#tomorrow by together | purrplegyuu

[purrplegyuu]

Let me tell you a lil secret. I have a bunch of dark ideas to write about (from the darkest to the lightest):

1. Biological reader’s brother Soobin x reader (i have like two different plots involving this partner)

2. Stepbro Beomgyu x reader step sis (also two in mind, one of them being Cold cuz i dont want to forget about my first tumblr work)

3. Professor Zhanghao x student reader (might not sound so dark, but the plot is, because on the beginning, reader is excited about having a relationship w him, but she falls out of love as time passes, and she decides to end the relationship, but Zhanghao doesn’t like it, so he starts treating reader so mean during classes. Ohohoh this one gots me so excited fr)

4. Classmate Soobin x classmate reader x classmate Beomgyu, but also procurer reader.

5. Half brother Junghwan x half sister reader

6. Girlfriend’s big brother —either— Haruto or Sunghoon x reader

7. Best friend Yeonjun x high reader

8. Mean dom Beomgyu x sub reader, soft dom Taehyun x sub reader (but both taehyun and reader do what beomgyu says cuz he’s the leader, and beomgyu just sees, never does)

9. Sister’s ex boyfriend Beomgyu x reader, dealer Yeonjun x low key addict reader, classmate Kai x reader (the darkest part about this one is the ‘dealer Yeonjun x addict reader, the rest is almost pure angst)

10. Jihoon older reader’s sister’s best friend x reader (this one is not dark at all just really angsty, but like the feeling might get dark at some point)

11. Perfect guy Hanbin x lier reader (put this on last one place because even if it’s kinda dark, I don’t want it to contain any kind of smut, so it makes it a lil lighter? Anyways, is not actually dark, but reader lies a lot to hanbin, and the lie end up drowning her so… yeah kind of)

LET ME KNOW GUYS WHAT DO YOU THINK! ALSO LET ME KNOW WHICH ONE’S YOU FAVORITE. LUV YALL🫶😘

I promise i will publish at least three of these, just lemmie take my time because i’m not pretty comfortable w my writing yet.

[purrplegyuu]

Omgggg can someone tell me if you think im virgin or not only based on my writtings?? Pls i need it so badT.T

about knowing when a smut author is/is not a virgin: is it bc of how realistic the sex being portrayed is? because to be honest, a part of the fun for me is like how unrealistic it is and in that same regard not all sex is made equal. like okay maybe this guy is a sex god and hes still impossibly hard for shits and giggles yknow? or conversely having mc press out a couple of orgasms, like 4+, in the span of one session is achievable for some but like WILD for me (not a virgin) LMAO

idk i feel like i mostly notice when authors are not virgins in the dialogue or actions not related to sex. like, theres small bits of thoughtfulness that just dont occur to a writer unless theyve experienced something similar.

anyways hope this doesnt come off as weird, but im like curious and want u to say more :33

hii nonnie!! it doesn’t come off as weird or rude at all, honestly id love to talk more ab it hehe

i definitely agree that one of the biggest appeals of smut and erotica is how unrealistic it is! it’s entertainment first and foremost, and you should always make smut hot, fun, and larger than life :] it’s not necessarily the realism… here’s some bullet points of my thoughts cos idk how else to make this concise and make sense lol

a lot of the time it’s when something is added to a fic that is so minute and unique… like reading it im like oh this guy Fucks cos it’s something you’d only really know about if you’ve had sex irl

like hp said earlier, dicks go soft in like lightspeed after cumming lol cockwarming after the guy came is almost impossible

squirt is basically pee. i feel like not enough people know this. also squirting isn’t just a cute lil tiny squirt like the name will make you think.. like it’s a lot of fluid you full on wet the bed

uh i can’t think of anything else rn

[purrplegyuu]

The best for both of us | Choi Beomgyu

Pairing: Writter!oc (named Seoli), animator!Beomgyu

Warnings: penetrative sex, oral (fem receiving), clitoris stimulation, unprotected sex, overstimulation, poor plot, gaslighting, non corresponded love, toxic Beomgyu, soft som Beomgyu, sub reader, lemmie know if im missing something.

Word count: 2,6k

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“We’ve already read your book and it’s amazing. We also saw the animations, and we all thought they are perfect for our style. However…” he stops talking.

