#transparent + black pen just feels too final lol

[technicolorxsn]

i dont normally post sketches but idk im in A Mood tonight so ig i will

[birdie-ghost]

Okay first of all...your artstyle is AMAZING and the story elements and details are great! But lord the angst is SO good, dude it's no joke giving my daily dose of angst lol. I do have a question...I really want to make my own comic on paper but have no idea on how to do the panels right, any tips??

YES!!!! The first collage course I did in comics and comic design I had to do on paper so i can absolutely help you!!

Use a ruler.

So whatever width you want your boarder to be around the frames, always mark it with a ruler (this is if you're going for a more clean look, but i would also suggest using a ruler for the baseline sketches on a messier panel)

Thumbnail!! Always thumbnail!! It's a good idea with comics to like, lay out the foundation before you start to sketch the actual drawing and go all in, because you wanna see how it flows best. I'll show an example of the last 6 pages for It Runs in The Family (the FA comic)

And you can see that I changed some thigs but generally its helpful to go in with a plan, cus you don't want to have sketched out and ruled out all the panels on the actual one and then decide that it looks goofy and you want to change it, its a lot of work lol.

Use whatever pen you like, comic's don't have to look nice to do well. It's more about the story and how you emote lol!! Use the frames to your advantage too. Don't be afraid to go beyond the normal square and rectangle ones.

the way you do the boarders is really really important in expressing the urgency or the feel of the page. Don't be afraid to take and place the character outside of the boarder and coming into the gutter (the gutter is the space in-between frames on a comic)

I don't normally like using Onomatopoeias (fancy word for sound descriptors I just like saying haha) but they can really ad a lot to a frame, espessially if you're going for impact. ie WAM, SLAM, BOOM, etc

(these are some of my OCs)

You can colour comic pages you drew traditionally digitally.

One, you want to make sure your lines are clear and dark enough. So mess around with the contrast brightness and make sure there's no saturation when you take a photo of your page lol. Two, put it into your art program, I use CSP but I used to use sketchbook autodesk so I know at least that has the layer mode you're going to need.

You're going to need to take the Photo you put in and change the layer mode to "Linear burn"

Linear burn make's it so that the lighter the shade in your drawing, the less opaque it is So, that means you can use the lineart you did digitally, if you have it edited so that its basically black and your paper is almost white, works just as normal lineart

(now i'm pretty sure there's a way in CSP to take all of one colour and change it to a different one, which means you can take all of white and make it transparent but I am a big dumby and don't know how to do that)

And the final piece of advice I can give you is littarally just start drawing your comic if you want to. Because we all have to start somewhere. Don't go waiting to start it because you want "to be able to do it right" or "you're not good enough yet" because FOOL!! THERES NO RIGHT WAY TO DO IT AND YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH RIGHT NOW!!

It may not come naturally to you at first, but keep at it and you'll get there. Everything takes time. Have fun!!

[jannelle-o]

what are some of your traditional art supplies that you use/recommend the most?

Super sorry for the late response! ;A; Here's a list of the majority of traditional art supplies I use currently. I'll put a '✨' for ones I really enjoy working with/have been super helpful to have~ I’ll try to link to the specific supply, or something that’s close to what I have. c: Please don't feel pressured to buy a lot of what I use and feel free to do research on what will be best for your budget and the way you work. Also if there are  alternatives to what I list that will be more affordable to you and are great quality you should go for those. 

Pencils/Erasers

kneaded eraser ✨ [ great for lightly erasing the drawing to prepare for ink/watercolor ] / stick eraser / block eraser  / electric eraser ( + refills )

Koh-I-Noor Technigraph Lead Holder ( + lead refills + sharpener) - [ I usually use this for transferring drawings to the paper I’m gonna use for the finished version ]

Zebra DelGuard 0.5 mm mechanical pencil ✨   

Uni Kuru Toga 0.5 mm mechanical pencil

Pilot Color Eno 0.7mm mechanical pencils - (all colors except yellow, I don’t use that one much)

Faber Castell 9000 Pencils

pencil sharpener ( manual + electric ) ✨

Ink/Pens

Deleter Black 4 Manga Ink  ✨ - [ It is waterproof once it dries, so it’s great to use with watercolors. Also just enjoy how it looks overall ] 

Dr. Ph. Martin’s Black Star India Ink Matte ✨ - [ Also waterproof once it dries, and enjoy how it looks too ]

Daler Rowney FW Acrylic Ink ( Black )

Dr. Ph. Martin’s Bleed Proof White ✨

Uni Signo Gel Pen Broad ( White )

Raphael Kolinsky Sable Pointed Round size 3 ✨ - [ Primary inking tool, I really like brush inking haha ]

Sakura Pigma Micron Pens 

Pentel Pocket Brush Pen

Pentel Pigment Ink Brush Pens ( Black + Light Black )

Kuretake Bimoji Brush Pens

Zebra Disposable Brush Pen ( Fine )

container for water - [ Mainly to clean off ink from inking brush haha Any container can work though ]

Watercolor

Denise Soden’s Earth Friendly Da Vinci Watercolor palette ✨

Da Vinci watercolor trios ✨

M. Graham watercolor sets ( Shades of Summer + Pacific Northwest ) ✨

Daniel Smith Secondary trio set ✨

QoR High Chroma set ✨

Holbein Watercolor set  

Utrecht watercolors

Sennelier watercolors ✨

Daniel Smith Watercolor Ground ( Transparent + Titanium White )

Strathmore Ready Cut Watercolor Paper Cold Press ( 5 x 7 in. ) ✨ - [ I like the size of this and have fun painting on this paper, also have used this for October drawing challenges haha ]

