#truly a life changing show for me

[kipkiphoorayy]

alex hirsch truly is like. the guy ever. he created one of if not the most renowned and successful disney tva shows. he clowns on said network. he won his high school’s bird calling contest. he hates trump and is always advocating for people to vote. also prank calls republican/maga hotlines and was on the washington post for such. he voices half the cast of his own show and does a deranged mickey mouse voice he uses for like two separate shows. he owns a giant taxidermy buffalo. he and his sister were on an international improv team in high school. disney censored practically all queer themes in his show and now he has a nyt best seller (and created the website plus recent interviews ect ect) that imply there was something going on between that fuck ass triangle and ford. a straight man creating good old man yaoi. creates the craziest rabbit holes to send the fandom down probably primarily fueled by adhd and coffee. he probably has his flannel sewn to his body atp and has thousands of sticky hands on the wall in his house. i could go on but he’s just truly such a interesting guy

[waspgrave]

now there was no reason for lucanis to be given purple johnny silverhand as a plot point and then never have the purple johnny silverhand utilized except for maybe 3 or 4 times in the game (if you saved Treviso, otherwise it's twice) and dialogue. Dialogue where he pretty much just says weird and funny things and occasionally gets scolded like a dog which is entertaining sure but there is Literally A Demon In One Of The Companions Why Is This Not A Bigger Deal

[markantonys]

the music in WOT is never random. even if it's just very soft background music, it's relevant to the scene. practically every time there's music playing while egwene is onscreen during s2, the tune is egwene's theme, rearranged and reinstrumentated in dozens of different ways to match the tone of the particular scene. mat has quick little snippets of his theme tune play during various scenes of his, often mixed with the old blood theme from s1, and it finally blares out in full glory for the first time during the horn of valere scene, to parallel how mat is truly finding himself for the first time. even secondary characters like liandrin, siuan, and aviendha have their own dedicated theme tunes that play during their scenes and are never repurposed as background music in other characters' scenes. and all the themes have lyrics in the old tongue that suit the character or concept the theme is about! in conclusion, lorne balfe is truly doing the Most, and i'm so grateful he's the composer for WOT and i hope he'll return for every season the show goes for.

[datastate]

ah! before i forget, i hope you all have a wonderful celebration & happy new year!!! i hope you get to have some nice time w your friends like i have :] be sure to keep yourselves safe amidst the fun <3

[spider-girlwrites]

[kaleidoscopeminds]

I'd do it all again, I guess I just feel better around you *:･ﾟ✧

ten days, five shows, one festival. twenty-four hours on an amtrak, twenty-two hours on a plane, too many hours in a line. eighteen iced lattes, a hundred thousand pieces of confetti, and two nostalgia girls <3

[arsenicflame]

anyway. two years ago i never ever left the house, barely interacted with anyone, struggled to engage with my hobbies, had no sense of personhood at all & spent all my time contemplating a way out of it all

today my best friend flew halfway across the world to come and spend time with me

[pardonmydelays]

i was in a really dark place before clancy came out in may... now i can genuinely say that i'm so fucking grateful for everything that happened ever since

[iniziare]

Tag drop: Dorian Pavus

[judicent]

Yeah, I did fill 4 sketchbooks in 4 months so far this year. Huh? Am I gonna post even an ounce of it? Well, you see, I am allergic to my phone, so you will have to come CATCH ME

[my-current-obsession]

So I've only played Baxter's step 4 (and 3) once so far so maybe I missed the options to lead me down the path I wanted, but for the first time in this game I felt pretty railroaded.

So for context, I did get romantically involved with him in step 3. Was okay breaking things off when he left because I understood a long-distance relationship wasn't feasible but I had hoped to stay in contact as friends and didn't appreciate him shutting that down. But I did respect his wishes and not even bother reaching out to him when it was clear he wanted to cut ties entirely. I chose the "for better or worse you don't really care anymore" option about how I felt when step 4 kicked in, because I'd like to believe I would be over any pain/anger from a brief fling from five years ago.

Of course, then you unexpectedly reunite and he proceeds to continue trying to freeze you out WHILE highkey reminiscing and wanting to relive all the good moments you shared, which is confusing and frustrating.

I was wanting to play things in a sort of "once bitten, twice shy" way. I was open to giving him another chance and wanted him in "my" life again, but only if HE was also willing to put in the effort. Beyond getting answers for his behavior and why things are the way they are, I actually DIDN'T want to be pushing to be part of his life. Not while he was still pushing me away. Why should I be making an effort and getting hurt repeatedly when ANY kind of relationship (not just a romantic one) takes work and dedication from BOTH sides?

But this is where the game absolutely failed to provide me the stance I wanted, which in turn make the entire resolution to the conflict not sit well with me. Once Baxter started opening up about WHY he cut ties and was continuing to be avoidant, I felt very "but thou must" about the choices. Again and again, 4-6 choices with slightly different tones/connotations that ultimately serve to reinforce how we want to help and be close to Baxter as opposed to any other more complicated or negative feelings towards him.