“However, it’s too disturbing for anyone under fifteen” says his boss. The woman, the owner of the video games company, who wears an expensive suit that screams everywhere she’s a squared closed box. I don’t really know how she manages a video games company. “Which wouldn’t concern us if we didn’t want the money, but we need this project to be suitable for all ages”

“I talked about this before, I have already rejected various contracts because I’m not interested in any project in which my art is changed” I say.

“Well, as I already said before, we need this to be suitable for all ages”

I stand up, taking my documents from the table, and when I’m about to leave, Beomgyu takes my arm, forcing me to sit down.

“Well, why don’t we listen to their proposal?” He asks, looking at me with killing eyes, which I don’t really understand since he’s always been on my side when I rejected last projects for the same reason.

“Yeah, sure. We just thought it would be better if Kira’s enemy isn’t her mother but her father. This way, we can avoid some future problems with angry mothers” one of the workers points out in the presentation, the part where all of the changes appear. I frown, disgusted. “We can also make her boyfriend the good guy instead of just another enemy—you know, for the love scenes we need to create a fandom” A good boyfriend? In real life? I cannot help laughing sarcastically at this, to which Beomgyu hits me with his elbow on my arm. “And she might also change a little bit—see, this is Kira before, and this might be her after” the picture on the presentation shows the draw Beomgyu made with my instructions. I told him to use only black ink, and draw it very messy. I remember the day we decided that this art style was just perfect for my book. When I created Kira I was thinking of the worst part of the world, I even got inspired by my own life. She’s too thin because she had very poor eating habits, she’s tall, her hair is messy and greasy and the clothes she wears are made for someone bigger. Which makes a big contrast with the whole new character they made—this Kira is short, and has a big pair of round boobs, a tiny waist and big thighs; her hair is pretty and… she just seems like another video game girl character.

“We will skip her eating disorder, and she will not die at the end. There’s obviously more changes to do, but those are the most important ones”

Everyone looks at me while I try to do as much as I can in order to not explode there and then. I feel just so offended that I cannot even speak. Even if I open my mouth, nothing comes out.

I stand up, take my papers and get out of the office, not even worrying if Beomgyu tries to hold me once again.

After an hour or two of getting back home, I finally start to calm down. That’s exactly when Beomgyu enters home too.

“Fuck, you could have waited for me, you know?” He wasn’t mad, that’s just his usual behavior.

“Seoli, we need to talk” I do not turn around to face him, keeping up on reading the instructions of the new bedroom lamp I just bought. “Seoli” he takes my hand, forcing me to turn around. “Why do you keep rejecting any minor change in your books?”

I turn my eyes. “You should know that, Gyu. My books are all too personal. If I write something is because I feel it, and I don’t like it to be changed”

“Yeah, I understand that, but you cannot keep rejecting every opportunity you have” he sighs. “See, babe, I think this is the best company you’ve been contacted by, and if you want to succeed, you should sign with them”

I frown. “Why do you like this company that much? I’ve rejected thousands of companies before, and you always supported me”

“I’m just looking for the best for both of us. We’re twenty now, but soon, we’re gonna be thirty, and forty, and fifty; we need to make money for the future… this isn’t a big company—small enough for you to be important and ask for almost everything you want, but also big enough to succeed monetarily and as an artist. This is just what we need”

“I don’t care about the money, everything I care about is being loyal to myself. I won’t sell myself and my art to some shitty company. The things they said to me in that reunion were almost insulting! How the fuck am I supposed to be fine while seeing one of my deepest books being thrown away this bad and be happy with it because I MIGHT get two hundred dollars a month from now on?! Specially in this one book!… this is almost my own autobiography…” the last words were almost audible, very low in contrast with the rest of my screams. It hurts my heart as I said it.

I see some kind of compassion in my colleague’s eyes. We never talked too deeply about it, but I did tell him that most of my books have some kind of self insert somewhere, but never as important as this one.

He takes my body in his hands, hugging me so comfortably as one only time before—when I confessed to him, and he said sorry because he couldn’t correspond to me.

He moves apart without letting me go, and unexpectedly, takes the back of my neck and kisses me. He only touches my lips with his once, moving away just a little, and then kisses me deeper when I take the back of his neck also with my right hand and his shoulder with my left hand.