Arches Watercolor Block ( Cold Press + Rough ) ✨ - [ Also have lots of fun painting on this paper, tend to cut these down to variable sizes ]

Fabriano Artistico Hot Press Watercolor Block 

Silver Black Velvet brushes ✨ 

Princeton Aqua Elite synthetic brushes ✨ 

Pentel Water Brushes

M. Graham Gouache ( Titanium White ) ✨

Winsor & Newton Designer’s Gouache

watercolor palettes ( x, x ) 

mixing palettes ( x, x, x )

brush wash/water basin - [ You could honestly use any containers to hold your water, but it’s best to have two separate containers of water - one for cleaning your brushes and one for clean water ]

Miscellaneous

micro perforated sketchbooks ✨ - [ Usually use these for working on a refined drawing to then transfer to the final paper ]

sketchbooks ✨ - [ For brainstorming ideas and some doodling, though I should do more of doodling in my sketchbook haha ;v; ]

Strathmore Bristol Pads ( Smooth + Vellum )

Uni Posca Paint Markers ✨

triangles 

rulers

brush cleaner ✨ 

light box/pad ✨ - [ For transferring drawing from sketchbook paper to the final paper ]

paper cutter

cutting mat

art knife 

drawing board 

tabletop easel

artist tape

Hopefully this is helpful for you, and sorry if I missed some things I use. I’ll try to add them when I can remember. And sorry this got long lol @w@;

[writing-the-end]

LoL Chapter 37- Queen Bee

Masterpost

A Wizard Hermits tale (AU, designs, ideas belongs to @theguardiansofredland)

Tradition meets change when the hermits arrive in Fielville, and meet with the Elder Council Queen, one of the few people who understands the Hangman’s Playground

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“Go wash up, Grian. It’s against tradition to enter court looking like you just rolled in a patch of mud.�� Mumbo states, rocking on the balls of his feet as they stand before the hexagonal building. He flicks a patch of grass from Grian’s shoulder, which strikes Iskall in the eye. The good one, at least. 

“It’s not my fault the wind suddenly picked up when I was trying to land.” Grian laughs as Iskall stumbles back. He turns to xB, spreading mudstained arms and wings wide. “Hey, can you clean me off?” 

The kipling’s eyes light up, and he cracks his knuckles. “With pleasure, my dude.” 

xB’s circle appears, followed by a rush of water over Grian’s body. Like someone dropped an entire tub of water on his head. His feathers ruffle and splash the nearby hermits, who voice their displeasure, but the stains disappear from his skin, wings, and clothes. 

Except now he’s wet. Mumbo and Stress groan and clasp their heads. They’re about to meet the elder of Fielville, one of the last few towns that still have an elder council. And of course Grian had to be.... Well, Grian now of all times. The rural village orphan, playing in dirt as they enter this tradition filled hall. 

The scorpion guards stand at attention, waiting for the crew of hermits to stop their bickering. Impulse blasts Grian with a heat explosion, fixing the wet problem but creating a whole new issue. Now Grian’s hair is blown back in a thousand different directions, and his clothes pressed in odd angles. 

Honeycomb shaped doors open, guards bowing with tails arched over their backs- stingers dripping with venom as they point towards the hermits. Down the cavernous nest, insectia crawl up the wall from floor to floor, flying and walking. Town square one level up, the marketplace in another wing of the hive. But the ground floor was where the queen ruled. Following the guidance of mantis advisors, they wander down until they reach the rise in combs. Standing atop was the queen bee.

Literally. A bee insectia stands at the podium, antennae swiveling with curiosity. A mantis clambers up and whispers in her ears, while the hermits attempt to bow and curtsy to their best ability, following all protocols and tradition they can muster up. The bee flutters her wings, peering over the podium. “You wish to know about the Hangman’s Playground? What for?”

TFC steps up, as the leader of the guild it’s tradition for him. “Queen Erlea, we… We believe something dangerous is being hidden in those woods. We are the only ones who have any understanding for this mission, we’re the only ones who can go in search.”

The queen’s transparent wings flutter, her hums sounding more like a buzz. Black and yellow locks of hair fall over ebony eyes. “Yes, that dangerous thing is the whole forest. Nothing is more dangerous than the Forest of Memories, and none of you are ready. I can sense it in each and every one of you.” 

“But we’re ready!” Grian shouts, and the entire hive fills with gasps, including from Mumbo and Stress. Speaking out of line isn’t tradition. Shouting is not tradition. 

“I am reluctant to tell such an ill prepared, unadvised, incapable guild about the Forest of Memories. No one should go wandering in there- perhaps whatever this danger is should be left within the Forest. You will hear nothing from me, and by my order none shall enter.” Queen Erlea juts her chin out, dismissing them as she seats herself beside the podium.

Tango isn’t about to go that easily. “We’re going in, whether we have this information or not!” 

His voice is backed up by Impulse and Zedaph. Mumbo feels as if he’s about to have a panic attack, eyes wide and alarmed. None of this is tradition, and the queen bee’s legs uncross beneath her long, honeycomb styled dress. He can’t tell the queen’s emotions through her eyes- dammit, why didn’t he study body language of insectia before?

Silence falls over the hive, the queen staring at the hermits. There’s a soft click of stingers surrounding them, as if the whole hive is ready to defend their queen. Defend their tradition. Until laughter falls over the blanket of quiet. 

The queen titters, before collapsing into a full chested guffaw. Pollen escapes from her long hair, dancing along the lace and puffs of her gown. “Finally! Finally, someone with enough gusto to talk back. Do you know how boring it’s been to never be spoken back to for so many years?” 