I understand that we're meant to like Baxter and I'm definitely not UNsympathetic to his severe self-worth issues and how that affected how he sees all relationships, but for the first time I feel like the story prioritized painting HIM in such a good light that it forgot to account for a protagonist that was anything other than 100% willing to continue loving and throwing themselves at someone that had ALREADY pushed them away and hurt them before and was CONTINUING to do so.

Why should "I" have to keep chasing relentlessly after someone who repeatedly rejects me? Why do I essentially have to keep bashing my head against this brick wall even when it's obviously bad for me?

What I desperately wanted but felt denied by was a confrontation that led to compromise. I wanted to be able to clearly express "my" hurt/anger and make it clear that while I cared about him, I WOULD NOT keep endlessly trying if he wasn't going to meet me halfway. I cannot single-handedly save the bridge that he is burning, he actually has to STOP burning it for us to get anywhere.

But no, it is only after you prove that you WILL keep trying and caring about him NO MATTER WHAT, no matter how much he continues to hurt and reject you, that he is able to overcome his issues and reciprocate. And really, what's doubly unsatisfying is... aren't we just validating his insecurities this way? It's literally by proving ourselves so stubborn and kind (to our own detriment) that he truly believes we'd never give up on him that he can trust and reach out in turn. Whereas if I had the option to make it clear HE has to work for this if he wants it, then he genuinely needs to face his problems and decides he cares about us more, that we are WORTH the risk.

A relationship takes two... but in this case I felt FORCED to do about 95% of the work in pursuing him AND playing therapist for him. It would have been much more satisfying if, after he rejects you one too many times, you CAN say "screw it" and give up on it just for him to finally turn around and be the one trying to chase YOU instead. I was frankly already pretty fed up with things, but by the ending when he avoided us AGAIN at the wedding (AFTER he'd opened up, more than once, and just generally made it clear that he DID care about you; truly this man is a master of the mixed message) I wanted DESPERATELY to just be able to say "fine, if you won't make an effort then I won't either" and leave it at that. If I was just allowed to express that dissatisfaction and hurt, then him coming around and trying to forge a true, long-lasting connection with us despite his uncertainty would have been so much better.

[cowchickenbeefpork]

How it feels to see bullock threaten to beat a sixteen year old black boy because he wasn’t confessing to a crime he didn’t commit only to justify it by saying he wasn’t really going to do it and the boy was over six feet tall and over 200 lbs anyways

[6mayhem]

anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years

[laylakeating]

idk if you still stan hsmtmts but i gotta ask this: is it just me or is ej just not a very engaging and watchable love interest? like both ejnini and portwell are excruciating watches as ships compared to rini and rina. whenever ricky told the girls he loved them i believed it. you could see it in his eyes and feel it in his words and tone of voice. when ej expressed his feelings or talks about the girls it feels like a lifeless joke. yeah like yeah ily nini :)) gina’s… so great :)))) i like her a lot :)))) i don’t believe a word he says, it feels like he’s been through this before (and he has) and he’s just gonna repeat the things he did from one girl onto the next. the calling both girls a star, word for word. the uplifting them from ricky turmoil. it’s so fake and lifeless and copycat-ish.

and like yeah rini are kinda boring, but they at least had a story, and some chemistry. rina as well obvi. what the hell did portwell have 😭 mf asked a normal bare minimum question to his hurting friend one minute and was staring at her the next yet people have the audacity and the 3 depleted brain cells to say “rina is so forced it came out of nowhere and it makes no sense 🤓” the call is coming from inside the house 😭

like he should have had just a minor love interest and had the majority of his story be about finding who he wants to be instead of wasting his time trying to uplift and inspire and chase brokehearted girls.

i will alwaysssss stan hsmtmts have no doubt !!! and i'm always happy to talk abt it :D

i have to be SOOO real with you i actually like ej as a character shjshjs (shocking i know) and while i do find portwell to be like. terrible. i like ejnini and find them to be fairly engaging !! (but that might just be bc i think they're hilarious who knows)

as for rini. hmm. i kind of do genuinely hate them lmaoooo i have actually only ever watched their love confession once and it scarred me for life i wish i was joking. i also think they have negative chemistry and while i enjoy what their relationship does for their specific character arcs (ricky's more than nini's) for what it is i find it extremely trite and boring !! conceptually it's fine and it works but i think they had a lot of trouble translating that to screen and i found it reallyyyyyyy difficult to root for them in any capacity (now that i'm thinking abt it a lot of the issues i have with rini the relationship are the same issues i have with nini the character)

i do think all the relationships had sufficient (??) build up but i definitely agree with finding portwell's lacking 😭 it kind of took a sharp turn mid s2 to being a romantic dynamic instead of a platonic one and i think that could've played out a little bit more smoothly !!!

unfortunately the most interesting parts of ej (everything outside of his love life lmaoooo) are the parts that are ignored bc ultimately he was written to be a love interest !! rip. elton john i still love you 🫶

[orcelito]

God I don't wanna go to therapy tomorrow. Sick of talking about my feelings in a clinical setting. I do enough psychoanalysis just by myself, and now I gotta sit through it with someone else??? Come on.

[capseycartwright]

one of these days i will find the words and motivation to write the west wing au i have always dreamed of writing for 911 and it will be my magnum opus for this fandom truly