#traumatized goku

[megamattzx]

Goku was just angry. So damn angry. And he tried to hide it. He tried to lock it all away. But the more he did so, the more painful it became.....

Scars of the Past:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/55266517

Written by me and @LoneWolfYamcha

#Goku #ChiChi #GoChi #Yamcha #DragonBallFanfic

[hi-there-buddies]

Broke: Broly has ptsd from Goku’s crying

Woke: Broly has severe ptsd from getting fucking stabbed in the heart as a baby, having his planet blown up, and surviving in the wild with his father for his entire life having all his emotions and powers involuntarily suppressed. Goku’s name is a trigger for him because Broly equates it with the crying memory he has from his childhood, one of the only things he can truly remember that he hasn’t suppressed. This memory then sparks a chain of all the other horrible memories from Broly’s childhood. This instant release of suppressed emotions, memories, and power then culminates into a deadly force he can’t control

[kidfur]

im being autistic about dragon ball z again but im very hesitant to go looking around in tags because im very particular about how i like seeing dbz characters drawn and also He Would Not Fucking Say That everywhere, for goku

[windrunner]

head in my hands. i am 23 i should not be like this i need to be hit in the head with a shovel

[galexibrain]

I think it's often overlooked how fucking traumatic that entire thing must be for Goku. Not only is his opponent - who he was just barely keeping up with as is - turning into a giant ape, but he's also just learning that Goku himself was the one who killed his grandfather:

And like. Wow. What a day. First he comes back from the dead to find everyone but Krilling and Gohan dead, then he seriously struggles to keep up with Vegeta, and NOW he gets to learn that the monster his grandfather used to warn him about was HIM.

Sucks.

[amiya-shirou]

Since I'm seeing some damn good posts about Vegeta today, I want to jump on the bandwagon and gush about this scene

Because it's so damn relatable. It's the best part of his character development. I've seen people in the past criticize him because they felt he got back to being evil out of nowhere when he was so far in his character development after the end of the Cell Arc and the last 7 years of peace, but this is exactly why it works. Had this happened before that development I wouldn't have thought much of his descent into darkness, but like this? Vegeta getting to his lowest point not because of some traumatic event or because he "had" to settle on Earth, but because he was liking it? It's such an active interaction with his own growth that I never truly understood how powerful it was until some time ago when I rewatched the series after having gone through somewhat similar thoughts myself.

This is the last stage of his development, the bridge connecting the evil warrior prince to the good-hearted family man, and it's not a smooth, quiet progression. It's Vegeta throwing a tantrum. He's terrified of his growth, of becoming someone so different from what he believed himself to be for his whole life as to be completely unrecognizable, and is clinging to the vestiges of his former identity as hard as he can because change makes him feel weak and vulnerable. All this despite the fact that deep down he knows it's useless to do so - he can never go back to how he was before. Despite everything he did, as soon as he realizes that Buu is a concrete danger to his family, he swallows his pride, puts an end to his "real warrior" fight with a trick, hugs his son and fights Buu alone, stepping up as a true defender of the Earth for the first time.

And it's only after this, after venting all his frustrations, after literally dying and being reborn, that he can truly embrace his new role, the person he's grown up into during the last seven years. The Vegeta who returns at the end of the arc is so much stronger than he's ever been, so much more mature that not only is he fine with letting Goku upstage him, he's the one who has the idea to let the Earthlings step up to protect their planet. Everytime he faced a villain by himself, relying only on his strength and warrior pride, he either failed or made the problem worse. When he faces a villain with proper planning and teamwork, he causes the death of the strongest villain in the series, with the Spirit Bomb working for the first time in the whole manga (ironically it never amounted to much when it was Goku choosing to use it).

Toriyama cooked so much with him.

[fanfic-lover-girl]

Goku may have failed Gohan in some ways as a father, but Piccolo was never and will never be Gohan's Daddy

So when I was younger, I enjoyed a handful of fics centred on Piccolo and Gohan's relationship. I love how much Piccolo came to care for Gohan and it was nice to see Dad!Piccolo every now and then...but Dad!Piccolo can't ever measure up to fics where Goku is a great dad. I understand why some people may believe Piccolo is Gohan's true dad but I don't agree, especially now as an adult woman with my father now dead.

Disclaimer: I am basing this off my experience watching Dragonball, DBZ, DBGT and most of the DBZ/GT movies. I have not watched DBS nor will I ever. That series can screw itself.

Piccolo's responsibility in destroying Gohan's childhood

Piccolo is the one who thrust Gohan into the world of fighting and world-ending battles. He kidnapped Gohan and left Gohan to fend for himself for months. I will argue that Piccolo started Gohan's warrior path on a traumatic note and that's partly why Gohan does not gravitate towards fighting as he grows older. Yes, Piccolo changed but the damage can not be undone.

Difference in species

This may look superficial at first glance but it is significant as you look into it. Namekians are radically different from humans/saiyans physically, emotionally and sexually. That means that Piccolo can not advise Gohan on various aspects of his life as he grows older, especially during puberty. Piccolo can't teach him to shave. Piccolo can't give him the sex talk and talk to him about girls. Piccolo can't help Gohan with his friendships. Piccolo can't relate to whatever saiyan or human urge Gohan may experience. A father is supposed to model a good man for his kids and teach his son to be one. Piccolo can't offer that to Gohan, unfortunately.

