#true blue is their song i dont take criticism

[blazethecheeto]

i beg your pardon.

Jac listened to BOYGENIUS to inspire the agatha/rio love story i've passed away this is it oh my GOD.

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that window looks nice, what if i jump out of it.

[red-elric]

ive caught up w blue lock.... (anime only not manga sorry I usually dont read mangas lol) some Thoughts:

biggest critique is the use of the overpowered self insert characters lmao. like isagi is the generic japanese teen boy who despite having no significant athletic ability is able to rapidly improve and compete w some CRAZY talented guys, ego is the slightly older generic japanese 20 smth whose ideas about things are taken 100% seriously and given a bunch of money and little to no criticism ('cant argue w him hes RIGHT') for some truly batshit ideas. I’m not a huuge fan of that sort of thing (as I’m not the target audience) and it makes me roll my eyes p much constantly sorry :/

second biggest critique is that I CANNOT take soccer this seriously ksagjavshshfdsshhsh sorry but it is Not that big of a deal 😭 plus the amount of goals theyve been scoring from the start is super unrealistic I feel (tho maybe thats a biased opinion from the only soccer ive watched being whatever my dad has on in the english premier league or whatever??? idk I feel like those are always 1-3 goals total for the game for the most part)

HOWEVER. I do like the show I promise. listing good things now those are my only gripes really!!!

bachira is v v v good, he's my lil guy ❤️ I also like nagi a lot tho!! which surprised me bc hes not usually my character type but idk.... hes fun teehee. his relationship drama w reo and new friendship w isagi is keeping me SO hooked

general shoutout to all the side characters tbh; ive liked p much all of them so far?? also the drama squad of nagi/barou/chigiri all rooming together KILLED MEEE I love them sm

despite criticizing isagi in the first point I actually do also like isagi a lot LMAO. I didnt think I would but ive been really engaged by the way he thinks about the matches and puts things together, esp in the second selection! makes it somewhat more believable that hes made it so far but also just like. the connections themselves are v cool idk it feels like a good version of the whole 'ive planned this 30 steps ahead of u' thing

I also like how theyve been balancing the 'you need to work w a team to maximize potential' and 'you need to have your own individual skill to be worth anything' thing to! I was actually super pleased by the way barous arc ended; having him suddenly be willing to work w people wouldnt have felt right, but I wouldve gotten real sick of him if he never changed either, so him and isagi just fighting the whole time on the field was a cool way to resolve that!! new ways to combo and everything hehehe

bachira and isagis relationship is making me SOOO crazy u have no idea. they like each other so much and theyre so ready to throw hands at any moment but theyre literally making out while they play against or w each other ahhh. mentioned in the tags of my earlier post but I’m SO excited to see whether or not isagi actually picks bachira if/when he beats this 4v4; I feel like atm bachira hasnt really evolved explosively like everyone else yet so if that stays true and isagi ends up picking rin instead I’m gonna be SOO pumped to see how bachira responds to that!! I think thatd be a really cool growth arc for him and isagi both tbh. plus a nice parallel to nagi and reo since I think bachira would be less pissed and more motivated, might get the evolution that (it seems) reo isnt getting 👀 ofc I could just be wrong hahahaha

final mention I LOVE LOVE LOVE the ops and eds theyre so fun!! the songs are boppin hehehehe

[marellytalks]

Still in the throes of teenage heartbreak that is Porchay breaking down and it didnt help that there are edits with the Only Love Could Hurt Like This song in the background like what do you get from hurting people like this

Also i do have critical thinking skills that goes yes it is understandable why Kim breaks it off with him, for Chay’s safety, Kim’s true status as a mafia prince, things to investigates and it just wasnt the time yet

Listen. Just because my head understands it does not mean my heart understands it. I saw this somewhere and i wanna put it here because emotions.

What are the ways I envision happening after that? ( i have not watch some episodes in its entirety and i havent touch the novels either)

For Porchay:

1. Complete heartbreak. 7 stages of grief. Until Porsche intervenes. Or Tankhun since he said he was gonna raise Chay. He slowly snaps out of his heartbreak, goes to school. (most likely to happen obvs)

2. Wik records a song on youtube, Chay sees it and recognises that it was directed to him. Its an apology that they cant be together. Cue Chay crying scene as he looks at his phone.

3. Chay never snapped out of it. He carries on for the sake of his brother. Pines for Kim in his free time. Now that Porsche is also the Master, it puts a target on both him and Chay’s head. Of course Kim discovers it and informs Kinn. Chay sees him when he goes to the main house. Runs before Kim could see him. Collapses somewhere and Tankhun’s guard found him. Kim sees him being carried in one of the guard’s arms ( i have so much affection for PolArm, if anything happened to them, i will unalive everybody in the main house and then I unalive myself)

4. Drama aside, Chay continues on with his life, goes to university, have some friends, gets a Joss Way-Ar look alike as an admiring senior. Kim keeps tabs from a distance and see Chay with said senior and gets jealous.

5. Jealous drama aside, Chay continues in with his life, Tankhun takes him under his wing, maybe gets an admirer or two. Ambiguous ending between him and Kim in the last episode

For Kim

1. I want him to turn into Taylor Swift and spill teardrops on his guitar and pines for Chay like I Was Enchanted To Meet You Please Dont Be In Love With Someone Else

2. Continue with his fierce investigations. Confronts Daddy about it. Daddy admits. Another big confrontation with Porsche. Aftermath has a long talk with Khun and Kinn and they ask how long is he going to live like this, how long will he torture Chay , how long can he hide from his true self and so he decides to go find Chay and that is how we do cliche happily ever after .

3. Continues investigations. Gets information that worries him so he goes to keep tabs in Chay at university. Just more pining and brooding because thats how we roll. Chay is nearly kidnapped again and Kim rescues him. Chay sees him and goes into shock and Kim has no choice but to call Porsche. When he comes around, Kim promises to come back until he has sorted things out , also cliched open-ended ambiguous ending

4. As much as I hate time speeding up and then its years later, but what if Chay has moved on and is graduating university , has a cute businessman boyfie of his own and sees Kim out of the blue and again stupid open-ended episode

i believe it will be an open-ending for them, like Ae and Pete at the end of LBC because they are quite popular. It sucks becos I want them to get get together and be best mans at kinnporsche wedding , i want kim to write a song and sing it for Kinn’s wedding

Also jealousy and protective older boyfriend trope is my jam and i indulge in it and i dont apologise for things that make me happy lmao

for real i am looking in disgust at the 3 kimchay wips that I wrote instead of working on other updates

[your-friendly-neighbourh00d-fag]

A DEFINITIVE LIST AND NO I WILL NOT BE TAKING ANY CRITICISM

WEST END OR OFF BROADWAY: HEATHERS

okok

Beautiful: Off Broadway. ILY Carrie but Barrett takes the cake

Candy Store: Off Broadway but only because it's the OG (not SUPER set on this one)

Fight For Me: OFF BROADWAY that dAAAAaaAAAAmn was not on parr, sorry Carrie

Freeze Your Brain: WEST. END. I AM SORRY ANY SONG THAT RYAN MCCARTAN SINGS IN IM GIVING TO WEST END BC I HATE HIS VOICE IM NOT SORRY JAIME MUSCATO FOR THE WIN

Dead Girl Walking: West End. Now this is hard bc I love Barrett and mMMMmm her voice but also RYAN MCCARTAN IS GIVING NOTHING and Carrie and Jaime had so much emotion if you get me

The Me Inside Of Me: Off Broadway. That Barrett laugh, the Air Supply joke, IM BIGGER THAN JOHN LENNON! Ugh so much better in the original

Blue VS Your Welcome: Come on now. BLUE. It's so offensive but that's why it works. ~like princess leiA~

Our Love Is God: WEST END, SCREW YOU RYAN. (sorry but its true jaime muscato's vOIICECEEEEE AHHHHH) gET UFFFF THE FENCE GET UFF THE DAMN FENCE AHHH I LOVE HIM

