#transness is holy and in christ's image i think

[mysticalalleycat]

why do i think jesus was trans? well, i dont, actually, i dont think so at least?

but i watch my husband poke tenderly at my top surgery scars, wondrous, almost disbelieving, despite having seen them over and over, and i think of jesus feeling a hand probing his side, fingers curling in for proof, proof that this is real

but ive used enough t needles now to make my own halo of them, my own crown of thorns

but i think of birth, and death, and resurrection, and i think of how i had to die to be born again, that to save myself i had to kill the part of me, the parts of me, the me, that no longer served me, that never did

but when i woke up from surgery, sore and confused and lighter than i had ever felt, i knew more certainly than i knew anything else, that this was the first day of my life

maybe i do think jesus is trans, and even if he isnt, i know for a fact he knows what it means to have to abandon everything to live the life you were meant to