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How To Choose Best Elementary School For Your Child

If you thing about how to choose best elementary school for your child then think about Elite Montessori School.

[trashyglam]

White bitches who r too into Japanese culture piss me off-.- this one hoe I follow was talking about getting a tatami in her room n shit like that makes me mad cuz it’s literally my culture and i grew up w that shit being so embarrassed to bring people over bc we didnt have a real bed and I had to explain to ppl that we sleep on the floor.. snd then here comes some random white bitch like uwu ima get a tatami in my rOoM cuZ iTs aEsTheTic like no girl. I got made fun of for that shit Its not cute to use peoples cultures as an aesthetic esp when u have no real connection w the culture like it would be one thing if she was born n raised in japan but otherwise i see no good reason for her to be utilizing Japanese culture and aesthetic to what? Enhance her life? If she wants a life of privilege and enrichment she can just go out and do it with her white ass

[tsumukono]

🍫pic draw extra for this one shot, don't use it without premission thanks.

It's Top kita x bottom sugawara one shot rare paring i personly like very much. If ya don't just scroll away thanks🧡

Warning's 18+ adult, fluff, possissve kita, jelly kita, neko suga, kitsune kita. Omegaverse.

Last warning if ya don't like it scroll and turn arround.🍫

Sugawara koushi young neko omega had a free day in School and was correctly visiting his Boyfriend Alpha Kita in the inarizaki School, much to his Alpha displease.

First of instead being here and linger arround by him his little omega should study, he supports him on his wish to work as elemetary teacher in future, secondly his team, classmates as other alphas try get onto his omega try rub they scent on his and try over Power his claim, he had on his Love.

He might look stonic and looks like he don't care but deep down hiding he was growling, his inner alpha was displeased.

As he was, they were walking to the cafeteria to have some lunch, he even manage get to quite corner with suga.

Being gentlemen and alpha he shared his lunchbox even when suga sayed he would buy the curry here but kita new, it would be not spicy enough for him and there was no way he could spice it up here.

Even his grandma have now extra spice for his omega amused by kita's soon to be mate.

Giving bit more on siga's plate from his box, he was pleased seeing him eat and that it was his doing, they ate quitly and he was hoping the peace would hold on but fate wasen't on his side this day and The mya Twins sat down with Suna joining the two.

Earning cold look from they captian and try conctrade on the sweet omega that was with him the karasuno Setter.

Atsumu and Suna were getting onto kita's nerves, normal he would be calm but they spread they intressed on suga in they scent's try lurr the omega closer to them, luckly his omega was smart and scoop closer to him not them. He sighed pleased and his fox tail cruled arround suga's waist, scenting him lightly.

Of course there were eyes following the action with raised eyebrow,he ignored it pleased his omega chosed scoop closer to him as fully ignore they chatter and still flirt try's with suga who just was amused.

Contiune the day they keep close together even studied bit. Suga joined his pratice for they team but only promising kita stay on the bench for now, what he not saw coming was his hole team start begging the cute omega to set for them and being as nice and not able say no, he start his simple easy set's.

The white tail twitched annoyed and he clicked his tounge watching his omega setting for his team, mindless alpha's that try get the attetion of HiS omega.

He tryedlook blank but aran his best friend could even smell and see kita's anger raising up to his peak point and it was matter of time they calm captain would lose it.

Special the twins were haning on the poor omega brushing on prupose on the poor good heart suga just rub they scent on him.

He gave low growl the shirt was stinking of the twins and rest of the team,as much he loved them. He dont want any of they scents of his mate, the tipp of the iceberg was. When atsumu hugged suga and rubbed himself all over him.

Everyone froze hearing the deep loud growl of they captian, that even the hyper blond jump away from the omega. Everyone knew they overdid it now, they calm robotic like captian was showing his fangs, muscels tensed up and his angered scent was filling the gym. Stomping forward he grabbed sugas hand pressing him at his chest, his tail cruling arround the petit men's waist, rubbing his scent in him.