The clacking of stingers stops, and the hermits’ nervous laughter follows. Keralis notices an interesting looking beetle skittering down the hall, but is only halted by Xisuma and a firm grasp to his collar. Now’s not the time for a snack. Zedaph raises an eyebrow. “So… will you help us?” 

“Help you? After that show, I simply must! I will tell you all I know of the Forest of Memories. I have entered there many times, and my fellow Fielville peers are quite knowledgeable as well. If I do not know your answer, surely they shall.” 

Joe pulls out his pen, licking the tip and ready to jot down notes. “What is it about the Forest that is so dangerous? Is it monsters, traps? Magic? Magical traps with monsters?” 

“Nothing that you can fight. The Forest of Memories shall test you mentally and emotionally, it shall dredge up your worst fears and greatest pains, but only if you expose that side of yourself to it. Enter the forest with any negative thoughts, and it will destroy you.” 

“But if we enter with only positive thoughts, it’ll be easy?” Mumbo questions, biting his lip. Maybe he shouldn’t go on this mission. 

“Precisely. Lady Cielle, for example-” Queen Erlea reveals a book from her frocks, the very book that brought them to the ghost. “Her beloved Nellaime had just proposed to her before she entered the forest. She had nothing on her mind but her soon-to-be wife.” 

“So just go in thinking good thoughts, that’s not too bad, it’s like a kids play!” BDubs scoffs. How is it that bad if all it takes is thinking good things and saying ‘i believe’?

“Not so simple, bubble boy.” The queen titters. She sits down on the risen honeycomb, legs swinging from beneath her dress. “The forest is like a parasite, and it feeds on your emotions. Negative emotions are as sweet as honey to it. Even if you hide those feelings, it will draw them out, and use them against you. So you will have to go in prepared to face your darkest demons.” 

“I’m not even ready to face my lightest demons.” Keralis’s eyes are wide and terrified, no longer thinking of all the bugs around him. 

Queen Erlea nods. “It would be wise for you to supply yourselves.” She taps her finger against her chin, antennae flicking as she thinks. “Potions to ease your fears and hinder the effects of the Forest of Memories, as well as amulets and talisman to ward it off in the first place. They won’t stop attacks from the forest all together, but it will provide armor.” 

“No better place to gather magical supplies than Redland.” Etho raises an eyebrow, grinning beneath his mask.

“Will we be able to afford all those supplies?” Scar knows much about the magical capital of Lairyon. And he knows better than anyone how expensive the merchants will sell their goods. At least, his family did. Even then, as many potions and amulets as they’ll need will be a costly necessity. 

“We have money from the championship!” Grian remembers the chalice full of gold that they just abandoned in the guild hall. They were so focused on the revelation that Magistrate Dolios was the dark mage that they left the winning gold and trophy just sitting in the alcove of the guild tree. 

“As for the actual forest- the Hangman’s Playground is a thicket of brambles, thorns, poisonous plants and carnivorous flowers.” Erlea nods her head to False’s blade.”You will need an arsenal of diverse weapons- the Forest will learn and adapt against you. It is alive- it will fight back. Your magic will be useless compared to physical blades. So better start training.” 

TFC bows his head, gloved hand pressing at his heart. “Thank you, your majesty. This information could be lifesaving.” 

Erlea hums. “Thank me when your guild returns safe, sane, and alive.” 

The hermits all bow, and allow themselves to be guided back to the hexagonal doorway, back out into Fielville, among the druids and insectia beyond the beehive of a castle, townhall, marketplace- just about anything, built by the insectia people to protect against the elements. Especially rain. 

Before the scorpion guards can show them out, a voice calls across the hall. “And please… take care of that bastard. For me, a-and King Sor and Tris.” Down the hall, the Queen looks at them. “They are like sons to me.”

[sexkies]

WHAT DID I JUST WRITE

You were still working when you see the clock pointing at 10.

“Fuck!” you muttered as you rubbed your tired eyes. It was late and everybody already left, but there you were sitting behind your desk, glaring at your monitor trying to finish your job assignment. Why were you still there? Well, you could blame your crush Eun Jiwon for that. Earlier in the monthly meeting, your boss aka Eun fucking Jiwon, told everyone to level up your game for the upcoming game project. He asked whether any of you could accept additional work as his assistant. By assistant, he meant someone who works overtime with him including on weekends. Nobody answered his question since nobody wanted that of course. As tempting as being alone with him may sound, working overtime was just a big no no. 

Your game company was doing really fine till now anyway. Last year, GZONE, your company name, released LOVE 4 DEAD an online multiplayer zombie survival dating simulator. It quickly became a big hit among the gamer community and GZONE constantly being mentioned as one of the best new comer of game industry. So really there was no point of having anyone overworked.

To your surprise, Eun Jiwon suddenly pointed out about how close your house was with the company and how it was convenient for you. It was surprising because both of you didn’t actually talk a lot except for work related things. Upon hearing that, everyone perked up and suddenly praised you for the hard worker you were, how you never come late and always leave at last. Way to betray your own coworker. As a result, he pointed you as his assistant. Then there you were, on your sixth cup of coffee, still at work on Saturday night. Definitely not the Saturday’s date you were expecting.

You stole a glance at your boss’s office. Between the blinds, you saw Eun Jiwon staring at papers on his desk. You couldn’t help but notice his attractive figure and the dim light didn’t actually help either if any it just made him sexier. His black hair slicked to the back, dark eyes going back and fourth to his computer. Your eyes moved along his profile and stopped at his lips. Occasionally, he would open his mouth a little bit, tongue teasing you from time to time to lick his dry lips and sipped some coffee. This view alone stirred something in your guts and made you wet.