He’s gentle at first, only leaving some close mouthed kisses on my lips, until he notices I’m more eager, and then, he devours my mouth whole like it's the last thing he’s gonna do on earth.

His hands travel all over my body as he starts kissing the side of my neck, sucking on my skin, biting and then licking, to which I cannot do anything but hum in pleasure—he touches my back, caresses my waist and pushes the hem of my gray shirt up.

I squeeze his shoulder when he take off my shirt and starts kissing my clavicles, and scream of pleasure as he bites the bone.

While devouring my torax, he manages to take off my black bralette, and kisses all of the skin of my small breasts, making me wonder if he actually likes the curvy girls he shows me of it it’s always been nothing but a façade in order to no look like a pervert.

He takes my hand from the back of his neck, moving away from me, unbuttoning my low-rise jeans and lowering my panties, then guiding me to sit on the couch. I oblige, and soon he’s kissing my body again, my abdomen, my pelvis, my thighs—which he takes and puts them over his shoulders before looking at me, right in the eyes as if looking for consent, but keeps going without a second of thought.

I scream when I feel his muscle exploring all of my cunt without a warning.

“Gyu-“ I moan while tapping his back with the tip of my foot.

He notices I got more sensitive everytime he stimulates my clitoris with his tongue, so he decides to do precisely this while one of his fingers caresses my entrance. A second finger enters, and he starts scissoring as if measuring if something will be able to come in.

My hand found its way on Beomgyu’s fluffy hair, which I take strongly trying to move it apart but also trying to keep it as close as I can.

Once he positions himself on the perfect way to have me screaming his name once and again and again, he starts doing it nonstop, faster, and holding my body by my pelvic area so I don’t move too much. My whole body trembles from pleasure, and I feel the knot on my lower abdomen tightening so much I feel it’s about to break.

And within thirty seconds morr, my whole body spasms under his, while I scream nonesenses and cry his name. He keeps on licking my whole cunt, cleaning me from my orgasm, making me cry at the oversensitivity. I try to push his face away, however, my strength after an orgasm is always null.

He goes back to the same speed as earlier, to which I scream: “Too much, gyu!”, but he doesn’t stop. Instead, his pace becomes even faster, making my head spin as I unexpectedly orgasm once again, faster than the first time.

He caresses my pelvic bones, licking my juices from his face. He stands up and kisses my lips once again, letting me taste my own cum.

I hear his right hand unbuttoning his jeans while his left hand helps him hover over me. I hear his clothes fall to the ground, and then, his tip touches my left thigh. I move away from the kiss for a second, moaning as I mentally prepare myself for having sex after one and a half large years of not being active.

“I know it’s always been hard to go through changes, babe,” he mutters in between kisses. “but everything I’m doing is looking for the best for you. You’re really successful with your books, but you don’t know if it will ever change as you grow up” the contrast between his lovely words and his condescending voice tone, and his hand lifting one of my legs up to my ribs making me go crazy. “Besides, you can ask for any change you want, and as long as it doesn’t make the game too disturbing for kids under twelve years old, they will accept it” the tip of his cock touches my clitoris at first, and then, he explores my whole cunt, looking too casual in contrast with my high expression. “Seoli, I will always be by your side” and suddenly, that option didn’t seem like trash anymore.

With that, he puts the head of his cock inside my entrance, to which I scream squeezing his shoulder. He goes back to kiss my clavicles while going on until he bottoms out. Feeling his tip against my spongy point, the deepest part of my cunt, makes me forget about all of the doubts I have, and I already know that the second I wake up tomorrow, I will be calling the company and ask for them to meet again.

He doesn’t give me time to get used to his big size, and starts moving immediately after he bottoms out, at a savage pace that makes my head spin. The way he’s hitting my cervix strongly over and over again has me cumming after less than two or three minutes. He doesn’t stop there though, and doesn’t even slow down. The second orgasm comes after maybe five minutes more, much more intense and piercing. My legs tremble, and he chuckles while taking my other leg and lifting it up to my chest also, making his cock go even deeper.

He holds both my legs up with one hand while the other stimulates my clitoris in circular motion, nonstoping, without giving me time to recover.

I cum once again, and my whole body feels so tense I feel like I'm about to break.

