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Me? Eating my feelings? It's more likely than you think.
#ive been going through it today bois#anxious and angry and sad and scared and happy and very hungry#pretty much all at the same time#im avoiding thinking about a lot of things and i know that's gonna hit me harder later because of it#had a difficult conversation with my gf today and its still going on#so i have to face that tomorrow#obviously we're a team and that's how we're approaching this issue#but it's still very difficult#i worked a 9.5 hour shift today without a break and on about four hours of sleep#it's been so fucking difficult#so do you know what i did the second i got home?#took out every single snack food i had and ate until i couldn't eat anymore#ive stopped beating myself up about this habit because it's been a stressful year and i need some way to cope#it's not the healthiest way to be but maybe when i don't have to fear death every time i walk out the door#or when i dont have to work my ass off all alone with no breaks for 9.5 hours#or when all of my personal relationships are in tip top shape#or when i dont have thoughts so upsetting that i cant force myself to face them#or when my car isnt a piece of shit or when my parents apologize and take me back or when the girl i lost loves me again#maybe when some of that happens I'll work on fixing my bad habits#but for now that's how im gonna deal and i wont beat myself up about it because that certainly wont help
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Hoseok Pregnancy! AU
Pairings: Hoseok x reader
Genre: Pregnant! y/n, fluff, smut
Words: 1.4k
Warnings: mention of body image, explicit sex
Summary:
As soon as Hoseok entered your shared home, you felt the warm comforting energy in the room as usual when he surrounded you. "Baby? I'm back and I brought you your favorite ice cream!" You smiled softly and stroked your belly. It really got quite big, you were in your 5th month already and Hoseok couldn't be more excited to finally be a dad.
"Welcome back Hoseokie, we missed you a lot.", you smiled at him lovingly. He put down the groceries and hurried to you for a kiss. You chuckled when he pulled your shirt up to kiss your belly as well. "Hello baby, hello Noah." - "I'm sorry that I asked you to go shopping so late, we just reaaally needed this ice cream.", you smiled with big puppy eyes. "You're adorable, I can't believe I have you all to myself.", he grinned and kissed your head. "I'll prepare it for you, you can stay here."
You watched how he went out while humming a song and put the groceries away. Then he made you your bowl with your favorite ice cream with some chocolate syrup on top. This man really did everything he could to make this pregnancy easy for you and he never complained about it, not a single time.
Hoseok always massaged you, brought you snacks or prepared a bath for you, anything you needed and always with a soft smile on his lips. He told you he does it with pleasure, he just loved you so much that he enjoyed spoiling you and he was thankful that you carried his child under your heart.
It wasn't easy at first, you had a problematic start and just couldn't get pregnant, no matter what you did. It took months and months but Hoseok never gave up or seemed disappointed in you. He stayed positive and lifted your mood as well. Just as you were about to involve doctors, one of your regular pregnancy tests got positive and your little baby that you named already grew and grew.
You got up and walked to the kitchen, you just didn't want to be separated from your lovely husband anymore. "Baby? Why did you get up? Go back I'm coming in a bit.", he said without looking up from the ice cream bowl. "Don't tell me what to do.", you pouted. "I want to be with you, fuck the ice cream." Hoseok chuckled when he felt your arms wrapping around his waist and your head laying on his back. "I just want to take care of you."
"I know and I love you so much for that.", you said and kissed his back. He smiled to himself and turned around with your bowl. "I'm done baby let's go to bed now." You nodded and walked towards the bedroom, him following your steps. He sat down and gestured you to sit between his legs, which you always loved to do. That meant you'd get a massage and nice belly rubs while you got to eat. Hoseok kissed your head when you leaned on his chest and you sighed in enjoyment. "You're tense baby, I'll massage you.", he said and started with your neck and continued on your shoulders and your back. You hummed and ate your ice cream, this was pure heaven for you. He was so skilled with his hands, everyone told him he could easily become a masseur. "Oh yes it hurts there.", you whined when he touched the right spot. Hoseok massaged it a little longer and kissed your shoulder. "How was your day baby?"
"I missed you when you were at work, then I was happy when you came back, then I missed you when you were grocery shopping, now I am happy that you are back." He chuckled at your words, the most beautiful sound to you, and kissed your cheek. "I missed you two too baby.", he said softly into your ear and started to stroke your belly. "Ah I got so fat.", you said with a pout. You could hear the indignation in his voice when he answered you.
"Why would you think something like that? You're not fat, not at all baby. Your belly is growing because Noah is growing and you look more beautiful every day. You could gain 50 more pounds or lose 10 I don't care as long as you are happy and healthy, I'd always find you and your body incredibly gorgeous." For you Hoseok always found the right words to comfort you. "Thank you."
He continued to stroke your body and leave soft kisses on your neck. You closed your eyes and moaned softly when he sucked on a sensitive spot gently. "I love your kisses so much." - "I thought we can do a little more than just kissing.", he whispered into your ear and began to stroke your thigh. You smiled and turned around to sit on his lap. "Yeah? For example?"
"A little touching here and there, a little more moaning.", he said and left more wet kisses on your neck. "That sounds really good.", you answered and stroked his chest under his shirt before he pulled it over his head.
He helped you out of your own clothes as well and started cherishing every spot he could touch or kiss. "You're so beautiful", he whispered and massaged your sensitive breasts gently. You moaned softly, your hips starting to move against his uncontrollably.
"I need you Hoseok, please.", you whined and he pulled you in for a long passionate kiss. While your lips were playing with each other, he grabbed your ass and lifted you up, his dick on your entrance now.
You had no patience for his teasing so you sat down, both of you groaning in pleasure. It didn't take long until you started to hold onto his shoulders and rolled your hips. "God yes baby, just like that.", he praised you. "You're doing so good."
"It feels so good.", you whined and your fingers found their way into his hair to pull it. Hoseok watched how your body moved for him, how he disappeared into you again and again. You loved how much he craved you and that you knew he never looked at anyone like that, so you smiled. "Don't smile at me like that, you know it drives me crazy.", he groaned and you giggled, at least until he started thrusting up into you. You moaned louder and digged your nails into his shoulders. "Ohgod Hoseok!"
It felt like his hands were everywhere at the same time, your head got blurry from the pleasure and you moved faster. You needed more of him, you wished this moment could last forever. "You're so incredibly sexy, God I'm so lucky."
His praises always made you blush but you loved them, he never failed to show you how much he loved every single part of you and made you feel good in your own skin. He stroked your sides up and down, kneaded your ass and kissed your whole upper body until he started sucking on your nipples.
He knew that especially since you were pregnant, you were really sensitive and it drove you absolutely crazy. "A-ah Hoseok! I'm gonna cum soon if you do this.", you whined and moved your hips faster and faster. He groaned and you could feel his dick twitching inside of you. "Me too baby, you just feel so good God cum with me.", he said while looking into your eyes and sent you over the edge. Both of you moved more desperately until you came on each other, making out deeply while riding out each other's orgasms.
Hoseok stroked your hair and helped you to lay down, put a blanket over you and pulled you close into his arms. You could feel his lips kissing your forehead and heard a soft I love you before drifting away into a deep sleep.
The next morning you couldn't see Hoseok next to you, but you didn't get to stand up because he entered the room with a plate of food. "I made you breakfast.", he smiled and you shook your head. "You're so perfect. You treat me so well I don't deserve it." - "I'll always treat you like this baby, you deserve to be treated like a queen." You smiled at him lovingly and kissed his lips. "We love you Hoseokie." - "I love you two too."
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