#trooper!hyroh

[tiredassmage]

Realistically. Maybe I should split these. But. My heart said emotional distress, so you know what that means!!!!

@hyrohkaah come get your boy

[transcendencism]

hi idk if you still need the reminder but last night (???) you had an idea ab havoc squad and the downfall between hyroh and aric or something... have a nice day

AAAAAAAAAH I DID thank u anon

right so. i think i figured out what i want to do with havoc. im throwing tavus and the rest of em out the window because none of them (except fuse) were all that likeable and their defection to the empire makes zero sense, and generally the trooper storyline REEKS of “the military isn’t bad, there’s just some bad apples!” so i am taking a more anti-military, anti-war stance on it because i can 😎

the tl;dr is that aric was already in havoc and either second in-command or squad leader. after some kind of catalyst, the rest of havoc has their “enough is enough” moment and desert, save aric and maybe one or two other squad members. and rather than letting that moment push him to the conclusion his brother (hyroh if u did not know) reached years ago (the military as an institution is terrible and rotten to the core and there is no “fixing the system from the inside” and he’d do more good leaving than continuing to contribute to the republic’s imperialism), he just doubles down even more on sticking with the republic.

which ofc leads to a conversation between he and hyroh that they’ll have at some point and hyroh tries Desperately to get aric to see it the way he does, but aric’s too stubborn and like. he really does have good intentions but the good intentions Do Not Matter, and hyroh tells him as much, and p much just.. stops talking to him from that moment on. and understandably it puts their moms in a very difficult position because their sons want Nothing To Do With Eachother, even more so that they feel similarly to hyroh, and never really approved of aric enlisting (tho they never said anything about it) and it’s just. yeah.

aric might eventually come around in the future, but tbh i think i like it better if he just... never does, and hyroh just has to burn that bridge.

[tiredassmage]

from the 25 questions post, let's have 1, 7, annnd 14 for trooper!Tyr :)

[25 Character Questions for the Writer] Kicks my feet! Thank you for indulging me. x3

1 - What is your character's favorite food and why?

Keep your high-rated restaurants and meticulously planned dates. Tyr is scouring the streets for the corner food truck selling fried kebabs and greased concoctions. And Elara has, unfortunately, hooked him on Kaasi brandy. She’s taken to smacking him on the shoulder when he breaks out a bottle from Force-knows-not what sources, but it certainly must be to his fancy for him to risk potentially trading with Imperial interests even by proxy or distantly.

Street vendors range from some of the best food you can find this side of the Hydian Way to downright ireputable, and Tyr would like to think many years running past a fair lot of them back and forth to work before his official days in service to the Republic has given him an alright enough eye to discern what you’re looking for. Point him at something with a bit of spice or heat, or a truck with smoke pluming out the side, and he’s going to be eyeing that menu. Leave no stone unturned. The strongest of his cravings would prefer a spot that forgoes such nuisances as cutlery. Dig in with your hands or it’s just not the right stuff.

As for why? It's relatively universal, and a mash of familiar comforts and whatever might be local. It's a bit of an adventure. And Tyr, admittedly, probably doesn't realize that he likes the adrenaline of such. xD

[And now the rest are about to give me lots of emotions below klsnflsdfs]

7 - What does your character miss the most?

Honestly? I think he misses that exhausted look his mother used to give him… a lot. Because he was… a bit of a handful. They moved around a lot, bouncing from job to job - sometimes world to world - for his mother as she could find employment after the nebulous hole his father left behind in their lives (she’d never talk about it, never tell him more than the man was never present, and he didn’t need to be).

As… tends to happen, her rambunctious teen of a son often told her she worried too much, and gave her the crooked smile to match. Yes, even the day she found out he’d been illegally racing swoopbikes for months without telling her.