His growl deepend when he realised he could not scent suga's shirt with his scent. The called omega gave soft whine try sooth his alpha, who's eyes soften and he dragged him back to the chaning room further to a shoqer cabin.

Feeling they just the two of them he sighed kissing suga's forhead "you know how much i hate it when others touch you and they scent linger on you.."

Suga sighed and nuzzels his face under kita's chin giving soft purr knowing calms him down "i know, i am sorry...i should stopped and stayed on the bench" holding the his omega closer his nose scruched smelling the shirt and kita start ripping suga's shirt appart "k-kita stop i don't have a spare with me!" But his please and whines hit fir once on deaf ears and his shirt was in few minutes in shreds on the floor.

Again the alpha hold his omega scenting him and was this time pleased his scent lingered on him, crooning softly "...you know i am shirtless now"

Well aware of that and waggibg his soft qhite tail very lighty, the two toned haired men start kissing the neck lightly and sucked on suga's scent gland, tasting the sweet omega's wild flower scent he loved and that drive him so often crazy.

His hands glide down grab the nekos ass and press him closer to himself, biting on the gland so it realised more of the sweet scent making suga whimper slowy in need "kita, try calm down my sweet alpha"

Holding suga only closer he pressed they forheads together looking into omegas eyes "I am calm, just not happy how still bit scent's of other alphas are on you my kitten, sorry just though other alpha could snatch you away or you going to other better one, makes me feel angsty and scared to lose you and that's something i don't want to happend i found you and i am keeping you for myself, you make me feel things and flatter my heart kitten and just you" suga purred loudly and lift his hand to stroke gently as softly over the cheek from his lover "silly fox, i Love you so much there no reason to leave you. You the first and only alpha supporting my wish to work even means having family later, you help me in so many things. Why would i want leave someone who love support me for anything, you perfect for me. You keep me in ground even if i tease or be cheeky or get lost in distraction i can count on you keeping me geounded remeber my goals dreams and the special bond and Love we both have"

His eyes watered bit of suga's words and he put his bit larger hand on the more delicate one of his sweet boyfriend, he sighed crooning deep took the hand fully in his and kissed the inside of the hand and each fingertip "kitten, sorry for my behavior just Love you so much and to be honest as blunt i want claim you soon as possible ..your next heat when comes going lay my claim of course with protection but i want you only you as you have me my kitten..mine alone..really dont want share you" turing red suga smiled sweet soft at him "would be honored being your mate then and yes, but..we still have the problem you destroyed my shirt shinsuke, as much i love you...i need spare one to wear" kita gave harsh nip on the gland and kissed his way bit up of the throat from his beloved omega leaving another mark before he let go and get his jesery off and helped suga in crooning, since now he heavly smell like him and its not much that turns him on but seeing suga wearing his jesery or any clothes from him is turn on, seeing kita pleased but also seeing the look into his eyes he smiled sweetly at him poking his alpha's nose "i know qhat you thinking but" he stroked his soft fingers over kitas cheek gently and peek his lips turn his head quickly before his aloha could take control deepend the kiss "but what you have in mind we can do later in my apparment or your room at your home"

Stealing a kiss from his smart lover he crooned "mh sounds like a plan,best is by me. I have condom's, freshly buyed. Plus we can take afterward a nice relaxing bath, going clean you sparkles" shaking his head he hugged his fox "sure but more sure you try rub all scents off so i smell clean just your scent hang ob me" smilling softly down at suga he chuckels "yes, thats just bonus" they went back to the chaning room and kita grab his spare jesery both enter the gym again, suga sitting down on the bench. Feeling eyes on him he feeled bit uncomftable, clapping his hands kita got all attetion on him and contiune the pratice.