“Gyu-yu, I can’t anymore” I cry, the tears spilling from the corner of my eyes as I take his shoulders, trying to move his body away from mine. “please”

“I know, sweet, but you’re gonna help me cum too, right? You’re not a selfish princess, right?” His face is not close to mine now, and my legs find their way on his shoulders while he prepares himself for fucking my cunt faster and stronger than before.

I squeeze the silk of the couch, while my tears run down my face and all over the couch, and I scream his name over and over. His pace becoming even more animalistic as I feel his cock twitch inside of my vagina, the heat inside of me making me feel like I’m about to be torn there and then. The feeling is so unbearable, but also addictive. At this point, I don’t even understand myself.

He cums inside of me with a guttural growl, and keeps fucking his cum in for some seconds before using his hand to try to put his cum in when it tries to escape. I cum on his fingers one last time, and he leaves a kiss on my forehead.

(…)

I fix my lanyard with my work ID on my neck, holding my drawing tablet and the handmade sketches I’ve made.

“Oh, see! There’s coffee over there!” Beomgyu says amazed.

“Every company has coffee for workers, Gyu”

He goes to get a cup while I look for the office. The boss asked me to meet her once I accepted working with her. I signed the contract a week ago after making her accept the clause of letting my opinion be the most important one over there.

“Oh, Seoli!” That voice… it’s just impossible to forget it. “Oh my god, I’m so excited to see you again! Ever since high school I knew you were gonna succeed, you’re so talented!”

We went to high school together, and after we graduated, we also went to the same college. She stuck to me since then, but I never liked her a lot. She wasn’t a bad person, I just didn’t match her energy. However, I did everything I could in order to separate her from me in college, right after I realized Beomgyu liked her. Beomgyu and I met at college—the three of us decided to study an art major—, and it took us only one semester to start living together as roommates, and two more months to start working together on the animation of my books. We left college so we could put all of our time on making money with the animations, and luckily, that was enough for Beomgyu to forget her. At least that was what I thought.

“Dami? Do you work here?” I ask.

“Kind of. My mother is the owner of this company, and she likes me to participate on all of the projects. We’re gonna be a team! Just like in college!” She says with a big smile. “Where’s Beomgyu, by the way?”

Everything makes sense suddenly, why did he get so excited when I received the invitation to this company, and why was he so eager for me to come, and why did he want me to stay here.

I turn around slowly, and as soon as I find him with a scared expression, I feel my eyes ache.

He fucked me so he could get a chance with the one girl he likes.

How dumb.

[purrplegyuu]

HI EVERYONE! I just wanted to discuss something. I started writting smut (in Spanish) when I was 12/13 years old, which had never been a big deal. People knew my age, and read my works still because they didn’t care. All I learned at that age was very basic, you know, the type of things you learn at school, the things your friends say, the things you see on movies. And I kept on getting knowledge as i was growing up. But once i started reading in tumblr, i saw people being mad at minors (around 16/17 year olds) for writing? Even HARASSING them, and sending people to report them (without a valid excuse, which is a fraudulent report) just because of their age. Which makes absolutely no sense because they’re not hurting anyone. I absolutely get it when writers block miniors because we’re all free to choose who we want to read us, and also get when people get mad at writers writing for minors, but why would we hate on minors doing just what they want?

I don’t really know if I’m actually open minded or just too chill, but I dont really care if there are minors on my blog. Sexuality is part of everyones life, minors also have sex, and trying to cover up this reality makes no sense. I do think they should be mature enough to understand that none of those works are real, they are pure fiction and it’s almost impossible to have sex the way it’s shown, but that’s something not only minors need to understand, but also EVERYONE else.

Let me know guys what do you think about this, I like arguing a little, but I would LOVE to see more people who think like me. (If you’re scared you might get cancelled, you can tell me everything through my dms or my requests, anonymously).

Anyways, loveee, byeee🫶🫶🫶😘😘😘

[purrplegyuu]

Happy happy bday to me 🥳😇 (im on my final exams so is not gonna be happy at all but anyways)

This is my last week of classes, so im planning on going back to writting by the last week of november, pls wait for it 🫶

(Watch some pics of my chihuahua btw, i think i havent showed him yet hehe)

[purrplegyuu]

Guyyyys im thinking a lot about piss kink, but not like drinking piss but… him pissing inside…

IM SO SORRY I SAW IT ON A HENTAI AND IM GOING CRAZY AFTER THAT.