He promised he’d stay in touch when he up and enlisted with the Republic SIS. He’s kept sending her parts of his paychecks for years now, but getting into SpecForces put strain on a somewhat already burdened relationship. There’s times he misses coming home with his busted lip and scuffed up knees because he got in the way of the wrong type of crowd trying to make it home from the mechanic’s shop or the tracks, the way she’d tilt his head up and click her tongue in disapproval at him before setting their meager dinner preparations aside to clean him up. It was a gentle and stinging love, all at once. She’d always tell him he was going to get in over his head someday.

I think a part of him sometimes wishes he could tell her, you were right, ma. And it sucks. He’s not… very sure of the man he’s grown into. But his mother's love was unconditional still, despite their imperfections. And he's not entirely lost a younger boy's longing for the galaxy to just make sense. And to be told it's all going to be alright.

14 - Who would your character never betray?

Ough, loredumping warning because this is. This one's got a bit of a loaded answer.

It’s a bit of a contradictory answer, but his core teammates of Havoc Squad come to mean a lot to him. Hyroh (@exeuntlegacy ehehehe new blog tag new blog tag) and Aric have been by his side from the beginning and Elara quickly finds a place among the boys. Even if they drive her to wit’s end sometimes. [Please send her some brandy and maybe get her a raise. She’s dealing with far too much of Their Shit sometimes.]

In short, it’s contradictory because he does, technically, start out betraying all of them before he even knows them. As a plant from the SIS in SpecForce to investigate Garza’s command and rumors of SpecForce defections, and given the two departments’ notorious mistrust for one another, the news does… not go well when Tyr pipes up and reveals the truth about his recruitment to the squad and the general after trading information about Havoc’s reason for being on Nar Shadaa freely with their contact there, SIS Agent Jonas Balkar.

But what follows over the next several years of their continued service together in Havoc is admittedly a roller coaster. There’s some highs in their victories, and there’s some definite lows and fuck-ups on Tyr’s part as a young and relatively inexperienced commanding officer - one of them is, indeed, being a once-SIS plant. But ultimately, Tyr’s left to his place in Havoc by the SIS because the squad’s already in a bad way and by General Garza because Tyr, while he says he won’t fight the general if she wants to strip his rank and position in Havoc and SpecForce entirely, does make a fair argument that she’ll only make more problems for herself, and kicking him out will only draw attention and detract from the hunt for Tavus.

Again, not all of this pleases his squadmates. But they don’t ever entirely give up on him in… a way the SIS seems to. He’s cut loose, essentially, traded over to actually fully live in his position with Havoc. And that stings a little, honestly.

Tyr manages to piss off Hyroh several times. Tyr fucks up, really. They have different opinions because of their exposures to the galaxy, to the Republic’s underbelly and its flaws. Tyr’s a bright-eyed idealist and, early on, pretty damn loyal to it to actual fault. Hyroh actually breaks his nose over it when Tyr puts a blaster bolt through Tavus. And, with time, Tyr eventually recognizes he… deserved that, more than likely. [In time, Tyr will express this as a badge of honor, much to Hyroh's embarrassment.]

Aric and him go… a bit back and forth. Jorgan’s a more experienced soldier, a more experienced leader, and in a way scruffs his new Lieutenant carefully by his little scarves and tries to teach him the ropes as best he can because they might as well try not to get each other killed. Tyr’s an alright kid, he’s just. Inexperienced. An idealist. Aric doesn’t like the truth that he’s an SIS spy, but they smooth things out, eventually. They come back around. Havoc’s really the only place left that Tyr has to hold to at that point. The SIS has left him, Garza’s been successfully pissed off that the SIS went around her. He’s really got no choice but to try to work through it with the rest of them. And, despite the initial blow up, Tyr tries. He does. Genuinely. He learns. And Jorgan can’t hold that against him. And he makes Hyroh happy. That’s… still his younger brother, even if their relationship is… only sort of on the mend, at that point.