No ask question why suga wears kita's jesery but they could put one and one together plus how heavy they captian's scent was on he onega meant for everyone to back off and get lost, the twins whined bit but were happy for they captian he found someone tickeling smile out not of anger but being happy and they could see that the karasuno setter was making they beloved captian happy.

As kita keeped his promise, assoon they hit his room as his grandmother house. He made Love to his little omega kitten, they were in the bathtube sitting on kita's lap, the alpha was washing softly his hair loving to touch the wild mop of silver hair under his fingercups, suga had his eyes closed purring loudly loving each touch this soft stonic alpha gave him and there was nogthing he would change it for.

As soon kita was done, suga lean back onto his chest smilling "I love your aftercare, you allways loving caring make sure i am ok" crooning with pride he took sugas hand in his and interwine they together "of course i do, i love you and i cherish you and main is pleasing and taking care of you kitten" they went both silent enjoy the bath bit more before getting out and head to bed,cuddeld close and knowing they stay together not couse they omega or aloha but of that they love each other from the bottom of they heart.

[blrinjapan]

Akemashite Omedetou Gozaimasu!

New Years in Japan is an absolutely magical time of year, when the whole country shuts down and enters a period of reflection and celebration as one year ends and a new one begins. Businesses close, people travel to their hometowns to spend time with their parents and extended family, and family traditions bridge the Japanese culture of today back across the generations. 

On New Years Eve, the celebrations begin. Many Japanese families will stay up until midnight, eating New Years Soba (toshikoshi soba) and mikan oranges, while watching annual competition shows such as the Red and White Song Battle! (Kouhaku Uta Gassen) or the annual Punishment Game comedy show (batsu game). Shortly before midnight, however, the shows conclude, and NHK presents footage of shrines and temples all over Japan, waiting for the midnight ceremonies. At Buddhist temples, the large temple bell is rung 108 times, once for each of the worldly desires central to Buddhism. 

[pictured below: the inner courtyard of a Buddhist temple. A tree in the center is still showing the oranges and reds of autumn, and traditional Japanese buildings surround the tree.]

On New Years Day, families celebrate by eating traditional symbolic foods, much like they do in the rest of the world. In Virginia, for example, my family eats black eyed peas, collard greens, cornbread, and ham, and each item has a specific symbolism for the new year. Japan is much the same-- each item of the New Year’s Meal (Osechi Ryouri) is symbolic of things like longevity, luck, good relationships, and prosperity.  

The house is decorated with traditional plant decorations meant to bring good luck, harmony, and safety over the coming year. Often included are items like pine and bamboo (kadomatsu), straw ropes (shimenawa and shimekazari), and special sacred rice cakes (kagamimochi). These decorations are placed around the home, with rituals that define when and where they are placed, as well as when and how they are removed.

[pictured below: A small kagamimochi decoration, consisting of two stacked mochi rice cakes and a small figure of a cow on top symbolizing 2021, year of the ox]

Afterwards, usually on New Years Day (but often on the 2nd or 3rd of January), the traditional first shrine visit (hatsumode) is performed. These three days are some of the busiest days of the year for the Shinto Shrines in Japan, as visitors come to pray for the new year, return their old charms and amulets (omamori) from the prior year for disposal, and receive their fortunes for the oncoming year.

[pictured below: The entrance to a Shinto shrine. A torii gate stands in the center with snowy stone lanterns at its base, and snow-covered stone steps rising behind it, a bamboo forest on both sides. A family climbs the steps in the background.]

 For my own hatsumode visit, a Japanese friend and I went to Hanyu Gokoku Hachimangu in Oyabe. After climbing approximately eight million stairs, we went to the main shrine building, where I tossed a coin into the offering box and paid my respects to the kami. Then, we moved to the outdoor tents, where I purchased my omamori for 2021. Since my theme for the year is “belonging” (I want to focus on putting in the effort to make a home for myself in Japan), I chose a Sakura blossom charm that will attract good luck and happiness.