My Dead Gay Son: No judgement

Seventeen: Ok so hear me out. West End. THE HARMONIES. THE CHEMISTRY. THE JAIME MUSCATO UGH I LOVE THEM

Shine A Light: A soft Off Broadway. I haven't really listened to the West End but MS FLEMING'S SLIDE NOTES ON POINT POP OFF

Lifeboat: Again no judgement

Shine a Light (Reprise): Come on now the Off Broadway just 🤌

Kindergarten Boyfriend: MMMM I haven't even listened to the West End version I just don't like either Martha stop having Sad Girl Hours (pls dont get offended by that i get its a serious topic but its fiction guys)

Yo Girl: Off Broadway until Ryan says kNoCk kNoCk bECAUSE HE IS SO MONOTONE GIVE IT SOME LIFE RYAN COME ON NOW

Meant to Be Yours: Brb currently OPENING THE DOOR FOR WEST END JD

Dead Girl Walking (Reprise): WEST END COME ON NOW COME ON

I WISH YOUR MOM HAD BEEN A LITTLE STRONGER (DON'T TALK ABOUT MY MOM) I WISH SHE'D STAYED AROUND A LITTLE LONGERRRRR (STOP)

I Am Damaged: West End. This is not only because of my Ryan Mccartan hatred, I love the lyric change too. (I am damaged, but you're different. you're the one we outta spaaaaare UGH HIS VOICE)

Seventeen (Reprise): Off Broadway. Barrett bringing it home.

BONUS: I love LOVE LOVEEEEEE I Say No. 10/10 addition, in my like top 4 at least of songs, I'm actually performing it for a thing at school!

Whereas Never Shut Up Again? Hate it. I can rave about the symbolism of Heather Duke not singing a solo song for DAYS I don't like this addition or the style it's in

btw guys i love both shows SO MUCH and both Veronicas and...

one JD iM sorry i really hate ryan mccartan's singing :(

BUT DAN DOMENECH ON THE OTHER HAND-

[stressed-crow]

i didnt exactly get tagged, but @lieberts​ said the “whoever wants to do it” thing (like 4 moths ago but i just found it in my likes) so here i goooo

also i tag @krchov​ @cowardlylearningtobebrave​ @feathereddamsel​ @gruntie​ and @luwucifer-s​ but like, only very vaguely. feel free not to~

1. MUSIC TAG MEME 

Rules: Post your first twenty songs in a playlist on shuffle

Mama (My Chemical Romance)

Stigma (BTS)

Man Who Sold The World (Nirvana)

End of Spring (ONEWE)

Love Maze (BTS)

I’m so afraid (Holland)

Dear my friend (agustd)

O-O-H Child (The Five Stairsteps)

Go Go (BTS)

Time is Running out (The Muse)

Movement (Hozier)

Les Passants (Zaz)

The Witching Hour (ODJBOX)

Feelings (Hayley Kiyoko)

0X1=LOVESONG (txt)

YAYAYA (Stray Kids)

Empire (Of Mice and Men)

Problems (Mother Mother)

Question (Stray Kids)

Kill Your Heroes (AWOLNATION)

(i do not take any criticism on my music taste, least of all a costructive one)

2. Rules: MAKE A NEW POST, bold what applies to you and tag whoever you want to get to know better.

APPEARANCE 

I’m an I-need-to-pull-the-driver-seat-all-the-way-in kind of a person // i wear glasses or contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing  // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo  // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i wear makeup // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how I look // I prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backward

HOBBIES & TALENTS 

i play a sport // i can play an instrument  // i am artistic  // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own (if it was like... chill wildreness. i mean i can get a fire going and shit like that i cant fistfight a bear or whatever) // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand

RELATIONSHIPS 

i am in a relationship // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long-distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online

AESTHETIC 

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sunrise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colors // i find mystery in the ocean (i dont like it tho the sea scares me) // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISC 

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift  // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least one dog // i have a cat ---------

3. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (1)

sage green or baby blue | moon or stars | paperback or hardback | piercings or tattoos (i want a new one... both piercing and tattoo) | drawing or writing | saturn or jupiter | line without a hook or mr. loverman (what does this mean??) | ancient greece or ancient egypt | prague (yo i live here thats wild) or amsterdam | dark academia or light academia | indie aesthetic or cottagecore | stargazing or late night drives | strawberries or watermelons | rings or necklaces | extrovert or introvert | dragons or griffins | ocean or mountain | silver or gold | dawn or dusk | creative or free spirit | early bird or night owl | cook or bake | dagger or sword ---------

4. THIS OR THAT TAG GAME (2)

indoor plants or gardens // cloud-watching or star-gazing // water or fire // paperback or hardcover // running or hiking // sleeping with socks or without socks // fruit or vegetables // hanging plants or succulents // dark wood or light wood // handwritten or typed // instagram or pinterest (i dont do either) // braids or pigtails // books or movies // oceans or meadows // forests or fields // sweet or salty // ice cream or chocolate // hoodies or sweaters // long hair or short hair // piercings or tattoos (new!! both!!) // summer or winter (both suck) // boots or sneakers // cars or motorcycles // curls or straight hair // castles or cottages // sunny days or storms // reptiles or birds // disney or nickelodeon (am european) // strawberries or watermelon (im using this opportunity to pick the other one yes) // essays or posters // phones or laptops // glass or stone // dark or light // photos or paintings // circuses or theaters // reading or writing // dogs or cats // poetry or novels // monsters or ghosts // thrift shops or libraries // fiction or non-fiction

5. Post one picture from my camera roll (no new downloads) to sum up my personality! u get two bcs they are v good

6. 30 QUESTIONS TAG GAME 

RULES: Answer 30 questions and tag others

Name/Nickname: lucy 

Gender: female 

Star Sign: leo

Height: 170 cm 

Time: 22:04 

Birthday: july 1  IS WHAT I WROTE INITIALLY bcs i cant fucking read and thought it just said “date” lol anyway its 11th of August

Favorite Bands: bts, stray kids :)

Favorite Solo Artists: sunmi, taemin :) and hozier i cant betray him 

Song stuck in my head: la la la la vie en rose

Last Movie: def some horror movie but i forget which lol

Last Show: probably the untamed lmaooo did not even finnish it 

When did I create this blog: december 2013 apparently 

What do I post: kpop babey 

Last thing googled: i gotta fact check lots of shit for work so probs smting sports related (but make no mistake i dont know a single thing abt sports) 

Other blogs: what for i dump everything here

Do I get asks: no

Why I chose my url: self-explanatory

Following: 100

Followers: ???

Average hours of sleep: about 8 hours 

Instruments: none 

What am I wearing: pink pajama shorts with kitties, black shirt torn beyond decent wearability and this dark green... jacket,,, hoodie...thing.

Dream job: village witch 

Dream trip: me @ japan: 

(i was supposed to go study there starting winter 2020 :) im abt to lose my fucking mind :) so yeah you get a dead meme for this) also new zealand, iceland, and going back to sweden sometime

Favorite food: pizza bithc its versatile, also cereal coz im a child

Nationality: czech (rip) 

Favorite song: black swan (bts), levanter (skz), take me to church (hozier), noir (sunmi) (those are from the top of my head current favs theres way more but here u go)

Last book read: MIMOZEMŠŤANÉ V ČECHÁCH (= aliens in czechia) by idk, some married couple thats probs wanted whatever xfiles had but low budget, its pure nonsense, best read of this year, dont regret a single second

 Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: magnus archives bich i dont give a fuck; middle earth to blaze it with hobbits; i wanna be one of those lil shaky-head-tree-things in mononokehime

[talkingtotheapples]

Hey remember when I said I’d do a lyric analysis of northern downpour, and then didn’t do that for like 6 months? yeah here we go:

the opening line of Northern Downpour: “if all our life is but dream” really sets the tone for the song, its half quoting a children’s song; establishing the almost nursery rhyme aesthetic the has going on for large parts. The changes Ryan makes to the line also reveal important thematic elements in the song--“life is but a dream” is changed from a definitive and general statement; its no longer commenting about general reality but rather questioning all his established feelings about their relationship. He is turning to the other person and saying “is any of this real? is this all a fantasy ive built up in my head?” it feels almost as if he is Begging them to contradict him, to tell him what they have is good and Real and not just “broken glass”, that for a second looked like “diamonds”, and although theres a desperate uncertainty to how hes wording these thoughts “/if/ all our life is but a dream” “/do appear/ to be, just like broken glass /to me/“ you get a sense its less that he’s unsure and more that he has this realization and he is /Praying/ he is wrong.

