insurance cost, but we have no idea which one would be cheap for me on the insurance?! if anyone knows of any cars which would be cheap for a new driver please help! thanks! .X""

Cheapest car insurance female driver full no claims?

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Laclede Missouri Cheap car insurance quotes zip 64651

Laclede Missouri Cheap car insurance quotes zip 64651

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