[pictured below: two examples of omamori amulets. The amulet on the left is made to look like a miniature pink backpack of the sort that Japanese elemetary school students carry, and is a charm for success in studies and safety in traffic. The amulet on the right is a bedazzled pink sakura blossom, and is a charm for good luck and happiness.]

After purchasing my omamori, I visited the omikuji tent to learn my fortune for 2021. Omikuji fortunes are available year-round, but are a very important New Years tradition, providing guidance for the year ahead. They are pre-printed and piled in a large box, where the recipient draws their fortune from the pile after droppng a donation into the coin box. 

[pictured below: an unopened omikuji fortune]

The contents of an omikuji, of course, cannot be determined before the fortune is opened. Generally, however, the overall fortunes range from extremely bad luck to extremely good luck, with at least twelve degrees of luckiness in between. In addition to your overall fortune, an omikuji will also include your luck pertaining to various categories of life, such as career, love, health, finances, major life events, babies, and more. 

[pictured below: An opened omikuji. This one includes, from left to right, a section of a traditional poem, overall advice, the main fortune (this one is ‘blessing’, which is so-so but not bad luck), then fortunes and advice for different categories of life.]

Once you have read your omikuji, the traditional next step is to tie the fortune at the shrine, to prevent your bad luck from following you home, and to leave your good luck in the hands of the gods. This particular shrine provided a bamboo sapling to tie omikuji onto, which will later be burned along with all of the attached omikuji, to burn away the bad luck and allow the visitors’ wishes to reach the gods. After tying up our omikuji, we headed out of the tent, and on to our next stop.

[pictured below: a branch of bamboo held up in a red stand, with folded omikuji tied in nearly every available spot.]

We were nearly ready to leave the shrine when I spotted a tent of street food. I am always, always down for almost anything if it is on a stick, so we bought ourselves an order of Mitarashi Dango-- grilled mochi balls slathered in soy sauce, and impaled on sticks. This traditional street food is very popular year-round, and was an excellent pick-me-up after climbing (and then descending) all of those steps!

[pictured below: a tray of Mitarashi dango]

Finally, we wrapped up hatsumode and headed home, the new year rituals complete. Now it is time for contemplation and preparation, before the world starts up again on Monday-- and my heated table (kotatsu) is calling my name.

[bohemianrhapsody86]

200 Things About Me (originally 200 Things You Can Put In My Ask)

I got this off of @rami-malek-trash - don’t know who the original poster was, sorry if it’s you. I’m bored and cramping and no one usually sends me asks anyway, so I’m just going to answer all of these myself 