The second verse seems to be the other person’s reply, but instead of addressing his thoughts and questions they turns to what seem like general criticisms of him “i cant believe that genius only comes across in storms of fable foreign tongues”, this line seems to be a dig at how he expresses himself: unorganized, wild, and hard to understand, while they insist thats this cant be the only way, they offer him this rather than, as noted before, addressing his fear that they’re relationship is nothing more than a fantasy or a dream.

The chorus seems to shift away slightly from the conversation the first to verses are detailing, the tone also switches back to the nursery rhyme that was present in the first line of the song. It’s directed to a personified version of the moon, a common theme in english nursery rhymes, it’s also reminiscent of ‘rain, rain go away’ although reversed in meaning. Overall the line is almost a prayer, begging the moon to say in the in the hope that that would freeze this moment forever, this hope adds a sense of anxiety to the whole song as if whatever happiness is held in this moment is fragile and will inevitably end with the day break. Using a child like tone gives the line an innocent edge, innocent as in ignorant rather, he’s asking for an impossible thing, wording it like a nursery rhyme or children’s song acknowledges this, asking for this night/this moment/ maybe even this entire relationship to last is as fruitless as child singing to that rain in the hope that it will bring fair weather

“Sugarcane in the easy morning/weathervanes my one and lonely”; speaks of Contrast; the first line feels to me to be about happiness and contentment: sugarcane is sweet and wonderful but also simple and natural, he also used the word ‘easy’ which i think compounds that, its a situation that is happy and beautiful but also effortless then you add the setting of the morning time which brings with it a sense of domesticality, and so the line paints a picture of a relationship or situation that is blissful and warm but natural and content also(much like a home)This is immediately contrasted with the next line; ‘weathervanes my one and lonely’ : weathervanes are an image that instantly conjure(for me anyway) ideas of isolation, they are distant from everything, they’re an object you own but have no physical contact with, this is then emphasized by the weathervane being described as lonely, Ryan, by using a possessive phrase aligns himself with the weathervane, creating the suggestion they are the same(he is also isolated and alone). Further more the choice of a weathervane suggests location as well, theyre an object rarely if ever found in the city, an object that is completely connected to farm life, as this is a song written by someone who lives in a city but travels long, long distances through the country seeing things like weathervanes would be a visual reminder that he’s a far from home as it well as being an object that is ‘lonely’ in its own right, bringing us back to the ‘one and lonely’ part, they’re joined together by their equal loneliness.

we shift back to the conversation here with a description of the of the other person talking: “through playful lips made of yarn”, Ryan has been using body imagery through out the song, and theres often been a subtle personification of the body parts, which is very true in this case. Instead of the speaker being simply described as talking the words move through their ‘playful lips’, which gives the words an edge of agency in their own right. But in this case he hasn’t just personified the lips, he’s also given them a sense of the artificial, by describing them as being made of ‘yarn’, not only is it a artificial material, it also has a strikingly different texture to lips(the line wouldnt have the same effect had he used plastic instead) the description gains a very haptic feel to it, but also alien and strange, potentially indicating his feelings towards the other person at this point.

The emotion of the verse starts shifts back to the more distraught feeling at the start of the song, the “Capricorn” is described as “fragile” and the words the came from the “playful lips” now “unravel”. As if the as the conversation progresses the other person gets more and more upset, and their speech more jumbled.

There isn’t a clear indication who or what ‘that fragile capricorn’ is, the natural inclination is that it’s the other person(presumably they are a capricorn) but its place in the verse seems to suggest otherwise— it seem to be the cause for the mood change, “/That/ fragile Capricorn /unraveled/ words like moths upon old scarves”, like it is the cause for the unraveling, I want to argue that its an outside force or situation, potentially the conversation they are currently having; tentative and hanging over their heads.

this is immediately followed by, what ryan described as the central line of p.o.: “I know the world’s a broken bone but melt your headaches call it home”, in the context of this song potentially being about a troubled relationship it could be taken to be about that specifically, a plea either to the other person or himself to keep working on the problems in their relationship, but I think its almost meant to be taken in general sense,(potentially as well) its not enough to just acknowledge the ways in which your life, or the wide world is hard and harmful and then to wallow it that pain, rather you have to then be proactive in that situation and Make It Better(which is a bit of a theme in jon’s solo music but i Digress).

the song then moves back into a repetition of the ‘sugarcane’ line, eventually interlaced with ‘hey moon’, finally the song ends on two new lines: “You are at the top of my lungs/Drawn to the ones who never yawn” and return to the body imagery that has ran through the song, “you are at the top of my lungs” has implication of someone ‘taking your breathe away’(tho its infinitely better worded that i actually feel guilty describing it as such but i dont know how else to put it). yawning is a sign of tiredness or boredom so the opposite of that invokes connotations of focus or intensity, tho i got to say im unclear as to whether that line refers to Him being “drawn to the ones who never yawn” or the other person, I default on it being the other person because of the wording but it makes more sense to me if it refers to ryan idk

basically northern downpour is a song that sits tentatively strung between the knowledge that maybe this relationship isnt the healthiest and being So in love with the other person that you almost dont care but mainly desperately want to be proved wrong, desperately begging the moon to stay in the sky so this Good moment doesnt end and you wont have to face reality by the harsh light of day

Some Notes

•this might be a a bit of a hot take idk it isnt really what i thought about the song until i thought intensly about each line for hours but once i landed on it the more i became convinced that was what the song was talking about, its still just my interpretation tho, how ever you interpretated it is just as valid u know, and if you wanna send me your thoughts about northern downpour(or any song off pretty odd lmao) please feel free! i obviously have Thoughts lmaoo

•kinda wanna write an entire piece about how northern downpour, dangrous blues and lie to the truth are basically a trilogy, kinda wanna cry

•i had to physically stop myself from writing an entire paragraph about how ‘i know the worlds a broken bone but melt your headaches call it home’ is a progression from the central ideas of fever and im real emotional about it but i managed to control myself cos it didnt really fit

[migleefulmoments]

Let’s talk about this video because the ccfandom is loosing their freaking minds over it. They are acting like children and it has me feeling some kind of way. 

We have a video and several photos or screenshots-the video is always going to be a more accurate reflection on what is happening- the ccers know this, which is why they are focusing on the photos. It’s much easier to take a screen cap or a photo, spin it all out of context and build a backstory that works for crisscolfer. Videos are more telling of the truth- you have to lie about things that are plain to see- you have to scream “the sky is yellow” when everyone can see it is blue.  This “focus on the photo, ignore the video” is a strategy the cc fandom uses a lot. If they can't use the photo then they make a gif- drastically slow down the video. It ends up changing the context and drama of the moment. I have talked about it a lot-I made a post (x)- but this is something they did with the interview Darren did with George Stroumboulopoulos where George asked about when he came out as straight.  The video shows a much different story than the one they have fabricated to go with the photos. 