I just cannot think about a plot to add this to, like im shy so i can’t imagine my oc just asking for it nor she talking w her bf about it, bur i also wouldn’t like it to happen put of nowhere, yk? Like id like it to be on an incubus fanfic, but idk, help me

[purrplegyuu]

I need help looool

So i’m about to write a fanfic where reader and (idol) are kind of pornstars, and she’s in love with him while he’s in love with someone else. He’s supossed to be a little rude and cold, but also protective and possessive. The thing is i don’t know who suits them better the character T.T PLS HELP

[purrplegyuu]

Purrplegyuu's masterlist

Hiiiii! It’s Issa!

I’m latina, 2006 liner (i’m 18, so don’t you worry), multifandom but mostly hybe stan, I currently write for txt, zerobaseone, seventeen and treasure (althought i’ve only written about txt and treasure hehe), but i’m also thinking about writting for enhypen. My requests are open so feel free to ask, and don’t forget to like if you like and comment if you don’t.

This is a dark web yall, so if you don’t like smut, dub/noncon, incest, age gap and morally dark couples and plots, pls just don’t follow or leave any stupid comment.

Mutuals and anons

@atesic ; 🥶 anon ; 🪷 anon ; 🥝 anon ; 🦋 anon ; more to be added…

Anonnie’s art🫶

More than one group (whole)

- My favourite threesomes (every group on my masterlist + riize + stray kids)

Tomorrow by together

Choi Soobin - Nothing yet ;( Choi Yeonjun - Villain (one shot) Choi Beomgyu - Cold (index)

- The best for both of us (one shot) Kang Taehyun - Loving him was blue (one shot) Huening Kai - Nothing yet ;(

Treasure

Choi Hyunsuk - Nothing yet ;( Park Jihoon - Treasure members who like it rough (ft. Yoshi and Junghwan)

- Kinkiest member Kanemoto Yoshinori - Treasure members who like it rough (ft. Jihoon and Junghwan) Kim Junkyu - Nothing yet ;( Yoon Jaehyuk - Nothing yet ;(

Hamada Asahi - Nothing yet ;( Kim Doyoung - Nothing yet ;( Watanabe Haruto - Nothing yet ;( Park Jeongwoo - Nothing yet ;( So Junghwan - Barely adults (one shot)

- Kiss, marry and fuck (ft. 2005 line of zerobaseone and enhypen)

- Treasure members who like it rough (ft. Jihoon and Yoshi)

Zerobaseone

Sung Hanbin - Nothing yet ;( Kim Jiwoong - Nothing yet ;( Zhang Hao - Kinda soft thought? (It’s actually just the dream i had lol) Seok Mattew - Nothing yet ;(

Kim Taerae - Nothing yet ;( Shen Ricky - Nothing yet ;( Kim Gyuvin - Nothing yet ;( Park Gunwook - Hard thought (ft. Enhypen’s Niki)

- Kiss, marry and fuck (ft. 2005 line of treasure and enhypen) Han Yujin - Nothing yet ;(

Seventeen

Choi Seungcheol - Nothing yet ;( Yoon Jeonghan - Nothing yet ;( Hong Joshua - Nothing yet ;( Wen Junhui - Nothing yet ;( Kwon Soonyoung - Nothing yet ;( Jeon Wonwoo - Nothing yet ;( Park Jihoon - Nothing yet ;( Kim Seokmin - Nothing yet ;( Kim Mingyu - Nothing yet ;( Xu Minghao - Nothing yet ;( Boo Seungkwan - Nothing yet ;( Hansol Vernon - Nothing yet ;( Lee Chan - Nothing yet ;(

Enhypen

Yang Jungwon

- Nothing yet ;(

Lee Heeseung

- Nothing yet ;(

Park Jay

- Nothing yet ;(

Shim Jake

- Nothing yet ;(

Park Sunghoon

- Nothing yet ;(

Kim Sunoo

- Nothing yet ;(

Nishimura Riki

- Hard thought (ft. Zerobaseone’s Gunwook)

- Kiss, marry and fuck (ft. 2005 line of treasure and zerobaseone)