Emotional distance

I see Gohan as a very emotional and affectionate person. You see this when he interacts with Goku, Goten and Videl. Piccolo is more reserved and closed off. Usually when Piccolo and Gohan interact, there's always some kind of distance between them. However, there are a few times when Piccolo will rest his hand on Gohan's head or shoulder when he feels extremely proud like after the Cell games. However, I don't think this would have been enough from a father figure for Gohan. When Gohan is crying after Goku's sacrifice, it's Krillin who steps up and comforts Gohan. When the Z fighters go to the lookout after Gohan's victory, it's Yamcha who carries Gohan. This does not mean Piccolo does not care for Gohan! I am just saying that Gohan likes physical forms of affection too, but that's not Piccolo's love language.

Fighting is all they have in common

We don't see Piccolo and Gohan have any extensive scenes together outside the context of battles and fighting. What exactly do they do together for fun? What do they talk about? In the movies, we see kid Gohan being silly around Piccolo and Piccolo tolerating him, but that hardly counts. I get the vibe from the series that Gohan's visits to Piccolo are brief and they don't have much small talk. With Goku, we see Gohan and him enjoy pastimes together like fishing, bathing and eating. In the lead-up to the Cell games, we see them reminisce about Gohan's childhood and have fun as a family at Gohan's birthday party. Why wasn't Piccolo there?

Piccolo is not involved wholistically in Gohan's life

Piccolo only really exists and functions in the fighting realm of Gohan's life. This is why their relationship does not feel as close as Gohan grows older and starts his career and family. Piccolo hardly expresses any interest in the other facets of Gohan's life. I don't even recall Piccolo interacting at all with Pan or Videl at the end of Z or GT. He is not close with Chi Chi and Goten, Gohan's family. I think Piccolo is closer to the Son family in Super but I don't care. Compare this with Goku who encourages Gohan to study, teases him about Videl and spends time with Pan.

Conclusion: Goku is Gohan's daddy and Piccolo can't fill that gap.

This does not take away the fact that Piccolo protected Gohan and loved him in his own way. Sacrificing himself for Gohan multiple times. Piccolo was the one who understood Gohan's mindset during the Cell games (probably because he was the one who beat baby Gohan into a fighter and saw his timidness up close vs. Goku who came back to life and only saw hero Gohan being badass all the time) and was the first Z fighter to step in during Gohan's fight against Cell. But Piccolo is better labelled as a friend or mentor to Gohan. Maybe uncle or big brother. Goku is Gohan's father, Gohan sees Goku as his daddy, and Piccolo will never fill that role for Gohan.

[pitchouna]

Hello!! I just loved your work!! So may I ask for a scenario where something happens to the reader and Goku becomes overproctective??

Love ya and take care❤️❤️

Overprotective Goku x reader!!

HELLOOO!! I totally did not expect a request that fast damn but hey ig Goku fans are as down bad as much as I am 😔😔 you did not say what genre is the reader so I've done a general!!

Warnings : CONTAINS MATURE CONTENT / Reader is traumatized / Angst / Comfort / mentions of SA Words : 2154

Goku is far from overprotective.

He knows you're strong and trusts you! Plus he's too dumb to understand.

But sometimes, he'll definitely feel it if you are uncomfortable.

And you definitely don't wan't to be the person he'll take care of.

Definitely not.

Today you and Goku planned to hang around the City to change a little. Everything was perfect!! He picked you up at your house and took you on a ride with the Nimbus cloud!! You both enjoyed the ride a lot and the atmosphere was very peaceful. Just how you love it.

You guys went shopping, (you forced him of course, but he actually enjoyed it!!) and even bought him some casual clothes because let's be honest right there he looks damn fine in casual clothes. You did not told him of course...

After you two were satisfied with your shopping, you decided to sit on a bench wondering what you guys will do next.

"So what you wanna do now?" Your relaxed voice startled Goku who seemed lost. Of course you noticed it. Because you're a smart-ass ofc ofc. "Goku you fine?" you asked in a confused tone. He looked alright all this time! Was he faking?? Those insecure thoughts you wanted to forget came back. "Hm? Oh yeah I'm alright! I'm just wondering what we should do next!!" Goku said in his usual happy tone making your worries vanish. He was actually thinking how great you looked in those clothes you bought today and looked further in seeing you in these more. As you both we're thinking what to do next you spotted an Ice cream truck catching your attention. It wasn't that close but it was still on your eyesight. "Oh! There's an ice truck over there!" This has immediately picked Goku's attention as sparkles appeared in his eyes. "Woohhh! Let's check that out Y/n!!" Goku said excited as both of you walk towards the Ice-cream truck and taking your hand in the process making you yelp in surprise and blush a little. But his enthusiasm just made you happier "Alright!! I hope it's not that expensive though and it better be worth it.." You said chuckling "Heheee... It'll be fine I guess~" Goku hummed.

