#traumatize Kanata more i guess

[ecargmura]

Paradox Live The Animation Episode 11 Review - Illusions

WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON??? HOLY HECK???? My mind is blown right now. This was an intense episode of Paradox Live. I can’t believe all that happened. Hold on, I need time to process everything.

Okay, so I’ve been theorizing who Shura and the Ramen Guy where since they look like the same person. I had theorized Shura, the one on stage was an illusion and Mr. Ramen dude was the real deal and I got it right. It turns out that Yasha is also an illusion; Buraikan, in general, look how they did ten years ago. I do wonder what their purpose is. Having Buraikan show up as how they did ten years ago was definitely a set up for the four current groups to compete with each other. What is their goal? To destroy everyone? To harvest their phantometals and create illusions out of them? Is the villain’s plan to make illusions out of everyone equivalent of cloning?

Mr. Ramen Guy is alone and the real Yasha is nowhere to be seen. I’m assuming he’s trying to instill revenge onto Alter Trigger by messing with the Paradox Live finale? Judging from the opening narration intro, the real Yasha died ten years ago due to phantometal overusage—and it happened on stage too. Is the real Shura going to be the surprise hero of this bad scenario right now?

Regarding cozmez, I did theorize a lot of things about Nayuta back in episode 7. One of them was speculating Nayuta being a phantometal illusion Kanata created after witnessing and knowing he had died. Guess what happened in this episode? That theory came true. Damn, so Kanata basically rapped with an imaginary version of his brother all this time. No wonder he seemed so robotic and out of it at times. It also makes sense why the current Nayuta didn’t recognize Shiki because he was an illusion; Kanata didn’t know about Shiki, so the Nayuta that was wandering about was formed from what he believed to be his brother.

Poor Kanata. Poor, poor Kanata. He needs a hug, badly. His trap reaction is remembering his brother’s death which is so traumatic that it’s causing him to go berserk with the corrosion. Stop being mean to Kanata! The boy already went through a lot; stop adding more trauma on to his resume. It hurts when your favorite character is going through trauma. Though, I do feel as if Buraikan was targeting Kanata specifically, or was it just coincidence since he won the extra stage by default?

What is up with Ryu, though? He looks possessed, muttering about how Buraikan and Nayuta were ghosts and such. He does have this weird split personality that occurs occasionally. Maybe that is the reason why he’s acting weird. Given he’s the only one who cannot experience trap reactions, I do wonder if he will play a factor into solving this situation—if he’s willing to, that is.

The BAE scenes were nice. Seeing Hajun cheering up Allen was so sweet. I really liked Hajun’s reaction too; he was all like “Your music kills people? Yeah, it’s true. It happened to me once.” His bluntness is charming in a way. I have a huge soft spot for scenes where someone shields someone from the rain with an umbrella. The scene where Allen was singing in English felt super romantic too. Oh, speaking of which, I was always amazed with Allen’s English pronunciation and I recently learned that his voice actor Gakuto Kajiwara had lived in Singapore in the past, hence his surprisingly good English skills; here’s a video I found on Twitter that has him speaking English. Since Allen wanted Hajun to open up before, Hajun was returning the favor and he did it two times better. Given that BAE was at Razzle Dazzle and not Paradox Live, I do feel as if they will be the key to saving the day. I hope they team up with Mr. Ramen Guy.

Since next episode is the finale, what will happen? I expect the biggest, super special awesome rap showdown between the fake Buraikan and BAE. This is a rapping show, after all; rapping is always the solution here. I’m so nervous about what’s going to happen to Kanata. Let him be happy, please. What are your thoughts on this episode?

[dazais-guardian-angel]

just gonna say it, Tales of Crestoria is criminally underrated, and I’m tired of no one talking about it with how absolutely amazing the story is

[pissfizz]

uhhhhh abridged version of what i know of the war arc bc i do not know all of it like it is a lot

ok so its starts of before the war era which is like, the year before the events of enstars1, most of the students at the school are lazy and dont do much for their units because they expect to get jobs just because they come from that school but it doesn't end up working. so eichi makes a plan to socially execute 3 of the top students in order to motivate the rest of them and asks tsumugi for help with finding another two to balance it out. the five students are rei, kanata, shu, wataru, and natsume and they got the nickname the "5 Eccentrics". so basically eichi created his own unit with tsumugi and two other people and used that unit to take down kanata, shu, and wataru, rei had been traveling a bunch so he basically wore down himself and natsume was the youngest so the other 4 eccentrics basically shielded him from the whole thing and everytime i remember that if makes me want to cry

also these events basically traumatized more than half the school including like all of knights minus tsukasa because he wasnt at yumenosaki yet

also the 5 eccentrics are a found family by shared trauma and they animated part of the war stories in the anime and there's this one scene where natsume tries to write them a happy end and wataru refuses it and says that he treasured that time with them and hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. they drive me crazy, like, wataru kanata and rei especially

shit this got long again

Holy shit that’s so fucked up i— I mean I guess I can see the reasoning but what the FUCK did they do to literally TRAUMATIZE them what did those kids do to deserve that oh my god I’m sure eichi and tsumugi didn’t mean to cause so much damage but like. Holy shit

[ask-strawhat-nami-blog]

Question Meme

///Yo I was tagged by both @askmonsterpiece and @askhummingbirdhanako so I’m gonna answer a bunch of stuff rn I guess. 