[purrplegyuu]

How do yall find porn links on twitter? Everything i find whenever i log in is gore 😭😭😭

[purrplegyuu]

So im rewatching The umbrella academy (again) since the last season was just released and omg i just discovered my type🫠🫠 so i like those cold and serios type of guys, the ones who doesn’t care about me a lot and say bad things about me and curse me, but whenever we talk seriously, he’s quiet but acertive and would never say he loves me even though he does. AND THAT TOTALLY MAKES SENSE BECAUSE ALL OF MY MALE CHARACTERS ARE LIKE THAT OMGGGGGG SORRY GUYS, I JUST HAD TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I’M GOING ABSOLUTELY CRAZY RN. ANYWAYS, LOVE, BYEEE!

[purrplegyuu]

Fuck her, love me is the title of a new ff im thinking about. It’s about best friends in love kinds, but so much darker. The main lead is supposed to be a fuck boy who’s always been in love with oc, while her likes him back. Both of them know that, but they are not together since oc is interested in something else than love. Not gonna say more abt it, but please help me choose who’s gonna be the main lead (i know i already did another post like this before, but i just have too many ideas, sorry 🫶)

(Jihoon is jihoon from treasure btw, just wanted to clear that out)

[purrplegyuu]

Omg thank you so much yall!! With all of this stuff i hadn’t even noticed i reached 200!!! I promise i will try to be a lil more active here hehe, LOVE YALL🫶🫶😘😘

[purrplegyuu]

For the ones who’ve been waitung for a new “Cold” chapter, I wanto you to know that i’m still alive, and I will be publishung the next chapter soon. The reason I’ve been two weeks not publishung is because i’m writting a one shot for Yeonjun right now, and it’s taking longer than I thought since I’m not an english native, but i’m getting to the good part omfg im so excited.

Anyways, i’ve been also thinking about posting some new stories for the rest of txt soon, so wait for them.

Oh, and I was thinking about starting to write some requests since i have like three anons who have requested but never really felt sure about doing it. Let me know what you think.

Luv yaa!!😘

[purrplegyuu]

Issa, i love the way you leave for a month or two and come back with the darkest fics and the angstiest smuts.

Keep doing it please, love it😘

-🥶anonnie

HAHAHAHAHAH IM LOVEBOMBING YALL

Thank you so much anonnie. I’m starting to realize you’re not that cold tho haha

[purrplegyuu]

Omgggg just reached 100 followers! Thank you so so so so much! 😘❤️

Gonna be posting something soon, wait for it pls

[purrplegyuu]

Villain | Choi Yeonjun (one shot)

Warnings: smut, destructive thoughts, slightly mommy issues 'cuz i have them lol, drunk sex, 'best friends to fuck buddies' kinda relationship, cheating, angsty, exhibitionism.

Word count: 2.2k

Ayeee, I've been writting this since some time ago. I put so much effort on it, so please appreciate it.

Also, I wanted to wish y'all a happy new year. I would like to know how's it going so far.

Oh and remember my requests are open currently, so make sure to send some requests. I'm working hard on the ones I already have.

Luv yaa!

Remembering everything I yelled at him last night, I cannot help feeling insanely humiliated. The way I confessed my feelings, the way my voice broke, the way I almost cried when he said he never really felt the same… I was his best friend at the beginning, and then, I became nothing but his whore. Why would I think it would ever change?

Yet, it hurts so bad. And sitting right in front of his girlfriend is still more heartbreaking. Especially knowing the fact that she’s the reason we’ve begun with this shit, especially not really regretting everything and, somehow, thanking her instead.

“Gyuri, Truth or dare” One of our friends says, the one who knew what Yeonjun thought about me all this time, Minwoo.

“Truth” She answers. And, looking closely at her smile, I totally understand the reason he preferred her over me. She’s pretty, she’s charmful, she’s nice… she’s not a broken girl like me.

“Have you already had sex with Yeonjun?” Everyone yells at the spicy question. She laughs nervously.

“No no, we haven’t” She says, but Eunhyuk laughs by her side, saying she’s lying. He’s also one of our friends, the one who threw tons of parties in order to make her drunk enough to lose her virginity with Yeonjun. He never invited me tho.