Let’s be real...Abby -and nobody else- claimed that Mia tried to grab Darren’s hand and he “ignored her” because that is one of Mean Abby’s favorite tropes. When the video came out, it was clear that they weren’t walking close enough for her to even reach out. But Abby can’t let it go so she went in on how someone Photoshopped the pic to make them appear poised to hold hands.  

based on this pic. So that means The Daily Mail, a HUGE UK tabloid, is doing Mia’s bidding. OKKAAAYY...Mia should run the world cuz she’s good. I mean, I can see how Abby thought this might be a real photo since you know, since Darren is in it TWICE. No Photoshop here folks, nope, don’t know what you are seeing. It’s not even a well-done Photoshop-I mean besides Darren being in twice, the line between full-body Darren and Mia is wavy and obvious. Nobody was trying to “trick” the cc fandom into believing it was a real photo. The pic is just compacted to get everyone in plus the up-close of Darren for their header/thumbnail. The Daily Mail’s knows them as a married couple- they have no reason to worry whether they were about to hold hands or Darren was ignoring her or whatever other BS the ccers can read into the photos. 

Regardless of how the ccers rationalize that the video isn’t exactly what it looks like, no matter how they slow down the video or insist on ignoring the video and focusing on the photos and screen caps to prove that Mia was angry or Darren was angry or Darren wasn’t dressed up enough to house hunt, or Mia was nice to the friend but Darren wasn’t, or whatever the fuck they are trying to tell themselves, NONE of it matters. Their relationship is what it is. Period. What we know about it -or don’t know about -it has nothing to do with their truth. The ccers trying to prove to each other that it is a fraud is nothing but childish buffoonery. Even if their clues were intelligent and well vetted- newsflash they are a mess- it still wouldn’t mean anything because nobody ever knows what goes on behind closed doors -especially a stranger’s closed doors. It isn’t anyone’s business. It certainly isn’t our “right” to prove they are living a lie. We dont’ get to have an opinion on their relationship. The world is large and of the billions of people on Earth, we are each privy to the personal lives of a handful of people. We only have the right to know about our own life, those of our underage children and our partner. 

Nobody has the “right” or the responsibly to prove a stranger is living a lie and to publicly out them. Unless they are doing something illegal -in which you call the police-it just isn't anyone’s damn business. Add in the small fact that they are getting all of their receipts and “proof” by analyzing the social media posts of people they don’t know, it really is unhinged, unhealthy, and fucked up.  

Darren and Mia might be in a throuple with Ben or have a power exchange relationship or they might be asexual. They might be secretly Amish or Soviet spies...none of it is our business. Every couple protects the secrets of their relationship from the outside world and especially strangers. Abby and the gang of merry thieves are trying to to prove something that is unprovable in the best of circumstances- the “truth” underlying a romantic relationship. Even in the best of circumstances- like you actually KNOW the person involved- you won’t get the “truth”, but trying to digest all of this solely via social media is pitiful and frankly, they are either immature or insane. 

This is the conversation that brought me here today:

ajw720 answered:

I think D was just in general mocking the entire process. The situation is so contrived, they are supposed to be “acting” casual like they don’t know they are being filmed when they 100% know they are being filmed.  There is nothing casual about it. I would say D’s facial expression in the still photos tells us exactly how he feels as well as his hat asking to go to a galaxy far, far away. I would bet he would jet out of this universe immediately to get away from his PBB if he could.

It absolutely does need to stop and now. The ridiculousness factor goes up every day and d continues to be the one suffering.

Once again, Abby made up an entire backstory to the 20-second video and then set out to criticize how Darren acted based entirely on her made up story 

“they are supposed to be “acting” casual like they don’t know they are being filmed when they 100% know they are being filmed” 

Of course they know they are being filmed! It isn't rocket science Abby-they can see the man with the camera right there. They are acting “casual” because they are saying good-bye to a friend. What do you want- a tap dance? A formal farewell with a curtesy “we bid you adieu”? A song? “No it aint’ no lie, Baby bye, bye, bye”?

“I would say D’s facial expression in the still photos tells us exactly how he feels as well as his hat asking to go to a galaxy far, far away” 

Here she uses the still photo to prove her point because the video shows the context of Darren’s facial expression and he isn’t upset or sad, he is just standing and listening. This is how Abby deceives her fandom in one-easy step. 

Back to the comment I made yesterday but the idea that Darren is wearing Star Wars merch because he wants to make it known that the engagement post was not real makes my teeth hurt. According to Abby, ccDarren is MARRIED to a woman he detests but his biggest worry is that the ccers know that he didn’t actually write the engagement post and that he actually likes Star Wars, NOT Star Trek? I mean, he’s married, why would he care about the authenticity of an engagement pic? He clearly was engaged. Why would he care about a post made 18 months ago? All this proves is how obsessed Abby still is with the engagement but they are married. Let it go Abs...also BTW, a man can like Star Wars and Star Trek. 

leka-1998

Since none of what’s happening there is natural in any way, I’d say if you only see her back it should be easier to flirt with her. The bad things start once she turns around.

If D were actually jealous of anyone there, it’d be of the jogger simply because he can just keep going and leave her behind.

This comment cracked me up because it is another case of the ccers making shit up and then getting upset about what they made up. Who said Darren was jealous of anybody? Oh right, you guys did.  The Jogger said “hi”, they said “hi” back and Darren’s dance had nothing to do with “making fun” of the runner ...or if it did, he’s a dick. 

klainecentric

Just watched the video of it and just before the pretend run D did, a jogger ran past them, I think the mocking was for the jogger running past them as they both glanced at the jogger seconds before then the mocking started. Correct me if I’m wrong.

Yes, that makes perfect sense. Darren mocked a jogger for jogging and saying ‘hi’ cuz he’s an asshole, isn’t he? 

ajw720

@klainecentric yes he was technically mocking the jogger, but i think his reaction was based on the situation at large knowing he was being filmed.

I always love when when Abby has to come in a fix the situation because “Darren is a dick” is never the last sentence of her fanfiction.  Sadly, she can’t think outside the box enough to get to “He wasn’t making fun of the jogger” because everything is black-and-white to her and she doesn’t “believe” in coincidences. 

ajw720

What i get from this video, is once again, she is way more engaged in speaking with the “friend” than D and he is yet again mocking something and I would guess it has more to do with the process that being funny for his PBB.

Remember they are 100% aware of the photogs.

What she “gets” from this video is complete bafoonery: Mia was “way more engaged” with the  “friend”, Darren was mocking “something” but not the jogger so he must be mocking “the process”. So Darren did a goofy monkey dance to mock the “process”? Um....ok...is he 3 years old? What grown up does a stupid dance in front of a paparazzi to mock the process of anything? If he is so committed to staying deep in the closet and forsaking his one true love  that he married a women he detests and the only way he is “fighting back” is to do a 2-second long monkey dance in front of a paparazzi, then he is a putz. 

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

It's official....I'm lactose intolerant.

After these past few years trying not to go over the limit 🙃 I guess my stomach finally had enough.

And got sick from me eating too much cereal to replace my childhood comfort whenever I felt like shit and needed a hug....or cuddle after masturbation...

Sigh....this sucks. Now my honeycombs, pops, trix, and all my fruity, sweet, unhealthy friends won't taste the same anymore 😕

Soy milk and almond milk only really tastes the best with healthier cereals like brann flakes, ommggg brann.....I'm so used to her last name I typed it brann, instead of bran.

Almond with Almond crunch or honey bunches of oats, or honey nut cheerios.

Soy milk actually did taste great with Strawberry Kellogs Flakes. I introduced them to grandma when I was staying with her and she said liked it and that it didn't hurt her stomach.

I guess we do have something else in common now. My celibacy from milk. No wonder she kept drinking that watered down milk and furina. The calcium powder stuff. I had a cat by that name. I thought it cute. It was like the word ballerina, mixed with her white soft fur, and her striped. Her eyes were either grayish blue in the light, and red if you saw her in the dark under the moonlight. She chased me around the living room the first time mom brought her home. I was always scared of new things and expected her to just stay right there so I could pet her and look at her. I didn't expect her to move and try to get so close to my face, which I feared her trying to scratch me, so I ran 😅 Furina so silly.