As you both finished taking your orders you've ordered a Strawberry Banana Ice cream, and Goku have taken a Watermelon Grape mix. "What kind of mix is that?.." You said in a disgusted tone questioning the weird Saiyan's choices. "Don't know.... It sounded great!!.." Goku whined sounding disappointed. You hum in happiness as you're very proud of the mix of flavors you've choosen. "Hmmhh!! It's so good!! You should try Strawberry Banana next time!! How does yours taste?" You've asked the Saiyan as he takes a bite of his Ice-cream. "Uhmm.... It's okay... I guess... But Watermelon doesn't taste very well.." Goku said as the disappointment was obvious on his face. "Well it's not like I've warned you-Oh-Hey!!! Give it back!!" Goku has taken your ice cream and took the biggest bite ever leaving you with barely nothing left. "Hmmhh! You're right it tastes amazing!! I'll definitely listen to you next time!!" Goku says with a big smile on his face as you dramatically cry for your ice cream. "How could you.... How could you do this to me..." You dramatically cry as Goku's making fun of you "Heheee... You can take my Ice-cream instead!! It's better than nothing-Ouchh...!! That hurts!!" Goku whined his head hurting making you laugh like an antagonist. "Hahaa!! Deserved!! That's for stealing my Ice-cream you big monkey!!" Goku dramatically acts offended, joining in your little game "Heyyy!! That's not really nice of you you big!.... Big...... Uh.... I don't have any ideas... Ouch!!.." Goku still holds his forehead as the brain freeze just seems to get worse making you laugh. "I guess using your head will just hurt more.. Meh now you know you don't have to steal my food anymore." You said patting his head even if he's taller than you. "Yes yes..." He cried disappointed, as if he wanted to do that again. "Well what do you want to do know?" You've asked Goku before you heard sirens and people screaming immediately catching your attention. Your head turns at the direction the screams and you see a car driving extremely fast as the police chase them. "Damn what kind of people drive this fast?.." Goku asked "Suicidal people I guess." You've replied sarcastically not noticing the doors of the cars opening as it makes it's way behind you. You then fell a hand on your waist and on your mouth pulling you inside. Time went slow for Goku as his eyes widened processing what was happening. But before he could react the car was already far away. "Y/n!!" he has screamed so loud that you heard it, before your vision faded away. He quickly summoned the Nimbus cloud to follow the car.

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You woke up tied up in a chair with a tissue covering your mouth. Your first decision was to look around knowing that struggling was pointless and it would just waste your energy. You seemed to be in a garage that you do not recognize. There are graffiti all around the place and some used dirty furniture. You heard a door opening immediately putting you on guard. What seemed like Gang members went inside, they were 17 they had weapons and seemed easy to fight one by one. But if they were all attacking you you won't stand a chance. Which made you forget the idea of beating them up. But before, you had to find a way of untying yourself. "Oh so that's the chick you've taken? She's smoking hot! We'll have a lot of fine with her.." One of the guys spoke. The way he talkedade your face twist in disgust predicting what's going to happen next. You're mentally preparing yourself to face it. Because you know you won't be able to escape it easily." Wait a second I want to hear her voice.." Another guy spoke. He seemed stronger than the others. So you assumed he was the leader. He removed the tissue covering your mouth and spoke.

"Hello there~ How come we've never seen you around pretty one?.." The leader said in a flirting tone that disgusted you. "Get away from me you pig!!" You replied screaming wanting to let them know that you don't want to do anything with them. The leader only smirked as the other men started to approach you. "And what if I don't?~" He said grabbing your chin and caressing your hair. Leaving you surprised and waiting for the worst. You decided to stay quiet. Knowing screaming will only make thins harder and more painful as tears starts to appear in your eyes. "Awhhh! What a cuite She's already crying !" You've heard a couple men saying in union. "awh... If you cry now how will you act when we'll break you?~" Your eyes widened not wanting that to happen. "N-no... You don't mean..." You say with a shaky voice making the men smile even more. "Hehe.. C'mon guys, let's start the party..." And the last things you've heard was horrible laughs.

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It was horrible. Ohh soo horrible. You were traumatized. To say the least. You didn't even had the energy left to cry. You were undressed only left with your bra and your panties. You wanted to forget everything. You wanted to wake up. You refused to believe it was real. You felt dirty. You still had the sensation of their hands touching everything on your body. You'll always remember how their lips felt on your body... On your face.... On your lips. The sounds of laughter of the men echoed in your ears. It was unbelievable. You'll never forget this day. You wanted to sleep and never wake up again. You closed your eyes. Hoping that the next time you'll open them you'll be in your bed, then spend the day with Goku and everyone else like the usual.

Instead what you've heard is an explosion. You slowly opened your eyes, puffed due to the many tears you've cried. But the door was behind you. So you couldn't not see what was happening. And you were too traumatized to move right now. You could just hear muffled voices and screams.

"I'm really mad right now. I'm going to kill you all." You heard a familiar voice say. But you didn't care. "Someone please help !!" You didn't care. You've heard many many pained screams. But you didn't care. You've heard many many sounds of bone breaking and liquids spilling. But you didn't care. You smelled a strong scent of blood. But you didn't care. It last for a very very long time. But then it stopped. You didn't care. You heard footsteps coming towards you. But you didn't care. You felt someone lifting your body but you didn't care. You then fell unconscious. And you didn't care.

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It was unbelievable. Goku was full of blood, holding you on his arms still shocked about what happened. Oh when he saw you undressed on the floor oh how mad he became. Even after taking care of theses rotten garbages do this to you ?? Oh he was so mad. Putting them on their place killing them was not enough. He contacted Bulma that has reunited the dragon balls for a project, and asked if he could have a wish. Bulma accepted. Goku went on her balcony with the Dragon Balls reunited and said, "Show yourself Shenron! And grant my wishes!" the impressive dragon got out of the Dragon balls as the sky darkened. "Express your wishes human." The Dragon said with his deep voice. Goku looked at your unconscious face before granting his wish. "I want Y/n to forget everything that has happened today!! Including everything her body felt!!" Goku exclaimed. "Nothing's easier." Shenron shined and immediately your expression looked more peaceful. Goku felt a wave of relief. As if the weight on his shoulders has been lifted. He sighed happy that you'll remember nothing about this. "You have 2 wishes left. What else do you want?" Goku looked at Shenron who forgot that he was there. "Bulmaaaa!! Come do you wishes I'm done here!!" Goku said hoping on the Nimbus cloud with you in his arms. Bulma ran to the balcony screaming "Goku!! Tell me what happened to Chiya!! And why is she undressed!??" as her tone holds very noticeable worry for her best friend. "It's best to not know!!!" Goku yelled already in the sky. Yet Bulma heard it. She sighed irritated, but if Goku told so maybe it was better to not speak about it.