Your boss Eun Jiwon was 42 years old, married once and divorced. People at work, including you, always talk about how hot he was and how it didn't make sense a man in his 40s could still looked as good as he was. Some of your female coworkers even admitted to wear more exposed clothes to get his attention. You did it once, but it was proven to be futile since he didn’t show much interest in woman nor relationship. The last time you did it, he told you to change to something else. Don’t ever come to the office looking like that again. You gonna kill me like that. Wow, harsh. You were kinda upset about that so you stopped.

Some say it was because his trauma on marriage before that he became more careful. That was why you never really tried to make a move to him, because you were scared it would only annoy him. You were just falling in love alone hopelessly.

You were still staring at your boss when he bit his pen on the corner of his lips and suddenly turned his eyes on you. Only then you realized you were mouth agaped. Flustered, you turned your body facing your computer and spilled your coffee over your clothes.

“A C !” you jumped out from you seat.

“You alright?” you heard your boss asking you.

“Oh, yes I’m alright, sir. I just... spilled my coffee,” you answered.

“All over your shirt and pants.” He said while staring at the coffee stain.

Well that was embarrassing. First he catched you staring, second you spilled your coffee, and now he was staring at the coffee stain... on your clothes. You realized it now that your clothes were wet it slowly became transparent.

“Let’s call it a day.” He looked at the clock. “I think you ran out of focus now.”

You just nodded your head still embarrassed.

“Do you bring some spare?”

“Huh?”

“Spare clothes. Do you bring any? I have one if you want.”

“Oh... it’s alright sir, you don’t have to.”

“Oh, so you are comfortable in wet like that?” he asked you, corner of his lips twitched upward. “Not that I mind.”

His question catched you dumbfounded. You didn’t know why, but after your overdose of caffeine your spidey sense was active and it was sensing danger. “Um... I’ll fix myself in the restroom.”

You excused yourself to the restroom, but he stepped on your way and stopped you. You glanced up from your shoes and met his eyes. Wow, he looked tall from here, you never realized the height difference between the two of you.

“Wait here, I’ll give it to you.”

Jiwon went in to his office, quickly rummaged his bag and came out with a shirt and a pair of pants.

“Here.”

You stared at the clothes on his hands. Not sure whether to accept his kindness or not. The idea of wearing your own boss’s clothes never crossed your mind before. And by the look of it, it was clean but used.

“It’s clean, if that’s what you’re worrying about. Well... relatively.”

“Alright.”

You finally accepted it, since your clothes started to feel sticky and it smelled like coffee. Taking a bus in this state would be embarrassing and uncomfortable. You quickly went to restroom to change. You noticed how wet your panty were. Wow, fuck. I was just staring at him. What happen if he really fucks me? You noticed the smell emanated from his clothes and inhaled it deeply. It was a mix of cigs, cologne and a bit of alcohol.

“Oh, it smells... intoxicating.” You said while closing your eyes, mind wondering about his body.

After tidying yourself and calming yourself down, you came out from the restroom and found the lights in Jiwon’s office were already out. You figured out he already went home and you missed your chance to thank him. So you quickly packed your things and left the floor.

By the time you came out from the lift, you found Jiwon standing still near the corner of hallway with his back on the wall humming the twinkle twinkle little star. With his face facing the opposite way, you could clearly see his handsome side profile. Man, you can hurt someone with that sharp jawline. Perhaps because it was after work, you noticed his top botton undone revealing some of his skin. Something you couldn’t usually witness at work. It looked like he was waiting for someone tho. “A date perhaps? It’s Saturday night after all. I wonder if he’s dating someone from the company.”

“Oh, you done?” he asked while straightening his posture then walked closer to you. He bent his body next to you and took your bag. The familiar smell was coming back. His smell. Now closer, you could see his neck adorned with veins. You could even peeked inside his shirt finding his chest. You bit your lower lip holding back the urge to jump on him and kiss his whole existence. One fucking botton was enough to drive you crazy.

“You okay with my clothes?” He asked holding your gaze. You nodded coming back to reality. “Thank you.”

Jiwon put one of his hand on your back giving you a gentle push, made you shiver a bit. You unconsciously walked with him side by side to the exit door. When both of you stepped out, Jiwon’s black car already parked right outside the office.

“Come, I’ll give you a ride. Your house is not far anyway.” He said to you while opening the passenger’s door. “It’s already late. I can’t let you go home alone. It’s too dangerous.”

Perhaps you made a face, so he laughed. “It’s okay, I won’t bite.”

Well, he was right, it was late. You needed to wait at least 15 mins for the bus to come, so yeah why not, you could save some money this way. It was definitely not you making excuse to normalize spending time with your boss. Not just you were wearing your boss’s clothes, now you were sitting in your boss’s car. At this rate you wouldn’t even surprise if you woke up on his bed. Lol u wish.

His car was really him. Everything was black with a little red here and there and looked luxurious but not too much, it was cool and classy. You noticed some plastic containing KFC left over on dashboard and an ukulele in the backseat. Oh you didn’t know he played.

“You good? You are quiet.” His question brought you back.

“Oh, I’m just admiring your car, sir.”

“Yeah? Cool huh? Kinda messy tho haha.” As if on cue, Jiwon gathered the KFC left over in a plastic and put it somewhere you couldn’t see.

“It’s a nice car. I see an ukulele in the backseat. Do you play, sir?”