200: My crush’s name is: Drew (Now boyfriend, but he was my middle school crush) 199: I was born in: 1986 198: I am really: cool 197: My cellphone company is: T-Mobile 196: My eye color is: green 195: My shoe size is: 9.5/10 194: My ring size is: 9/10 193: My height is: 5′6″ 192: I am allergic to: Nothing 191: My 1st car was: 2001 PT Cruiser 190: My 1st job was: Server at a local pizzeria 189: Last book you read: Startalk: Everything You Ever Need to Know About Space Travel, Sci-Fi, the Human Race, the Universe, and Beyond by Neil DeGrasse Tyson 188: My bed is: Not very comfortable. I need a new mattress, but I need a job first.  187: My pet: A siamese cat named Chico. 186: My best friend: Amanda  185: My favorite shampoo is: I like using Aussie 2-in-1, I also like using Shimmer Lights occasionally so I can keep my gray hairs nice and shiny.  184: Xbox or ps3: PS3 183: Piggy banks are: Cool. I have one that counts my change lol 182: In my pockets: Nothing because they hate putting usable pockets in women’s pants.  181: On my calendar: I marked where I started my period yesterday, and my boyfriends 32nd birthday is next Tuesday.  180: Marriage is: Something I want everyone to have the option for if they want it. 179: Spongebob can: use his imagination 178: My mom: is amazing! 177: The last three songs I bought were? Cool and Sucker by The Jonas Brothers, Don’t really buy many singles, just albums if I’m interested and their cheap.  176: Last YouTube video watched: Brooke Candy - Paper or Plastic 175: How many cousins do you have? Too many to remember 174: Do you have any siblings? Yes, an older brother and older half-sister. 173: Are your parents divorced? Yes, they divorced back in 1999 172: Are you taller than your mom? Yes. We used to be the same height, but gravity has taken a hold of her and squashed her down.  171: Do you play an instrument? I used to play the trombone in middle school, but that was 20 years ago. I’m sure if I ever got my hands on one again, I might remember a scale or two.  170: What did you do yesterday? Went around town job hunting and then bought a maxi dress at a local craft store.  [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight:Yes 168: Luck: Yes 167: Fate: Yes 166: Yourself: Sometimes 165: Aliens: Yes 164: Heaven: Yes and No 163: Hell: We live there now. 162: God: No 161: Horoscopes: Yes 160: Soul mates: Yes 159: Ghosts: Yes 158: Gay Marriage: Yes 157: War: No 156: Orbs: Yes/No 155: Magic: Yes [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: Kisses 153: Drunk or High: High  152: Phone or Online: Online 151: Red heads or Black haired: Black haired 150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunette 149: Hot or cold: Cold 148: Summer or winter: Winter 147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn 146: Chocolate or vanilla:Chocolate 145: Night or Day: Night 144: Oranges or Apples: Apples 143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly 142: McDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate 140: Mac or PC: PC 139: Flip flops or high heals: Flip Flops 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and Poor 137: Coke or Pepsi: Always been a Pepsi girl 136: Hillary or Obama: Obama 135: Burried or cremated: Cremated and turned into a tree or my ashes made into a vinyl 134: Singing or Dancing: Singing 133: Coach or Chanel: Neither 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Katherine McPhee 131: Small town or Big city: Small Town 130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller 128: Manicure or Pedicure: Mani 127: East Coast or West Coast: East Coast - never been to the West Coast 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Birthday because it sometimes falls on Thanksgiving.  125: Chocolate or Flowers: Chocolate 124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney 123: Yankees or Red Sox: Neither, Cubbies til the day I die.  [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: Pointless 121: George Bush: Better than the asshat in office now. 120: Gay Marriage: If I can get married to my boyfriend, the my friend Jerry should be able to get married to his boyfriend, Josh.  119: The presidential election: I hate that orange buffoon.  118: Abortion: I’m pro-choice.  117: MySpace: Always had trouble figuring out my Top 8 and what background I wanted to use.  116: Reality TV: Only thing I really watch are cooking competitions. Those are the only ones that matter. Not a fan of the Kardashians or the Bachelor/ette bullcrap.  115: Parents: My mom is amazing, my ‘dad’ was never really there.  114: Back stabbers: Asshats 113: Ebay: Hardly use it.  112: Facebook: Good to stay in touch with people you want to/some of the groups on there are awesome.  111: Work: Don’t have a job as of yet. *keeps fingers crossed I hear back from someone soon* 110: My Neighbors: Loud AF and nasty. I live in an apartment and the neighbors upstairs have so many kids and animals up there it’s ridiculous. I wish they’d leave.  109: Gas Prices: Ridiculous, but not as bad as I’ve seen it before.  108: Designer Clothes: Meh, not my style unless I find something in my size at Goodwill.  107: College: Been there, done that. Not really for me. Never graduated.  106: Sports: I like watching them, mainly baseball and basketball. The NFL can go fuck themselves.  105: My family: Love my blood relatives and my chosen family.  104: The future: It’s so bright, I gotta wear shades.  [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: last night when my boyfriend came over and brought me my phone charger.  102: Last time you ate: An hour ago. 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: At my bestie’s baby shower.  100: Cried in front of someone: Sometime last week 99: Went to a movie theater: When Endgame came out 98: Took a vacation: 2010 97: Swam in a pool: A few summers ago 96: Changed a diaper: 2007? 95: Got my nails done: 2007? 94: Went to a wedding: 1999 93: Broke a bone: Never *keeps fingers crossed* 92: Got a peircing: 2012? 91: Broke the law: I probably broke the speed limit yesterday at some point.  90: Texted: about 2am this morning.  [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: My bestie Amanda and boyfriend Drew 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my cat. 87: The last movie I saw: Ant-Man  86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: getting a job 85: The thing im not looking forward to: Interviewing for a job 84: People call me: loyal 83: The most difficult thing to do is: finding a job 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: Yep, 77 in a 55. 81: My zodiac sign is: Sun - Sagittarius, Moon - Leo