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You woke up on your couch as the first thing you see was the TV showing a random anime about martial arts. You've noticed a bowl of snacks and pop corn. You realized you were on Goku's lap. You've gave him a confused glare while he was just smiling. "W-what happened? I don't remember anything..." You've switched for a sitting pose but since you were still tired you decided to put your head on Goku's shoulder. "Don't remember? We were shopping but then you felt tired so we've come back to your place. And I waited until you woke up." Goku said with a soft voice that replaced his usual energetic one. Maybe he felt tired too?? "Oh well... I still don't remember anything.. What time is it anyway?" You yawned as Goku looked at the clock. "It's 6:26 PM.. Why?" Goku asked tilting his head. "Wanna go to restaurant? They serve tasty rice!" You' said with a big smile seeing how Goku's eyes sparkled at the mention of rice. "Yess!! Let's go now!!" Goku took your hand and ran towards the exit of your home. You two were already dressed so you didn't mind.

At the restaurant you both ordered a lot of bowls of rice and ramen. Because you two were very hungry. For Goku it was like always. But you've rarely eaten this much, which was one of the many things you noticed was weird this evening. Why did you ate more? Why was Goku calmer? Why did he put a hand on your shoulder or on your waist protectively all the time as if something might happen? Why did he glare at every men near you? "Wahhhhhh!! This was so good!!" Goku exclaimed patting his stomach as you looked at the bowls. He had taken 15 bowls while it's usually 20. It added something on the list of what was weird thus evening. "What do you want to do now?" You asked him expecting him to say that he'll do his usual training of the night. But he replied with something else. "Hmmm what about we watch series and play games?" Goku said leaving you shocked. Okay. What was wrong this evening??! And why did you felt that Goku saved you from something you'd never forget?... You just decided to brush it off and enjoy the evening with him.

(Honorable mention of him hugging you while you were sleeping <33)

WOOOHHHH TTHAT TOOK SO LONG TO FINISH WTH?? But I again had so much fun writing this!!! I totally did not expect to write again so soon but the request seemed so fun I just couldn't ignore it and I definitely did not expected to get one so soon!! But I hope you guys enjoyed!! I'll probably make a request rule soon because there are some things I won't be uncomfortable writing.. Anyways Take care!! <33

[shannonsketches]

lays on the floor i am once again thinking about the goku geets foil in terms of their experience and perspective and parenting

tl;dr: Goku sees letting his child do serious battle as a gift, and Vegeta sees it as a failure.

a lot of the 'goku's a bad father' discourse comes from how he trains/puts Gohan into fights and either doesn't know or doesn't realize that Gohan wants to be a scholar and not a warrior; the reason Gohan keeps joining the fray is because he doesn't want to see people he loves get hurt, right, because that's been his entire experience since Raditz showed up (and remains so until Cell dies).

The discourse re: The Cell Games is interesting though, examining the 'how could Goku not know/how could Goku volunteer his child so blithely' etc and his similar attitude toward the kids fighting in Super('s manga), and it's part of why I say/write/read Goku as deeply inconsiderate but never malicious (and this does tie into the foil with Geets lemme just); Goku's experience with serious combat is fun, and exciting.

Goku volunteering Gohan to fight Cell was something Goku considered a gift to Gohan, to be able to flex his power and go all out on an enemy that could handle it/required it -- that's something Goku wishes he had the power to do, especially at Gohan's age! That's super exciting to Goku. It's not pageant mom forcing her kid to do what she wanted energy, it's Goku being sweet and pure and sharing something he thinks he has in common with his kid. Vegeta says Saiyans live to fight! Goku's entire life has been spent bonding with competitive martial artists! It never occurred to him that someone so naturally powerful and talented wouldn't enjoy fighting.

And Goku does not read subtext, that's not a skill he has, so by the time Piccolo spells it out for him, he's genuinely sorry to have put Gohan in that position.

But in Super('s manga), the larger picture of Don't Put Children in Traumatic Situations still doesn't really occur to Goku, because he doesn't consider battle traumatic, no matter how emotionally intense it gets. Goku doesn't hold onto things. Goku lives and lets live, as long as he doesn't have to kill you. That's his super power. It's why he can be friends with all of these people who have done him and his loved ones and his planet so much harm. He consistently ends earth-shattering battles with, 'that was fun, let's do it again sometime'

Vegeta, on the other hand (see I told you I'd get here, I promised), has had the complete opposite experience. Vegeta considers others heavily, it's what made him very good at being malicious. Vegeta does this for survival. Vegeta's climb to the top is for the vantage point, not the view. He's not looking to the stars dreaming about what else it out there. He's squinting at the dark trying to kill whatever it is before it kills him and his home and his family. again.

Vegeta is a child soldier, who has distinct recollection of his culture being built on the rearing of child soldiers. By the times the cell games come around he is experiencing having a child for the first time, and after seeing (a future version of) that child die in battle, he seems to take on a much different opinion on letting kids fight.

Vegeta comes from a culture in which you send your child off-world to conquer a planet, alone, once they're old enough to walk. The stronger kids go into war zones. Vegeta was giving strategic orders to fellow elites by the time he was five. He was treating Gohan like a soldier when he was five.