And Elara is perhaps the most steadfast of his supporters. Her line of, “I’ve always preferred hard truths to easy lies,” really shows up for him. It’s unsettling, sure, but she recognizes it must have taken a lot for Tyr to come forward with his SIS ties willingly, without official orders from his superiors to do so. While she’s less actively a teacher to him, he does learn a lot from her. And, admittedly, he had his reservations at first, her being a former Imperial. But she doesn’t ever let him down. So, the three of them in particular. The rest of the squad, he’s more distant with but, by the end of things, Tyr learns a lot about how you count on the people actively beside you. He learns kinda what drove Tavus to act as he did, even if its several years too late and after he’s gotten a lot of blood on his hands about it. Havoc's not afraid to challenge him when he’s in the wrong. But they haven’t abandoned him, either. He’s made a lot of fucking mistakes along the way. He has. Maybe he doesn’t really deserve their faith in him, but… to Havoc Squad. Whatever this galaxy throws their way, he intends to do his damned best to see them through it together.

This is all sealed particularly by their experiences together on Oricon as part of the wildly under-prepared rescue operation for the forces the Republic had already lost on the planet and then getting roped into fighting the Revanites alongside Theron Shan and Lana Beniko. Tyr's realization of the... kind of systematic flaws in their operations for the Republic, and the Republic's handling of such operations overall is... a kind of gradual and building experience - something Hyroh and Aric, especially, are familiar with well before Tyr has entirely grappled with that particular serpent. So it's... all the more of a statement to him that they never cast him out.

They get real damn begrudging sometimes, lol. Sometimes it's a bit like, how many times must we teach you this lesson, young man? But. Y'know. What's family if you don't occasionally squabble about ideals and execution, I guess?

[tiredassmage]

@captainderyn: #wait dot Tyr has a bladesmithing hobby tell more?

I... forgor I have probably only directly said this to Joel and maybe only hinted at it in tags sometimes, lol. But uhh! Yea! For a while, my Selected Streaming was whatever seasons of Forged in Fire were available on said streaming service - which to save the unfamiliar a quick google search is, in short, a bladesmithing competition show where four competitors compete in three rounds of bladesmithing, typically with an elimination in each round - ultimately with two competitors recreating an assigned historical weapon with a winner determined through various weapons tests. It's not a hobby I could ever say I'd pick up myself, but it's very interesting to see the craftsmanship and the process and so, as one does when one has blorbo brain... I decided that was a fun thing to pick up and run with.

There's been idle jokes of Alliance Jenga nights and the like because I imagine Tyr's... hands on, typically. He likes to do things, keep his hands occupied - a softer transference of his training primarily as an operative. And I figure as weapon maintenance is already important to him and his work as a Cipher... given the opportunity, it's a process he'd enjoy learning about.

So, in short, knifemaking is a hobby he explores in what downtime he finds as Alliance Commander - primarily through the blacksmiths and other such trades that come to partner with the Alliance over time. Tyr generally keeps relatively quiet about it. Forging is several hours he can get to himself and just kind of tune the world out, physically working on something that can require some problem solving that... occasionally helps him sort through the shit in his head, too.

Anyway! That's how Tyr picks up bladesmithing as a sort of... soft retirement hobby. He gets interested chatting up a couple Alliance personnel, ends up asking them some questions, and learning from some of them. While I imagine he typically makes blades with the intention to see them used, him and Izvoye (@hyrohkaah) have gotten lost in some historical records at times trying to parse together historical techniques. (And as a lil bonus, part of his proposal to her in their lil 'verse together is forging a ceremonial blade for her that leans a bit more heavier into artistic and craftsmanship techniques and skills than the kind of blades he tends to use as an agent.)

[tiredassmage]

this is well overdue. anyway. [walks off stage]

[tiredassmage]

Bunch o' jackasses standing kneeling in a circle.

Obligatory trooper bullshit post because @hyrohkaah and I made each other worse at the devil's sacrament aka the trooper aus we're lighting on fire and hailing like a great, giant friendly(?) mushroom and how many references can I make in one post kaldnflsadnflsdf

[tiredassmage]

For the Swtor asks, OC of your choice! 28, 47, 55! 😁

Thank you so much! I think... I will do this batch for Trooper!Tyr specifically, since I just got to spend more time with him.