80: The first person i talked to today was: If you count texting my boyfriend at 2am, then him.  79: First time you had a crush: Sometime in Elemetary School.  78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: my mom 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: yesterday 76: Right now I am talking to: myself 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I have no clue 74: I have/will get a job: soon 73: Tomorrow: Never Comes 72: Today: Is the day 71: Next Summer: Not here 70: Next Weekend: I have no clue 69: I have these pets: 12 year old 17 lb cat named Striper.  68: The worst sound in the world: My cat hacking up a hairball.  67: The person that makes me cry the most is: myself 66: People that make you happy: my mom, brother, sister-in-law, boyfriend, best friend. 65: Last time I cried: sometime last week 64: My friends are: amazing 63: My computer is: pretty cool and loaded up with Sims stuff.  62: My School: I don’t go to school anymore.  61: My Car: gets me there.  60: I lose all respect for people who: disrespect me or my loved one.  59: The movie I cried at was: Endgame 58: Your hair color is: salt & pepper 57: TV shows you watch: Legends of Tomorrow, Worst Cooks in America, Any cooking show really.  56: Favorite web site: Tumblr 55: Your dream vacation: Somewhere away from my town 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when I had that ovarian cyst. 53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium 52: My room is: messy 51: My favorite celebrity is: too many to list  50: Where would you like to be: in bed 49: Do you want children: nope 48: Ever been in love: yes 47: Who’s your best friend: Amanda 46: More guy friends or girl friends: About the same.  45: One thing that makes you feel great is: music 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: my grandma 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: I don’t even have a 5 minute plan 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: Kinda, not really 41: Have you pre-named your children: Nope 40: Last person I got mad at: The Dump, but that’s a daily thing.  39: I would like to move to: out of the US 38: I wish I was a professional: crocheter/crafter [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: Butterfinger Cups 36: Vehicle: Don’t really have one 35: President: Barack Obama 34: State visited: Pennsylvania 33: Cellphone provider: Always been with T-Mobile 32: Athlete: Anthony Rizzo 31: Actor: Tom Hanks 30: Actress: Sandra Bullock 29: Singer: Freddie Mercury 28: Band: Queen 27: Clothing store: Lane Bryant 26: Grocery store: Aldi 25: TV show: Don’t really have one 24: Movie: Too many to count 23: Website: This black hole of a site 22: Animal: Cat 21: Theme park: Don’t really have one. I did enjoy Six Flags over Georgia when I went back in 2002. Dollywood is always fun but it’s been even longer than that since I’ve been there.  20: Holiday: Halloween 19: Sport to watch: Baseball 18: Sport to play: Nothing.  17: Magazine: Entertainment Weekly 16: Book: Harry Potter 15: Day of the week: Thursday 14: Beach: Virginia Beach 13: Concert attended: Jonas Brothers in VA Beach 12: Thing to cook: bacon 11: Food: bacon 10: Restaurant: Hmmm....don’t know that one.  9: Radio station: Classic Hits 102.7...hardly any commercials and they tell you the artist and song title after every song. 70s, 80s, and 90s songs.  8: Yankee candle scent: Don’t have one 7: Perfume: The scented oils from a local curiosity shop have some of my fave scents.  6: Flower: Iris 5: Color: Blue 4: Talk show host: Jimmy Fallon 3: Comedian: I’ve got several 2: Dog breed: Corgi 1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yes.    