“They did! Guys, I saw them! It was on the trip to the Han river” Says the third of our friends, Hanbin, the one whose parents own a house on the Han river, and always promised to take me there. But he didn’t… never did.

“Oh my god I knew it, this is so exciting!” Says the last of our friends, Minkyu, the only one who knew what my feelings for Yeonjun was.

Thinking about it carefully… none of them where ever my friends. I was never even close to them, and the aura when I was around them was way different than when there was only Yeonjun.

 Why am I noticing it until now? Why do I notice how much of a bitch I’m until now? Why am I suddenly mad? Why do I hate her so much?

“Truth or dare” Minkyu says.

Everyone looks at me, awkwardly as I take my time to answer. 

I cannot help thinking about every time I thought they were also my friends, all the things I made for them, all the times I helped them. And also think about all the parties I was not invited to, all the friend reunions they made and I casually showed up without realizing I was not wanted there… Yeonjun was right with it? Did he try to do it also?

“Truth” I say. My voice sounds way lower than usual. I look directly into the floor as I let the alcohol of the first bottle of beer I’ve ever drunk in my life take control of the things I say, the things I do.

“Uh uh, I’d like to ask!” Gyuri’s friend asks. “Do you… like Yeunjun?” She always came up with these kinds of rude questions to me. Even when we were not playing truth or dare. I always answer even rudder, however, I’m not rational Sohee now, I’m drunk Sohee.

“Hanna!” Gyuri laughs at his question, hitting her shoulder, telling her to shut up in a jokingly voice tone.

I take one more bottle of beer, and drink it until everything left is the middle of the liquid. Everyone is looking at me surprised at my unusual behavior. They’ve always known me because of how closed minded I am. I hated alcohol. Everything I hate now is everyone at this party. Including me.

“That was… a… clear answer” Gyuri says awkwardly. I suddenly hate her voice even more. I suddenly have the urge to jump onto her neck and bite until her head and the rest of her body are not one only object.

I suddenly want to see her broken for the first time.

“I’m actually fucking Yeonjun” Everyone look at me, waiting for anything to happen, maybe even thinking I’m joking. “Well, I guess he’s the one fucking me, right?”I see her face, I see the awkward smile in her face slowly fading, looking around to see if someone can give her an answer about what am I saying. Minwoo, Hanbin, Eunhyuk and Minkyu look at me surprised. I smile like a psycho, and then I laugh even more when Minwoo tries to silence me. “And… and If you do not believe me yet, come and look through the window”

I stand up, running to Minwoo’s bedroom. The one where he’s at. I know him well enough to know that this is his favourite place here. 

I close the door right behind me, making him jump at my sudden presency.

“Sohee” The moment he looks at me makes me feel something I cannot really describe nor understand. I hate him so much because of everything he said, but I also love him so much. And the awkwardness would have made me back up and think about it carefully and regret. However, I was drunk as fuck.

I walk fastly towards him, until his chest is against mine. “I don’t want to talk anymore” He says.

“Neither I do” I say. “I just want you one more time”

“Are you drunk?” I ignore his question, trying to take his face and kiss him. But he stops me, taking my arms. “I don’t think you really want it, it’s going to hurt worst if we fuck now”

“I know what I want, Jjun. I want it, one last time. If you don’t fuck me tonight, I swear I’m going to regret it my whole life” We’re close enough to make it look suspicious for everyone, however, I want them to see. I want to see him hurted. I want him to cry almost the way I did last night.

“Please” I say, and that’s all he needs to take my body with his hands, pushing me against his chest and kissing my lips as deeply as he never did before. My arms go up to hug his neck strongly, wanting anything but to have him closer than it’s possible for the last time. 

His hands run all over my body, caressing my neck, my back, and taking my butt strongly. I hear him buffing some times, squeezing me so good between his arms I can even forget that I want to see him hurted, wanting him to be mine forever instead.

“I’m sorry” He says between every kiss he gives to my lips, Then he kisses my cheeks, he bites the bulb of my ear, licks a long stripe of my neck, and sucks  on my clavicle, taking the hem of the crop top I’m wearing, pushing it up until my chest is bare just for him.

If I have to say one of the main reasons I’ve fallen for him, this would totally be the way he’s the only man I’ve had sex with who doesn’t dislike how small my breasts are. Everyone just touched my body, fucked my pussy and left, but Yeonjun kisses my nipples, bites them, sucks on them like he likes them. Makes me feel like I’m perfect, even though I know I’m not. 