[SWTOR OC Asks]

Which I think I'll also use as an excuse to ramble about the au again and what it does to me, so we'll definitely need a cut for this one, lol!

So, a little context, since it's been a minute since I've spoken on it, but speaking of Tyr means I'm generally speaking of my canon Cipher Nine - but now I, admittedly, have a small card game's collection of him in all of the tech classes for funsies at this point, and putting Tyr through Republic SpecForce military training does something... really interesting compared to who he is as an agent. Trooper!Tyr grows into the role in Havoc Squad sort of while he's deeply wet behind the ears yet, particularly as a SpecForce soldier - and where his original canon's training as an Intelligence operative asked a lot of him controlling his own presentation and carefully manipulating his perception and the perceptions of others, what I tend to see more of in the Trooper story edition is... a bit more one-trick pony.

Tyr's loyalty to the Republic as a trooper is pretty deep, and while him and General Garza certainly butt heads during his career (not helped by the fact that Tyr was an SIS transplant to investigate the SpecForce defections on behalf of the SIS to begin with), he's generally dogged in his duty - and it means SpecForce doesn't face a serious investigation from the Republic Senate until Eclipse Squad's takedown during the events of Shadow of Revan - because Tyr had pretty summarily eliminated Tavus and the rest of his original Havoc counterparts under Garza's orders. And that... haunts him as much and more than it does create eventual resentment between Tyr and Garza for turning one of the Republic's finest SpecForce units into, in Tyr's sentiments, a "Search and Destroy unit hellbent on covering your failures and indiscretions."

And yet, for as much as he resents what SpecForce service made of him and Garza's disposition of it all in general, he... still follows a lot of those early patterns of operation established within his first year in Havoc for... the vast majority of the rest of his service.

Anyway! I don't... think any of this necessarily comes up for these particular questions, but man!!! He's just super fascinating to me, and it's super chewy to see what different circumstances made of a character I've loved dearly! So, without further ado, onto the actual asks, lol.

28. Have they done anything embarrassing?

His partner and his flight officer in Havoc is a friend's oc, Hyroh, and... I think Hyroh would call it embarrassing how eagerly Tyr will tell the story of how he got his broken nose, lol. About as eagerly as Tyr will tell the story that the scarring down his chin and his left shoulder are from when he raced swoopbikes illegally when he was in his teens and got sent over the handlebars in a race accident at sixteen years old - which is... frankly a story Tyr is not nearly embarrassed or self-aware enough about, probably, as far as how close a brush with mortality as it could have been.

Anyway, the story of Tyr's broken nose then is... actually related to the hunt for the Havoc traitors in that it's Hyroh that broke his nose - for Tyr having put a bolt through Tavus, no less. To say near the least on the matter, Hyroh and Tyr disagreed heartily about the handling of the hunt for the former members of Havoc, and it was sort of capped off by Tyr's unyielding loyalty to duty and Garza's order in that moment that Hyroh lashed out about it. It's not their first disagreement and it's not their last, so more the embarrassing part of it is that Tyr tends to wear it like a badge of honor - that his boyfriend (no one tell Command) checked his stupid, reckless ass before he could... well, maybe not entirely before he could wreck himself, as it were, but that they come back around after the incident and still scuffle and spar, serve in Havoc together for several more years (with more thrilling highs and harrowing lows), and still form a relationship.

Tyr's maybe... not so much embarrassed about telling the story at least most of the time as he is that it... takes him as long as it does to figure see to the full extent Hyroh's position - which is that the things they do and the Republic they serve... it isn't perfect. Not that Tyr believes they're entirely without fault, but it... the ends were meant to justify the means. And that's all well and good until you (meaning Tyr) realize stunts like leaving the former Havoc on Ando Prime aren't isolated incidents. And, frankly, Tyr has found some sense of time and place as he's matured, and he's... a little more embarrassed now of the gusto of which he'd tell the (shorthand, no mission details) version of the story when he was younger. Mortifying ordeals of realizing you were kinda a silly dipshit in your twenties and all that.

