#true2thisnotnew2this

[lazybananatimemachine]

everyday seems like a new day to start over, try again, maybe just maybe today will feel like im turning over a new leaf. “Jamisonnnnnnnn !! , Time for breakfastttttt !” I could hear my 6 year old jump from his bed and begin running down the stairs. “Good morning Mama , I slept so good “ he had the brightest smile spread across his face. “Good morning baby , sit down. hurry up and eat so you can make it to the bus” I Left the kitchen and headed back to my bedroom to shower. I walked in my room slowly trying not to wake my 2 month old Lyla . I walked past her crib and into my master bathroom, turned on the walk in shower , dropped my robe and walked in. It felt like today would go smooth, I wouldn't stress about anything, or feel like my head is barley above water. My mind was always racing always thinking, pondering my next move. these days it seemed as if time was moving so slow and I was stuck , little did I know things were about to speed up real fast. “maaaaaaaaaa , someones at he doooorrrrrr !! . Jamison was yelling from downstairs , and as I finally stopped day dreaming I realized 40 mins had already went by , I couldn't rush to get Jamison to the bus stop so I would have to drop him off which was okay, I wanted to get out and shop a little bit anyways. I grabbed my robe and turned off the shower, wrapped my hair in my hair towel and dried my face as I headed downstairs. “go get your clothes on baby and brush your tee..” Before I could even finish my sentence he was already headed up stairs. “KNOCK , KNOCK, KNOCK” “IM COMING ! DAMN ITS 7AM” . I should have looked out the peephole instead of just snatching the door open. “Well good morning baby I bet you weren't expecting me” I could not believe my eyes, I immediately slammed the door closed and slid down the back of it breaking down... why is he here , damn what fucking year is it ? its 2022 already ???? WTF . time has really just been moving past me as I just have been going day to day .... my baby monitor was picking up movement so I knew Lyla was starting to wake up. “Kat open the fucking door and stop playing with me ! , let me just see my boy real quick before he heads to school” I closed my eyes and stood up L had been in jail for 16 years now and 16 years ago I dandy keep our baby... I got an abortion and keep his money. All this time he thinks I kept our baby and I just knew I could not handle that responsibility on my own. Shit we could make a new baby right now ! I closed my eyes and stood up, opened there and stared at L. “I missed you baby” he said reaching out to me, My eyes watered and my heart raced, “I missed you so much too, come in please. “ ‘we can go up stairs I have to get dressed”. he followed me upstairs and I watched him take everything in, he looked at how my house was laid and how many bedrooms he passed, he seen baby items and was side eyeing me. I opened my room door and walked over to Lys crib , she was wide awake but just laying there, smiling when she seen me. “you had a baby recently Kat ? “ , rolling my eyes and turning around I slowly said yes. L walked over ro me and kissed my forehead, “well where tf her father at” “he's not here much, I dont fuck with him like that, he's also Jamison’s dad” and then he remembered his eyes got big and he went to turn to walk out my room , “ I got a abortion” I blurted out , he stopped walking and turned around. “okay “ was all he said and he walked out the door. I got myself dressed and dressed and changed Ly, attached my breast pump and headed downstairs, L was in the living room playing the game with Jamison and I smiled so big. I put Ly in her jacket “ get your jacket on Jamison, we are running late” he ran and grabbed his things and we headed out the door. “Mommmmm who was that “ “that was a good friend of mine Jamison, here give this to your sister” I detached the breast pump from me and put it in a bottle, all at a stop sign okay ! I couldn't wait to get back home and fuck my man, today was go be a good day ! L was at her house stealing all her shit ... 

[deycallmeactive]

Been doing this @gucciface39 @foolieono88 💯💯💯👌✌ #true2thisnotnew2this (at 79th Street)

[deycallmeactive]

Muddy issues #True2thisnotnew2this #beendoingthis (at 76th an Broadway in Los Angeles)

[deycallmeactive]

"5 years ago today" Back when ACT WAS 20$ A LINE THAT WAS 4 1/2 OUNCES IN MY CUP 💯💯💯👌✌#ItsRegular #True2thisnotnew2this #mrpoemeup #beendoingthis (at Gage And Central)

[deycallmeactive]

Another score with my day1ne @gucciface39 #mrpoemeup 🍼🍼🍇🍇💯💯💯👌🏿#beendointhis #true2thisnotnew2this #itsregular (at South Central L.A)

[deycallmeactive]

Early morning score #wock #mrpoemeup 💯💯💯👌🏿🍇🍇#beendointhis #true2thisnotnew2this 🍼🍼

[deycallmeactive]

Back when I was in love wit the ACT!! TBT #super #throwback #beendidthat #true2thisnotnew2this #freetheactavis "FREE THE ACT" 💯💯💯👌🏿🙏🏿🙌🏿🙏🏿 🍼🍼🍼🍇🍇🍇🍇 #actavis #beendidthat

[deycallmeactive]

I guess I'm on niggahs shit today, ole once a week, one oz cup sippin ass niggahs 😹😹😹😹😹😂😂😂😭😭😂😂😹💯💯💯👌🏿❌🚫 #true2thisnotnew2this #beendointhis #muddsippersonly #trend #sippin my real ones gone comment on here with a 😂😂 at these clowns

[deycallmeactive]

That's word up #true2thisnotnew2this #beendointhis

[deycallmeactive]

Jus a lil muddy #true2thisnotnew2this #active shut #mrpoemeup #niggasplayingwiththegame #halfsyruphalfcut @mozzymemba 💯💯💯👌🏿🍇🍇🍼🍼 (at Florence & Hooper)

[deycallmeactive]

Yicki on me, if it ain't them niggahs think it's on me 🔫🔫🔌💯#true2thisnotnew2this #active shut #mrpoemeup #niggasplayingwiththegame #halfsyruphalfcut @mozzymemba 💯💯💯👌🏿🍇🍇🍼🍼

[deycallmeactive]

Jus a lil mudd #true2thisnotnew2this #active shut #mrpoemeup #niggasplayingwiththegame #halfsyruphalfcut @mozzymemba 💯💯💯👌🏿🍇🍇🍼🍼

[deycallmeactive]

If you #true2thisnotnew2this you keep options and back up cups 😂😂😂😭😭😭😹😹💯💯💯👌🏿♐️♐️2️⃣2️⃣✔️✔️🍼🍼🍇🍇🍇♐️💉💊 (at 65st)

[deycallmeactive]

Not no yesterday sipper #true2thisnotnew2this

[deycallmeactive]

We does this #true2thisnotnew2this #beendoingthis #mydayuno #meandmydayonenigga #wedontsipthesame💉 💯💯💯👌🏿✌🏿️😂😂😹🍼🍼🍇🍇🍒🍒💊⛽️💨🤔👈🏿

[deycallmeactive]

Day 1ne shit @gucciface39 @deycallmeactive 💯💯💯👌🏿✌🏿️🍼🍼🍇🍇 #beendoingthis #true2thisnotnew2this #poed #realniggahsdorealshit