I look around the room, somehow knowing it’s probably the last time I’m here. The memories of all the times I’ve been here almost makes me forget about Yeonjun’s hands working on lowering my oversized jeans.

Minwoo was I loss my virginity to. I didn’t ever really liked him, but I liked the way he made me feel. I was pretty for his eyes, I was funny to his ears, I was perfect for his hands. That’s what he used to say before he knew Sabrina, who he fucked one night on a party and never talked to her after that. It broke my heart, but I managed to act like I was okay because it would make me feel worse if he knew.

I fucked Hanbin one year after that on this same room. I didn’t actually wanted to also. However, I was starting to realise I liked Yeonjun, and I just wanted to be sure if that was right. It was. And I felt so dirty after that because Yeonjun himself saw everything through the weird window of Minwoo’s bedroom , the one I asked Minwoo once what was it for.

I didn’t talk to Yeonjun anymore this last year of high school because of how embarrassed I was. However, I found him again in college, and we became best friends.

Thinking about it, I can’t help feeling bad because of all of the memories in this room. I do am dirty.

I moan when I feel his fingers on my folds. He takes my jaw strongly, forcing me to look away from the empty window. When I look directly into her eyes, I notice it; I’m not mad. 

I don’t hate him. I can’t.

Why? Why do I hate her so much when she has never done anything wrong to me? 

The memory of my mother telling me that I’m a bad person, everything I’ve ever made is wrong… telling me I’m the villain of everybody’s story. 

And even realizing I’m who I am now because of Yeonjun, I still can’t hate him. 

He kisses me once again, and I feel his jeans falling to the floor beside mine. His hand taking my leg, lifting it until it’s hugging his waist. That's everything I need to realise I have fallen for him once again. 

It takes him not much to have his dick buried deep into my cunt. My hands take his arms so strongly I fear I might be hurting him. However, I’m too lost in the feelings to care about that. 

“Yeonjun” I murmur, lost enough to not notice what am I saying. “I’m sorry” My words don’t seem like they have a meaning, however, they do. 

I look at Hanbin walking through the window, looking at us and fake confusion. 

Yeonjun’s pushes on my cunt make me almost loss control. However, I manage to keep looking through the window as Minwoo and Eunhyuk do the same as Hanbin.

I feel this heat on my lower abdomen forming as this rut starts to tense.

Gyuri’s friend look at me surprised. She always thought I’m a whore. I don’t really care about her.

Yeonjun’s as close as me, I can tell because of the way his pace increases on speed and strength. 

Minkyu’s eyes do not even look at me. And I know for the way he acts that he doesn’t feel great being part of this. He’s never been the worst, but he’s not the good one either.

The way his hips hit mine is making me crazy. I can barely keep looking at the window, but I try to do it as much as I can because she’s the only reason I’m doing it. 

The moment Gyuri walks in, I can see her eyes watering instantly. There’s no illusions on her face anymore, and any kind of bright has faded from her face. And that’s everything I needed to cum. 

Yeonjun cums also, moaning lowly in my ear. 

And everything disappears for a second. It’s just me, enjoying the moment like I never really did before.

“Yeonjun?” Her broken voice brings me back to reality. 

Yeonjun jumps almost scared, putting his clothes back on, trying to explain everything they just saw wasn’t what they saw. 

I also put my clothes back on, looking at any other side of the room. 

“You don’t need to say nothing” I look at her. I notice she’s fighting the urge to cry. “She-” Her voice broken, her eyes tear, she pouts, and I don’t like it. 

“She already told everyone what have you both been doing all this time” Yeonjun looks at me. 

He can’t believe that. And I feel like he would never believe I did if my face didn’t tell him the truth. I know he would blame all of his friends before believe his own girlfriend it was me. But the way hundreds of tears are running down my face tells everything.

I suddenly regret it because I realise this is not what I wanted. 

I bitterly realise I have just broken him and her, but I have also broken me even more.

Mom was always right, and I’m not going to lie, I always knew it. No matter what I did, no matter how hard I tried to be better. I would always be the villain of everyone’s story.

Now they do have reasons to call me the villain.

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