#trisqueer

[epiceneandroid]

thanks to @arco-pluris (who i have been admiring from afar and may have a (queer)platonic/amari/(theoretical) aesthetic attraction for based on my dreams of shem)'s reblog of @ryanyflags post questioning being transcis/cistrans/tris i'm actually myself questioning being trisqueer (as in trans(gender)queer and cis(gender)queer at the same time)

especially given that epicene, my MAIN gender and the main hosts' that share the "my gender" tag on this blog's genders as well as sprinkles' gender is technically (to me, and from arco-pluris' own definition from sheir blog defining how shey sees epicenity) a monomultiagender of both (male and female + male and female related genders + male and female centrigenders + in my view, masculine and feminine genders + masculine and feminine related genders + masculine and feminine centrigenders as well as androgyne, ambigender, femache, stuff like that), neither (i.e. every abinary, anonbinary, atrinary, etc. umbrella gender like neutrois, maverique, aporagender, outherine, xenogender/xenine (at least to me), kenochoric, and even other neogenders unrelated to these neithers, as well as stuff like ambigue, generique, gengender, etc that can't be sorted into these categories necessarily), and none (every single agender/genderless related gender i experience, such as agender, genderless, agenderless, gendervoid, arguably some kenochords, genderlussos, genderblank, gendernull, nullgender (those two are different), and i'm also either polygender or pxngenderfluidflux (aka, genderfluid between all and no genders and fluxing between them) and ALWAYS pxn aligned...i wonder if i could count as trisqueer in a cis-genderqueer sense AND a trans-genderqueer sense. i consider my modality mostly genderqueer and nonbinary, especially because though i'm physically unable to transition like i want to (i wanna go on t for the Namari Dungeon Meshi Voice Euphoria and also bottom growth but preferably i'd rather that thang and also the top thang to be swappable and like slideable like a chest/breast slider but that's another thing, but i don't want top surgery because i like my breasts and also i'm fat and i don't WANT to have to lose weight to get a flat chest), i consider my experiences neither fully cis in that i never was able to relate to other Fellow AFAB Experiences because of Autism and Adhd and Trauma and Ridiculously Early As Young As 1-4 Pediatric Ocd but i never found myself fully relating to cisgender boys either (i would say i find my experiences closely match transfem people both nonbinary and binary, but tbh i don't have a right to claim transfem because i'm not transitioning towards womanhood from a gender different to that, and i'm not fully and entirely a woman, and also trans woman isn't necessarily a third gender to most binary trans women though some transfeminine people can experience their gender as a third gender because imo some transmasculine people and generally nonbinary people do that too so who am i to judge). honestly, the closest even moreso than nonbinary or multigender transfem experiences is like...nonbinary/genderqueer or agender or like...generally not a man or a woman or all genders and none experiences. and also genderqueer experiences in general. i consider myself moreso...cisautigender? cisgenderless/cisagender? cisgenderqueer? because rather than being socialized as a cis girl, i feel like i was socialized as autigender in the "my gender is autism and less than genderless so my gender is considered nonhuman or even inhuman even because i'm autistic", or "because of my socialization i feel like i less grew up as a female to epicene, i feel like i'm more genderless to also epicene" or even "i feel like although genderqueer is one of my current genders, genderqueer is more of a cis experience for me than female is so isofemale cisgenderqueer isomale transepicene pxngender it is"

idk. i don't know how to explain all this word vomit. i still can't explain it. idk if these experiences necessarily line up with trisqueer or some other gender modality but if anyone can give me help i'd appreciate it.

[deadfluid]

pinned post until i gather the motivation to turn this into a rentry

denver ⚰️ he/it/blood 🩸 tmasc gay queer umbreonboy 🔪 transid user

alter in a collective of sorts, the hosts blog is @/hideawaysis im just a parasite

my stances: pro-fic, pro-para, pro-kink, anti-callout, anti-abuse, anti-contact for paraphilias that could cause nonconsensual harm, radqueer-neutral (my stance on that kinda thing falls under lobotomyqueer, the collective as a whole is uncomfortable associating with the community due to past experiences but youre free to interact if youre a part of it so long as youre not pro-contact), pro-good faith identities, pro-nontraumagenic plurality origins (plurality is a symptom not a disorder), pro-blood and killing and murder

other general warnings: i am a blog that posts nsfw so chrono/bodily minors avert your eyes, sometimes when im really excited i type in all caps it doesnt mean anything, i use the r slur untagged because im autistic and find it sexy, i will post a lot about sadism and guro and borderline necro stuff in general but as ive said im anti-contact for things like that irl and the idea of doing that stuff for real makes me wanna yarf sooooooo

if any of the above things squick you out just block or something dont harass. this section is here so you know what youre getting into

no actual dni because those are dumb as fuck i just block

my ids (subject to change im always adding more): cisplural (traumagenic origins), cisdisabled (physically, mentally, developmentally), cisautistic, cislowfunctioning (we use functioning labels over support labels), transmasculine, xenogender (deadgender, bloodgender, umbreongender, vampgender), xenoautism (murdertism), trisqueer, transharmful (transkiller, transabusivebrother), deadfluid, permateen (bodily an adult), nonhuman (transumbreon, transwolf, transblackcat, transdemon, zombiefluid, vampfluid), transreality (im a fictive to simply live in this reality is to be transreality LMAO), transslitthroat/wrists, transcreepypasta, and many more (for more transids see #the hoard)

yes before anyone says anything i AM deluded and a lot of these ARE delusions so fucking what who cares if i call myself a killer umbreon with murder autism for schizospec reasons its my life and fuck it we ball 🏀 🏀 🏀 put me on r/transidcringe see if i give a fuck

also anything related to umbreon gets me to front immediately. in case you need something or whatever

thats all for now. if you got this far welcome and i hope you dread your stay here