Does that mean I can't eat pizza anymore? I love pizza too 😋🥲 it helps me when I crave pizza whenever I think about you know who...

My pride gets in the way.

I finally sucked it up and ignore Jay's voice telling me that to stop stepping over my boundaries....cause Jay always wouldn't let me like the same stuff as them when they were angry or sexually frustrated at me for being a jerk, just because I wanted an actual relationship with another person, because Jay didn't wanna date me and respect me.

That's why I felt like I was doing something bad just because I was listening to country music or watching their favorite movies or shows 🤔 its like whatever was Jay's was there's and I could only watch whatever they didn't really care about or like as much as I already did. They didn't want me to know them behind the mask, so maybe that's why they didn't want me to like something that they liked. Because they thought they owned it.

And everytime I would try to listen to a song or a show, like today, that i knew they liked. Doctor Who Episode 1, season 1. I kept hearing Jay say "get off of me", "that's not yours", "you're only watching it because I like it", "why are you here", and "why don't you just go away." "You're overstepping boundaries."

And the smell of Ayunna's sugar cookies and Black Forest gummies...Jay's pizza rolls, pop, beer, Smirnoff White Ice, pop tarts, gushers kicks in.

Why did everything they like had to be there's? And why was I kept so separated from them even before and after, and I didn't see it was so organized....the isolation. They made fun of my differences, controlled and criticized everything they thought I needed to get rid of: the food I shared, the music I shared, the new hairstyle I tried....they suggested I should get an undercut and they were the only person to never compliment me after I worked so hard to make it and everywhere else I went everyone liked my blue green twists. Jay never said anything nice. Just things to change or make it better in the way they saw it...

clothes, they thought I could do better even when we weren't going anywhere special. The only time I got a compliment was when I was wearing a crop top and they said they could see my bra. That's the reason they liked it. Objectifying me for my legs whenever I wore shorts.

shoes.....ehhh. nothing.

persistently talked about how weird and different I was because I was just so different. They just didn't understand how hurt I was to be invited over to watch something or eat something with then and I got comments and criticism...as if I was so unwelcomed...even though you were the one that even asked me to get dressed, put on makeup for you and to come over your apartment whenever you felt like it. You would even say mean, rude, disrespectful shit like "this is why I don't ask you to come over" "can't take yo ass nowhere" "I'm not inviting you over anymore" and "why are you calling me"

You sound just like Darius. The other bully I had to get rid of for telling me "I hope you and your family choke on dirty brown water." After he heard about the flint water crisis and I told him Steve harvey had got us on the show to film an episode about it.

He was a hater, just like you. Pushed me away and kept coming back just like you. On and off, on and off, on and off, on and off.

You were the worst piece of shit to ever call a friend, Jay. You hit every wound I ever had in the book, and some I told you about and then threw me under the bus after you kept hitting those same wounds over and over again like you didn't care, on purpose. Because you wanted to have your way with me, control me, humiliate me, punish me, just like your words, your blocks on phone calls, social media, and everytime I tried to talk to you afterwards. You've bruised me worse than Darius and every other thing that rejected me, abandoned and emotionally neglected me.

And everyday I have to fight myself back and live with it, the pain of everything that reminds me of us, you, and her. And I'm sick of it.

I'm tired of feeling stings in my side, my heart, betrayal in my back. The knife in my chest still stings. And you have no idea what it feels like, nor do you care. Fuck off. Fuck you. I'm watching Doctor Who, Willoughbys, and that post office Klaus movie, because you don't control me anymore.

You're just the image of everything that was, and what is no more. You're not welcome here. Just as you made me feel before. You were the 1st and the last to ever get this close to me. You're eliminated. You are a irrelevant, unstable, and a pain in my ass.

I was never rude to you unless I left, or if you started to piss me off to the highest tolerance. And I tolerated so much shit from you. I was so patient waiting for you to unblock me and talk to me each and every semester you have a fucking, baby tempur tantrum about me not not doing something you wanted me to do. I'm not your fucking dog, I'm not your fucking child, I'm not your overweight fuck buddy that you can just fetishize and use because you have a milf titty addiction. Fuck you insecure bitch, wanna be a manwhore but have double standards for women like a straight up misogynist.

WELL NEWSFLASH BITCH YOU STILL ARE A GIRL, YOU WAS BORN A GIRL, AND NOBODY CAN UNSEE IT UNTIL YOU STOP TREATING PEOPLE LIKE A CHILDISH ANGELICA FROM RUGRATS. CONTROLLING AND PISSING OFF PEOPLE FOR YOUR PLEASURE MANHO.

KISS MY ASS AND IDGAF IF YOU CHANGE YOUR NAME, GROW A DEEPER VOICE, AND GROW A DICK. YOU WILL NEVER HAVE AS MUCH BALLS AS ME. CAUSE IM PROBABLY THE 1ST PERSON TO EVER CALL YO DUMBASS OUT. LEARN HOW TO BE A MAN THAT RESPECTS WOMEN AND DOESN'T ACT LIKE A JEALOUS BITCH JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE IS NEW AND DIFFERENT TO YOU. UNTIL YOU LEARN EMPATHY, HOW TO LISTEN, HOW TO EVEN REMEMBER, HOW TO BREATHE, AND HOW TO BE A TRUE, HONEST, CONSIDERATE, MORAL, RESPONSIBLE LEADER, LIKE MY FATHER. THEN I'LL SEE YOU AS A MAN.

TILL THEN, YOU A BITCH AND YOU'LL ALWAYS BE. THAT GOES FOR ANY MAN, TRANS OR NOT.

IF YOU TREAT WOMEN LIKE THIS MITCH DOES, YALL ALLLLL BITCHES TOO. YO MOMMA AND YO DADDY TOO FOR NOT TEACHING YOU RIGHT FROM WRONG. YOU DONT PUT FEAR AND DISRESPECT, ANGER AND CONTROL, TO EARN ANYONE'S RESPECT. RESPECT IS LEARNED. RESPECT IS EARNED.

THATS WHY YOU AND HER DONT EVEN HAVE TRUE FRIENDS. THE ONLY PEOPLE YOU THINK YOU NEED TO RESPECT IS JUST YALL 2, AND FUCK EVERYBODY ELSE. IF THATS HOW YALL FEEL.

THEN YOULL ALWAYS BE ALONE. YOU STUPID, IGNORANT ASS, DUMB BITCH. FUCK YOU TWO DRY ASS, BASIC ASS BECKY, HOES. HOPE YOUR NECKS HURT FROM TALKING SO MUCH SHIT, YOU SOUND LIKE A DOG CHOKING ON YOUR ON YOUR PLASTIC DICKS.

YOU FUCKIN DILDO.

[scwaggy]

soo they’re a band w 3 girls and they advertise as having a unique, never-done-before take on punk rock that is like. groundbreaking. they post one of their songs (of which they have like, 3) on tiktok and it blows up. the song, called “i’d rather die” and the chorus featured in the tok is about how they’d rather die than fuck a straight white guy. at first, they were met with positive feedback for being a girl-driven punk band but people started looking deeper into the situation. chaos ensues.

to begin, they’re all white. the one with the blue hair, paige, is married to a straight white guy, and their 8th wedding anniversary is coming up. so something already feels. weird.

poc creators begin making videos about the chorus, pointing out that the band is fetishizing bipoc and pushing the stereotype that these bipoc are better in bed and that they can be treated as an accessory.

the full song is released and people immediately point out that it’s encouraging sexual coercion via alcohol and. basically getting mad that a dude can’t keep it up when at that point he’s too drunk to consent.

people begin calling the band out. y’all appear to be white, straight women calling out white, straight men as though they’re not part of the oppressive class yourselves. a response video is made to address this claim where purple haired girl (marisa maino) says “i’m gay” as though this magically solves everything. the band also addresses bipoc creators criticizing their attitude towards minorities and literally say “we see you, we hear you.”