“Oh that? Yeah. I just learned it recently tho. Haven’t mastered it yet.” His eyes lighted up when you asked him about ukulele. “Anyway, just drop the sir. We’re off work now. Just speak casually with me.”

“Well, I... I’ll try my best, sir. I mean, um...yes... Jiwon.” Oh no you hated it. You hated it because just calling him by his name made you flustered. Get a grip you.

“That’s more like it. It makes us a bit closer.”

You choked on your own breath. You stole a glance to Jiwon only to find him moving closer to you, made your heart skipped a beat. Jiwon put his one hand on the door handle and another to the back of your seat, made sure you couldn’t escape. Now his presence looming over you. Fuck. Suddenly the temperature was rising. His face kept coming closer to you, eyes locked to yours, but you couldn’t turn away, no you didn’t want to turn away. Oh his smell. The mix of cigs, cologne and alcohol. It’s so intoxicating. Your heartbeat quickened, your body getting hot and you became dizzy so you closed your eyes. *Click* you swallowed hard as you could feel his breath was getting closer and hotter on your neck. Tickling.

But the kiss you were waiting for never came, so you opened your eyes again. Jiwon still facing you, just some inches apart, nose almost touching.

“Why did you close your eyes?” He smirked.

“No, I- I just-“ you couldn’t answer him. “I feel hot.”

“Why? The AC is on.”

“It...it doesn’t matter. What were you doing?”

“I was just putting your seat belt on.”

You looked at your seat belt. Oh he really put mine on.

“Were you expecting something?” he licked his lips teasing you.

You couldn’t answer him and just whimpering. He knows.

“I saw you staring at me back then. Did you like what you see?” he purred in low voice.

Jiwon started to caress your face. He played with your plump lips while licking his own.

“That wasn’t the first time. What were you thinking while staring at me? Did you think about fucking with me?”

“As for me.. “ He suddenly grabbed your neck roughly and put it beside his. “I definitely like what I see.” He whispered.

“You didn’t know did you? I was trying to hold myself back there, being alone with you at the office.” He slipped his hand in your shirt caressing your back unclipping your bra, sending a shiver down your spine while the other one stroking your thighs making it way upward unbottoning your pants. You could only holding to his shirt for dear life.

“My mind kept wondering how it feels to fuck you on my desk.” He finally kissed your neck leaving his marks while you tried hard to repress your moan.

“Or on my sofa?” His hands unbottoning your shirt and getting rid of your bra, revealing your breast.

“Or do you want me to spread you on meeting room?!” He bit your neck and a moan escaped from your lips.

“Oh..and then you spilled your coffee. Did you do that intentionally? Looking all wet in front of me?!” He kissed you down to your breast while his hand playing with the other one. Caressing and pinching them. You grasped for his hair, you didn’t even hide your moan anymore.

“You fucking turn me on. You wearing my clothes and shit!” Jiwon suddenly put his fingers in you, three at once ignoring your cry.

“Ahh! It hurts, sir! it hurts!”

“I said call me by my name!”

“Ji-Jiwon-ah! It hurts!”

“Ohh but do you want me to stop?” he smiled slyly knowing you wouldn’t say stop.

“No...ahhh.”

“You’re so fucking wet for me.” He chuckled darkly while kept pushing his finges in and out roughly.

“It makes me hard, fuck.” He grunted while biting his lower lip.

You closed your eyes out of ecstacy. “Ah Jiwon-ahh...please...”

“Please what? What are you begging for?” Jiwon pushed his fingers even faster now made it hard to breathe

“Please...ah fuck me, Jiwon-ah.”

Jiwon suddenly pulled out his fingers and moved back to his seat still facing you. He put up one of his leg on his seat, showing his clothed hard bulge. He licked his fingers one by one tasting your juice. He took out a pack of cigs from his pocket. Malboro gold touch written on the package. He pulled one out, lighted it up and put it on his lips.

“You still have a seat belt on.” He blew the smoke to you.

“Take it off then you can have this.” He pointed at his own dick teasing you.

“But once you take it off, there’s no turning back.” His smirk looked so sexy.

It didn’t take you long to decide. You were rushing so you found it hard to take the seat belt off. You jumped out of it instead and rushed to Jiwon now on your four. You unbottoned his pants to see his shaft sprung out to live. It was already hard and dripping with precum.

“Fuck.” Jiwon gasped when you touched his shaft. He was already sensitive that even a little touch could drive him crazy.

You rubbed it slowly and put it in your mouth, sucking every inch of it. From the tip to the base to the balls. Jiwon pushed your head deeper sometimes making you gag at the size. You heard Jiwon swearing from time to time and it only made you even wet. He would sucked on his cigs and hissed at you enjoying your tongue. Sometimes he dropped the ashes on your back, made you bend deeper and moan. You knew he was getting closer when he threw his head backward.

“Shit... shit... ah fuck...I’m... close....”

“Ah fuck!” Jiwon grasped, he held your head with his dick deep and finally released his cum inside your mouth. You gladly swallowed it.

Both of you were staring at each other and breathing erratically. That was it you thought. You made this man came. The man you had loved all this time. You didn’t expect that Jiwon would find you hot and actually got so aroused by you like this. The man that you thought was so unreachable. You were almost smiling until suddenly Jiwon put his hand on your neck choking you.

“You thought it was over? No, it’s not.” He smiled mischievously.