But, by the Buu saga, Bulma tells Gohan that Vegeta says Trunks is old enough now to start proper training -- when Trunks is eight years old. Even then, Vegeta's telling Trunks not to push himself too hard in the gravity room, to stop and leave when it's too much for him to handle. Vegeta kills himself trying to prevent Trunks and Goten having to fight Buu. He jumps in to protect the kids when the fight gets too intense in Yo! Son Goku and Friends Return. He begs the kids not to fight Beerus in Battle of the Gods when he's barely conscious. He snaps at Goku any time he suggests them for intense battle in Super('s manga).

Vegeta sees it as not being strong enough to handle a problem, Which totally definitely doesn't have anything to do with some kind of deep-rooted trauma about placing the responsibility of making up for your weakness on your children that Vegeta's had to deal with since becoming a father and he for sure doesn't take it personally when a parent volunteers children to solve problems they had nothing to do with. He's fine! It's fine.

He does not want Trunks or Goten anywhere near a real battlefield (Bulma and/or the other adults seem to be helping to enforce this; in Res F, Trunks and Goten are not invited to go to the Freeza fight, and in the Moro arc both of them were asked to go be rangers in 17's absence again, complaining that nobody told them there was a fight happening at all), because it's got nothing to do with them. They shouldn't have to fight for their -- or anyone else's -- lives. That's the adults' job. That's his job.

Because to Vegeta, it is a job. Soldier, guardian, prince, lord, whatever. It's a role he has to fulfill, and his pride (and a whole lot of trauma-informed necessity) drives him to be the best at it, period, the end. It's an obligation that he must fulfill, because he's decided he's personally responsible for [gestures to the earth] all of this and its survival. It's where he keeps all his stuff!

For Goku, it's a game. He just wants to fight the strongest guys, and it's his understanding that everyone else wants that too. If he's not the best, GREAT! That's more to look forward to. A whole new rabbit to chase to who knows where. It's adventure! It's exciting! So of course the kids would want to get in on it! He LOVED doing this kind of stuff when he was a kid.

Goku has two hands! ...for former villains Vegeta and Piccolo to try to wrestle away from all the other, much worse villains who do not want to play with him.

[megamattzx]

FINALLY! Chapter 4 of A Light in the Darkest of Tunnels is out.

"I'm so damn tired.... Of everything..... Even myself..... Goku… It hurts……”

Chapter 4: https://archiveofourown.org/works/45322336/chapters/132569278…

Read from the start: https://archiveofourown.org/works/45322336/chapters/114026995… #Goku #ChiChi #GoChi #DragonBall #fanfiction

[yeowangies]

Humane

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PAIRING: Goku/AFAB!Reader RATING: Explicit CONTENTS: Explicit Sexual Content, Body Worship. WARNINGS: Blood and gore, Vampires. WORDCOUNT: 2312

Summary:

Goku could not have helped himself even if he wanted to. He saw you there, on the verge of death, and the urge to help you had won before he even knew it. 

Notes:

For kinktober! This is heavely based on the movie Thirst dir. Park Chan Wook. Basically Goku is a vampire, and he turns you into a vampire as well. But watch out.

CW: Blood and gore.

Day 28: Body Worship.

Goku could not have helped himself even if he wanted to. He saw you there, on the verge of death, and the urge to help you had won before he even knew it. 

He had always been like that since before he turned into a vampire. 

A long time ago, Goku could barely even remember, but the need to save people before his eyes had always been there. He was the odd one out, at least out of all the vampires he knew, and he knew plenty. Apparently they weren’t known for saving people in need, just looking out for their own interests and quenching their own thirst. But he had learned years ago not to drink human blood, and he had been doing fine like that. 

Getting close to you had made it difficult though, but he had managed.

When you moved to the countryside, Goku had helped you settle in a small yet cozy cabin, not very far away from his own place. You had run away from a violent, traumatic event; you didn’t talk much about it, but he could tell. You flinched unexpectedly when he approached you, and the first few days after you moved, you had bruises on your arms. He never asked, and you never said. 

You still had your personality, self assured, feisty. He had to wonder how anyone ever messed with you. It was only a matter of time until he realized his attraction for you was growing strong and steady. 

It still took him off guard when you kissed him first. Goku was about to leave your cabin one night to go back to his own house when you grabbed his shirt and tugged at it, getting on your tiptoes to press your lips to his in a sweet kiss. It had been a long time since he felt warm skin so close to his, and you had smelled so good; it took everything in him not to bite into your bottom lip, especially after you had wrapped your arms around his neck to deepen the kiss. 

“Do you not like me?” You asked, both angry and upset, one night at your place after too many of only exchanging kisses. Too many kisses. 

Goku knew what you meant. He had smelled your arousal many times, especially when you started pulling him closer and closer. 

He didn’t know if he could control himself enough to not bite you. 

“I do, I do!” Goku exclaimed, exasperated. He chose honesty after a few minutes in which you stared at him with ire in your eyes, which only made him want you more. “I don’t know if I can control myself…”

Honesty up to a point. 

You arched an eyebrow and he sighed, scratching the back of his neck before speaking again. 

“I don’t wanna hurt you, I don’t wanna ruin what we have…”

“This is my choice.” You replied, taking his face into your hands with the same confidence you had since the day he met you. “I want you. Do you want me?”

Goku lunged forward and kissed you earnestly, wrapping his arms around your waist tightly as you clung to him, threading your fingers into his messy hair. 

“Yeah, I want you…” He replied breathlessly against your lips. 