going more in depth about the band itself, it appears to have been founded in late 2020 and has (as of now) released only a few songs. they have a very professional website, active social media accounts on just about every platform, and sell merch. many begin to suspect they’re industry plants because they don’t seem to be very grassroots at all. everything is polished. paige (blue hair) has an extensive background in production and has had music she’s contributed to featured on a lot of tv shows n stuff. twitter finds out that marisa, who is the bands singer, has had a past career in pop music and also a past career in racism.

also, the bands clothes are ALL from a notoriously unethical and all around shitty brand.

everyone is like. it’s not punk to fetishize poc, be racist, and wear dollskill. AND y’all aren’t even authentic. clowning commences. the members of the band all go private.

also, they’re signed under dr. luke’s record label. yeah, that dr luke lmao the straight white rapist. PLUS their music is bootycheeks anyway. there’s not much to like.

then there’s drama stirring with certain stan accounts popping up on twitter, which many suspect to be alts owned by members of the band (with decent evidence)

personally, i think this account is def a troll.

clicking the link in their bio leads to a man showing hole n it’s graphic lmfao. they also edited the band into stonewall.

the question is whether the accounts were actually made by the band (to punk us) or by a third party just to add fuel to the fire on the whole situation.

some suspect the band is a social experiment to see how gen z would react to obvious industry plants, or as a way to satirize the left. it also could be serious, with their rise and fall taking place in the span of just a few days.

as of now, we don’t know whether trampstamps are satire, trolling or real. i dont know which id personally prefer. it’s just an interesting situation all around with so many weird details. is the band too bad to be true?

that’s for you to decide

someone explain trampstamps band from beginning plz im so interested <3 keep seeing shit abt them

[sadproblems]

Sunrise or sunset? both have different aspects that i like

Are you mentally ill? yes

Are you physically ill? no

What is the most expensive thing you have bought? a blouse (€80)

Do you have a job? sadly no

Are you in school? jep college is school

Are you a dropout? nope

Are you in college? jep

Introvert or extrovert? introvert

What do you think when you look at your body? what a disgusting life form i inhabit

What have others said when they look at your body? beautiful, good, healthy, ‘hot’

Do you have a particular song that you feel deeply? rn it’s ‘U’ by Majid Jordan but for a while it was ‘Welcome to the Hell Zone’ by Spooky Black and Bobby Raps

Talk about a time in your life where you have felt most alive? a lot of moments i’ve spent with flori i guess idk it’s hard to think of something when i’m feeling like this

Are you confident wearing a bikini? no absolutely not

Can you look people in the eyes while talking? yes

Has anything terrible happened to you? yes

Has anything wonderful happened to you? yes (seda)

Favorite part of your personality? i’m a very caring person

Least favorite part of your personality? i get jealous easily

Favorite part of your body? my eyes i guess?

Least favorite part of your body? my ‘love handles’ whose existence im still denying 

Favorite quote? “I hope the exit is joyful and I hope never to return” - Frida Kahlo

Do you have friendships with all genders? since gender is a really broad spectrum and often fluid i find it very hard to answer this question

Do you have a good relationship with your father? yes

Do you have a good relationship with your mother? yes

Do you have a good relationship with your siblings? yes very

Have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member? jep

Have you ever had a near death experience? i guess but it’s hard to recall

Do you know anyone who has taken their own life? yes

Have you ever tried to take your own life? ha

Biggest lie you have told? something along the lines of “yes i’m fine yes everything is ok” or “no i haven’t told anyone”

Do you follow any conspiracies? i guess i do on some level

Do you believe in a New World Order? no

Do you respect your government and the way your country is run? i don’t have any more respect for the people who run my country than i do for the people who don’t. We have a very good healthcare and education system but the experiences i’ve had at my current internship have only confirmed that there’s always room for improvement. It’s also always good to view your governments actions critically.

Is there currently any strife in your country? in some ways: islamophobia has risen for example

Have you ever been displaced within your country? no

Are your friendships healthy? some of them

Are you currently fighting with a friend? no

Are you jealous of a friend? Why? yes because i’m a selfish crybaby child

Do you believe in the Illuminati? the illuminati did exist but they dont anymore

Do you think any celebrities are associated with the Illuminati? Who? lmao no

How can people tell you are nervous? they cant

How can people tell you are sad? by my overall tone of voice and vibe

Do you ever express your true feelings? sometimes more often than not

Regrets in your life? meeting certain people and letting them get close to me

Achievements in your life? graduating highschool and being alive lol

What did people say about you in school? kind but fat and an unpopular feminist

What did you say about people in school? i often questionned their morals

Is there something you have never told anyone? jep

Have you committed an illegal act? jep

If you had two days to spend one million dollars how would you spend it? buy real estate/shares/gifts for friends and family donate the rest

What were your aspirations at age 5, 10, 15, 18? 5: learn how to ride a bike (did that) 10: learn how to play guitar and ‘be cool’ (did one of those things) 15: get better grades and try not to get into fights with my parents (succes) 18: graduate (jep also did that)

Describe your first kiss? Was it how you imagined? no i was drunk selfish and felt bad afterwards i still like to think it didn’t really count nor happen (it didn’t) *edit: as soon as i get my real first kiss/(second less dumb kiss) that will be THE First Kiss Story™ i really do believe i have a say in this lol it also wasn’t that bad i definitely like kissing and the person it was with but the situation i was in just made me feel confused and a lil weird but still….i liked it….idk……..this is really messing with my head

Growing up were you in a wealthy, average, or low income household? average but with money troubles from time to time

Are you from a broken marriage? no

Have you been raised by a solo parent? no

Do you know both your parents? yes

What colour eyes, hair and skin do you have? blue, dark blonde/light brown, medium to white but not pale

Have you abused drugs or alcohol? not really

What languages can you speak? dutch english french german

Do you conform to your societies standards? i do

Do you cry often? almost every day/ multiple times a day

Do you tell people what you think of them? only the positive aspects but also the negative ones if it’ll benefit them

Are you comfortable accepting compliments? no

Are you comfortable giving compliments? yes!!

Is any mental illness hindering your life? jep

Is any physical illness hindering your life? nope

Do you keep up with current events? i do

What’s the latest news in the world you have heard/read? may holding trump’s hand is the last thing i remember

What have you done today? i worked at my internship where i counsil students with social/emotional issues and try to help them/sign them up for rehabilitation programs

Do you sleep well? no

Do you sleep badly? yes and have been for more than 7 months

Have you ever hurt anyone because you were hurting? yes

Has anyone ever hurt you because they were hurting? yes

Have you ever had to end a friendship/relationship? Why? yes because she was abusive and made me feel bad i tried to get her back when she dumped me but when she texted me almost a year later i let her go

Have you ever stopped someone from hurting themselves? yes

Has anyone ever stopped you from hurting yourself? they try

Do you like your laugh? no i try to cover my mouth as much as possible

Are you preparing for an apocalypse? And what kind? no

Do you have any funny family stories? yes but they’re only funny to me

Are you religious? no

Do you like to watch true crime shows or movies? yes

Are you interested in cults? yes

Would you like to raise a family in your country? maybe

List some things you wanted in your childhood but never got? those fairy wings you can get at the costume store (mine broke)

Is there a large age gap between you and a sibling? no only 2,5 years

Are you from a blended family? no

Do you believe in marriage? Why/Why not? i do but it takes a lot of effort and commitment from both sides

What is the nicest thing anyone has said to you? “to me you are home”

Do you keep a journal? i do

Would anyone be hurt by reading it? yes omg

Do you have children? no

Have you been pregnant? no

List your favorite movies? jongens, le fabuleux destin d’amelie poulain, submarine, frida, leon the professional, pretty woman,love actually, paranorman, heathers, holes, little miss sunshine, studio ghibli movies,…

List your favorite people? florine, seda and her family, catharina, my family, joanna, alexandra and my cat (arthur and laura get an honorable mention)

Talk about the birthmarks and scars on your body? i have a birthmark right next to my belly button (my favorite) on my left pinky and two on my face (one above my lip on my cheek and one below my lip i hate both and am thinking about getting them removed) my scars lol on arms and knuckles but barely visable also one in my neck

Do you look after yourself? more than i used to but still not enough

Do you put yourself or others first? others!!