He finally kissed you hard, his hands both on your head trying to pull you closer. His breath reeked of cigs. His lips tasted like nothing you had ever tasted before, it was sweet and bitter. Oh, the lips I’ve been waiting for so long. You wrapped your hands behind his neck slowly down to his back leaving some subtle red scars. He bit your lips and sucked it again and again. His tongue asked for an entrance and you gladly offered it. Both of you exchanging saliva, sucking at each other’s tongue. Moans escaped between kisses.

“You taste like strawberry.�� He said while smiling.

He kissed your eyes, your cheeks, went along to kiss your ears and played with it a little.

“Ah..” you moaned softly. “Jiwon-ah...”

“Fuck, I can’t hold it back anymore.”

Hearing you calling his name drove him nuts. He ended the kiss abruptly and hastily put you on top of him. Didn’t even give you a chance to adjust, he slipped his shaft inside you making you scream.

“Ah, Jiwon-ah! Jiwon-ah!”

“Yeah scream like that, scream my name.” He was aroused with your screams.

You screamed his name even louder with each thrust. He kissed your lips to shut you up. He pushed and pulled you up and down against his shaft filling you up completely. He made you rode him like a fucking rodeo he was. His movement was rough and he kept swearing while pulling your hair as if it was a chanting to hold his cum. Your brain was a mess and you felt like you were being ripped from inside.

“You are so fucking tight. Fucking hot inside.” Jiwon thrust even faster now while biting your neck. You also moved your hips to match his pace. The sound of his dick clamping on your pussy made you hornier. You threw your head backward and turned into a moaning saga.

“Jiwon-ah, ah I’m near.”

“No, not that fast honey.” Jiwon grabbed your ass and carefully angled his dick and found your g spot.

“Ah there, Jiwon-ah, fuck me there, please.”

As if on cue, Jiwon fucked you even harder. His dick kept aiming the same right spot and it sent you straight to heaven. You couldn’t stay still and kept bending your body, unconsciously making his job easier. The whole car was shaking now.

“You are so fucking  beautiful.”

“Jiwon-ah, please let me come. I’m cumming. I’m cumming.” You cried losing your mind.

“Kiss me.” He pleaded to you as he started to lose his pace signaling that he was close too. He pushed deep inside you making sure his juice wouldn’t go wasted. Both of you moaned and came at the same time. Hot juice filling your inside dripping out from you pussy.

“Fucking hellahhh.”

You fell on top of Jiwon, head on his shoulder. Both of you panting.

“That was amazing.” Jiwon chuckled, he kissed your forehead softly. “It’s been a while since the last time I moved my hips so much.”

“It hurts...”

“You need to get used to it. That’s how we’ll play from now on.” He laughed lightly.

Now that you were calm down, both of you tidied up and went home for real. The car ride filled with lots of chat. You didn’t know Jiwon could be so talkative. He talked a lot when it came to music. He told you about his favorite miami bass so you told him how you listened to Plug in Baby by MUSE as lullaby at night. About his childhood dream to be an idol, about how he almost debuted with SECHSKIES but then quit after realizing he wouldn’t have enough time to play game as an idol. He told you about his ukulele, he made that in Hawaii.

“Maybe if I already mastered it, I’ll sing a song for you.”

I ain’t gonna write for a long time after this thank you no.

[szopenhauer]

If money was no object, would you change your wardrobe? I would add to my wardrobe more than change

How do you/did you get to school? walk, then by bus

Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do? yep

Is the idea of having a secret admirer creepy or romantic? creepy

What was the last song you sung out loud? https://youtu.be/wycjnCCgUes

Were you excited to learn to drive, or scared? worried that I’ll waste my money

When was the last time you felt incredibly tired? today

In your opinion, who doesn’t deserve to be famous? many people

Was it hard for you to get up this morning? not really

When was the last time you colored with crayons or colored pencils? few months ago

Do you feel comfortable talking about your disorders, if you have them? depends

Where did you go on your last field trip? not sure which was last

Do you think you make a good first impression? no

Do other people’s first impressions stick with you? might

Have you ever had to give up on someone? sure

Would you rather break up with someone, or them break up with you? them break up with me (not my decision) but usually it’s the other way around

Do you think it’s okay to like a cover more than an original? umm...

Are you calm in emergency situations? depends

Who are you most attached to? my dad

What do you depend on other people for? money mostly :(

What goes through your mind when someone breaks up with you? depends

Do you match your shoes with your outfit? sometimes, it’s not that I have enough shoes to do that lol

Do you feel more comfortable with a male or female doctor/nurse? female 

What was the last thing you bragged about? not sure what was last

What’s the ugliest thing on your wall? umm...

Who’s your favorite philosopher? Schopenhauer because of all the memes

Do you think Freud was out of his mind? well I prefer Jung

Einstein? he was cool

Who’s your favorite painter/artist? I like many 

What day is it? Friday

Are you wearing anything blue?  nah

Do you know anyone named Graham? just bread :P

Are you sitting next to anyone? not currently

Do you dislike the last person you Facebook messaged? nope

Who’s the quietest of all your friends? K. always was 

Are you home alone right now? If so, where are the people you live with? my mom’s home, my dad is at work

Are you a chocoholic? noooo

Is there a song that reminds you of the person you love/like? Do you listen to that song often? one of them is t.a.t.u. - All the things she said

Do you listen to music while you fill out surveys? sometimes

In the past week, what song have you listened to the most often? not sure

While playing video games, do you prefer being first or second player? second 

How many people do you depend on? not many

How many people do you think depend on you? they could live without me

What is the worst color combination? brown and black?

Have you ever injured yourself walking around in the dark? yeah

What’s so scary about clowns, anyway? nothing to me and it’s annoying that they’re part of so many horrors

When was the last time you acted like someone you’re not? sigh...