It had taken Goku a second to take you to your bed, and all his willpower not to accidentally crush you when you both stumbled on it. You laughed, not even a yelp about his weight on top of you, but he knew he had to slow down. 

If you both felt the same way, you had plenty of time to indulge in carnal desires. 

Goku pulled away, taking off his shirt, smiling down as you eyed him with obvious hunger. He moved carefully to take off your shirt, and you let him, grinning contently as he slowly pulled it up and off before he moved his hands down your sides to get rid of your pants. He carefully slid them down your legs, taking off your shoes before completely pulling down your pants, discarding it on the floor. 

You looked at him with cheery curiosity, especially when he kneeled on the floor between your legs. He had grown fond of you in such a short time, he couldn’t help the heat pooling inside him, like he was alive for the first time in years, decades. 

“You’re so beautiful.” Goku purred and your grin got wider, pride swelling in his chest. 

Taking one of your feet in his hands, he gently massaged the sole before moving upwards, caressing your calves. He immediately noticed the rise in your temperature; you were embarrassed. He guessed you had probably never been taken care of like this, and if he dwelled too much on that, anger would emerge. You deserved to be adored.

Goku carefully paid attention to your other foot, and the more he stroked your skin, the quicker your breathing got. He eyed you briefly a few times, noticing how nervous you were, listening to how rapidly your heart was beating. How strong the smell of your arousal was. It was inevitable that he knew all that, the smell of your blood rushing through your veins filled his nostrils, and he was glad he had at least drank the blood of a wild animal earlier that day or he wouldn’t have been able to fight the urge to sink his teeth into your flesh. 

Pressing a kiss to the bridge of your foot, he hoisted your leg on his shoulder as he slid his hands up your legs towards your hips, squeezing you affectionately. 

“You don’t have to do any of that…” You murmured, gasping when Goku planted more kisses on your legs. 

“I wanna do this.” He replied, mischief gleaming in his eyes as he scooted closer. 

Goku grinned, knowing your complaint was half heartedly when you moved your hips to help him slide down your panties. He took his time, kissing and nibbling the inside of your thighs, earning all kinds of sounds from you before he buried his face in between your legs. 

He couldn’t help himself; your smell was sweet and it called for him. His tongue plunged between your folds at once, and a sharp yell escaped you when met your clit. His hands caressed your sides before settling on your chest, pushing up your bra and fondling your breasts as he kept his mouth busy, kissing and lapping at your clit. All the moans you made only incited him more, and he couldn’t help his own groans either when you buried your fingers in his hair, massaging his scalp. 

Goku was drunk on your sweetness when you came, his tongue overwhelmed by the taste of your release. If he were to touch himself then, he would have come in his pants. Growling against your sensitive skin, he licked at your entrance, savoring your orgasm until he heard a small whimper from you as you tugged at his hair. 

Pressing kisses to your stomach, all the way up to your chest, he looked at your expression, hazy and lustful, as he pulled off your bra. He knew he had done a good job, and he made you laugh when he wiggled his eyebrows before wrapping his lips around your nipple, sucking softly. 

His lips didn’t leave a spot of your skin untouched, even kissing all the way up your arm and to the tip of each of your fingers. His cock was close to bursting, and when you finally tugged at his pants, Goku knew it was time. As he crawled up to you, you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him down for an urgent kiss as he pressed his dick to your entrance, pushing in steadily, making you both gasp. 

“Fuck, you’re so hot…” He purred against your lips, making you smile. 

It only took you a second to get used to his size, or at least it was what it took you to urge him to move. And Goku wouldn’t even say no. He started slow, steadily meeting your hips as his cock slid deliciously in and out. 

Until none of you could take it anymore, and he hooked your legs on his shoulders before ramming into you like an animal in heat. He might as well be; your scent, the sounds pouring from your lips, and even the sound of your blood running through your veins drove him crazy. Like a downright spiral, his brain went blank from pleasure, and his primal needs were flourishing, his hips slamming into you with a force that made the bed creak and the headboard smack against the wall.

When you shuddered underneath him, your orgasm washing over you, it took every little self control Goku had left not to bite your neck. He came promptly, his cum spilling inside you as he groaned loudly, holding onto you as he was scared you might disappear, wrapping his arm around your neck and biting into his own flesh as his cock throbbed.

His urges were rattling the cage, but he could put them aside. For now. 

“Why did you do that?” You asked moments later, once you noticed he was bleeding. 

“I, uh…” Goku didn’t even know how to explain. He was into biting himself during sex? That sounded stupid as hell, even for him. You only stared at him curiously the longer his silence dragged on until he finally blurted out. “I’m just into that… ?”

He didn’t really know if you believed him, but you didn’t press further, only smiling at him before kissing his lips. 

All the memories of the nights he had spent with you after that flooded his brain, making him see double as you laid there, in the middle of the living room of your tiny home, covered in blood.

Blood that he had once desired to taste, but he now desperately wished he could put back into your veins. 

It was a gun wound, he recognized the hole in your upper chest and the smell of powder in the air. By the state the place was into, someone must have broken into.

None of that mattered. None of it mattered if you were on the brink of death. You were still alive, he could hear your heart, beating faintly, turning off slowly. 

With a shattered glass, Goku cut his own wrist, kneeling by your side and spilling his blood on your mouth before he grabbed your wrist, biting into it to feast on you. His pupils dilated as soon as he got to taste you, and the longer he spent with his lips on your skin, the more he was tempted to simply have you all for himself. 

It took all his will power to pull away, blood dripping from his mouth and the bite mark on your wrist as he stared at your face, waiting for you to wake up. 