47. Did they remember Nico's little umbrella?

I can't forget Nico's little umbrella. I'm not sure how much Tyr particularly cared to remember the little umbrella, but... I'd like to think he did. That little umbrella touch was likely a much-needed touch of levity; the edition of this Tyr going through the experiences of the Outlander is... a really, really rough time starting the Alliance, to be semi-brief. Tyr's had a lot of lows in his time with SpecForce, and losing what had become his support network in the core members of his team in Havoc really did some numbers on him for a while - numbers that he's still recovering from, in some respects.

On one hand, a drink is a drink is a drink... especially in the kind of low Tyr was during the early stages of the Alliance. On the other, being told "show me who you are through crafting an alcoholic beverage" is... so not what he expected and a little baffling that it... probably managed to be at least a little bit of needed amusement.

55. Vaylin has conditioning, how do they feel about using it?

Wait, no, this is why I felt the need to preamble so much about canon agent edition versus trooper edition. Because this one is SO CRUNCHY!!! Between the two!!!

The trooper edition of Tyr being more of a one-trick pony is... relevant here because Tyr's a trained soldier this time - and the distinction matters when talking about his disposition and handling of problems. Tyr as he is as a Havoc commander is not really a man that I'd call suited to leadership - of a military squad, let alone a body like the Alliance. And having everything he understood, knew, and cared for ripped out from under him in the way that being thrust into the role of Outlander and Alliance Commander did it means Tyr's... pretty short on patience and sympathy for the figures perpetuating a lot of that pain and suffering. (Though the relationship he develops with Senya does... interesting things to his relationship with Arcann that end up working out positively where I was pretty certain he'd not be the forgiving type, but... that's another ramble.)

I don't think I actually have my clips for this one and it's been a minute since I've done KOTXX on him, so I admittedly don't remember his exact thoughts on the matter. But where Arcann he comes around to a lot on Senya's faith in him (and... Tyr's own relationship or half-lack thereof playing into those feelings), I think... Vaylin consistently proves a consistent threat to him. I think he feels for Senya perhaps more than anything. But, at the end of the day, Tyr's a soldier, and Vaylin wants to burn everything to the ground - right to be angry about her treatment or not. And... Tyr's more or less a kid from the worse-off side of the space tracks who's strength is as a sniper, not... sword battles with fuck-off powerful Force users. Right or wrong doesn't have as much place on the battlefield as it does in the aftermath, no matter how much they might wish it different. Wishes won't keep him alive long enough to regret it, so... they needed what advantages they could get. Vaylin's conditioning was one of them. And of the many things Tyr's done in his life, especially as a soldier, I'm not sure I can say that making that call is one of the ones he regrets - not nearly as much as others on that list, at the very least.

[tiredassmage]

misc. collection of thoughts about trooper!tyr + his mother prompted by asks + discussion that gave me an epic case of emotions today.

his mother's eyes. that's where the gray comes from.

tyr was always. something of a headstrong one. tried to grow up too fast to take pressure off of her being a single mother. spends a lot of his time searching for his purpose out there in the world - gives her a hard time trying to keep him grounded when he isn't always exactly listening.

they... don't always have the greatest communication for it. her love remains unconditional, despite their struggles. despite the many ways her stubborn boy drives her up a wall or two or four. but. they're imperfect. but they are, regardless.

tyr's brisk about moving out around 18. he gets an official offer from the sis after he oopsie'd his way into the middle of an agent's op inside that illegal swoopracing ring. (remember the accident when he was 16? that... may or may not have been partially on purpose.)

he goes nearly a decade before he sees her in person again - around eight years, until hyroh finally nudges him enough to go see her again when he's around 26, after the dust has settled after taking down the former members of havoc squad. it's about 8 years. he doesn't call before he goes. just. shows up at her door with barely a duffel bag's worth of shore leave clothes, a couple new scars, and a new weariness already in his eyes with an awkward, sheepish, ma... i'm. i'm home.

still sent her back parts of his paycheck. without fail.

in short, tyr trying to make raising him less hard on her. his mother doing what she can. both of them kind of stumbling about their relationship. but she nearly tilts tyr off his feet with his surprise throwing her arms around him the day he shows back up on her doorstep.