How many hats do you own/wear? shitload

Do you ever receive comments on your weight? ppl are jealous of my weight so basically my illness :(

Is there anything that you do just to make other people happy? of course

What was the last thing that you wrote down [with a pen/pencil]? not sure what was last

Has anyone told you that you have a nice smile? my gf only

Are you uncomfortable with being photographed? yup

Do you like playing tic-tac-toe? I always win What about hangman? I played it couple of times Are you dangerously in love with someone? woah 

Are you cute or sexy? cute Is English your 1st language? it’s not Did you ever perform in front of your entire school? elementary - more than once Did your older sibling ever tell you freaky stories that you believed? one time she told me that school was flooded and there were fish and frogs and then I said that to my mom and she called me a liar and got mad even tho I explained to her it was my sister’s idea :(  Are you single and proud? you can be single and proud as well as be happy in a relationship too, I am in one now  Are you more happy when you’re with people or alone? 90% of time alone What do you think about guys shaving their legs? that’s their life Do you wear lipstick? nah Name something you lost or gave away that can never be replaced. I don’t wanna talk about it

What music album would be used for a movie about your life? soundtrack to my life would have to be a mix of songs from different bands/vocalists

Who was your first crush and what made them special? she was just adorable with her clumsiness and her perfect body and that face and voice and she was just a pretty cool friend to me and I wanted to take care of her so badly, she was the very first girl I ever had a crush on irl if not in general but she was hetero and she changed a lot (not in a good way in my opinion) Write about your first kiss. Was it everything you wished or hoped it would be? I... I never imagined my first kiss before it happened?...

Write about something you now know that you wish you knew earlier in life. How could this knowledge have helped you? blergh

Name one thing you feel brings out the good in people. there’s no such thing, it’s all about the person  If you invented a device that could fix one problem you are facing right now, would you use it? What problem would you like to solve? absolutely, my health issues Name something you found; what was it and where did you find it? I’ve found shitload of stuff but one thing was the most odd and that’s a taxidermy ferret shawl someone left on a bus stop - at first we thought with dad it must be alive but we came closer and realized someone lost their piece of cloth and we took it  Describe the longest amount of time you have ever been away from home. almost a month, I was in hospital Name a celebrity or famous person you wish would take you out on a date. - Have you ever seen a ghost? it seems, it was not just white but a little bluish, no legs and weird face - shaped like in a clay, mostly transparent, slightly glowing, it was in open doors of my room, I woke up with a weird feeling that someone’s watching me and I got really scared so I hidden under a blanket and didn’t look there again until morning, I was trying to convince myself it’s just a shirt that was hanged in the hall but mom said there wasn’t anything like that there at night, now I wish I could see that again hoping I would try to do something more brave about it, I kinda worry I was rude towards them whoever it was 

*btw my grandma said that after death some chemicals leave the body and fly like a fog through the cemetery if casket and grave aren’t blocking it too much Describe your note-taking style and habits. everywhere and usually not in line, can be even upside down, just random, different size, clue words etc. Do you believe that we are all here for a reason? What might the reason be? suffering to deserve heaven? Have you ever done something just to feel the danger, or to feel alive? I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real What are all your thoughts on god? overthinking... What did you learn today?  for example - that explaining things to people make me realize more than just thinking about something What 5 traits do people first notice when they meet you for the first time? ask them Have you ever carved your name or initials into a tree or stone? poor tree :( In what ways have you traveled? car, bus, train, bike, even a little bit by ship What historical events happened the year you were born? nothing interesting

Do you watch really old tv shows or movies from the 1970’s or earlier? sure

What would you do if you saw a complete stranger dealing drugs in public? nothing If you don’t have to be up by a certain time, do you like to sleep in as late as possible? no longer than 11 am What are you wearing at the moment? Is it for any particular reason? pajama because it’s past midnight and I should be asleep but I have to finally finish this survey then dry my hair and drink some water first Are either one of your parents retired?  my mom is and my dad will be soon Do you buy a lot of DVD’s, or do you tend to just watch everything online for free? watch online, I have no money for buying movies that I’ll watch less than 3 times Does everyone in your household own their own computer? nope

Are you a good gift giver? I try my best and been told that I am despite not being rich 

Do you know what XOXO stands for? hugs and kisses

What’s the first person who comes to your mind when you hear the word blue? me

Have you seen any of the Harry Potter movies? first ones

Do you like your significate others siblings? I don’t know her brother

Have you ever recieved a singing birthday card? omg I loved those and I wish I got one :(

Do you remember who your kindergarten/pre-school teacher was? I liked her so much I’ve been sending her cards on holidays years after

Were you ever a girl scout or a boy scout? never

Do you own anything made of lace? hmm...

How many people do you share a name with? I don’t know anyone with my name

Imagine your dream home, does it have a fence around it? if it’s not an apartment then of course it does, highest possible and thick as I don’t want to see or be seen by my neighbors

Do you own any yellow shoes? yep

Can you type fast? very

In school were you bullied? I was

Are you sarcastic? yeah

Do you read the newspaper? nah

If you died today where do you think you’d go? hell :(

Have you ever been to therapy? few times, didn’t help

Do you use online dating? did

Did you miss alot of school? I was sick often

What was the last thing you got falsely accused of? not sure what was last

What was the last thing you ordered online? shirt, I’m waiting for the package now

Have you ever been kicked out of a store? no :o

Do you feel like you accomplished anything today? hmm...