[bespectacled-ghost]

For the 4:02 AM asks: 97, 82, 57, 2

hi thanks for asking!

97. Are you overly analytical?

if anything i’m under analytical lmao. my mom says i don’t pay attention to anything ever, which is only a slight exaggeration because for some reason i'm just incapable of noticing really obvious details about whatever situation i’m in, which tends to make me overlook important things and do dumb shit. i do enjoy analyzing stuff, like movie soudtracks and book characters, but i can never properly analyze something that actually matters, unfortunately.

82. Are you a deep person?

i wish i were. i think a lot about human life, its value and what sets it apart from other life, but i have no way of knowing if my thoughts are actually deep or if they would be interesting to other people. they get me thinking, so i guess they’re deep to me, but i don’t really think anyone else would find my wonderings anything special

57. Do you thinks humans are obsessed with escapism (books, video games, movies, etc.)? Are you looking for an escape? Do you think that’s a bad thing?

i think people have been escaping into fiction since forever, but i honestly can’t find anything wrong with it (and i’m catholic so i can find something wrong with everything). sometimes it’s just nice to pretend to be a knight exploring a magical forest for a few hours before going back to schoolwork, yk. something i’ve noticed is that whenever i get especially depressed i retreat back to the fiction i was into in like, elemetary school. lately what i’ve been escaping into has been the chronicles of narnia books, which i first read when i was like 7 and are also top tier escaping material; very detailed yet with a lot of room for fantasizing, highly recommend

2. Do you mourn for a place or person you’ve never known?  

i’m... not sure if i do. but when i see people on tumblr talk about their aimless longing and yearning and pining i can’t help thinking about humanity’s ongoing and often unconscious search for God. there’s just always going to be that one thing missing from our lives, i think, hence the yearning and mourning

now that i think about it, i actually have mourned for a place i can’t completely imagine, but maybe that’s part of the God-longing, idk

tysm for the asks and sorry for rambling, i hope i made at least a little sense

[ducksshits]

Thankful for the rest.

It still feels like I just turned out as a jobless person yesterday. I have been doing unproductive things lately. The past weeks have been about sleeping and not thinking about what to do in the future. It has been about “me” time.

I worked for almost two years and before that, I was a student. I don’t think I had the time to enjoy solitude as I am doing right now. For the last 10 years, I had been putting this ass into good use. Since high school, I have been working real hard to meet the expectations I set being the “intelligent” person that I claim to be.

I graduated Salutatorian in elementary. It was my playtime but I ended up being the second best among all the students in the old freaking school. It was just an easy go because I just had to do what I was usually doing. My parents did not believe that I am actually “smart” before and were comparing me to my cousins [both sides] in the province who were bringing a lot of medals in their homes. I don’t know if they were just unaware of the existence of science high schools, or they were just not so sure about my academic skills, my parents decided to enroll me in a local high school with science curriculum. I think they had a trauma about my sister not passing the said curriculum so they did not let me try applying for science high schools. [Do they think she’s better than me?] Although that was the case, I was admitted to the program that my eldest sister was not able to pass. I ended up being part of the science curriculum called Engineering and Science Program (ESEP) in Caloocan High School. 

The said school has two sets of students; students of the Basic Education Curriculum and the students of ESEP.

Family background:

I have two sisters. In my father’s side I have three cousins (siblings as well). We went to school by pair. My eldest sister and my eldest cousin were classmates in high school from first year to fourth year. My second sister and my second eldest cousin were classmates once in a while, at the very least, they were batchmates. And us the youngest were classmates until the fifth grade, of course batchmates as well. 

All of us are alumni of Caloocan High School but the five of them studied under BEC. I was the only one who tried to survive the ESEP.