Are you happy today? not really

Are you loved? i am

[makumii]

Answers to last rb - End of Year Meme

First things first, did you have a good year? kinda???? it sure was interesting and the first half sucked balls..

How old did you turn this year? 21

Do you feel your age? I feel 14 and 36 at the same time - it sure is fun to be alive

Did your appearance change in anyway? finally dyed my hair again! (currently blue) Also ears pierced in december

Post your favorite selfie. jokes on u i dont make selfies

If you traveled, where did you go? spent a week in cologne at a friends place for gamescom and another week in the middle of austria on a farm! (vacation - wooohoo)

Which fashion trends did you love? i dont even know any trends that occured this year help

Which fashion trends did you hate? see above

What was your favorite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible? very recent but that one fancy black coat i got myself for christmas (https://www.emp.at/p/malphas/397063.html)

What song sums up this year for you? Breathin - Ariana Grande but the Thomas Sanders cover

What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then? i dont even know what got releassed this year what is timeee

What was your favorite movie of the year? HOOOO boy okay: Klaus, Frozen 2, Joker and that’s about all that i remember

Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year? not really, i didnt have my eyes on many new faces this year

Favorite new TV show? She Ra probably?? Again, nothing overly new on that side |D Also not rly a TV show but I super got into critical role

Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears? Entrapdak all the way - those two basically killed me Also Critical Role (thanks B.) -> I’m only 40 episodes in the second campaign but BOY am I deep in

What food did you try for the first time? none as far as i’m aware?

Did you make any big permanent changes this year? uhhhhh i think my confidence got a boost in the second half of the year so i think that counts? Also ear piercings

What was one nice thing you did for someone else? sponsored an entire Christmas market visit for my best bro (Food and souvenirs included)

What was one nice thing you did for yourself? as cruel as it sounds, i broke up with my boyfriend which was quite freeing Also finally dyed hair again and I am LIVING

Did you develop a new obsession? Critical Role |D

Did you vote? Yeap

Did you move? Nope, but I might move out in 2020

Did you get a job? already had one, but thanks for asking <3

Did you get a pet? nope, only plushies

Do you regret not doing anything? OH Y E A H - there’s a bunch of things (not dancing with my maybe-crush at the christmas party, not breaking up sooner with my bf, and some other things i won’T remember rn but I am the master of not doing things and regretting it afterwards)

Do you regret doing something? probably, but i currently don’t remember; I’ll probably think of it during my next breakdown

Have you done anything that scared you? nope, didn’t do it because i was scared and now I regret not doing it |D

Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days? I don’t really get mad? But the biggest ball of negative emotions was caused by my breakup

Did you lose anyone close to you? my ex! we broke up and he didn’t want to stay in touch so there’s that

Did you fall in love? actually i might have; still working on figuring that shit out

Did you fall out of love? nope; even tho we only broke up this year it’s been over for me since the end of 2018

Did you start a new relationship? no, but there might be something in the works???????? IDK what to make of this situation

Did you go through a break up? ohhhh yeah - and it wasn’T as bad as expected (we already had a big major breakup at the end of 2018 so i already was prepared for the ‘final’ one)

Did you have to cut ties to someone? It wasn’t my choice unfortunately

Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year? the first person that came to my mind was important last year too so idk? no new people in my life

Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year? my ex (I love how he’s in most of the answers lmaoo)

If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it? heck yeah! if i had the chance to dance with that one dude?? I’d say yes immediately (he was kinda disappointed i said no so I SHOULDVE SAID YES)

What was the best moment of the year for you? have to name a few actually: - christmas party at work (including a mario kart tournament) - gamescom (and staying at a good friend’s place for a week!!) - christmas dinner at my granny’s bc i finally got to get back to my second half of the family) - my almost 1.0 GPA at school

What was the worst? - breakup (even if it wasn’t as bad, it still sucked) - my almost 1.0 GPA (SO CLOSE sklhgfsdköfjhskdö)

Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t? - the break up -> but i guess since i saw it comming it didn’t have as much power over me - a certain thing i might’ve done last year around christmas but wasn’t as bad as it seemed?? it’s all chill and just showed me some things about me that i wasn’t as certain of

Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did? actually no?? not that im aware of - okay maybe the maybe-crush accidentally helped me with my self confidence but uhhh idk if that counts or sth

What are you most proud of accomplishing? some sort of SELF WORTH got out of a toxic relationship

What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior? idk next

Did your opinion of anyone change for the better? honestly i don’t know, i still love my friends and no one is better off all of a sudden? idkkkk

Did your opinion of anyone change for worse? nope not that i’m aware of

If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year? even if i did make some I don’t remember them oops

If you make resolutions, what will your resolutions be for the coming year? maybe draw more? get back into piano playing? something like this also v important: 2020 me, dont let others ruin your self worth any further!!!!!! GO AND ROCK THOSE CLOTHES!!!!!!!!

If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do?  Who would you go this? I’m perfectly content here at home - the most adventurous I’d do is going to a friend’s place or something

What do you wish for others for the coming year? Lot’s of love and happiness, I wish for everyone to find their family and being able to surround themselves with people they love and that care about them!

What do you wish for yourself? That I stop being such a scared lil shit Srsly, if smn cute wants to dance with you u better say yes!!!!! Also that I can find more parts of my true self

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idk where i found this but im bored so heres some facts n shit

3 Fears : falling, being alone, disappointing my dad

3 things I love : friends, weed, cigarettes

2 turns on : long hair, tall

2 turns off : facial hair, b.o

My best friend : thomas

Sexual orientation : straight

How tall am I : 5′10″

What do I miss right now : friends and family

Favourite color : black

Do I have a crush : yeah

Favourite place : rideau park

What am I listening to right now : rage against the machine

Shoe size : 9

Eye color : brown

Hair color : blonde

Meaning behind my URL : love spider-man

Favourite song : check yes, juliet by wtk

Favourite band : sleep

How I feel right now : bored and impatient

Someone I love : sisters

My current relationship status : single but not looking

My relationship with my parents : pretty good

Favourite season : autumn

Tattoos and piercing i have : 9 piercings

Tattoos and piercing i want : 2 nose, cat skull on neck, dads writting on wrist

The reasons I joined Tumblr : fanfic and fucked up shit

Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? : no lmao

Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? : no

How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? : depends where im going

Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? : no

Where am I right now? : bedroom

Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? : depends where i am and what im doing

Do I live with my Mom and Dad? : no

Am I excited for anything? : kind of but not really

Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? : yes

How often do I wear a fake smile? : not terribly often

If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? : tom holland

What do I think about most? : boys lmao

Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? : behind

What was the last lie I told? : told friend i was going to bed because i didnt want to talk

Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? : phone

Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? : yes ghosts, aliens not so much

Do I believe in magic? : no

Do I believe in luck? : sometimes

What’s the weather like right now? : decent, its 3am

What was the last book I’ve read? : columbine; a true crime story

Do I have any nicknames? : dickweed, ripley, rips

Do I spend money or save it? : money burns a hole in my pocket

Can I touch my nose with a tounge? : no

Favourite animal? : grizzly

What was I doing last night at 12 AM? : smoking

What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? : first punch ptv

What is my favorite word? : dickweed, rad, snot, fucker, wicked, witch

My top 5 blogs on tumblr : idk man i dont pay much attention to specific blogs

If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? : quit bitching

Do I have any relatives in jail? : no

What is my current desktop picture? : some ocean bullshit

Had sex? : yes

Bought condoms? : nah theyre free

Gotten pregnant? : thats complicated

Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? : yes

Had job? : yes

Smoked weed? : daily

Smoked cigarettes? : daily

Drank alcohol? : yeah, not a fan

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? : no

Been overweight? : yes

Been underweight? : no

Gotten my heart broken? : kind of

Been to prom?: yes

Been in airplane? : yes

Learned another language? :yes, french

Wore make up? : always

Dyed my hair? : too many times

Had a surgery? : no

Met someone famous? : yes, ptv man it was wicked

Stalked someone on a social network? : who hasnt

Been fishing? : yes

Been rejected by a crush? : no, surprisingly

What do I want for birthday? : notebooks, pens, books maybe, weed

Do I like my handwriting? : sometimes

Where do I want to live when older? : where i live now

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? : i dont think so

What I’m really bad at : running

What my greatest achievments are : i dont know if i have any

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me : i dont know. i dont take offence to much. probably anytime someone criticizes my work