(he missed her. more than he'd realized. and he's. he's grown up too fast. and she was right. she was right. he got in over his head, and all of this can't quite be fixed like his scuffed knees from the duracrete. [he doesn't mind if she still wants to try. not this time. not anymore.])

[tiredassmage]

how's trooper tyr handling being outlander...credit for your thoughts??

oh, by the force, not well not well at ALL, lmaooooooooooo

Honestly, I think making trooper!tyr go through being the Outlander is probably the single cruelest thing I've ever done to him. Definitely as trooper, but I would... probably consider arguments for, like, overall to Tyr in general. tbh. Which given that his original canon is the Imperial Agent story might sound like a wild claim, so let me take us back a little to give a sense of place.

I'll put in another caution warning and it will be under the cut, but we can't grapple with this without talking about PTSD, some mentions of alcohol and drug use, and... unhealthy coping mechanisms as a general rule, tbh.

Perhaps most importantly is the groundwork that Tyr was never meant to stay a member of Havoc Squad when he was first assigned to SpecForce. For those just recently tuning in, the shorthand of that is Tyr began his career for the Republic as a SIS operative, officially around eighteen. He's assigned to Havoc Squad on Ord Mantell in his mid-twenties as part of a quiet investigation into rumors about SpecForce defections and questionable operations practices.

And then, of course, Harron Tavus and the other long-term Havoc members defect right in front of his eyes. Thus, Tyr's saddled with an unexpected SpecForce promotion and long-term reassignment. The official cut from the SIS occurs on Nar Shadaa, well into Tyr starting to establish a new Havoc with Aric Jorgan, Hyroh Kaah (@hyrohkaah), and Elara Dorne - the former two which join him from Ord Mantell, and of course Elara comes from their Taris operations.

What that does to the squad through the class story is probably its own post, so for the purposes of this one, it essentially means Tyr was never... exactly meant to be leadership material. Quite frankly, even his experience in the SIS was more directed.

Contrast that with his experience in his original canon as Cipher Nine and he lacks a lot of that developed sense of purpose and independence that made him such an effective operative for Imperial Intelligence.

So, as you may have guessed, if leading a small squad was a bit much for him to wrangle, being thrust into the thick of something as massive, unruly, and uncertain as the Alliance is... a lot.

CW again for mentions of PTSD & alcohol and drug use starting under the cut.

It exacerbates a lot of Tyr's complications that have developed in his SpecForce career. The most lingering, damning thing Tyr has yet to grapple with at the dawn of the Alliance is the blood on his hands from the deaths of the former Havoc Squad. Tyr hunted them all, and rather ruthlessly. Fuse is perhaps the single exception where Tyr didn't personally pull the trigger, but he did prioritize stopping Imperials over rescuing him. Still, at the time, there wasn't a lot of grief over the choice.

At the time when he put a blaster bolt through Harron Tavus, he... I wouldn't say felt nothing. Something felt... wrong, perhaps. But he'd had a job to do. So he stuck to his job.

The next several years of continued work for SpecForce would explain the rest: Harron Tavus might've been right about some things. SpecForce wasn't clean work. And while Tyr's previous employment with the SIS did no favors for his relationship with General Garza, his dogged loyalty to the Republic largely worked to her favor. Tavus's death meant no deep dive into Garza's methods - not until much later, when Eclipse Squad was a breaking point, one of the last cleanup missions Tyr swore he'd ever let Havoc suffer. If she hadn't agreed to hand herself in, he may have threatened to shoot her, too.