My eldest cousin graduated salutatorian and my eldest sister ranked 10 in their batch. Even before entering high school, I had the thinking of surpassing them. So I really tried to be as competitive as I can be.

But being in the ESEP means having a set of competitive classmates as well. (All of us were students who graduated with honors from different schools).  Aside from that, the subjects were extra-challenging. Being in ESEP means, taking all the subjects in BEC and taking extra maths and sciences.

First year, we had Earth Science, General Science, and Elemetary Algebra. Second year, we had Biology, Research I, Intermediate Algebra, and Geometry. Third year, we had Basic Chemistry, Basic Physics, Biotechnology,  Advanced Algebra, Basic Statistics. Fourth year, we had Advanced Physics, Advanced Chemistry, Research II, Precalculus, and Basic Calculus.

With the extra subjects, ESEP students usually go home at 4 pm. (NAH, go out at 4 pm coz we can’t go home yet) 13-15 subjects a day, almost everything has homework or activities to do. Even if we go home early, that means doing homework until 10 pm (earliest) and waking up at 4:30 because the class starts at 6 am. Assigning the most competent teachers for the ESEP is the biggest pain in the ass. Imagine all the burden that all outputs that we should pass were of good quality not just in the sciences but also in the languages and the arts. Aside from these outputs, they were expecting us to do good in competitions in and outside the school.  At the age of 14, I already built the concept of “quitting”. But I did not, I ended up liking the grind that  I was experiencing. Thanks to ESEP, I grew up being geek and enjoying the pain of studying. To be honest with the daily training and the quality of education ESEP gave us, we have won contests despite of the short notice. (I remembered our math teacher calling the six best math students. We were surprised that we had to be sent in a private school (two teams, three members each team) for a math contest during the day and won the first and second places) The training I got from ESEP, despite not being able to graduate as an honor student, helped me become an “Iskolar ng Bayan”

My parents were  not actually assertive about future plans. They are not the type of people who would actually suggest what you should do in the future. I never heard them bring out college during high school days and I actually figured what to do with admission tests through my friends. They were not the type of parents who ask me to try all and then choose later.

Before we became fourth year students, my classmates were already cramming the application forms to different universities You can say that I was the most clueless. I was thinking that they were rushing things  for college, we haven’t even started the school year yet that time  (that was Brigada Eskwela before 4th year life). But they said the deadline was already coming for the University of the Philippines College Admission Test  (UPCAT) and I should also pass my application form. During that time, I was not so sure what to pursue so I was too lazy to fill out some forms. Two of my friends actually filled out the form for me. They even requested the necessary files I needed from the school’s registrar. If it was not free, I would not be bringing the filled-out forms to UP [BTW UPCAT is free for the top 10 students of a public school] Anyway, My friends wanted me to join their Saturday classes at a review center and explained that it was really hard to pass the test. Being a cheap kid I declined. Fourth year life started, it was hell as well. Students were really competitive because it was the time to reap the titles in graduation. They were also preparing for the upcoming admission tests.As a student who’s tired of them all, I was not able to prepare. The best preparation I did was bring my favorite snacks during UPCAT. The test was really hard and it was  really hopeless. Out of the 80,000 who took the test, 13,000 who passed UPCAT, I was one of the 3,000 students who can study in UP Diliman. I had secured a spot for college. Graduation happened, I was not able to graduate with honors but at least, I know where to go.

And then my UP life is a history.

Thinking about what I have done in life. For the last 10 years, I have never rested. I continually tire myself with life. Although I had  experienced few months of rest after graduating, I cannot actually consider it resting because I was submerged into insecurities about securing a job. Now that I had one, I just realized, everything is chasing after the wind. We have our own pace in chasing it. We have our entire life to achieve our goals. So I will make sure that I am breathing fine. It is not so bad to rest in chasing the wind because the wind always exists anyway.