What I’d do if I won in a lottery : pay off my parents debt, my debt, buy a house and a car

What do I like about myself : lips i guess

My closest Tumblr friend : none

Any question you’d like? : what

Are you outgoing or shy? : pretty outgoing

What kind of people are you attracted to? :skater punks

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? : maybe

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? : no

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? : thomas

What does the most recent text that you sent say? : goodnight

What are your 5 favorite songs right now? : man it always changes. dopesmoker by sleep, kissing in cars by ptv, when i go out i want to go out on a chariot of fire by escape the fate, eruption by van halen and duality by slipknot

Do you like it when people play with your hair? : yes

Do you think there is life on other planets? : no, maybe plants and organisms. no people or aliens

Do you like bubble baths? : only in the winter

Do you like your neighbors? : not particularly 

Where would you like to travel? : germany

Favorite part of your daily routine? : doing dumb shit at night

What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? : stomach

What do you do when you wake up? : check my phone

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? : i like it how it is

Do you ever want to get married? : yes

If your hair long enough for a pony tail? : yes

Would you rather live without TV or music? : without tv

Have you ever liked someone and never told them? : yeah

What are your favorite stores to shop in? : record stores

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? : second chances dont exist to me, people never change

Do you smile at strangers? if they smile at me

Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? : mmmm maybe

Ever wished you were someone else? : always

Favourite makeup brand? : anastasia beverly hills has never done me wrong, otherwise i dont care what im using

Last thing you ate? : watermelon

Ever won a competition? For what? : maybe. i win a lot of street races

Ever been in love? : yes

Facebook or Twitter? : facebook

Twitter or Tumblr? : tumblrs better but i use twitter more often

Are you watching tv right now? : no

What colour are your towels? : blue and white

Favourite ice cream flavour? : gingersnap or pb and brownie

First person you talked to today? : tommy i think

Last person you talked to today? : paige

Name a person you hate? : alex

Name a person you love? : thomas

Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? : many

Do you tan a lot? : never

Have any pets? : a cat

Do you type fast? : too fast

Do you regret anything from your past? : yeah

Ever broken someone’s heart? : yeah

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? : yeah

Is cheating ever okay? : not really but i can understand peoples  reasoning depending on the sitatuion

Do you believe in true love? : its what keeps me going

What your zodiac sign? : picese

Do you believe in ghosts? : yeah this has been asked already

Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? : Death phobia, according to other experts is generated because people fear death as painful, or fear the unknown - such as the mysterious quantity of the afterlife.

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Me

Dam i have trust issues. Everybody who flew into my life moved. My soul turned blue. I refuse to take relationships seriously. Boom! Is it me or you? Im confused. I have emotionless attitude. I feel judge by you instead of a man who i become into. I cant feel people who except me through. I dont notice the few that do. Its like either way im stuck in glue. Im have blind and half afraid to love you. I cant a relationship takes two. I lead myself to my own doom. I think i speak so soon. My soul is the blues behind each clue. I choose too shoot for the moon. I keep emotions to myself. I yell for help yet everybody listens to themselves. If i tell people backstab me into hell. I have felt pain and trap myself in my own cell. I must get past my emotions myself. I wish somebody will accept me for me. Oh well! I want be free. What else? You dont see behind the mask. My struggles hides behind the facts. I rewind the tracks. The shattered glass slides past my hands. I fall between the scars and the cracks. The black hole throws my soul through my past. Im reminded of my darkness. Im heartless because my expirences make my mind sharpen. Whos a man? Each woman has their own facts. My muscles are weak and stabbed. My calves are stiff and the lord wont give me a chance. You only see the mask. You dont see the expirences i had. Dam! People wonder why gangsters are strapped. I need bills to pay and loyalty will stay. These days greed holds my fate. You think your a man because you have money and a wife at last. Do you know how it is to be backstabbed? You have a car. I have scars. My life is hard. People told me walk the boulavard. You have support. i was forced. The fire lights my torch. You expect me not to break in doors. I just want support through pain i absorb. I speak for those who sleep on floors. If i ever go to jail or court, i hope the lord has remorse. My muscles are sore. Im tire of this life because nobody sees pain behind my eyes. I stay on my grind for the lord intill we meet eye to eye. If i break gods law tonight forgive me of my crime. The struggle sliced my heart twice. We all need christ. Inside my mind i reach the blind. I was stripped of my education. In relation people hated me as a reyes. I was on the run in different places. How am i suppose to get an education? My body had no respiration. My blood has no circulation. I never communcated. I was exhausted and nearly fainted. This picture painted changes my life cycles and phases. Im tapped in mazes. This how my days went. On these streets, i was running sprints. Do you get this hint? Im gifted yet my life shifted. A rock did hit this window that is tinted. My eyes squinted. This picture is vivid. The details splitted. I sprinted as night time slipped in. Will i ever be forgiven? This question brought goals and ambitions. My visions changed my life i lived in. I was walking a great distance. My journey has lifted. Women i missed it. Im the man and this is him. Theirs a grim reaper within. My skin hit the soul keepers fist quick. The speed and quickness left my body in critical condition. For the moment, my hypnosis has broken. The image shattered by explosives. Now im facing my opponet. My heart has been stolen. This door opens then closes. The mystery exposes the coldest memories posted. I know we seem distant. You probably forgot i exsisted. I know we have our problems in it. We are pen pals because of our distance. I remember i was on the corner. Life is torcher. I remember being without a quarter. You remember what we ordered. Probably not your the only one i got. I dont mean to put you on the spot. I seem lost. I dont get along with most people at all. I have the spirit of god. I have question when i talk. I walk and snap the lock. My key has gone. I create thing beyond robots. Will you forgive me for being wrong? I know i have been gone. These days seem long. I guess we forgot how to get along. I never knew music or songs. I can feel your pain everytime you respond. I stay strong beyond the way we bond. I stop and relized this isnt your fault. People assualt me through chaos. My mom once told me its okay to have teardrops. I didnt understand untill my jaws dropped. Your pain hit me like i camouflauge. My response feels emotions and thoughts. Our problems wont be solved if you dodge you thoughts. Ive been taught true fron false. Ive been trapped in a box. The locks are sealed and in odd. We all have obsticals. Ive been in the hospital. Sometimes love is lost. The danger we walk across are under jesus and god. We all have different clocks. Our future is a paradox. Ive been wrong im still shocked. Very few people have family together. I love my family and wish them better. We have our differences however our problems arent center. I feel the pressure. we seem distant. Our views have different visions. You dont understand im gifted. I lifted my pencil and written images. I have drawn fireworks with it. Love is something you cant fix quick. Men never listen. Women never understand our decisions. We on two different planets. Men speak through action. Women speak and ask it. Our views turn into acid. Women want love forever lasted. Men want honesty massive. Firewoks expanded. Flames turn to ashes. Rhymeamatics is my passion. Love is her attraction. Dam it! Her heart, i craked it. She said my love shattered and passed him. The glass split and switched my facts in. The truth is magic. The truth is madness. The truth is blackness behind sadness. Shes attractive and looks arent forever granted unless you see the picture behind the canvass.