“Come on!” Goku growled, exasperated, patting your cheek repeatedly. 

You had drunk his blood, and he had tasted yours. That had to be enough, so he waited and waited, pressing his lips to yours and sampling his own blood in the process, willing you to come back.

Hopeless and on the verge of tears, Goku held you tightly when you suddenly wrapped your arms around his neck, kissing him back. Hungrily. The gleam in your eyes when he pulled back was exhilarating; you were a creature reborn and he couldn’t have been happier, smiling as he kissed you again and again. 

The giddiness that he’d get to spend eternity with you lasted for days, especially after you reassured him that being a vampire wasn’t so bad. 

Until the day he walked into your house and saw the gory mess that was on it. 

“Hey!” You greeted him with a smile, mouth covered in blood all the way down to your dress. “I found the man who tried to kill me.”

Goku looked at you with a frown. He should have expected that, there was no reason why you wouldn’t want to get revenge. As much as he didn’t really get it (reprisal simply wasn’t in his nature), he was going to let it go. 

But you kept bringing people home to feast on them. At least you weren’t particularly cruel, usually knocking them out with your newfound supernatural strength before sinking your teeth into their neck, sucking them dry in a matter of minutes. 

“What you’re doing isn’t right.” Goku crossed his arms as he watched you clean yourself up after one of your ‘meals’.

“What are you talking about?”

“You’ve killed a lot of people in just a few days.”

“So?”

“You gotta control yourself!” Goku hollered, but you didn’t even flinch. 

“I need to eat. And so do you, by the way.” You arched an eyebrow as you faced him. 

“I eat!”

“Random animals from the forest! That’s not food!”

“Eating humans isn’t right!”

“Stop acting so humane! You’re not even human!” You growled, muscles in your jaw and neck tensing. 

Goku felt a sharp pain in his chest. 

He was a monster, he knew it and he lived with it. It was in his nature to not hurt anybody, and to help others if he could. But he had turned you into a monster far worse than he could have imagined. You were merciless, cruel and unapologetic about your desires. The confidence he had once loved so much had morphed into an entity that knew no end, consuming everything as it grew. 

It would only be a matter of time until other vampires knew of you. It was an unspoken rule that their existence must remain hidden, but the way you kept slaughtering people would soon attract attention. The outcome was obvious, as much as it pained him. 

Goku had to kill you. 

[falling-heights]

I am honestly surprised by how much scarier Yandere Goku is than Yandere Vegeta. Like Yandere Vegeta has no chill but this version of him if basically what Vegeta would be like as a borderline sociopath. Yandere Goku's delusions and the fact that he'd never let you leave is quite a shock.

You nailed it on the head here.

In order for vegeta to become yandere not much from his personality would change as his morality and beliefs were always questionable.

Goku, however, would need to change a lot. Personally, the only way I think he could ever take that plunge is by a traumatic event i.e. his s.o. getting injured or even dying. You'd have to present a situation that would strip his good nature, and push him to make hard decisions.

There's a request somewhere deep down in my drafts that asked how each saiyan form would differ from each other as a yandere. It's a really interesting thought.

[esha-isboogara]

what your favorite jojo character says about you !

these are my takes on what kind of person you are based on your fave ;)

jonathan- you’re way too good for this world and i will protect you with my life!! you always choose the “nice” option when you’re playing an rpg/otome. i bet you cry during movies. you’re a dog person but you’re not annoying about it.

speedwagon- you’re either the kind of person that has a waifu unironicly or you’re too afraid to disagree with other peoples opinions. you were for sure bullied in school for liking anime and never really recovered .

joseph- you think you’re the funniest person in the room but in reality have the sense of humor of a middle school boy and everyone thinks you’re annoying. you have no idea how to act in public

ceaser- you most definitely get bitches.

jotaro- you’re either too horny for your own good or youre the kind of person who automatically chooses the most basic mc because it’s the safest. you probably never outgrew your emo phase and i guarantee you read lots of hardcore smut in middle school.

kakyoin- you use the word milfs way too much. it’s actually kind of annoying. please shut up. on the other hand you know how to dress!! for some reason every single kak stan knows their way around fashion. your probably an avid markiplier enjoyer.

avdol- you had a crush on zuko in middle school and i bet you carry a lighter everywhere. you don’t smoke or anything you just carry it to carry it. you’re like super mature for some reason and you are the brains of the friend group most likely.

polnareff- you’re a bit dense but we love you anyways. you have zero clue how to express your emotions. please stop letting people trauma dump on you :( you don’t deserve it babe

iggy- shut THE FUCK up

josuke- you are the coolest person on earth. you have no flaws. you are a god.

okuyasu- you’re the dumb friend. i’m sorry to tell you like this but someone had to. you make up for your lack of brain cells with your big heart <3 i bet you know lots of random facts about uselessness things as well.

rohan- you’re the biggest bitch i have ever met/pos. you definitely had a devianart phase that you only outgrew because you got bullied or met some scary ass people on there. you’re kind of a weirdo but that’s what gives you your spice.

koichi- you act innocent and kind but you’re a bitch too/ also pos. i bet your AO3 history is full of insane amount of hard smut or hurt/bo comfort.

giorno-you’re either a dope ass person who’s actually super genuine and everyone wants to be your friend. OR you’re a super annoying anime fan who says shit like “but can he beat goku though”.

mista- you’re a stoner. i have not met a single fan of this man who does not smoke. you either smoke before every little thing you do and mention it to every single person on this planet. or you’re down low about it and just kind of go about your life.