Thankfully, if such a threat was made, it never made it to the court records.

But that's, in short, a guilt that doesn't leave him. It keeps haunting him and Havoc; Aric, Hyroh, and Elara in particular are three people that stand by him through his worst and his best. They're not always happy with him, certainly, but they don't give up on him. They're together through the search for the Deadeyes, through Saresh's politicking after Corellia and Makeb, through the horrors of Oricon and Ziost that they as soldiers were never fully trained to grapple with.

He loses all of that. The one consistency in his life, the one group of people that had been slowly helping him find himself, what he wanted to genuinely stand for, who he wanted to be. Trooper Tyr had those things to lose.

And he's just... By now, he's closer to his 30s. But in ways, he's still... just growing. Just getting out of the mortifying ordeal that is trying to find your identity and sense of place in your 20s, especially having grown up too fast and having such a deeply encoded sense of what it is to be a soldier.

In the short term, five years in carbonite develops an extensive struggle with insomnia he often turns to stims to combat so that he's not entirely dead weight following Lana and the others around trying to keep up with their needs and demands - well-meaning demands, perhaps, but demands nonetheless. Demands he isn't exactly equipped to deal with as a soldier whose strength was as a sniper.

He does also throw himself into quite a routine at the Arena Grand; originally, it was just to recruit Bowdarr to their cause, but it also became one place Tyr felt he had control. The scarring from his encounter with Arcann on Asylum is still mentally fresh to him, if not as much physically. He can't fight Arcann. He's not trained for that, not built for it - Valkorian's cursed influence on him or not. But he can fight in the pits. Those are enemies he understands. That's a fight he can wrap his hands around. Everyone is so busy and has, largely, spent their time sort of talking over whatever his needs might have been that Tyr slips into coping by fighting. It gives him a place to vent out the irritability of the mood swings and the exhaustion that he can't always dampen with drinks and stims.

And this has... already started to carry on, so, to sort of hopefully summarize, he doesn't handle it well in any sense of the term. He struggles a lot. He feels incredibly lost and even powerless, especially early on. By Knights of the Eternal Throne, he finds a bit more footing and, of course, he has some familiar supports back in place - Aric and Hyroh were found still in Havoc and have been with the Alliance ever since.

But a lot of it will aggravate the PTSD he already earned earlier in his career, and it will add new elements to it. Trooper Tyr is... a bit more ruthless, in some ways - and that's not just in the Alliance era. He's always clung hard to the ideals of the Republic that he thought were so important, and the training as a soldier made a lot of his reasoning much more cut and dry than the open negotiation and constantly shifting awareness he had as an Imperial Agent in his regular canon.

That said, it's not all completely doomed. It does teach him something about what he values and the kind of person he wants to be and become. It builds on an understanding he had come to find in the little makeshift squad family he had developed with Hyroh, Aric, and Elara - that the people beside you, the people that stick with you are the most important.

It is... a truly exhausting battle. But he tries. And he also knows he... has no intention of holding on to this kind of power in the aftermath. He never really wanted it in the first place, but there is no other place in the galaxy to get rid of Valkorian than to soldier through the storm with the Alliance.

And, while he'd never defect to the Empire, he also knows... he doesn't want to be a soldier again whenever this is through. Not even for the Republic. It's all just... been a lot too much. For him and Hyroh to be able to finally step away, to settle into something more... quiet. Maybe tinkering with speeders and droids... Tyr wants to see his mother again, make more consistent visits.

He doesn't have a lot of time to do that in the Alliance - and even if he did, he'd be terrified of catching her in the middle of the Alliance's work. [And a part of him isn't ready to grapple with her seeing him at one of the lowest points of his life, so self-destructive and worn by everything.] There are not words for the kind of emotional damage I took from the realization that, with all the Alliance gets up to, and the five years the Republic presumed him dead... its just about as long as he went without seeing her when he moved out when he turned 18. That was about eight years, and the Alliance is at least six or seven, probably.