Rules:

Post the rules

Answer questions by person that tagged you.

Write 11 questions of your own.

Tag 11 people

Gonna slap this shit under a readmore cuz it’s long. 

askmonsterpiece questions first!

Why did you pick your muse? Well, I’ve been a big fan of OP for nearly a decade and have always related to Nami? That, and she’s cute and my gay ass draws her all the time anyway so might as well have a reason to lmfao.

Do you cosplay? Yes, who? No, do you want to? I do! I’ve been doing casual cosplays for a few years now. I have cosplayed Luffy (well, fem!Luffy), Nami (Enies Lobby arc outfit, featuring @ask-captain-usopp as Sogekingu), aaand Mirai from Kyokai no Kanata. I think I’m probably forgetting one or two cosplays but whatever lmfao... on a slightly more embarrassing note for a few years I used to co-run and work at an annual Maid Cafe event at my college, which is coincidentally how I met @ask-captain-usopp.

Do you like writing as well? Gimme the deets I love to write! I actually minored in writing for my Bachelors. I have plans for a novel buuuut so far all I’ve really done is write short stories and fanfiction lmfao (No One Piece fics yet though.)

If you could swap art styles w/someone who would it be? Oh man, I’m so not used to digital art, it would be rad to swap with @unlucky-marine for a while tho--like pls show me how you draw on your phone, my life would be so much easier Q u Q 

Can you cook/bake? I love to cook and bake! I don’t bake as much as I used to, mostly cooking these past few years. My favorite thing to cook right now is this chicken bacon spinach alfredo recipe I found a few months back--hmu if you want the recipe it’s super easy.

When was the last time you gave yourself a compliment for all the great work you do? I’m the type to regularly give myself a pat on the back for getting stuff done, so yesterday after I did like 3 loads of laundry.  

Do you have any pets? Yes!!!! I have an old man cat named Maximus and a beta named Shouto. Maxy is a shorthair maine coon mix, and Shouto is a red and white fantail. If you ask me for pics I will send you 1 billion.

Would you ever eat chocolate dipped oreos? I’ve tried them before, they’re a bit too much for me haha. 

What’s the dumbest lie you’ve ever told? Uuuuuh in middle school I convinced a small child that was annoying me that I could see what he was doing because all girls had eyes in the back of their head--he believed me. I traumatized a grade schooler that day.

Are you the type to make a funny face back when your friend makes a funny face at you? I am the master at ugly faces. I often make them for no reason what so ever.   

Do you prefer your hair long or short? I like my hair long, but I have chronic migraines and the weight makes it worse--I’ve settled with mid length.

askHummingbirdHanako questions!

What Hogwarts house would you put yourself in? I think the last time I took the sorting hat quiz I went to Hufflepuff, which is fine with me tbh.

Favorite One Piece arc so far (including filler arcs!)? Thriller Bark is my fave!!!! I’m a sucker for anything Halloween themed.

If you could dye your hair any color, what would you choose? I’ve been wanting to go pastel pink for a while, I have a few wigs of that color and they’re super cute.

Fruits or vegetables? Fruit me up bby

Do you collect figurines? If so how many do you have? I do... they’re all OP and they’re mostly various figures of Nami. 

If you could choose to have ANY Devil Fruit power, what one would you want and why? I would love to have Kanjuro’s fruit power--being able to draw things to life would be hilarious and I’d get into so much trouble

Saddest One Piece death to you so far? I mean, nothing can compare to Ace but to be honest I was really concerned that Bon Clay was dead for a while which I simply could not handle.

What would your ideal vacation be? Where at and what would you do? I’d like to go to Iceland or Ireland and just chill out with some nice scenery tbh.

Favorite season of the year? FALL!!!!!!!

What do you think of Halloween? Are you excited for it? BOI. BOOOOOOI. 

A song that fits your mood right now. ahahahaha lately I’ve just been listening to this

SO--I’m tagging....

(not 11 people because I’m lazy)

@ask-captain-usopp @ask-offduty-borsalino @ask-marine-mitsu and @unlucky-marine

(if you’ve already done this and/or don’t feel like it don’t worry!)

