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[toki-hates-wallbounces]

celeste mappers love naming their maps the weirdest shit don't they...

In truth, I've already gotten about a third of the way through this map as of writing this. I'm still going to be posting clips of it as if I was liveblogging though lol

[tokinanpa]

Finally worked up the courage to address why I vanished from this site for three months, so here we go...

The main reason why I felt the need to leave this blog was due to an impression that my usage of it was unhealthy, which I still agree with. After bottling up everything I wanted to say about my rapidly declining personal life for months, my emotions boiled over, and I did and said a bunch of really stupid things that I probably shouldn't have.

The purpose of social media is to make connections with other people. That's why I came here, and why I'm still here. And it turned out that that was really hard for me to do when I didn't feel like I was allowed to be emotionally honest, a feeling that was entirely self-inflicted.

I've considered deleting those old posts out of embarrassment, but I'm not going to. I think the more important thing is what I do next. So in order to recover a social dynamic that's even slightly healthy from this situation, I'm going to try to lean a bit more heavily on personal posts here. (I'm also going to make them be a bit less obvious attention-seeking, for what it's worth.)

If that isn't what you're here for, feel free to block the #vent and #personal tags. I won't care. I just feel the need to have a proper place to put my thoughts out, especially now that (for reasons I won't get into, but you can probably assume) I don't have a therapist anymore. I promise you (and myself) that I won't be upset if no one responds.

On a vaguely related side note, I'm also moving my Celeste-related posts over to a sideblog, @toki-hates-wallbounces. I think that having that separation of concerns will make this whole situation a bit more comfortable. I might make other sideblogs for my other interests, but I don't have any plans for that right now.

[toki-hates-wallbounces]

(map is Mauve)

reupload from my original blog to put something here for now.

speedtech

[toki-hates-wallbounces]

(map is The 2000's American Housing Crisis from Archie Collab)

first room!! this map is pretty fun :)

and yes I did notice that strawberry, but it's not part of the hardlist requirements and it was also really annoying so I didn't bother lol

[toki-hates-wallbounces]

(map is The 2000's American Housing Crisis from Archie Collab)

and THERE'S the difficulty spike. I am not at all surprised that this room took me an hour...

this is as far as I made it prior to getting back on tumblr, so I guess I better start playing it again lol

[toki-hates-wallbounces]

(map is The 2000's American Housing Crisis from Archie Collab)

this room thankfully didn't take too long for me, as you can see by the map timer at the top left (the bottom timer, top one is for the file)

this will not be the case going forward