narancia- you are still a child. you didn’t really mature correctly and i bet it’s because of some traumatic event that happened during childhood that forced you to grow up. please go to therapy i will be your therapist. also liking sharp things and setting things on fire is not a personality trait.

fugo- you’re a red flag but in a good way(?)you always try to see the best in people even when it’s clear they are the worst person on earth. you definitely have anger issues because you suppress your feelings until they explode out of you. you give really good hugs i think.

abbacchio- you either want a big titty goth gf or are the big titty goth gf. you never left your emo phase and you definitely had a behavior problem in high school. please stop dying your hair every month it’s going to fall out soon.

bruno- you’re most DEFINITELY the mom of the friend group. everyone comes to you with their issues but you’re too afraid to put your issues on someone else because you don’t want to burden them with your feelings.

jolyne- you are most DEFINITELY lgbqt emphasis on the L. you most definitely have issues with one or both of your parents.

hermes- COME OUT OF THE CLOSER PLS!!! we all already know you like girls just admit it we are going to love and accept you no matter what.

foo fighters-autism

[noodle-anime]

just! finished saiyuki og series!!! discovered the first resurrected edition volume recently and it has been. well. it's been a journey lol

oooooooooh boy there sure was some Anatomy and Proportions happening in the first volume but it was super fun to see the art style progress actually. it encouraged me to notice more complex poses and things in the later volumes, and when there was an occasional repeat panel like Sanzo and Goku's first look it was very cool to see the difference in quality.

i have a coupla favorite panels/spreads and generally tried to pay a little more attention to how things are precisely laid out and it was a fun aspect of reading. i want to do some actual breakdowns now, maybe compare early and later layouts.

also! i discovered and watched zeroin! my first intro to saiyuki was discovering reload blast forever ago. the art style in zeroin and the fact that there's a whole set of characters i'd never heard of before made it feel like an au or semi-canonical anime movie, sorta, but i enjoyed it So much and there are some specific notes on sanzo characterization that i want to dig into

sanzo is my fave and the kami-sama arc was So Very Good in that respect but it also grew my love for gojyo three sizes.

the way that they all react when gojyo leaves cracks me up so much. they're So Offended. something so funny and also so tasty that they will not under any circumstances admit out loud that they care about gojyo and miss him so instead they're like we are going to Hurt Him (because he hurt us) for Disrupting Our Daily Routine (he's a fundamental part of our lives) and FORCING us to turn this car around (he left with the full knowledge and expectation that they would follow through with actually continuing to pursue this Very Important job like they always said they would)

mmmmm gojyo's savior complex mmmm it's good.

got blasted by the idea of gojyo and hakkai starting an orphanage when they're done with the mission. hakkai was a teacher and still models himself as a "childcare professional"/co-parent to goku and gojyo wants to save somebody So Badly. also good luck resocializing goku to not be killing people/fighting for his life every other day for Two Entire Formative Teenage Years, helping kids and not having it backfire spectacularly in his face would be good for him

i just read the fourth volume so that's most of what i've got on my mind, i know i have More thoughts from the other volumes

besides the fact that sanzo's joints are gonna/have gotta be So Fucked Up. he really is a grandpa. poor guy.

feels good to nail some characterization aspects like genjyo "i'm a coldhearted bastard and you'd better stay out of my way" (developed coping mechanisms to deal with the traumatic loss of a parent and people repeatedly Attacking Him at an early age) sanzo, cho "yes i'm the wife/mother, please excuse these skeletons, the cleaver is only for special occasions" hakkai, sha "i'm the only one here who understands how to be a normal person" (he does not but he does have the highest emotional intelligence) gojyo, and son "i'm a teenager" (he's a teenager, also growing up with the aforementioned trio as parental/familial figures and starting to come into his own!!) goku

not a single one of these men has had a normal relationship or even prolonged interaction with a woman

i had no idea there was a whole brainwashing segment with kougaiji?? and i really want to see more of lirin, there are fun parallels there to explore that i really wanna dig into

i had no idea to what level sanzo was a bastard gremlin with a gun who just Happens to also be the highest of high priests before and now that i do it delights me. the very hypocrisy of his acceptance in his position disgusts him because He Is Not Priest Material but also it's what his dad wanted for him so fuck everybody who tries to take that from him. in any other situation he'd be the shady penniless vagabond gun for hire but koumyou happened. and now we all get to enjoy it.

[saiyanmazen]

If you ask Vegeta, he was never traumatized by what happened in his childhood and adolescents. And he is certainly not haunted by the millions, even billions, of people he has killed.

Bulma, of course, knows better. She shares a bed with him.

But then Vegeta goes to Future Trunks' timeline and he sees where the last of the humans are hiding from the destruction of their planet. There are children and injured people, each and every one of them fearing that today will be their last day alive.

And all Vegeta can think of is his former self bursting into the room and disposing of every person in there without hesitation, without any regard for the lives he ends, without ever considering the concept of remorse. He had done so an uncountable amount of times in the past, quickly finding the hideout of the remaining population and blasting them into oblivion. Innocent people who just wanted a chance to live.

It's only then that he realizes the true scope of what he'd done.

When everything with Zamasu and Goku Black is over, he goes home. And in the night, in the safety of their bedroom, he finally lets himself feel remorse in the comforting arms of his wife.

[galexibrain]

Goku: *runs into a wall* "Damn, this wall is too strong for me! I'll go home to train and then I can smash it to bits!"

Vegeta: *runs into a wall* "This wall insulted me personally. I will keep bashing my head against it until it accepts that I'm stronger and crumbles. What's a traumatic brain injury?"