1. How old were you when you really got into One Piece?

2. What’s your favorite flavor of ice cream?

3. What’s your favorite smell?

4. Would you prefer to live in a rural area with lots of trees and few people, or an urban area with few trees and lots of people? 

5. Do you have any weird skills or talents? 

6. When you were a child what did you want to be when you grew up? 

7. Name one ridiculous feature your dream home would have.

8. What’s your favorite anime outside of One Piece?

9. Favorite Disney Movie and/or Miyazaki film?

10. Favorite One Piece outfit of all time? 

11. You’ve stumbled upon Franky’s magic money making machine, you now have infinite cash. What are the first 5 things you do?

[itsjayyyy]

September 23, 2018 8:44 pm

okay so today was p good-ish, I worked at my home venue. AND GUESS WHAT??? WE HAVE FIVE NEW COWORKERS. AT IOA STARBUCKS. whatever I changed my availability anyways, I decided to only work weekends this semester, and then moving forward I’ll try to do a mwf schedule and work tuesdays and thursdays. So this semester I really will live at home, but next semester!!!!! just wait on it!!!!!!

This lady at work today ordered a grande caramel macchiato with nine shots of espresso. I legitimately pray for her. 

So you know how I said I started rewatching kyoukai no kanata? well I finished it today. Ya gotta love animes and their 25-minute episodes, I’ve become so used to kdramas that are a full hour (and then some). God damn it was hard trying not to cry. I remember when I was a sophomore, I looked it up on tumblr after I finished it, and people were talking about how a sequel movie would come out in the next few months. When I looked it up now, the wiki said “came out december 2015″ and holy shit it’s legitimately 2018. I still haven’t seen the movie (and it wasn’t on crunchyroll). I wanted to see what I had to say about it in my sophomore year, so I pulled out my old physical journal from high school and skimmed through it, trying to see if I could find where I wrote about it. I had a vague idea of what I said, but I just couldn’t find the entry where I wrote it. As I was skimming, though, I did find several other snippets that I feel is pretty indicative of my family. Several times I say stuff like “i’m upset at rose because she keeps treating me like utter shit” and then a few days later I’ll say “i made up with rose because we live under the same roof and my parents are forcing me to spend time with her.” Wow. And now look at where we are today. In another entry at 5:30 pm, it goes “Mom is coming home soon. A lot has happened in” and then stops there. The next update comes two days later in the middle of a class in which I had no friends and no work to do, chem. It describes how mom and dad had a “disagreement” (nice sugar coating, teenage jay), and mom became super upset. The second day of her rage, she became violent, throwing plates and mugs. One of the mugs she broke was the one that I bought for myself. It was probably my favorite mug ever. I left my room to see it, became black-out angry, and screamed at her about ten times louder than she had screamed at dad. I had my tennis racket in my hand too, so she was probably a little scared. I left the house, walked almost out of the neighborhood before my dad came by in the car. Because of the violence, he was taking me and my sister to a hotel for the night. The entry goes on to say “the hotel had continental breakfast in the morning. The soap there smelled like jasmines.” 

Rereading this made me take a step back and realize how bad my family’s dynamics really are. I’ve become so accustomed to occasional violence that it almost became erased from my memory. Today I have three mugs hanging in the kitchen because of how that incident traumatized me (and it later became a point of conflict between me and iris, as she thought that me having so many meant I was collecting them, and she just kept buying me more, not realizing that I hated it). As I’m writing this now, I’m reminded of how, when I was probably no more than 6 years old, we had another incident of thrown plates in our old home. This time the cops were called. I stayed in my parent’s bedroom, I remember seeing the red and blue lights on the tiles of the half-bathroom that connected to the dining room. The next day, my babysitter swept up the plate shards with an old pizza box. My dad stayed in jail overnight, because my mom accused him of hitting her and they had to take him in for protection (he didn’t, and he was released the next day). I really can’t believe that all of these incidents were almost forgotten. This is why I write, I can’t allow myself to forget. My family loves to downplay these events, not talk about them and just act like they never happened, and that’s why, I think, I’m so obsessed with apologies and closure. Because it feels like gaslighting without it. There was a time when I was at steak and shake with my sisters, and a server dropped a mug and it shattered, and I started crying, barely knowing why. 

This is why I keep talking about moving out. Hell, I need to remember why this blog was even created, because of violence that left me homeless for weeks. I won’t let myself forget. I just need to survive through this semester, save as much money as I can, then move out. My credit score just went up to 712, so I’m good in that department. GOD, if only I could ask rose how she found sublets so easily. 

Tonight (yeah, I procrastinated) I still need to finish chapter 8 of sociology, then the two comments on the discussion board. I wonder who richard commented (will comment?) on. If it’s me, can I take that as a sign of flirting?