What is/was your favorite teen magazine? trzynastka or however this shit was called

Would other people describe you as creative? I guess

What color are your slippers? grey and white

Are you haunted by memories of stupid things you’ve said and done? constantly

Did you like high school or college better? didn’t go to college

Who was your favorite Olsen twin? I didn’t have a favorite 

Do you ever listen to Celtic music? used to, with John

Do you know a lot of rich and spoiled and selfish people? had classmates like this and neighbors too

Do you enjoy mornings? rarely, not really

Have you ever feared going to jail or thought about what it would be like? thought

Did you know that the zodiac signs (the regular ones) are Greek? ok

Have you ever learned about Greek mythology in school? didn’t like it

Do you stay up late? as you can see

what do you hear right now? nothing

what is one thing in your life you feel truly guilty for? personal

have you ever been slapped in the face? I’ve been slapped without any reason, I was bullied

how about punched? hit with a ball only and my head was hit with a bottle too once

have you ever come up with a memorable quote yourself? I’ve been quoted 

what do you think about masturbation? personal

What color did you first ever dye your hair?: either red or black

What’s the color of the bath towel you use most often?: green

Ever eaten a piece of dog or cat food out of curiosity?: ewww, nooo

Can you name one song by Prince?: Purple rain for example

Would you rather paint or make pottery?: paint

Are you currently taking this survey before or after 9pm?: after, I started over 5 hours ago...

Is the sun shining bright outside right now?: it’s the middle of the night!

Would you rather watch a horror movie or a romantic comedy?: romantic comedy ^^”

[journal-everyday-blog]

A6 PLANNER WALK THROUGH

I’m not really an A6 (or Personal Planner) person. I prefer A5 (or Large Planner) because I write a lot and I really have a thing on ‘spaces’ in all aspect. 

So why do I have this A6 Abook planner? 

Here’s a little history.

I miss my zipped planner/wallet: Filofax Pennybridge that I destashed last year and when I saw a zip Recollections planner on sale from the local planner group, I got tempted to try it. But the thing is, it’s not really my color (Pink) and the design is too girly for me, but the paper is really thick! It’s my kind of paper. So i still gave it a chance and use it as my Online Content Planner, since this year, I really want to be active online for planner related stuff. 

The OC in me hits, and I don’t want my zip planner to get dirty at the same time I want to use it everyday and not just plan on it every start of the week. I finally decided to sell the zip binder and leave the inserts with me. Of course I want to maintain this Online Content planner so I looked for a cheap binder. 

I came across this Abook brand from Aurora’s Box . At first I wanted to get the black on but it’s out of stock. I told my ‘hoarder-self’ that purple is still a good color and not prone to dirt so I ordered this.

When I get to see the binder in person, I fell in love with it easily. It’s so compact, and it can lay flat, just perfect when you are writing. The Recollections inserts are quite longer than the regular A6 insert size but still fit the holes of regular A6 binder. 

So for this compact binder, it looks like it has an overhang but actually the inserts are just really of the same height with it (because normally, there’s still space on the top & bottom of an A6 binder when you attached the inserts. This binder is quite smaller than the regular A6 size so it gives you a fake overhang feeling with you lay it flat and take a photo of it). 

I don’t mind it at all. 

Actually, this is the first time that I had a satisfying feeling on an A6 Planner. I’ve had Kikki.k Ocean before and Malden Ochre, all in A6 size and they did not last long with me. 

Okay that was a long history. 

Let’s get started:

So this is how I set up my A6 Planner. It has 3 pockets and a flap when you open it. I put my favorite stickers there: Keena Prints and Little Miss Helper stickers (click for links of their shops) and some random transparent stickers I got as a freebie before. 

I also have a zip lock insert to store more stickers & random card stocks. I don’t know, I just feel like putting stuff there.

2nd insert is a calendar divider made of pvc. It came with the Abook package but since it’s a 2016 calendar, I decided to repurpose it and stick my favorite breakfast themed sticky notes there. Got these sticky notes from Daiso in Nagoya Japan. 

3rd insert is another sticker sheet from my old Kikki.k Contrast planner. I don’t really use them, I just want it there because I feel more secured. LOL

So this is the look of my weekly spread. Inserts are undated so I had to put the dates manually. I use Kelly Purky clear stamps for the ‘To-do List’ check box. I also use the ‘Today’ divider that came with the Abook package even though it’s quite small to serve as ‘divider.’ It’s looks pretty to me so, it’s fine.

I use stickers, and washi tapes to design my spreads although for this planner, it’s mainly a ‘To-do List’ on everything that I need to accomplish online. So I can only do lettering & simple layout from time to time. This insert has pre designs, actually: those floral and aztec prints that you see. 

Skipping the whole year of inserts because they all look the same (Sorry no photo of the monthly dividers & the monthly spread since I don’t usually use it).

At the back I have a top loading transparent insert ( It also came with the Abook package) where I store my stickers.... again) 

That round stickers you see on the left are my favorite because the texture is like a washi tape. I got it from Seria in Nagoya and I hate my self from not getting a lot of it. UGH. 

And there you go, up to the last 2 slots at the back, I put stickers and sticky notes.Yes they are my favorite planner accessories (plus washi tapes- they are in my other planners).

There’s an elastic pen slot. I use felt tip pen in writing since I told you, the paper is very thick! There’s no ghosting or bleeding at all!!!. That’s a Sakura Micron 0.4 I got from Hey Kessy shop in UP Town Center.

Here’s the back photo :)

This is how thick my planner is :) 

And this is where I store my planners: on my desktop organizer <3

I hope you had fun reading my novel that was supposed to be my A6 Planner walk through. LOL

Until next time!